The document discusses the author's experience with open source software development and its interaction with institutional contexts in research and higher education. The author has a long history developing open source software for applied statistics and geospatial applications using R. He notes a mismatch between institutional preferences for secrecy and open source practices of mutual trust and community-building. The author was an early contributor to the R project in 1997 and discusses the evolution of R from its beginnings as an academic initiative to the large open source community that exists today.