2. I have been thinking, thinking too hard. I have been
thinking about a certain girl. I have tried distracting
myself with fun and boring events. I have tried to get her
out of my mind. And then today I heard a quote, that was
supposedly intended to make me feel better about this
girl,
3. but after I had heard some song whose search has
been consuming most of my brain power, my mind
came back to this girl again. There is nothing
special about this girl, just that I saw myself in her,
like déjà vu. She is around 6 or 7 years, slightly
emaciated, and generally weak. I was in town
(Nairobi, Kenya) two days ago,
4. and I felt a soft hand touch my left hand, kinda like I
still reserve the autonomy to listen, and the fact is, I
didn’t. I continued to walk. She followed me holding
my wrist, and after walking some few meters, I finally
decided to look. It was some young girl holding some
sweets up high in the hope that I may buy one.
5. I kindly took her hand off my wrist and told her
“next time.” Immediately after, I felt so deeply
awful about myself that I looked back, but when I
almost turned back, I convinced myself that I will
find her there when I am coming back. I usually
give out coins to the unfortunate in the streets, and
once a hundred.
6. I had coins, in fact I had one in my hand, several
other in my pocket, few hundreds, and one or two
thousand. I was going to use then to buy some
pants. But this girl wasn’t begging, she was asking
me to buy her sweets at whatever cost I feel fair,
just so maybe she may add
7. the profit to her savings to buy some food. I bet her
mom was around, probably breast-feeding her
younger brother. The probable reason I didn’t buy is
because I had a lot in my mind, or I just didn’t care,
or maybe am changing. My kindness is leaving my
soul. And this is frightening to the bones. I am
planning of starting a software company,
8. how will I make it against the great tide of corruption,
injustice, and morally ill society? If I can’t be kind to
those below me, how do I expect those above me to
sign me business contracts? Humility has always been
something I have prided myself of possessing, but I
don’t feel the same anymore. However, this incident
brought me back to my roots, hopes and dreams.
9. I want to start a company to find money to
build a children’s home. And a hospital and
school for them. And I will.
10. The quote I read was:
“The production of too many useful things
results in too many useless people.”
― Karl Marx
11. This quote implies that excess is harmful and
dangerous, and it does not matter if it is the
excessive creation of something really good, as
even in positive things excess turns into
negative consequences. I like the quote
because it’s different and twisted,
12. but what bad could happen if everybody
loved, cared and treated their neighbor with
respect, honor and as equal to themselves?