Lilac Illustrated Social Psychology Presentation.pptx
The choice made for me
1. Three years ago at the age of sixteen a young woman, Janine, faces one of the most drastic transitions in her life. She was being forced to move to Arkansas with a mother she didn’t know by the man that calls himself her father. After the heart stopping decision was made it devastated this young woman. She spent hours in her room mourning everything she had to leave behind. Her feelings were running through her faster than the speed of a hummingbird’s wings until all the emotions trapped in her heart were consumed by a rage so powerful she lost all sight of reason. Her thoughts became malicious and words hurtful. Being reunited with her non-existent, junkie mother was a nightmare she couldn’t escape, but in time she will recognize it as the blessing in disguise it truly was. <br />Being forced against her will to live with a woman that walked out on her eleven years previously has struck fear right into the depths of her soul. How could she cope with being in the same vicinity as the woman who chose a needle over her? Janine was constantly tormented by these thoughts. All her adolescent years were focused on what her father had told her of her mother’s actions and habits. Now she is faced with letting go of eleven years of betrayal, hurt, and anger. <br />From the age of cute, polka dot fives until the age of gothic spikes and black polish sixteen’s Janine was raised by her father, grandfather, and uncles. Women were few and far in between, so she learned how to live, love, think and feel as a man would. Emotions were criticized and those who showed any were condemned. Her father was a strict, pitiless man that had no remorse. If any pain or suffering was shown he or she who showed it would be thought of as weak and pathetic. She was taught that fighting and force was the only way anyone could make it in life. For many years her father tried to break her spirit but succeeded only in making her stronger and rebellious not caring if he loved her or not.<br />She transformed into what most people would call a troubled child always seeking danger. It seemed the older she became the more her behaviors manifested. She was no longer pulling petty stunts. The child had such a sick, twisted infatuation with trouble that authority was thought of as Satan in her world. She had been raised as an outcast in her own home, shunned, ridiculed, and despised because she held the habits and resemblance of a woman she didn’t know. Shouldering this burden from her toddler years converted her into the cold-blooded, trouble-seeking individual she became. Risk became the only thing her heart beat for; it became her life.<br />All that changed when she was removed from her home and put in her mother’s care. Not that she would ever admit it to a living soul, but the thought of meeting her mother for the first time after all these years piqued her curiosity at the same time angering her. She didn’t want to care about what was happening, but she had yearned to meet her mother for so long that it happening now seemed almost dreamlike. She had grown so accustomed to ignoring the pain associated with thinking of her mother that this new concern frightened and alarmed her. What would she be like? Is she going to be on drugs? Does she remember me? Does she love me? So many questions swarmed through her mind and made her feel insecure that by the time her mother arrived she was as tense as a snake preparing to strike. To Janine her mother was a fairytale and now that fairytale has been altered into reality.<br />Her mom arrived driving a white ford ranger with so many layers of dust caked along the bottom it was difficult to discern what the original color of the vehicle was. Of all the things she expected upon meeting her mother tears wasn’t one of them. To her utter disbelief, her mother stepped out of that truck with tears streaming down her face like rain wearing a smile so broad it would have gave Ronal McDonald a run for his money. She wasn’t sure how to decipher her mother’s action so she stood frozen like a statue for what seemed like ages until her mother made the first advance. She took one look at her almost grown child and pulled her into an embrace that expressed all the love Janine had been denied as a child. It was an intoxicating feeling, almost like coming home after so long of being away. Through the years her mother gave her, support, love, determination, and a reason to change the bad for the better. So in the end she went from being a troubled child to being a determined woman.<br />