Emily shares her experience with verbal and sexual abuse, bullying, developing an eating disorder in middle school, and ongoing struggles with low self-esteem and body image issues. She was verbally abused in a relationship, raped, and bullied about her weight starting in 6th grade. This led her to develop anorexia in 7th grade to lose weight and feel better about herself. She has since recovered but still struggles with intrusive thoughts and eating in public. Her goal in sharing is to encourage people to think before insulting others, as you never know their private struggles.

1. Hello I’m Emily(:

2. You can Judge me all you
want after this because I
really don’t care

3. You see me as Emily the
Cheerleader for Liverpool
High School

4. I smile all the time but
under that is something that
I’m holding back

5. I’m going to start off
small.
1 I’m like the rest of us. I
get bitched at non stop from
my family and friends how
I’ll never bee good enough.

6. 2 My bad relationship.
In one relationship I was
verbally abused non stop. It
got to the point where I had
no control and no one to
turn too for help. He did
something to me.. Some
people know some people have
seen the pictures. Lets just
put it as rape.

7. Because of what someone did
to me I feel like the
biggest whore in Central New
York. Also for something
that is recent. But in the
end I just got played, Like
normal.

8. I have the lowest self
confidence. I feel like I
can’t be the real Emily with
out being judge really
badly.

9. Everyday Someone tells me Or
I over here that I’m not
good enough, I’m too ugly
for Society I’m too fat I
need to diet.
Something people
don’t know is

10. In 6th grade I was bullied
about my weight when I
already was insecure with
myself
so…

11. My life changed when I
stopped eating.

12. Not a single person knew. I
wasn't planning on having it
for a while just for a week.

13. I got addicted to the
feeling that I was getting
skinnier and skinnier

14. In 7th grade I still had it.
People would still say
something like Oh look at
Emily she's so fat and Ugly!

15. So I decided I need to keep
this up and never stop until
I was good enough. I would
never eat in school. For
dinner it would be something
really small.

16. In 7th grade I played
lacrosse. I tried out for my
school team Soule road
Middle school. Since I
wouldn’t eat for a couple of
days I would cough up blood
every time we would run or I
had a feeling that I was
going to faint. So I had to
quit.

17. At this point I knew people
would think I’m messed up or
even more stupid. But I my
head I knew I had Anorexia

18. When I would go to my
friends house. I would say
I’m not hungry I had this
and that. If I did eat I
would regret it later

19. By the time 8th grade came I
wasn’t so bad. I still
wouldn’t eat much. But it
was nothing to what I was
like in 7th grade.

20. 8th grade was the year I knew
I had to stop. But in my
head I can here people
saying Emily is fat Emily is
such a fatass Emily is gross
Emily isn't good enough.

21. In my mid 8th grade year. I
was almost completely
better.

22. But when you go that long
with out eating normal
amount. You can’t put in
normal amount of food.

23. In school I wouldn’t eat
much because my body
wouldn’t take it well. I
couldn’t eat in the
Cafeteria like the rest of
the people. I would have to
go into another room with a
couple other people because
of that feeling that
everyone is watching you

24. Now I’m in 9th grade at
Liverpool High School. I
still have those thoughts in
my head how I’m not good
enough, I’m fat and ugly.
But I’m not going to put my
body threw that again.

25. This is my body now. I have
to excepted it, Because its
part of me.

26. I’ve never really asked
anyone for help or told
anyone about this in my
family. And I will always
keep it a secret.

27. So think, Next time before
you insult people think
about what there going
threw. Because you never
know.

28. Thank you for watching.