Want To Commit Suicide?

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You’re sitting in your room
Door Locked
with a pen in your hand and a
blank piece of paper in front of
             you.
Your hand is shaking, and the
tears begin again - for the third
     time in the past hour.
‘To my family’ you write at the top
 of the page, but decide it’s a bad
      way to begin your letter
your suicide letter.
You try again, start over
again and again
but you don’t know where to
           begin
No one understands you
no one knows what you’re
     going through
or at least that’s what you
           think.
Nobody would care if you’re alive
           or not,
you mean nothing to nobody
It’s night, and you slip into
             bed.
’Goodbye’ you whisper into
      the darkness.
And with that
you take your last breathe and
           end it all
No body cares, right?
Well you thought wrong.
It’s 7:45 the following morning
your mother comes and
 knocks on your door.
She doesn’t know you can’t
        hear her
she doesn’t know you’re gone
She knocks a few more times,
calling your name to open up.
When there is no reply,
    she opens it
She collapses on the ground
while your dad rushes to your
            room.
Your siblings have already left
          for school.
Your very weak mother
collects all the energy she’s
              got
which is close to nothing
to walk over to your bed
She leans over your dead
body, crying, squeezing your
      hand, screaming
Your dad is trying to stay
strong, but the tears escape
          his eyes
he calls 000 or 911 with one
           hand
while his other one is on your
        mother’s back
Your mother blames herself.
All those times she had said
         ‘no’ to you
all those times she had
     screamed at you
sent you to your room over
     something stupid
Your father will blame himself
for not being there for you
 when you asked for help
for being at work too long
  for being at work too long
Nobody cares
Right?
9:17
There’s a knock on your
    classroom door
it’s the school principle. She
looks more worried than ever
She calls the teacher to the
            side
all the students worry
what’s going on?
The principle later announces
        your suicide
The popular girl that always
called you fat and ugly is now
       blaming herself.
The kid that would always
copy your homework but treat
        you like crap
he’s blaming himself
The boy that sits behind you
 the one that always threw
 things at you during class
also blaming himself
The teacher is blaming herself
for all those times she’d scream
    at you for forgetting your
            homework
or not listening in class
People are crying, screaming,
shocked, in regret of what they
              did.
They’ll all be devastated
even the kids you’ve never
    talked to before.
Still nobody cares about you,
            right?
Your siblings get home. Your
 mother has to tell them that
   you’re gone; forever.
Your little sister
no matter how many times
  she’s screamed at you
told you she hated you
stole your stuff
always loved you
You were her hero
her role model
Now even she
blames herself
Your brother
the boy who never cries
He’s now in his room
mad at himself
he caused your death
All those times he’d played
       pranks on you
He’s punching holes in his
 wall, turning over things
he doesn’t know how to deal
with the fact that you’re gone
forever
Nobody cares about you,
        right?
Right?
It’s your funeral.
It’s a big one
everybody comes.
No one knows what to say.
The beautiful girl with the big
       smile is gone
you’re somewhere else
No one knows what to say
  everybody comes.
they’re all still shocked
Everyone cries
everyone misses you
everyone misses you
everybody comes.
They all wish you’d come back
     They all wish you’d come back
but you don’t
and you won't
everybody comes.
It's been over a month
The door to your room has
been closed all this time.
Everything is different now.
Your brother has to be sent to
 anger management classes
your little sister cries everyday
Everyday she waits for you to
     come back home
The popular girls have now
     turned anorexic
They don’t know how to deal
  with the pain that they’re
           feeling.
Your father has depression
your mother hasn’t slept for
          nights
She’s been crying and
screaming every night
The boy who would always
bother you dropped out of
         school.
The boy that copied your
 homework now cuts.
But nobody cares about you,
       aren’t I right?
Still think nobody cares about
              you?
Think again.
Even if people don’t show it,
they care about you
they love you
if you kill yourself today
or any other day
you won't know just how much
    you meant to people
If you kill yourself today
it stops your pain
but
it pains all those who know
              you
for the rest of their life
Suicide is the easy way out
but it’s the wrong choice
Life is beautiful
Yes, it does have it's ups and
            downs
everyone has their bad days
some more than others
Sometimes people go through
   tough times in their life
like you're probably going
     through right now
but the bad times come and
             go
You might not see the light at
    the end of the tunnel
but it's there
No matter how hard life gets
never give up on yourself
or your life
....
take a minute now
and think
If you killed yourself
how would the people that
love you feel/go through?
....
Can’t think of anything?
Well I’ll tell you:
tears, tears, and more tears.
Devastation. Guilt. Pain.
Broken. Regret. Miserable.
If after reading this you still
          feel suicidal
there are people that can help
             you
I’m here for you whenever you
           need me
and I’ll be more than happy to
 listen to you and try to help
         you feel better.
there are teachers, parents,
grandparents, neighbors, adults,
           councilors
they’re all there for you
whenever you need them.
I just want you to remember
         three things
you're beautiful
you're not alone
and it does get better
I Promise
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