This document discusses the devastating impact that suicide can have on those left behind. It describes how friends, family members, and community will experience intense grief, guilt, and pain following a death by suicide. While the person who dies may feel that nobody cares, the reality is that many people care deeply and will be forever affected by the loss. The document encourages anyone considering suicide to seek help from others instead of making this permanent decision, as there are always alternatives and the situation can improve with time and support.

1. Want To Commit Suicide?
Read This First

2. Take A Few Minutes

3. You’re sitting in your room

4. Door Locked

5. with a pen in your hand and a
blank piece of paper in front of
you.

6. Your hand is shaking, and the
tears begin again - for the third
time in the past hour.

7. ‘To my family’ you write at the top
of the page, but decide it’s a bad
way to begin your letter

8. your suicide letter.

9. You try again, start over

10. again and again

11. but you don’t know where to
begin

12. No one understands you

13. no one knows what you’re
going through

14. or at least that’s what you
think.

15. Nobody would care if you’re alive
or not,

16. you mean nothing to nobody

17. It’s night, and you slip into
bed.

18. ’Goodbye’ you whisper into
the darkness.

19. And with that

20. you take your last breathe and
end it all

21. No body cares, right?

22. Well you thought wrong.

23. It’s 7:45 the following morning

24. your mother comes and
knocks on your door.

25. She doesn’t know you can’t
hear her

26. she doesn’t know you’re gone

27. She knocks a few more times,
calling your name to open up.

28. When there is no reply,
she opens it

29. She collapses on the ground
while your dad rushes to your
room.

30. Your siblings have already left
for school.

31. Your very weak mother
collects all the energy she’s
got

32. which is close to nothing

33. to walk over to your bed

34. She leans over your dead
body, crying, squeezing your
hand, screaming

35. Your dad is trying to stay
strong, but the tears escape
his eyes

36. he calls 000 or 911 with one
hand

37. while his other one is on your
mother’s back

38. Your mother blames herself.

39. All those times she had said
‘no’ to you

40. all those times she had
screamed at you

41. sent you to your room over
something stupid

42. Your father will blame himself

43. for not being there for you
when you asked for help

44. for being at work too long
for being at work too long

45. Nobody cares

46. Right?

47. 9:17

48. There’s a knock on your
classroom door

49. it’s the school principle. She
looks more worried than ever

50. She calls the teacher to the
side

51. all the students worry

52. what’s going on?

53. The principle later announces
your suicide

54. The popular girl that always
called you fat and ugly is now
blaming herself.

55. The kid that would always
copy your homework but treat
you like crap

56. he’s blaming himself

57. The boy that sits behind you
the one that always threw
things at you during class

58. also blaming himself

59. The teacher is blaming herself

60. for all those times she’d scream
at you for forgetting your
homework

61. or not listening in class

62. People are crying, screaming,
shocked, in regret of what they
did.

63. They’ll all be devastated

64. even the kids you’ve never
talked to before.

65. Still nobody cares about you,
right?

66. Your siblings get home. Your
mother has to tell them that
you’re gone; forever.

67. Your little sister

68. no matter how many times
she’s screamed at you

69. told you she hated you

70. stole your stuff

71. always loved you

72. You were her hero

73. her role model

74. Now even she

75. blames herself

76. Your brother

77. the boy who never cries

78. He’s now in his room

79. mad at himself

80. he caused your death

81. All those times he’d played
pranks on you

82. He’s punching holes in his
wall, turning over things

83. he doesn’t know how to deal
with the fact that you’re gone

84. forever

85. Nobody cares about you,
right?

86. Right?

87. It’s your funeral.

88. It’s a big one

89. everybody comes.

90. No one knows what to say.

91. The beautiful girl with the big
smile is gone

92. you’re somewhere else

93. No one knows what to say
everybody comes.

94. they’re all still shocked

95. Everyone cries

96. everyone misses you
everyone misses you
everybody comes.

97. They all wish you’d come back
They all wish you’d come back

98. but you don’t

99. and you won't
everybody comes.

100. It's been over a month

101. The door to your room has
been closed all this time.

102. Everything is different now.

103. Your brother has to be sent to
anger management classes

104. your little sister cries everyday

105. Everyday she waits for you to
come back home

106. The popular girls have now
turned anorexic

107. They don’t know how to deal
with the pain that they’re
feeling.

108. Your father has depression

109. your mother hasn’t slept for
nights

110. She’s been crying and
screaming every night

111. The boy who would always
bother you dropped out of
school.

112. The boy that copied your
homework now cuts.

113. But nobody cares about you,
aren’t I right?

114. Still think nobody cares about
you?

115. Think again.

116. Even if people don’t show it,

117. they care about you

118. they love you

119. if you kill yourself today

120. or any other day

121. you won't know just how much
you meant to people

122. If you kill yourself today

123. it stops your pain

124. but

125. it pains all those who know
you

126. for the rest of their life

127. Suicide is the easy way out

128. but it’s the wrong choice

129. Life is beautiful

130. Yes, it does have it's ups and
downs

131. everyone has their bad days

132. some more than others

133. Sometimes people go through
tough times in their life

134. like you're probably going
through right now

135. but the bad times come and
go

136. You might not see the light at
the end of the tunnel

137. but it's there

138. No matter how hard life gets

139. never give up on yourself

140. or your life

141. ....

142. take a minute now

143. and think

144. If you killed yourself

145. how would the people that
love you feel/go through?

146. ....

147. Can’t think of anything?

148. Well I’ll tell you:

149. tears, tears, and more tears.

150. Devastation. Guilt. Pain.
Broken. Regret. Miserable.

151. If after reading this you still
feel suicidal

152. there are people that can help
you

153. I’m here for you whenever you
need me

154. and I’ll be more than happy to
listen to you and try to help
you feel better.

155. there are teachers, parents,
grandparents, neighbors, adults,
councilors

156. they’re all there for you
whenever you need them.

157. I just want you to remember
three things

158. you're beautiful

159. you're not alone

160. and it does get better

161. I Promise