1. a fairytale of stupid lives etc!
It's a pity most people are blind..
It was one of those moments that everything suddenly went so quiet.. and a baby in
the street just turned his head around and looked at me. Practically stared. I didn't
know if it was real, it seemed very much the opposite. All of a sudden I smiled. And
he smiled back. I thought about it all day yesterday and almost all day today. I was
intrigued..
When you see something like that it’s like God is looking right at you just for a
second and if you are careful you can look right back.
I knew at that instant that God smiled at me.. And the funny thing was.. I just smiled
back.
It’s a great thing when you realise you still have the ability to surprise yourself.
Makes you wonder what else you can do that you have forgotten about. It made me
remember of days when nothing but play matter, begging my dad to put me in his lap
and drive together his new car, sitting on the floor with my mum with her fingers
tangled in my hair, my grandmother preparing toast with butter and coffee and my
grandfather walking me around the park and showing me every tree.
I guess most people are pretty pissed with what goes on in their lives. Others think
they are very much larger than life when in reality they are just barely scratching the
surface full of insecurities and concerns. And others are just looking around them,
mesmerized.. trying to win the game of life. But it’s hard to stay mad when there is so
much magic around. Sometimes you feel like you are seeing it all at once and it’s too
much. And then you remember to relax, take a big breath and stop trying to hold on to
it. Life flows through your body like rain and you can’t feel anything but gratitude for
every single moment of your stupid little life. You have no idea what I am talking
about I’m sure. But don’t worry, you will some day.
Marilyn 24/12/09 at 3.52 am