4. Also by Humberto Gómez Sequeira-HuGóS
It Hurts to Feel
Socialism of the XXI Century or the Anti-revolution (Spanish
Nicaragua: The Dialogue Between the Doctrinaire Priests and
the Trustees (Spanish Edition)
In Transition Towards Poetry: Granada (Nicaragua), the
Bourgeoisie, and the FSLN (Spanish Edition)
Visions of a Somnambulist (Spanish Edition)
5. Notes from My Mobile Brain
Only the brain, stellar and terrible, knows how to
guide me through the dreams and nightmares of
my Homo Sapiens life.
Humberto Gómez Sequeira-HuGóS
I dedicate my work to the following persons:
Ana María Sequeira Viuda de Gómez, my mother
Roxanna Gómez-Ubau, my daughter
María del Rosario Aguirre Durán, my life partner
Jennifer Alejandra Molina
Rodolfo Sotelo Jr.
Daniel Humberto Marín Aguirre
Notes from My Mobile Brain is a collection of thoughts
that I wrote with the notes app on my cell phone in the Anno
Sine Domini 2014. The notes are the results of the combination
of the spontaneous chemical reactions arranged by my
neurons, with me as their cognitive agent, and my deliberate
sensorial interaction with the corporeous and incorporeous world.
As a thinker, bred by the Church and the State, I wrote
some of the notes to satisfy my evolutionary need to be free
and critical of their ideas. God, the divine right of the ruling
class, free enterprise, democracy, repentance, and the good war
are some of the ideas that the parasitic caste of the clergymen
and the statesmen use to enslave the minds of the tributaries
that support them and the ruling class that they serve.
The culture that the notes symbolize is the product of
the revolutions that the human primates have made.
Revolutions are the logical consequences of the ideological
dissent with the status quo. Dissent is the condition for the
evolution of our brain as the Central Processing Unit of our
imagination. When we stop revolutionizing our awareness, as
organisms whose survival depends on our ability to invent new
ideas, we stop dissenting with the State’s and the Church’s
dogmas, become conformed, and begin to decay.
Writing the notes, I joined the evolutionary struggle of
my human primate species to transform ourselves into the
writers of our chemical experience in the universe. Through
our journey, from symbolism to the alphabet, and from the
periodic table to text messaging, we have been illuminated by
the excitement of our stellar neurons, not by divine light. The
Jiahu symbols, the writings of the Sumerians and the Olmecs;
stenography, and the Morse code are the intellectual ascensions
that our species reached, like the salmon, against all the odds.
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Impelled by curiosity and the desire for inventing our selves
and writing our history, we have become the subject and the
object of our experience without divine intervention.
Before I started to use a smartphone, I wrote notes on
the back of used envelopes as a way of recycling their use.
When María del Rosario noticed the paper writing tablets I was
using, she became inspired and began to give me gifts in the
form of robust pens and notebooks decorated with majestic
animals, such as cats and birds.
I wrote the notes that compose this journal floating in
the emptiness of the singular space-time that I inhabit, under
the coordination of my neurons, in the expansion of the
Humberto Gómez Sequeira-HuGóS
Los Angeles, California, U.S. | July 24, 2017
Ana María Sequeira Viuda de Gómez
Thank you, mother, for having incubated the brain with which
I wrote this book and fertilized the root of my Homo Sapiens
Thank you, brain (I know that you can read my thoughts) for
having guided me, with the light of your electromagnetic
language, through the dreams and nightmares of my Homo
María del Rosario Aguirre Durán
Thank you, partner, for the life that you invest, with dedication
and sacrifice, in alimenting the chemical reactions that sustain
my life and the pleasure of our relationship.
Armando A. Molina
Thank you, Armando, for being the eloquent interlocutor who
saves me from the peril of losing my thoughts in the void of a
Rodolfo Sotelo Jr.
Thank you, Rodolfo, for having associated with me and
cheered my effort to write when I was caught in my turbulence
of ignorance and desire. Then, I was a reflection in the ego’s
vanity mirror searching for recognition, through self-pity and
destruction, in the emptiness of me.
1 January ..............................................................................13
12 December .........................................................................90
The Ending Note.........................................................................95
A Note to the Other Waiting in the Future.............................96
About the Author......................................................................102
In the Anno Sine Domini
My Life as a Vertebrate
The life I have lived is not boastful or glamorous. Its
magnitude is equal to the number of atoms that are necessary
to create a dream. The only attribute it carries is the temporality
of its ideological presence amongst the other creatures of
Life as a vertebrate enabled me to crawl up the logical path of
the human existence and feel the luminous vibration of the
universe on my umbilicus.
—Humberto Gómez Sequeira-HuGóS
14. Notes from My Mobile Brain
Wednesday, January 1 | 10:13 PM
During your attempt to save a person from drowning, you
must preserve your life. Therefore, you must not aspirate water
into your lungs or let the other push you below the surface of
the water. To achieve this position, you must always be aware
of the need to keep a safe distance between you and the person
that you are trying to help. Compassion must be practiced in
this way to cultivate it as an instrument of mutual benefit.
Wednesday, January 1 | 10:15 PM
He tells her: I give you the blue drops that fall from the
morning clouds in your eyes. She tells him: listen to the little
birds singing to excite the rain. He draws a smile in the air to
animate her desire and tells her: see how happy we are?
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Thursday, January 2 | 10:29 PM
Awake. Engage with the air of awareness that is passing
through your pores. Find the axis of the light that shines within
your waters and float above it. See the emptiness where forms
arise like the ashes after the fire has consumed the object of
desire. Stay awake. Contemplate the orbit that you make with
your thought of your self.
Friday, January 3 | 10:03 AM
When the chemical reactions that make up the world become
extinguished, the intelligent human primates will lose their
awareness of the form of the object of their thought in the
darkness of emptiness.
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Friday, January 3 | 12:22 PM
The life of the proletariat, under the yoke of capitalism and
theism, depends on their willingness to adapt to the conditions
of absolutism and slavery that the capitalist class and the clergy
impose on them or break the conditions to emancipate
themselves. Theirs is the key factor for the revolution or the
decadence of society.
Friday, January 3 | 12:57 PM
Life is not a reward or punishment dispensed by a divine
power, but rather a chemical singularity.
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Friday, January 3 | 4:20 PM
I am arguing with the devil on the cause of wealth and poverty.
He is trying to persuade me that money is the effect of
freedom. I launch my head towards the orbit of Justice to
preserve my reason.
Friday, January 3 | 10:51 PM
Thinking is not the product of the presence of the divine
breath in the human primates’ neural network, but an effect of
their confrontation with the world sustained by metabolism.
Stimulated by their instinct to live, the human primates
invented the tools with which they built the objects of their
thoughts. Working, they developed the intellectual instrument
for understanding the mechanics of the world, their position
in it, and the revolution that they needed to make to transform
it as the condition of their survival.
Through investigation, discovery, thinking, building, and
changing the human primates stimulated the evolution of their
encephalon as the laboratory of their cognition.
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Sunday, January 5 | 8:41 AM
What is freedom: living within or outside a jail?
Can the human primates truly be free while they live to pay
tribute to the State and the Church and die in conformity with
If you believe that you are free, what are the conditions that
enable you to act freely: the atom, metabolism, awareness, your
will, the army, the Constitution, money, orgasm, God,
superstition, or the death penalty?
Fish can live only in water. Is this freedom?
Sunday, January 5 | 11:40 AM
The human primates who do not execute their neural potential,
transforming it into an instrument for revolutionizing their
perception and advancing their evolution towards altruism,
have lost their primal instinct. It was the dream that impelled
them to learn how to navigate the Earth and ascend its highest
mountains guided by their stellar neural network.
19. Notes from My Mobile Brain
Sunday, January 5 | 11:43 AM
Concentrate on the movement of the things that you observe.
Try to understand it with your head as if it was a satellite of the
Earth. Your perception is part of the communicating vessels
of the essence of one reality.
Tuesday, January 7 | 4:20 PM
I, who am a creature of chemical chance and the evolution of
logical probability, will disappear when the fire of awareness
consumes the memory of me.
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Thursday, January 9 | 7:56 AM
Do women need to be equal to the patriarchal model of
equality or do they need to affirm themselves as the object of
their thought and representation of their equality?
If they answer yes to the second question, then they need to
revolutionize their awareness of themselves, repudiate the
corrupted identity that the Church and the State impose on
them, and overthrow the patriarchal model of equality whose
base is their progressive destruction. Only thus will they be able
to successfully fight for the recuperation of their selfhood as
the source of their existence and condition of their equality in
the deist, misogynist, capitalist, and belligerent patriarchy.
The Church and the State are the constituents of the
patriarchal model of equality. They are the result of the war
that the patriarchs made against society to appropriate its
means of production, masculinize its Government, and use it
as the yoke with which they exploit women and keep them
segregated. These are the reasons said institutions are not
models of equality and do not fit the needs of women.
The sons of the patriarchy are the negation of the equality of
their mothers, sisters, female friends, and wives. They are equal
to the economic, ideological, political, military, sexual,
mythological, and anti-feminine model of equality, which the
founding patriarchs imposed on society’s mind.
The erection of man as the model of equality, effected by
God’s creation, is the basis of the Church and the State. This
myth continues to be the result of the war against women to
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suppress them as the creators and administrators of the world.
The dehumanization, dispossession, enslavement, and killing
of women is the method that the patriarchy uses to masculinize
The burning and lapidation of women by the sons of Jehovah
and Allah evolved into the gender apartheid law that the
Church and the State impose on women to subjugate them to
the dictatorship of the Penis God. The Government that
imposes on society’s mind the “all men are created equal” law
is integrated by a misogynist caste of theologians, politicians,
bankers, and generals that convert its brutality into the moral
values of society.
The patriarchy’s model of equality is not their declaration of
self-evident truths, but the inequality that the Church and the
State impose on women as the necessary sacrifice for the
growth of the patriarchy’s power. Inequality is not the effect of
God’s judgment of women. Rather, it is the precondition of
the patriarchy’s existence.
The truth about women is their maternal genetic inheritance.
Their equality to their human selfhood and the transmission of
their quality to the men that they create are elements of
women’s truth. Women are the agency of their identity, reason,
and capability. To sustain the myth of masculinity, men
suppress their power and distort their purpose. Thus, women
are the only ones who can demonstrate their function as the
vanguards in the process of the evolution of humanity, and
ability to save it from the patriarchy’s destruction. Humanity is
in a mortal crisis because the patriarchy has become the
dominant predator who is consuming its mothers, and its
cradle, the Earth.
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The popes, the bankers, and the generals continue to push
women into misery, and towards extinction. The
masculinization, theocratisation, militarization and
animalization of society are the consequences of the genocide
of women. The gender “male,” celebrated by the Church and
the State, is a badge of impunity for the rapists and killers of
women. The legislation is the enactment of the divine
superiority and right of men in the patriarchy.
The Government does not represent women. It is a symbol of
the killing of maternity as a policy for ensuring humanity’s
wellbeing, rationality, peace, and progress towards altruism.
The misogynist predators have turned the State into a weapon
for the enforcement of the system of gender apartheid, where
they are a privileged caste of matricides.
The purpose of the patriarchy’s misogynist system is the forced
suppression of women from participation in the
administration, and the transformation of the world that they
birthed. The patriarchy’s negation of this truth, with the
argument of the divine creation of men, is simply a
hallucinatory state that they try to rationalize making the Holy
War against women.
23. Notes from My Mobile Brain
Friday, January 10 | 9:04 AM
Searching for my true identity in democracy, I asked a banker
who I was. He pulled out a calculator from his pocket and then
asked me if I had a collateral.
Searching for my true identity in court, I asked a judge who I
was. He opened the book of judgments and then asked me: “of
what crime have you been accused?”
Searching for my true identity in the jungle, I asked a
chimpanzee if he knew who I was. He held my hand, gazed at
it for a moment, and then started jumping with joy.
Monday, January 13 | 2:03 PM
The life I have lived is not boastful or glamorous. Its
magnitude is equal to the number of atoms that are necessary
to create a dream. The only attribute it carries is the temporality
of its ideological presence amongst the other creatures of
nature. Life as a vertebrate enabled me to crawl up the logical
path of human existence and feel the luminous vibration of the
universe on my umbilicus.
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Monday, January 13 | 10:27 PM
The usurers make loans to client states and merchants of war.
Their dark emissaries travel the world shopping for tax-free
zones to create the conditions—exploitation, hunger,
suffering, and war—for the emergence of the new slave
markets. Together with their accomplices—the politicians, the
generals, and the bishops—they keep the world divided with
borders of hate and fire. The symbols of their sanguinary
existence are money, a gun, a flag, and a crucifix.
Sunday, January 19 | 4:58 PM
One sunny day, Earth will claim me, as a mother embraces her
child before separating, and transform me into a fossil that the
cognitive organisms of the future will use to demonstrate the
existence of primitive life in the past. Then, I will be free from
the dictatorship of the prophets of obscurantism, financial
gain, slavery, hunger, war, sedation, and eternal life.
25. Notes from My Mobile Brain
Friday, January 24 | 2:58 PM
The human primates are the objects of their reason, and
reasoning is the stimulus of their cognitive evolution. These
are the conditions that have engendered the revolutions that
they have made to ascend to the plane of subjects of their
history. But reason has been sequestered by the bankers, the
generals, and the popes and converted into the power of the
State and the Church.
Wednesday, January 29 | 7:39 AM
"I believe in God" is a confession without sense in the world
of the facts that are the objects of perception and the
conditions of reason. The big bang and the evolution of the
primate into self-awareness, capable of explaining the facts of
the world and their relation to its existence, are the elements of
reality. The elements act in observable, not mysterious ways
designed by a God.
Believing is a mental state conditioned by the existence of the
object of belief and the believer’s ability to rationalize its
function in the world. Believing that the Sun exists will be true
until that star explodes and becomes the pollen that will
fertilize the birth of new stars in the expanding universe.
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Meaning is intrinsic to the facts of nature that can be observed
in their movement and interaction. The human primate is one
of those facts. The believer does not establish the sense of the
object of their belief, but the existence of the object and its
function in the sensible world. The information that the use of
the object generates reveals its presence to the user who thus
can conceptualize it and explain it, logically.
The predicate about the subject God, invented by the self-
designated prophets, does not refer to a fact that is happening
and, therefore, can be represented with a thought of its
function and effect in the experience of the human primate in
the intelligible world. “God is an all-perfect being, creator of
heaven and Earth,” is a result of the hallucinatory state
influenced by the obscurantist activity of the Church and the
State in the realm of the believer’s mind. These institutions,
whose function is to obscure the truth, are based on the
ignorance that they converted into the faith to sanctify their
The world is an event made of other occurrences. What one
can affirm about the world is what one can sense, or induce
based on the remains of past phenomena. Thoughts can
represent happenings that can be perceived while their
I was walking on a sidewalk planted with palm trees on the
street side. Suddenly, a gust of wind blew off a palm from one
of the trees. It fell a breath away from my feet, enticing my
amazement. Nature engaged me as the observer of its
movement on my perception. These are the material
circumstances of thinking.
27. Notes from My Mobile Brain
Everything is an event that emerges from the encounter of
favorable conditions in a singular moment in the space-time
expansion. After the expansion absorbs the moment, it
becomes a part of the memory of the universe. This memory,
which is carried by the genes across the chemical oceans of the
world, is the matrix of the new singularities which determine
the evolution of new life.
The statement "I have not experienced the facts attributed to
the word God as their cause" agrees with the logical
constitution of the world and its manifestation in the sensible
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Thursday, January 30 | 8:30 AM
The human primate who sees itself as a conscious organism of
nature can understand that knowledge is useful only if it is
applied to convert it into an instrument for the eradication of
the ignorance and the fear which are the Church’s and the
State’s weapons of domination.
Thursday, January 30 | 12:12 PM
The plutocracy’s astronomers continue searching for life on
Mars while their Government continues to destroy humanity
and the Earth. If they find life on that planet, they will
appropriate it, price it, and sell it until they exhaust it.
29. Notes from My Mobile Brain
Wednesday, February 5 | 2:13 PM
I got high, like a bird on a wire, to become the noticeable object
of my faithless desire.
Wednesday, February 5 | 6:35 PM
The criticism of religion is the same as the criticism of the
success of the trader who sells sunglasses to the human
primates who lost their sense of sight after centuries of
kneeling in the dark of a confessional, asking a wizard to
forgive their sins.
Through the making of the Holy War (Bellum Sacrum), to
conquer the human primates’ brain, the merchants of religion
have succeeded in creating an addiction to the myth of the
original sin, and the fear of the word God. Millions of people
live and die trapped in the anguish of guilt, repentance, and
salvation. This alteration of the natural chemistry of their
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brains keeps them in a state of hallucination, disconnected
from their real need to overthrow the merchants of religion,
waiting for salvation day. Here lies the success of the traders
who sell the lie of the value of suffering as the precondition of
the eternal life to customers who refuse to confront the truth
of their existence.
We are an ephemeral chemical event in space-time conditioned
by the universe’s motion. Religion is an insignificance that
cannot separate us from our physical destiny.
31. Notes from My Mobile Brain
Tuesday, February 18 | 9:45 AM
Some human primates live to establish and defend their ego as
the critical component of their illusionary view of life. To
them, it is a luxurious object that they can purchase and
aggregate to their private property arsenal. They learn this
senseless behavior from the other human primates who, at
gunpoint, stole society’s resources and used them to create a
warring State that taxes them for protecting their illusion from
the fear of being kidnapped by the Wicked Witch of the East.
Monday, February 24 | 11:20 AM
Deism and atheism are not natural components of the human
primates’ awareness. It is a product of the chemical reactions
arranged by the brain, according to the impressions generated
by the senses when they interact with the sensible objects of
The events that constitute the reality in which the human
primates are the subjects—the economy, politics, and war—
are not driven by belief or disbelief, but by the brain’s need for
the energy produced by metabolism.
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Friday, March 14 | 10:45 PM
The instinct of the human primates—to be free, curious,
defiant, and inventive—was shaped by evolution. This force
enabled them to erect and align their heads with the star that
pollinates their lives. The chemistry of their constitution
explains their capacity to be the objects of their thoughts
without divine breath. The spirit of their genes cannot be
altered, even by removing them from their natural element,
caging them in churches, or treating them as wanted criminals
by the Christian Sacred Inquisition for thousands of years.
The Church, aided by the State, keeps trying to extirpate the
chemical self from the human primates’ cognition and replace
it with the idiotic idea it calls “the original sin.” The reason is
that a parasitic caste, which does not work to produce social
wealth nor pays taxes, controls the Church. They live off the
tribute they extract from the human primates they convert into
sinners, armed with the threat of “eternal damnation.”
Furthermore, the self-designated men of God ignore the
chemical truth of life, which is embedded in the vastly
unknown regions of the universe and the encephalon.
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Monday, March 24 | 2:11 PM
Men need women to stimulate the development of the
characteristics contained in their X chromosome. The
Statesmen, the Clergymen, and the Military men cannot do it.
Without the warmth of the maternal embrace, boys grow
under a shadow within which they have to struggle to discover
their emotional sense and how to use it in the world of human
The Church and the State suppress the development of the
maternal attributes in the boy and, with threat and punishment,
replace them with the artificial emotions inspired by the images
of supermen crucified, sanctified, and glorified as war heroes
or Moguls of capitalism. The separation of the boy from his
mother as his emotional root and social model is the reason
why men commit the matricide that destroys their society.
The uprooting of the boy’s female instinct and its replacement
with the artificial male, misogynist psychology, which The
Military uses to turn him into a robot killing machine, is the
condition for the formation of the new generations of soldiers
of the patriarchal army. And the continuation of the
patriarchy’s dictatorship based on the circumcision and
suppression of women. Transforming men into creatures that
eat their mothers, the administrators of the patriarchal State
and Church—Senators, Popes, and Generals—have abolished
motherhood as society’s reason and Government. Thus, they
have plunged humanity into obscurantism, war, ecological
destruction, and decadence.
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As the working class women, the working class men are also
the prey that the patriarchy needs to consume to sustain itself.
The capitalist patriarchs exploit them until their exploitation
ceases to turn a profit. After that, they dispossess the workers
of their livelihood and push them in the hell of unemployment,
drug addiction, domestic violence, homelessness, prostitution,
and suicide. Not even serving as the cannon fodder in their
wars can save the producers of the nation’s wealth, which the
patriarchy steals, from the madness and the ruin caused by the
Statesmen, the Clergymen, and the Military men who are the
patriarchy’s Guardians, Judges, and Executioners.
The sons of women need to embrace their mothers to prevent
their extinction, and together make the revolution that is
necessary to overthrow the patriarchy and reinstate the
matriarchy as the cradle of civilization. Men need to
revolutionize their minds to free themselves from the artificial,
masculine feeling with which the patriarchy suppresses their
femininity to convert them into the enemies of women.
Women must denounce the patriarchy—the landlords, the
clergy, the usurers, and the war merchants—as the corrupter
and destroyer of their sons. Also, as part of their struggle to
free themselves, they must take men by the hand and lead them
in the rebellion against the patriarchy’s system of gender
apartheid. In it, men are the slaves who enforce the unjust law
of a misogynist God with obscurantism and prejudice. The law
justifies the defamation, the intimidation, and the killing of
35. Notes from My Mobile Brain
Friday, March 28 | 9:27 AM
I am an artificial man. I have a plastic tongue, and my heart is
made of Styrofoam.
TV writers arranged my sense of the world with episodes of
shows about the value of life in the electro domestic world.
The State produces my feelings with a vaccine made from
cadaver plasma and other experimental chemicals. To be
accepted as a human being, I narrate the recycled memories of
the world of children who died, suddenly, in their sleep.
I am an artificial man from the Atomic Age inspired by the
engineers of the Great War. But I have one technical defect
that turns me into the subject of dreams.
Sunday, March 30 | 6:32 AM
"Nothing is impossible for God," reads the sign on the front
wall of the building in which people gather to stimulate their
nervous system. Kneeling, praying, screaming, crying, and
jumping they enter the state of delirium that they call “the
presence of the Holy Spirit.”
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Wednesday, April 23 | 2:46 PM
Smells like democracy decomposing on the long avenues that
the oil barons planted with gas stations decorated with flags to
celebrate their victories in the pillage wars that the sons of the
The soldiers of the American-Indian Wars raped the daughters
of the motherland to convert it into the cradle of the Manifest
Destiny. Engendered with love for Old Glory and fear of the
Ghost Dance, the American Indian killers inspired the soldiers
of the Great War genocide.
The barons stole the sons from their mothers to form the
generations of Purple Heart Patriots. They now live in the
catacombs of the Great Warrior State, identified with a sign
that reads “homeless veteran.”
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Wednesday, May 7 |12:13 PM
Talking from within the vibration of her vaginal musculature,
she told me: this is how I want to die, while she irrigated my
lips with the chemicals produced by her orgasmic delight.
Friday, May 16 | 2:49 AM
In the jungle, the animals live according to their instinct. Their
ability to integrate it into their element determines their
capacity to fight against other animals and survive. Fighting to
survive is the law that the plutocracy, the class of the fiercest
predators, has imposed on the human society. They live on the
consumption of people and the Earth as their prey, without
divine intervention. Might is right, compete-or-die is their
morality, and the reason of the State and the Church.
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Thursday, June 5 | 3:13 PM
A man proclaimed that God told him that He had chosen him
to be his messenger. Another man said he had heard the
proclamation and believed it was the truth. Male sayings about
God’s preference for them are the origin of the prophets and
the belief in them as emissaries of the truth as spoken divine
inspiration. But the fact is not divine or evil, but rather an event
caused by the conjunction of the results of singular chemical
reactions in the universe.
Friday, June 6 | 7:30 AM
The Church has replaced reason with the illusion of faith as
the medium through which the believers understand the world
and accept it as the place where God exiled them to serve their
sentence for having sinned. This involution of the human
consciousness is a product of the obscurantism and the fear
with which the Church treats their ignorance and fills it with
the illusion of eternal salvation.
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Armed with the illusion of the only true faith in the only true
God, the Church captures the believers’ minds, charges them
tribute for protecting them from God's wrath, and hands them
over to the capitalist class. They put the yoke on their necks,
with the power of the State and their proclamation of trust in
God, to exploit them, and steal the product of their
The believers have renounced their will to power, which is the
umbilical cord that unites them to nature and its revolution,
and surrendered the management of their destiny to the
Church and the State. Their minds are controlled by the
parasitic caste of the illusionists—priests, politicians, usurers,
and generals—who keep them anchored in the hope for the
future. Like faith, hope continues to be the counterrevolution
that contains the development of the human primates as the
stellar beings who were produced by the big bang.
The God illusionists stimulate the faith hallucinations of the
believers with the suggestions sin, eternal damnation,
repentance, redemption, and eternal life. Under their influence,
the human primates ceased to revolutionize their self-
awareness and relationship with the Church, the State, and the
capitalist class. Their acceptance of illusion as reality is the
reason of their slavery, and decadence as a Femina-Homo Sapiens
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Friday, June 6 | 7:48 AM
The poisonous secretion of my pores protects my
hippocampus from the corrosion produced by the mixture of
dogmas and emotions in the war-ridden world of the carnivore
Friday, June 6 | 7:48 AM
Once, I was a red-headed creature who lived in a desert cave,
submerged in states of intermittent hallucinations stimulated
by the neutrinos rain and the ingestion of poisonous pollen.
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Friday, June 6 | 6:43 PM
And the crowd roars each time the grand wizard of
hallucinations manipulates the candied objects of their infantile
desires in the hemispheres of their addictive programmable
Monday, June 9 | 12:09 PM
The hunger of the dispossessed is the painful fact that reveals
that life is not an invulnerable divine possession, but the result
of the capacity to struggle against the capitalist predators who
control the food industry.
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Wednesday, June 11 | 9:39 AM
The human primates who try to avoid their physical destiny by
remaining static, while life passes through their pores, are not
aware that they are holograms that light carries to populate the
unknown spaces, impelled by the waves generated by the
Sunday, June 15 | 12:35 PM
The human primates who are not aware of their transient
nature live in the field of reality where the objects of their
pleasure appear to be capturable. Their desire for permanence
absorbs them into a state of manic preoccupation with the
erection, the quantification, the comparison, and the
maintenance of the market value of their self.
43. Notes from My Mobile Brain
Tuesday, June 17 | 5:03 PM
If you think that you need inspiration to create the meaning of
your life, look into the eyes of a dispossessed hungry person.
Sunday, June 22 | 4:22 PM
Thinking of Akira Kurosawa’s Dreams
I have two arteries, filled with warm and fertile blood, which I
could open to paint the reason of the avenues that the Imperial
State built to celebrate the Robber Barons’ victories in the oil
wars. In those lonely spaces, inspired by military brutality, the
soldiers march with a firm conviction to fight the wars that
their predecessors did not end. Their command is the same as
it ever was: defend the honor of the feudal lord and
demonstrate courage in the carnage that is the ultimate sacrifice
required by God and the State.
44. Humberto Gómez Sequeira-HuGóS
Wednesday, July 2 | 10:56 AM
The bourgeoisie’s and the clergy’s works, namely,
obscurantism, hunger, and war are the constituents of the real
world. Their purpose is to keep humanity divided into exploiter
and exploited classes. In the burning world—which they
celebrate with money, flags, and crucifixes—no belief is
rational or useful if its agent does not convert it into an
instrument for uprooting the cause of those works: class
superiority based on ignorance, greed, and hatred from
Sunday, July 20 | 1:56 PM
The human primates need to understand the effects of the
electrochemical activity of the elements in the body of the
senses that they use to interact with the world and gather the
impressions that stimulate their experience of pleasure and
pain. Knowing that fire causes desire, they can transmit their
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energy without being consumed by it or burning the feelings
of another. Thus, they must keep the water separated from the
fire to prevent the mind from evaporating.
Thinking above the surface of the skin and outside the vortex
of desire, the human primates can build a shield of wisdom to
protect each other from the toxic effects that the activity of the
selfish neuron causes.
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Friday, July 25 | 2:20 PM
The last time a woman tried to attract me to her orbit, with the
waves that she was making with her smile, the trajectory of my
head was intercepted by the sensual spectacle of a sudden rain.
Saturday, July 26 | 3:44 PM
The usurers must be content with the prime interest rate; the
timely payment of their debts; the progress of their pillage
wars; the consumption of dogmas by the new generations; and
the comportment of the masses locked in their factories,
ghettos, markets, churches, and prisons. Their incessant
accumulation of profits and fear of losing power is the
condition for the State to dispense democracy or dictatorship
to their slaves with the blessing of the Sacred Mother Church.
47. Notes from My Mobile Brain
Thursday, July 31 | 12:21 PM
The human primates are born endowed by nature with the
mathematical, artistic, and sensible properties of their brains.
Therefore, freedom is the only condition for the fruition of
their chemical qualities into the consciousness of equality. The
Church and the State cannot be the fertilizers of freedom for
they are the feudal lords’ watchtowers on the fields of slavery.
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Friday, August 1 | 7:01 PM
“In God we trust. We believe that Israel has the right to defend
itself from the victims of its State terrorism.”
Declaration of the Government of the United States of Israel,
formerly known as the Government of the United States of
Saturday, August 2 | 2:24 PM
The fear of dying is generated by the neurons that have become
dependent on the life of the body of desire.
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Wednesday, August 13 | 2:07 PM
The back of her miniskirt bounced in the waves that her
buttocks made, as she impelled her body with her muscular
legs through the heat of the day, spectacularly.
Friday, August 15 | 3:59 PM
The good of the past—the human innocence, the blueness of
the sky, and the fertility of the Earth—has been consumed by
the raging fire of the present that creates the ashes of the
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Friday, August 15 | 3:59 PM
Like the footprints in the sand, which are erased by the water,
the words on the tongue are absorbed by the emptiness of the
Friday, August 15 | 3:59 PM
She dances, euphorically, with her head above the sparks that
she makes with the rhythm of her hips.
51. Notes from My Mobile Brain
Monday, August 18 | 3:31 PM
The suspect appeared agitated and moving, making gestures
that the officer, according to standard procedure, interpreted
to be life-threatening. Therefore, the officer fired at the
suspect, wounding him lethally.
Thursday, August 21 |3:51 PM
She sits on the end of her spine, indifferent to the time that has
bent the way in which she stares at the tree that sheds the leaves
that the wind blows into her mind.
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Thursday, August 21 | 3:21 PM
Freedom is the power to exist without the fatal condition of
the body of the senses and the duality of desire.
Thursday, August 21 | 3:21 PM
The radical remoteness of the consciousness of life, which is
the expression of the universe, cannot be reached by the
human primate whose perception is conditioned by
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Saturday, August 30 | 8:32 AM
Why do people radiate the stress that suppresses their
rationality over another? Because the chemical force, mixed
with ignorance, compels them to attract another to the web in
which capitalism incubates its pressure. Attraction to pleasure
and pain is the mechanism that the capitalist class uses to
control the psyche of the wage slaves who are not aware that
they are the effect of the class struggle.
The wage slaves need to realize that the conditions of their
existence—obscurantism, faith, patriotism, misogyny,
selfishness, competition, consumption, pleasure, illness,
suffering, psychosis, hate, and war—have been created by the
ruling class to maintain its power over them. The enforcers of
that power are the Church and the State.
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Wednesday, September 3 | 2:40 PM
The ego is the mirror on which the human primates see the
instrument that they have shaped with their sense of
conformity to be able to relate to the unconformities of the
world that seduce them, repudiate them, and consume them.
Wednesday, September 3 | 2:56 PM
The thinker is an anomaly of the world created by the State and
the Church with the drugs that they administer to their
congregations in conformity with the Big Pharma Mission of
Opioids for All and the Hope of the Resurrection. In this
laboratory of market behavior, the statesmen and the preachers
of the Atomic Age manipulate the patients’ minds with the
tools of wizardry, faith, patriotism, heaven, hell, television,
democracy, the death penalty, war, hunger, and the desire for
the Next Big Thing. They are the Big Brothers of the Advent
of the New World Order who define the meaning of life with
the spirit of the eternal Holy War against the Anti-Christ.
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The thinker is a solitary primate who erected himself from the
world of the manic-depressive crowds that are excited by
Gods, Bankers, Generals, and Clowns into recurrent
convulsions of faith, patriotism, euphoria, and violence. The
element where his thoughts grow is conditioned by the
dichotomic tendencies of his species: conformity and dissent;
independence and subordination; and immorality and honesty.
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Monday, September 8 | 10:19 AM
“If you buy this water [said the woman on the gas station TV]
ten cents will be donated to fight hunger.” And I thought to
myself: how can hunger, which is caused by the Robber
Barons’ appropriation of food, be combated with the revenues
from the sale of stolen water?
Wednesday, September 17 | 3:17 PM
Where do you come from?
When you are sleeping your exhalation carries your awareness
to a point in the universe without the frontiers—psychological,
ideological, and military—that the Church and the State build
around your mind as the parameters within which they allow
you to manifest your self as an entity made of faith and
Only the brain knows.
57. Notes from My Mobile Brain
Saturday, September 20 | 10:04 AM
The objects of reality that stimulate my sensations have started
to slip through the porous web of my memory, like the leaves
that the tree releases to the wind when the seasons change.
Consequently, my ability to function as the reactive awareness,
which is the transformer of imagination into words, has begun
to fall in the lethargy of atomic decay.
Saturday, September 20 | 12:40 PM
The monkey remains an animal even after the human primate
dresses it with silk for it is an entity whose nature cannot be
altered. The attempt to change the impression that the
monkey’s naked body causes in the eye of the observer is a
reflection of the delusional way in which the urban human
primate constructs its self.
The word God remains a word even after the inventors of its
connotation adorn it with divine properties to sell it in the faith
market as the name of a real superior being who is the creator
of the inferior human being. They disguise themselves as
agents of the power that they associate with the word to create
the impression, before the hopeful spectators, that they are not
primates, but a privileged caste of prophets. The root of faith
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is a state of mind that the God illusionists generate through the
manipulation of the human primates’ ignorance and fear. In
Christianity, it is the sensation that the Church creates in the
mind of its tributaries converting the image of a crucified
stranger into their redeemer.
God is a word that was imposed on the dictionary as a
traumatic effect of the victory of the sacerdotal caste in the war
that they made against the heretic society to subdue it and
convert it into the consumer of a new talisman. Its definition
is the existential condition that the victor imposed to the
defeated to turn the word into a desirable object that inspires
fear, spiritual value, and the payment of tribute.
Like the word gold, the word God does not have a meaning or
value. The madmen who proclaim to be the word’s agents
attempt to paint it with a certain sense using gold to adorn their
banality and build the objects that they use to create the
impression of their divinely hollow power.
The word monkey has a true meaning because its root is life,
which is an event that continues to evolve from the chemistry
of the Earth. God cannot serve as the sense of the animal that
evolved into the conscious agent of the chemical reactions
composed by its brain under the influence of nature.
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Monday, September 22 | 6:19 PM
Appreciate the body of flammable skin that you inhabit, not
for the pleasure it transmits to your mind, but for the effort
that you must make to meet the conditions that keep it alive.
Wednesday, September 24 | 2:09 PM
Time is an unknown subterranean creature that roams through
Earth’s cavities and petrifies its magma. When a human
primate dies, time penetrates the body’s arteries and turns the
blood into ashes.
Time flies ahead of space and stands still to let it expand.
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Wednesday, September 24 | 3:25 PM
The perception of life that grows on the mind is like the fruit
that grows on the tree. After it has ripened, the fruit falls on
the Earth and starts to decay. Nobody can remain the same
person in the continuum of the air that forms the memory, the
dream, and the nightmare of life.
Wednesday, September 24 | 3:25 PM
The human primate is the product of a chemical reaction that
cannot remain in the same state for it happens in the space-
time current. It drags the images of the memory of the self until
they start to dissipate and become the emptiness in which
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Wednesday, September 24 | 8:26 PM
I love the addiction that turns my head up and down without
I grew up with a feverish child who was addicted to the fear
inspired by the thirsty anguish on the face of a crucified
I live to get high, and I hope to feel the intense rush while I
ride the wave of death in the vast sky.
Sunday, September 28 | 11:44 AM
God is a word that the faith merchants sell in the market of
obscurantism and fear as a sedative for the suffering that they
create in the believers’ lives. Some human primates buy it as
the main character of a magic show in which He is the master
whose powers are written in a book that they call Holy. Before
the merchants institutionalized God, by making wars of
conquest and pillage, the human primates walked the Earth
freely, led by their stellar brains, and sustained by the chemical
purity of their instinct.
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Sunday, October 5 | 2:06 PM
I live in a remote place of the mind, away from my feelings, to
avoid hurting myself.
Wednesday, October 8 | 9:09 AM
Life is the product of a cosmic circumstance. Knowing this fact
and transforming it into science is the result of the intellectual
activity of the human primates who responded to the instinct
emitted by their neurological network. With daring curiosity,
they erected, aligned their vision with the stars, and created the
tools to navigate the path of evolution. These Femina-Homo
Erectus were the vanguards of the spacewalkers. The human
primates who did not respond to the stimulus of nature stayed
in the umbra of their brains and invented the word God to
explain their fear of transformation.
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Friday, October 10 | 1:34 PM
My parents kept a supply of blessed palms in the closet for
protection from the devil and God. When a storm whipped the
Earth, they would tell me that the reason was God was angry
at us. To protect the house and us from the lightning, they
attached a blessed palm, shaped like a crucifix, on the inside of
the door of the house, and another one, shaped like a halo,
around our heads. In this superstitious way, they faced their
fear of natural phenomena, which they did not understand
scientifically, and transmitted it to me.
The sorcerers of the Colonialist Catholic Church, who
controlled my parents’ mind with obscurantism, converted said
phenomena into a stimulus of fear to suggest that God and his
wrath were real. They implanted this suggestion in the minds
of the human primates as an additive to the electrochemistry
that produces their behavior. Without this fear, which
conditions their lives, the human primates would not behave
as the subjects of the faith in a God who requires that they
suffer to deserve his grace.
Fear is the stimulus of belief in the unknown, whose frontier
is the word God, imposed by the Church on the human
64. Humberto Gómez Sequeira-HuGóS
Friday, October 10 | 2:25 PM
Thank God for my credit card! I love it because it gives me the
advantage of using a modern weapon, equipped with a high-
security microchip, to compete with the other consumers in
the market where I am a good debtor of the usurers and the
Monday, October 20 | 1:35 PM
The rock does not shed a tear even after the rain has touched
The heart does not break even after human beings have
pounded it with hate.
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Wednesday, October 22 | 9:09 PM
Things I used to hold with avid comprehension, when the
world was replete with desire, like clusters of adolescent
neurons on fire, have begun to lose their passionate intention.
Friday, October 24 | 10:28 AM
The self-designated men of God—popes, senators, usurers,
and generals—have converted religion and its elements, that is,
ignorance, guilt, and fear into the spirituality of free enterprise.
“In God, We Trust” is the usurers’ justification for the criminal
effects of capitalism: the enslavement of the proletariat,
hunger, and war.
Extracting the confession of guilt, with torture, for offending
God and the ruling class that trusts Him, from the tributary
slaves is how the Church and the State impose spirituality on
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Friday, October 24 | 3:25 PM
I lose my civilized purpose, deliberately, amongst the objects
of the senses in the consumer market, to test my ability to
behave like a primate capable of reasoning.
Sunday, October 26 | 6:23 PM
I experience pain as the effect of a martyr’s suppressed desire
that leads me through the path where everything I see is like
me: a door to emptiness.
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Thursday, October 30 | 10:49 AM
May God grant me his power to eradicate the conditions—
ignorance, selfishness, vaingloriousness, and hate—that
stimulate the existence of the popes, landlords, usurers, war
merchants, and drug lords. They are the predators who feed
their opulent ego with the suffering of the homeless,
prostitutes, drug addicts, and mentally ill persons who tell me
God bless you as a value exchange for the alms I give them.
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Saturday, November 1 | 5:50 PM
I die each time another dies, without having met, in the world
that we inhabit.
Sunday, November 2 |7:27 AM
When the nuclear clouds enshroud my head, and life appears
opaque, I bleed a little and cry a lot to keep my perception clear
and reality flowing.
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Tuesday, November 4 | 4:54 PM
I lick her skin, fallen on the pyre, lit with the virulent tongue
that the Holy Inquisitor used to incinerate her body, with
devotion until her pores open and radiate the innocence of her
Wednesday, November 5 |11:17 AM
I cannot wait until God decides if I qualify for eternal salvation.
I need to keep imagining the words that can infuse sense into
the chemistry of my existence.
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Wednesday, November 5 | 10:50 PM
Tomorrow started yesterday and now is passing through your
porous mind, as you breathe the air that takes you to a point in
the future without sensible dimensions.
Wednesday, November 5 | 10:51 PM
The State and the Church own the patents of your nationality
and spirituality, which are the psychological weapons with
which the plutocracy maintains its power.
Armed with obscurantism and intimidation, the Statesmen and
the Clergymen mark your forehead with the seals of taxation—
the flag, and the crucifix—and chain you to the plutocracy’s
war chest for life.
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Wednesday, November 5 | 10:52 PM
Life without pain would be an unpleasurable experience.
Wednesday, November 5 | 10:53 PM
Life is made of a photographic skin exposed to the erosion
caused by the winds that blow the leaves of its memories
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Thursday, November 6 | 5:40 PM
Every day, I make the honest effort to compensate the balance
of the natural order for the defects in the mold of my
domestication. I confine myself to a realm of perception where
the desire to intimate with other human primates cannot
contaminate the chemical purity of my thought.
Friday, November 7 | 10:35 PM
Men invented honor as a property of their character. They
infused it with the additives of faith and patriotism and
convinced other men to make war to defend it. The illusions
of masculinity and glory are the justifications that they use for
killing or being killed without reason.
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Friday, November 7 | 10:38 PM
I stimulate my neurons watching movies in which the actors
excite themselves into crying to draw the watcher’s feelings,
and thus complete the drama.
Friday, November 7 | 10:39 PM
I go crazy in my mind, from time to time, for the sake of
reason. I withdraw from the line waiting for redemption and
run, naked and screaming, through the alleys where the
obscure creatures gather.
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Wednesday, November 12 | 6:48 AM
The people voted, once again, for the candidate that best
represented the plutocracy’s qualities—idiocy, parasitism,
selfishness, deceptiveness, truculence, extravagance,
vaingloriousness, and infertility—and the freedom of the
magical Walt Disney World. The candidate was only a
character of the spectacle in which the voter was the spectator
directed by the candidate’s emoticons orchestrator.
Sunday, November 16 | 10:56 AM
Pride is the emotion that captures the mind of some human
primates during their contact with the elements of their
illusionary world: class, country, God, and property. They use
it as the face value of their lives and justification to make war
to defend it.
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Sunday, November 16 | 3:07 PM
If the life you are living is a series of interruptions, held
together by the strands of your nervous system, the reason is
that your perception disintegrates in the spaces between your
thoughts, or you are living with your extrinsic mind attached
to the movement of another who is not in your orbit.
Tuesday, November 18 | 11:26 AM
When my perception becomes rarified, I go into the market to
search for the object of thought that can make me feel solid
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Tuesday, November 18 | 11:30 AM
The root of science is nature, an organism that evolves,
continuously, impelled by the forces of the atom. Nature and
its magnificent, fluid, and sensible presence is the powerful
stimulant of the brain of science, not the divine breath. It is a
hallucinatory state excited by the sellers of the word God,
armed with the threat of eternal damnation.
The scientists are primates that evolved from nature
stimulating the growth of their brain through their sensorial
interaction with their element. Their activity, investigation and
discovery, produced the chemical conditions that enabled
them to revolutionize their perception of themselves, the
world, and the way they lived.
The human primates erected, confronted nature, and engaged
with it as the conscious observers of its movement and
gatherers of the data with which they began to construct the
laws that explain it.
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Thursday, November 20 | 3:24 PM
Once upon a time, there was a man who lived with his left eye
closed, intentionally. To carry out his existential tasks, he
gathered the images of his sensorial world with his right eye.
One evening, when he was gazing at the sky, a man who used
his two eyes to form his perspective of the world saw him and
asked him why he used only one eye to see. He answered, “I
keep my left eye closed because I do not want what it might
see to distort my view of my world.”
Friday, November 21 | 2:41 PM
The erections, incited by the artful confabulations of the
neurons, interrupt the sleep of the indifferent skin to revive me
in the memory of the dreams and involuntary ejaculations of
the pleasure of the pubescent innocence.
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Friday, November 21 | 4:17 PM
Faith is the faithful’s pernicious attempt to shield themselves
from the painful reality of being mortal.
Friday, November 21 | 9:15 PM
My mission in this life is to learn the way of being of the animal
who silently retires to its cave to die.
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Saturday, November 22 | 7:48 AM
The wage slaves who vote in the election for President of the
masters’ State renounce themselves as the agents of their
claims and the revolution that they need to make to fulfill
them. The masters control the election with their idea of free
enterprise as the condition of democracy; their propaganda
machine; the bribery of the candidates; and the support of their
business agents in the Government.
In the election process, the wage slaves are the objects of the
illusions—faith, patriotism, democracy, and fear of the
“foreign enemy”—with which the masters’ candidates guide
them to vote against themselves. Their acceptance of said
illusions in exchange for their real interests—freedom,
equality, justice, peace, and prosperity—is the reason they
entrust their claims to the masters’ business agents. In return
for their trust, their class enemies use their votes as the
weapons that the masters use to fight against them for the
absolute control of the State. The emotional dependence on
the State, as the protective Uncle Sam, has enabled the masters
to fuse the wage slaves’ interests with capitalism, totalitarian
democracy, and the for-profit wars.
The submission to the masters’ rule is the condition of the
existence of the voting system as a democratic spectacle in
which the exploited and the exploiters participate as friendly
compatriots with the same purpose, that is, the preservation of
the masters’ system of slavery: capitalism and democracy. This
abnormal relation, between predator and prey, is the result of
the wage slaves’ historic defeat by the Masters’ forces in the
class struggle. The State destroyed the wage slaves’ rebellious
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spirit by terrorizing them, eliminating their organizations, and
declassing them. Without the power of their class
consciousness, the State forced them to continue to be the
masters’ prey in the economy and cannon fodder in their war
fronts. Thus, the masters confirmed themselves as the
conquering class with the right to own the country they stole
and the wealth that they extract from the exploitation of the
The wage slaves do not oppose their fusion with the masters
who consume them and discard them. They support the
masters’ political parties and labor unions that cultivate their
bondage. In the political warfare for the power of the State, the
exploited do not differentiate themselves from the exploiters
with their political party, program, or anthem. Adversely, they
participate in the election as patriots of the country that the
masters pillage, and vote for the candidates who embody their
The corruption of the wage slaves consciousness is the central
reason the masters can maintain the illusions with which they
dominate them. The masters’ propaganda machine tells them
that they are not slaves, but free citizens with equal rights under
the Constitution of the country that the masters founded as
their fiefdom. Furthermore, the machine convinces them that
they can have rights only in capitalism for it is the spirit of
freedom of the American democracy. The illusionists who are
the masters’ propaganda machine—politicians, generals,
preachers, broadcasters, entertainers, teachers, and labor union
bosses—cultivate the illusions with faith and patriotism.
In the absence of the wage slaves resistance, the masters have
been able to replace their dignity with their trinity of
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immorality, which is exploitation, profit, and war. The wage
slaves do not see the masters as their enemies, that is, as the
thieves who stole their means of survival, appropriate the
product of their labor, and use the power of the State and the
Church to keep them enslaved. They regard the masters as
compatriots with whom they share the same homeland and
existential purpose, equally. In reality, this is an illusion that
obscures the masters’ nature as predators who live off the wage
The reason of the wage slaves’ abnormal relation with the
masters is, in part, their emotional attachment to the meaning
that the masters infused on the noun America, the country they
patented as their private property, as “the land of the free and
the home of the brave.” Besides, the lack of ideological
independence and political power in the struggle for survival
produced the submission of the exploited to the exploiters’
democratic oppression system. These are the reasons the
masters’ business agents can use the wage slaves’ votes as the
weapons with which they executed a coup d’état. Consequently,
they have replaced the principle of democracy—a Government of
the people, by the people, and for the people—with the masters’
existential condition: “We are the State and its purpose.”
Entrusting their life demands to the masters’ Democrat and
Republican overseers, the wage slaves agree to the terms of
their slavery system, Constitution, and Government. Under
those terms, they must remain dispossessed throughout their
generations; accept wages that are not equal to the value of
their work; live in inequality, and die with their soul indebted
to the company store.
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The wage slaves who participate in the election that the masters
control contribute to the maintenance of the State as the
masters’ scepter. Submitting to the restrictions—of life, liberty,
and justice—that the State imposes on them, they defeat
themselves as the subjects of the revolution that they need to
make and continues to be the requirement for their
emancipation. So too they negate that the masters are their
enemies (not their kinfolk) whose only purpose is to exploit
them to convert their energy into surplus value.
Using the State, the Church, obscurantism, totalitarian
democracy, and the state of siege as their weapons, the masters
are exterminating the wage slaves as the class of the producers
of the values—ideas, goods, services, art, and interaction—that
society needs to sustain itself and progress. Without their
emancipation as the result of a social revolution, society cannot
extirpate the cause of its crisis: the masters’ control of the
means of production, the State, and society’s vision of itself as
a commodity and consumer of commodities.
The masters are a gang of predators whose animal instinct
restricts the use of their power to hunting to maintain it and
expanding their hunting ground. They have divided humanity
and the Earth according to their rapacious needs, using the
State and the Church as their dividing weapons. Consequently,
they do not have the social sensibility which is the capacity
needed to build an egalitarian society.
The vote under the masters’ dictatorship, whose official motto
is “In God We Trust,” has not produced the advancement of
society to altruism. This state of consciousness is the condition
for society’s preservation through the achievement of freedom,
equality, justice, well-being, and peace. Furthermore, the
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absence of a revolutionary class in society, acting as the
altruistic model of living socially, explains the animalization of
humanity under the dictatorship of ignorance, avarice, hate,
and war that the masters, the politicians, the military, the
intelligentsia, and the clergy preside.
84. Humberto Gómez Sequeira-HuGóS
Saturday, November 22 | 8:29 AM
Suicide is the human primate’s self-possessed decision to end
the painful struggle to comply with the edict for the payment
of the tribute to the privileged caste that administers the State
and the Church. These institutions are the spearheads with
which they defend the parasitic, opulent, sterile, and corrupt
life of the ruling class whom they serve.
Saturday, November 22 | 10:31 AM
Celebrities’ photos should be transparent so that their fans
could see their gastrointestinal tract and appreciate the
metabolic matter that sustains their charming smiles.
85. Notes from My Mobile Brain
Saturday, November 22 | 11:59 AM
I am walking on concrete, following the light of my shadow,
without a rational thought in my head. My scent attracts the
eyes on the faces that have the look of hunger. The dimming
light reveals the shine of the blood under my skin. What will
keep me from being consumed by the bloodthirsty creatures,
before I arrive at where am going?
Saturday, November 22 | 6:02 PM
“It’s beginning to look a lot like Christmas.” The plutocracy
and its lackeys—politicians, generals, and popes—got fatter to
spend another winter in their forbidden palaces protected by
their Pretorian Guard from the lethal effects of the war that
they make against the toiling tributary masses to keep them
dispossessed, starving, divided, illusioned, and unable to rebel.
86. Humberto Gómez Sequeira-HuGóS
Saturday, November 22 | 12:29 PM
Implicit in the relationship of the human primates is their
genealogical need of embracing one another to experience the
feeling of the self.
Sunday, November 23 | 6:12 PM
If you are an element in a relationship, you are an implicit
interlocutor. Do you converse or just recite the monologs
about the fanciful habits of your ego?
87. Notes from My Mobile Brain
Sunday, November 23 | 10:25 PM
Do not expect to receive adulation in exchange for your self-
elevation. Instead, be honest and work to earn merits of greater
Monday, November 24 | 6:38 AM
The African American people of Ferguson, Missouri, have the
human right to indict Darren Wilson. He was a public
employee who used his job as a police officer and a publically
owned gun to kill Michael Brown on August 9, 2014.
88. Humberto Gómez Sequeira-HuGóS
Monday, November 24 | 8:25 AM
I am where the elements of life and my self mix and become
the mind in which I can travel, without a mortal heart, to the
world in which I will not be an element of a chemical species.
Monday, November 24 | 1:54 PM
Touch the hands, cold and rusty, fallen on the avenues of the
public order that the patriarchs built with petroleum and the
fossils of magnificent Native Americans and African slaves.
They contain the augur of the present future of the virulent
empire that they sustained.
89. Notes from My Mobile Brain
Monday, November 24 | 10:58 PM
Since the human primate is born, the State and the Church
appropriate its brain, lobotomize it, uniform it, and convert it
into the greenhouse where they grow the germs of ignorance,
selfishness, avarice, hate, and war.
Tuesday, November 25 | 8:10 AM
The Robber Barons’ State imposes on the wage slaves the
following conditions for living in the country that they stole:
payment of the nationality and property tax, support for their
wars of conquest, and belief in their God. The slaves’
fulfillment of these requirements determines the Barons’
power to exist in human society as the predatory ruling class.
90. Humberto Gómez Sequeira-HuGóS
Tuesday, November 25 | 8:11 AM
The truth about the nature of the ruling class and their relation
with society is distorted by the operators of their propaganda
machine, that is, politicians, chaplains, generals, intellectuals,
journalists, teachers, labor union bosses, and political
psychologists. The operators call the rulers entrepreneurs and
their predatory activity free enterprise. The State imposes these
lies on society’s mind with the morality of the Nuclear Bomb
and the God whose blessings the Congress and the Joint Chiefs
of Staff invoke before starting a war of conquest.
Sunday, November 30 | 1:14 PM
I walk the avenues of the Great West, populated by gasoline
stations and Automated Teller Machines, looking for the
meaning of life. I come to a supermarket where I stand at the
entrance smiling, without a preconceived intention, at the
consumers who enter and exit, impelled by the primitive
instinct generated by their metabolic needs.
91. Notes from My Mobile Brain
Monday, December 1 | 7:25 AM
In the empire of the manifest destiny, demarcated by the bones
of magnificent Native Americans and African slaves, it is easier
to find the personification of hunger than the reason of free
enterprise in the neighborhoods impoverished by the State
armed with the war budget.
Monday, December 1 | 8:34 AM
The question that continues to defy the human primates is:
how can they retain the awareness of themselves and the world
in which they practiced it through the process of the death of
92. Humberto Gómez Sequeira-HuGóS
Sunday, December 7 | 11:00 AM
To understand life and thus be able to live it freely, you only
need to aspire the sky deeply, close your eyes softly, and
submerge your head, silently, in the clarity that emerges from
the emptiness that thoughts and things cannot fill.
Saturday, December 20 | 8:23 AM
The comparison of one’s self with another may serve as the
measure of ignorance or wisdom. The truth of mortality does
not change when a person who is healthy compares themselves
with another who is sick to decide whose life is more valuable.
Life cannot be infused with the false sense of self-importance
that comparison produces. One cannot be a mountain, an
ocean, or a cloud. How, then, can one be greater than
something or someone else?
93. Notes from My Mobile Brain
Saturday, December 20 | 8:23 AM
The human primates are made of the same bacteria that
formed itself in the boiling mud pits during the youth of Earth.
The claim that they are beings who were created by a God is a
revelation of the claimants’ ignorance, which they justify with
Sunday, December 21 | 2:35 PM
The human primates are equal to the sum of the elements that
constitute their potency. Therefore, they are the measure of
their life and death. Once they have implanted this truth on
their awareness, they will revolutionize the world that they
form with their thoughts.
94. Humberto Gómez Sequeira-HuGóS
Monday, December 22 | 10:03 AM
After 2,014 years, since the Christian Church imposed the
Anno Domini, the Church and the State have not eradicated hate
from the mind of the society that they created with the Creed
of the Resurrection and Free Enterprise as rational instruments
of government and civilization. On the contrary, the parasitic
caste, integrated by the men of God and the men of the State,
that controls the life and death of society continue to incite the
tax-paying slaves to make war against each other to cultivate
their minds with brutality as a civilized desire.
The Church’s and the State’s excitement of the holy and
patriotic war is the condition for the maintenance of the
environment that the plutocracy needs to exist as a predator of
its species protected by official indulgences.
Sunday, December 28 | 9:58 AM
The wind that carries the emotions sprung in the field of
vibration of the objects of the mind and blew them, like clouds,
until they dissipated in space.
95. Notes from My Mobile Brain
Tuesday, December 30 | 8:12 AM
Repulsion arises in the mind of the human primate after the
chewing gum of pleasure dries out on their tongue, and they
feel the need to expel it. Pleasure and repulsion, arisen from
desire, are the parameters within which they live, like birds in
cages, to protect themselves from their instinct to love freely.
96. The Ending Note
I was born from an unconscious explosion of desire. I will
die when the conscious air consumes my fire.
97. A Note to the Other
Waiting in the Future
You, the one in the now, are caught in the agitation of the
circumstances that you generate with your struggle to stay
erected to contain the disintegration of the institutions of your
You are the other who is waiting in the future for the atomic
remains of your reactions to your self-induced illusions of
emotional permanence in the constant motion of space-time.
I devoted the bloom of my affections to the cultivation of pure
disdain for the value of living in conformity. Like a falcon,
inflamed with intention, perched on a high electrical wire, I
exposed the reason for my skepticism of the canons of the
militarized order. In the court of the oracles that dictate the
infallible sentences of liberty, I revealed the conspiracy of piety
and power. And I danced for the revival of intellectuality, with
the magic mushroom in my head, until the flower of my ideal
began to dissipate within the light cycles of the infinite mind.
—Humberto Gómez Sequeira-HuGóS
99. Page 99
Books by Humberto Gómez Sequeira-HuGóS
In Transition Towards Poetry (Spanish Edition) 1978
What’s the Meaning of All This? 1988
I Was Caught in a Cloudy Turbulence 1989
First Amendment: Rejected Stories 1989
When I Was a Boy, I Had Wings 1990
Somnambulist (Spanish Edition) 1990
The Liberation of the Senses 1991
Quando Era Menino Tinha Asas
Translation by Teresinka Pereira
It Hurts to Feel (1st
Edition: 1992) 2017
This Life Isn’t Mine 1994
Visions of a Somnambulist (Spanish Edition) 2011
In Transition Towards Poetry: Granada (Nicaragua),
the Bourgeoisie, and the FSLN (Spanish Edition)
Nicaragua: The Dialogue Between the Doctrinaire
Priests and the Trustees (Spanish Edition)
Socialism of the XXI Century or the Anti-
revolution (Spanish Edition)
Notes from My Mobile Brain 2017
Magazines That Have Published HuGóS’ Work
Poema Censurado - Los Angeles, CA, U.S. 1977
La Prensa Literaria - Managua, Nicaragua 1977
Poema Convidado - Boulder, CO, U.S. 1978
Taller - León, Nicaragua 1978
Rojo y Negro - Los Angeles, CA, U.S. 1978
L.A. Weekly - Los Angeles, CA, U.S. 1987
Directory of International Writers and Artists -
Moorhead, MN, U.S.
Mutated Viruses - Chicago, IL, U.S. 1988
Sacrifice the Common Sense - Los Angeles, CA,
For Poets Only - Jackson Heights, NY, U.S. 1989
The Nocturnal Lyric - Pasadena, CA, U.S. 1989
Southern Rose Review - Ripley, MS, U.S. 1989
The Plowman - Ontario, Canada 1989
Worldwide Poets’ Circle / Poetry by the Seas -
Oceanside, CA, U.S.
The Aldebaran - Bristol, RI, U.S. 1990
Gypsy - El Paso, TX, U.S. 1990
Poetalk - Berkeley, CA, U.S. 1990
Harvest 15 - Boulder, CO, U.S. 1991
Transição - Boulder, CO, U.S. 1991
Ráfagas - Paris, France 1993
Estrella del Sur - Paterna, Valencia, España 1997
Lluvia de Vidrio - Azul, Buenos Aires, Argentina 1997
La Crónica de Jaén / Poesía Sin Fronteras - Jaén,
Free Venice Beachhead - Venice, CA, U.S. 2011
mundopoesía.com - U.S. 2012
103. About the Author
1. I Who I Am
I am a Deoxyribonucleic acid (DNA) specimen who evolved
on Earth from star dust and bacterium, approximately, 3
billion years ago. Life and the law of natural selection
transformed my ancestors into Homo Erectus. Led by their
curiosity about themselves and the universe, they created fire
and the first tools of cognition. The intellect that they
developed and transferred to my genes transformed me into a
Homo Sapiens. When my curiosity is stimulated, I can
ratiocinate, discern, and laugh, para-normally in the dark, like a
child entrapped by his fascination with dementia.
104. About the Author
My mother told me that she gave birth to me in the
room where she lived with my older brother, Franklin
Bartolomé Gómez Sequeira, in the Santa Lucía ghetto of the
City of Granada, Nicaragua, Central America. Her neighbor
gave her first aid until my maternal grandmother, Dolores
(Mama Lola) Lacayo de Sequeira, arrived and helped her
deliver me. At midday, I came out of her uterus yawning and
hungry. My Mama Lola severed my umbilical cord and buried
it in a hole in the Earth, without a marker, on March 12, 1949.
After I had turned three years old, without having
spoken any of the words of childhood, my mother told me that
she started to fear that I, perhaps, was born mute. To solve her
doubt, one day she put me to the test, to see how I would react.
She did not give me the bottle of milk at the time on which I
was accustomed to receiving it. “Then, you came to me, pulled
my dress, and told me: ‘Mama, milk.’ And this is how I found
out that you were normal.”
“One day [mother continues telling me the story of my
childhood] you drank from the tin where I kept the creolin
because you were a glutton and, perhaps, you thought it was
milk [creolin changes color, from blackish-brown to white,
when it is mixed with water]. However, thanks to God, you did
105. About the Author
3.1 A Wild Plant
I grew up, accidentally, like a wild plant, in La Otra
Banda, a reducción (reduction) that was built in Granada by the
Spanish Empire and the Catholic Empire to intern the
dispossessed survivors of their war of conquest and pillage
against the indigenous nations. It was part of the remains of
the encomienda and Indian reductions plan that the Spanish
Empire’s soldiers, encomenderos (trustees of land and native
slaves), and curas doctrineros (the catholic doctrinaire priests)
executed in Nicaragua. The reduced natives, turned into
proletarians, were the basis of the Xalteva Church: A source of
forced faith, labor, and payment of tribute to a monarchy
whose colonialist descendants still live off the wealth that they
inherited from the genocide and the larceny that their ancestors
committed against the indigenous and Afro-descendant
After my mother had impregnated me with her blood,
the Church and the State marked me as their farm animal with
the same iron of identification with which they had marked my
parents and grandparents: proletarian. Thus, the bourgeoisie
maintained its false sense of superior identity pure as the ruling
class and its life superimposed on the life of the proletariat as
its enemy. After centuries since the Spanish Empire and the
Catholic Empire had led the colonial war, the power of the
bourgeoisie and its confessor remained intact. The imposition
of the catholic cross and the law of private property of the
stolen land on the foreheads of the proletarians also was the
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condition of the Colonialist Catholic Church’s existence as the
as the conqueror of the soul of the conquered.
The purpose of the reduction was to serve as the
physical, psychological, and cultural reducer of the natives’ life.
The encomenderos and curas doctrineros demarcated their space
with the whip, the crucifix, punishment, and fear. Thus they
implanted in the reduced natives’ mind the illusion that God
had created the rich and the poor. The curas doctrineros’ sermon
exalted the natives’ dispossession as a condition that earned
them the sympathy of God. The elements of the natives’ world
that the catholic colonialists created were dispossession,
obscurantism, illiteracy, superstition, alcoholism, violence,
confession, punishment, and the fear of the God that the
Spanish Army had imported to Nicaragua as a war weapon.
The confession of faith in God and Somoza was the
norm within which the curas doctrineros and the National
Guardsmen had framed the lives of the natives who had been
conquered to enlarge the power, the faith, and the coffers of
Spain and the Vatican. The unequal struggle against the
bourgeoisie and the clergy for the possession of the wealth that
they produced was the reducer of the proletarians’ need to
overthrow the reduction. Dispossession mixed with the
superstition that they were born “poor” prevented their rising
as the historical subjects of reality, that is, life as a natural,
sensual, scientific, and political event. The surrendering of their
will to God and the bourgeoisie’s curas doctrineros and
encomenderos produced the state of conformity, precariousness,
and political impotence in which they had lived for centuries.
The relationship between the oppressors and the
oppressed of Granada—under One God made in Rome and
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One Dictator made in the U.S.—that engendered me was the
same during the colonial period. The conquerors instituted
themselves as the reason and moral for the existence of the
conquered that they consumed throughout their generations.
My maternal grandparents also lived in La Otra Banda as the
inheritors of the dehumanizing effects of the war of economic,
mental and cultural dispossession, and enslavement that the
Spanish Empire and the Catholic Empire unleashed against
Nicaragua in 1522.
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3.2 The Pacific Railway of Nicaragua
One of the memories of the life that I lived in Granada,
Nicaragua, is the station of the Pacific Railway of Nicaragua.
There, Montenegro, my coworker, and I boarded the train’s
third-class carriage in the early morning, together with the
peasants who, like us, were going to sell their products in the
towns whose territories were crossed by the train tracks.
For us, the kids who were studying at the Padre Misieri
Elementary School—which was a neighbor of the train
station—the train was like a giant horse with wheels that had
evolved in the imagination of humanity. It stimulated our joy
when we heard the sound of its whistle, and the roar of its
engine announcing its return from Corinto.
After the teacher dismissed the class, at four in the
afternoon, we ran towards the train station, jumped into its
cars, and joined it in its final trip to the warehouse located at
the Lake Nicaragua pier. When the workers had finished
unloading the goods that the train brought in its wagons and
depositing them in the warehouse, the machinist operated the
locomotive in reverse until we arrived at the turntable at the
train station. There, we helped the driver push the locomotive’s
head to turn it around for its journey back to the stations of
the North on the next morning.
The train arrived in Granada as a noble ambassador
that crossed the Coalbrookdale Iron Bridge in England to bring
the news of the fire of the industrial revolution that the
proletariat had ignited in Europe. Its fiery and sonorous head
came full of dreams, games, romances, and progress for the
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pillaged nation. It was a historical monument to the proletariat
for its contribution to the development of the transportation
of production and efficiency in the satisfaction of the needs of
society. The progress of the nation—especially of the
proletarian family who looked after the train—depended on
the preservation and development of it as part of the culture
of a nation that had been looted and kept in backwardness.
The reactionary bourgeoisie—which was engendered by the
Spanish Empire, the Catholic Empire, and the Yankee
Empire—saw the train only as a commodity that did not
produce surplus value.
Although the workers had built it as a ship to travel to
the future—with vision, determination, and steel—the train
became a fragile object in the hands of Adolfo Díaz Recinos
who was a trusted bandit of the White House and the Holy
See. As a member of the Conservative Party, Díaz Recinos
took the power of the State in 1911 with the backing of the
Colonialist Catholic Church (CCC) and the U.S. Marine Corps,
whose violent intrusion in the life of Nicaragua he requested.
As the former secretary of the La Luz and Los Angeles
Mining Company—owned by James Gilmore Fletcher and his
brothers, G. Fred & D. Watson Fletcher, and Henry P.
Fletcher—, Diaz Recinos helped the Yankee pirates steal the
gold from the mines of the nation. His treacherous relationship
with Nicaragua was the product of his lack of a sense of self-
ownership, independence, character, and political morality.
Being a house servant of Yankee pirates was his source of self-
realization and pride.
Unlike Augusto César Sandino, Díaz Recinos did not
have the sense of dignity nor did he understand it as the
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principal value of the nation. Therefore, he handed control of
the finances of the State and the train to the bandits Brown
Brothers & Company and J. & W. Seligman & Company as
security for loans to consolidate the State debt. Following his
example, the Conservative, Liberal, and Sandinista politicians
that have succeeded him in the Government have not rejected
the collection of the odious debt as the exercise of a national
liberation duty. On the contrary, they continue to indebt and
sell the country as a profitable commodity.
The Conservative Party undermined the future of the
train as a social good and stimulus for the development of the
nation, which was supported by the faithful work of the
proletariat. The Yankee imperialist usurers infected the minds
of their Nicaraguan encomenderos (their trusted bandits,
vendepatrias or traitors, in the Government) with their modus
operandi: bribery, fraud, lying, and aggressing. The usurers
converted their Nicaraguan henchmen into the transmitters of
the political corruption plague that continues to dominate the
conduct of the bureaucracy that exploits the Catholic
Díaz Recinos created the political mannequin which
continues to be the model of conduct that all his successors in
the Government have followed. His creeping behavior,
shamelessness, lying, stealing, self-indulgence, and social
indifference became the characteristics of the new generations
of catholic politicians. Like their Conservative founding father,
they do not have character and are corruptible under the heat
of the desire for power, fortune, and fame.
The rulers who had the duty of preserving the train
continued using it as a pawning object with a value relative to
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their meanness and political advantage. Therefore, they
neglected, dismantled, and, finally, Violeta Barrios Torres de
Chamorro—who was the President of Nicaragua in 1994—
sold it as scrap metal. Doña Violeta also took the power of the
State with the backing of the CCC and the Yankee Empire
under the Presidency of George Herbert Walker Bush, a
member of the Republican Party. Doña Violeta ended what
Díaz Recinos started out with the same vendepatria (traitorous)
mentality of sacrificing the heritage of the nation to keep
fattening the Yankee imperialist usurers with the bloody
payment of interest on the odious debt.
The train was an instrument of work, life, joy, and
poetic inspiration for the thousands of people who inhabited
the towns it visited. The declaration of love for the train of
Norma Ramos—an Agent at the Mateare Station—reveals the
feeling that the proletariat had developed for it, and the true
motherland consciousness. In interview with Canal 10
Nicaragua—for the Documentary the Train: On the Rails of
Memory—on September 23, 2011, Ms. Ramos said: "It was
like my husband, everything, everything to me." She cried the
tears of the value of her relation with the train.
However, the lackeys of the Yankee imperialist usurers,
the bourgeoisie, and the Vatican who lived off the State’s
usufruct eliminated it to comply with the conditions of the
army of social extermination called International Monetary
Fund (IMF) and World Bank (WB). The politicians that
destroyed the value of the train for the life of the proletariat
revealed the truth of their consciousness. To them, the national
heritage is a merchandise subject to the law of supply and
demand. Therefore, love for the motherland and loyalty to her
are feelings that are not a condition for their existence. In
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economic reality, politicians are social parasites who live off
the sale of the resources of the country they claim to represent.
Love and loyalty are only objects of their demagogic speeches
in their political campaigns, driven by their ambition,
falsehood, and social indifference.
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3.3 The Catholic Somoza Dinasty
I woke up to the cognitive life in a society whose
citizens had adapted to the life of indifferent prisoners of the
dictatorship of the Colonialist Catholic Church and Anastasio
Somoza García, the so-called Tacho. He was another trusted
villain of the Holy See and the White House whom they had
designated as the overseer of their interest in Nicaragua.
Tacho, who had appointed himself General—after failing as a
businessman—was the boss of the bourgeois, catholic, pro-
Yankee imperialist, and terrorist Mafia that controlled the life
of the nation, the exploitation of the proletariat, and the
appropriation of the wealth that the working class produced.
The features of that world—which had been shaped by
the violence of the Spanish Empire, the Catholic Empire, and
the Yankee Empire—were the social scourges that had formed
on the open wounds of the consciousness of the survivors of
the Indigenous Holocaust. To convert them into faithful
tributary slaves, the empires’ armies dehumanized them, and
attempted to extirpate their instinct for freedom, and
independence. Illiteracy, unemployment, impoverishment,
alcoholism, prostitution, diseases, social violence, and fear of
God and Somoza’s National Guard—which was trained by the
U.S. Marine Corps—were also the conditions of the time in
which my parents were born: The occupation of Nicaragua by
the Yankee Marines.
The Catholic Somoza Dictatorship shaped the mind of
my mother and father with the same mold that the encomenderos
and curas doctrineros used to forge the dispossessed indigenous
family model during the colonial period, which was based on
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the exploitation of children by their parents. The dictatorship
maintained this kind of family—with obscurantism, faith, and
alcohol—to keep the new generations of dispossessed slaves
detained in the same social jail in which their parents were
My parents did not liberate themselves from the prison
of faith in God and the State because they did not build the
necessary scientific and revolutionary awareness of themselves,
the world, and their relationship with it. Their condition was
not the effect of a genetic flaw in the evolution of their
perception. Rather, it was the result of the occupation of their
minds and their ancestors’ minds by their colonial oppressors,
their religion, and their economy.
To fulfill the political mission of their Colonialist
Catholic Church, the curas doctrineros suppressed my
progenitors’ instinct for freedom and marked their foreheads
with the words “Confiteor” and “Creed” as the manifestation
of the purpose of their lives. The confession of sin and the
declaration of belief in God—the acts of fear that the Holy
Inquisition induced in their victims—were the psychological
instruments with which the doctrinaire priests reduced their
thinking to the most minimal expression of obscurantism.
My originators’ religious slavery was the result of the
spiritual defeat of the native nations in the Spanish Empire’s
and the Catholic Empire’s war to dehumanize, dispossess, and
convert them into slaves of the Christian salvation tributary
system. Granada accepted their condition as the exercise of
their freedom of worship. The citizens did not see it as a crime
of dehumanization because the Catholic Emotion Machine
had replaced their sense of humanity with the image of a
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crucified stranger. Therefore, my parents became the
thoughtless transmitters of the traumas that they absorbed
from their relationship with their parents. The context in which
the transmission happened was the same: A semi-feudal society
controlled by sorcerers armed with crucifixes and illiterate
soldiers armed with M1 Garands which the Yankee Empire
had donated to the Catholic Somoza Dictatorship.
The method that my progenitors used to relate with
me—the imposition of Catholicism, forced labor, physical
punishment, contempt, and domestic violence influenced by
my father’s alcoholism—produced a relationship ruled by
patriarchal power, intimidation, superstition, and emotional
distance. The way they treated me was a reflection of the whip
that the encomenderos and curas doctrineros used to reduce the
indigenous and Afro-descendant nations. The proletarian
family which was thus formed by the Catholic Somoza
Dictatorship was the matrix that produced the slaves who
supported the base of the pyramid on whose cusp the
bourgeoisie, its dictator, and Bishop lived opulently.
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3.4 Adolescence in a Catholic City
In 1962, I was shaken by the explosion in my testicles
of the testosterones which caused the spontaneous downpours
of sperm that announced the start of the puberty of my life. I
became an adolescent in a catholic City. The chemical upheaval
in my body coincided with the Telstar 1 telecommunications
revolution. My adolescence had sprung in a world undergoing
the political convulsions caused by the inequality imposed by
the Church and the State and the dispossessed people’s
struggle for survival.
At the White House, John F. Kennedy approved the
use of the defoliant Agent Orange in the Yankee Plutocracy’s
war against the Vietnamese people. Pope John XXIII
excommunicated Fidel Alejandro Castro Ruz for supporting a
“communist government.” And the Sandinista Front for
National Liberation endeavored to become a revolutionary
force capable of accelerating the speed of the wheel of the cart
that carried the effects of Nicaragua’s rural life.
Meanwhile, Granada lived as a blessed believer that
communicated through the confessional and the Telegraph.
The information generated by the life of the rest of humanity,
inventions and revolutions, was censored by the Security
Office. It was the main arm of the catholic, bourgeois, pro-
Yankee imperialist, and terrorist dictatorship led by Luis
Anastasio Somoza Debayle, the so-called Luisito. He had
become the de facto President of Nicaragua after his father,
Anastasio Somoza García, the so-called Tacho, was executed
by Rigoberto López Pérez. Rigoberto was a poet who assumed
the nation’s duty bringing Tacho to justice for his crimes.