Dedicated to Miles Neofotistoes and Paul H.

1. Everything Seems All Screwed Up
Michael Chipolata - Copyright 2007
You say it’s hard for you to just talk.
About those things in life where you get lost.
I guess that I’m not the one to squawk.
As our lives hit bottom in a thud.
Where both feet seem stuck in the mud.
Everything seems all screwed up.
As our lives are changed by situations
where we left off.
Nevertheless, we might be crazy or insane.
And you say.
Chorus
It’s hard for me to just talk.
When you struggle with mixed up thoughts.
When you’re pressured as you try to find your way.
But I say.
End Chorus
I won’t let you jump off
and take the easy way out.
Even if you fight me in a craze.
I’m here to say.
You’re my friend and I will do all that I can.
I’m here to stay and I’m not afraid.
And you say.
Chorus
It’s hard for me to just talk.
When you struggle with mixed up thoughts.
When you’re pressured as you try to find your way.
But I say.
End Chorus
Although things don’t seem to be good today.
Maybe someday God will show us his way.
Who’s to say?
I promise I won’t leave you behind in the dark
and talk to me and I’ll do the same.
And you say.
Chorus
It’s hard for me to just talk.
When you struggle with mixed up thoughts.
When you’re pressured as you try to find your way.
But I say.
End Chorus
I won’t let you jump off
and take the easy way out.
Even if you fight me in a craze.
Everything seems all screwed up.
But I say.
I won’t let you give up.
(dedicated to PMH)

2. Paulie,
You know by now that I care for you more than just a friend but more like a lil’ bro. I feel your pain and I
promise I will do what I can for you to help you cope and you will do what you can to help me cope. I feel so guilty for
saving old meds or over prescribed meds. I should have known better. The truth is those pills were my way out of pain
if ever needed. Now that I have experienced the other side of nearly loosing someone I’ve grown to love and care for
i.e. friend or family, I am confused more than ever. It really hurt what you did with my medications but I understand
and all is forgiven and forgotten. While I cannot replace a father, I want to be there for you as if I were your father (sort
of) or big bro. I will always defend and protect you to the best of my ability but there are limitations in my mental
health as it is with you. Also, I must respect what I am told by your mother as she is your power of attorney I think.
I have been crying off and on for days now since the attempt but I am not mad just sad I cannot take your pain away as
I cannot rid myself of my pain. I also cannot control the mental health system on housing as I am having troubles too.
But, at least you are getting help from them, I am not. I cannot begin to tell you how much I care for you.
Ur True Friend,
Mikey