This document is an excerpt from the journal Qualitative Inquiry that describes a black girl's experience converting to Catholicism and going through religious rituals like kneeling, anointing, and making the sign of the cross for the first time. The excerpt is written as a poem reflecting on feeling like an outsider in the church due to her race and struggling to understand the congregation's relationship with God. It describes participating in sacraments like confession and taking communion while feeling disconnected from the spiritual experiences of others in the church.