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17. I went through a Lot of hardships
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Hello, My name is Michael Allen, and I am enrolled in the Digital Cinematography degree program at Full Sail University.
When searching Google for pictures to go along with my mantra, I found this one. Now this is a small sneak peek at what my mantra is, and I will share what my mantra is later in the presentation.
As a young child, through most of high school, all I wanted to do was to grow up and be a professional sports star. More than anything, I wanted to play basketball for a living. It was my dream. I had very high hopes of doing this for my life.
I did however, have a backup plan. I used to turn this game on and let the computers play against each other. I would then turn the sound off, and record commentary for the game.
My dream was crushed. I was 17 years old. I was following my normal routine, go to school, go home, change clothes, then head to the park. After that I would play basketball until it was too dark to see the goal anymore. However, on this day, I severely sprained my ankle. It led to further problems with my foot, and I did not have the speed or jumping height that I used to.
Not far off after this incident, I was dealing with the death of one of my grandfathers. Within one years time from the first one, I was dealing with the death of my other grandfather, as well as one of my uncles. It was rough. A few short years later, I was getting divorced from the girl I had been married to right out of high school. This led to the debt that I was stuck with. I also ended up being depressed during this time as well.The Four Ds is what I refer to this period as.
Dealing with the death of 2 grandfathers as well as one of my uncles all with a years time was hard. Not only on me but my entire family. Seeing my family so hurt, took its toll on me as well. I struggled to keep calm when I looked over to my older brother and he was shedding ALL the tears. It is hard to see someone who I grew up with being so strong in my eyes in so much pain.
During that time I had been dating a girl that I was going to high school with. We ended up jumping the gun as some would say and we got married at the age of 18. We had our ups and down and eventually had the final down in spring of 2012 when she decided that she was done with us. We went our separate ways, but due to the way she did things and handled it, it was really rough on me. I had given up so much for her. A scholarship to a different college was the biggest thing that I gave up in order to stay with her.
I had also just started a new job during this time frame, and I had used all of my money on a deposit for an apartment that we lived in. So not only now was I broke, but I was also going through a divorce. My friends had all recently moved, and I would stay at home with my cats on my days off work who quickly became my best friends. I had no money for fun, so that was making me spiral into a depression.
I had to move back in with my parents, giving the little bit of extra money I had to them for bills since I was using their stuff again. However at this point, I was seriously sad. I was in an unhealthy state. I didn’t turn to drugs, or drinking, or hurting myself like some people do. I walked. I walked and walked like no tomorrow. I would wake up and walk sometimes 10 to 15 miles a day and it was a neverending thing. Even when the temperature outside was 100 degrees, I walked. During this time I ate sunflower seeds, and I would usually only eat popcorn when I was at home. This caused a very unhealthy weight loss in me, over 40 pounds in about 2 weeks.
A lot of friends and family tried to give me advice and guidance. A lot of people watched me struggle for months. I could not get a footing. I spent months doing nothing but going to work a few days a week, coming home, and playing video games ALL night until the sun came back up and I finally went to sleep for a couple of hours. It was rough on me and my family, but we eventually found a way to work through the struggles. Eventually some old friends got through to me and helped me get back on the right track.
This caused a fire to be lit inside of me. I wanted nothing more than be successful in life to prove to everyone that ever turned me away that I was a better person than that. I wanted to outshine everyone who ever made me feel like I was worthless and I wanted to be the one with the success and happiness in life knowing that I wasn’t being thrown away, I was being redirected to something much better for me as a person.
Because of the classes I had taken in my associate’s degree, I had found a new interest in something new. I had always LOVED watching movies and reading behind the scenes things, but those classes pushed me into learning way more about the field. That led to a whole new dream, one of cinematography proportions.
There is a book called “The Art of Film Magic” that I have wanted to read for some time. It has a lot of information about the art of some of the more popular films such as Avatar, and the Lord of the Rings films. However, I gained a huge interest in watching and seeing what went on behind the scenes when I would watch movies, and that is what made me so interested in the field that I am interested in today.
This is my mantra. Fall Down 7 Times, Stand up 8. It is an ancient Chinese Proverb, however that is not where I discovered this saying…
I actually heard it in a commercial for Dwyane Wade’s new shoes he was releasing at the time. He is my favorite NBA player for my favorite team Miami Heat. I really took interest in this saying because of the hardships I had been hit with. I had watched a documentary about the life of Dwyane Wade. He had gone through a tremendous amount of struggles as well in life, and I kind of looked up to him as a role model . I heard about him in 2003 which is when I was about 12 to 13 years old. Since then he has been a huge inspiration to me that I can do anything that I desire to do.
Similar to the first picture, I found this one when researching images for my mantra, and it spoke to me as well. I always get back up after I fall. Everyone goes through tough spells in life, and the key is being able to give it your all to stand back up and keep on pushing forward to your goals and dreams. Weakness is in giving up, not falling down. Success comes by just giving it one more shot.
As the image above says, believe in yourself even when no one else does. Some people may not see that in me at this stage in my life, but I know that it is there. I know that I believe that I can do anything I put my mind to and that is why I do succeed and that is why I am happier now than I have been in a very long time! Again my name is Michael Allen, and remember that if you fall down 7 times, you always have to stand up that 8th time. No matter how far and fast and how much you fall, there will be some reason for you to rise up and continue to walk towards your dreams.