RUNNING HEAD: SOCIOLOGICAL AUTOBIOGRAPHY SOCIOLOGICAL AUTOBIOGRAPHY Sociological Autobiography SOC&101 Green River College Winter 2019 Minjung Kim I have bled many times in my life. Sometimes I bled from accidents just like others, but many times, the bleeding was intended. For several years, I hurt myself intentionally. I was suicidal on some occasions. I cannot remember when I first started self-harming because living a life distressed me since I was very young. I was born in South Korea, and I grew up there until I was 13 years old. Even though I was Korean myself and spent my childhood there, I did not like living in Korea. When I think about Korea, the first thing that pops up in my head is an anguished memory of me getting bullied. My experience of getting bullied started when I was in 2nd grade in Elementary school. There was only one sole reason why the students bullied me: I was fat. To make this clear, I was not fat, but I was a little bit chubbier than others. However, the standard of beauty is extremely high in Korea, and I did not belong to the standard of desirable body shape. Therefore, nobody wanted me to be with them, and they either bullied me or avoided me. Having a fat body was a mark of disgrace for me. I was stigmatized in a way because of my “obesity”; people perceived me as devalued and discounted (Connor, 2014). The social institution, the school, which is supposed to help the students to get an education and to socialize, did not help me out of this disaster, but instead, the teachers neglected the fact and pretended they did not know. The intensity of bullying varied. They started out as calling my name incorrectly because they said calling my name would defile their tongues. They did not want to have any form of contact or touch with me, and if part of me touched part of them by accident, they would curse and yell at me because they would have a bad day; I became an expert in avoiding physical contact even in a little space. If they were playing games and they had to do a dare, then they would come up to me and punch me or make uncomfortable sexual jokes. They pretended I was not there when I was right in front of them and talking to them, they ripped my textbooks and notes when I went to the bathroom, they made a group chat that most students in the school were added just to send me a bunch of curse words and offending sexual texts, etc. I used to love running, but I do not run anymore because they would make fun of me when I run. In fact, I hate running now. I hate to show someone of me running. Bullying never stopped even I became a middle schooler. What hurt me the most was not all these actions from the ones who I did not even know. It was the fact that friends I trusted the most turned their backs on me. This bullying all started with my ex-best friend who was popular, and those few people who became my friends all left me and joined the others. They hurt me or ignored me just like the other on.

1. RUNNING HEAD: SOCIOLOGICAL AUTOBIOGRAPHY
SOCIOLOGICAL AUTOBIOGRAPHY
Sociological Autobiography
SOC&101
Green River College
Winter 2019
Minjung Kim
I have bled many times in my life. Sometimes I bled from
accidents just like others, but many times, the bleeding was
intended. For several years, I hurt myself intentionally. I was
suicidal on some occasions. I cannot remember when I first
started self-harming because living a life distressed me since I
was very young. I was born in South Korea, and I grew up there
until I was 13 years old. Even though I was Korean myself and
spent my childhood there, I did not like living in Korea. When I
think about Korea, the first thing that pops up in my head is an
anguished memory of me getting bullied.
My experience of getting bullied started when I was in 2nd
grade in Elementary school. There was only one sole reason
why the students bullied me: I was fat. To make this clear, I was
not fat, but I was a little bit chubbier than others. However, the

2. standard of beauty is extremely high in Korea, and I did not
belong to the standard of desirable body shape. Therefore,
nobody wanted me to be with them, and they either bullied me
or avoided me. Having a fat body was a mark of disgrace for
me. I was stigmatized in a way because of my “obesity”; people
perceived me as devalued and discounted (Connor, 2014). The
social institution, the school, which is supposed to help the
students to get an education and to socialize, did not help me
out of this disaster, but instead, the teachers neglected the fact
and pretended they did not know. The intensity of bullying
varied. They started out as calling my name incorrectly because
they said calling my name would defile their tongues. They did
not want to have any form of contact or touch with me, and if
part of me touched part of them by accident, they would curse
and yell at me because they would have a bad day; I became an
expert in avoiding physical contact even in a little space. If they
were playing games and they had to do a dare, then they would
come up to me and punch me or make uncomfortable sexual
jokes. They pretended I was not there when I was right in front
of them and talking to them, they ripped my textbooks and notes
when I went to the bathroom, they made a group chat that most
students in the school were added just to send me a bunch of
curse words and offending sexual texts, etc. I used to love
running, but I do not run anymore because they would make fun
of me when I run. In fact, I hate running now. I hate to show
someone of me running.
Bullying never stopped even I became a middle schooler. What
hurt me the most was not all these actions from the ones who I
did not even know. It was the fact that friends I trusted the most
turned their backs on me. This bullying all started with my ex-
best friend who was popular, and those few people who became
my friends all left me and joined the others. They hurt me or
ignored me just like the other ones after they heard about my
reputation. They did not want to have the stigma of being
outsider’s friend because it could make them outsiders too.
They wanted to fit into the rest of the others who were insiders

3. so they can make certain of their conformity (McLeod 2016).
From this social impact, I struggled with some illnesses. I
suffered from insomnia because of the fear inside my mind that
they will haunt me down while I am sleeping. They used to
make “jokes” of killing me. They also have told me to kill
myself a couple of times because I was not supposed to born in
the first place. Even though it was just simply a joke to them, I
felt like they were giving me a sign to kill myself. I was
literally forced to suicide according to their words. They killed
me inside, and the rotten me inside developed to be a mental
disorder. I struggled with depression for a while. I went to a
mental hospital regularly to get therapy and counseling.
However, all these efforts did not make my life any better. I
sought for the ways to relieve my stress and anxiety, and the
method I found was to cut my flesh. It did not make me feel
better in the long run, but it made me feel the pain that could
help me to forget my internal pain.
Still, self-harm was not a solution to this problem. As I
was turning 14, I stepped on the land of the United States. Both
my parent and I thought it will be best for me to leave the
country. As long as I stay in Korea, I knew that I would have to
face this kind of situation again; I would have to live in the
same area due to my parents’ job locations, and the rumors
would chase me. Because I was in a country where nobody
knows me, I worked on impression management very hard. All
the peer and group pressures back in my country made me act in
conformity to with their principals so that I can “fit in,” because
I am really scared to be rejected by the group (McLeod, 2016). I
wanted to be a person that satisfies the people. I lost 20 pounds,
which made me look skinny enough, and I always put a smile on
even though I was sad. I never expressed my thoughts and
opinions but always agreed to the others. Because nobody knew
me, and because the US had loose beauty standard compared to
Korea which made people less judgmental towards one’s out
appearance, I was able to fit in the social institutions quickly.
People liked me because I was smart, cute, and kind, which

4. matched their criteria of being a desirable person.
As time passed by, I realized I was in the position where it
was harder for me to show my true self and show my feelings,
because I was one of those nicest girls in the school, and I
wanted to stay that way. People I met were unlike the people I
met in Korea. Even though I gained weight and was even fatter
than the past, they still loved me as a friend. Nevertheless, I
was being fake to others of my emotions and opinions because I
was hugely worried about my looking glass self. In addition, I
found myself getting attached to the others and cannot stand on
my own. There was no sense of “I,” as in pride or shame,
without its correlative sense of you, or he, or they (Cooley,
1902). I cared too much about my looking glass self, or about
what others think of me, so I put aside all my feelings and
freedom like I was chained to people. I continued to cut my
thighs and arms with a cutter. Even though I was not bullied by
the people, there was an emptiness deep inside my heart.
Although I had friends, I felt like I had no one who I can trust
or talk about my real emotions. As the pain took control over
my body, my loneliness and emptiness kept increasing inside of
me. It never went away until I got to know about my friend who
was sharing common pains.
I have a friend who is cheerful and sprightly. But recently,
I saw her wearing short sleeves since the weather was getting
hotter, and I saw the scars that I could see on my body. I mostly
wear long sleeves to hide the scars, and if I were wearing short
sleeves, then I would cover my scars somehow. I had low self-
esteem, and exposing my scars meant the same as exposing my
dark sides, and my built looking glass self definitely did not
allow it. I was surprised that she did not intentionally hide it,
and I just had to talk to her about it. She was opened to talk to
me about it, and talking to her about my pain gave me a comfort
that I never felt before. I could not even talk to my parents
about hurting myself, but I was able to talk to her. We shared
our pains, and it was consoling that I could find someone who
has similar pain as me. Even though it was only her, not a group

5. of people, I felt like I belonged to some kind of group through
this conversation. It made me realize how it is like to be in-
group.
I was never opened to talk about my inside struggles to
anyone, but after the conversation with my friend and getting
her support, I would say I am more confident to reveal my true
self to the people who I love and care about. I always tried so
hard on impression management, conformity, and looking glass
self, but now, I can be just me, not fake me. Even though what I
went through was tough and not fun at all, I appreciate my
experiences. Because of this experience, I know the world a
little more, and I learned the way to deal with some social
issues. I got to know why norms exist, which is because of
conformity, and I realized how stigma can defeat the person and
can possibly ruin their lives. However, I also learned that the
sense of belonging can console people and help people to find
themselves in the right place in this society. I am getting a
tattoo soon to cover my scars on my wrist so that I can be
reminded what I have been through and what I am capable of
handling. I am no longer suicidal, and will not be, because I
know that some people are willing to listen to me and are
supporting me. Now I feel like I am a little more set free from
my inner struggles that are hidden inside my mind.
References
Connor, D. P. (2014). Stigma and Stigma Management. In C. J.
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RESEARCH PAPER
Name of the Student: Poornima Devi Potula
Name of the Instructor : Dr. Ben Ayed
Course Code: (ITS834-53)
Date : 05/26/2019
Deception Technology
Deception technology is a group of security apparatuses as well
as methods that are designed to avoid a hacker who has already
arrived in the network from doing destruction. The technology
uses traps to lead astray the hacker as well as delay or avoid
him from going deeper into the system and reaching his
proposed goal.
The purpose of deception technology is to avoid a cybercriminal
that has accomplished to penetrate a network from doing any
noteworthy damage. The tools work by creating decoys or
deception traps that mimic authentic technology properties

7. throughout the infrastructure. These traps can run in a
cybernetic or real operating system atmosphere as well as
designed to trick the cybercriminal into thinking they have
exposed a method to escalate privileges as well as steal
authorizations (Suk, Kwan & Hyun, 2018).How Deception
Technology Works
As a case, in fact, imagine the prehistoric city of Troy behind
its barriers. The Greeks pretend to departure as well as leave a
large horse by the entrances. The Trojans take it private.
Privileged the horse, the Greeks catch the Trojans carousing as
well as ultimately falling into a drunken torpor. They carefully
exit the horse, intent on massacring the protectors as well as
opening the gateways to let their army inside. In its place, they
find themselves inside a well-guarded compound. They are
taken in prison. The Trojans then expose the gates briefly to
stand-in the Greek defense force to advance. When they do so,
the gateways are protected as well as arrows rain down on the
unprotected enemy. As a result, a fully different type of
Homer's The Iliad. Such a triumph over a covert hacker is one
of the objectives of deception applications.Usage of Deception
Technology
Early Post-Breach Detection
No security key can stop all attacks from occurring on a system,
but deception technology aids to give attackers a wrong sense of
safety by making them trust they have gained a toehold on the
network.
Reduced False Positives and Risk
Dead ends, false positives, as well as alert exhaustion, can all
hamper safety efforts as well as put a drain on properties if they
are even investigated at all. Deception technology diminishes
the noise with less false positives as well as high loyalty alerts
packed full of valuable data.

8. Scale and Automate at Will
While the risk to corporate systems as well as information is a
regular growing concern, safety teams rarely obtain an increase
in their budget to access the deluge of new intimidations. For
this cause, deception technology can be a very comfortable
resolution (Wang et al., 2018).
From Legacy to IoT
Deception technology can be used to deliver breadcrumbs for a
huge range of dissimilar devices, counting legacy surroundings,
industry-specific atmospheres as well as IoT devices.The
Importance of Dynamic Deception
One of the most significant necessities for effective deception
technology application is that it must stay vague as well as new
to the hacker. If the hacker suspects they are being cuckolded
they will do what they can to avoid traps as well as increase
their labors in getting to the real possessions. Numerous
deception safety solutions have machine learning as well as
Artificial Intelligence built into their fundamental. These
structures not only confirm deception methods are kept dynamic
but also assist to decrease operational overheads as well as the
influence on safety teams by freeing them from continually
creating new deception movements.Deception in depth
Just as the enduring security chant has been a guard in depth,
security specialists recommend deception in depth. It seems the
deployment of these methods along the complete attack chain.
When hackers are leading the investigation of the network as
well as enterprise weak facts, feed them false data on the
topography as well as assets. If they are previously inside as
well as figuring out what apparatuses to use, delay their
deployment with false data. Trick them into sandboxes as well
as keep them engaged there for long epochs. Users can choose
from separate DDP apparatuses or those that are combined into
enterprise safety solutions for detection answer. For instance,
some are joint with instrumentation, network access control or
intelligence distribution tools (He et al., 2018).

9. Deception based detection using reliable traps highlights both
internal as well as external attacks.
Type of Activities Do Deception Systems Detect
State of the art deception systems identify an extensive
diversity of threats and aren’t needful on known signs, database
lookups, or pattern matching: Credential Theft, Lateral
movement, Attacks on directory systems, Man-in-the-middle,
Sensitive data, Geo-fencing, etc.Deception technology vendors
and tools
While practical for positive attack trajectories, these approaches
have their boundaries. Pingree suggested they ought to be
augmented with DPP apparatuses, which are progressively
gaining in maturity as well as functionality. There are numerous
sellers operating in this space (Kim, 2019). The list contains:
· Illusive Networks
· Attivo Networks
· Cymmetria
· Acalvio
· GuardiCore
· CyberTrap
· Specter
· TopSpin Security
· TrapXPutting Deception into Practice
There are an extensive array of deception strategies available to
enterprises. But before tapping these to use, businesses ought to
understand what makes deception most operative. Those are as
follows
· Deception must be authentic
· Deception must be comprehensive
· Deception must be scalableBenefits of Using Deception
· Reduction in resides time as well as the mean time to
recognition and remediation as well.
· High-fidelity warnings that simplify as well as accelerate
incident reply, while removing alert exhaustion.
· Through the appointment, it delivers deeper forensics of
adversary intelligence with Indicators of Compromise (IOCs)

10. and Tactics, Techniques, and Procedures (TTPs).
· It is also not dependent on knowing each attack vector or
technique as well as it is intended to notice early investigation,
credential theft, and lateral measure (Bushby, 2019).
· Gain discernibility to device adds as well as changes on a
system and at risk identifications so that everyone can alleviate
risk as well as decrease the attack surface the assailant is
pointing.The future of deception technology
DPP tools, though, has a method to go to enter the majority, and
for now, the market is comparatively small. Gartner imagines no
more than 10 percent of enterprises will be using it aggressively
by the subsequent year. Among the probable candidates are
economic services, healthcare, government, and software
verticals.
References:
Bushby, A. (2019). How deception can change cyber security
defences. Computer Fraud & Security, 2019(1), 12-14.
He, W., Gao, X., Zhong, W., & Qian, F. (2018). Secure
impulsive synchronization control of multi-agent systems under
deception attacks. Information Sciences, 459, 354-368.
Kim, Y. G. (2019, January). Deception Tree Model for Cyber
Operation. In 2019 International Conference on Platform
Technology and Service (PlatCon) (pp. 1-4). IEEE.
Suk, L. J., Kwan, C. J., & Hyun, J. S. (2018). RESEARCH TO
VERIFY AND UTILIZE PSYCHOPHYSIOLOGICAL
DETECTION OF DECEPTION BASED ON VIBRAIMGE
TECHNOLOGY. ELSYS Corp., European Academy of Natural
Sciences (EANS), Russian Biometric Association (RBA), AI
Burnazyan Federal Medical and Bio, 159.
Wang, Z., Wu, X., Liu, C., Liu, Q., & Zhang, J. (2018, June).
RansomTracer: exploiting cyber deception for ransomware
tracing. In 2018 IEEE Third International Conference on Data
Science in Cyberspace (DSC) (pp. 227-234). IEEE.