The author is going through a difficult time personally and feels like nothing is going their way. They care deeply about someone but have pushed this person away by giving up on the possibility of a romantic relationship due to getting tired of waiting for their feelings to potentially change. While it hurts to accept that being just friends is all that is possible, the author resolves to deal with that and move on.

1. There's a lot going
on in my life and it
seems nothing going
the way I want it to
go. Everything's
going bad.

2. In all that’s going one in
my life I’m pushing people
away and I cant help it. I
just want everything to work
out.

3. In all that’s going on
I care about someone a
lot have for a long
time and they think I
have pushed them to
the side.

4. I reality there the only person
that I haven't pushed away I
didn’t push them away I just
gave up on them. Cause they
don’t feel the same way.

5. I didn’t want to but I got
tired of waiting to see if
things would change and it
didn’t. It hurts me to give
up and they have already
hurt me before they just
don’t know they did.

6. I guess that’s all fate
has in store for us is
just to be friends know
matter how bad I want
more than that. I will
deal with friends and
just move on.

7. It’s hard to wait around for
something you know might not
happen, but its even harder to
give up when you know its
everything you ever wanted.