The document is a first person account of a college student named Akhil's long-time crush on a senior student named Natasha. Over several years, Akhil observes Natasha from afar and creates fake Facebook accounts to view her photos without directly contacting her. He eventually works up the courage to directly message Natasha, and they agree to meet in person at a bakery. During their meeting, Akhil expresses his feelings for Natasha and explains his past Facebook activities. Natasha is initially angry but becomes more understanding as Akhil shares his perspective. They discuss their future plans, with Natasha saying she will attend graduate school and Akhil hoping to also attend the same program to remain close to Natasha.

1. today is my first day to engineering college and i was
tensed as it was the first day to college after 4 months of
holidays.i went to the bus stop and waiting for the bus.i
gradually saw to the right of me,oh my god there is a girl
who looks just like angel,i thought she was also going to
the college and it was her first day but may be different
college.my bus came and there was a crowd getting into
the bus.to my suprise she was also in the same crowd and
i wispered to myself "wow".i went into the bus and it was
ok.
my college came and i went into my class strightly,the
first day in the college was cool,new friends,new
faculty,new atmosphere.
after the class i went into the bus and the seinors were
seeing me like a goat in a mutton shop,that evening i
understand what is ragging,all of seinors sitting together
and askin me questions and say to sing a song and etc.my
stop came and i got down the bus and the day passed.
the second day i went to college and it was cool,chitchats
with friends,pretending to listen to classes,so on.after the
college i got into the bus and i sat in the seat next to
girls,the girl whome i sawin the first day of college was
sitting in the front of me.beside me a 3rd her,to that she
didnot responded.after that incident i got to know that
she wes my seinior,her name is Natasha and my heart
broke.my stop came and i got down.2nd day passed
silently.
the days passed and feelings towards natasha were
grown.

2. once it was in my english lab and we had an activity,in
that we ar given partner of opposite gender and we should
get onto stage and we should say about our partner some
words.my partner was a girl named sahithi and it was our
turn.
we went onto the stge and she said my name and said
some points about me.they were funny.now i should say
about her but i forgot her name,said to the stage as,"hello
i am akhil and i my partner name is . . . . yeah what is
your name" i addressed to sahithi,all the students laughed
and the day passed.
the days are gonig on.
the girl natasha had a cousine and he is also in 2nd year
and his branch was "EEE".the girl was not coming to
college on that day.so she sent the record of her which
she has to submit to faculty with her cousine.her cousine
gave the record to me and asked me to catch the record
till we get down the bus.on the record there were details
of natasha and i saw her branch name,which is "MECH".I
gave the record to him after we came to college.
the days passed.
The girl natasha was sooo beautiful that i can spend my
whole life seeing her.
the girl natasha lives in the same colany of mine,mine is
road number 6 and her's is road number 7.while going to
the collage we have a common route.I am scared that if i

3. meet the girl while i was going to the stop,that i should
call her "SISTER".So when i find the girl in front of me,i
will slow down toooo much that i will walk like a snail,so
that the distance between us increases.
when i find the girl behind me,i would walk fastly,as much
as i could.
the days passed.
I didnt send an add request to natasha in my facebook
account and i also dont want to,but i would see her profile
picture like a traveller watching tajmahal.
but i want to see her pics which she uploaded to facebook
so i created an facebook account with different username
like:bob danny,praveen bratathi,like that
i have sent friend request to every person i found in my
CVR college community in facebook.
i tried to make more mutual friends with her,so i went to
her profile and sent request to all friends of her.i made 25
mutual friends with her and i sent her add request.she
accepted my add request and ohhhhh..... her pics were
damn beautiful.With that account in facebook i have made
225 friends and no one in the account know who i am.
the days passed,my second year first semister had been
completed.
in second semistor,i am scared that i may get caught,and
the people would know that it was me who created the
account.So i deleated the account from facebook.

4. the days have been passed seeing natasha.At the end of
the semister i taught of starting a facebook page.i kept
the page name as
"IN EXAMS FRIENDS ARE MORE IMPORTANT THAN
QUESTION PAPER"
i added my friends as admins of that page.
we created the page for posting funny pictures.My actual
aim was that natasha should like the page.till the end of
second semister we had 381 likes in the page and there is
no like from natasha.My second year second sem is
completed and i have to write my 2 backlogs.
I have 15 days gap for my exams.I enjoyed my first 5 days
and i opened all.in.one for my exam.I completed my
reading and i went to my first exam,the exam was as
usually BISKEET.
i enjoyed one day after the exam and started preapring
for second exam.The second exam is same as first exam.
It was sooo many days since i saw natsha.It took approx
3 months,it was my first day of 3rd year when i saw
natasha again.asusually she was damn beautiful.
the third year passed away and natasha's 4th year is
going on.OMG it would be the last year i would see
natasha in the college.
My third year exams are over and natasha's engineering
was completed.
In this holidays I have only one aim,that is to propose

5. natasha and to know what she want to do after
engineering.
My plans were like this,if she want to do M.Tech,i would
also do M.Tech in the same college of her.
If she dose M.S,I would do a job in INDIA.
if she does nothing,I would prepare and join ARMY which
is my actual aim after higher studies.
I created an account in FACEBOOK,i was using same trick
that I used in 2-1 to create a bullshit account.she
accepted the friend request.
It was sooo many days since i saw pics of her in
facebook,so i opened her pics,the pics were awsome,im
staring at her pics like a dog staring at a bone.
i am waiting for her to come online so that i can chat.days
passed and daily i am sitting on my lappy and checking for
her availability like a dog in a house guarding every day.
and finaly on the fourth day she was online and i decided
to start chat conversation.
me:"hi".
I waited for some time but there's no reply,so i
thought of moving forward.
me:"hi im pramod living in same colany of yours,and i just
wanna talk with you,plz can you :("
I sent the message as i am a different person,she

6. then gave me a reply.
she:"hi,but do i know you"
me:"no,but i know you and i wanna talk to you at some
place"
she:"sorry but i dont go out with strangers"
me:"please i am addicted to you,so i think if i talk to you
ones then it would be alright.I dont know lot about you but
i know a little,plz..."
she:"sorry :p"
and she was offline
I was a bit nervos that i woudnt get a chance to talk to
her in my life,but i was little happy that first time in my
entire crush days,i chatted with natasha.
i was waiting for my second oppurtunity,i spent my entire
time on facebook,i sent her offline messages,i started to
play mall world for her,i would send a gift every time.I was
doing every thing to make her feel comfertable with me.
there came an oppurtunity,she was online.I started the
chat like this,
me:"hi mam,are you fine,i am wondering that what had
happened to you ,i was little tensed"
she:"dont overact"
me:"thanks for comming online"
she:"its okay,but tell me what you wanted to say to me
now itself"
me:"no not here,we will go to tasty byte,for just one hour"

7. she:"what! are you crazy,i cant come,i dont know who are
you and how you look like"
me:"plz :( :( :("
she:"but why"
me:"you come there and i will say"
she:"this sunday,is it okay for you"
I was at eight wonder
me:"yeah,everyday in my life is okay for you :p"
she:"at what time?"
me:"around 2-3pm,is it okay to you"
she:"okay,but only an hour"
me:"thanks nata :D"
she:"k bye"
me:"bye sweet dreams"
days passed and saturday came.
it was saturday but the day was moving sooo slow,im in
an eager to meet natasha,it would be my first talk with
natasha(other than ragging).
i went to my friends house in afternoon,his name is Ravi
Teja and a good friend of mine.I told my intension about
natasha to only ravi but not anyone.
i told ravi that i was meeting the girl tomorrow,he was
also exited,we citchatted some time and went out.when
we are waling,to my suprise,i saw natasha walking in the
opposite way,my face just saw her once and didnt saw

8. her again,and i kept a serious face while talking with
ravi.that man ravi was laughing seeing my situation,that
natasha dont know that the person whome she was
meeting her the next day was in front of her.we passed
away and ravi didnt stop laughing,im also laughing but not
that much.we just went on and after that we went to our
respected houses(he he).
It was night and i was not getting sleep because i am
going to meet natasha tomorrow.i am thinking of all
different stuffs but im not getting sleep.
i saw at my cell and ohh shit,it had been an hour but im
not getting any sleep.
i have got an idea,i will just think that how tomorrow
would be.i felt it as a good idea and i thought i would
sleep at half of my imagination.
MY IMAGINATION:-
i went into the bakery at 1:30 pm,half an hour before the
time we kept.i was watching tv inside the bakery,there
was no sound from the tv,but there was lovely music from
93.5 red fm.
the time had moved to 2:10,ten minutes more to the time
we kept,but she had not come.i thought of calling her but
at the same moment she came into the bakery,i gave a
smile to her,she also gave me a small smile and looking at
all the tables to find where is pramod.
i was pretending like i am not for her,but i should
mention,she was damn awsome on the day.

9. she sat on the table beside me,that is the only table
which is empty.i leaned towards her and asked whats the
matter.
she replyed like this
natasha:"nothing,i was waiting for an idiot who has no
puntuality........."
she began to curse me,in middle i stopped her and
said
me:"hi i am pramod,nice meeting you natasha,i am
waiting for you since 1:30pm,and you were 10 minutes
late",
saying this,i sat on the chair opposite to her on her
table
natasha was totally shocked by me,she really didnt
expect me.
there was 5 minutes of silence between us,i moved
forward to ask her how were the preperations made for
meeting her
she paused a while and she replyed,
she:"i was totally shocked,i had expected a stranger but
not my junior".
me:"yeah it may be surprising to you,but i ahad an damn
uncontrollable attraction towards you,so i just planned to
talk to you for some time.its cool na"
she:"no its disgusting"
me:"i can understand your feelings"
she was damn angry.
I started to say her when i saw her,my feelings,my
facebook trick that i did in second year,my ultimate aim

10. was to make her laugh and bring her from angry mood to
cool,expressive and normal mood.
i had suceeded and she came into normal mood,then i
asked her,
me:"and what are you thinking of your future,what do you
want to do,marrage or study or something else"
she:"me..,i am goig to do m.tech in iit bombay,i got a seat
in that".
me:"oh damn,i have to prepare damn hard for my GATE
exam",i wispered to myself.
she heard it and her reply was
she:"what?"
me:"nothing i am also planning to to do m.tech,my brother
is doing b.tech in iit bombay,so i am trying to join in iit
bombay.what a coincidence na!"
she:"are you kidding me..."
me:"you only asked me what,so i answered to you,trying
to be obidient with you".
she:"aha obidiant,whats all this crap on facebook
then,why had you approached me with a different
account"
me:"just for you,i want to give you an wonderful
expirience when i am talking to you first on my feelings on
you."
she paused for a while and posed another question at me,
she:"tell me honestly,whats about that wispering on
m.tect in iit bombay"
me:"yeah i will try to do my m.tech in iit bombay because
of you,if i do my m.tech in same college of yours,every day

11. i can see you.i am not doing my m.tech for my degree,its
only to just see you every day."
she:"aha, and again junior to me..."
me:"and after 1 year of m.tech,ill stop it and i will join
ARMY."
she:"emm.. you have a total concern about your
future,every plans are ready"
me:"yeah"
like that talking talking, 1 hour is completed,i kept an
alarm at the moment natasha entered into bakery.the
alarm rang and i stopped it,and i continued to natasha like
this,
me:"i think 1 hour is completed and i just want to ask you
one request for this day,that is..... ...... .... .. can i
send you sms,plz "
she was shocked with me ,because i kept an alarm,i
was totally follwing the schedule,she paused for a
moment and replyed
natasha:"ya,you can message me...........".
And i fell into sleep and the imagination
was over
i woke up at 10:00 in the morning.i took my bath,had
breakfast,and all other stuffs,then the time was 12:30
i have only 1 1/2 hour left to prepare for how to talk with
natasha.i was afriad because it was my direct talking with
natasha,i had a serious face everytime when she was in

12. front of me,and now i should talk to her directly,sitting in
front of her.
she is soo... beautiful that i cant talk to her whe i was
facing her,i just remembered someone saying that when
you were in tension just inhale and exhale highly.
i did that and i felt some relif.
the time has come,it was 1:30,but there is a little distance
between my house and bakery,so i thought of starting at
1:50 yesturday,but due to nervosness,i satrted at 1:30
only.
i was just wandering on roads from the time 1:30 to
1:50,because of nervosness,at 1:50 i started towards
bakary.
when i went into the bakery,it was exactly 2:00 ant the
girl is sitting in the corner table and didnt notice me.
My body is full of tension,and i slowly went near her
table,she looked at me and she was surprised,i ent toards
her table and sat in front of her,seeing ar the table but not
her,and i started
me:"hi i only messaged you"
saying this,i looked at her face,it as full of anger and
she said
she:"what are you thinking about yourself,how dare you to
ask me to come here,did you see your face ever in the
mirror"
hearing words from her,i said to myself "hey
saala,you wont get this opportunity again in yout life,what
you want to tell her,tell to her clearly without tension"
sayng that to myself,i got relaxed and said
me :"i know that you would be angry with me,sorry for

13. that.but i am helpless, i dont know what is tomorrow.i just
want to talk with you and share my feelings about you.i
am not proposing to you but i just want to say how i feel
when i see you.can i say?please"
saying that i paused.we were in a silence about 2
minutes,i am feeling that i am loosing 1/2 an hour in 2
minutes,so i started
me:"ho did you perform in your exams"
she:"none of your business"
i wispered to myself,"i think natasha was angry with
you,first we need to cool her"
she heard it but didnt respond
I began to say,hen i saw her,how i feel when i see
her,what i did in this three years,ho i managed to create a
facebook account in second year and make more futual
friends ith her,how i stare at her facebook pictures.i said
all tese in a way a friend explains, but not like reading out
essay.my actual motto was to make her laugh and bring
her back t normal mode in which she is free to express
her feelings.
I won in fulfilling my motto,smile came from her lips
when i said her how i walk on street when i see her on the
same road,why i keep a serious face when she is infront
of me,how i walk like a snail when she is infront of me
walking when going to busstop and all those funny stuff.
seeing her smile i said to myself,"akhil you won the
battle,you made natasha smile and brought her back to
normal mode".
she:"dont feel soo.. happy,and is it same reason why you
keep a serious face yesterday while walking on road".
she said with a smile on her face

14. me:"wow did you notice that,yes it is the same reason and
thank god you spoke with me nicely for the first time"
i paused and i again continued
me:"now what are you going to do,that you ant to do
M.Tech or M.S or job or marrage or what?"
she:"why do you want that?"
me:"to decide my future"
she:"what will you decide"
me:"arree..,first you say naa.. then i will say clearly"
she:"i got an seat in US and i am going to do my M.S"
me:"oh,MS in US,then i should join a software job"
she:"what are you joining job because i am joining MS?"
me:"yeah,i took a desision on what should i do if natasha
dose MS or M.tech or something"
she:"tell me all of them"
me:"is it necessary now,time is less yar"
she:"saying or i leaving,you decide"
me:"k k i will say,you be here"
she:"k say fast"
me:"i thought that if you do M.Tech ill join in same college
of yours,if you do MS,ill join in an IT job,if you do job or
nothing,then i would join ARMY"
she:"if i do marrage?"
me:"then what can i do"
i just paused and asked
me:"tell me honestly are you really doing MS or doing

15. marrage?"
i got this doubt because she asked,"if i do marrage?".
she:"no no,im doing MS,and august 7th is my flight"
me:"i think august 1st is your birthday,i saw in facebook"
she:"and tell me why will you do job if i do MS"
me:"you will know that in future"
she:"really?"
she said while she is laughing
me:"whats there to laugh,i have my plans"
she:"k k and i think i should go"
me:"and last thing i want to ask you........"
i paused a while and asked
me:"can i send sms to your mobile"
she "sure why not?"
me:"just taking your permission as an obidient junoir"
she laughed and said bye and went
after my talk,i was really surprised that,is it really natasha
that i talked to.I WAS ON EVERST TOP
.
It was 4:10 when natasha left the place,i went to my
friends place from there.we went to a movie and now the
time was 9:15,so i went to my home.
After reaching home,i have texted to natasha.

16. me:"hi"
the reply was after 5 minutes,
she:"hi,wt dng"
me:"i was just dreaming about you so i thought of sending
my first text to you"
she:"wat else"
me:"should just bath and go to sleep"
she"k k"
me:"k bye"
i thought its enough for first day.
I finished my bath and came to my bed,and thought of
messaging natasha.
me:"gd night angel and sweet dreams".
i dont know how but after sending message,i went to
a deep sleep.there is an incomming message and i woke
up to see it.its just 1 hour since i slept and i was thinking
the message is from my baby.
but unfortunately the message is from customer care,but
there was another message in the inbox and it is natasha
who sent it.
she:"gd n8 swt drms".
this message was just 5 minutes after i sent my
message.i gave a reply,
me:"take care"
it would be idiotic to send that message,in this damn
midnight but i want to tell her that,i saw her message just
now.

17. Days ae passing,1 week has finished from the day i met
natsha.i am chatting in facebook from my own
account.our texting were increased from 3-4 messages to
hours and hours.
I was texting her in a way that she would grew confidence
on me.
i can feel that i became a good friend of natasha,indeed
my intension is love,but friendship is a good starting.
days moved on and its july 30th and natasha's birthday
was on august 1st.I want to give natasha a different feel
on her bithday,so i made an letter N which is big in size
and goes up into the sky.it has lightning on it,so that it
looks pretty and visible at night time.
On 31'st night, the time was 23:58:30,i called natasha but
her line was busy,but i waited on the line,onthe second
call,she lifted the call
Conversation:
me:"hi what are you doing"
she:"just say it quickly,i am a little busy".
me:"i just called you to say you to go to top of your
building"
she:"now?i cant,im busy"
me:"plz plz plz,just trust me and go,once"
she:"wait going"
i lighted the letter and sent to the sky.
after reaching up,
she:"wow how did you do that"
she said seeing the sky.

18. me:"any thing any where any time for you"
she:"aha,really?,my flight is on 7th,i think you know that"
me:"yes any where for you"
she:"i didnt get you"
me:"there is time to know about it"
natasha didnt understand why i said "anywhere"
second time.i paused again and said
me:"Anddd.. wish you a happy life,happy birthday baby.i
think you should attend some calls other than me"
i said with laugh on my face.
she:"ya ya ya,i forgot about it.k bye"
FINISH.
i said to myself,"wow man,your progress with natasha is
marvelos,carry on carry on".
Time is never kind to us,the date was 7th august,today at
21:00 natasha is having her flight to US.
i went to airport at 19:00 and was standing at a position
where i can see all the passengers leaving for the 21:00
US flight.there she is at entrance at 20:00 time.she didnt
notice me,so i called her.when i called her,she looked
back to find me,but she is not finding me and she lifted
the call.
she:"hey where r u,im lookin for you since i came here but
not finding you"

19. she said in a low and beautiful voice
i said the position where i am.
she:"why are you standing there back,is washroom near
from there?"
she said with a laugh.at that time,i just want to go
near her and hug her tightly.
me:"im just here because i dont want your family and your
friends to see me"
she:"what will happen if they see you?".
me:"nothing,but everytime they see me again,they would
see me like a person who stole candy from a 5 years boy".
she laughed and spoke.
she:"k bye,its time for me to go".
me:"k bye,have a happy journey"
and she left to US.
after she went to US,she updated her facebook location to
USA,seeing her online i gave a message to her
me:"congrats,you landed in US"
she:"thanks :D,what are you donig"
me:"thinking about in which city we are going to marry"
she:"stop kidding"
me:"k k and when is your college starting"

20. she:"on.. september 1'st"
me:"ater 1 month from your bday,great timing"
she:"when is yours starting?"
me:"I dont know,when they call to home and say to come,i
would go"
she:"now can you say the truth"
me:"just kidding,the college starts from 12th this month"
she:"what else"
me:"thinking about what topic should i discuss with you"
she:"i dont know why people are crazy about me :p"
me:"k k,i will chat with you later,and wishing you happy
days in US"
she:"thanks bye"
we were chatting daily on facebook and i would call her
ones or twice in a week and we would talk for hours.she
would upload new photoes,i would stare at them.
usually i would woke late in the morning,but now natasha
is in US and she would be free at evenings in US,due to
that,i woke up early in morning and start chat with her.
days passed,i was trying to find a job,so i went to
companies by my own and attend interview.
i went to two companies and both of them agreed to pay
50k per month in networking feild but i am not satisfied
with it.
i have ccna and ccnp certificates,so i am trying for a good

21. salary.
all the companies which come to our college were
offering a max salary of 30k per month.all of my riends
were placed and agreed their salary but not me.
I went to 3rd company out of my college to find my luck in
that,the recruting members were free and i finished the
interview.they were satisied with me and offered me a
salary of 80k per month.i was happy and agreed for their
proposal.the first two months will be training and after
that job.
i dont know its coincidence or gods grace,the starting
date of the job is 1'st august,its natasha's birthday.
the first person i said about my job is,ofcourse its
natasha.she asked me for party and i said yes but no one
knews how and where i would give party for her.
days passed and my 4-1 completed.
we should do a project in 4-2,the main project,there
should be 3 members in a team,we 3 should do single
project.
we completed the project in 1 month and was adding
colours to that remaining time.
days passed and the day came,it was VIVA day,we were
being asked viva on the subjucts from 1st year to 4th
year.we dont know what are the subjects in 4th year
only,then how would we know about the subjucts in first
year.
we were asked to sit in front of a bunch of lecturures and

22. asked questions.today i finished my VIVA and it was a
total disaster.
days passed and it was my last exam for entire college
and student life.we finished the exam and all were busy
taking photoes but i alone lent to each and every corner
of the college but i dont know why i was going but i want
to go.
it is really a sad day in a students life.we are no more
students,no more bunks,no mor proxies,no more fun with
faculty,no more eating in class while lecture is going,no
more messaging while pretending to listen to lecture,no
more rumors on other branches,no more ragging and
totally NO MORE A STUDENT.
we friends went to a movie and roming on neclace road
after the movie,having fun.thinking about our
future,sharing the moments with crushes.we all had fun
and went to home.
we all friends thought of going to a trip.
every day in the trip i would call natasha and saying how
was the previous day.i really became so close to
natasha.she was sharing her feelings in engineering
college,her days in US,who had till now proposed
her,everything with me.
our trip was completed and we were at home on july 20th.
the days passed and today the day is 31st july and i am
have to join company tomorrow.it would be my last day
enjoyong free life.