1. Mediamusicvideo
Sequence 1- Credits
Black screenasartist and songname come overthe screen
[Chorus]
Because I love you I can't kill myself
Say I like the ways of someone else
Because I love you I won't kill myself
Say I like the ways of someone else
Sequence 2- Int.- darkroom- night
Inside eerylighting- slowlyfade camerafromdarknesstozoomedinonthe face of actor witheyes
closed.
Sequence 3- Ext- Dark woods- late evening- natural torchlight
Sequence 4-int.- car- day- natural light
Sequence 5- int.- shed- night- headlightlighting
Sequence 6-int.- kitchen-day- natural light
Sequence 7-ext.-park- day/morning- natural light
Sequence 8- Ext- Dark woods- late evening- natural torchlight
Eyesopenlookingupat tree. - Cut to same guy ina house puttingina snusor rollingacigarette. –
Cut to guyin the shedonthe sofa- Cutto guy sat on parkbench- Cut back to the actor before the
lyricsstart still witheyesclosed.
Because I love you I can't kill myself
Say I like the ways of someone else
Because I love you I won't kill myself
Say I like the way she
Say I like the way she
Sequence 9- darkroom
actor openseyes,lipsyncingthe words,blankexpressionlookingdistant
2. [Verse 1]
You chose yourself, you sent me hell
I called for help,
Sequence 10- int.- kitchen- daytime
Lookingoutof the windowsaton windowsill/table
you sent for feds
I never resisted arrest, I was feeling depressed
I was begging
in the park, rope still on my neck
I just lost my best friend carried his body in a box
Sequence 11- int.- shed- night- headlight
Lookingat the camara overa pool table withpeople playing,countonfingersfor“me,vee, Jim,ski
and g”
Cleaned his blood out the rug, image still in my head
What's deep, I still owe you 250 for a Z
And what's fucking peak, I know we're never gonna speak again
It's just me, Vee, Jim, Ski and G in the end
Sequence 12- int.kitchen- day- natural lighting
Rollingcxigarett/snus lookingoutthe window
Two in the BM, three in the Benz, one thing indeed
I'm never leaving my friends, ride out gang!
Sequence 13- ext- park– midday- sunny,natural light
Guy walkingwithgirl awayfromcamara happy
It was 2019 in my ends, you’re getting tense now
My fiance became my ex now, i'm stressed out
Sequence 14- ext- park- night– dark/raining
Tryna break down why she bounced, we were best pals
Tryna get my head round and figure all these riddles out
3. I got underlining issues that I scribbled out
But you just tore away the page and ripped the picture out
Sequence 15- int- kitchen- day- natural light
Lookingoutwindowonwindowstill mouthingwordstothe song
[Chorus]
Because I love you I can't kill myself
She say I'll have to wait for someone else
Because I love you I can't kill myself
Say I love the way he
Say I love the way she
Sequence 16- int.- abandonedbuilding- earlyevening- natural andtorchlight
Mouthingwordswithaxe/base ball bat slungovershoulder
[Verse 2]
Yo, part of me hates you, part of me rates you
Part of me blames myself, but half of me knows it takes two
Sequence 17- int- shed- night- overheadlighting
Zoomin on mothingwordsoverpool table people still playing
The other half of me is lost, that's part of me I gave you
Wear my heart on my sleeve, my arteries and my veins too (trust)
Sequence 18- ext- park- night- torchlight
Gettingangrysat on bench
We just used to link in park
I just smash my yard while listening to Linkin Park
Sequence 19- int- kitchen- night- overheadlighting
Cuttingbetweenshotsof guygettingangryinthe kitchen
Things are dark, heart sinking when I think of Marc
Drinking can't stop the thinking
But can't stop drinking when thinking starts
4. Sequence 20- int- abandonedbuilding-late evening- natural/torchlight
Swingingaxe orbaseball batatthings
Sitting on my kitchen top I'm single in my stinking yard
Spliff go out the window while i'm staring at a blinking star
Sequence 21- int- abandonedbuilding-late evening- natural/torchlight
Stoodstill staringat the camara withaxe/batovershoulder
Twinkle like an engagement ring that's still on a widows arm
You think it's hard? think of Sharz, who's thinking of ringing Marc
Sequence 22- ext- woods- late evening- natural/torchlight
Mouthingworksinthe woods lookingstraightatcamara
I really got sectioned, sent to Chase Farm
Now every time i'm off the radar I ring alarms
It's cool, tell 'em they can bring a pastor
One day i'm looking back on now to sing with laughter
Sequence 23- blackscreen
(ha ha)
[Chorus]
Because I love you
Sequence 24- int- kitchen- day- natural light
Fade back intoan image mouthingthe words
I can't kill myself
Say I like the ways of someone else
If I love you I won't kill myself
Instead it's fuck you, go fuck someone else
Say I like the way she
Sequence 25- int- car – day- natural lightwithgirl
[Verse 3]
(we're both) Going through trauma, emotional torture
You was 19, I was 24 but who was more maturer
Used to pull up in your Fiat 500 on the corner
5. Used to ride around London not giving a fuck who saw us
Sequence 26- int- car- night– car lights
Mouthingthe words
Go to war for each other I never wanted this for us
Both grew up in a single parent household
We were poor but it was pure love
Sequence 27- int- abandonedbuilding-day- natural light
Mouthingwords emotionally withbat/axeovershoulder
you made me feel like your love
Before you commit to being loyal
It's worth knowing how you was brought up
Before we got caught up, before we had a daughter
Coulda given her a life our parents couldn't afford to
Sequence 28- int- shed- night- overhead lights
Stoodone side of pool table holdingapool que aboutto take a shot
Partners no matter what come between us
If I make you so unhappy I had no reason to keep ya
And if I really love ya then I reluctantly free ya
Maybe growing apart was always part of the procedure
Couldn't be a leader in a time of need I become weak
Sequence 29- int- kitchen- night- overheadlights
Cuttinga sandwichwithgirl facingawayfrom camara makinga tee
I loved you most when we was at our worst, that made it even deeper
The first week
Sequence 30- int- kitchen- night- overheadlights
Pouringa drinkwitha rope hanginginthe backgroundand the knife he wascuttingthe sandwich
with
I couldn't eat, I wouldn't sleep
I lay there wide awake and wonder what we coulda been
Sequence 31- int- kitchen- night- overheadlights
Turningon kettle
6. It's routine,
Sequence 32- int- kitchen- night- overheadlights
Pourkettle intomugwitha cigarette inhand
wake up in the morning - cigarettes and tea
sequence 33- int- home gym- night- overheadlight
sat on the benchwithpeople liftinginthe background
Hope you happy now I left you be, a solid member left the team
We lost the fight, no extra time, no referee
No acceptance speech, just lessons I kept with me
I don't need anybody to accept me, except from me
sequence 32-int-car-late evening- overheadcarlighting
sat in the car mouthingthe words
I went from want to need, you went from need to want
To "what you want from me?", to finally wanting to leave and be free
sequence 33- int- home gym- night- overheadlighting
benchpressing
Find inner peace, find the piece that runs from ya
Left you after one week, that's how you know I got love for ya
sequence 34- int- shed- night- overheadlights
stoodotherendof pool table holingpool que
What's meant to be is meant to be, it'll come to ya
And if it doesn't who gives a fuck? Just live it up
For now our memories deleted, and feelings too
You used to make me feel like you would always keep it true
sequence 35- int- abandonedbuilding-day- natural lighting
mouthingthe words
I said I couldn't live if I couldn't be with you
I was being used, wasn't treating you like my equal
That was peak to do
It's no wonder why you're leaving
When the person that you dream of turns out to be a demon too
7. sequence 36- ext- woods- late evening- natural light
stoodontop of hill beingfilmedfromthe bottomof the hill
We was a team of two, I wasn't evil g
Just desperate for attention and I needed you
To the point i'm like a fiend for you
sequence 37- int- abandonedbuilding-day- natural lighting
pacingaround buildingwithaxe/batinhand
The more demeaning you became the deeper that my feelings grew
When we wasn't beefing or screaming about the kinda things that people do
We was cool, wish we coulda seen it through
sequence 38- int- chipshop- day- natural lighting
sat inchip shop,boyand girl laughinh
Only me and you know about the evenings we're eating food
Laughing till we crease, now take it with ease
We was goals, we were greez, we were making 'em believe
Remember when the Subway guy put bacon in the cheese?
sequence 39- int- chipshop- night- overheadlighting
boysat in chipshopeatingchipson theirown
I'm dead out on my feet, I can't chase you on my knees
I know all you feel is pain, you probably hate as much as me
sequence 40- int- home gym- late evening-overheadlighting
boysat on bench withboysliftingweightsinbackground
Shoulda been stronger than you, you were stronger than me
You just fucking made me stronger than I ever coulda been
Cause three months after Marc died you decided to leave
sequence 41-int- shed- late evening- overheadlights
sat on sofaotherside of the pool table withboysplayingpool
What's mad is when I look at you, i'm reminded by me
If I was unhappy and wanted freedom i'd take it
If I wanted to make peace i'd make it
That's some selfish shit but I rate it
8. We only got ourselves in this matrix
sequence 41- ext- woods- late evening- natural light
overheadshot slowlyzoomingintothe background
Yea, the cycle we couldn't break it
sequence 42- int- shed- night- overheadlighting
It's just a shame we did the same thing as everyone else who don't plan for kids
We didn't plan for this, shit's cancerous, now the cycle spins
sequence 42- ext- woods- late evening- natural light
overheadshotslowlyzoomingintothe background
Trust, no time to whinge, I guess this time society wins
Next time i'll try again, until next time goodbye my friend
Continue topanback to reveal a noose hangingfromthe tree
[Chorus]
Because I love you I can't kill myself
sequence 43- int- shed- nightoverheadlighting
boysstoodlookingatthe camra without maincharicter
Say I I'll have to wait for someone else
sequence 44- int- windowstill inkitchen- night- overheadlighting
filmemptywindow still
Girl I love you I can't kill myself
sequence 45- int- abandonedbuilding-day- natural light
emptybuilding,camarapanningout
Say I love the way she
sequence 46- int- car- night- car lightoverhead
emptycar
Say I love the way she
sequence 47- ext- woods- late evening- natural lighting
camara pointedatnoose panningbackwardsas picture fadesout