The document is a blog post about anxiety from the perspective of the author, Hannah. In three sentences: Hannah discusses her daily struggles with anxiety, including worrying excessively about friends and family, feeling insecure in social situations, and having irrational thoughts and breakdowns. She explains that while anxiety is challenging to deal with, seeking therapy and relying on her faith and supportive partner help her to cope. Hannah hopes to provide insight into living with anxiety and encourages others struggling with it.

1. In C O F F E E C H AT S
A Glimpse into the Brain of Anxiety
Today’s Cup of Coffee is from my favorite place, Hopscotch Coffee. I am drinking a cappuccino made with almond milk. It’s warm,
creamy, bitter, but delicious. Today’s Coffee Chat is focused on the topic of anxiety.
“Step out the front door like a ghost into the fog, where no one notices the contrast of white on white.”
It’s the loneliness, the darkness, and the frustration brought on daily. It’s trying to fix something that’s not broken. It’s feeling
unnoticed, not worthy, and insecure.
When life is going the way you want, you’re always worrying about what could go wrong. Thinking, ” how can I control this? How
can I control what happens next?” The issue with this is that you’ll never control the things you truly want to control. There are
things in this life that bring me constant anxiety and I’m not going to control them no matter how much I would like to. I want to
control things like diseases that effect those closest to my heart. I want to stop him from potentially leaving me one day, while I
can do all the right things at the end of the day you’re not going to stop some one from leaving you if that’s what they decide. I
can’t control someone else’s feelings. You want to give everything you have to make those you love happiest, even if that means
making sacrifices, but sometimes there isn’t anything you can do except just be there for someone. However, I will always worry, I
will always jump to worse case scenarios in my head.
If I haven’t heard from my parents in a while my mind goes straight to the idea that they were in a car accident. If he doesn’t
respond to my text within 15 minutes I worry he’s mad at me. My mind is more pessimistic than optimistic. It’s an everyday uphill
battle. People would argue you can control your attitude and optimism, however, it’s extremely difficult when your mind tries to
fight you in that. If he doesn’t text me that he made it to his destination, I’m calling the people he might be with to make sure he’s
okay.
Anxiety makes me feel worthless. It makes social situations hard. If you’re not invited to something, you feel like they don’t want
to be your friends anymore. You feel as if you’re not as crucial to the friend group compared to others.
When things are going wrong in your life, you might tell one person you are super close with every last excruciating detail. You’re
friends, who may notice something is wrong, will get some of the information, but nothing too detailed. It’s wanting to put on a
front that you have it all together. You’re Instagram is on point, you’re seen as ‘healthy’, or at least that’s what your Instagram
tells people. They don’t see your portion control issues or the slip ups that you beat yourself up over.
It’s being extremely self aware. Anxiety, leads to over thinking every word you say to someone. It’s worrying that you might have
come off too negative to someone, or said something that might have secretly offended them. No matter how irrational it may
seem, these are valid feelings.
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Anxiety might make you seem crazy to those who don’t understand it. However, that’s why I’m writing. I want those who don’t
experience this first hand to hopefully get a glimpse into the mind of someone who does. Being the significant other to someone
who has anxiety must be difficult. Dealing with irrational breakdowns, 15 texts in a row making sure you’re doing okay, saying I
love you every time you walk out the door without fail, and having to put your own emotions aside to help your significant other
must be tiring. My anxiety has ruined many things in my life, and you’re constantly learning how to get around that; prevent it
from happening again. I don’t know how Israel deals with me so well, I know it must be frustrating. He doesn’t question it, he just
holds me in his arms, helps guide me through some deep breathing, and wipes away my tears. He’s so patient with me, even
when I’m not always patient with him.
“She parks her car outside of my house, takes her clothes off, says she’s close to understanding Jesus. She knows she just a little
misunderstood. She has trouble acting normal, well I have trouble acting normal.”
Anxiety makes my relationship with God go through ups and downs. It’s a control issue. Sometimes I put my complete and utter
faith in him and allow Him to take control. Other times, I try to take matters into my own hands whether I realize it or not and
leave Him out of it. While I know this is not effective, it definitely is challenging to overcome permanently. What I do know is that
surrendering it all to God is the best thing you can do. Just pray on it. However, I know that is much easier said then done.
I also believe in the power of therapy. My psychologist has seen me all throughout different periods in my life depending what is
happening. I know there is a stigma with therapy, but I encourage you to go if you’re on the fence about it. It truly has helped
equipped me with the tools to help me cope. I also know there is sometimes a chemical imbalance in the brain that causes
anxiety. This is the case for me, as well. I tried various coping mechanisms for the majority of my life, until finally my doctor and I
determined that there must be something else going on, that is partly out of my control. However, you just have to take it one
day at a time.
There will always be days of ups and downs. You’ll feel social and want to be with your friends 24/7 and then you ‘ll have times
where you will hide in your room for days because you don’t want to be a burden to those around you. I get it. I’m right there
with you.
I know we can get through this. I know it’s a struggle but pushing through to the other side is worth it even if it’s not permanent.
Over time you’ll learn methods that will help you cope, and hopefully allow you to diminish the effects of your anxiety on a daily
basis. You got this. I believe in you.
Here are some song lyrics that just have been resonating with me recently. Take what you’d like out of them, and ponder on what
they might mean to you.
“I need a phone call, I need a raincoat, I need a big love, I need a phone call, I need a Sunburn.” – Counting Crows
“She walks along the edge of where the ocean meets the land, just like she’s walking on a wire in the circus, she parks her car
outside of my house and takes her clothes off, says she’s close to understanding Jesus
and she knows she’s more than just a little misunderstood, she has trouble acting normal when she’s nervous” – Counting Crows
“Round here we all look the same, Round here we talk just like lions, But we sacrifice like lambs.” – Counting Crows
“She says, “It’s only in my head.” She says, “Shh I know it’s only in my head.” – Counting Crows
” Would you catch me if I was falling? Would you kiss me if I was leaving? Would you hold me because I’m lonely without you.” –
Counting Crows
What are your ways to cope with anxiety? Let me know in the comments below!
xoxo,
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