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1. CKTAWEBHAUZ TREASURY VOL 1 Issue #
ckta Treasury vol 1
Memories of Faith
(compilation journals)
BishopWinny
CKTA
As I begun reflecting, I came
to the point of reminiscing
how my life of faith started
and I thought of compiling
them. These are my
inspirations and Heaven’s
calling for me. I firmly
believe that these MEMORIES
of FAITH serve as preparation
to the destined path before I
was born. (1)
I was born and grew up in
Makati City, Philippines and
spent my childhood days over
there. When I was 10 years
old my father died of heart
attack and it became a very
traumatic experience for me.
My dreams and ambitions
were shuttered into pieces
and my views of life changed.
From the time he transitioned
onto the spiritual world, I had
many both special and weird
dreams and had been hearing
voices from the unknown.
Just few months after that, he
appeared in my dream asking
me to come with him to a
place where there is so much
peace and beauty. He was
convincing me to really go
with him and enjoy the life in
that place.
January 1999 at Hannam-dong during the last
matching True Parents conducted by
themselves
I vividly remember my
answer to him, “No I can’t go
with you now, I still have
mission to accomplish”.
Actually in my dream I was
the Wonder Woman (the
famous TV series) who had to
save many children from
“Verdugo” (word for kidnappers and
children’s killer).
I was barely 10 years old and
full of fantasies. Nevertheless,
as young as I was at that
time, many people considered
me matured in my ways of
thinking but of course the
magnitude of still being a
child was keeping me on that
level and never thought of
that dream seriously. I
considered that dream as
God’s awakening for me to
view the future mission I
would have.
Due to an avoidable
circumstances in our family,
we moved to the province
when I was on my last year in
the elementary but I came
back to Manila again after
graduation and studied at
Philippine Women’s University
JMD (HS division) for 2
years. I stayed with my aunts
(younger sisters of my father) who
had supported my schooling
at that time.
However, I became sickly and
decided to move back to the
province again where my
mother, grandmother and 2
siblings were living and
finished my 2 remaining HS
years at San Augustine
Academy and had my college
years at Araullo University
(Cabanatuan City).

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Dreams were continuously
occurring as if my mind was
not resting anymore that
even at night my brain was
working. My dreams were
very clear even when I woke
up the following morning.
I was already living in the
province when I had this
dream, that an old man
appeared to me but I couldn’t
clearly see his face. However
his voice & message were
very clear, “My child, repent
and change for I am coming
soon”
At that time, it was Lenten
season where Catholics were
celebrating the passion of
Christ in every small church
in the villages. My family was
not excused to that since we
were devout Catholics. My
mother and grandmother
were both women leaders in
our parochial church.
When I shared my dream to
others, they told me that it
was just a hangover or due to
under sleep because we were
doing the “PABASA” (a ritual of
reading the passion of Jesus from
birth to death in a singing way).
Moreover, since we were
younger compared with the
grandmas, we were assigned
at a night shift then.
Though nobody took it
seriously even myself, but the
voice kept on ringing in my
heart for several days. The
voice telling me to repent and
change for he is coming soon
really struck me and every
time I remember it, I was
pushed to really start my
journey, to search for the
truth and I decided to
seriously read the Bible from
cover to cover.
Every time, I questioned
myself of who that man was,
immediately another question
came in “who else will be
coming back?” The word
REPENT and CHANGE was
only spoken by Jesus.
I kept that inspiration and
belief that Jesus was that
man in my dream and from
that time on I kept my
longing to meet him and
established my faith that the
Second Coming would surely
occur and my prayerful wish
was to meet him during my
life-time here on earth.
As I started my journey, I
had to be careful not to lose
my sense of being a youth
otherwise; I would be
branded as crazy stuff among
my friends. The force of
secular world was pulling me
to live the way a normal
youth should live and I
enjoyed that very much but
my mind was suffering from
this VOICE that always strike
my conscience. I realized that
God was already calling me
and preparing my path to
where I am now.
During the time of my
searching moments, I
purposely went and joined
with different Christian
fellowships and mingled with
different faiths and these
greatly upset my
grandmother. She believed
that since we were born
Catholics, we should die as
Catholics. Despite the fact
that all her 5 sisters were
Iglesia ni Cristo [Church of
Christ] members and their
sons and daughters were
deacons and deaconesses,
she was never influenced by
them. Same is true with my
grandfather who was not
influenced by his sibling who
was a Jehovah Witness
deaconess.
In short, my mother’s parents
were the only Catholics
among their siblings and my
mother’s siblings were raised
in that traditional faith.
Therefore going from one
faith to another was very
strange in our traditional life.
So to keep my obedience to
my grandma, I had to keep
myself at home and just focus
on reading the bible and try
to analyze and digest the
words I was reading.
One night, I fell asleep while
in the middle of reading the
scriptures and I dreamt of an
enormous snake. There was
no ANACONDA movie yet at
that time so I didn’t know
about it but that snake was
just smaller than the
Anaconda I saw from the
movie today. The snake came
out from a hole in one of the
house’s pillars, that grew
bigger and bigger per
second..

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I couldn’t remember the
beginning of the dream
except for the part that I was
in front of that small hut
where that snake came out
from a hole and ran after me.
To my surprise, I started
running everywhere to the
best of my speed ability. I
was thinking, “My death is
NOW?” I couldn’t imagine
how I could ever escape from
it. While running here and
there, I was thinking of a
strategy and use my speed
ability to trick that snake…
I really looked for a place
where there is a BIG tree that
I could do my plan like the
cartoon animation story
(speedy Gonzalez: I think it is Tom
and Jerry now) Then all of a
sudden a rounded garden of
roses appeared in the middle
of that forest with one very
big tall pine tree at the
center. It was a beautiful rose
garden in the middle of that
thick forest. For me seeing
that was an answer to my
plan. I ran as fast as I could
to reach that place and
jumped over those thorny
roses.
My plan was to run around
the garden for several turns
in the fastest way I could and
jump over the rose plants
from time to time and later
escape. I thought the snake
would be stuck around the
rose stems and would be hurt
and maybe I could find a way
to escape from it. However,
the snake had been pouring
out its speed almost equal to
mine… “Oh gosh, God help
me!” I exclaimed in a loud
voice.
Suddenly I spotted a small
log cabin just beside the
rounded garden which was
not there in the beginning
and inside was an old man
looking at me from the
window, I shouted “please
help me”, I stopped running
around the tree, instead, I
came up to him who was also
coming out from his house to
meet me.
As soon as I jumped over the
roses he was already in front
of me and the moment I
landed on the ground exactly
I was able to embrace his big
thigh. He was tall and with
good body shape and was
holding a cane stick taller
than him. Without a word he
just laid his palm on my head
and to my surprised, the
snake was nowhere to be
found in the site … then I
woke-up.
That whole day I was trying
to recall his face, I confidently
feel he was the Lord Jesus
but had a little chance to
glance his face only when I
saw him in the window. In my
recollections and feelings his
face was not similar to any of
Jesus’ pictures I had seen. He
was more of an Asian so I
was wondering who he was at
that time.
During those times I couldn’t
interpret my dreams however
after I’ve learned the Divine
Principle I realized the
following:
1. I will definitely face my big
snake (trials, suffering, and
test etcs) in life
2. To overcome the snake I
need to keep my faith in God
3. I have to use all my
abilities and the knowledge I
learned to succeed over the
battle with the snake
4. Anytime, anywhere, snake
will appear in my life so I
need to be prepared always
5. In trials and in suffering
moment especially in life and
death situation, never ever
forget that God is with us. He
is always within our reach but
just waiting for a call from us
before he will extend a help
6. While we are in search of
the true path, snake is
inevitable in our journey
I was in my 3rd year HS
when I had this very
meaningful dream about the
white and black angel.
What I could remember as
the beginning of it was a
black angel holding my left
hand and asking me to
choose between him and the
white beautiful angel who was
standing on my right side
which I didn’t notice until the
question was raised by the
black angel.
(NOTE: I will use “she” for the white
angel though there are no female
angels but an expression of its
beauty. And “he” for the black
angel).

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I didn’t answer him but I
grabbed the arm of the white
angel. (Later after knowing
the Divine Principle, I realized
that it has great significance).
The moment I grabbed her
arm she held my hand
strongly and we ran away
from the black angel. We kept
on running and running
passing through different
incredible obstacles. One was
a rough stony road. I couldn’t
understand why I was not
wearing shoes or slippers at
that time. That case was so
severe that my feet were
bleeding due to those rough-
pointed sharp stones. I was
complaining and murmuring,
“Whew, because her feet are
not touching the ground
that’s why she doesn’t even
think I’m a human being”. I
felt I shouldn’t give up
despite the pains since the
black angel was chasing after
me with furious feeling
because I didn’t choose him.
Right after that, we passed
through a very narrow alley
with cemented walls, super
narrow that I couldn’t pass if
I wouldn’t be running
sideways. The distance of the
alley was too long that
caused my body to have lots
of bruises and bleed. Of
course the angel was a spirit
being so it could easily pass
by without thinking how
difficult I must have had
been. I was crying in pain
since all throughout my life
until that time I never knew
what painful body was caused
by such kinds.
However, at the end of that
long narrow alley, I was
amazed because we came up
to a very beautiful vast
meadow with fresh green
grasses covering all over the
area. It was a place I wish to
be at. So peaceful, so fresh,
so calm with gentle breeze
touching my face and
brushing my skin. I was so
comforted. All my body pains
were gone and I couldn’t find
any corner of that narrow
alley anymore. I couldn’t see
the boundary of the sky and
grasses. Nobody was there
except me and the white
angel.
What was strange was that a
simple stage about a meter
high above the ground with a
single chair in the middle
appeared before my eyes.
The white angel held me up
to the stage and had me sat
on the chair and told me,
“have peace, you are now
safe here” then she
disappeared.
My gosh! The moment the
white angle was gone, the
black angel appeared holding
my left leg and saying, “You
can’t escape from me you’re
mine”. I was fighting to the
fullest as he was pulling me
down. I kicked him the
hardest I could while
shouting, “I don’t like you,
leave me alone”, for several
times until I woke up.
(You could imagine this incident
similar to a movie where a woman
was trying to escape from a rapist…)
During those times, I had
nobody to share & discuss my
dreams. Nobody would
believe me. My lifestyle was
completely opposite to be
called a religious person. My
personality was so terrible if
judged by the Divine
Principle. Despite my journey
to search the truth, my
appearance and aura wouldn’t
coincide with it therefore,
people would never believe
me. The more I would talk
the more I would be branded
as crazy young gal in the
village. Also in the eyes of
the old people I was too
young then to be receiving
those revelations.
The morning I woke up, I
prayed to Lord Jesus to let
me find & meet the person
who could interpret my
dreams. I had to read the
bible and tried to understand
my dreams by my own
interpretation base on
inspirations coming from
heaven. But I felt reading the
bible was not answering my
desperate wish to know the
meanings of my dreams.
So I seriously prayed to
Jesus, “please let me meet
you in my lifetime” and I
promised that I would
dedicate my whole life to you.
That was the first time I gave
my commitment to follow the
Lord if ever I would meet him
personally. What was strange
was, from nowhere, suddenly

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my heart wish to be married
with Jesus.
When I learned the Divine
Principle,
1. I could easily understand
the significance of man’s 5%
Portion of Responsibility
(POR) which is very vital in
our spiritual growth which I
didn’t learn from any existing
Christian denominations.
2. I could understand easily
that our lives are dominated
by Satan or should I say we
are living with Satan (as the
black angel was holding me).
3. I could easily understand
the idea that God is just
waiting for us to come back
to His bosom. He is not
asking us to choose but
waiting for us to choose Him.
4. I realized that going to the
Kingdom of Heaven is really
not easy and the moment I
choose to be with God, I
would definitely experience
lots of pains and suffering
life. This dream helped me
keep a positive attitude
towards suffering course in
my church life until now.
5. I also realized that even
though it appeared to be I’m
safe or stable, until I hadn’t
reached my final destination,
Satan will keep on bugging
me and dragging me to be
with him. This dream helped
me developed an attitude of
NOT giving up my faith even
in a Hellish situation or
environment.
6. I realized also that at the
end of suffering life, even
though how much painful
they would seem to be, nor
how long it would take, there
will surely be Heaven full of
happiness and peace. That
beautiful lawn at the end of
all those painful journey gave
me so much hope and
assurance that despite all our
sufferings, surely Heaven will
be the end of our course as
long as we choose God.
Without this dream, I may
have had a hard time
understanding the very
essence of the principle
ONLY after I learned the
Divine Principle I could have
interpreted those dreams
clearly. I realized God has
been preparing me since
1983 to this path and life
journey.
I had this very wonderful
dream about the Wedding.
It was early morning when I
was awakened by the shout
of the priest, yelling in a loud
voice “Why are you making
me wait like this, where are
the bride and groom?” And I
was wondering why I was
sitting in the front pew of the
church wearing a wedding
gown.
I looked around until the back
area of the sanctuary hall to
check who was the couple to
be wed but, nobody seems to
be except me since I was the
only one wearing the wedding
gown.
For courtesy sake and to calm
down the priest, I stood up
and immediately ran towards
him with a wondering mind…
“Is it me?” “Who is my
fiancé?” Then the moment I
stood in front of the priest
there was a man rushing from
the outside wearing a suit
who I never knew. He was
apologizing a lot for being
late.
When the priest announced
the start of the ceremony, I
was asking the man if we
knew each other, what was
his name, where did we
meet, were we engaged
couple, etc.
Honestly it was JUST out of
respect and obedience to the
priest that’s why even though
I didn’t know what was going
on and how did it start, I
came up front for the
ceremony.
It was a simple ceremony… a
question and answer and the
water benediction only, then
the Priest declared we were
now man & wife. Right after
that, this guy held my arm

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and he told me he had no
time because he had mission
to finish so we needed to
hurry up.
Immediately we left the
church started running
passing through a muddy
area and squatter’s village.
My gown was covered with so
much dirt because of the mud
that splashed on it when we
passed through that muddy
place. In the squatter village I
saw a lot of suffering people.
I thought to myself, “oh my
gosh, this is really a horrible
life”. People were fighting;
stealing, starving and some
were sickly. That place never
reached my imagination until
that time.
After passing along that
terrible place, my shock made
me speechless as we entered
into a white palace. He said,
it was his home and from that
time on I would be living
there. However, he said “I
have to leave you here since I
have to continue my mission”
and he disappeared. Then I
woke up.
I never thought of the
spiritual message of my
dream when I woke up…. I
was just trying to recall HIS
FACE! He was tall with small
eyes and had a white
complexion. For the whole
day I was trying to recall all
the faces of the guys I knew
who could possibly be similar
to the man in my dream. I
happened to relate this dream
to my youngest aunt while
she was preparing our dinner
but she just coldly told me
that those were just by-
products of my imagination.
However, the search of who
that guy is was extended until
I was in college before I
joined the movement.
Accidentally, when I was a
freshman in Geodetic
Engineering, I happened to
have a classmate who looked
similar to the guy in my
dream. He was cute and with
a cheerful face. Since I was
elected president for the
entire freshman in our
Department, I was close to
many students particularly to
this guy. Also since he lived
next to my town we were on
the same school
transportation service. But,
he wasn’t the type of man I
would want to marry with. He
was smoking and not good in
his studies that turned me off
so much.
When I couldn’t find answer
to this query I stopped
thinking about the guy in my
dream until I forgot about it.
I didn’t give a damn anymore
nor I thought of any spiritual
message in it except for the
fact that I became curious of
to whom I would be married
with in the future.
In 1987 since we were CARP
members only, the “Blessing”,
was a secret thing to all of us.
Only in 1988 when there were
candidates from our church
that the Blessing came to our
knowledge.
Suddenly, my dream flashed
so clearly. All things were
projected in a screen in
details. The first thing that
came into my mind was not
the guy but the Priest. It was
True Father. I was crying in
the prayer room when I
recalled that moment. Oh
Lord! I met True Father in
1985 while I was 4th year HS
and I realized that he was
already preparing me to join
the church as soon as I
entered University and yet, I
turned down many invitations
from CARP members during
those period and later joined
when I was already in 3rd
year college.
1. Because of my dream, I
never had any problem
understanding the idea of the
blessing, the matching part
especially. For people with
secular mindset, matching is
very crucial idea which many
people would struggle about.
Nevertheless, because of my
dream, I never had any single
doubt about it and could fully
understand even the course
of the blessing.
2. The muddy area and the
squatter village that we had
been into gave me an idea
that there is no immediate
Kingdom of Heaven or ideals
in the blessing. In fact I kept
in my mind that I would be
passing through those hellish
situations before I could see
the Heavenly Palace.
3. That Palace became my
hope, my strength, my vision
and my sustenance to keep
my blessing life until now. I
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experiences in this course,
heaven is surely the END
POINT of my journey as long
as I will hold onto my faith to
the Messiah.
This time I would like to
share how heaven attempted
to bring me into the church in
1985 but wasn’t able to.
Because I missed the NCEE
(national college entrance
examination) test during 4th
year high school, I landed in
the Geodetic Engineering
department without a choice
since this course didn’t
require NCEE during
enrollment. Actually, I wished
then to take up BS
Psychology or AB Political
Science. Despite my
limitation to enroll for that, I
started from the 3-year
Associate GE course to begin
my college years.
I took up all the necessary
subjects I needed from
different Departments to gain
access to all areas that would
serve my purpose in the
future. I just took the
required 2 major subjects in
GE and the rest were from
Civil Engineering, AB,
Education, Architecture and
Criminology departments.
During my first semester as a
freshman in the university, I
was too busy joining different
academic clubs. And during
my second semester I
penetrated our school
newspaper. It was very
unusual for an AGE student to
do what I did since almost all
the students there were not
focused on extra-curricular
activities and academic clubs.
That lifestyle of mine drew a
lot of attention to almost all
my professors. I became
close with them and I greatly
deal with them too until such
time that 2 of our GE
professors encouraged me to
pursue the course even
though I got my NCEE test
result already the end of that
same year
My classmates and the entire
department were almost all
men. There were only 4 of us
ladies in the first year and 7
in the second year, 5 in the
third year and no girls at all
in 4th and 5th years except
me. GE dept was known to be
a MEN’s place. It wasn’t
difficult for me to deal with
guys since I grew up
surrounded by male cousins
and uncles on both my
parents’ side.
Our major projects &
activities involved climbing
the mountains, going to rice
paddies, highways and
streets, climbing the top of
the buildings etc. because we
needed to measure land
areas and subdivide them.
Unlike Civil and Industrial
engineering, my course was
not really meant for ladies in
the field.
During the 2nd semester, I
had one major subject about
GE Laws 1 and I happened to
have one classmate who was
a 5th yr CE student then. She
was graduating that time and
GE Laws 1 was a required
subject for her graduation so
she took it up in our class.
Since she was older than all
of us, she was always
occupying the front seat next
to mine. I was so curious with
her since she was always
falling asleep in our class. At
that time I was wondering so
much and thinking, what kind
of student she was… I
couldn’t imagine how tired
she must had been in her
daily schedule to be sleeping
most of the time in our class.
Our professor was a lawyer
by profession and at the
same time the Provincial
Police Chief Superintendent
who used to share jokes that
would knock you down in
laughter. In one instance, my
Unification Church classmate
who was always sleeping
dropped off her things on the
floor as she was awaken by
our loud noise. I helped her
picked them up and I saw a

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HSA-UWC written in her
notebook and a lot of
Christian songs at the back of
it.
My impression with her
changed since then. I
thought“ oh she’s a religious
person” although it didn’t
appear to be so.
It triggered something inside
me. MY FAITH! The search
for faith that I almost
forget.
Every time my Unification Church classmate
arrived in the class, I always asked her to lend
me her notebook with Christian songs and
even asked her to sing with me before our
professor arrived.
She was talkative actually but when I started
asking her about her church and religion, she
didn’t answer me clearly. She would share a lot
of things to avoid my questions.
I asked her about the name HSA-UWC since
there were Holy Spirit and Christianity words in
there but she didn’t even give me clear
answers to that.
I was searching where to find my faith and the
spirit world had been guiding me through
dreams for many years but the person who
could have led me to True Parents during that
time didn’t have the desire to witness to me. I
learned later through her testimony when we
became classmate during a 21-day Divine
Principle workshop in Antipolo under Rev. Gary
Fleishman in 1988 that she never thought I
would be joining the church.
Judging my lifestyle and life views, it’s true
that I was very far to be joining Unification
Church. At that same time, she testified that,
she thought I was one with those leftist
student groups that gave her a big doubt of
bringing me to the church. She even thought
that I was spying since I asked her a lot of
questions. If only she tried MAYBE she became
my spiritual mother….
Because of this case, I’ve learned some points
in witnessing.
1. People come not by our invitation but by the
preparation from spirit world. We are just
being used by spirit world to bring them in.
Keeping them is our MAIN and VERY
IMPORTANT responsibility as spiritual parent.
2. Somehow my case helps me a lot in
developing my witnessing approach and
pastoral strategy. *******
Continuation in Vol 2