What I Notice During the Looped Pauses
A whisper of orange on
A thousand black but I don’t
turbines. remember it.
Miles of solar panels like a
black ocean I’ve never seen
close up. All I
You can’t get used to the this.
stars, no matter how long
you live here.
In My Room
Annoying Habit #92
Slide Slogans from School That I Fire at Mom
(just to annoy her)
“Give us the Mom says.
issues, not “A word-wall is a
the tissues!” long haul!”
“Add a graphic
and increase your “Charts should illuminate,
traffic!” not complicate!”
Mom Spots the Toy Horse
“Oh Ally, I love seeing that horse,” Mom says.
“What about this?” I Ask, and Open the Book.
Sasha in the Picture
Mom’s Reasons for Not Talking About That
Lincoln’s Bed Is on the Other Side of the Wall
from My Bed
• 2 knocks from his side = • 2 knocks from my side =
“Good night, Ally.” “Good night, Linc.”
• Mom will go to his room • I can hear them talking
next. through the wall.
• Lincoln gets her longest. • I get her first.
Mom Sits on the Edge of My Bed
What I Suddenly Understand
Lincoln Appears When I’m Half
“A MINUTE AND FOURTEEN SECONDS!” Lincoln bellows.
“What is going on in here?”
Dinner prty Buy Sharpies all Gma
Langs—bring Blk Blake!!
She uses Ally SmartFan
They come from sleepover
objects. our house and 9/19
” our lives.
up She glues Ada’s
shoes She says them Linc—therapy pie
they’re onto 2pm crust—
1/18 boards lard!
Grapes because and
Skim milk they’re casual shellacs
Earl Grey tea and them.
Drew shampoo meaningless.
Peanut butter “But they Mexico Flight
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whole story I look when she’s 77
if you really not there.
Ways It Can Be When Dad Comes Back
g Befor r
Mom Comi e
Dad Comes Home Late
I hear the Mom has
brushing her arms
through my Dad. They don’t
His face is
in her hair.
There’s a blanket on
Mom’s Waiting Chair
where she fell asleep.
One Night Later
Dad Barbecues Chicken on the Deck
Facts About Dad
Rob Was Mom’s Best Friend.
Can I play
I see music, Dad?
Any kids school.
you feel Not rather
like asking Three.
over to Nope.
Did you lost
How have music Want to
many at- 5–2.
class with have a
bats did Mom? catch after
Signs That Dad Isn’t Happy
“Sure, Linc,” he says, after
dinner. “Let’s hear some music.”
Songs with Lincoln’s Comments
Dad, to Mom, Whispering Under the Music (but
I can hear him)
“Stop!” Dad shouts. “Stop. Please. Forget
Lincoln Starts to Cry
“The pause makes you think the song
will end. And then the song isn’t really
over, so you’re relieved. But then the
song does actually end, because every
song ends, obviously, and THAT.
TIME. THE. END. IS. FOR.
A Pause While We Stand on the Deck
Then Dad Gathers Lincoln into His Arms
Lincoln Runs Inside and Slams His Bedroom
It Starts Where Our Lawn Used to Be
“I’ve got to do better with Lincoln,”
The Old Golf Course
A Long, Empty Stretch of Walking
After a Long Time, We Reach the Solar Panels
Suddenly, There’s a Whirring Noise
We Stand a Long Time, Watching the Solar
After a While, I Feel Like Curling Up on the
Ground and Closing My Eyes
We Walk for Several Years
Dad Points to a Snake on one of Mom’s
What I’m Afraid Of
Dad Sets Me Down on Our Porch
What I Hear as I’m Falling Asleep
Linc. hear that No.
That. No, Pop.
Here, let’s stand by the
window. Listen with me.
What does that sound like
“Okay. I know.”
Relationship of Pause-Length to Haunting
Proof of the Necessity of Pauses
Discoveries About Pause Timing
(in Bubble Form)
Time remaining after pause (sec)
The Persistence of Pauses over Time
Length of song (min)