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1. Monday, August 16, 2010<br /> HYPERLINK quot;
http://whyawoman.blogspot.com/2010/08/do-i-have-destiny-inside-of-marriage.htmlquot;
DO I HAVE A DESTINY INSIDE OF MARRIAGE? <br /> I'm thirty years and I've been married for 5years. I would have loved to say that I do not have any problem but can I? My problem is just one, only one and that is my husband. Now I've tried talking to some people I expect would know better but they've not helped at all, imagine all of them telling me I do not need to let my husband know everything I'm up to since I know I won't get his support. Before I confuse you, let me start from the beginning. I love my husband no doubt, who doesn't love hers or what do you think. Well at least I loved mine in the beginning but now I'm not too sure, am I contradicting myself? The problem is this man will not let me be who I want to be. You see I had my life planned out very well, all I'll do and be every year of my life, but that was before I met this gentleman, he really was gently, so when he asked for my hand in marriage, I stopped thinking. I guess I was so carried away with the fact that I was going to be married especially when most of my mates were not married then, I did not take out time to confirm a lot of things, does this man believe in the things I believe in for instance and I'm paying for that enthusiasm. Married life was perfect for me at least for the first one year until I decided I needed to start working. This man will just not agree, his point, who will take care of our child, we had only one then. Before I knew it I was pregnant again and again, three children in five years, very good. The more children we had, the bigger his reasons became.I love my kids no doubt but I think I love my destiny even more. My grouse with all men today is this, does being married delete my destiny, as in what I was meant to become?. In my quest to convince him, I have heard stuffs like quot;
all those women you see are all whores, I don't want my wife to be one of themquot;
Can I please ask you ladies, how many of you working that I see everyday out there are whores?. When I go out everyday and I see other women, working, earning a living and trying to become something for themselves and their parents I tell myself not me, not as long as I want to be a married woman, but believe me girls, a lot of times I've asked 'who wants to remain marriedquot;
. That is just bravado and you know it, and I think my husband knows it too so he believes I can not do more than what a goat will do to his owner, but can I?, frankly I wish I can. I'm tired of been a chauffeur, driving the children to and from school every day, and remembering once in a while that I went to school this same way some years ago. Before you ask let me confess, I am not denied anything by my husband but I am denied my destiny. Do I get to heaven and then tell God I only succeeded in being a mother and a wife? Now, my dream is in the dust bin,that well laid out plan of mine because I made a mistake of getting married, I hope to God this man will see my heart and RELEASE ME INTO MY DESTINY<br />