Calling to report what happened is one of the more difficult things we have to face in grief. As if grief is not bad enough - calling just makes the painful just that much more.
Mattingly "AI & Prompt Design: The Basics of Prompt Design"
"Calling" - Facing Grief - Volume 3 Essay #17
1. Calling.
From Volume 3 - Essay #17
Written Wednesday, November 6, 2019 / Day 86 / Morning
2. Of all the awful elements that are a part
of the world of grief, there is one
that is particularly difficult.
There is no way around the task.
It is just as inevitable as the moment that
brought you into the world of grief.
5. One of the most distressing is having to
talk about the most destructive, gut-
wrenching and debilitating event in your
life to a rather clerical person.
6. It’s not their fault, I know.
They are just doing their job.
But the job is rather sterile.
8. Getting the courage to make the call
is one thing. I am amused at myself
that I thought I would be
able to do this sooner.
In my case, with my unique situation -
doing this any earlier than today was
just unthinkable.
9. So when the moment finally
comes and you are resolved
to take action - there is the
next hurdle you have to face.
11. These days your call is received by an
automated system.
There you have to listen to the options
and make your choice.
Once there - the next obstacle
presents itself.
13. Here you must listen to some generic -
often bouncy little pieces of music.
Mine was a mix of bouncy music,
followed by some stylized
classical items most likely
to try to keep you awake.
14. In my case, while on hold, I am in full
anticipation mode. Awaiting the moment
when I have to launch my dialog.
15. Oh good, a pause in the music,
here we go.
No, the music just shifted
to another selection.
And there we sit.
16. Sitting in a nether-world of
pent-up emotions awaiting
our moment to step out on
the stage to state the
reason why we are calling.