Identity Crisis

Table of Contents

DEDICATION...............................................................................3
INTRODUCTION.........................................................................4
CHAPTER 1: WHAT’S IDENTITY?………………………………………….7
CHAPTER 2: YOU HAVE IDENTITY......................................11
CHAPTER 3: IDENTITY THEFT: SATAN’S PLAN…………..14
CHAPTER 4: THE MECHANICS OF OUR DNA………………..19
CHAPTER 5: RESTORING YOUR DNA……………………………..25
CHAPTER 6: IT WAS NEVER ABOUT YOU……………………..29
CHAPTER 7: YOUR IDENTITY IS YOUR TICKET………….31
CHAPTER 8: DON’T RUN FROM
IDENTITY (Testimony) .............................................................35

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Dedication

This book is dedicated to my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.
You have shown me how you have created me. You have
been there when I was at my lowest point, and through you I
have reached my highest. You are my guider, my protector,
my biggest cheerleader and my comfort who always holds me
close in times of trouble. There is no name that can rise
above yours. There is no power that can even compare. You
are my God and I want to live and die in you.

You have given me identity and a purpose to live for. You
thought that I was needed on your list of creations. You
rescued me from the snares of the enemy and showed my
fingers how to fight. I can rest everyday knowing that even
after this life has passed, it is in you that I have life eternally.
I love you.

Thank you for pouring into me and changing my life.

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Introduction

“To be or not to be? That is the question...”...or at least a part
of it.

Aline taken from one of the greatest plays ever written by
Shakespeare captures the despair that this life can bring. The
speaker questions the value of human life, adding dimension
and appeal to the character’s performance. However, this
question, when spoken in your own reality, is void of any
applause.
For years of my adult life I have grappled with the need to
know if life was worth living. If I was “to be.” Between
cancer, war, poverty, racial inequality, and everything that I
saw going on in this world, I couldn’t help but to believe the
Apostle Paul when he said “to die is gain.” I could remember
sinking to such a low point in my life that instead of praying
to God to sustain me, I was bold enough to ask Him to take
me.
For days I petitioned the same request over and over and did
not cease. Until one day: I sat in my room for what felt like
the 50th time saying the words of that same prayer. But
during this time, I began to realize something:
With every breath I released, another one came right after
and another and another and another and this would only
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continue unless someone did something to stop it…..and that
someone had to be me.
I contemplated.
I pictured myself reaching for the loads of medication in my
bedside drawer. I pictured myself swallowing the tablets
until my throat closed up and worked no longer, but I didn’t
move to get them.
I didn’t move because at that moment I realized that it would
be the biggest insult to my Creator to use the very breath
that He gave me to reject what He had in mind when He
gave it to me. It would be the biggest offense to waste my
breath grumbling instead of using it to speak change into
this world and to broken people.
The truth was we all will die and 100% of us will pass away
therefore:
Would I rather die asking God to take me? or Would I rather
die doing something that would impact the world even when
I leave it?
The truth was I was sent here on purpose. I was given breath
for a purpose.
God was intentional about me. If He wanted me gone, He
would’ve taken me. If He wanted me here, He would’ve
brought me and that was exactly what He did. With all the
trials of life I was allowing myself to forget who I was and
whose I was.
It’s easy to convince yourself that with all the tragedy in the
world that God does not want you to live in it, but that is the
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sole truth. God never called us to live in this world. Our
home is in Heaven. But, we are on this Earth with a plan to
prepare for eternity, and do the work of God. Therefore, it is
our responsibility to find out how we fit in the pieces of His
plan by seeking out our identities, lives and purposes in Him
before we depart.
So Hamlet had the wrong idea. I had the wrong idea. We are
to be. It’s not our job to decide whether we are not. It was
never our job to give ourselves life nor do we have the power
to do so. Our only mandate in this journey is to find out
“what” we are to be in order to change the world.
“Identity Crisis” will help to restore your identity in Christ
if it has been stolen by the enemy and the tragedies of this
world. It will bring clarity and revelation into what it truly
means to be a child of God so that you can begin to awaken
your purpose, walk into the fullness of your calling, and
claim your inheritance as a child of Christ Jesus.

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Chapter 1: What’s Identity?

“...Greater is He that is in you, than he that is in the world.” -1
John 4:4 (NIV)

When I think of the word identity, I always think of the
image of a black silhouette head or fingerprint being
scanned on a big futuristic machine. I’m not sure if I got
those ideas from all of the old spy movies that I watched as a
child or if that was just the inner workings of my mind
having a cook-off with Bobby Flay. But either way: that
image was always associated with that word for as long as I
remembered.
However, as I began to develop more in Christ and discover
who I was in Him and who He was in me, when I hear the
word identity now, I see a picture of a root.
Identity to me is like a root because a root anchors you. It is
where you get all of your nutrients, vitamins, and substances
for life and if the roots are broken, the plant will show it...
And identity is the exact same principle. It’s your base. It
brings shape. It brings the meaning as to why you do the
things you do. It is the filter through which every single idea,
every decision, and every thought from you flows.
If your identity lies within money, you’re more inclined to
listen to music about money, hang with people who are
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moneymakers, and take a degree that offers a lot of money.
Identity connects and determines every part of your life, and
if that’s damaged, your life will show it.
When the Holy Spirit revealed this concept to me at the age
of 19, I had to now take things into perspective. If identity
was my base, a good base does not have the permission to
fail you.
However, sadly, my identity at the time did just that. Who I
was and I wanted to be were on the basis of friends,
popularity, money, and acceptance, and every single one had
the ability to shake and fail me. But through countless years
of heartbreak, failure, and betrayal, I realized that the only
thing that truly remained solid in the storms of my life was
the rock of Jesus Christ, my hope and salvation and it was
about time that I accepted His anchor in me.
Your identity should come from what has been anchored in
you, rather than what YOU decide to place your anchor in.
In this world’s climate, when we think of identity, it’s all
about how WE define ourselves and what WE associate
ourselves with, but this is only a recipe for disaster. The
world is so unsure of itself. Trends are here one day, then
gone the next. We’re told to like something today, and
tomorrow we hate it…
So, why place your anchor in something that isn’t even
anchored itself? How will it sustain YOU in YOUR times of
trouble?
Instability + instability with always = instability.
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We did not create ourselves. Therefore, to think that we have
the ability to decide that something apart from the one who
created us is considered our identity is insanely problematic.
Psalm 100:3 says: “Know ye that the LORD he is God: it is
he that hath made us, and not we ourselves; we are his
people, and the sheep of his pasture.” (KJV). We did not
create ourselves, therefore we do not know who we are. Even
if we think we do, we don’t know enough to give ourselves
our own identity. Only God has that power.
Take this example: A mango tree was created to produce
mangos. If one day it decided to identify with an apple tree, it
would not work. The mango tree has been given the identity of a
mango tree. Its leaves are that of a mango tree. Its biological
makeup down to the cell structure is characteristic of a mango tree
and any additions or deviations are considered unnatural and
contradictory to its original identity. If it decided to act like an
apple tree, the mango tree would become discouraged when it isn’t
bearing apple fruit. It would spend its whole life wondering why it
will never be good enough. And more importantly, the ecosystem
around it is deprived of a much needed mango tree to feed
animals that specifically eat mangos. The mango tree would
always experience inner turmoil wondering why it is constantly
being shaken and fruitless. The mango tree would be in a crisis…
And the same follows for our spiritual identity.
God has made each of us in Him. He created us with a
specific image and spiritual makeup. He has given us
specific skills and characteristics suited for the fruit He
wanted us to bear. Thus, the only way we can know ourselves
enough to give ourselves the power to “determine” our
identity is if we had a hand in the creation process.
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Our lives will never know peace because we were not
designed to create, but rather to live out what has already
been wired inside of us from the Creator. We are not to yearn
to identify with something outside of ourselves. 1 John 4:4
says “...greater is He that is in you, than he that is in the
world.” (KJV). Our only job is to ask and seek out “He” that
is within us and operate in our original spiritual DNA.

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Chapter 2: You Have Identity
“Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were
born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the
nations.” -Jeremiah 1:5 (NIV)

God has had a plan for us since the beginning of the
beginning of the beginning of time. He told the prophet
Jeremiah “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before
you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to
the nations..” (NIV). Before Jeremiah was born, God had put
identity in Him to walk in. God gave Him a purpose, the
assignment, and even the type of person Jeremiah would be
in Him before flesh came into the picture.
I’ve heard, said, and seen this verse more than one thousand
times in my life span, but it wasn’t until I saw this verse the
other day that something stood out to me in the word choice
of God. God said to Jeremiah “before I formed you.” It isn’t
until there is a problem that we create a solution or give
purpose to something, but God is so intentional that He
created solutions before problems.
God did not wait until Jeremiah was born to ordain him and
give him identity. God placed value in him when he was just
a mere thought and as it applies to Jeremiah, the same
applies to you, children of God. God loves you so much that
He gave you identity even before you could accept or reject
it. He sealed you as His own, and there is no one on this
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earth that can say there was a time that you weren’t God’s
property.
Even in your mess and sin, you are still God’s own and
forever will be. He has created us with the end in mind and
our messes in account. He has taken into play all things that
we can not even see, therefore the identity that Christ has
given us is far better than anything we could ever create.
Before I gave my life to Christ fully, I was living a wayward
life. Looking back, I realized that it wasn’t because I wanted
to. I knew the things that I was doing were wrong and my
conscience always gave me that alert. I knew that what my
life showed was not pleasing unto God, but I did it anyway.
Now that I have found Christ and invited Him into my life, I
realized that my rebellion of my past was coming from a
place of not knowing who I was in Christ. I did not know
who my identity lied in, therefore I did not know that I even
had identity, let alone purpose, so I lived according to my
flesh and the ways of the world. I did not know that I was
placed on this earth not to live and figure out life on my own,
but to carry out an assignment that was placed in me before
the cells in my body were even formed.
Everything in creation has identity in Christ. God is so
particular in His works that just like the trees were made to
give shade, just how fruit was made to be eaten, just how the
sun was made to bring warmth, you too have been made to
do something that no one else on this earth can do like you.
That purpose and identity does not need to be sought out in
the world, because it has already been hot-wired into us by
our Creator.
Therefore, do not believe the lies of the enemy that you are
living for yourself and under your own anchor of identity.
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God has placed you on Earth with HIS seal and to live
according to HIS will. You were made for a reason, and more
importantly you were made in Him. So, begin to believe that
you were made with a unique identity given only by God,
because everything that God has given, no one has the ability
to take away.

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Chapter 3: Identity Theft: Satan’s
Plan
“identity crisis•noun: a period of uncertainty in which a
person’s sense of identity becomes insecure.”-Google

Have you ever heard the word of God referred to as a rock
and strong foundation? It’s not just to add seasoning to your
favourite Sunday sermon, but rather to reiterate the truth
that no matter what is going on in our lives, God’s will,
promises, and declarations will forever remain solid. The
word of God is not contingent nor dependent on a situation
or outcome, rather the situation or outcome is dependent on
the word of God.
With an identity rooted in Christ, this becomes your mantra
and the only truth that you can ever live by. But,
unfortunately when the truth shines its light in our lives, the
forces of darkness tries its best to extinguish it. As
Christians, we are not ignorant of this though. The enemy is
a natural opposer of God and contradicts everything that
God is. 1 Corinthians 2:11 says “...for we are not unaware of
his schemes.” We know Satan’s character. We know his
identity. We know that:
God is love, Satan is hate.
God is peace, Satan is war.
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God is truth, Satan is untruth.
Wherefore, if a spiritual identity in God brings security, then
Satan, being a natural opposer to the nature of God’s will,
will then bring insecurity into our lives.
Examine your life:
Do you find yourself being swayed by new doctrine? Do you
find yourself questioning what your passion is? Do you
compare yourself to the changing standard of the world and
conform?
If the presence of insecurity and uncertainty about the
purpose, vision, future and mandate of your life exists within
you, this is a clear indication that you are a victim of not only
a spiritual identity crisis but also satanic identity theft.
Satan’s ultimate plan as a deceiver is to take away the
identity that God has given us. There is nothing that He
wants more than for us to forget who God has created us to
be and become wrapped up in the world He prowls around.
Forgetting who you are in Christ gives way for Him to knock
you down with the storms of life because there is no true
anchor. Satan is the author of lies, and he often uses lies
disguised as truth to demolish what God has rooted in us
through His identity.
Satan often tells us:
1. We have no future
Satan loves to use the storms of our lives as an indication
that there is no hope for us. He loves to remind us of our
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pasts. He loves to remind us through the media of the
constant death, war and sicknesses happening in the world.
He makes us believe that we have no future, therefore we
should not even bother to see the fullness of God’s glory. But
an identity in Christ reveals the truth that God never
promised that the road of this life would be easy. The enemy
is always working and is in a constant fight for our lives. But
as children of God, we should not fear because God has
given us the victory over every hard time we see once we
cling to Him. It is through these hardships that we can really
see God’s power at work. These disasters are not to scare us
into a corner, but to allow us to face the battle head on and
claim the win. God says “For I know the plans I have for
you. Plans not to harm you, but to prosper you and give
you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 11:29 (KJV)
2. We are of this world
One lie of the enemy that has so many youths caught up is
that their identification is in the world. The ambition of
some people of God lies within status, wealth, popularity,
celebrity lifestyles, sex, relationships, and self glorification.
The bible specifically tells us in 1 John 2:15-17: “Do not love
the world nor the things in the world. If anyone loves the
world, the love of the Father is not in him.” (KJV). The
cars, the luxury, rappers, and celebrities will always pass
away and 100% of us will die. But our souls and spirit will
forever live on. Therefore, if we are to partner with
something, let us partner with something that is long
lasting. The only thing that we can say has remained when
the world has seen disaster after disaster is the word of the
Lord, therefore our souls must partner with that and that
alone. To pursue a relationship, job, car, or house is not
necessarily a bad thing in some instances, but when it is all
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we are consumed with and ask God for, it becomes an idol,
and idols and God can not coexist in your world.
3. We are not good enough
God has made us fearfully and wonderfully. A spiritual
identity in the lies of Satan tells you that you are not good
enough due to your mistakes, your mishaps, and your
missteps. But, I’m here to tell you that it is all a lie. We are
not perfect, but God does not need perfection. We are made
perfect in the sacrifice of our Lord Jesus Christ, therefore
when the imposition of imperfection is made upon us and
our identity, we can look to the Father and say that our
identity is in Him and Him only.
When you identify with these lies, you identify with Satan.
Every single thing that comes out of His mouth is not the
reality of the situation. He is incapable of telling the truth. It
is not his nature. Therefore, when you want to root yourself
in someone or something, root it in something that wants
you to know the truth about yourself. Root it in someone
who wants you to live after you die. Root it in someone who
remains steadfast in times of trouble.
Satan can change His lies to conform to any situation, but
the word of God commands every situation.
Be not conformed to this world. Any identity that you
assume that is not the original identity given to by the
Father is identity theft and it is time that we reclaim it from
the enemy. Satan is out to cover our true identities until we
don’t look like what God has created, but know He can never
alter your identity itself. An identity crisis is only meant to
be a period of time or a moment of uncertainty.
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Satan was never meant to alter your whole DNA. He is only
allowed to form weapons against our identities. It is your
choice whether you give them a way to prosper.

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Chapter 4: The Mechanics of our
DNA
“I was born like this, since one like this, immaculate conception
I transform like this, perform like this, was Yeshua's new
weapon.”-Kendrick Lamar

Biology was always one of my favourite subjects in high
school. I always thought that if God had augmented the
math part of my brain just five shoe sizes more, I would be
pursuing a medical degree in the present day. Biology always
fascinated me because for once it wasn’t just about the
grades. We were discovering the core of our lives. It was so
intriguing to peel away at an organ or dissect the parts of a
plant under a microscope to see the cells, tissues, and veins
responsible for an organism serving the very purpose that it
did in this world. It was absolutely beautiful.
That’s how our spiritual lives should be.
We often want to take on the project of looking outside
ourselves for meaning and purpose in the world. But God has
been telling us: “Sit down and dissect yourself. I want you to peel
away at YOUR core and see just how I created YOU. Your
answers are where you’ve failed to look. I want you to see how
your gifts, your talents, and your spiritual veins, your cells, and
tissues all serve the purpose that I created for you in this world.”
It took me 20 years to truly understand what my parts really
meant in my identity and I’m happy to say that I am still
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dissecting. Many people know that they are children of God,
but have never opened up their veins to study the meaning of
that declaration. Identifying as a child of God has so many
advantages, perks, and benefits that some of us don't even
know of or realize.
These include knowing that:
1. You are regal.
When you think of kings and queens, they lack nothing.
They have the finest clothes, the finest meals and they use
Gucci shirts as wash rags. As God’s children, we need to
know that we are just as royal, and even far more with our
Father in the Heavenly places. This can be proven through
the parable of the Prodigal son.
One of many profound biblical stories, “The Prodigal Son”
follows the younger son of a King asking his father for an
early inheritance. The Father grants his request and the son
sets off on wild living. Eventually, the money runs out and a
severe famine hits the country.
The son finds himself in dire circumstances and a need for
provisio, therefore, he takes a job feeding pigs. He has grown
so destitute that during his work he begins to look at the
pig’s food as appetizing. But, in a sudden moment, he
realizes who He was and who belonged to and makes the
decision to return home. When he returns, he is expecting of
His Father’s rejection, but finds that His father has been
watching and waiting. He receives his son back with open
arms of compassion and rejoices to the servants of his
household to prepare a feast.
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With identities in Christ, we are like the prodigal son. We
are not perfect but we do have the privilege of returning to
our Father even when we fall short of His glory. When we
forget our identity in Christ, we are like the son, sitting and
wallowing in the pig slop of our mistakes. But, it is only
through our revelation of our identity in our Father that we
are able to come back to Him to share in the goodness of His
riches and forgiveness.
2. You have promises.
Being a child of God means truly believing that God has a
purpose for your life and He always makes provision for your
life. God never lies.
One of my favorite songs “100 Billion X” by Cross Worship
is a song that talks about God speaking things into creation.
One of the lines that stood out to me in this song and gave
me revelation was “God of your promise. You don’t speak
in vain, no syllable empty or void.”
Do you realize how powerful that thought is? God is so
deliberate and so true to His words that right down to the
syllables, the vowels, the consonants, and the similes there is
a purpose behind it. God does not play around with the
words that He says.
We make promises that we break. but God is not a man. He
doesn’t lie. So if God has promised you something, it will
come to pass. No ifs or buts.
In Genesis, God spoke to the darkness, and there was light.
He spoke to the oceans, He spoke to the creatures and by His
command it all came into existence. So with that same
breath, if God has spoken something into your life, just as
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the oceans, and the mountains, and the creatures, don’t you
think that it will come to pass?
It may not be on your timing, but in God’s timing it will
come to pass because Philippians 1:6 reads “Being confident
of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work
in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ.” (KJV)
Everyone has a promise and God will never leave them
incomplete.
3. You always have the upperhand and the victory.
God is the most clever author because instead of writing the
story from beginning to end, God has given us the end to the
beginning. We have the final chapter.
Being God’s child means knowing that no matter what you
are going through, it is all working in your favour and all
roads lead to the victory. 2 Corinthians 12:9 says “Each time
he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in
weakness. So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses,
so that the power of Christ can work through me.” (KJV).
Therefore look trials and temptations in the face. Put on
your armour and fight, because it is those weak moments
and those vulnerable moments that there is a guarantee that
Christ will work through you. Most importantly, when you
know that when Christ is in the mix, the battle is already a
done deal. You have the strength of God on your side at all
times and on all angles.
4. Your citizenship is Heaven
Philippians 3:20 says “But our citizenship is in heaven. And
we eagerly await a Savior from there, the Lord Jesus
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Christ,” (NIV). God has created our identities to be spiritual.
Everyday we must die to the needs of our flesh and
remember that it is our spirit that we must feed. God is
spiritual and He lives spiritually within us and His spirit can
not be slain.
Secular music often can provide a tied message with the
gospel (rarely), but a song “DNA,” by American rapper
Kendrick Lamar, attests to the truth that the mechanics of
our spiritual DNA can not be altered. He sings: “I was born
like this, since one like this, immaculate conception. I transform
like this, perform like this, was Yeshua's new weapon.” We were
all born to be a weapon of Christ to use to conquer a problem
in this world. This battle is not against flesh and blood but
against rulers of the dark realms.
So when we fight, we must fight with a spiritual mind. There
is a spiritual place that we can not see, but we must believe
that it is very very real. Therefore, fighting and having a
carnal identity will leave you dead, but to fight spiritually
gives you more life and peace in the battle.
5. You are a child of light
As an identifier of the Kingdom we must understand that we
are not to be as the darkness of this world. Satan is deemed
the Prince of this world and of the air. Therefore, it is no
surprise that evil, greed, murder, division, lust, and pride
lines the very fibers of this corrupt Earth. As children of
God, we are called to be the exact opposite of the world. We
are called to follow God’s commands and live Godly lives
fully. We are not to dabble in the darkness, and shine our
light partially. We are called to be hot and on fire for Christ
and not lukewarm. Isaiah 59:19 says “When the enemy shall
come in like a flood, the Spirit of the LORD shall lift up a
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standard against him.” (NIV). We are not to be of the
darkness, but rise against it. We carry ourselves, dress
ourselves, conduct and speak as Kingdom children and we
are expected to do it always.

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Chapter 5: Restoring Your Identity
“...He predestined us for adoption to sonship through Jesus
Christ, in accordance with his pleasure and will--.”Ephesians
1:5 (NIV)

The enemy may have tried to shake what God has placed in
you, but just know that He was never given the power to
destroy it. God’s identity is standard, and can not be moved,
only covered. The book of Ephesians says “...He predestined
us for adoption to sonship through Jesus Christ, in accordance
with his pleasure and will--.”Ephesians 1:5 (NIV) What God
has placed in you can never be erased. You must know that
the devil may try to uproot you through his lies and his
schemes, but you have entered partnership with a name that
brings every single power, principality, and ruler of the dark
world to its knees. Therefore, you have the power to restore
your identity every single time that it has been tampered
with.
God has sent His son Jesus Christ to reclaim the mistakes
and time that the enemy has captured, and it is never too late
to restore your identity to its default setting. Coming to
know who you are in God is a process, but a simple
declaration can bring you into right standing with your Lord
and Savior. If you have strayed away from the Lord and want
to rededicate your life, say this prayer and believe it in your
heart:
“God I come into your presence thanking you. You are Lord over
my life and rule every part of my being. You are my creator and I
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will make a joyful noise unto you always. I come into your courts
praising you and thanking you for all that you have done for me
even when I did not deserve it. Father I have strayed. Father I
have fallen prey to the wiles of the devil. I have realized that I can
not fight this battle alone, therefore I need you by my side. God I
apologize for rebelling and running away from your love, but now
I am ready to assume my position in your sonship. Have your way
with me Lord. I am your vessel. Complete the work that you have
started in me. I believe in your Son Jesus Christ, and the power of
your Holy Spirit. Send down a fresh anointing of your helper God.
I am yours. Amen.”
If you believed every word you prayed, God has heard your
words. He loves you and He wants you to be everything that
He created you to be. Again, remember that being all who
God has called you to be takes time, effort, and progress.
But you can journey on to this walk always remembering
that:
God Loves You
No matter what you have done, God sees you just how He
has created you. No mistake is too great to cause God to
reject you. Repent, and know that there is absolutely nothing
that can separate us from the love of God. Jesus Christ paid
the price for you to experience God’s love. Don’t let His
sacrifice be in vain.
You Need to Need God - Make a Choice
God can only begin to shine through your identity when you
make room for Him to do so. Some of us never see the
fullness of our identities because we fail to show God that we
need Him. We take everything into our own control, but God
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wants to be God over your life…..your whole life. Make the
choice to either allow God to be fully God in your life, or not
be God at all. Following God is a denial of self and what we
want in exchange for His perfect will. Ask yourself which
road you will take.
Submit Your Life To Him and Know He Is In Control
God wants full submission to Him. We need to know that
our lives are not our own. We are not our own creation. God
has placed us all on Earth with a purpose and it is only fair to
allow that purpose to play out in our lives. Know that God is
in control always.
Create a Friendship With Him
There is nothing more damaging than the spirit of religion.
Some people believe that just by being a good person, or
completing rituals, going to church, participating in
communion, and giving offerings is all that God needs from
us. If that was the case, Jesus’ death was a mistake. Jesus was
sent to restore our relationship and identities in God. God
wants to know you for you. He wants His own personal
relationship with you. It is not through robotic rituals that
God loves us. The righteous live by faith and that faith has to
come from knowing God personally.
Start and Progress
No relationship in Christ is the same, therefore the biggest
mistake you could ever make is emulating someone else’s.
Some of us are waiting for the right time when all of our Ts
are crossed and Is are dotted to usher into the presence of
God. But God wants us just how we are. God does not want
us to pray the right prayer, or interpret a verse correctly in
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order to be deemed His. God just wants us to start small,
submit to Him and progress. He will work within us to
mature and evolve our relationships, but that can only
happen through your submission. Listen to a sermon a day.
Read one verse everyday. You have to sacrifice and go the
extra mile to truly show God that you want His control over
your life.
You know who God told you to break up with. You know
what addiction God told you to surrender. You know what
heartache He told you to let go. You know what habits He
said to destroy.
What are you waiting for? Obedience is better than sacrifice.
Know That Your Position is in The Heavenly Places
As children of light begin to remember that our citizenship
is in the heavenly places. Everything you see around you is
temporary: both good and bad. Our ultimate goal is to be in
Heaven with our Father when the time is right. We are not
part of this world, so keep your focus on the one above.

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Chapter 6: It was Never About You

“Seek Ye first the kingdom of God, and His righteousness, and
all of these things shall be added unto you.”-Matthew 6:33
(KJV).

We may believe that the acceptance of our identity in
Christ is solely for our benefit, but we would be living a lie.
In my walk, I have realized that God is a kingdom God. I
used to pray to Him to give me what I wanted when I wanted
it. But through revelation and conviction of the Holy Spirit,
that is not how Kingdom identifiers ought to live their lives.
God gives gifts not to bless us solely, but to bless those
around us. He creates apostles, teachers, business owners,
and visionaries not so that they may be glorified, but to
glorify the name of God and convert more disciples into His
sonship.
Therefore, you assuming your identity was never about you,
but about the people around you that you were assigned to
impact. Many of us were called to be teachers, prophets,
youth leaders and children of light to impact our coworkers
who struggle with gossip, or the little boy who hangs on the
corner of street who is doubting God’s love due to the loss of
both his parents, or the little girl in our place of employment
who is struggling with loving herself.
But some of us are sitting on purposes because we fail to see
the urgency and cost of our complacency.
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Not living in the identity of Christ deprives others of His
goodness, which is highly detrimental because the cost is
saved souls. When you allow Satan to use you and you
assume an incorrect identity, you are robbing the kingdom of
precious lives and God’s fulfilled plans.
The scriptures say “Seek Ye first the kingdom of God, and
His righteousness, and all of these things shall be added
unto you.” (KJV).
Therefore, it is imperative that we understand that living in
the identity that God has created us in affects those around
us. So, it is important that we seek to be more like Him first
and not like the world.
If God has placed you in an organization that is ridden with
darkness, negativity, people who are broken, and people
dealing with damaged hearts: How can God’s will be done if
you decide to adopt the identity of those people instead of
the one you were given in Christ?
If you are cursing, fighting, and gossiping just as they are
and suppressing the standard that God has called to live up
to, there’s no way that there can be change. You’re adding
darkness to darkness which only brings more darkness.
But, if God has placed the identity in you to minister the
gospel, to speak of His goodness to those members, and walk
in that identity proudly and truly, it is THEN that you’ll be
able to see change. You won’t look nor sound like the norm
and all it ever takes is one light.

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Chapter 7: Your Identity is Your
Ticket

“The sun shall be turned into darkness, and the moon into
blood, before the great and the terrible day of the LORD come."
-Joel 2:31.

Everyday I think about the day that the Lord comes to
Earth and sweeps up His bride. It’s a day that I can only cry
for and hope is very near. It’s funny because the image I have
of Heaven may seem wacky to some people, but it’s my
personal hope that I hold onto.
I picture this image of God’s people in line at Heaven’s
gates, parking their Toyota Camrys and carrying the
spiritual fruit that they beared on Earth up to security with
the angels working the front desk. I picture them checking
our IDs to ensure that we are children of God.
I believe God has this image of us that He created and he
stores it in His industrial heavenly database that lists
everything from our facial features, blood type, and the plans
that He had for us before he sent us into the world.
But what happens is that everytime we decide to allow
spiritual identity theft by the enemy, and identify and look
like the things of this world, we deface the original photo in
that heavenly database.
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When we’re horrible to one another, our identity becomes
defaced. When we lie, steal, cheat, blaspheme, run away from
purpose, and gossip, our caricature is bruised.
It is only by the washing of the blood of Jesus that we receive
by constant repentance, walking with Him, and walking in
the light of the Holy Spirit that allows us to be restored to
the image in the original database.
Therefore, when the day of the Lord comes and we’re all
lining up at Heaven’s gates while the angels are checking us
in, if our identity in the world does not match the ones in the
heavenly databases through our repentance and faith in Him,
we are absolutely done for.
The angels Gabriel and Michael are going to scan our faces
and how we looked in the world, and compare it with our
Godly one and the conclusion is either that we preserved it
or defaced it.
If it’s preserved it’s “Well done my good and faithful
servant.”
But If it’s defaced it’s “ERROR 404”
If it’s defaced it’s “We can’t verify you.”
If it’s defaced it’s “Depart from me. I never knew you.”
Because it’s so true. God only sees what He has created. He
does not recognize nor identify with anything of this world.
I can imagine us calling through the security door for
management to clear up the confusion. We’’ll ask Jesus:
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“Bro Daddy Jesus, Am I not your son?”
“Yo God, Am I not your daughter?”
“Father, didn’t I go to church every other Sunday? Didn’t I
pray to you when I needed that job?”
But when we look at what Matthew 7:21-23 it reads:
“Not everyone who says to me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the
kingdom of heaven, but the one who does the will of my Father
who is in heaven. On that day many will say to me, ‘Lord, Lord,
did we not prophesy in your name, and cast out demons in your
name, and do many mighty works in your name?’ And then will
I declare to them, ‘I never knew you; depart from me, you
workers of lawlessness.”
The one who does the will of the Father and the will of the
Father is that we strive to identify with Him.
His will is that we seek Him and lean onto Him as our
salvation and our God.
It is only the ones who do the WILL of the Father in Heaven
that will gain access through the heavenly gates, and not
those who lived life how they wanted.
It’s no longer enough to acknowledge that God is real. As
identifiers we must walk everyday in His spirit and do the
will and purpose that He has called us to do to prove to Him
that He is not just a figurehead in our lives.
So ask yourself:
Does your ID match?
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When Gabriel holds your card side by side with you will it
pair up?
People of God: Don’t be denied.
Live out your identity. It is your ticket after death.
It is your ticket to eternal life.

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Chapter 8: Don’t Run From Identity
(Testimony)

”And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by
the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good,
and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.” -Romans 12:2
Ibelieve in grandmother’s prayers. If you’re a Christian and
have grown up with Christian parents or elderly seasoned
Christ warriors, you’re most likely familiar with your
grandmother or your mother praying over you.
You’d be sleeping peacefully and entering your third dream
at 2am when all of a sudden, you’d feel the oily palm of your
grandmother on your forehead. You wake up crusty eyed and
disillusioned to the sound of her speaking in tongues and
commanding the devil’s hands be loosed in Jesus’ name.
It may seem comical to some when we reminisce, but I truly
believe that it was my grandmother’s 2am covering that has
saved me and led me to truly following Christ today. If it
wasn’t for her fervent petitioning to God to cover me, instill
in me wisdom and guide me as I grew up, I would not be
where I am today.
Growing up, Jesus, God, and the Holy Spirit were always part
of my life. I went to church regularly, knew that Hell was a
place where all the bad people went, and I was always
thankful for all the things in my life.
But, it wasn’t until I was about 14 or 15 that I truly began to
question why I believed what I believed. I knew who God
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was in my aunt’s life, my pastor’s life and my grandmother’s
life, but I had never truly found out who God was to me.
Fourteen was pivotal because for the first time I had a hand
in deciding who I was going to be…..or at least I thought.
I could now make my own conscious decisions therefore,
this was the perfect opportunity to really grow into myself.
Now, it’s easy to say that we want to live for Christ, and I’m
sure that’s what my heart was even saying at that time, but at
fourteen, the truth was I didn’t want to make the sacrifices
necessary to identify in Christ.
Identifying in Christ meant not looking or sounding like the
world. It meant not walking how the world walked, but in my
fourteen year old mind, that was not enticing. I did not want
to risk standing out, being called a “goodie-two-shoes,” or a
“buzzkill” though I knew that God had called me out to live
my life for Him. I didn’t want to wear a yellow shirt in a
room full of people wearing orange.
I listened to the music everyone listened to. I dressed how
the world told me to dress. I wanted to be what I saw was
being accepted by others. As I grew up, God eventually just
became a figure on the shelf in my life as I continued to
suppress my identity in Him. I became numb to His calling
and I became Lord over my own life.
Instead of listening to His word, I ran away from it. Instead
of being eager to go to church, I was eager to go to the next
club event or party. Instead of surrounding myself with
believers who could mature me, I decided to hang with
people who weren’t necessarily concerned with God’s will
for their lives. Instead of waiting for God’s match for me in a
husband, I decided His ways were outdated and got involved
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in numerous situationships and ungodly involvements that
took more out of me than they put in.
This led me to becoming empty years later. I felt as if I was
just a body being swayed on its own. I did and said things
that in my spiritual mind I knew were wrong, but somehow
my outer body had its own control. I was hurting, and lost
and fell into a deep depression because of this.
I was a slave to sin.
It wasn’t until I had an encounter in my dorm room in 2019. I
had become so overwhelmed with the state of my life and
doing things on my own, I felt purposeless and life came to
an ultimate downward spiral. I was beginning to see that I
did not have the control that I believed I had. I made a
terrible God and I’d made a terrible identity for myself.
Overwhelmed, I sat on my bed and randomly decided to turn
on a song called “Just Want You” by Travis Greene. I could
remember just praying to God to show up. I bawled and
bawled for what seemed like hours until I felt a rush of wind
overcome me on my bed. It was cooler than any wind I’ve
ever felt before in my life and in the blink of an eye, I fell to
the ground. I began calling out to God and telling Him that I
was sorry for everything. It was a deep sorrow that I never
felt before.
I realized that I had been running from the only person who
gave me my true identity. I had realized that I was not the
one given the responsibility to create my own identity or give
myself what I thought was purpose.
From that point on, right in my dorm room, I decided that I
was going to wear the yellow shirt. I was ready to risk it all,
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even if it meant standing out and losing everything that I
was holding onto. Even if it meant being an anomaly in
today’s culture.
Many of you may have been like me, or are still like that
today, but take what I have learned. I learned that an identity
in Christ is the only way to go.
Lusting after the things of this world, the status, the careers,
the relationship, etc should all be after thoughts, because
when the world passes away, none of those things can be
carried. When you’re in a spiritual drought, none of these
things can feed you.
We often want to bury that identity or assume only a part of
it in hopes of blending in with the world and following the
crowd, however that is not what God has called us to do. God
wants us to change the world.
You know that God has called you out: Do not wait to walk
in Him. There is purpose inside of you and it is time that
you begin to live your life according to that purpose. Do not
deny what you know is inside of you because you do not
understand it. Trust God.
If God has called you to sing and lead choirs, start today. If
God has placed in you the gift of spoken word, share that gift
today. If God has called you to lead a youth ministry, work
your way up to that today! Do not tarry.
Your last day may be tomorrow, and you can never turn back.
Assume your identity in Christ today and stand in it. You
were called out for a reason.
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Romans 12:2 says: “And be not conformed to this world:
but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that
ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and
perfect, will of God.”
Will you put on your yellow shirt?

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