8. My mind wanders, but to each end it always reaches a dead end. Itโs as if Iโm trying to think of what to do, to realize the situation I am in and somehow remedy it. However, every time I try to come up with a solution, it escapes my grasp. Iโve been taking pills recently, but I donโt know if theyโre helping anymore. I think theyโre making things worse. Weโฆ I have since moved. Or have I? Could the house simply have been remodeled to appear like I have moved to a new place? Whatever the case may be, my new living arrangements are much smaller than when I lived with Carmen.
9. I left everything behind. Everything except this urn the contains all that remains of Carmen, the photograph of Jill and I when we were teenagersโฆ and that servo. Itโs still with me. Itโs growing a garden and tending it. The servo grows the vegetables to sell. Guess that pays the bills for now. Except now, Iโm supposed to be a criminal mastermind. I know Iโve done it before, but now it seems as if I donโt even know what Iโm supposed to be doing. I donโt feel evil or feel the desire to do anything of the sort and yet, Iโve somehow found the nerve to do it once before. It feels as if that may have been a lifetime not my own.
10. And then thereโs Jill herself. I donโt know what to think anymore. The fact that sheโs here and that I believe I feel her. And hear her. Am I going nuts? Is she nothing more than just some powerful figment of my imagination? Jill is supposed to be dead! I was there at her funeral. They buried her and yetโฆ
11. And yet here she is back in my life. She killed Carmen. I killed those people. No, the servo killed them. I only asked for them to die. But still. Why canโt I remember why I wanted this. Why canโt I remember?
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18. โHello, Gargamel. How are you? Judging by the look on your face, not so well. Why donโt I just lend an ear to your troubles.โ
20. โIs that what is truly bothering you? I thought you were just troubled by the move. Tell me, Gargamel, why would I not be real?โ
21. Jill. Youโre dead. Youโve been dead for a long time now. You were killed in a car accident. I know this. It happened! โAnd yet here I am. How do you explain that?โ Iโve made up my mind. Youโre just a deep part of my mind that just wonโt let go.
22. โThatโs not a very polite thing to say, Gargamel. After all Iโve done for you.โ Youโve done nothing. โI got rid of that woman that was ruining your life. Tell me Gargamel, are you going to deny the fact that I killed that bitch so you could be free?โ
23. โTell me Gargamel, how did Carmen die? Hmmm?โ I donโt knowโฆ The servo must have done it. โThe servo you deactivated because you didnโt need it anymore?โ Thenโฆ could I? โThink to yourself Gargamel. You couldnโt muster the courage to face those college kids. Thatโs why you made the servo.โ
24. โDo you honestly think you would have killed your own wife, even cornered as you were? I recall you running away to the study. Right?โ This isnโt possible. Youโre not real.
25. โGargamel, donโt you think youโre looking at this the wrong way? After all, can a figment of your imagination feel this real? Feel my lips against your hand. Can you feel it Gargamel? The warmth of life. And perhaps a kiss?โ
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27. โTell me Gargamel, what more do I have to show you? How much more do you have to feel my body against yours, my love wash over you before you can finally accept that I am truly here alive and before you?โ
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31. โDid you feel that? Can something in your mind be that powerful? Iโm here. Iโm here with you. And Iโll never leave you, Gargamel. Iโll never leave you.โ
32. Iโฆ I donโt know. It feels so good. Iโve got shivers running down my spine and I know my body justโฆ. Maybe this is real. Maybe this isโฆ โSsshhhh, Gargamelโฆ one more thing. One more thing to prove to you my love.โ
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39. With deep breathes, Jill speaks, โThereโฆ are youโฆ happy? Was that good enough for you? Because it was amazing for me.โ
40. Jill. After that performance, my answer is clear.