A dive into the complexity of volunteering, and a closer look at the power, privilege, and relationships that surround the stigma of what it means to volunteer.
2. As I finished reading To Hell with Good Intentions by
Ivan Illich, I did not even know what to think. I was
offended and felt like Illich had ripped my eyes open in trying
to prove his point. He was so head strong and so firm in his
beliefs, that he did not leave even a millimeter for someone else
to have an alternate viewpoint.
3. He imposed his views in a way that, basically, entirely
turned me off to his whole argument. He does not like
Americans. He feels as if white, privileged college students
serve in a foreign country out of nothing more than selfish
intensions; selfish intensions that they were brought up, as
Americans, believing were “good intentions”, “helpful
intentions”, and intentions of a “do-gooder”. Illich does not
even consider the fact that maybe the students volunteering to
serve find it in their heart of hearts to try to make the world
a better place. He does not even consider the fact that every
student going to serve in a foreign country is maybe something
more than just an over-privileged, college-educated, narcissistic
white kid.
4. Furthermore, Illich pushes his viewpoint on why
American college students have to travel abroad to be “do
gooders” when they could just do so in their own states, cities,
and towns. He is so vehemently against this, in fact, that he,
once again, refuses to look deeper into the issue. He sees things
only from his point of view. He, again, refuses to consider the
fact that, for many people wishing to volunteer, traveling
somewhere foreign opens up new doors, allows you to have
new experiences, and in the end, truly broadens your
horizons.
5. So why then, does Illich give service such a bad rap?
Why does he, with his entire soul and being, truly hate young
American students traveling to foreign lands to do service work
that they see as beneficial?
6. The only answer I can find lies in the complexity of
service. Service, and I agree with Illich here, is not simple. It is
a multifaceted concept involving multiple players, multiple
places, and multiple motivations. It is, truly, a combination of
power, privilege, and relationships. But, this does not
have to be an entirely negative combination.
7. More along the lines with my beliefs, and in agreement with
the concept that service and charity do not have to derive from
radically negative motivations, is the article The Irony of Service:
Charity, Project, and Social Change in Service-Learning by Keith
Morton. In his article, Morton looks at service-learning in a more
positive light. He views service in a way that does not entirely harp on
young college students and their reasons for serving others. Rather,
Morton believes in the good of all people, both those serving and
those being served. Morton even went a step further by questioning
college students on why exactly they chose to participate in service-
learning experiences. And from what he gathered, most students did
not volunteer in order to feel good about themselves or even to gain
experience in their chosen career fields, but rather most students
chose to volunteer in order to help someone.
9. I did not choose to go to Panama and to Ghana because I
felt privileged and it was my way of helping those who weren’t
as “lucky” as me. And I did not go to Panama and to Ghana
because I had “power” and could bestow some of that power to
those who were “powerless”. Rather, I chose to go on these
trips to help someone. I wanted to do something more for
someone I have never even met. I wanted to reach out a hand
and form relationships with people from another culture,
another country, and another way of life.
10. Despite what Illich thinks, I do not see myself as more
important, or more powerful, or more righteous than any
person I met in Panama and Ghana. Rather, I see myself as
having been handed a different set of cards. I have been
given a different life than the people I met in Panama and
Ghana, just as they have been given a different life than me.
This does not make one way of life better than the other, nor
does it make one way of living more correct. It is just the fact of
the matter that trying to help others should not be such a
shameful matter.
11. For me, what it comes down to, is that I choose to go on
Global Brigades trips to help. I do not do it out of a sense of
power, or righteousness, or because I think I should share my
so-called “privilege”. Rather, I choose to serve to see the
smiles on the kids’ faces when I pick them up in the air and
spin them around. I want to help because I have seen and I
have studied what happens when people drink unclean water,
do not get proper vaccinations, and live their lives without ever
seeing a doctor. I am studying nursing because the mere
definition of the word is “a person who is trained to care”. I
want to care for those around me and those out of my reach. I
am dedicating my life to caring for others, and by providing
medical attention to people who otherwise would not receive
any, I feel as if I am doing my utmost to help, in any way, both
big and small, that I can.
12. As Illich made me believe, I do not mean to impose
myself on people who do not want help from an ‘over-
privileged, college-educated, narcissistic white kid’. I do not
mean to deepen the wounds of injustice. And I do not think of
myself as a do-gooder who is merely trying to bulk up my
personal résumé. I really, really, from the bottom of my heart,
only wish to help. I wish to use the cards I have been
dealt to broaden my horizons, to open my eyes, and to attempt
to do what I can to help those who could maybe use a bit of it.
13. I formed relationships during my time in Panama and in
Ghana unlike any other relationships I have back home. To this
day, it amazes me that I was able to, somehow, communicate
with a little boy in Ghana named Abudu. I did not speak Fante
and he did not speak English, yet for four days we were,
basically, inseparable. He opened my heart in ways that nobody
else ever has, and he made my entire trip worth every single
second and every single penny. Every single day he would be
waiting in the schoolyard when our bus pulled up, and every
single evening he would be waving from the schoolyard as our
bus pulled away. He would sit outside whatever station I was
working in and wait for me to get the chance, or quick second,
to play a game with him. On the day we left, I felt my heart rip
to shreds as he started crying when I told him, in broken Fante,
that we would not be coming back anymore, that it was our last
day, and we were going home.
14. And that’s when it hit me hard. Abudu’s situation was
permanent, and I was flying home, back to America, to live the
so-called “American dream”, the next day. Our lives were
different, our homes were different, and our futures were
different, yet in four days we formed a friendship that has
changed my life forever. He left an indelible mark on my
heart. He opened my eyes to the goodness and sincerity of a
child, to the hope and laughter that a child fills you with, and to
the feeling of your heart exploding in pure joy.
16. Despite what Illich thinks, I do not volunteer because I
feel empowered, and privileged, and justified. And I do not
volunteer because I am white, and educated, and “privileged”.
Rather, I serve to see the smile on Abudu’s face when he sees
our bus pull into the schoolyard. I serve to attempt to lessen
the illnesses acquired because of a lack of clean water, simple
vaccinations, and basic medical care. I serve to feel my heart
explode with happiness when I look into the eyes of a child who
has changed my life more than he will ever know. And I serve
because that feeling, of joy and happiness and love, really
makes the complexity of service not so complex after all. It
breaks it down and shows the truth: that volunteering is as
simple as helping, and more importantly, is as fundamental as
love.
17. And this is the reason
I volunteer. To see
this smile.