This collection of poems was inspired by the images found in the 1918 edition of Gray’s Anatomy. Though Gray’s Anatomy lacks the theater of the early renaissance anatomist / engravers, the numerous images have an intriguing beauty and familiarity. This unknown geography of interiority has captivated human kind, maybe since the first wound issued forth blood and revealed and alien inner self, the manifestation of the other within. These poems have emerged from the image that precedes it. They are not an attempt to write to the image but to find inspiration from the image.
“Looke on againe, the faire text better trie:
What blushing notes does thou in margine see?”
Sidney, Astrophil and Stella
c.a. leibow
3. Introduction
This collection of poems was inspired by the
images found in the 1918 edition of Gray’s
Anatomy. Though Gray’s Anatomy lacks the
theater of the early renaissance anatomist /
engravers, the numerous images have an
intriguing beauty and familiarity. This unknown
geography of interiority has captivated human
kind, maybe since the first wound issued forth
blood and revealed and alien inner self, the
manifestation of the other within. These poems
have emerged from the image that precedes it.
They are not an attempt to write to the image but
to find inspiration from the image.
“Looke on againe, the faire text better trie:
What blushing notes does thou in margine see?”
Sidney, Astrophil and Stella
c.a. leibow
Salt Lake City 2004
4. The sight of our internal organs is denied us. To how many is it given to
look upon their own spleens, their hearts and live? The living geography of
the human body is Medusa’s head one glimpse of which will render blind
the presumptuous eye.
Richard Selzer, Confessions of a Knife.
5. fig. #123
At the base of her spine
an apostrophe
A possessiveness'
{Scrimshaw}
Like on the whalebones
Of gutted Humpbacks
She sings
Her cry somehow
as beautiful.
As the harpoon
between the 3rd and 4th ribs.
6. fig. #17
My beginning was without observer
Unconscious
I saw a black dog cross the street
my placenta in his jaws
Part
of me buried in a cemetery
Burial shroud. Swaddling clothes.
Trying to get in, Trying to get out.
7. fig. #515
There was no way of explaining the sudden turn of events.
The instantaneous reversal of
you being you but not exactly you
and the way you carried the knife
Cavalier and bloody.
8. fig. #1158
I asked her if I was imposing.
She refused to respond.
I asked her if I was intruding,
She lay down and stared at the ceiling.
Do you love me?
9. fig. #214
It was like that
It was always like that.
{repeat if necessary}
In 1930 the bridge across the river collapsed
like a plea…. 12 people died.
She never called.
I still don’t know why.
10. fig. #1218
Even lingering
it comes all of a sudden
an open mouth
ashen wax effigy
The family gathers
Your body a contested territory.
11. fig. #932
Short order alchemist
Limited repertoire.
Not much time for anything else.
The young waitress brushes her breasts
against his arm.
Underneath.
electrical storms.
12. Man is only man on the surface. Lift the skin, dissect: here the machineries
begin. Then you lose yourself in an unfathomable sustenance, alien to
everything you know and yet of the essence.
Paul Valery, Cahier B
13. fig. #884
His face stained with history.
peeling away the narrative
of someone else's deceased
raising the dead
incomplete
2 dimensional
sculpting bodies out of wax
mouths gapping...
14. fig. #803
I built a house out of bandages
lay down on the bed.
A knife and a mirror
Her hands were cold instruments.
15. fig. #877
a dying fish mouths the words
of longing
Confusing the blue sky
for {with} in
love.
16. fig. #220
Ruins.
A harbinger of dissolution.
Deconstructed.
Sediments of process.
Once upon a time….
I vaguely remember
learning to tie my shoes.
17. fig #113
I was born without a rattle.
I was stolen by indifference that filed me away.
I fell asleep a poet and woke up a plumber.
I was a mechanical nightingale caught in a cage.
I could never stop her from crying.
18. fig. #377
The decisions I make
prerecorded?
Each woman I love a similitude of the
Other
Archetypal.
Love of the mother.
Love of the father.
Repetition.
Puling the thread.
The same unraveling.
19. fig. #319
I was carried in her belly.
Curled up dreamt of parasite
squirming in my sack of sea.
Osteo-Centric cherubim
splitting the very base of her
innocence with my
protrusion.
20. fig. #148
I have the same nightmare
I am falling
I am flying
I cannot move
I kill them all
fascinated by the whiteness.
21. fig. #251
There is no way to determine
The cause
The moment of the rupture
It is a matter of continuous pressure
the day the fissure was noticed
I was sitting under
tree eating
my bitter leg of lamb
not even thinking of Mary.
22. fig. #541
They were the same
The same in each aspect
The knife articulated their difference
Now only the one
24. I have cut mine owne Anatomy, dissected myself, and they are gone to read
upon me.
John Donne, Devotions,45
25. fig. #98
I’ dream of flight
Busy determining the laws
that makes it impossible
Breaking the traditions of my fathers,
Flayed Icarus,
I make a flying machine of bones.
26. fig. #629
My mother was a stranger
to herself
Highway men kidnapped her
when I was five
only her likeness left behind
I feed her effigy spoonfuls
of forked tongues
while gnats cloud around her head.
27. fig. #1014
He spoke in semaphore
the maid shakes her head emphatically
in agreement
washing blood from the sheets
28. fig. #996
It wasn’t at all like she said.
I mean the way the light collapsed all around her.
A gravity that couldn’t be explained by tea leaves
at the bottom of a cup.
She told me it was nothing to be concerned about.
I was concerned.
{about the deliberations of the doctors}.
So a man hands me a pulley,
tells me that there will be an abnormal tide,
microscopic phytoplanktons making it glow.
29. fig. #667
The naming of my pains does nothing.
circuitous classifications
refusing semantics.
I keep moving
serpentine.
{triangulation difficult}.
30. fig. #608
On the spectrograph
something was wrong
After deliberations with her colleagues
the results confirmed
My birth was spurious,
a conspiracy of want;
The doctor apologizes,
“Sometimes this happens.”
31. fig. #95
to live
longer than your child
to be left {on the platform}
the long cry pulling away from the cemetery.
to grow old,
Disappointed.
32. fig. #84
I follow her spine
mapping ranges
The cartography of desire
looking for a way in.
33. fig. #1171
In that moment of breath
where what, that is,
No longer a dream. A surprising
sudden surging hesitation.
On the dresser a photograph
an obsessive attachment to the dead,
blood rushes to parts,
swollen.
34. Then let me be
Thy cut Anatomie,
And in each mangled part my heart you’l see.
Richard Loveless
35. fig. #1152
Birds of love nesting
below mid-line
Axis of procreative flywheel.
friction of flight -
Explosion of wings.
Repose.
A stone in the throat.
36. fig. #1018
The veal was familiar.
kept from motion
stagnant as water
the lack of exertion limits
blood supply.
I am sold daily by the pound.
37. fig. #997
He was a good man
spoke in deliberate sentences.
wore Black October
like a newly starched shirt
held his heart {tight-fisted}
rationing each day.
I tried x-rays to find him.
There was nothing to be done.
38. fig. #585
The theater is filled to capacity.
A young man leans forward
as the dissector opens
the abdomen a sudden issuing
of intestines.
Vesalian woodcuts
subtext of ruin.
39. fig. #239
We live in a hole of
regret for the thing
we have left undone, living in an
apprehension that found us with
coins covering our eyes.
You look to the night sky
and turn away from the stars
and their shaking heads.
40. fig. #963
It wasn’t as I thought
the way in was fraught with omens.
There were precipitous indications
of my misguided annexation.
Small details overlooked.
A man standing in the street light.
41. fig. #956
The angels gather around in a circle
looking at a dead bird.
‘It is like us.”
They sing hymns
and the dead bird flies to heaven
a less experienced [{death}, {reassigned}]
angel whispers
“We are of the same meaning”
The angels take to the air but one
who sits and preened his wings
with his golden beak.