1. AUTHOR’S PAGE
My name is Geoff Smoluk, I am a single parent
of a six year old son, named Zachary.
I created this project during the pursuit of my
degree in Elementary Education at The
University of North Carolina and as a reflection
of my emotions when I first learned I would be a
father to Zachary.
This was a great experience for me because it
allowed me to recall and record the emotions I
felt involving his birth and to re-experience his
early development.
My goal was to capture information surrounding
the activities of my son’s birth and possibly at
some future date to convey these feelings to
him.

2. THE DAY
It was a week before your due date and we weren’t thinking you would be early. That
night your mother started feeling pains and suspected you may be coming soon. Her belly pains
weren’t great enough for us rush to the hospital that night since it was late and we both were
tired from a busy day. We decided the best thing to do was to try to get some sleep. If the pains
increased we would then make the decision. I remember neither of us had problems getting to
sleep that night even though we were scared of the possibilities the next day could hold. I woke
early on Friday, September 15, 2006, to your mother shaking my arm and telling me the pains had
continued to increase. I could tell from the look in her eyes she knew it was time to go, but she
was looking at me to rationalize everything and confirm her feelings to head to the hospital. After
hearing stories about false labor, she was hesitant. We both made the decision to head to
Presbyterian Hospital in Matthews from our house in Monroe. On the way our feelings turned
from an unknown excitement to an understanding that this was real and you would be on your
way today for sure.
We finally got to the hospital and nurses put your
mother into a wheel chair to bring her to the doctor’s room. I
remember your mother always being strong throughout carrying
you. Nothing about being pregnant with you had ever slowed her
down; just two weeks prior to the day, she had, in my eyes,
unbelievably climbed the heights of Chimney Rock with her belly
the size of a beach ball. Now to see her put in a wheel chair
appeared to be beyond comprehension for me.

3. AND THEN YOUR WERE HERE
The doctor confirmed our thoughts that yes, you had decided to make your arrival
today and you would be coming very soon. Your mother and I began making phone calls to
all your future family to share the news and invite them to come to join us. Nana and Papa
were already in town, but at the time were heading to Charlotte Douglas Airport to drop
Uncle Paul off. Pappy was trying to finish some business, but would come as soon as he
could. Your mother was sad because she knew Grandma and Grandpa lived in Georgia and
were too far away to make the journey in time, but they tried to assure her they would be as
quick as possible.
Nana and Papa were the first to show up and it was a relief
for us to have them there helping us relax as we nervously waited. I
called Pappy again and had feared he was also too far and would not
be able to make it in time.
Zachary’s first picture.

4. The nurses informed us you’d be coming soon and everyone other than me would have to
leave and go to the waiting room. Everything happened so fast after that. Your mother was
pushing and trying to keep her breathing in rhythm. I was holding her hand and doing everything
I could to provide her support. Just then you starting to come out and I could see you for the first
time. I looked at mommy at that moment with a strange look in my eyes as if I was trying to
comprehend what it was I was really seeing. It was 12:26PM and you were out crying up a storm.
I cut your cord, the nurse cleaned you, and put you in mommy’s arms for the first time. To both
mommy and daddy you looked like a tiny bundle of love wrapped up all tight in a blanket.
I can’t recall what if anything I said to mommy
as I was overwhelmed with excitement of your arrival and
wanted to share the news and welcome everyone to the
room to see you. I ran down to the waiting room at my
first chance and found Nana, Papa, and Pappy. I was at a
loss for words and even though we all knew you were
going to be a boy, all I managed to say was “it’s a boy”.
Their first reaction was disbelief; it had only been thirty
minutes since they were asked to leave the room.

5. IN THE BEGINNING
We all rejoined in the room and were amazed by how quickly and nearly effortlessly
you seemed to have entered the world. It was as if everyone had left the room for a trip to
the cafeteria only to return to find the only change was now we had an extra person there
with us. It was a day in my life that changed me forever.

6. ZACHARY JAMES SMOLUK
• Zachary James Smoluk was the first born child to Amanda
and Geoffrey. He was delivered at the Presbyterian
Hospital in Matthews, NC on Friday, September 15, 2006 at
12:26 PM.
• Your weight at birth was 6 pounds 13 ounces and you were
19 inches long.
• Zachary James – two names that relate to your
grandfather’s names. Although Zachary has little
relationship to John, we did note that your grandfather,
John, uses the knick-name of Jack. Since many use knick-
names, we recognized that a shortened Zachary would be
Zack. So there you have it Jack and then Zack. Your middle
name is in honor of your mother’s father James.

7. My Life – My Light – My Warmth
I woke from my dream not knowing it to be
true
I did not know the power of the sun
The life, the light, the warmth
I did not know the power of a son
His life, his light, his warmth
Now the dream is true, I know it to be you

8. Zachary’s Family Tree
Olive James Mary Werner Agnes Edward Marie John
Elizabeth James Susan John
Amanda Geoffrey
Zachary

9. OBSTACLES OVERCOME
It is said that the traditional family living in a traditional home produces the best environment for raising children to
ensure that they develop into wholesome citizens. For the sake of the children many believe that some abuse, frustration,
unhappiness, or ridicule should be tolerated for the sake of the child.
However, there are times where one person feels incomplete, frustrated, or trapped in a relationship and no matter
what – they want out. This was our situation and we needed to cooperate to ensure that you would not suffer because of our
situation.
Your parents agreed to a permanent separation but promised each other you would remain the center of all of our
decisions. We recognized within ourselves our relationship could not be repaired or enhanced through personal discussions or
professional interventions. We promised each other to keep personal recriminations, accusations and personal frustrations away
from you and present our new situation in a normal as possible way of handling an adult problem.
Our foremost goal was to ensure and maintain the loving relationship we both had for you. That you would always
receive our personal attention and all issues would be reconciled by mom and dad together. While our relationship could not be
repaired, your interests remained protected because your mom and I both kept our promises to certain our decisions with your
interests being paramount. We took an approach where you would live equally with each of us and that we would make every effort
to have you spend time with grandparents whenever feasible. We kept you involved in sports and where we could both be there and
share in your achievements. We made and kept promises surrounding holidays and where feasible both of shared time with you
together.
Although we faced a daunting task, your mom and I kind of congratulate ourselves on the way you are developing into
a fine young man. We truly believe our loving approach whereby you remained the center of our decision making was the very best
solution we could have made. Mom and dad both look at you and we are so very glad that whatever hardship we may have
experience was fully reconciled in how you so skillfully adjust to the changing scenarios you experience. We see your happiness
whenever you stay with dad or with mom. You have developed with unconditional love for your parents and are developing in a
manner that makes us very proud to call you our son. From my point of view, I have no doubt our decisions to raise you outside the
traditional style family was not only a benefit to you, but to your parents who were able to have a strong working relationship that
maintained your interests in the forefront of all family decisions.

10. Zachary,
You are already six years old – where has the time gone? You were
and remain the most precious event that happened in my life.
As I grew, I knew deep within my heart I wanted a son, a son I could
share my life with and be called by a new name – Dad. A dad of
someone I could share my life, someone to teach and guide and
watch grow into manhood.
I waited a long time for you, and now that you are six, I must tell you
that you have and are exceeding all my expectations. As you grew in
your mom’s tummy, my excitement grew more intense and then that
day you entered the world and into my life forever. I held you close; I
played with your fingers and toes, rubbed your back and felt your
breathing as you slept upon my chest. You brought a special
excitement into my life and I wanted to spend as much time as I
could with you.
You are a very special treasure in my life and I am reminded of that
every day as I watch you grow, how you absorb the worldly things
around you, how you laugh and how you share your joy. I love your
hugs, I love your closeness and I just love that I am your dad. Best of
all, you complete my life every day that we share together. You are
an awesome dude and I thank you for being part of my life now and
forever.
Daddy