This document is a compilation of journals and testimonies from Bishop Winny detailing her journey of faith. Some key points: - She attended a 4-day Divine Principle seminar in 1987 that changed her life and led her to accept Sun Myung Moon as the Messiah. - When she told her family and tried to witness to them, they rejected her beliefs and warned her not to join any more seminars. This caused her deep frustration. - She had a dream about signing a membership form that led her to officially join the Unification Church. - She experienced struggles with her family who did not approve of or understand her faith, but she remained determined to follow the path she

1. CKTAWEBHAUZ TREASURY VOL 3 Issue #
ckta Treasury vol 3
Faith & Lessons
(compilation journals)
BishopWinny
CKTA
Faith & Lesson is my treasury
bank of testimonies of my life
of faith in action. (1)
I never imagined that the 4-
day Divine Principle seminar I
just attended (in 1987) would
be my last days individually
and that would change my life
180 degrees.
The spirit world was so
serious with me during that
time. While the forces of good
angels were trying their best
to guide my way to the path
of our Lord as early as my
high school years, the forces
of evil spirits were also doing
their best to confuse my mind
and allured me towards
things attractive to my
desire....
However that October 22nd
was already the last shout of
heavenly forces to bring into
my attention and heart the
destiny that I was called for...
I came to know True Parents
as the Messiah and accepted
them not through the Divine
Principle lectures but thru
those revelations and spiritual
phenomena that occurred
within 4 years from 1983-
1987.
On October 22nd 1987
(August 30th by the Heavenly
Calendar date), I declared
that Winny Cayme isn't
existing anymore and my life
was an absolute offering to
the Lord for the
accomplishment of our
mission in the building of
God's Kingdom on earth. I
was newly born in the name
of True Parents. I found my
true family, I found my True
Parents.
I cried in deep repentance
that it took God 4 years
before I could finally respond
to his calling and if ever
heaven didn't give me that
ultimatum I doubted if God
could hook me that time and
I doubted if I would be in my
community of faith where I
am now.
I came back home with so
much hope in my heart and
delight that I have found the
greatest gift and treasure my
deepest heart was longing for
4 years.
The records of how God
brought me to this destiny
were all written in my
“memories of faith” article as
testimonies to the fact that
God is alive and is really
working with us driving all of
us to our original path.

2. CKTAWEBHAUZ TREASURY VOL 3 | Issue # 2
When I arrived home, I sent
note to my mom who was
working in Manila. In my note
I requested her to
immediately come home
because I have an important
news to tell and share with
her.
My mother trusted me a lot
and she gave me anything I
requested from her. Even
when my father was alive, I
was the apple of the eye in
our family. There was so
much jealousy actually
between me and my brother
because what Winny wants
Winny gets. My aunts and
uncles too have greatly
favored in me. I was their
favorite baby in the clan.
With that trust and love from
my family and relatives I had
full confidence that I could
witness to them easily and
since they trusted me so
much, I had full confidence
too that they would believe
what I would tell them. So I
tried to start with my mother.
As soon as she arrived I told
her that Jesus had returned
already and I met him during
the workshop in
Cabanatuan....My mother
looked at me with astonished
face and told me "if you will
attend seminar that will lead
you to become crazy, better
don't join any such thing in
the future". Though I insisted
seriously what I believed to
be true, my mother never
showed any interest. She
completely ignored me and
warned me more.
That was a shock to me that
evening. I never expected to
have received such reaction
from her. All the while, I
thought witnessing to them
would be so easy since they
all trusted me, loved me and
had confidence in me.
I cried that evening in my
prayer to God and tried one
more time the following day
before my mother would
leave for Manila again but I
ended up annoying her. When
my mom left, I tried to give a
hint to our grandma who was
taking care of all of us that
time. However, my grandma
was even more closed minded
and didn't even dare to listen
to what I was saying...
I cried again that evening in
my prayer to God asking Him
how come I got all those
unfavorable responses from
the people I believed closest
to my heart and the people I
thought would easily believe
in my proclamations. I cried a
lot very desperately and
asking God lots of "whys".
That night was the first time I
felt such deep frustration in
my life and lost the
inspiration I had after the
workshop. However, while
praying, I heard God was
crying too with me and
suddenly the thought of God's
heart longing for his children
came to my realization. That's
the first time I came to know
God in a deepest sense.
Honestly, all throughout my
Christian life I have
superficial belief about God.
The omniscient, almighty,
omnipresent, all powerful God
I knew who never have been
in pain and loneliness etc.
was changed to something
real. I never thought God is
crying too and God is
experiencing pain too.
That night, that feeling, that
experience gave me a very
deep realization and a deep
thought that God is really
alive and God has feelings too
like us. I never saw Him, I
never had any physical
feature or image of Him at
that moment but the feelings
was so real in me that I was
so enveloped by different
energy when I realized that
the God I knew was
completely different from the
God I felt that very moment.

3. CKTAWEBHAUZ TREASURY VOL 3 | Issue # 3
After knowing the Messiah, it
is not the end of our journey
BUT it’s the beginning of a
new world of faith and life
with me.
3 weeks after I accepted True
Parents’ messianic mission, I
had a dream about
membership form with a logo.
In my dream a very old
grandfather told me and
giving me a piece of A4 paper
telling me “you can only
become true member if you
sign this membership form.
Do it quickly.” When I woke
up, I asked myself what was
that membership about. Since
I already signed one for
CARP, I thought to myself
there must be still be a more
important one that I still need
to have signed at.
The 3-week semestral break
was already over and during
the first day at the school, I
first met the Wonhwa Do
President and I immediately
approached him about my
dream but he said I was
already a CARP member so
there’s no problem.
Nevertheless I strongly
insisted that I need to sign a
membership form with red
colored logo in it. He just
diverted our conversation and
invited me to have lunch at
the CARP student home
instead.
During lunch they asked me if
I could attend the pledge
service at 5am every Sunday.
If it was impossible as they
knew it was really
inconceivable on my part,
they offered me to have it
even for one Sunday. That
would mean I needed to sleep
over night at the center on
Saturday and it was a big
struggle on my part knowing
my condition at home.
However I determined to do
it. For me anything about the
True Parents is important so
whatever it takes I needed to
find ways to make it.
I decided to do it on
November 22 1987 (exactly a
month after I was born
again). I planned to go in the
evening of Saturday and after
Pledge Service I could go
back home in the afternoon
thinking it would not be so
damaging on my part.
However they told me, if I
would do it on that weekend I
should be at the center the
morning of that Saturday
because there was a very
important celebration that
they would have to attend at
on November 21st
..
Finally, with the support of
the spiritual world I was able
to make it to the CARP
student home by 10am and
my spiritual father brought
me to the church center
immediately. There I saw
many members not the
students but people whom
they called fulltime staff and
members working in the
“Aboji Store” (a small
canteen-like in front of the
university which I didn’t know
was owned by us) and Ilhwa
staff selling the Ginseng Tea.
Aside from them I saw some
students whom they called
Core members but none of
the students who were with
me in the workshop
I found the atmosphere
completely different
compared to the first time I
was there. All people were
wearing socks and many of
them were wearing white or
light colored clothes, dress
and brothers were on their
ties. Then I noticed the
banner hanging in front with
a table of fruits and other
offerings. There, I learned it
was Children’s Day on its
28th anniversary. It was my
first Holyday in the church. It
is one of the most important
historical dates for me.
We arrived while everybody
was watching a video. I
couldn’t remember what was
it all about BUT suddenly I
remembered one of my
dreams a week after the
workshop. 4 faces appeared
in my dream one after the
other. The first one was Mr
Murotani, next was Rev Chun
Hwan Kwak, 3rd was Dr Sang
Hun Lee & last was Heungjin
nim. That time I never knew

4. CKTAWEBHAUZ TREASURY VOL 3 | Issue # 4
them all. No idea at all. And
it was a shock and
tremendous surprised on my
part to see them in the video.
I didn’t even know what its
significance was because
when I woke up I didn’t even
remember the scenario
except for the clear faces of
those 4 people.
I screamed with excitement
to tell them that I have met
those people already in my
dream and they were all
astonished. Our CARP Leader
begun explaining to me one
by one who they were
including the meaning of the
Holyday. Everybody
welcomed me and
interviewed me one after the
other. I felt everybody was so
excited to see me as if I was
their new born baby.
After the celebration, we went
back to CARP Student home.
There I received a special
lecture about the significance
of the Pledge Service
including the internal &
external preparations I
needed. I’ve learned that it
was my OFFICIAL registration
to church membership not
just in CARP. Part of that
preparation was reading of
True Parents words and they
gave me the small blue book
“The Way of God’s Will” to
read and had to do morning
skip meal and a shower
condition at 4am. At 4.30 am
we were fetched by the
church’s car and brought all
of us to the Church center
before 5am.
The first time I entered the
“prayer room”, it was quiet
and everybody was already
lined up according to spiritual
age. While everybody was
waiting for the church
Director to formally begin the
Service, everybody was in a
meditative mood. I sat at the
back as the youngest
individual both physically &
spiritually. I was so conscious
not to commit mistake. I
couldn’t meditate because I
was looking at the simple
altar in front, a small table
with True Parents’,
Heungjinnim’s and Jesus’
picture.
I remembered that small
room was the room we used
as sister’s quarters during the
workshop. They just put a
long curtain from ceiling down
to the floor covering the built
in cabinets.
When the church Director
came in everybody started
singing “Song of the Garden”
It was very solemn moment
and instead of singing, I just
listened to the lyrics and was
so fascinated with it.
Then suddenly I heard the
voice of my Father and the
smell of a flower fragrance.
Only then I closed my eyes
and started meditating. After
the service, they asked me to
introduce myself and
anything I would like to say.
There I gave my testimony of
how I was guided by Heaven
from the beginning until that
time with all my dreams and
even the spiritual incidents I
had during the 4days
workshop.
Only after that testimony
they came to believe I was
true to myself that I accepted
True Parents as the Messiah.
I also added the recent dream
I had about the membership
form. Nobody commented
about it but the church
Director officially proclaimed
& welcomed me as the
newest member of True
Parents’ UC family. To my
surprised right after the
service, the church Director
asked me to fill up the form
with a header “Holy Spirit
Association for the Unification
of World Christianity” and a
logo exactly the same as in
the one in my dream.
Then he said, “This is your
dream” I was officially
registered as Unification
Church member exactly a
month after my spiritual
birthday.
My 1st
spBday

5. CKTAWEBHAUZ TREASURY VOL 3 | Issue # 5
All core members, missionaries & leaders nationwide had to
attend a 7day workshop in Antipolo from December 27 to
January 2 1988 in connection with HJN’s conference. It was
another struggling moment for me for several reasons:
(1) That was Christmas vacation and I would be leaving right
after Christmas at the same time New Year Celebration is of
equal in importance as Christmas
(2) It was 7days which my family couldn’t understand why such
a long workshop
(3) It was in Manila which my family wasn’t used to hear as part
of my school activity.
They told me it was very important workshop and gathering
aside from conference centered on HJN, we would celebrate
God’s day too with all members nationwide, so I should be there
to celebrate with God. Therefore, I had to lie again if necessary
just to be there.
I had a nightmare on the evening of Christmas day (Dec 25th),
it was the night before I would leave home for the workshop. I
dreamt of Satan shouting at me in anger “You are so stupid! I
thought you are smart. Why in just 4days seminar you believed
Rev Moon is the Messiah? How could you trust that? Stupid!
Stupid!”
But I responded with courage and as if I was in a battlefield
shouting at him also “Even though you cut my heart into halves,
you can only see Rev Sun Myung Moon’s name carved in it, until
the end of my life and for eternity, Rev Moon is my only
Messiah. You can never take that away from me anymore.” I
woke up by my sister who was very scared because she heard
me shouting “Satan, Satan” while asleep. When I woke up I
could feel True Father was with me.
Although my family didn’t approve still I went. Although there
were lots of scolding and nagging, still I went. In short my family
thought that “because of UC, I became a very disobedient child
in the family.” I realized that that nightmare I had was a
premonition of what was going to happen. I didn’t lie anymore to
my family. I told them I would be attending the workshop of
Unification Church. I told them boldly & frankly that I firmly
believed Rev Moon is the 2nd coming of Jesus and I told my
Grandma and my Mom that “if ever there would be somebody
who could surpass what Rev had done then I would leave UC
and follow that someone. So for the meantime just allow me to
follow Rev Moon”. With my
stubbornness, I left the house
to attend the 7-day HJN
Conference.
My heart was very heavy but I
was confident enough that I
was heading to something
true. I shared my real
situation and my dream to our
CARP leaders when I arrived
in the Student Home. Then
my spiritual brother
responded, “Winny, don’t
worry. Let’s just pray for the
right time… Even Jesus
himself was rejected. Don’t
worry”
The phrase “Even Jesus
himself was rejected” gave me
strength actually. All his
disciples left him in suffering,
too. I realized that I would be
experiencing the same as I
followed the path of Father. I
just have to be ready and
always mindful.

6. CKTAWEBHAUZ TREASURY VOL 3 Issue #
On the way to Antipolo there
was a mixed feeling of
nervousness & excitement
within me because (1) it was
confession time, (2) first time
to attend a long workshop and
(3) it was in Antipolo with
these people I really didn’t
know who because I was just
2 months old but I couldn’t
understand why I trusted
them so much. However, I
trusted God & TPs. I
absolutely believe TPs. I
believed and trusted all the
revelations I had in the past. I
was silently praying that may
that 7day period become a
condition for my family to join
the path I have chosen.
When we were on the zigzag
road approaching the gate of
Valley Golf Village, we sang
Song of the Garden and my
feelings completely changed, I
felt heaven was with us
together with the atmosphere
especially it was dark already
and we were passing a higher
ground where you could see
the entire Antipolo City with
all the lights on in every
corner of the area as we were
approaching the training
center. I felt I was embraced
by the Holy Spirit and feeling
very light like floating in the air. Even up until now, this song
has that kind of impact in my mind and soul, especially when I
learned the origin of this song was actually a revelation from
Heaven with angels singing & dancing.
That night was the start of the 7day period. We had the
orientation program and a lecture about the significance of HJN
conference. It was cleansing moment by getting rid of our old
selves so that we could have a new start by the year 1988 which
was also a new providential period in God’s timetable.
After closing prayer we were asked to write our confession paper
and I think I had the longest list of sins being written there.
Then we were asked to have our own prayer to prepare for
tomorrow’s counselling with the then National Director. In my
prayer, I was deeply repenting for all my impurities, my evilness
and my satanic past life. I just wanted to start anew as God’s
daughter and only to attend our True Parents for the rest of my
life.
The following morning I was very nervous and wondering
seriously how I would be chastised because of my dirty past for
19 years. I was very quiet and contemplating of what procedure
would there be inside the counseling room.
When my turn came, I was so surprised when I was asked only
about my name, which center I came from and spiritual age
(which was just 2month old) then the national director just
encouraged me to keep my faith and actively support the
providence.
I thought I was already a garbage and no amount of forgiveness
might be available and had the willingness to accept any
punishments that were due to me if they were the things I
needed to be cleansed and qualified to be claimed by heaven.
I have learned that all our evil past were forgiven the moment
we accepted True Parents in our life. That faith alone was a
condition just like at the time of Jesus in the Calvary Valley of
Death where one of the sinners in the cross was forgiven of his
sins just because of his faith in Jesus at that very moment.
My old life was over. I was a new born baby in the Unification
Faith Community. That time I only thought of how to grow well
spiritually. I clearly remember how eager I was to learn more
and willing to do whatever it takes to become God’s True
Daughter. My heart at that time was so thirsty for the truth, so
determined to go through any path that would lead me to
understand God’s heart better and deeper. That was the time
the more it strengthened my conviction to have one mindset –
Absolutely Follow the Will of Heaven.!
To be continued