The speaker describes multiple failed attempts to engage with the world without the presence of their beloved. They were unable to smell flowers, walk, eat food, hear music, sleep, acknowledge their surroundings, enjoy sunlight, or breathe without their beloved. All of their senses and abilities failed them without this person, and their artificial life supported by medical equipment was no substitute for truly living and loving with their beloved by their side.

1. I FAILED
Without you; I was no doubt able to hold the bouquet of redolently mesmerizing
flowers in my palms; capsizing them forcefully with my tiny fists,
But try as hard as I could; I miserably failed; every time I probed to smell; even an
inconspicuous iota of their wonderfully enchanting and exotically tingling essence .
Without you; I was no doubt able to uplift my diminutively impoverished body from
cold ground; formidably ensuring the grip of my soles with loose chunks of orphaned
soil,
But try as hard as I could; I pathetically failed; every time I attempted to walk;
collapsing worse than a pack of soggy cards to lick dust; even before I could alight an
infinitesimal bit of foot .
Without you; I was no doubt able to put food in the interiors of my miserably
slavering mouth; vehemently pushing it from all sides,
But try as hard as I could; I indefatigably failed; every time I endeavored to swallow;
vomiting every morsel with ignominious castigation out of my belly; even before it
could venture a lackadaisical trifle down my famished throat .
Without you; I was no doubt able to witness the passionately singing nightingale;
using the most contemporarily robotic contraptions to keep my eyes wide open,
But try as hard as I could; I ludicrously failed; every time I insatiably craved to hear;
with all rhapsody metamorphosing into dumb nothingness; fathomless kilometers
before it reached my ears .
Without you; I was no doubt able to sleep; inundating my withering bloodstream;
with an unsurpassable battalion of profusely sedating drugs,
But try as hard as I could; I penuriously failed; every time I maneuvered my mind to
fantasize; with each dream of mine transiting into nightmares more diabolical than
what hell could be; stabbing me to a ghastly absolution .
Without you; I was no doubt able to march amidst overwhelmingly bustling crowds;
trudging my insidiously lackluster countenance past them at snails pace,
But try as hard as I could; I irrevocably failed; every time I wanted to discerningly
acknowledge; with the planet outside seeming a devastatingly crippled blur; eventually
disappearing into the aisles of obsolete nothingness .
Without you; I was no doubt able to witness glorious sunlight shimmering on my
dreary skin; as I lay curled like an aimless serpent; waiting to be treacherously
squelched by all mankind,
But try as hard as I could; I immutably failed; every time I desired to enjoy the
sensuous warmth; shivering in devastated submission; although it was now
well past mid-afternoon .

2. Without you; I was no doubt able to lackadaisically breathe; with an unsurpassable
battalion of conventional equipment pricking each of my bleary nerve; a hostile fleet
of antiseptic needle finding their way in; well beneath my ridiculously shriveled
veins,
But try as hard as I could; I embarrassingly failed; every time I wanted to exuberantly
soar; with the brilliantly shimmering world outside; transforming for me into a black
wall; of despicably barbaric worthlessness .
And without you O! Beloved; I was no doubt pulsating with fragile heartbeats; taking
fathomless gallons of air in my hopelessly punctured lungs; enshrouded with
a boundless army of life support systems from all sides,
But try as hard as I could; I irrefutably failed; every time I wanted to love and live;
embedding my entire visage deeper and deeper beneath my gory grave; with each
unveiling instant of my artificially vibrant life .