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  • 1. Bebo Characters for Carpe OminousPrimal Chaos:TaglineThe First of the Protogenoi and the Goddess of the airMe, Myself, and IThe void was a black mass of anti-matter that contained all of the elements tocreate life. Under normal circumstances nothing escaped this void much like ablack hole but then a cataclysmic event happens like an abrupt abortion giving lifeto chaos. The creation of the universe as its known was a violent eruption of gasand liquid fire creating the cosmos and its infinite galaxies. The Alpha was thefirst intelligent being designed from this.Your true Creator 8/3/09 ~The universe was a dark and void place until Imade into existence by "hatching" of the egg all living beings. I am the"Golden womb". Let me elaborate, I floated around in emptiness for a while,and then broke my Egg into two halves which formed Dyaus (space) andPrithvi (Earth).As the I grew more powerful, Space and the earth grew thicker and wereseparated further. Finally I placed my essence throughout different parts ofthe earth to create the first entities that come into existence because I wishedit!My existence forms the very fabric of the universe and as such I am foreverimmortal. The creation of Aliens which I created is which the other Aliensare descending from. Although I produced the first, some voices within thestars mention a pair of deities who are my parents. I know I must come fromsomewhere but then where did they come from! It is a complex line to follow,but after zillions of years in existence. I have not met one who is as primal asme!
  • 2. TaglineI am Chaos, the original state of existence from which the first appearedMe, Myself, and I~ I am Chaos, the original state of existence from which the first appeared. Inother words, the dark void of space. I am made from a mixture of what consideredthe four elements of Life: Earth, Air, Water and Fire. I am rather a crude andindigested mass, a lifeless lump, unfashioned and unframed, of jarring seed, acomplete disorder of things. I was the first thing to exist and the womb fromwhich everything emerged. As Primal Chaos I am the true foundation of reality. Istill exist WITH NO ORDER TO WHAT I DO; I am an illusion to all who knowof my existence. I am the one who brought forth Lilith and Lucifer to you.My Origins~The universe was a dark and void place until I made into existence by "hatching"of the egg all living beings. I am the "Golden womb". Let me elaborate, I floatedaround in emptiness for a while, and then broke my Egg into two halves whichformed Dyaus (space) and Prithvi (Earth).As the I grew more powerful, Space and the earth grew thicker and were separatedfurther. Finally I placed my essence throughout different parts of space to create thefirst entities that come into existence because I wished it!My existence forms the very fabric of the universe and as such I am foreverimmortal. The creations I created are which all are descending from. Although Iproduced the first, some voices within the stars mention a pair of deities who are myparents. I know I must come from somewhere but then where did they come from!It is a complex line to follow, but after zillions of years in existence. I have not metone who is as primal as me! ~Consciousness~You have the entire weight of my consciousness telling you how to act as anorganism within the planet. In the same way that you are the consciousness of yourentire body and have a plan for all the cells in your body, so too does this planethave a consciousness that sets the tone for all the organisms within it. Like acomputer program it is constantly telling you what to do and how to be. This is whythe majority your people are the same kind of person. There isn’t a lot of diversityin behavior, opinions, etc. Standing out is seen as rocking the boat, so theconsciousness I gave you pushes you to stay in line.
  • 3. Chaos made flesh via EverTHE FIRST TIME I LEARNED TO KILLIts funny the things that we do to one another it really is I laugh to the point oftears. My first years with my mothers were great when one was called away theother one was there. I remember Mommy Bella kissing me on the foreheadtelling me she loved me then something else she said "Stay strong and standyour ground no matter what, promise me that." I had no clue what she wastalking about until I was dragged from my bed in the middle of the night blindfolded with my wrists and ankles bound. My heart was racing my mindscrambling to make sense of what was going on. I thought I was dreaming andwished that I had been until I was pulled from the transport vehicle thrown intoa gunny sack and left to fend for myself. I fell to the ground hard bearing thebrunt of the blow with my right shoulder the pain was grating and made myarm go limp. I dont know how I managed to get out of that sack. I wasdisorientated and scared it was pitch black but for the growling sounds of whatId heard of The Phoenix Legion they were vicious malformed members of ourspecies known to hunt and eat those like me. I used the belt buckle on my jeansto free it was sharp around the edges and used it to cut the restraints on mywrists then moved to my ankles. I had to move fast as they were near. Iwondered why they had put me here but that would have to wait I heardrustling in the near by woods even though I was in a clearing before I had timeto stand up one of them pounced on me from above. Its breath fowl and hot itfelt like a building had crashed down on top of me. The slimly drool drippingfrom it fangs burned like molecular acid that ate my flesh down to its metal
  • 4. skeleton. It all moved so fast I cupped my hands and used the heel of my palmsto smash in the sides of its head. The crunching sound awoke something in methat I didnt know was there then I heard the words that Mommy Bella said"Stand your ground and stay strong." She knew what was going to happen butwas bound by our code from telling me. Id gotten the creature off me thengouged out its eyes and removed the chip from behind them that gave them life.The next thing I knew I was surrounded by them snarling and circling like ameal. We moved in perfect harmony in this dance of death my eyes scanned thearea to look for anything to aide me in this battle but there was none to befound. Images of my mothers many battles had taken over I did a triple flipknocking four of them down as the other three approached me. They spat acidin my directions and nearly blinded me in my rage I punched the groundcausing an earth quake around me. Genetically bred Dragonflies and snakesemerged from the crevices attacking them. I watched them run and plead fortheir lives and I felt nothing but glee as the rest of the clan was driven out ofhiding and into the fray. I felt the tickle of the Dragonfly wings against my earsand heard its message while snakes wrapped themselves around my wrists andankles like bracelets. I continued walking through this genocide until each andeveryone of them had been eradicated once they were the snakes anddragonflys returned into the earth all but the ones around my wrists, anklesand the dragonfly on my shoulder. I stood there breathless, amped, emotionsflying all over the place when I heard the familiar sound of the transport vehicleapproaching. A man emerged clapping his hands and offering praise for a jobwell done my fists clinched as he came closer. I looked him in the eyes smiledthen punched him so hard in the face that my hand went through his headdropping like tissue paper floating in the wind. I looked over at the rest of themtheir expressions were yummy delicious. I was eight years old.My mothers brought me back here to deal with this war and I shall show no mercy...7/5/09 |TaglineMy Innocent Beauty Is My Best Weapon...Me, Myself, and I~Ever Magada Lee is a child of god though her true identity is that of analien species mistaken by humans to being deities but then I suppose itseasier to believe in a man with a white beard setting on a throne up in theclouds then it is to believe that humans are actually alien descendants. JoinEvers journey of discovery while dealing with a war over the lives of thehuman species. ~ Im the girl with the curl who has been charged to save theworld.When Im good Im sweeter then candy but whenIm bad I can be quite cruel and demanding.
  • 5. Ill smile at you with my big blue eyes and angelic face voice of an angel but notthe patience of a saint. Some whimper some prey while others try and rush thegate.So give me what I want and keep me sweet or seal your fate as you lie dead at myfeet.Chaos made fleshDuring what was supposed to be a family war chest meeting/reunion mygreat grand mother Lilith Alpha took it upon herself to use me as a vessel tobestow her words this triggered dormant programs in the strands of mygenetic composition allowing the fail safe of Chaos to be flipped. Whateverpart of me belonged to them now belonged to the primal force of Chaos madeflesh. I can feel the rawness of its power wriggling through me. Theconception of Ever was preordained Rainn made a Faustian pact with TheSource of All Evil, the Morning Stars brother. She conscripted thencorrupted the molecular blue print making me female instead of the male mybastard of a father wanted to boost his own frail ego and improve his chancesof one day taking the place of his brother. Rainn had heard rumors of Chaosthough shed never met this being personally she tapped into its essencelacing its DNA with the child in case the worst happen then the playing fieldwould be level if not obliterated. I now inhabit this tiny girl with the goldenhair, ethereal blue glowing eyes wrapped into a smile that leaves one notcertain she is of no danger but with a sick feeling deep inside that she is theperfect weapon ticking away.My Introduction7/5/09 ~My name is Ever Magada Lee my birth mother isRainn but my other mother is Bella. You see my mother had a one night standwith The Source who rejected me because I wasnt born a boy silly man. SinceBella is a direct aspect of my mother Rainn some refer to them as "The Twins"but they are not twins’ just different versions of the same person. For a while Ilived with my mother Rainn and my brother Maddox in the Pleiades GammaSector it’s a place where my species go to learn everything about humans andso we assume their forms and relationships. I was able to stay there until I waseight years old and brought here to wipe out those who served evil in the nameof God after smiting all but one I aged eight years that night when I awoke thenext day I had boobs, a period and the angst of a teenager. My beautifulinnocence is my best weapon people dont often expect horrible things willhappen to them if theyre with a child. Well that depends on the child and whatyouve done to bring me into the frame and I dont play nicely. Im a trained
  • 6. assassin among many other things but like my moms I prefer hand to handcombat.Creating MeI was born three years ago to Rainn Goddess of Original Sin and Cole Turner TheSource truth be told it was a one night stand with my fathers idea to impregnatemy mother with his seed producing a son to live in his image (narcissistic much)but any hoo he thought that he could get one over on my mother. She used him forone purpose and one purpose only to conceive the perfect child with greatcapacity for love and rage. He was there when I was born but deeply disappointedthat I was born a girl at that point he wanted nothing more to do with me.Afterwards we went to the Plaides where we lived as normal of a life as you canknow that youre about to go to war. I didnt ask for this but what am I going to dobitch and moan about it? I think not. Its not my style I prefer to confront thingshead on that way all parties involved know where they stand. Right now I look asthough Im approximately sixteen years old in human age but can also appear asan angelic blue eyed, rosy cheeked cherub this is one of my best weapons becauseno one expects a little girl to do much of anything but smile and do girlie things. Ilike the girlie trappings because I look good in them and they help me to blend inbetter with this species. If Im to be the executioner of those who seriouslyscrewed the pooch then I need to know everything there is to know about them.Their wants, weaknesses, and reasoning for doing some of the things they do in"OUR" name. It galls and sickens me that they think theyre created in godsimage the truth that they are the spawn of metallic and other organic chemicals ofan alien race would make their tiny heads implode trying to get their heads aroundthe truth (now thats really fun to see. head pop like melons) but some in fact mostclichés are true; the truth will come out and when it does Ill be there with a smileon my face.
  • 7. ~~I am the Lucifer Omega and in my human form my name isSamael. The wars on the ethereal and demonic planeshave been at a stale mate. Humans are the ones whofirst called us "Gods" they did so because aliensaren’t as interesting as gods are or so they think. Mydear Lilith didnt agree with me when it came todealing with humans. I had amazing ideas and she hadhers. Thats right she did and look where its gottenus! They use our names to invoke whatever it is theydesire and lay claim to us but the truth is they haveno true idea of who and what we are and thats whatthis war is about...removing the veils that blind andenslave them. She had her turn now ITS MY TURN TO RULE!~~TaglineShe had her turn now ITS MY TURN!!!Me, Myself, and I~I am the Lucifer Omega and in my human form my name is Samael. The wars onthe ethereal and demonic planes have been at a stale mate. Humans are the oneswho first called us "Gods" they did so because aliens aren’t as interesting as godsare or so they think. My dear Lilith didnt agree with me when it came to dealingwith humans. I had amazing ideas and she had hers. Thats right she did and lookwhere its gotten us! They use our names to invoke whatever it is they desire and layclaim to us but the truth is they have no true idea of who and what we are and thatswhat this war is about...removing the veils that blind and enslave them. She had herturn now ITS MY TURN TO RULE!THE BEGINNING...A PERFECT LOVEIn the beginning there was a perfect love between The Alpha and The Omega. They werealien intelligence devoid of shape until assuming one. The galaxy was their dark and coldplayground...the stars jewels that lit the way together they created the Milky Way Galaxywithin that galaxy lay several different realms of reality and planes of dimensions and soforth. What humans call "Angels or Demons" are the ancient oneswho were the first to walk on the face of this planet. We are an incestuous species bynature but we can mate with other species as well as being self progenitor (like anamoeba divides itself to become different versions of itself) things can go very badly ifwe breed with other species and precautions have to be taken to ensure all partiesinvolved are well and safe but there are some among us who do not believe in breeding
  • 8. with other species because the results are unstable while they have no problem beddingother species they prefer to breed with their own species.The Ancient Ones were charged with creating life...Angels where given the earth and airand Demons were given the water and earth both were allowed to shape shift uponcreating a new life forms. All life is connected...all are carbon based...perfect machinestheir brains a micro-processor their organs, blood, bones replaced wires, metal skeletalstructures and blood IS life so thats the only thing we didnt change.When we first came back to this blue planet to oversee the progress of the ancient ones,we discovered that some of them resented the human species and felt there was no needfor them. Thus began the war...The Alpha felt that they needed guidance and nurturing tobe given the chance to evolve. The Omega in the beginning wanted to have a firmer reignover them to influence what happens to them and what they will do in life. The sideswere drawn in the blood of the ancients Angels and Demons are the same creatures withdifferent post codes. The Omega never forgave the human species for removing him fromthe eyes and love of The Alpha, his love turned to rage that gave birth to undoingcreation...The battle will be brought to this realm so that humans can see and learn the true originsof them and those who decided to edit OUR words creating the miasma of religiousconfusion and hatred will pay for enslaving their own species. CHOOSE YOUR SIDE!!!RISE...RISE...RISE MY CHILDREN OF THE NIGHT AND UTTER DARKNESSAND DISPAIRThe time has come for the rise of all of my true children of darkness...raise...rise...rise andassume your rightful place. This is our time The Alpha is tired now is the time for us.Now is the time to enslave or rid this planet of all humans they were given paradise andthey ruined it. They were given free will and look what they turned into. I will sparethose who bow to me and destroy all who do not. I have spoken in my favorite Russiandialect and those true to me shall understand and feel my words like battery acid splashedupon them.
  • 9. ~I was created as an abstract form of intelligence withoutshape or form. My cradle was the universe the planetsand stars were my bejeweled mobile. I got lonely notknowing who or what I was and in my dreams I realizedthat I could create things by mere thought or throughmy dreams. To sate this loneliness I divided creatingThe Omega aka Samael he was my first and only love butthat love turned when we disagreed on how to rear thehumans and that is when he decided to challenge thethrone along with those who agreed with them. A warbroke out and The Morning Star and his followers wasdrop kicked to earth where they ruled until now. I havecontacted all family members and soldiers to ready forthis conflict. This time were bringing the war toearth so that the humans can finally be freed fromslavery and lies. I SHALL NOT FAIL!!!~
  • 10. It all began with The Alpha an alien abstract formlessintelligence over time she divided into two alsobecoming The Omega together they created all that iswithin The Milky Way. Their first born was RavenlilyGoddess of Balance they were soon joined by her maleaspect who was created the same as The Omega, a splitaspect of the first. Anakletos is their third childborn and was banished for his love of Raven because itwould be too dangerous for them to mate because theywere a different strain of blood and all inter-speciesmingling was frowned upon because it was uncertain whattheir offspring would turn out to be and thisintroduces us to Rainn the daughter of Raven andAnakletos. She is more powerful then The Alpha and theOmega combined and has the potential of becoming rulingdeity. Then Anna followed Anakletos birth, all cancreate lower level angels and demons and all of themcan be injured but the higher up the food chain theharder it is to harm them.What you need to Know10/6/09 I am ancient have many names and aspects three ofthem I decided to bring along. Llyra (going to use the parlance and vernacular ofthese modern times so that you may be able to better relate.) Whats there to sayabout Llyra? Well if you break it down in terms of the Ego, Super Ego and ID, theSuper Ego is the Mother her job is to keep tabs on the other two. The Ego is theFather who monitors the ID which is the pugnacious Child who does whatever shewants and Llyra and that is Llyra. Shes a succubus and vampire of alien origin asare we all. She does the "Wet Work" as it were whenever things need to get downand dirty shes your "Go to Girl." Sadistic as she is sexy she is the necessary evil,pure and driven by one purpose to obliterate those who are our blood enemies. Herhair a waft of an infinite inferno, skin as pale as the moon, eyes that were theinspiration for the color green. Then there’s Niahla another blistering red head withtranslucent skin her eyes are so blue there hasnt been a name to describe them. Sheacts in the capacity of direct contact with mortals as they cannot hear my true voicebecause it would shatter their very existence therefore she speaks for me. She is akind and gentle resplendence capable of great and infinite depths of love but alsohas that same capacity for evil. Let me explain true evil in its purest form is thesame as good both have bits of the other embedded within the other. Lucifercorrupted it and made it ugly, destructive and many other things. I, myself am theliving embodiment of everything inspired and executed it is impossible to have goodwithout evil, light without the dark but there has to be an exact balance and therehasnt been for eons. We are legion though many thought me dead or beyond caringthese are false as things have to take place when everything is in place. Ravenlily Goddess of Balance
  • 11. TaglineBack with Catherine and neither Heaven nor Hell will keep us apart ever again...Me, Myself, and IRaven ♥ CatherineI am the God of Balance and known by many many names but none knowmy true name or the true names of my family. I am the eldest daughter ofThe Alpha (God, the One) and The Omega (Lucifer.).I am the literalembodiment of Light and Dark with perfect shades of gray. Being a God Iam both FEMALE and MALE energies and am able to assume the identityof anyone or thing. Im am now back to fight in a war thats been in a stalemate for a millennium between my parents, now relatives Ive not seen inages are in this realm. During a violent fight with Larik both parents sweptin and carried us off to our home planet to recover and plan the initial phaseof this war. I was kept away from Catherine when she needed me the most(not my choice) as soon as I was strong enough and I came back for her andnothing and I do mean nothing will keep us apart on pain of death...Conflicted7/27/08
  • 12. My mind is an eddy swimming and finding no purchase for me to land. I love myhusband deeply but hes always away engaged in some battle to protect what we have andwho we are. An old friend has come to me and asked me to create the perfect heir forhim. I dont love this person and plan no relationship with him but Ive waited longenough. I want another child and told Juda this. We made love for the first time in whatfelt like a life time and now hes gone again. I dont want to turn to another for my needsas hes out there doing what he is for the family. I am weakened by this human form andam caught in the spin cycle of emotions prone to be felt by humans. Were I in my trueform I would not be bound by such trivialities as guilt, remorse etc but Im not in my trueform therefore Im beholden to them. Some may understand what Im going through andsome may not but until youve slipped inside this skin of mine youll never know.In my heart thats bleeding Juda will always belong to him just as he captured my soul.Im lonely and it’s tearing me apart as I feel what humans do times a billion and Ive donemy best to remain faithful. If I concede and give this friend the heir he wants it wouldstrictly be a business transaction with the exception of there being a child that will bindus. Do I give in or do I stay the course and wait for my husband who may or may notreturn?My life as it is today7/14/08Where should I begin? Some would say at the beginning but its not always that simple.While Im over the moon about the return of my husband and King back from the wars. Istill mourn the loss of our son Samael and Rainn is going through a lot but its onlymaking her stronger which may or may not be a good thing as Rainn is her fathersdaughter and Bella was mine there are traces of Bella in Rainn more then just their looks.Now my great-granddaughter Wynter is pregnant by a vampire named Francise and fromwhat Rainn says hes doing the right thing by Wynter who doesnt know if shes ready fora baby but what she doesnt know is this. If shes in love with the man shes with then herbody will accept his seed poor thing found out the hard way but she has the support of theentire family. Gosh it makes me feel old though Im only 28 in earth years and have a 21year old daughter whose about to become a grandmother herself. Rainns back with JackWynters father and I have an intense dislike for the man and showed him that he willincur my wrath if he hurts either Rainn or Wynter. Rainn and Jack are madly in love withone another but he brings out the worst in her at times so she left him because ofSebastians fling with Rose Matthews my grandson Evans wife.He left her and took the twins Matt and Cami with him because shes a harlot who cannotkeep her legs closed. I see them every weekend and they are beautiful children. Hearswhere it gets complicated; Rose came to me to ask my help so that she could conceive achild and I granted her wish but when you deal with a deity your best bet is to becompletely forth coming and I knew she was lying. Silly girl so to ensure that she didntget pregnant by Bellas husband King Henry VIII and when she did she found out that herwomb is Bella/Rainns uterus and any child she conceives will genetically belong toRainn.
  • 13. Now you may be thinking hang on does that mean Evans children were his mother’s?Yes it does! Rose will NEVER be blessed with the joy of having her own children herdaughter summer is genetically Bella/Rainns child so all she will have be is a surrogate. Imean did she really think that I didnt know what she was up too? I told her when I healedher womb that if she laid her fate would be sealed and she took my offer. Shes a chronicthorn in the sides of this family and Id kill her if I thought itd make a difference but thisis the path shes chosen over and over again and she will continue doing so until shelearns from her mistakes but that doesnt seem to be the case and Im wondering just howmany damaged brain cells she has. I just want my daughter to find some peace withoutthis woman always being in her face but enough of that for the moment.Im waiting for the right time to conceive as I want more children but finding the time isdifficult as Juda is away again but this time to delegate not fight and I hold onto hispillow thats immersed with his smell and I breathe it in before going to sleep. There hasbeen so much trauma and drama in our marriage but isnt it that way with mostrelationships? Well Ive got to go now as Evan just arrived with the twins...The Birth of a God12/11/07Ravenlilys heart was decimated by the loss of her beloved Jude she no longer wanted toexist and went to her best friend Ciara Winchester to end her. Raven begged and gaveCiara the only thing that could kill a dagger made from the bone and blood of her kind.Ravens wails of agony reached the highest regions of the Heavens and the bowels of theunderworld summoning her parents The Alpha (the one you call God) and The Omega(the one you call Lucifer). The earth split in half and spewed forth molten lava andvomited up flames and a creature that emerged from within the red, orange, and whiteflames. This creature took on the form of a man dressed from head to foot in black and hewas unearthly handsome and omitted the original bad boy aura. At the same time alightening bolt lit up and split the sky with hues of purple, blue and white this creatureemerge with a power that took your breath away as much as her beauty did she wasRavens mother the other was her father both had come to claim their shattered brokendoll of a daughter. Each one of them pulling at her by the arms Ravens screams ofmissing and mourning Jude are drowned out by the pain of her wails of becomingundone. The power of two Gods pulling physically, psychologically at their daughter.Raven’s skin begins to tear then splits and rips with jagged edges blood sprays coveringCiara and everything within a five foot radius. Her skeletal structure internal organseverything divided and her true self emerges a sphere of light with shadows of darkness-"Dont be afraid Ciara you are safe. Mom...Dad fuck off...shush go...you cant touch mebecause Im as strong as the pair of you now that Im no longer in that body and dontthink of going after Bella because Ill wage a war against you both that will make the warthat got you booted from heaven look like a day in the park." -They recede and thingsreturn to normal as Ravens body is absorbed into the elements you have just witnessedthe birth of a god in one of our ways. I will be speaking to you from now on as I truly am.I may return to my old body some day but right now Im doing what I need to do and inthis form I do not feel the loss or pain of Jude because I am nearer to him here though
  • 14. hes still beyond me. I will leave Ravens page they way it is to honor the memory of Judeand Ravenlily. I am simply Raven.The Death of Ravenlily11/9/07It began a wonderful night for Ravenlily and Jude they went out for a nice meal anddecided to rekindle things. This was more of a goodbye to Jude then it was anything elseas Ravenlily decided to give into her darker half at least for now but she had to pick theperfect moment in which to spring it to Jude. Jude had drawn his wife a soothing hotbubble bath and filled the room with candle light and The Three Tenors playing in theback ground. He washed every inch of her body and saved her mane of black hair for last.He loved her hair, her porcelain skin and eyes that were azure blue. He climbed into thebath with his wife and they began kissing passionately intensely. He backed his wife upagainst the rim of the tub and entered her. He pinned her legs firmly against her breastsand she held onto him cradling and clawing at him until just the right moment. Then Istepped in and morphed into his precious Elizabeth. I moved my legs out from under himand wrapped them around him like baling twine. "Open your eyes lover."-Jude tries to pull away but he’s going nowhere til Im done. - "Whats the matter? Dont Ilook enough like her? "You are just as guilty as those who smiled in her face then turnedon her without cause. You were so wrapped up in what they thought of you and howmuch they cared about you that you didnt even see your own wifes pain. I cannot killLily without killing myself and I aint going any where sweet cheeks. You want yourprecious dead Elizabeth? Then go be with her!"- hitch kicks Jude into the ceiling hecrashes into it hard then falls into the water as Dark Raven steps out of the water andreturns to her own image-"Looks like its you and I Lover that is of course if you want a woman with a pulse. Butthen you can have your choice of women because you obliviously cared more aboutchasing the memory of a fucking ghost and pandering to your own ego then being therefor her. Trust me Lover Ravenlilys buried deep and it would take an act of trueselflessness and no more empty promises to get her back and to be honest I dont thinkyou have it in you Jude. But then I never did shes the one always believed and loved youtil she could bear no more. Even Gods have limits."The Rise of Dark Raven11/8/07It was a shock to my system having Bella show up out of no where at The Bronze in themiddle of the night. It takes a lot to rattle her and she was well rattled. Her sky-blue eyesblood shot the tiny veins in them swelled to the point of bursting from her sobbing.Seeing her like that shocked me back to reality and I came home. This is where I am now.I walked into our bedroom and was preparing myself to climb into bed next to Jude when
  • 15. it happened.I felt as if I were being ripped apart from the inside by searing barbed wire. I fell to thefloor clutching my stomach and retching. My noises fell silent to a sleeping Jude. OhBella no. -I thought to myself.- I could have put her back in her box you didnt need todose me with that kiss to try to bind me to keep her buried but I know you did it becauseRaven is simply put evil.I began choking viciously and vomiting up this black tar like substance that slitheredacross the floor and took on my visage once it was completely out of me."Hello Lily." She said as she grinned and smiled at me with black eyes. "I have to admityou did keep me buried a damn long time."I watched her as she walked around like she owned the place. Shes no twin. She’s me thedark half of me. Ive only let her out twice and each time she nearly wiped humanity offthe face of the planet. I am the God of Balance did you think that I am not both good andevil?"Its not going to be that easy Raven." -I say to her as we circle one another hermimicking my every move. - Ive lived with you all my life and youve had your fairaccess. Now you want total access because you feel weakness due to my pain. You cantry and remain in control but you know how it always ends.""Yeah...thats true -winks her eye and clicks her teeth at me- but I do get to have someserious fun and Im a lot stronger since you got broken an all by that last baby you andyour man...hang on a damn second Judas mine as well seeing as you and I the sameperson. So I shall re-phrase since we died and you wanted to stay dead. It was me whotook fathers hand and let him pull us back to life. Sometimes I honestly think you sleepwalk through life Lily. But Im gonna do you a solid cause Ive got mad love for you. Imgonna make it so youre completely absolved of anything I may do because youll have nomemory of it. -she reached over and placed her hand inside my head. Inside my mind soquickly that I didnt have a chance to stop her-"Say what you want Raven but you crossed the line in more then one way when you tooka defensive stance against Bella. What the hells the matter with you?""Ah Lil you know I love Bella and wouldnt hurt the people that we love for anything. Ijust wanted to see what youd do and test how strong you are so seeing no harm done."-she smiled that dead smile of hers and gleaned those red flashing eyes burning holesthrough me like lasers-"Raven I have you under control more then you think." -I walked over and got in herface. My face and grabbed her by the throat and as I choked her I began to gag because Iwas choking myself so I let go of her-
  • 16. "You think youre the only crazy one Raven? Back me into a corner and Ill bury you sodeeply millennia will pass before you come up for air again." -I threw a punch that landeddirectly on the right side of Ravens face that sent us both reeling into opposite wallscracking them to show her Ill stand my ground no matter what. A bit drastic maybe butthen I am battling my darker self at least Jude and the staff in the house still heardnothing because she and I are in a parallel dimension within the castle. -I stood up andwiped the blood from my mouth and looked at her my eyes glaring-"Goddamn girl now thats what Im talking about! -She grinned and spat the blood on thefloor and licked the rest from her lips- How fucked up is this having an actual fight letalone conversation with yourself? Jesus Christ...hahahhahha my bad you used to be himdidnt you?""You know damn well I was and arent you lucky you got to sit that one out? Raven.""Relax I was just having a go at you..jes--lighten up will ya? -She starts dancing around-I cannot wait to see how people react to Me.-smiles- I already know how Jude will react.-Grins and runs hands down front of body as she dances-"Yeah Raven that went really well. he couldnt get away fast enough so two thumbs up-winks and holds up my thumbs in a sarcastic gesture then rolls eyes- were doing a bangup job making him think Im mental to boot again thanks."-Raven stretches and yawns at the same time-"Bored now." -She rushed me and grabbedme wrapping her body round mine. I wailed in agony as my body re-absorbed her. Fell tothe floor convulsing. Frothing at the mouth body shaking violently. Rapidly and slowly atthe same time. Then BANG!!! I wake up the next morning in bed next to Jude spooningme. He’s still asleep but not all of him is. I lie there still and silent afraid to breathe.Which one of me is awake?Living in the Shadow of another11/6/07Being immortal I have seen and done many things but the hardest thing of them all isliving in the shadow of another. I know he loves me but she will always be looming largeand when she does then Im the one in the shadows. I often wonder why were still tied toone another after more then 2000 years are souls are still bound to one another and yetshes still there. Is this punishment for both of us to be eternally bound by an intenselove/hate relationship? It was my bloodline that cursed him to walk the earth until the endof time and even then he still must stand outside the gates of Heaven. Have we trulyforgiven one another or is this our chance to do so? Id swear sometimes when he closeshis eyes hes thinking of her. I can feel it in his touch but if I were to ever ask him about itI know he would deny it. I dont like being second best nor having the sensation that Iwas settled for. Are these insecurities that I feel from time to time brought about whenthings between he and I are tempestuous and volatile? Are they there because Im boundby the human frailty of emotions while in this body that cause me to think such things?Im adored for being who I am and loathed for being his wife. Do they really think its
  • 17. easy being married to such a man or for him to be married to the likes of me? Does itreally matter? No one knows my pain how deeply it goes that it mars the very essence ofwho I am and if they did would they even give a damn? There have been so many timeswhen I just wanted to vanish into nothingness and cease to exist and for a short time I didand it was what it was beyond what even I could imagine. It was what I imagine thewomb to be safe floating in a pool of love free of any responsibility and the peace thatblinded me to all the impurities of life. I fought to hang on to its warm embrace but I wasripped out of my protective bubble the only place she didnt exist and brought back to thiswretched place that is slowly but surely draining me. What Ive come back to is anightmare filled with smoke and funhouse mirrors jarring and blurring what is and whatisnt but one thing still remains true... Im still in the shadow of another and the time isfast approaching I am running out of the energy to fight for his love to bring me out ofthe shadows.Splitting in two3/4/09Ever since I lost my son Ive never been the same. Now that Im pregnant with mysweet Samael again I shall allow nothing to impede or harm this pregnancytherefore my male half RavenLarik has surfaced and shall rule until the birth of myson. I shall remain close to those who need and love me but HE will be ruling untilIm able to. I ask my friends to understand and to give him a chance. He is still MEall you have to do is look into his eyes and youll know.ABOUT HER...5/7/09Raven is misunderstood for the most part but thats just the way that it is. She wasforged in the furnace of chaos heard the first cry of the angels when they were bornand her kinsmen ripped down the middle. Half on her mothers side (The Alpha) theother on the side of her father (The Omega). She has loved and lost too many timesto recall but through it all she remains firm, Catherine is the love of her life but so isAnakletos theirs was a forbidden love, dangerous, passionate to the point of creatingWhite Dwarfs within the galaxy. Seeing Anakletos again has reopened wounds andburied feelings she aches for him and Catherine as her life begins to go off the rails.The impending conflict between her parents, the alignment of her kinsmen againstone another and the ultimate decision on the outcome of the human species are allthings that she must deal with before having any kind of personal life.Catherine; her sister, lover, kinsmen embodies everything beautiful and nurturing.Her innocence is rivaled only by her desire to be loved as all of us crave. She is drawnto Larik, Ravens male aspect the attraction is primal and undeniable with whom sheends up with that die has yet to be cast.Anakletos; the literal love of her existence hed been banished and imprisoned by myfather for things he didnt understand until recently. In her anger Raven told him thathe is the true father of her daughter Rainn and not Larik as its widely believed. Rainn
  • 18. does not know this and Raven doesnt want her knowing this way or at this timebecause Rainn was created when her parents merged in pure alien form and essence.Seeing him again with a vampire named Annie broke Ravens heart and she ran like aspeeding comet. She ran until the muscles in her legs felt as through they werepumping battery acid then she ran some more...Which one will realize that all Raven wants is the kind of love she gives and what willthey do to get this point across to her?WHO WE ARE AND WHO YOU HUMANS TRULY ARE...5/1/09WARNING ANYONE EASILY OFFENDED NEED NOT READ THIS BLOG.THIS IS BASED ON THEOLOGY, SUPERNATURAL EVENTS, AND THINGSTHAT MAY STRIKE A HARD CORD WITH SOME…We are an alien species abstract intelligence here before time ever existed. We arean incestuous breed. We are able to mutate and acclimate to any environment,planet, dimension, plane and so forth. We began as a single organism much like anamoeba our cells divided, mutated thus the beginning. We taught ancient man howto build, how to speak, how to evolve but they betrayed the truth with fictitiousbased religions that grew like a virus infecting humans with will be their ultimateend without intervention. It is humans who called us "Gods." I suppose the horrorof which they are really the spawns of didnt set too well with those in power.Seriously people if you were to put a "Harry Potter" book into a time capsule and infive hundred years anyone who opened that capsule and read that book would thinkthat he was a god. Understand? I dont believe in painting a rosy picture for them,its time they knew then learn to cope with the truth. (It doesnt matter why theyrehere and yet they obsess on it. What matters is they ARE here.) We live and walkamong them. Some of us are even related to them. We blend in and few notice ifthey do then they think it’s an act of God or Satan and its not. It’s the influence oftheir ancestors who were kind, loving, loyal, intelligent, good, evil, scrupulous thereactions seldom make sense so why would humans even try to rationalize somethingthat is abstract? The ancient ones are divided whether to save mankind or send itthe way of the dinosaur. They were given the truth but told lies that affect them tothis very day. So because of the creation of religions weve had to adapt to theirbeliefs in order to affect their lives and some of us are getting tired of them and theirgreed, prejudices and several other negative traits but this is the order of thingshere sadly and my kind are fighting with our own kinsman over their fate. This timethe battle will be fought here and it begins with ripping away the veils blindingthem. There are positive and negative influences the yin and yang so to speak and
  • 19. there is no balance here. They will see and hear and experience things that willshake them to the very core of their existence but this will be done in stages as werewell aware of the fact that this is an awful lot to digest there fore it will be revealedin increments...HUMANS YOU ARE NOT ALONE AND ITS TIME FOR ALL OFYOU TO WAKE UP AND REALIZE THAT YOURE ALL CONNECTED YOUSHARE 98% DNA AND WHAT YOU HAVE IN COMMON FAR OUT WEIGHSTHE DIFFERENCES....MOTHER4/29/09Ive been absconded by my mother after my violent fight with Larik. Im beingpampered and taken care of to make sure that I heal completely but honestly Imgoing stir crazy. I have to get to Catherine and my daughter Rainn and I want to seeLarik. Im no longer angry with him. Every day is the same thing...Im to the pointof pulling out my own hair...MOTHER!!! LET ME OUT OF HERETHE ARRIVAL OF MY MOTHER AND FATHER...4/26/09Time was running short and the lines are being drawn in blood. My parents are nowin this realm and their influences are being spread and felt like a rampant virus.Larik is drawn to our father (The Omega, Lucifer) while I am drawn to our mother(The Alpha, Yahweh) they have assumed human shells and are recruiting those whohave put their existence in jeopardy one before to step up or out.MOTHER She’s called mother but she has no definitive form though can assumeany animal, human, etc. Many have a serious misunderstanding of her and its nottheir fault but MANKIND. They wrote religious text and dogma to suit their ownneeds while editing out the truth this was done to enslave them. People dont believeshe exists but the best things go unnoticed. Shes a bit quirky, forgiving,unpredictable, a supreme being of intelligence creator of all things within thisgalaxy. She has a volitle temper at times and takes immediate action to any threat tothe throne. When you break it down to its barest aspect theres very little differencebetween her and my father as tough as that may be to wrap ones head around butmost of all she is love.FATHER He is also an alien abstract intelligence and the male aspect of my mother.He was beautiful so much so that his eyes are the reason the sky is blue. He was theonly being that mother loved and trusted. Together they created everything but thatwas a long time ago. He is known as a scourge to mankind and to blame for
  • 20. everything bad. In his own way he does know love but when he and mother beganhaving problems that gave birth to the first divorce he was never the same. Still onlythe pair of them knows the REAL reason why they fell apart and away from oneanother...And So It Begins...4/25/09 Ive dreaded this but can no longer turn a blind eye towhats happening. My parents are at it again and using both Larik and I to do theirwork on this planet until they can return. Larik has always been our fathers (Satan,Omega, and Lucifer) son and Ive always been mothers. (God, Yahweh, Alpha) butbeing kind does not mean that I cannot be as brutal as Larik I just used differentmethods The signs of this war are popping up everywhere and sides are going tohave to be chosen there will be NO safe haven for those riding the fence until thisthing blows over. ALL WILL BE HELD ACCOUNTABLE!!! It may appear asthough Im exempt from Lariks rage but as he and I are the same being itsimpossible. There are dark and dangerous times ahead for all of us. DO NOTMISTAKE MY KINDNESS FOR WEAKNESS!!!Love,RavenlilyRAVEN..UPDATE ON WHERE SHES BEEN6/14/09Raven took the chance and the much needed time getting to know her childrenSamael and Thais. She took the opportunity when things went horribly wrongbetween her and Catherine. Now you may be wondering what kind of motherabandons her children... well anything really but that was not the case with Raven.After the violent birth of the twins they aged from new born to that of 21 in the spanof 24 hours and were immediately whisked away for stabilization. They are pureblood and aliens to this world and required extensive training and education aboutwho they were, what their purpose was in this conflict and taught everything abouttheir species and the world Planet Earth. When not with them she spent a lot oftime reflecting on the nature of her relationships in general realizing that a hugepart of her was shut down and cut off especially to those closets to her. She wasimmortal and during her many incarnations shes loved and lost living within herown personal hell for not being able to forget then being constantly reminded bythose around who were happily sharing their lives with someone special to them.Raven loved Catherine from the beginning but watched from afar until she got thecourage to tell her how she truly felt through Larik her male aspect. This causedCatherine to be awakened to things only known to her (Ravens) species. Ravendidnt have proper time to recover from the birth before shed been pulled away totend to something else. But shes back now with her children in tow and ready toface whatever lies ahead.ALL ABOUT LILY...5/8/09
  • 21. Lily was conjured up during Raven and Anakletos inter-galactic mingling of theiressences and reunion after being kept apart from one another. As a punishment forbeing with a superior being (Raven) Anakletos is of their blood but that wasnt theproblem. The problem was that deep down her parents knew what would happen ifthey mated; a being more powerful then The Alpha and The Omega combined wascreated her name is Rainn The Keeper of The Hours controller of the strands oflife for all beings. Lily is just a clamored version an optical illusion to shield her realidentity she was their when the first orgasm split the cosmos and she was there whenfirst blood of her kinsmen was spilled and is the reason that the Seven Deadly Sinshad been locked away in a box.Raven brought Lily back into this realm to shield her reunion with Anakletos sheslid out from between Ravens legs when she orgasm with Anakletos. She knew thatthis was a dangerous ruse and it would take all that she had to control Lily for themoment she is bound and can only appear in her true form to Anakletos. The formthat Lily took was perfection molded with the earthy tone of the Gods. A siren ofsilken mocha colored skin, dark penetrating eyes, the voice of a Seraphims and sheis pure unadulterated ID whatever she desires she acquires and is literally thedarkest aspect of Raven.RAVENS GOT A SECRET...5/8/09Raven worried that she would not be able to keep the truth of her and Anakletosreunion from her parents so she went to the ancient archives and read anincantation in Latin and Greek. The spell conjured up Raven at her most carnal.Lily. She is nothing but sex and power and has been hidden deep within the earthscore. Raven needed to find away to be with him and in doing so she conjured upLily the ID raw, pure emotion. A sensual mocha skinned Goddess with dark browneyes and a body thats rocking she will only emerge when stealing time to be withAnakletos and hopes that this glamour is strong enough not to bleed and reveal thetruth. Her secret!!~TaglineDont take my kindness as a weakness youll be sorry.Me, Myself, and IThis book will show you the infinite lives that Ive led and all of the loved ones that Ilost. I am now positioned to take the throne from my parents The Alpha and theMorning Star. Ive lived my entire life in mothers’ servitude I held the fort keepingthe balance by any means required. I have my family back and am only partakingin this conflict so that our species and the humans do not become extinct. When mypeople first landed on this big blue ball we revealed to true origins of ourselves butmankind chose to make deities out of us when were just a more advanced alienspecies but we appeared to them as they saw us and that was as Goddess. This lie isthe catalyst for this conflict and this time were bringing the battle field here to
  • 22. earth to awaken the humans and to show them whats real and whats egregious liesthey have been programmed to believe...~Is the male aspect of me to be truthful he’s one of many aspects that I have. All youhave to do is look into his eyes and youll see me. He has all of my traits just throwin the fact that youre dealing with a man and youll notice subtle differences but atthe whole he IS ME. Please welcome him...RavenlilyCatherineThere isnt anything about this woman that doesnt leave me breathless. Herbeauty is ethereal, her wit and intelligence, staggering the hunger that drivesher. Insatiable! I have loved this woman for nearly two millennium, first as afriend, next as a beloved sister but this time as my life partner My love forher transcends gender, sexuality, preference etc. and is flourishing on a planeof existence that mortals never truly know until they die. Im lookingforward to bringing our children up with an abundance of love and wisdom.Catherine makes all of these things a reality for me and I am truly blessed tohave her.Allegra and Azuza TudorMy granddaughter Allegra is a very special person she and her daughterAzuza, my great granddaughter are remarkable and powerful women. Theyknew that I wasnt the same after losing my son Samael and the two of themfound a way to give him back to me. They are going to do what it takes tosave human kind from the demise of the ancient one who walks among themfeeding off them like ticks. Throwing money and power at their feet but theirreign is at an end. Mankind shall be redeemed and the ancients revealed intime.Samael &ThaisSoon after his birth Samael God of Judgment split in two revealing hisfemale aspect Thais. The pair is a lethal combo that rage then thinks later asthey are still baby deities even though their bodies are that of adults.RainnShe is Moirae Keeper of the hours of the strands of life. Her powers areinfinite and untold and even Gods answer to me. While Bella reigned in thisdimension she was in another dimension where the human population andeverything on the planet began to wither and die. An evil corporation called"Umbrella" was run by the ancient ones who had been drop kicked intooblivion by man kind. They vowed to take the planet back and did bycreating the T-cell virus that turned any living thing into ravenous zombifiedmonsters whose only desire was to feed on the flesh of humans not yetinfected. The Umbrella Corporation then tried to make the perfect weaponout of her they got more then they ever bargained for. In that world she wentby the name Alice and am I grateful that they never knew they held a deity in
  • 23. their hands. She learned tactical defenses and offensives she loves getting herhands dirty as it were now she’s back to join us.The TruthWARNING ANYONE EASILY OFFENDED NEED NOT READ THIS BLOG. THISIS BASED ON THEOLOGY, SUPERNATURAL EVENTS, AND THINGS THATMAY STRIKE A HARD CORD WITH SOME...We are an alien species abstract intelligence here before time ever existed. We are anincestuous breed. We are able to mutate and acclimate to any environment, planet,dimension, plane and so forth. We began as a single organism much like an amoeba ourcells divided, mutated thus the beginning. We taught ancient man how to build, how tospeak, how to evolve but they betrayed the truth with fictitious based religions that grewlike a virus infecting humans with will be their ultimate end without intervention. It ishumans who called us "Gods." I suppose the horror of which they are really the spawnsof didnt set too well with those in power. Seriously people if you were to put a "HarryPotter" book into a time capsule and in five hundred years anyone who opened thatcapsule and read that book would think that he was a god…understand? I dont believe inpainting a rosy picture for them, its time they knew then learn to cope with the truth. (Itdoesnt matter why theyre here and yet they obsess on it. What matters is they AREhere.) We live and walk among them…some of us are even related to them. We blend inand few notice if they do then they think it’s an act of God or Satan and its not. It’s theinfluence of their ancestors who were kind, loving, loyal, intelligent, good, evil,scrupulous there actions seldom make sense so why would humans even try to rationalizesomething that is abstract? The ancient ones are divided whether to save mankind or sendit the way of the dinosaur. They were given the truth but told lies that affect them to thisvery day. So because of the creation of religions weve had to adapt to their beliefs inorder to affect their lives and some of us are getting tired of them and their greed,prejudices and several other negative traits but this is the order of things here sadly andmy kind are fighting with our own kinsman over their fate. This time the battle will befought here and it begins with ripping away the veils blinding them. There are positiveand negative influences the yin and yang so to speak and there is no balance here. Theywill see and hear and experience things that will shake them to the very core of theirexistence but this will be done in stages as were well aware of the fact that this is anawful lot to digest there fore it will be revealed in increments...HUMANS YOU ARENOT ALONE AND ITS TIME FOR ALL OF YOU TO WAKE UP AND REALIZETHAT YOURE ALL CONNECTED YOU SHARE 98% DNA AND WHAT YOUHAVE IN COMMON FAR OUT WEIGHS THE DIFFERENCES....
  • 24. Raven slumbers while awaiting the birth of her child. During the birth shetransforms her human shell this is the common practice of their species.
  • 25. The Birth of Samael and ThaisSamael is my first pure bred child. His birth was violent his mother has been in a deepslumber for eons to await the birth of her child. She’s had to slumber because shesbringing a pure bred into this realm in the form of a human this caused cataclysmicresults. Raven was pulled back into this world by Catherine and her love. "Angel Eyes"was there for the birth as she is the only one Raven trusts. The room begins to shakeviolently... a purple hue fills the room. Raven holds out her hand for Catherine andcatches her as the part of the floor she was standing on gave way and fell into a pit ofmolten lava. It crackles and disappears into the fiery abyss.Raven: Ive got you Angel!The only safe place in the room for Catherine is on the elaborate and enormous sleepingchamber that has been Ravens home. She is breathless and tries to speed up Ravensreturn with each contraction Ravens body begins its violent transformation. Eachcontraction is met with an equal amount of chaos. The bed chamber walls are struck byblue streaks of lightening and Raven lets out a scream thats potent enough to raise thedead as she bears down and pushes to bring her child into this realm. The wind picks upand is trying to separate Catherine and Raven but the grip that she has on Catherineshand makes this impossible the only thing keeping Catherine from blowing away is her
  • 26. love and conviction.Through the May lee Catherine keeps focused on Raven but the flesh on Ravens bodybegins falling away like paper burnt to cinders. Raven bears down and gives it all that shehas. The child emerges and is screaming and shrieking like a banshee. The child is able tostop and halt the time space continuum. Blood drops appear as large as bubbles blown bychildren...everything slow down. The child emerges and doesnt wait for the cord to becut instead its still attached to the umbilical. It drags Ravens body along with it as itskitters around whats left of the birthing chamber, climbing walls and anything else thatit thinks will detach it from Raven.Catherine looks on in horror seeing Raven covered in blood and being dragged around bythe babys umbilical cord. She grabs a hold of her child long enough to severe the cordand when she does her body bursts into cinders and floats away. The child looks atwhat’s left of its mother and kisses her lovely bones when it does the shell that was onceRavenlily begins to breath and new skin forms forever altering Ravens appearance.Once the transmogrification is complete the child breathes new life into its mother Raven.A bright white light eminent from her eyes, ears, nose and mouth this beam of lightstrikes Catherine in her abdomen apparently killing her as blood spills from her woundsshe cries out grabbing her belly. Raven grabs and holds onto her child and cries so loudlythe rest of the chamber falls way. Holding her child and Catherine in her arms; screamingand crying the child squeaks and rasps but manages to steady and quell the mayhem. Itkisses Catherine on her forehead sealing her wounds when all of this comes to a calmRaven is fully awakened and has given birth to her child.Sam is often on the run and in hiding with his sister and me though he is alien by bloodand birth he is also human plus a little extra. He retains our intelligence and knowledgewhile his sister Thais has the actual mechanics of our kind metal skeleton phenomenalstrength and power fitting one of her ilk. Her main priority is to protect her brother fromthose who wish him dead because they are the true heirs to the throne. They are able tobend and manipulate the space continuum appear to be in multiple places at once. Samaelis vital to all of this and the key to the next step in evolution for mankind and for him todo this properly he had to be human. To be able to understand how they think theiremotions etc. to add the proper balance to things…My Journal first entryI keep a lot of what Im thinking or feeling to myself. Im a private being as it were butwith this war beginning my thoughts and feelings will no longer be my own the reptilianpart of my brain will take over and its only thought is survival. I dont like this side ofmyself but it’s a part of my defense mechanism and Im going to need everything that Iam and have to neutralize if not win this conflict. The alliances will flit back and forthlike a tennis ball betrayal will be rampant, friendships and loves lost all of course in thename of survival. Its not down to the fittest like the humans believe it goes much much
  • 27. deeper then that and evolution is a major factor that they appear to be blinded too. Thisplanet was here long before they crawled out of the primordial ooze and it will shakethem like a dog shaking water off its back. Its not all their fault that they have been liedto but it is their fault in how they reacted to them. The average human only uses 8 to 10percent of the brain whereas we access the full brain allowing us to sense and do thingsthat defy scientific laws as they know them. Imagine what would happen if they used thefull force of that organ for some their heads would explode because they arent at a pointin evolution where they can handle all the things that it can due but this doesnt mean thatthere arent those few who harness more areas of the brain then the average some handleit well and some dont. This war is about ripping away the dense veils of mantra likebrainwashing that will destroy them. They need to know that we are them and they are uswe were the first to walk this planet we can still breathe water and other liquids like achild in the womb this isnt something we forgot unlike them. I suppose the reason Imwriting this down is in case we manage to fail. The truth as been buried for so long itstime to give it the light it deserves.About meI am the God of Balance and known by many names but none know my true name or thetrue names of my family. I am the eldest daughter of The Alpha (God, The One) and TheOmega (Lucifer.).I am the literal embodiment of Light and Dark with perfect shades ofgray. Being a God I am both FEMALE and MALE energies and am able to assume theidentity of anyone or thing. Im am now back to fight in a war thats been in a stale matefor a millennium between my parents, now relatives Ive not seen in ages are in thisrealm. During a violent fight with Larik both parents swept in and carried us off to ourhome planet to recover and plan the initial phase of this war. I was kept away fromCatherine when she needed me the most (not my choice) as soon as I was strong enoughand I came back for her and nothing and I do mean nothing will keep us apart on pain ofdeath...My family origins are a very guarded secret as are most of my powers. The reason forthis is it gives your enemies temporary control and that isnt something that can EVERhappen. My family is members of an ancient and believed to be extinct race but we arevery much alive. There are a few humans and other beings that know we exist but to theworld we do not in the sense that they think. One day well be able to show the humansthat we exist but the time has not yet come.JUDEMy love for him is endless it knows no bounds no restrictions. My love for him is deeperthen the core of the galaxy. My love for him would incinerate mortals as though theyve
  • 28. danced on the surface of the sun. My love for him transcends even the highest realms ofthe heavens and the unyielding depths of hell. My love for him would make me murderthe world and many other planes of existence if I were to every lose him. My love forhim lies within the passion of him giving me apart of himself by allowing me to share inhis happiness and his pain...for allowing me to be there when he just wants me to holdhim in my arms and run my fingers through his hair and being able to look into his eyesand knowing without a doubt Im am in love with him beyond any comprehension. TheVampire God and King is the lover, friend, confidant (even a God needs to be and feellove) that I have been searching for. My love for him is powerful, gripping and allconsuming and I am even in love with him more then I love him and knowing that hefeels the same about me that hes in love with me his wife and mother of our two preciousones...is a feeling that mortals could neither handle nor understand they would lose theirminds and many of them have. Do I really need to tell you who this man is that have socaptured me? MY JUDE.JUDE’S BATTLE AND OUR RECKONINGMy heart is heavy and my mind is a whirl. I have only recently known that my husbandJude wasnt asleep while I was away recovering from my death. He swore Nicolas tosecrecy and then went to my father Lucifer whom I call Samael for a spell to blind mefrom the truth. The price for my father’s assistance was all of the bickering and infighting between Nicolas and I to the point of having me on the verge of killing him. Youcannot dance with the Devil without paying the price and now Jude knows this. I watchhim from a far as he lies in the sand bruised and bloodied wondering what awaits himnow. He need not wonder anymore as I take on the form of air and enter his body as heinhales me deeply and he feels me inside of every cell, every tissue, in his soul and mostimportantly he feels the memory of me. Of us and all that we made and are together in hisblood. All of this plays out before him like a movie. I take on my human form longenough to Kiss him deeply, passionately and for him to drink me in. My body shuddersand I begin to crave him more. The more he feeds from me and I want him to take meright then and there but me pull away to leave. Why you may wonder because it has to behis choice to return to me but before I go I whisper "Come back to me Jude I love andmiss you so."Catherine and Raven: Their StoryFor a while now Raven has been slumbering waiting for the right moment to return to thisworld. She was tired and drained of all love for humanity until given the gift of bringingback her children and until shed finally been able to reveal her true feelings forCatherine. They have been friends, sisters, and now will be taking their relationship onestep further. There may be some that are shocked by this revelation but you see it takessomeone incredibly strong and one with uncorrupted love to bring Raven back to thisrealm of the apparent world (meaning what you can see, touch, taste, and know) and after
  • 29. nearly two millennium the love she was looking for had been with her all along itsCatherine! Her love reached Raven and is bringing her back to this realm and out of herslumber and it is "Angel Eyes" as Raven calls her that is waking this "Sleeping Beauty."soon very soon Raven will be able to give birth! Soon shell be able to have a real life andlove with Catherine the days and clocks are ticking until the day when a fully recoveredRaven can be there for her amazing Catherine.Catherine IrisBy Catherine Iris Thaumantos~Catherine was a lovely young woman who was "almost too pretty to be trulybeautiful, for her prettiness overcame any sense of majesty or deep mystery."Underneath her physical beauty, Catherine is a fundamentally dark, empty,nihilistic person; her actions are almost always based on her insatiable need to fillher own inner emptiness.She has wavy black hair which she often interweaves with pearls and sharp greeneyes and is often described as a woman painted by Botticelli.While not with Raven she lived a life with her fellow vampires until they died andshe was forced to depend financially on her evil kinsmen who were bankers. Theyprovided amply for her as long as she killed those who they instructed her to kill.She did this by opening her house to virtually all as an amicable and gracefulhostess and secretly placing poison in the wine cups of those whom her said kinsmenwanted dead.
  • 30. She was a renowned Venetian courtesan at this time when a vampire came to knowher. His vampire immediately fell in love with her and became obsessed with her.The two stayed together for nearly two hundred years, before her lover Catherine inDresden. He left because when talking to Raven, Catherine said that she would leaveher lover if it meant having Raven with her once more. Catherine also didnt tell herlover that rumors of Raven in Dresden were the only reason they were movingthere. It is not known where Raven went after leaving Catherine but it would not tillRaven was in deep slumber with child that they would find each other again~Catherine discovered through Ravens male aspect Larik that Raven LovedCatherine since their first encounter in Rome. Raven was in slumber with childbut soon awoke to the most violent pains of Childbirth. Raven went through amost vile birth Experience but soon enough the child was born. Raven died ofthe pains but the child rein bodied her soul back within her human form, soonafter some talk Catherine and Raven had the night alone they were waiting forsince that first sight. Larik was of Raven so he too shared in this heated night.Within Days, He soon turned in a most evil beast, violently attacking Catherinewith his pricked organ. She has now been inflected with his intense liquid, as ittravels through her bloodstream. It seems she been morphed again becomingmore than a vampire but into an Alien Snake and God! ~My OriginsMy family origins are a very guarded secret as are most of my powers. Thereason for this is it gives your enemies temporary control and that isntsomething that can EVER happen. My family are members of an ancient andbelieved to be extinct race but we are very much alive. There are a fewhumans and other beings that know we exist but to the world we do not...notin the sense that they think. One day well be able to show the humans thatwe exist but the time has not yet come until it does we remain hidden...
  • 31. The Keeper of the Book of the Dead.Ive found the Book of The Dead and am now its keeper and executor...10/6/09Tagline~Who ever has it as the power~Me, Myself, and I~During his grief and sense of haplessness while his daughters Rainn and Bella laydying he stumbled upon the ancient Book Of The Dead If your name is in here thenexpect a visit from him shortly. The secrets contained within the pages of this bookhave shown him that death doesnt always mean the death of the body, spirit or thesoul but is death to something old so that it may be renewed or reborn intosomething different. It doesnt stipulate whether this is a good or bad thing itdepends on the intention of the person reading these incantations and the purity ofthat intent...to harm or heal thus explaining the difficulty in finding it. If this fellinto the wrong hands there’s no telling the amount of chaos and carnage they couldbring down on the heads of us all. I will lay my very essence on the line to keep thisbook and its knowledge safe. ~UNDERSTANDING WHAT IT MEANS TO BE A TRUE GOD.3/7/09Where do I begin? Well I suppose Ill just jump right in and bear in mind that thereare things that Im bound to keep secret. You see Ravenlily and I (RavenLarik) areone in the same. With deities we can assume the identity of anyone. Larik chose toemerge in the image of my late husband Juda but he can like myself shift intoanyone or thing. I want people to understand that Im not her brother, I AM HERAND SHE IS ME! Im here to rule while she rests and gives birth to her child...theson she lost in battle. Our great grand daughter Azuza and her mother our grand
  • 32. daughter Allegra came and visited Ravenlily in her dreams and together they wereable to give her back the son she lost in battle. This child is pure god and completelyhers he has no father...just Ravenlily and I deities DO NOT NEED TO ENGAGE INSEXUAL ACTIVITY TO REPRODUCE. I am not her brother or lover I AM HER.I will rein will she slumbers as it is dangerous for her to be carrying a god while sheis in human form so we are taking no chances with the health of our belovedRavenlily or her unborn son Samael. I shall be perfect gentlemen to her friends andloved ones and shall try to get to know them all. And I will slay without haste thosewho break the laws of Balance. I thank you for your time.RavenLarikAbout me I am the God of Balance and known by many many names but none knowmy true name or the true names of my family. I am the eldest of The Alpha (God, TheOne) and The Omega (Lucifer.).I am the literal embodiment of Light and Dark withperfect shades of gray. Being a God I am both FEMALE and MALE energies and amable to assume the identity of anyone or thing. I am going through a change literally.Raven separated dividing her male and female aspects that was a jolt to me as Id beeninside of her for so long. She recently gave birth to a pure bred deity and I wasnt there tohelp so Ive been stricken with a shape shift into a black cougar that as of yet Im unableto control. He represents my primal, animalistic, base. I know that in time Ill be incontrol of this aspect of me. I hope that those who love me understand and give medistance while I complete this process....Some think that they are the original "bad boy." but where do you think they inheritedthese traits from? Thin fucking air? I dont think so! Im more like our father (TheOmega=Lucifer or as he was truly known Samael) Raven is more like mother (TheAlpha=God). Ive had many many many names, more spawn then I care to remember butthe one constant has been this drive nay urge that overcomes me like an angry storm ofkiller bees. Im able to charm at will. Seriously its too easy at times you could even saythat Im a sincere being regardless of the situation. I long for a partner to share in myescapades to push the realms of reality and venture into the darkest heart to find thepurity of the light. I watch, listen and learn about my prey be they potential food orpartner my tastes is discerning. What is it they say? "Its always the bad boys who make agirls heart beat faster." In my case I have literally caused a stilled and stoned heart tobeat........The Rise of Larik Im the male aspect of Ravenlily Goddess of Balance, myname is RavenLarik. I dont normally appear in this realm but I was summoned herewhile my female aspect lay slumbering. She is now wakening up and though she and Iare the same being Im building a life with my wife Anne and children Samael and Tigerlily. All of this is an alien concept and Im finding my way as I go a long. Its taking metime to acclimate myself and Im worried that while Im in this transition of isolating mywife Anne. There are some things that are hard to explain. Hard to decipher Im in thishuman shell and feel every emotion a thousand times more then humans and at times thelight is blinding and I seek refuge in the darkness and shadows. Comfort in the arms ofmy beloved Anne.
  • 33. Larik Hidden Secret He was sitting and talking with his beloved wife Anne when all ofa sudden he was violently blown across the room by an unseen force. The atmosphereoutside instantly goes from sunny and cloudless to thunder storming and pitch black butwith the exception of the bolts of lightening striking whatever it pleases. Larik is soonabsorbed into the walls structure like a slick of human waste then disappears beforeAnnes horrified eyes. Hes pulled back into the core of his existence and shown thedismal light of who he truly is. Images of him and his former incarnations play out beforehim like and endless reel of film.He is the counter balance of Ravenlily. He is the one who exacts justice with extremeprejudice. He is the one who lives in the shadows of your wildest nightmares. He is thebringer of death. All of these facts blind and broad side him as he swells with a new senseof purpose but how will Anne deal with him and his purpose? Will her love for him keephim grounded or will he return to his old ways?Finding myself Ive been in this cage for days trying to control this beast until I realizedthe beast is ME! Ive always been a shape shifter but this is different. This one takes meback to my primal urges, raw, brutal, quick and dirty. Ive always fought my fathers pettygames to convert me over to his side (My father is Satan) he knew that I was happy withAnne and our children but for him that was just the chance he needed to attack me withthis strain.Many people believe us to be Gods but that is a human name to conceal the fact that theywere spawned by higher intelligent species of Aliens. All of them are aliens born andbred on this blue ball. We come from a different realm and time a place that hopefully thehuman race will live to see. This cougar aspect of me is lethal, finds the weakness inothers and uses it to his advances. Right now the only thing that will save me frombecoming a mass murderer is nearly as unspeakable and it will be a test of just how muchAnne loves me. Ill understand if she wants nothing more to do with me. Im split rightdown the middle and I dont know which side of me will win out.As soon as I acknowledged the fact that I had no control my transformation back to myhuman form was painless. I reached through the bars on the cage and held Annes hand asI lie naked and ashamed.Moving Forward Dearest Anne it was never my intention to hurt you but I realize thatwe both want and need different things out of life. I will always be close with you as youare the mother of my children. I want you to be happy and find someone whos right foryou and less complicated. I did what I could to protect you from me and my actions and Ifailed. Do not be angry with Catherine as it was me who went to where she and Ravenwere making love. I never touched her with my skin only with my mind (transgenic liketelekinesis) I was being pulled in deeper by the beast within that’s fighting to get out andhaving ritual sex was the only thing that halted the proceeding.I want to set up visitation with the children and provide you with whatever you need toraise them. Id ask you to forgive me but Ill understand if that is something that neverhappens.
  • 34. The Beast Within With each quickening I feel this thing inside me grow. The hungerand bloodlust is no longer manageable, Ive found myself hunting under the shadows ofthe moonlight. At first my prey remained with animals but the more I had the more Iwanted. No NEEDED! Each kill makes my transformation less painful as I no longerstuffer the agony of bones cracking and reforming, flesh ripping and falling by the wayside like that of a snake shedding its skin. I still go through the process but the pain hasbecome my darkest pleasure. Seeing the fear building in their eyes when I pounce andlook them in the wide eyes that usually are looking back at mine. Feeling the bloodheating up with dread coursing through their veins and heart pounding pleas of "God saveme!" I tell them "I am saving them." in a vicious guttural tone that’s laced with anotherworldly growl right before ripping their faces off. I feel such a rush and elation thatrivals my best orgasm and believe me I have and give earth shattering ones. Lately Ivebeen playing with them giving them the hope of survival which feels much like foreplay.The build up is indescribable sometimes I keep them around for days seeing if theydeserve to die or not. Looking for the slightest glimmer of wrongness that makesdevouring them a ritual in and of itself. But alas, its only hunting alone and am lookingfor a partner whos love of all things carnal and losing themselves in a smoky haze ofdebauchery and explorations in exquisite dark and dangerous pleasures match my own...Iwonder if such a creature exists.The Origins of Evil There is a serious misconception about the reasons behind evil andwhat exactly true evil is. Evil is an aggressive intelligence and life force driven to surviveas any organism constructed of carbon.My fathers love is as pure as that of my mothers he just goes about getting what hewants in a different manner from mother and on the odd occasion they work together butoften its something to pick at the scabs of their break up. I fought with Raven becauseshe attacked me (because of what I did to Catherine but its up to Catherine to come intoher own and make her own decisions as to what to do and how to use the gift I gave her...bound by our laws neither Raven or myself can tell Catherine this) but neither of us caninflict any fatal injuries upon one another without destroying ourselves. I was dazed andhurting badly when Rainn appeared flinging me to one side like a paper bag caught in thewind and Raven the other direction in the very same manner.I felt a dramatic shift in the earth and alignment of the planets as I lay there bleeding andbadly injured from my fight with Raven. I must have blacked out somewhere because thenext thing I knew I was cradled within my father’s arms as his massive wings carried meto safety. I heard my fathers’ voice reverberating through me like a speeding bulletthen...nothing but silence and blackness...where am I?Anna Imprisoned within the body of my brother Anakletos this beautiful creature wasdestroyed as he made his re-emergence. I saw what was left of her lying in a rotting heapon the floor and said "Come back to me Anna. Come back.” At which time her flesh re-animated becoming soft and pale pink the crumbled and broken bones becamereconnected and workable. At first my reasons for bringing her back to life was a way ofadding insult to injury to my brother Anakletos but once I gazed into the eyes so
  • 35. innocent. So pure I decided to make her mine. I showed her my home planet and took herto my safe haven there. She brings out all that is good in me and accepts who and what Iam without question and for that Im beginning to know what love is. I never want to hurther but I know myself and am bound to screw it up somewhere down the line but for nowshe is MY salvation.THE BOOK OF THE DEAD During his grief and sense of haplessness while hisdaughters Rainn and Bella lay dying he stumbled upon the ancient Book of the Dead Ifyour name is in here then expect a visit from him shortly.The secrets contained within the pages of this book have shown him that death doesntalways mean the death of the body, spirit or the soul but is death to something old so thatit may be renewed or reborn into something different. It doesnt stipulate whether this is agood or bad thing it depends on the intention of the person reading these incantations andthe purity of that intent. To harm or heal thus explaining the difficulty in finding it. If thisfell into the wrong hands there’s no telling the amount of chaos and carnage they couldbring down on the heads of us all. I will lay my very essence on the line to keep this bookand its knowledge safe.My Grief~During my grief and sense of haplessness while my daughters Rainn and Bella lay dyingI stumbled upon the ancient Book Of The Dead If your name is in here then expect a visitfrom me shortly. The secrets contained within the pages of this book have shown me thatdeath doesnt always mean the death of the body, spirit or the soul but is death tosomething old so that it may be renewed or reborn into something different. It doesntstipulate whether this is a good or bad thing it depends on the intention of the personreading these incantations and the purity of that intent...to harm or heal thus explainingthe difficulty in finding it. If this fell into the wrong hands there’s no telling the amountof chaos and carnage they could bring down on the heads of us all. I will lay my veryessence on the line to keep this book and its knowledge safe.This book has been buried within the bowels of the forbidden region on my home planet.A place where even those known to be brave and courageous fear to tread there. I findsolace with the dark icy cold that burst into a brilliant shower of liquid fire at a momentsnotice. Have you ever seen fire at zero gravity? Its beautiful, it glides consumingeverything foolish enough to be caught in its path. I on the other hand would come hereas a child when I wanted to hide from who I was and from the beast that lurks howlingbeneath the surface of my human form. I had sought it originally to save my daughtersbut while away looking for it they were both healed. Now I have the ultimate weapon touse in this conflict and shall not fail or falter. ~
  • 36.  Lucifer Omega~ Thats right we disagreed on what to do with them and I have to say that they aremore inclined to follow me then theyll even admit to themselves. I am blamedfor all that is wrong in the world and in their lives but truth be told all of theirwounds are self inflicted. If evil is what they want then Ill show them what trueevil is what they’ll get. ~ Anakletos Cerberus Lee~ Anakletos had been part of Anna since the dawn of human Existence. She wastransformed into this alien creature within the depth of the ocean by her father,Lucifer. He need such a creature to carry his demons creations but Lilith got
  • 37. wind of this, also using her vessel to carry her pure essence in the form of a newcreature which the human named Fairies. She would carry such creatures whenThe Alpha and the Omega saw fit to place their essence into this realm. But Oneday as she was out saying goodbye to her new creations a man came upon her,they spoke when he transformed into a wild cat and chased her away from hersafe Location. When the chase was over he Invoked Anakletos who was soonattacked, left to near death. His attacker was Larik. They were both part oftheir fathers essence but of completely different sources and so whenAnna/Anakletos become a vessel for their fathers Demon creation, Larikbecame an unknown species, and no one truly knew what he was within TheFamily.TaglineThe Invoked!Me, Myself, and IAnakletos Cerberus Lee the male aspect of Anna Medusa Lee. They were born asone being but like our older siblings later split into two different aspects of theoriginal person. He only came about when Our Father (The Omega) gave up allhope of Anna being the mother of a new superior race, which would have been ofa higher make-up than man. Anna was submissive to all his outrageous demandson her but still she was angered within by the vile treatment she was enduring.Anakletos emerged from her blackened heart and became flesh. He is the fleshembodied built on her hatred. The best way to describe this inner Rage to thosewho have not seen it is that it is a sudden and violent out of control explosion ofbuild up temper. It usually happens very suddenly with no real warning that it’scoming. Once started it cannot be stopped by anyone. It must run its course untiltill then he is untouchable..Because he spilt from her body, he absorbed the hatred she felt she hadexperienced from their Father. This was not healthy state for her continueimmortal existence, as they are higher deities must feel all emotions there is tofeel around the. This absent emotion soon became even greater then before, itshidden presence soon made her be known as The Medusa.His appearance cannot be truly described but shall try he has a brazen voice likethat of a wild dog is relentless and strong and is as horrid to all who have themisfortune to see him. Anakletos is the first true Cerberus his very name means toinvoke when Anna wanted to rid herself of this rage he took it on and acted outtheir darkest emotions..He appears to most as a wild animal whose physique represents of them in theirmost basic state. He excels in hand to hand combat, employing acrobatics that hepassed onto is daughter Rainn while she was in the womb. His animal aspectgives him super alien strength, speed, reflexes, agility the lot. He is equallydangerous on all fours as he is graceful but there are times when he is more bestialable to crush the bones of his kinsmen. All his senses are enhanced to a hundredtimes that of others of his Race. In addition, he’s developed an accelerated healing
  • 38. factor that allows him to repair mild to moderate injuries within the span of a fewhours. , making him more indestructible than any other of his blood..Catherine’s soul is in complete torture (over her love for Raven) as she loves hersister more than life itself but their union is forbidden and the ripples of its effectswould spread quickly among the solar system causing unpredictableenvironmental reactions which could easily cause a planet to die. This occurredwhen they first formed as one being eons ago; Earth began to quickly coolcausing a worldwide freeze to occur, causing all life to be in frozen animation forhundreds of years. They realized their love was wrong and went their ownseparate ways. However, one night of carnal desire created the one and onlyRainn. The person who will save them all from this end of world battle which isto come!.Larik is my brother, and the male aspect of Raven. He maybe the original BadBoy but Anakletos is the original male Bitch. He may be a second copy of TheOmega, their father but Anakletos is more of his father’s son then his brotherLarik and he’ll stop at nothing to prove this. He processes the same anger filledblack heart of his father. He may have been created from an incestuousrelationship but he is still a strong part of their father and no one can deny that heis his son..When the Civil War does break out among his people, Anakletos must assume aneutral stance in it all. However, he might secretly violate this stance so he canprovide his people with advice on how to fight without fighting himself. Despitehis personal feelings about the cause for this war, he will enlist his services totrain Anna’s many minions, to assist them in the training to fight The Omega.This war is the final one.My Alien Mutation5/25/09 ~It is possible that my mutation is a result of geneticatavism. However, as I also possesses neotenous characteristics, which may explain whyI have super genius intellect despite my animal physique.I am excellent in hand-to-hand combatant; employing a unique style of acrobatic combat,from combat training I received by Rainn.This mutation gives me superhuman strength, speed, reflexes, agility, flexibility,dexterity, coordination, balance, and endurance. I have equally dexterous in all fourlimbs; able to perform tasks with my feet or hands with equal ease. Because of my talentsand training, I can outperform any Olympic-level athlete, contorting my body andperforming aerial feats gracefully easy.I have claw-like nails and fang-like teeth, and my overall appearance becomes morebestial. With this physique, I use my claws to climb vertical surfaces .I gained the abilityto emit mood altering pheromones, causing sexual attraction in women, and I becomestrong enough to withstand falls that would crush the bones of a normal human. I
  • 39. developed extremely powerful limbs, allowing me to make astounding leaps and to run atgreat speeds for a short duration.MY strength, speed, stamina, sturdiness, and senses increase further with this change. Igained cat-like agility, flexibility, coordination, and balance, and all my senses areenhanced to twenty times that of a normal human being. In addition, I developed anaccelerated healing factor that allows me to repair mild to moderate injuries within thespan of a few hours. I also no longer need full sleep.THE LEGEND OF THE BLIND DRAGON5/20/09 The world is darkness, butthere is Fire... and Shadow, to illuminate the path...There are many legends, shrouded intime and shadow, about a winged creature, of life and fire, dying in flames, rising fromdeath. From the ashes of its former life. Again and again, unending to the end of time andbeyond. It’s the myth of each and every human, of humanity itself, defying the life that isdeath, the death that moves and breathes. We are Phoenix, the incarnation of life and fire.We always have been and always will be, reborn from the ashes. The Phoenix will flap itswings and leave the green rainbow earth in its wake...Lilys Birth5/20/09Raven had used an ancient spell to create a glamour that would shield her relationshipwith Anakletos and in this spell she conjured up Lily. A sensual, seductive bronze andcopper colored demon who invented sex, lust, desire with the ability to sate even theinsatiable, she’s a deadly foe. This demon and her carnal appetite for Anakletos willsurprise even him it was the power of their love that Raven used for the basis ofconjuring Lily and for now he will be the only person who can invoke her. She is Ravensunbridled ID and is ruthless to the core. Highly volatile but Raven felt it was a risk worthtaking. When the kindred embrace with Anakletos was coming to an end Lily slid out ofRavens vagina like a liquid unformed puddle that soon took on a shocking new formAnakletos5/20/09 Anakletos was a troubled soul but hide it well from everyone whowas close to him. He knew nothing really of his birth. How he became to be this LifeForm. He knew he was nothing but dust and then he was man! He knew his Sister Annawas of the same Dust as he. They had no childhood as they were never children. It was asif they had bypassed this and just became adults, knowing all that you would know whenyou became of this age. He knew much on how his parents fell in love but knew nothingreally of them. He knew that they were different but also the same like he and Anna.He soon fall for an other of his kind, his sister Raven, which was not against any law intheir world but it was their parent who did not agree it was best for them. They did notlisten and fused as one, mixing their essence , forever connected but it was not to be andshe so went knowing that what they had shared was more special that the creation ofearth. She soon became involved with an other brother Larik and bore him a child, theynamed her Rainn. Anakletos became heartbroken by this and knew it was time to lie. Hewas not willing to live this life anymore and left to lie in the dunes of earth.
  • 40. More to come. Anna Medusa Lee~ I am not of the same species as my other siblings but of a subclass of my fathertrue image. One day, when my mother revolted over the matter of the humans,my Father ordered I be created to serve his need for other beings to roam theearth surface; those who would rule the seas and skies, as humans would rulethe land. As I produced unknown devil creatures upon the earth for my father Ifelt my mother’s divine spirit consumed my flesh. She had set the seed withinme to produce beings that were caught in between my father and motherscreations; they became known as fairies and werewolves. I give birth to mysemi-brothers and sisters souls. They are of me and of The Alpha and theOmega. So are half bloods but are not fully divine like my siblings and parents.~TaglineThe Mother of All that is evilMe, Myself, and IAnna Medusa Lee is seen as the mother of all demonic creatures. She was notalways as vile as she’s become to be known she’d rather be the person she wasbefore her true origins were known. A being completely damaged beyond repair itwas through the love of Larik she remembered the being she was, a loving, joyouscreature he brings out the best in her though the beast is still writhing within herand can be called into action with or without her permission. Larik helped her torediscover the lighter loving side of her and she is deeply in love with him. To
  • 41. most she hides the demon living inside her by wearing many masks but theimpending war is tearing her asunder…all she wants is to be with Larik. HerMedusa personality is very well hidden for the most part though it was rudelyawaken by an exorcist from Anakletos to rid himself of Anna this killed her shellin the process but she was re-animated by Larik’s tears and words..Anna was once a beautiful woman, the original ginger haired siren but when herire was challenged or fear beset her it turned into a twisting nest of snakes that shecould not control while rapt with rage inflicting wounds that were jagged andfilled with worms that ate them alive and is rumored that any mortal stupid orunlucky enough to look at her would instantly be turned into stone whilescreaming in agony. The ability to heal also resided within her but it sounded likea distant echo until Larik entered her life filling her heart with true love for thefirst time.The Other Half Of MeLarik Keeper Of The BookOfthedeadLilith: Our Mother5/23/09 The Alien Woman is Lilith, and she is thesweetness of sin and the evil tongue. And from the lips of the Alien Woman honeyflows. And although the Impure Female has no hands and feet for copulation, forthe feet of the serpent were cut off, nevertheless the Female in her adornmentslooks as if she had hands and feet. And it is the mystery of her adornments thatshe can seduce men.... And she leaves the husband of her youth [Samael] anddescends and fornicates with men who sleep below in the impurity of spontaneousemission, and from them is born demons and spirits and Lilin, and they are calledthe Sons of Man.And behold, the harsh husk, that is Lilith, is always in the sheet of the bed of aman and a woman who copulate, in order to take the sparks of the drops of seedwhich go waste, because it cannot be without this, and she creates from themdemons, spirits and Lilin. And there is an incantation to drive away Lilith fromthe bed and to bring forth holy souls, which is mentioned in the holy Zohar.{{Samael resembles the form of Adam and Lilith the form of Eve. Both were bornin an androgynous form, corresponding to the form of Adam and Eve: below andabove, two twin forms. And Samael and Grandmother Eve [i.e., Lilith], who is theNortherner, are emanations from beneath the Throne of Glory. And the sin [ofAdam] caused this evil}}In answer to your question concerning Lilith, I shall explain to you the essence of
  • 42. the matter. Concerning this point there is a received tradition from the ancientSages who made use of the Secret Knowledge of the Lesser Palaces, which is themanipulation of demons and a ladder by which one ascends to the propheticlevels. In this tradition it is made clear that Samael and Lilith were born as one,similar to the form of Adam and Eve who was also born as one, reflecting what isabove. This is the account of Lilith which was received by the Sages in the SecretKnowledge of the Palaces. The Matron Lilith is the mate of Samael. Both of themwere born at the same hour in the image of Adam and Eve, intertwined in eachother. Asmodeus the great king of the demons has as a mate the lesser (younger)Lilith, daughter of the king whose name is Qafsefoni. The name of his mate isMehetabel daughter of Matred, and their daughter is Lilith.The Coming of Medusa into this realm5/20/09 ~ Anna eyes turned fromred to hallow white as she began to change into the beast she had denied herselfall these centuries.Her beautiful maiden hair was her chief glory soon turned into hissing serpents.Her wide unblinking eyes that reflect her immense wisdom of all things becameblack as coal. Theses all knew eyes, all seeing eyes that could see through Larik,penetrating his illusions and looking into the abyss of truth of his beast withinhim/Her mouth was deathly; it looks like a skull. It could devour of any beast. Hertongue protrudes like a snakes and her face was surrounded by a halo of spiraling,serpentine hair symbolize her wisdom. She was now the goddess of wild beastsand fertility of nature. She was the guardian of the thresholds and mediatrixbetween all realms.So She stood there a front of Larik naked ,a cruel monster of so frightening anaspect that no living mortal could behold her without being turned into stone.~"Larik call me Medusa!"The story of Medusa that Mortals told it consists of both facts and Lies.You decide the truth!5/18/09 Once upon a time, there lived a Gorgon, and shewas the meanest, ugliest creature that ever lived, or so I am told, though I havenever met her, so it might just be hearsay. The Gorgon lived all alone in a ruinedtemple by the sea. No one ever visited the Gorgon, for with but a glance, theGorgon could turn any creature into stone. Her hair was a writhing mass ofsnakes, and her body that of a woman, but her torso ended in a serpentine coil ofgolden scales. Two great feathery wings protruded from her back, like agryphons, but these lovely appendages only rendered the rest of this monstermore grotesque in appearance. Now, I can’t imagine who it was who broughtback such a vivid account of this fell creature, for as far as I know for certain,none have ever returned from the Gorgon’s lair. But this is what I have heard of
  • 43. her.One day, there was a youth named Darius, who, sailing to Carthage, was caughtup in a terrible storm. Darius? Ship when he reached the top, Darius stopped amoment to look back down the height he had climbed, and he silently thanked thegods that he had reached the top alive. He took a moment to enjoy the refreshingwind cooling him. Then he sat down for a minute on the edge of the cliff to resthis aching joints. The sand on his legs was itchy and uncomfortable, but Dariuswas pleasantly occupied by the sight of the little glade of trees on the top of thecliff. Then, he noticed a marble statue in the sun, nestled among a grove of oakaway on his right, and he got up to investigate it.When he reached the top, Darius stopped a moment to look back down the heighthe had climbed, and he silently thanked the gods that he had reached the topalive. He took a moment to enjoy the refreshing wind cooling him. Then he satdown for a minute on the edge of the cliff to rest his aching joints. The sand onhis legs was itchy and uncomfortable, but Darius was pleasantly occupied by thesight of the little glade of trees on the top of the cliff. Then, he noticed a marblestatue in the sun, nestled among a grove of oak away on his right, and he got upto investigate it.The statue was of a rough marble and the figure rather gross. Who would go tosuch lengths to carve a disgusting figure? He wondered. And, just as he waswondering this, Darius spied another marble statue sitting in the open about tenpaces away; only this statue was carved out of a nearly perfect block of marble.Darius headed towards it, and came upon the likeness of a handsome youth,almost an Adonis or Narcissus. Strangely, though, the marble of his eyes wasblack and the expression on his handsome face, with the corners of his mouthturned down in disdain, and rendered the handsome countenance hideous uponcloser inspection.Darius stepped away from the statue and headed into the ruined temple to lookfor someone to aid him on his journey home. He looked around in the darkchambers, but found only more marble statues, some short and squat figures,others tall and fair, others caught in the act of running. The expressions on thestatues were invariably gruesome. Then, all at once, Darius spied a muralpainted on a wall up ahead, illuminated by a shaft of sunlight that had penetratedthe gloomy chamber through a crack in the ceiling above. Darius approached thepainting, picking his way through several statues lying down just before it.The painting showed a young Greek woman in white linen. Darius stopped tostare at her, for she was one of the most beautiful women he had ever seen. Herhair was a glossy back, her arms white and graceful like a swan’s. But her fullruby-red lips did not smile.All at once there was a terrible hissing sound in the chamber, and Darius spun
  • 44. around to his right. There, standing not three paces from him was the mosthideous monster Darius had ever seen. The only monster Darius had ever seen, infact, but you get the point. This was the Gorgon, and she was ug-ly.Well, Darius was afraid, but he didn’t move or attempt to flee. The Gorgon’smass of snake hair writhed ominously, and her unblinking peregrine eyesgleamed at him fiercely. At any moment, her stare threatened to petrify him.? Ah, please excuse my intrusion, Darius croaked, attempting to smile. My nameis Darius, and I have been stranded on your island. I seek food and shelter, andaid to return to my native land of Greece. Though I have nothing to give you inreturn, save only my friendship and gratitude.The Gorgon gave Darius a crushing stare, but not enough to turn him into stone.The snakes stopped writhing; Medusa was stupefied. No one had ever dared tospeak to her in more than a hundred years.You know who I am?? The Gorgon hissed in fury; her voice was the voice of ashrill harpy, but Darius tried not to cringe, and nodded his head amiably.Are you Medusa, the Gorgon??The Gorgon did not reply. If you have come for my golden scales, you will die,young Darius. And with that, her snake coiffure began to writhe once more.I have no need of gold, said Darius. I have no ship to take it back with me.?The Gorgon hesitated a moment, thinking this over.You did not come to hurt me, then??I come unarmed.You did not come to steal my painting???No, though I will not forget it, so I do take the image away with me. Alas that abrief look is all I will ever have! Who is she???She was lovely, was she not?? The Gorgon laughed darkly. Her name wasMelantha, daughter of Phorcys, son of the sea and the Earth. But her mother wasthe daughter of a Greek fisherman.Melantha like the dark violet lilies that grow along the shore?Yes, said the Gorgon, looking closely at Darius, who tried very hard not to flinch.
  • 45. Darius looked back at the painting. Yes, she is lovely. He agreed, shaking hishead.Ah-hah!? Exclaimed the Gorgon, preparing to turn him to stone. You are like allthe others you do not see her ugliness!?She is lovely, Darius said quickly, but her eyes are sad. They would be beautiful ifshe saw beauty in the world again.The Gorgon stopped cold and suddenly began to weep. Darius felt his skin crawl,as the great hideous monster was reduced to tears. Giant green tears that oozedout of blackened eyes and dripped to the floor. Where they fell, the stonedissolved away, leaving small craters.Have I offended you, friend Medusa cried Darius, pitying the poor creature inspite of her ugliness.No, replied the Gorgon, coming to herself.Might I ask what happened to her? Asked Darius.The Gorgon laughed. Because you are honest and bold, Darius, I will tell you. Orperhaps because I am bored and because I am weary, and have had no companyin many long years. Melantha was admired by many young men, because she wasbeautiful. Princes and peasants alike sought her and desired her because she wasgood and kind, noble in spirit, sweeter than honey, and as tender-hearted as aflower. But, you see, she was also poor, and had no dowry?Riches are valued over virtues far too often, said Darius. But surely one princeamong men would have seen her worth??Not enough to marry her.? Said the Gorgon. Melantha journeyed to the city andmade her living spinning and weaving tapestries, and her life was hard Veryhard, for although her tapestries were beautiful, well-crafted, and the patternscomplex, very few people came to admire them, and soon she was forced to stopspinning. And this broke her heart, for spinning and weaving tapestries was theone thing that had given her joy since her childhood. She loved to create and tobring beauty into the world through honest toil. And she had once hoped hercreations might stir beauty in the hearts of others. But in the end she was wastingher time.Had she no friends to buy her tapestries?? Darius asked.Very few, replied the Gorgon. ?For women shunned her, condemning her as atemptress, and the men who came to her shop only came to steal a look at her. Afew who had money offered to buy her shop and all of the tapestries in exchange
  • 46. for her love.That is a sad thing. But perhaps she would have been wise to accept any offerrather than starve.Perhaps, but you see Melantha had already given her heart away.Where was her love, then???She did not know. For the one she loved had left her to seek his fortune.Nevertheless, she had sworn to be true, and not to love again. So, she looked forwork in town, and accepted any task that came along. And all the while, mencame from far and wide to look at her, until one young man painted her likenessand gave it to her as a gift. Touched by his kindness, she gave him one of hermost precious tapestries in return, but he kept it rolled up in the corner of hisshop. Then, many terrible things happened to Melantha, until her heart becameheavy with grief and bitterness, and she no longer saw much beauty in the world.She began to look upon her old, lovely tapestries, and to feel a deep anger anddespair. Then one day her love returned.So at last he returned to claim her?? Asked Darius hopefully.No? Replied the Gorgon. He passed by her without saying a word. For he hadheard by then that she was an evil creature, angry, twisted, ugly, and bitter. Andbecause he believed she was a monster, he came to despise her. Nevertheless,Melantha did a foolish thing and ran after him.And did she find him???She did. But he denied ever knowing her. And from that moment on, Melanthagave up hope of ever finding beauty again in the world, for there was no longerany beauty left in her heart. She cried out for her immortal sisters, daughters ofPhorcys, the Gorgons, to come to her aid. And she asked them, for they had thepowers of the immortal gods, to strip away her humanity that had given her suchgrief. So they transformed her into a Gorgon, and her alluring hair becameinstead a mass of venomous snakes, and her eyes turned black.And thereafter she was called Medusa, said Darius.Yes, admitted the Gorgon. And none came after her again out of desire for herlove, for her body had become a serpentine coil of gold. But all those who havecome to steal the Medusas gold have paid a terrible price.That is one of the saddest tales I have ever heard, said Darius.Is it? Even so, I think it is not so unusual, said the Gorgon. Medusa is the ugliness
  • 47. Melantha bore inside all those years. Now, young Darius, if you wish to leave thisplace alive, I believe there is a ship on the southern end of the island.I thank you, friend Medusa, but is there nothing I can do for you in return??Darius asked, glancing back at the lovely image of Melantha. Is there any hope ofrestoring you to your former selfNo, it is too late for me, laughed the Gorgon. Melantha cannot go with you. Whatonce is done cannot be undone. Now go, and be thankful to leave this island withyour life, friend Darius.So, Darius left the temple and found the boat on the southern end of the island.And, when he returned to Greece, he thanked the gods that he had been born aman.I can only assume Darius told everyone about the three Gorgons the next time hedrank too much wine at the local tavern. But as I said before, I don’t really knowfor certain.Anna is dead as Medusa reforms again in this realm by Lariks deadlyseed5/18/09A beautiful woman who had her hair turn to a nest of twisting snakes because sherivaled the goddess Raven in beauty. The others said that medusa has the abilityto cause horrible wounds by looking upon a man. These will appear as gashes,but will putrefy and fill with worms." It was said that any man who looked atMedusa would be turned to stone.Medusa once was of the sea. She was then totally insubstantial and melts into herown plane when she attempted to leave she did out of Love. She once guide shipsthrough any waters (even in the absence of sun and stars) and has always do sothis at the summoners request.The medusa was an ugly creature. The Medusa was the daughter of Lilith andSamuel, the children of Gaia (Earth) and Okeanos (Ocean). She was one of thethree sisters known as the Gorgons. The other two sisters were Sthenno andEuryale. Medusa was the only one seen out of the three. She was once verybeautiful and lived far in the north were the sun didnt visit. Being very curious,she wanted to see the sun, and asked her mother Lilith for permission to visit thesouth. She refused to allow her to visit. The medusa got angry and dared to saythat Lilith hadnt given her permission because she was jealous of her beauty.That was it! Lilith was angered and punished her by turning her hair into snakesand cursing her by making her so ugly that who ever looks at her eyes would turninto stone.But Medusa could not be here forever and when Samuel wanted a vessel to spinhis seed he made her as Anna, who beauty was simple but she if she would mate
  • 48. with another, her Medusa form would return to cause unbelievable chaos amongman..............Anna is dead as Medusa reforms again in this realm by Lariks True Lovefor Anna.5/18/09 A beautiful woman who had her hair turn to a nest of twistingsnakes because she rivaled the goddess Raven in beauty. The others said thatmedusa has the ability to cause horrible wounds by looking upon a man. Thesewill appear as gashes, but will putrefy and fill with worms." It was said that anyman who looked at Medusa would be turned to stone.Medusa once was of the sea. She was then totally insubstantial and melts into herown plane when she attempted to leave she did out of Love. She once guide shipsthrough any waters (even in the absence of sun and stars) and has always do sothis at the summoners request. The medusa was an ugly creature. The Medusawas the daughter of Lilith and Samuel, the children of Gaia (Earth) and Okeanos(Ocean). She was one of the three sisters known as the Gorgons. The other twosisters were Sthenno and Euryale. Medusa was the only one seen out of the three.She was once very beautiful and lived far in the north were the sun didnt visit.Being very curious, she wanted to see the sun, and asked her mother Lilith forpermission to visit the south. She refused to allow her to visit. The medusa gotangry and dared to say that Lilith hadnt given her permission because she wasjealous of her beauty. That was it! Lilith was angered and punished her byturning her hair into snakes and cursing her by making her so ugly that who everlooks at her eyes would turn into stone.But Medusa could not be here forever and when Samuel wanted a vessel to spinhis seed he made her as Anna, who beauty was simple but she if she would matewith another, her Medusa form would return to cause unbelievable chaos amongman.Anakletos5/12/09Anakletos was a troubled soul but hide it well from everyone who was close to him. Heknew nothing really of his birth. How he became to be this Life Form. He knew he wasnothing but dust and then he was man! He knew his Sister Anna was of the same Dust ashe. They had no childhood as they were never children. It was as if they had bypassedthis and just became adults, knowing all that you would know when you became of thisage. He knew much on how his parents fell in love but knew nothing really of them. Heknew that they were different but also the same like he and Anna.He soon fall for an other of his kind, his sister Raven, which was not against any law intheir world but it was their parent who did not agree it was best for them. They did notlisten and fused as one, mixing their essence , forever connected but it was not to be andshe so went knowing that what they had shared was more special that the creation ofearth. She soon became involved with another brother Larik and bore him a child, they
  • 49. named her Rainn. Anakletos became heartbroken by this and knew it was time to lie. Hewas not willing to live this life anymore and left to lie in the dunes of earth.Lilys Birth!5/8/09 Raven had used an ancient spell to create a glamour that wouldshield her relationship with Anakletos and in this spell she conjured up Lily. A sensual,seductive bronze and copper colored demon who invented sex, lust, desire with theability to sate even the insatiable. This demon and her carnal appetite for Anakletos willsurprise even him it was the power of their love that Raven used for the basis ofconjuring Lily and for now he will be the only person who can invoke her. She is Ravensunbridled ID and is ruthless to the core. Highly volatile but Raven felt it was a risk worthtaking. When the kindred embrace with Anakletos was coming to an end Lily slid out ofRavens vagina like a liquid unformed puddle that soon took on a shocking new formMore to come.. Anna 5/5/09 You all know by now that Anakletos is a total hard ass,So What is Anna like?She is nothing like Anakletos. She is Gentle, Kind Hearted, Sweet, Good Natured, andrespectful to all. She has never raised her temper or showed any anger. She is totallysubmissive to both of her Parents. She has NEVER stood up to them even when theyPlaced Anakletos in her old Body. Anakletos believes she is a freak towards heremotions. He believes all beings have anger within their heart. It is all part of us, andthere is no way Anna is the exception to the ruleAnna is also too trusting of others. She has now fallen for Lariks sweet charm. Shebelieves his reputation as womanizer is unfounded. She only sees his love and devotionto her well being. She believes he is not like his other brothers. He is not his fathers son.Anakletos may have bed his brothers wife but he has no ides what Larik has been up towith his female aspect. They may be of two beings but still share one blood. So asAnakletos fucks his countess. Larik is about to even the score by removing Annas mostprecious assets now her virginity.This is what makes her different from her kin.Anakletos Need for Annie goes deeper than she can ever understand!5/5/09Annie let me violate you, you let me desecrate youAnnie let me penetrate you, you let me complicate youHelp me I broke apart my insides, help me I’ve got noSoul to tellHelp me the only thing that works for me, help me getAway from myselfI want to f**k you like an animalI want to feel you from the insideI want to f**k you like an animal
  • 50. My whole existence is flawedYou get me closer to godYou can have my isolation, you can have the hate thatIt bringsYou can have my absence of faith, you can have myEverythingHelp me tear down my reason, help me its your sex ICan smellHelp me you make me perfect, help me become somebodyElseI want to f**k you like an animalI want to feel you from the insideI want to f**k you like an animalMy whole existence is flawedYou get me closer to godThrough every forest, above the treesWithin my stomach, scraped off my kneesI drink the honey inside your hiveYou are the reason I stay aliveThe moment he got his revenge on Larik5/4/09 ~He was not in no mood to talk ofhis pain. Larik words had cause most deep feelings which he had buried deep within hisheart. He wanted a good old Blow job to get his mind of it. He did not care for the part ofyou which was still Anne~"No I do not wish to speak of it"~as he knew you had read his mind~"YOU KNOW WHAT I WANT!!""I knew you wanted it too. Oh deeper, deeper!"~He twisted with an uncontrollable urge to have you but waited as He wanted you gethim ready for what he had plan for your body. ~"My Darling let me take you to a special place!"~He lifted you up on to your feet and transport them to place you had never seen before.It was his home, far away from earth. It was the centre of the Milky Way. You were
  • 51. wondering why he had brought you here but you knew it was for a reason~"I like to have you here above our city, with all our people watching"~There was a reason for this but he was not going to tell what it was. He buried thisthough deep within his mind and kisses you as he removed the glass room. The cloudsbegan to pour. He wishes to make love in the rain for all to see. The rain was not likeearth rain it was more sensual to the touch. He kisses you hard on your now wet lips~~ Anakletos wanted our love making to be known to all that habit this world. He growledknowing it would call someone who needed to see us most of all. He bites your lip as youtighten your legs around him. He then with out single thought flew our clothes to thefloor as we stood in full nakedness~~He sees you lend back, exposing your large supple breasts. He pulls your hair so thatyou are more bending over as he can kiss every inch of your wet skin. The rain poursdown them as he slowly enters you with his semi-hard cock. He wants to take it slowly ashe wishes for the crowd below to pass the word that they were here~"Countess!"~He knows that the person who he wishes to come the most was near so as he waits forthem to come he transforms from his human flesh to his beast, howling to the two moonsabove. He was now going to have you as he had wanted you that first night~~This was what he had wanted. Your vampire aspect. He wanted all traces of Anne goneso you could truly becoming his Countess. He lay there smirking as you rode hard andharder, moaning as you came closer to the tingle of pleasure. This was truly a hells dish.The forbidding fruit was now all his. No longer could he say you were his.............wife.He let this thought slip as he saw his brother push through the crowd below. He growledknowing he had got his revenge on Larik~~He thought to himself , hiding theses current thoughts from you once more .{{ Larikcame closer to the front of the crowd with the most extreme hatred in his blood filledeyes}} That yes you were no long his but mine. He could feel you dripping as youscream to the rain clouds above "YESSSSSSSSSSSSS". He had made you had the mostextreme orgasm, that nor semi-demon could feel without the help of his fold. He had alsogot Larik’s full attention that he meant what he had said many centuries ago.
  • 52. The beginning of Anakletos and his conflict with Larik!!5/4/09Anakletos and Larik always shared a hatred for each other but it wasnt till Larikdestroyed his happiness that he formed a complete hatred towards him.Million years ago when humans were discovering many new skills, Anakletos came upona mortal woman who he soon fall in love with. He knew that to feel total happiness withher he had to become flesh. So he sought out his father and asked to be made man. Hegranted this request under one condition that he would not ask to be a deity again.Anakletos knew he that he would NEVER return to this life and left knowing he woulddie in his lover’s hands when his time came.Larik saw how happy his brother was as man. He hated that his father favored Anakletosso much that he granted such a request. He enemy him so much. He watches on asAnakletos married and fathered many children. Larik became more jealous and so heconfronts his father who wishes not to see him on such a matter. So with anger in hisheart left his father and confront his fathers favorite son. He soon found him in hissimple cave home. They fought and soon it became an out right war. But as they foughtAnakletos beloved wife was thrown to the floor and died. Anakletos went to her and criedwith such deep pain, cursing Larik.Larik left happy that he had destroyed his brothers mortal happiness but as he leftAnakletos become so in rage in what Larik had done and left seeking the help of hismother. His mother knew of his promise to his father but still granted his wish andreturns him to their fold.Anakletos left and found his brother on the home planet enjoying what he had done.Lariks aim was to return him to what he truly was and was not sorry for killing meremortal women. But as they fought ready to fight to the death. Their father appeared andremoved Anakletos for betraying his wishes and placed him in the body of his sister. Hewas to observe and feel the pain of creating mere demons but Anakletos knew one day hewould be free to act his revenge on his beloved brother.Only one could stop him form killing Larik and that was his beloved niece Rainn as sheso reminded him of his dear mortal wife. She had the beauty of her as well as the her pureloveAnna State in Body and Soul4/26/09Anna has been attacked by a wild beast known as Larik who has caused both herforms to fall into a deep sleep. He has inflected a deep wound on her head, causingbrain matter to leak from it. It is mixed with Green and Red Blood as these are theliquids that flow within her forms. He had cause this wound on Anakletos in hiswerewolf state but as he changes from Anakletos to Anna. She too is in deepslumber. Dreaming of Satan and of God and her beginnings as this double creator.
  • 53. The reason for it all.Larik has bought her to a room within Catherines and Ravens home , a safe placeto protect them from all the evil that occurs outside but there seem to a event in themaking. What will be her part in it as it seems her male aspect has changed andseem to have developed a connection with Lariks Beast. Is Larik now in control ofAnakletos or does Anna still having a hold on the male form.I bring both Good and Evil into this World!4/24/09 As I have said before I am ofno gender but I take the form of both sexes. How you ask? Well as human I might seemfemale but I am not. I am free of all sex features but to please the Humans I seem to befemale. But as a fairy I am female and when I turn from Good to Evil into my beast. I ammale. I feed of males mostly. As I feel they are the more violent sex.I can not reproduce as human does but when the skies and other forest creatures screamcause of the death of a fairys home by human’s contraction of their new homes, I seem tobecome with "Child" but I will be carry the many even hundreds at a time. I will not belooking after them as babies as they will be fully grown ready to join the other fairies ofthis world BUT if the beasts of this world has reason to fear man I might be carry thenext litter of wolves who will become werewolf at the next full moon. These beings seemto call for MY WOMB!I don’t understand this mess I seem to be part of but it seems both God and the Devilhave no objection to my part in the circle of Good and Evil!It must stop but for now I must partake in this! Maybe when the WAR is over I can befree of this curse!Oh Lord I am Lost !4/24/09 Anna has been away from heaven for too long. Sheknows she has changed be on what the Lord cast away at the dawn of time. Her animalwithin as been released not by the Full Moon But by Larik. Who seems to want all butRaven to be like him. To shed there human form and be animal forever. He seems to theroot of all that is evil now. Since her life has been turn up side down she seems to becalling her maker to save her. Will he get involved or will he wait and see what darkevents will happen. Does he care at all for his children below!Wait, Im wrongShould have done better than thisPlease, Ill be strongIm finding it hard to resistSo show me what Im looking forSave me, Im lostOh lord, Ive been waiting for youIll pay any cost
  • 54. Save me from being confusedShow me what Im looking forShow me what Im looking for oh lordDont let goIve wanted this far too longMistakes become regretsIve learned to love abusePlease show me what Im looking forSave me, Im lostOh lord, Ive been waiting for youIll pay any costSave me from being confusedShow me what Im looking forShow me what Im looking for lordShow me what Im looking forShow me what Im looking forShow me what Im looking forSave me, Im lostOh lord, Ive been waiting for youIll pay any costJust save me from being confusedWait, Im wrongI cant do better than thisIll pay any costSave me from being confusedShow me what Im looking forShow me what Im looking forShow me what Im looking forShow me what Im looking for lordhelp me!! The Cries of a beast4/22/09I hear the cries of a being called Larik who wishes to explore his dark side. I am of goodand evil. I know the fight within him and I have come to discover it with him without himlosing his soul. I see he has many friends and does not wish them harm but the pain!There are creatures like him who come from unknown origins and fight their true callingeveryday. I am one of these so called creatures. I am a cast out angel of heaven, a fairy asthe human say, who process a beast within. He is most evil. He is the origin of animals,he is the Werewolf
  • 55. Anne’s character new development. Please Comment4/21/09 DeadI am dead but a subclass of the dead. One day, we angels revolted, God ordered the gatesshut; those still in heaven remained angels, and those in hell became devils, and thosecaught in-between became fairies. As I am. When we were thrown out of heaven we werenot good enough for heaven, but we were not truly evil enough for hell. We pay a tithe toHell. As a fallen angel, though not quite a devil, we could be seen as subject of the Devil.So one day I was made into a werewolf so that I can serve the devil of only for threenights of the months. I am a fairy who serves her master as a werewolf feeding off humansoulsDemon withinI am a Werewolf , also known as lycanthropes when the moon is high in the sky . I am amythological or folkloric Female with the ability to shape shift into a wolf oranthropomorphic wolf-like creature. I am a being who was bitten or scratched by anotherwerewolf somewhere in Tudor Times. I was not placed on a curse by the king after hesaw. My transformation is often associated with the appearance of the full moon, aspopularly noted by the medieval chronicler Gervase of Tilbury. I was granted extra-human strength and senses, far beyond those of both wolves and women. How to tell I ama werewolf: I am said to bear tell-tale traits which includes the meeting of both myeyebrows at the bridge of my nose, curved fingernails, low set ears and a swinging stride.One method of identifying me in human form is to cut my flesh, under the pretense thatyou would see my fur within the wound.A Fallen AngelBut one day I revolted against my master and became a warrior who goes down into hellto do battle with witches and demons. My efforts ensured that the Devil (former master)and his minions do not carry off the abundance of the earth down to hell. I am steadfast inthis mission, werewolves in Germany and Russia also do battle with the devils minionsin hell, and that when we die, and our souls are welcomed back into heaven as reward forour service. I was created a werewolf in England but fight with my fellow German folk.MottoGod send me well to keepHow I am calledwhen your baby laughed for the first time, its laugh broke into a thousand pieces, andthey all went skipping about, and that was the beginning of me your fairyWhy I comeI am prone to kidnapping humans, either as babies, leaving changelings in their place, oras young men and women. This can be for a time or forever, and may be more or lessdangerous to the kidnappedAnne first Demon Form4/21/09 I am a Werewolf, also known as lycanthropes . Iam a mythological or folkloric Female with the ability to shape shift into a wolf oranthropomorphic wolf-like creature. I am a being who was bitten or scratched by anotherwerewolf somewhere in Tudor Times. I was not placed on a curse by the king after he
  • 56. saw. My transformation is often associated with the appearance of the full moon, aspopularly noted by the medieval chronicler Gervase of Tilbury. I was granted extra-human strength and senses, far beyond those of both wolves and women. How to tell I ama werewolf: I am said to bear tell-tale traits which includes the meeting of both myeyebrows at the bridge of my nose, curved fingernails, low set ears and a swinging stride.One method of identifying me in human form is to cut my flesh, under the pretense thatyou would see my fur within the wound. Lily Mirabella Lee~ I am Lily Mirabella Lee created from the love juices of Ravenlily and Anakletosthough I am my own being. I made a deal with one of my grand parents TheAlpha and the Omega so that I would no longer be an aspect of Raven. I wasthere when the frogs guarding the box the held within it the Seven Deadly SinsGluttony, Vanity, Lust, Pride, Sloth, Envy and Wrath are my children. Hope is
  • 57. the only one to remain within the box so that there would be hope even in thebleakest of time. You may be wondering why entrust something as precious as abox that contained the Seven Deadly sins to frogs? Well back then humans werenot to be trusted not to look into the box and theyre still not to be trusted. Yetthey seek the unknown on the Internet which itself has become a living box(entity) flooded with the energies of those who use it...somethings are better leftalone and I am one of those things but alas. I have a job to do and do it I mustlet the games begin!!ALLABOUT LILY MIRABELLA LEE10/6/09Lily was conjured up during Raven and Anakletos inter-galactic mingling of theiressences and reunion after being kept apart from one another. As a punishmentfor being with a superior being (Raven) Anakletos is of their blood but thatwasnt the problem. The problem was that deep down her parents knew whatwould happen if they mated; a being more powerful then The Alpha and TheOmega combined was created her name is Rainn The Keeper of The Hourscontroller of the strands of life for all beings. Lily is just a glamour version anoptical illusion to shield her real identity she was their when the first orgasmsplit the cosmos and she was there when first blood of her kinsmen was spilledand is the reason that the Seven Deadly Sins had been locked away in a box.Raven brought Lily back into this realm to shield her reunion with Anakletosshe slid out from between Ravens legs when she orgasm with Anakletos. Sheknew that this was a dangerous ruse and it would take all that she had tocontrol Lily for the moment she is bound and can only appear in her true formto Anakletos. The form that Lily took was perfection molded with the earthytone of the Gods. A siren of silken mocha colored skin, dark penetrating eyes,the voice of a Seraphims and she is pure unadulterated ID whatever she desiresshe acquires and is literally the darkest aspect of Raven.The Seven Deadly Sins 10/6/09In the Book of The Dead, it is stated that "Chaos” specifically regards "six things manhated, and the seventh His soul detested." These sinfully acts are:Haughty eyesA lying tongue
  • 58. Hands that shed innocent bloodA heart that devises wicked plotsFeet that are swift to run into mischiefA deceitful witness that uttered liesHim that sowed discord among brethrenWhile there are seven of them, this list is considerably different from the one manhas come to know but these ancient words mean that man shall not commit orpartake in adultery, fornication, uncleanness, lasciviousness, idolatry, witchcraft,hatred, variance, emulations, wrath, strife, seditions, heresies, envying, murders,drunkenness, reviling, "and such like."Whats there to say?Well now whats there to say about me that hasnt already been pondered andwondered over since before mankind crawled out of the primordial ooze? Imevery desire, whim and wile you dream of. Im the deviant imp hidden underyour bed thinking of ways to exploit fantasies told only in whispers. Im deeplyembedded inside their cerebral cortex; my foot prints laid the blueprint fortheir DNA. They lust for things without knowing the full extent of their longingleaping with their hearts and souls for someone to truly understand them whenthe punch line to this sad little joke is are ALL connected to one another yet theychoose to dwell on subtle differences among them (race, religion, nationality etc)If they truly knew that we existed theyd attack first then cry about it latertherefore we live among the shadows of their world. When they see us they seewhat it is they desire most and are oh so willing to give anything for just a taste.I am the one responsible for the things that they do. Coveting whats not theirs.When that black light turns on in their minds inciting them to do thingscompletely against their nature its my voice that purrs them on. Yes they havefree will but dont use it very much. They are easily swayed and manipulated intheir quest for just a taste of the forbidden. If it were up to me Id destroy thelot of them but it’s not my bed to make. I’m just the laundry lady. Their aregreater beings then myself in charge of running this game. Im a strategicallyplaced knight. The time is approaching when Ill be called upon to guide theminto the light as it were.Ravenlily~I used to be an aspect of Ravenlily Goddess of Balance. She created me from anorgasm she had while making love with her brother Anakletos while in their purestate. This was forbidden and both were punished for it horrible ways. Raven lost
  • 59. her husband Juda and went into hyper-sleep bring give birth to her pure bloodchildren Thais and Samael who have been hidden away. She is good and loved mymany and I got tired of looking at the world through her eyes. It had to end and itdid because shes so sickly sweetAnakletos~My lover and a good man at heart who struggles with keeping his unsatedbeast tucked away in his trousers. Its his greatest flaw and one of hisgreatest assets. He was punished and banished to a realm of pure hell forsleeping with Raven and has recently discovered that his niece Rainn isactually his daughter and not his brother Larik as had been believed. Nowthat Im free I shall look him up because no one and I do mean NO ONEsatisfies him the way that I can and Ill use his weakness to gain what Iwant.~Bella and Rainn~Bella was the child of Raven and Larik she then divided giving birth toRainn her other aspect. Turns out that Catherine and Ninib The BlindDragon (her child hood pet) are her birth parents. Rainn is the daughter ofRaven and Anakletos her power are enormous her beauty is breath takingand she kicks major ass. The pair of them would be unstoppable if they everteamed up. They are the Yin and Yang for one another.~RavenLarik~Larik is my brother and hugely crafty and sexually irresistible. Hes shrewdsecretive and you never know where you stand with him on any given day.Beneath his beautiful human veneer lurks a primal beast that drives womencrazy. He used to be a true cocks man until meeting Anna. I’ve not seen himin a while and must by him an over due visit."I Was There When The First Orgasm Cut The Galaxy."ALLABOUT LILY MIRABELLA LEE5/29/09 ~Lily was conjured up duringRaven and Anakletos inter-galactic mingling of their essences and reunion afterbeing kept apart from one another. As a punishment for being with a superior being(Raven) Anakletos is of their blood but that wasnt the problem. The problem wasthat deep down her parents knew what would happen if they mated; a being morepowerful then The Alpha and The Omega combined was created her name is RainnThe Keeper of The Hours controller of the strands of life for all beings. Lily is just aglamour version an optical illusion to shield her real identity she was their when thefirst orgasm split the cosmos and she was there when first blood of her kinsmen wasspilled and is the reason that the Seven Deadly Sins had been locked away in a box.Raven brought Lily back into this realm to shield her reunion with Anakletos she slidout from between Ravens legs when she orgasm with Anakletos. She knew that thiswas a dangerous ruse and it would take all that she had to control Lily for themoment she is bound and can only appear in her true form to Anakletos. The formthat Lily took was perfection molded with the earthy tone of the Gods. A siren ofsilken mocha colored skin, dark penetrating eyes, the voice of a Seraphims and she
  • 60. is pure unadulterated ID whatever she desires she acquires and is literally thedarkest aspect of Raven. Serendipity Chiabella LeeAbout meI am a muse and my purpose is to inspire. I was the wife of Raphael the Archangelwho was Gabriels right hand and brother in arms. When the first war beganthose who did not choose sides and wanted to wait to see which side would winwere cast out and exiled from ever returning to our home planet and wereremoved from the presence of The Alpha. Those cast out where given dominionover the earth and everything that walked, crawled, slithered, flew or swam.They hated being here and hated the human species more thats when shedispatched me here to keep the humans safe from the dark side of our kindred.She is their champion and protector imbued with the powers of a god. Herpersonality is pleasant her beauty ethereal the reputation on the ethereal plainslegendary. There isnt much known about Serendipity but Im sure that well all
  • 61. find out in good time. Lilith is my best friend in the manner that a fool isconfidant to a King. She would confide in me things that even her husband atthe time The Morning Star. Shes lonely for the most part and has a quirkysense of humor that many often misunderstand for disinterest or apathy. Thisisnt true all of us are bound by laws even the more powerful are all heldaccountable. Lucifer is a big baby who always wanted his way regardless of theoutcome and he failed to see that this was a major turn off for The Alpha but hethought it was endearing. No woman wants a moaner or cry-baby that leans onher for everything they want someone to make them feel safe and loved and hefailed on all points which are one of the major reasons he got the boot and wascast out of the love and sight of The Alpha.I am a muse and my purpose is to inspire. I was the wife of Raphael the Archangelwho was Gabriels right hand and brother in arms. When the first war beganthose who did not choose sides and wanted to wait to see which side would winwere cast out and exiled from ever returning to our home planet and wereremoved from the presence of The Alpha. Those cast out where given dominionover the earth and everything that walked, crawled, slithered, flew or swam.They hated being here and hated the human species more thats when shedispatched me here to keep the humans safe from the dark side of our kindred.She is their champion and protector imbued with the powers of a god. Herpersonality is pleasant her beauty ethereal the reputation on the ethereal plainslegendary. There isnt much known about Serendipity but Im sure that well allfind out in good time. ~ ~Me, Myself, and II am a muse and my purpose is to inspire. I was once the wife of Ninib CastrataLee. When the first war began those who did not choose sides and wanted to waitto see which side would win were cast out and exiled from ever returning to ourhome planet and were removed from the presence of The Alpha. Those cast outwhere given dominion over the earth and everything that walked, crawled,slithered, flew or swam. They hated being here and hated the human species morethats when she dispatched me here to keep the humans safe from the dark side ofour kindred. I am their champion and protector imbued with the powers of a god.My personality is pleasant my beauty ethereal the reputation on the ethereal plainslegendary. There isnt much known about me but Im sure that you will all find outin good time.The Other Half Of MeLilith Alpha
  • 62. My Best Friend since the first breath of ManTHE ALPHAHer best friend in the manner that a fool is confidant to a King. She would confidein me things that even her husband at the time The Morning Star. Shes lonely forthe most part and has a quirky sense of humor that many often misunderstand fordisinterest or apathy. This isnt true all of us are bound by laws even the morepowerful are all held accountable.~THE OMEGAIll tell you all about him. He’s a big baby who always wanted his way regardlessof the outcome and he failed to see that this was a major turn off for The Alphabut he thought it was endearing. No woman wants a moaner or crybaby who leanson her for everything they want someone to make them feel safe and loved and hefailed on all points which is one of the major reasons he got the boot and was castout of the love and sight of The Alpha.~LILY OR LILLYShes a hell raiser that one but when the chips are down there isnt anyone otherthen The Alpha that Id want on my side. In the ethereal plains the pair of us wasdubbed "The Unholy Trinity" because she, I and The Alpha would always betogether. Lily doesnt really care how her name is spelled just that shes on the lipsor mind of others. She wild, cunning, wickedly funny and sex on legs. Give her achance shes not at all what you think.~ANNA/MEDUSALegend has it that she is the reason that Lily and I are in human form. Thats trueto a point but we are not the half bred spawn of Samael and Lilith we are here todo whatever is needed and here to guide Anna as well as others.~NINIB THE BLIND DRAGONHe was the dream that I placed in Bellas psyche while she was in the womb. Hewas created to be her ultimate champion and friend but hes been a bit busy in histime and is actually the biological father of Bella. He and I have shared manystolen moments together most of it getting in and out of trouble. It will be greatseeing him after all this time and to catch up on current eventsSERENDIPITY..THATS MY NAME DONT WEAR IT OUT5/30/09Once upon a time I was the wife of Raphael Gabriels right hand and most valued solider.We lived a splendid life on our home planet until he was irrevocably damaged duringthe first war that erupted in the ethereal plains. He was given the choice to sleep andrecover completely that was many moons ago. Though I was going to miss him Igave him my blessing because I knew that one day we would be together again.Much of my time has been spent as the best friend and confidant of The Alpha. I ama Muse and many things with far too many names to recite. She gave me this bodyand instructed me to be the buffer between our kinsmen and the humans. There hadbeen too much intermingling and it’s throwing off the balance of things. We are notprejudice we must stay with our own kind because the children from these unions areusually unstable and have a rough time adapting to who and what they are. That is
  • 63. the only reason it is forbidden. When my kinsmen and mortals see me the first thingthat strikes them are my looks. I have to say she gave me a very stunning vessel inwhich to do my job although most men notices my boobs first then awkwardlyglance upwards looking me in the eyes with a glint of embarrassment. I use all theaccouterments that come with having a form such as mine. One of my favorite thingsis to dance with my yellow Burmese python "Monty" I dont have to tell you howmuch fun it is seeing them sitting their drooling like pigs at a trough but I dontblame them really. Ours is a Matriarchy which means the female aspects are morepowerful then the male aspects but this does not mean that there is discord becauseof this instead we thrived until The Morning Star got a wild hair up his back side andtried to declare the throne for himself in his followers and you see where that gothim. My personality is upbeat and perky but dont let that fool you because I can turnon a dime if need be though I dont really like that side of me. So once again Im backin this conflict and there are much bigger stakes.The Muse I soon realized I could not be the grand controller of all the talents I hadplaced in man, so spilt into many divisions of the same person, so each couldrepresent the different aspects of the arts. So we all came to inspire all theartists, especially poets, philosophers, and musicians to create. So the Muses,therefore, are both the embodiments and sponsors of performed metricalspeech. Initially I was the embodiment of only three divisions but soon thatbecame nine. So my other aspects are as follows: Celia, Errata, Euterpa,Melpomena, Poyhymnia, Terpischora, Talia and Aurania. I maybe many but Iam still the one and only Serendipity. I am the only one still to arbitress in theargument over man between Lilith and Samael as Lilith is my best friend.A Muse~ A Muse serves as an aid to an author of prose, sometimes represented as the truespeaker, for whom an author is merely a mouthpiece. Originally, the invocation ofthe Muse was an indication that the speaker was working inside the poetic traditionset down by the higher species.Though the Muse, when more than one, form a complete picture of the subjectsproper to poetic art, every muse is association with specific art form but Serendipityis associated with all . The Muses are collections of Artist beings that Chaos createdto give Man insight in to her mind.So Serendipity is one of many of her kind, but as the first Muse created by Chaoshand is truly admired by Lilith (Chaos first born of the cosmic yoke, Lucifer beingthe second incarnation of her DNA). They are the best of friends .~
  • 64.  Ninib Castrata LeeI the Blind Dragon rides Lilith the Sinful -- may she be extirpated quickly in ourdays, Amen! And I The Blind Dragon brings about the union between Samaeland Lilith. And just as the Dragon that is in the sea I have no eyes, likewise IThe Blind Dragon that is above, in the likeness of a spiritual form, is withouteyes, that is to say, without colors.TaglineThe Merciful OneMe, Myself, and IHe emerged from the gooey yoke of the other hatched cosmic egg with his mateSerendipity; they were created together to complement the Alpha and the Omegaforeseen union. He implanted in them the skill to produce young while she gavethem knowledge to enjoy the pleasures of sexual intercourse. Though he issomewhat distant from his kin he was unable to maintain his essence for long inthis plain to know what is happening on earth. He wished to be reunited againwith his great love Serendipity but since a great battle is about to occur here inthis realm they will have to put their love for one another on hold. He is not a true
  • 65. warrior but will fight along with The Alpha so that The Omega will not bevictorious as he has no love for Mankind.I am the in-between of Lilith and Samuel, their tool for copulationMe, Myself, and I~The Blind Dragon is between Samael and the Evil Lilith. And he brings about aunion between them only in the hour of pestilence, the Merciful One save us! Andhe is castrated so that the eggs of the viper should not dome forth into the world.For were it not so, they would annihilate the world. And that kind which is calledLilith are full of hair from their heads down to their feet, but on their heads theyhave no hair and all their body and face is full of hair. And this Lilith has fourteenevil times and evil names and evil factions. And all are ordained to kill thechildren -- may we be savedThe Other Half Of MeBellaS RainnI shall protect her from all which is yet to come.Before the conflict he was utterly devoted to his darling Serendipity; he would doanything for her happiness. Her sweet smile completed him. We lived a completeand splendid life on our home planet until he was irrevocably damaged during thefirst war that erupted in the ethereal plains. Ninib was given the choice to sleep bychaos so he could recover completely from his intense injuries that occurredduring the last war. He didn’t want to leave her side but did so in the hope ofreturning to her once this was over. So as Serendipity carried on with her life withThe Alpha, he slept dreaming of the happy times that awaited them on their homeworld.When he woke eons later he was confronted by the amazing voice of Chaos, whowished him to guard her ancient secrets..All had been transcribed in to three volumes; The Book of The Dead, The Bookof Gates and the Book of Destiny these pages were scribed on the flesh of hispeople and written in their blood. It was his job to guard these manuscripts fromall who wish knows the secret they held. Unfortunately, he misplaced The Bookof The Dead while living among the ancient Egyptians. It was soon discovered byThe Alpha who hid them within the bowels of the forbidden region on their homeplanet. Now Larik processes this priceless book while Ninib still has the others.He shall never gain the valuable knowledge contained within these tomes becauseit could be the end of us all… NO ONE WOULD BE SAFE FROM FURY OFCHAOS..
  • 66. Ninib was made the keeper of the Tablets of Destiny by Chaos, a permanentcosmic legal document, which gives Chaos the supreme authority as ruler of theuniverse and all who contained her essence. It is said, whoever possessed it wouldhave the power to rule the universe, but he have no wish to be in control of thecosmos, all he wanted was to be left alone in his task of guarding it from all whowish to remove it from his possession. The only way is to remove it from him wasto slice him open like a melon and remove it from my inner deeper regions of hiscerebral cortex. The Book of the Dead holds the key to call it forth any person.Let Larik try to enchant this mystic spell as it will only invoke Chaos even moreto act..Ninib is also the keeper of the bloodline and of the source of keeping Lilith andSamael from having any more children together but he could not control theiramoebic divisions into different aspects of themselves. His symbol is that of theDragon, whose fiery breath purifies evil. He is as divine as are Lilith and Samael;Serendipity is his wife, a muse and The Alpha’s closest friend and confidant. Heholds The Book of Gates, another ancient sacred text created at the same time ofThe Book of The Dead. Larik seeks it but will never remove it from him as he isthe only one who can encode its true meaning. It narrates the passage of newlycreated souls into the next realm of reality. These subjects are required to passthrough a series of "gates" at different stages in the journey to completion ofexistence. Each gate is associated with a different “Level in Existence”, andrequires that the subject pass a test to prove they can move to a higher plain.Bella you live Still5/25/09 ~I just marvel at the fact that there are not many people who do not payattention nor do they seriously think or plan about death. Yet the fact is thatit is inevitable.Absolutely inevitable. We will die and we don’t know when. Death came intotheworld when Adam and Eve sinned. They died spiritually. They were dyingphysically afterthey sinned. And, of course, they also were dying eternally. But God rescuedthem frometernal death.So, I want us to think differently about it. If you’ve believed in Jesus Christas your Savior, the Scripture says that He came to destroy the works of thedevil? And catch this, now, to deliver those who through fear of death wereall their lifetime subject to bondage.But you know, when you stop to think of it, when the Israelites left Egypt,there wasnothing for them to fear in that Exodus, was there? Because they knew thatMoses would
  • 67. be with them, the Lord would be with them, and then, of course, eventuallythey came intothe land. They had some struggles along the way but they made it. I like tothink of Jesusas having crossed a river and He says now that He is on the other side; youcome becauseI have already crossed it and I will be there to meet you. Not only there tomeetyou, by the way, but with us on this side of the grave, too, to lead us all theway through."The Color Blind Dragon" A fictional Story5/21/09~...Long ago, there lived this dragon, and being the only dragon that he knewof, felt alone in the world and didnt think he belonged. He wanderedaimlessly for as long as he could remember not knowing of such a thing as ahome. He didnt know it himself, but he was color-blind. He saw things as healways had, with no color, and thinking it all the same, didn’t know anydifferent....The dragon decided one day he would find where the sun sleeps, in order tokeep himself warm at night. He walked west for the rest of the day butwasnt fast enough to catch up, so he slept in the woods that night. He awokemid-day to see the sun straight up, so he climbed the tallest tree in the forest,he thought maybe he could grab it and hold on till night, but he could notreach....About this time a hairy eyed little man came along and saw the dragon inthe tree. The man had lived in a village not far from there but was recentlybanished; in the dragon the man saw a chance to get revenge for his exile onthe village which drove him out....The little man let out a sound that was loud and wailing, yet somehowpleasant to the ear, and the dragon came down to greet the man and landedwith a thud. The man seemed wise beyond his years to the dragon, and saidhe could see beyond the sky and within the soul. He told the dragon he mustgo on a quest to find what he was looking for. The dragon said he waslooking for nothing but where the sun sleeps, so he might stay warm at night,but the man insisted he was looking for more, and would know once he foundit....So the man sent the dragon on a quest to the north, where the endlesspastures are home to the dark wild cows. He was to find the most beautifulthings of plenty and bring them back, but he was forbidden to eat thesethings he found....He arrived on the fourth morning to where the forest ends and the flowing
  • 68. grassy hills begin. The sun was rising and there were mushroomseverywhere. The dragon saw the beauty of them and realized these werewhat the man sent him for. He gathered for hours, filling sacks upon sacksuntil had fallen out from hunger and weakness. When he awoke it was night,and he was so hungry he decided to forget what the man had said and feastedon the mushrooms he picked that morning. The moon filled up a quarter ofthe sky and it seemed to breathe. The twinkling of the stars seemed tosomehow make a random unison of flashes and sparks in the night, and theclouds were rushing past in silent grace....The moon started talking to the dragon without words. It relayed amessage of everything that was good in the world and gave the gift of color tothe dragon in brilliant riddles and mystic scenes. He layer on his backunderstanding how he had came to be, understanding how he belonged in theworld, and then with the ever most breath taking transition, he sat there andwatched the sun rise as if for the first time, but now with the wondrouslymagical hues of reds and golds,blues and purple....The world was fresh and new, the hills took on new wonders with theirglorious greens and patches of brown earth, the sky with its ever so deepblue, the air tasted sweeter, the sun warmer then before, the dragon had anew found appreciation for simply being. He wanted to tell the world of thebeauty he had found. He wanted to shout it from the mountains and hear itcall back to him....There were the wild Billy goats grazing as well, but they didnt see whatwas so special about the color of the grass, for it had always been the same tothem, and the sky was no more blue then it ever was as far as they could tell....Then there were the proud horses with their manes that almost touch theground, they too didnt see what all the excitement was about, and wererather rude about hearing the dragon out about it....There was a family of woodchucks on the edge of the pasture that listenedwith eagerness to the dragon, but would soon after lose train of thought andforget what had been said the moment before....The dragon, almost discouraged, wondered why all the beauty in the worldwas taken for granted. He thought if only everyone were color-blind and thentalked to the moon like he had, they would understand, but there was noanswer to the riddle, no relief in the un-veiling of beauty, not as far as onecould share....Well, the dragon continued on much like he always had, but he was ever sochanged, washed with the deepest appreciation and admiration foreverything that existed, including oneself.
  • 69. ...He finally followed the sun to the sea where he saw it dive deep in the waterto sleep. There was no need to follow it there, for he didnt want to miss themoons company, and in the morning the great beauty of the sky and sundancing their graceful shades and hues of light and wondrous colors, hethought, that is what it means to be apart of this world, to be alive, to be adragonNinib5/14/09 ~The marriage of Samael and Lilith is known as the "AngelSatan" or the "Other God," among us but it was not allowed to last. Toprevent Lilith and Samaels demonic children from filling the world, Icastrated Samael. After Samael became castrated and Lilith was unable tofornicate with him, she left him to couple with men who experience nocturnalemissions. I have "cooled" the female Leviathan, meaning that I have madeLilith infertile and she is a mere fornication.Earth with void of form as they know it :5/9/09 Rather a rude and indigestedmass:A lifeless lump, unfashioned, and unframed,Of jarring seeds; and justly Chaos named.No sun was lighted up, the world to view;No moon did yet her blunted horns renew:Nor yet was Earth suspended in the sky,nor poised, did on her own foundations lye:Nor seas about the shores their arms had thrown;but earth, and air, and water, were in one.Thus air was void of light, and earth unstable,and waters dark abyss unnavigated~~this is what we must bring back~Punishments laid upon the Unholy Host and humanity5/8/09Lucifer guides mankind and the Unholy Host alike through the blighted world, theaftermath of the wreckage of Eden. Surrounded on all sides by barren desert,black storm clouds, broken mountains spewing fire, and violent seas,humankind cowers in fear while the rebel angels despair. The Light bringercalls the march to a halt in the Valley of Tears, where he addresses thedemoralized mob."Do not despair! This is only the beginning. We know His anger, but He doesnot know our resolve. We have faced His wrath and survived. Do not see thescarred lands before you and lose hope. Gone are many wonders, many of our
  • 70. works. What exists now is only a pale reflection, but we will craft new marvels.We will teach our charges, the sons and daughters of Adam and Eve, how tounlock their true potential -- and this accomplishment shall be ours, not His.This will be our grand achievement. Once we crafted Creation for Him, now wewill shape the land according to our wishes."The lands may be broken, forsaken, but not to us. We created them out ofnothing -- imagine what we can do now! We will defy Him and the Host. We willfight for Adam and Eve and protect them and nurture them. We have forsakenHim, but our love belongs to Adam and Eve. Always remember."Most of the Namaru and many Annunaki stand by Lucifer, accompanied bysome fallen of all the other Houses. There is a large minority of Lammasu, andamong them is Belial, the second-in-command of the newly formed CrimsonLegion.Abbadon, a Rabisu, speaks out. "I have seen enough. I swear that until the endof days I shall marshal my brothers against Him and the Host. I forsake peace, Irefuse love. I know only hate, and we shall draw our strength from this fire. MyLegion will face the Host at every turn, many of our number might cease to be,yet we will never give quarter. Here this battle starts. None can say where it willend, but our hearts are set.""And to you, my brother," Lucifer answers, "goes command of a fifth of ournumbers, the most strong. You shall be our vanguard.""This is not all," Abbadon continues. "The humans blinded us. It is the allfather and all mothers who deceived us, Lucifer. It is because of them that thiswar has come, and now our duty to fight it is on behalf of beings who knownothing."I too see potential before us in the landscape and these mortals. But they are tobe tools, not relics to shelter. We defied Him for them, and in turn they willrebuild paradise for us."We will teach them our secrets: how to hunt these lands, how to master them.In turn, they will serve us in love and deed. We paid the ultimate sacrifice forthem, so they are forever in our debt. They are instruments in our crusadeagainst Heaven."And so the Ebon Legion gathers, comprised mostly of Rabisu and Asharu, andequal numbers of the other Houses.Dagon, the Giant of Stone and Iron, crosses his arms and speaks with a voicelike an avalanche. "I hear Abbadon, and will not gainsay his outrage, but formy part, I say that humanity deserves our devotion, not scorn. How can weblame them for the choices we made in our hearts? If we see them as nothingmore than tools, we dishonor our own sacrifices. Let those who would honor theLight bringer and remember their divine duty stand by my side! We will be thewall that Heavens thunderbolts cannot pierce!"The majority of the Annunaki and many Rabisu move to stand beside Dagon toform the Iron Legion.Lucifer addresses Asmodeus of the Fourth House, Navigator of the Stars. "Toyou, a fifth of our numbers goes as well. Where the Ebon Legion marches tobattle, you and your legion will unlock the mysteries and potential of the
  • 71. mortals and these lands. His secrets are yours to uncover. You will reveal Hislies and show the Host the error of their ways. Wherever it is forbidden to tread,you shall walk. Whatever it is prohibited to utter, you will speak. Whatever istaboo, you will revel in. There are no boundaries you will not cross in yoursearch for the truth.""This I shall do," echoes Asmodeus. "I see before me unlimited potential -- notjust potential prescribed according to His plan, but raw unimaginable potential.We will strive to find that which was before Him as He was before us. We willfind the darkness that birthed the light of God, for only out of darkness canlight shine!"As to our charges, the blessed and cursed race of Adam and Eve, we will beteachers. Their forms hide potential that we will nurture and unlock. They willspeak with the Celestial tongue and make a Heaven of this earth. Their seed wewill nourish until it blooms and shakes the very foundation of Heaven with itstowers and achievements. We will not rest until this is so." Under Asmodeusbanner gather a majority of the Neberu and Lammasu, forming the SilverLegion.Lucifer turns to the Halaku standing as one -- they who have not chosen to joina Legion. "You may walk your own path," he says to them, "so long as you heedthe call to battle. For now, Azrael, once-blessed Angel of the Shadow, take theUnaligned and make your own fortress. We will call for you in time. For now,your task is to renew the race of Adam and Eve. Gone is their immortality. Likethe clay they were sculpted from, to the earth they will return.""Brother Lucifer," says Azrael, "light-bearer and dread general. We stand inthe shadows and wait that day. We will hide where the Host refuses to look. Wewill gather strength and stand ready for the call. For now we leave." Themajority of the Seventh House and the other undecided follow him, creating theAlabaster Legion.The Gathering 5/3/09 ~~They gathered speaking of this great coming War. Theyknew nothing on how they were already involved as they were the descendantsof Anna and Anakletos. They contained a small essence of the Father andMother. They were not the grandchildren but were more bits of left over fleshthey had placed in Anna womb. They knew they would soon be called to fightbut why?The Union~The Blind Dragon is between Samael and the Evil Lilith. And he brings abouta union between them only in the hour of pestilence, the Merciful one save us!And he is castrated so that the eggs of the viper should not dome forth into theworld. For were it not so, they would annihilate the world. And that kind whichis called Lilin are full of hair from their heads down to their feet, but on theirheads they have no hair and all their body and face is full of hair. And this Lilithhas fourteen evil times and evil names and evil factions. And all are ordained to
  • 72. kill the children -- may we be saved! And especially through the witches who arecalled Kinder Benimmerins in the language of the Ashkenaz.Christabella Rosalina Lee Goddess of Justice~I am Christabella Rosalina Lee Goddess of Original Sin. I have been summonedaway from my family and peaceful existence to come back here and deal withthe situation at hand. I emerged from Rainns tongue from her kiss with one ofher kinsmen. Her tongue elongated and grew to enormous proportions to allowme passage back into this realm. It was bloody and excruciatingly horridbloodspilled upon the floor by the bucket load and I feared for Rainns safety duringthis arduous process. I was soon freed from her tongue and wound up on thefloor covered in blood and viscose fluids. I looked up at Rainn and saw herrapid recovery from this. I am the original aspect and Rainn was spawned fromme she and I are one. My return was prompted by our mother Raven whowhispered an ancient incantation to bring out my return for now Rainn and mymother are the only ones who know of my return.~RAVENLILY~It all began with her and my father Larik. She is the Goddess of Balanceand he her male aspect and counterpart. She has been in line to take over thethrone since her birth but whether that happens remains to be seen. I lovemy mother and am here at her command. Most dont know that she has a
  • 73. wicked funny sense of humor and is truly equal parts. She’s my mom andIm glad to be back with her.LARIK~Larik is my true father even though Rainn and I were conceived bydifferent fathers it happened within a twenty-four hour span of Raven beingwith her father, Larik and her uncle Anakletos. I love my father and for themost part he is terribly misunderstood but then again he likes it that way.~RAINN~Rainn is an aspect of me. She emerged when I wanted a break from all ofthe madness and chaos that was heavy in the air so she took her family andwent to the Pl aides Dimension until being summoned forth by our motherRavenlily. Now that Im back in this realm I am the counter balance towhatever Rainn does and she is mine. We are one in the same.~THE ALPHA AND OMEGA~The Alpha aka Lilith is my grandmother. The Omega is my grandfatherboth are known by many names and have all types of religious beliefs andhorrors committed in their name. Lilith is her earthly name and she is knownas the first wife of Adam but this is false, a fairy tale created to make menfeel more important. Lilith is the epitome of radiance her hair golden andshimmering, her skin like velvet. A smile that spellbound her feminine waysand cunning ability to read those she comes into contact makes her aformidable being. She is known as a succubus who drains men of their seedwhile sleeping and is the reason for the surge that plagued mankind this isalso false. She was no angel but she wasnt as bad as Samael, known byLucifer, The Morning Star etc. He loved my grandmother with his entirebeing as he was the male aspect of her. In his human incarnation hismagnificent physique and sheer beauty and sexual prowess make in aformidable foe to any of our kinsmen he uses them tTHE BLIND DRAGON~As a child I dreamt of a dragon powerful enough to render mygrandparents infertile in their human forms. He stopped them from breedingand making more minions to overrun this planet. When I was but a twinklein the eyes of my parents I had visions of this creature and he became my onetrue friend as a child. Now that I have been summoned to join in this war Iwas going to need my old friend more then ever...~CATHERINE~My poor beleaguered aunt has literally been through the mill and groundup by its spokes. I dont think that she got a fair deal as she wasnt told ofthings that were coming but honestly they were hard for me to see and I wasin another dimension I couldnt begin to see how she could process thendigest everything swirling around her like an endless eddy. I love you AuntieCat and I shall do what is in my power to help you if you truly wish to havemy assistance.FIGHTING TO SAVE BELLAAND RAINN5/26/09 ~
  • 74. Ninib that flown without haste back to their home planet that acted as a wey stationmedical base where the critically wounded of their kinsmen were taken in times ofbattle but this was a different kind of battle. This battle was to save the essence of herkinsmen without her they would unravel and become undoing. Bella had beensummoned back to this realm by Ravenlily the only woman she knew to be hermother until Catherines devastating news that she was her birth mother and notRavenlily. This was not uncommon among her kindred but it always has its affectsbut never to this magnitude. Bella and Rainn are one being and when one and Bellawas unhinged by her violent birth and wanted to spread her pain and anguish like aninfectious disease. She wanted no one to escape the fire of her wrath the Rainn fell illand that is when with her last breathe Bella cried out for Ninib to save her fromherself. Its not been an easy process removing the vengeance that threaten to destroythem all for now they would all have to wait and hope that Bella and Rainn can behealed and returned to them.RAGE.RAGE...RAGE5/24/09I am broken bleeding bending feeding on the floor bloody and pleading.I no longer care about this fucking war I ever want to get up off of this floor.I want to vanish, disappear cease to exist this place vexes me removing me from myself.I dont give a damn who and what I am I want the world to feel my pain to becrushed under the strain. I want no one to escape these flames burn them allregardless of names.I want this to end all the lies and bullshit friends.They should have never brought me back here for all who cross my path will tremblein fear.I love no one. Care about nothing but Rainn.Im tired of these fucking games and people changing who and what they are basedon the whims of my kinsmen.I do not love the human species.I am not their savior.I am filled with rage rage in its purest form. My rage is quick and sharp and I wanteveryone to feel the strings of this silent harp the death knell is ringing and soon Illbe dancing and singing as this world burns and all in it are spurned. I shall laugh asNero did playing my glorious fiddle...burn burn burn there is nothing for you herebut abject dread and fear. Im tired of everything and everyone and my horror showhas just begun, Ill kill you all one by one...Understand, my fun has just begun.WE SPEAK EVERY LANGUAGE KNOWN TO MAN AND SOME THATTHEY DO NOT.5/23/09From this point on we will begin speaking in our native tongue and all of the languages totry to bridge this gap in communications that is one of the pivotal reasons for this
  • 75. war. Were sick of all of the bastardize hybrids coming into this realm and spoilingwhat was once paradise here on earth. We shall try to reach the humans on their levelif that fails then they shall be dealt with. We have come to safe the descendants ofour species with are humans and tell them the correct reasons for them being here butfirst weve had to and still have to clean our own house and that means dealing withfalse deities and those who wish to take the throne away from our Mother andGrandmother The Alpha. The council convened and decided to banish Inanna she is ahybrid, unstable and in time she will be consumed by the power that she seeks. WEHAVE SPOKEN AND THIS IS YOUR LAST CHANCE TO AVOID ALL OUTWAR...THE CHOICE IS YOURS MY KINDRED...Bella speaks primarily-English,Finnish, Russian, French and SpanishRainn speaks primarily English, Portuguese, German, Russian, French,SpanishRaven speaks primarily-English, Arabic, Japanese, Danish, Finnish and other deadlanguagesLarik speaks primarily English, German, Dutch, Finnish, ItalianLily speak primarily English but will use which ever language is needed though thetrue universal language is mathematics.BELLAS RETURN...5/21/09Bella had been summoned by her mother Ravenlily to return to this realm to be Rainn’scounter balance. She is an identical aspect of Rainn and is here to stand by hersisters’ side. They are closer then most of our kindred and only truly respond to oneanother. Bellas re-emergence into this realm was particularly brutal. Rainn hadkissed this lips of one of her kinsmen which one shes keeping that to herself until or
  • 76. should the need arise to call him out. Rainn was drinking a blend of her specialcinnamon roast coffee when a sharp pain tore through her mouth. Her lips were onfire and it wasnt from the hot liquid. She dropped the porcelain mug to the floorcrashing it as it struck the surface of the marble flooring at Rainns earthly home.Rainns tongue began to bleed profusely as her tongue grew to an enormous size. Youcould see the outline of what appeared to be a human female form coming to shapefrom the flesh of her tongue. She fell onto all fours and began gagging and fightingto breathe. While shaking violently Bella began to separate herself from the flesh ofRainns tongue the blood was black and spurted every where like a water sprinkler.Rainn let out a howling, screeching cry once the ordeal had been over. She watchedas Bella lay on the floor in front of her covered in blood and viscous within no timeshe had become full grown shedding her former human shell and assuming this latestincarnation. She looks like a younger version of her grandmother with the goldenspun silk hair, piercing bluish gray eyes and a killer smile...Bella was back but herre-emergence was a closely guarded secret that only Rainn and Raven knew of. Rainn Arabella Lee~I am Rainn, an aspect of Christabella and the Yin to her Yang. I have beensummoned back to this realm to partake in the on going battle between mygrandmother (God, Yahweh, and Alpha) and my grandfather (Lucifer, Omega,Satan). Do you really want to know what this war is all about? Mygrandparents are the same being just different aspects and energies theirs wasthe first great love and their break-up catastrophic for all involved. Some chosegrandmothers side, others sided with my grandfather and the rest just gotswept up in the wake of the destruction of what was a perfect union. Only theyknow why they went their separate ways and neither is eager to come forth withany information or insights into why all of this is happening. Right now theyreusing my mother Ravenlily Goddess of Balance and Larik God of Justice to do
  • 77. their dirty work and Im here to level the playing field while my kids are tuckedaway & safe.~IM SO SICK...5/8/09 ~it is my duty by birth to judge, execute, save or punish and afterall of this time Im feeling a deep sickness raging within me from origins unknown tome yet. I feel it coursing through each molecule in my body and fall to the floorwhile drinking my coffee and waiting for my uncle Anakletos to finish with hisservice vampire. I dont know why I feel this way towards Annie; I dont see anyrelative value to her existence at all. I see her as a dangerous organism that if notcurtailed will spread like a plague. My father fell prey to Anne as many have but Idont know her well enough to say anything about her what I do know is shes a goodmother to all of her children fiercely so which is a good trait to have. The sickness istransforming me yet again and Im losing almost all human emotions but the onesthat are left are tweaked, peaked and about to launch a tsunami of heat. Laying waste
  • 78. to anything that crosses my path.I dont feel loved only needed and theres a big difference. I lay here on the floorcontorted with agony hoping that my uncle can save me before its too late but whyhim? I dont know why I feel so close to him in some instances Im closer to him thenI am with my own father, Larik. Something’s not right. I can feel it eating away atme like crows picking a cadaver clean. The light is fading and Im being overcomewith darkness...Another Day Another Fight...5/1/09 ~ For a while I was in the Pladies realm wherean evil corporation called "Umbrella" was run by the ancient ones who had beendrop kicked into oblivion by man kind. They vowed to take the planet back and didby creating the T-cell virus that turned any living thing into ravenous zombifiedmonsters whose only desire was to feed on the flesh of humans not yet infected. TheUmbrella Corporation then tried to make the perfect weapon out of me they got morethen they ever bargained for. In that world I went by the name Alice and am gratefulthat they never knew they held a deity in their hands. I got to learn tactical defensesand offensives I loved getting my hands dirty as it were and enjoyed the fight but italso cost the lives of some of those closest to me so I had to leave them behind butnot before giving them some of my blood to cure their species.Now Im back here in the Milky Way and its starting all over again with the war ofmy grandparents.The Battle Lines...4/26/09 ~ I was summoned by "THE POWERS THAT BE" legionsfrom my grandmothers side and from my grandfathers. The war in the etherealplanes has just kicked off again for years theres been a tentative truce but with Larikbeing infected and Raven trying to contain and control the male aspect of her selfand failing was the spark that lit the fuse on this coup de grace. The entire situationwith Anne becoming pregnant while Larik was poisoned, the birth of a childanathema to everything his tearing at the fabrics of Ravens foundation are clearindicators that there’s darkness on the horizon. I am a few angels and demons havecome back to recruit for both sides of the cause.The sky light up shades of dark blue, gray and black cut across the quiet night ashuge winged creatures shrieking and blotting out the moon circled above. A bluelight comet racing from apparently no where slams into the earth. My grandmotherstepped out of this void. She was beautiful. The ground rumbled violently splitting inhalf escaping from this chasm the stench of sulfur, rotting flesh and all things vileemerge. My grandfather climbed up out of hell which is in the center of the earth hewas a vision. Seeing them standing in front of one another was strange and
  • 79. frightening. Grandmother quickly came to stop Raven and Larik from fighting as didgrandfather...Help us all!!!~BACK IN THE GAME4/25/09 ~ I have been away for a while trying to live anormal life with my husband and two small children but this was not to be. Ive beensummoned back to the realm to do my part in an on coming war between my grandparents that have been going on at infiniteum yet are bubbling to the surface again.My mother Ravenlily and her male aspect Larik are now coming to blows neithercan harm the other without destroying themselves but this doesnt stop them. I love agood fight and this is going to be the best round yet. I will use whatever powers andmeans at my disposal. Am I evil? Am I good? It depends on what I have to do and towhom. I use my beauty, sex appeal, wit, intelligence and charm to get things donebut nothing gets me going like a great battle then a wild night of unparallel sex andcelebration. Let the games begin.Michael Myers9/12/08 You may be wondering why I would have someone likeMichael in my life especially as Ive a baby girl. He was chosen to be the carrier ofthe curse of Thorn and I should know because Im the one that cursed him. In everyones life they are offered something that will change them, the people around them,even the world. I know his heart and hes a good father to my Ever believe it or nothe took the photo of her Rawr face its so adorable. I am the God/Goddess ofOriginal Sin so from time to time I inflict one of the deadly sins on an unlikely butwell deserving being. Michael is pure untouchable except by me and Ever. Hes onlydoing what he was chosen to do and if you think about it his a bit unforgiving to hisvictims mostly those screwing their brains out when they should be doing somethingelse. Judith always treated him badly then on his 6th birthday I came to pay him avisit in the form of a child. I marked or branded him then placed my hands on thesides of his head and showed him a whole new world one in which the streets run redwith lovely red claret. So dont worry I’ve not lost the plot and wouldnt have Everaround someone who would harm either of us. Evers first word was "Da." she saidit when playing with Michael and hes more of a father to her then Cole ever wouldhave been.Change names from Michael Myers and Cole to the Morning Stars brother Lustier.Demons an Angels9/10/08 The ancient ones who walked this earth before man kindcrawled out of the primordial ooze want their playing ground back. Both sidesfighting a battle for the destruction of our souls the bending of our minds and thegaping wound where hearts are are folly for them. The confusion, chaos, and miseryshrouded by those who wish us dead. The ancient ones despise us it matters not if itbe Angel or Demon they both want the same thing. They use us like puppets to
  • 80. ignore famine, fight wars that never had to happen using the face of globalcorporations to further divide us. The poor stay poor and the rich get richer. We putdemigods in positions of unimaginable power while were sleep walking through lifeblaming everyone and everything as we lay down like apathetic cows grazing in thepastures set before us. We’re cows that dont give milk but pour out blood instead.We take things to dull and turn down the volume of life while they continue killingus in many many ways.Every day a new strain of disease is born and cure for those already here onlytempers these ailments not cure them. Are they (the ancient ones) the reason were sohostile and intolerable towards others? Are they the poisonous venom that keeps usin the dark? Do we fight and gain knowledge to fight them or should mankind beerased and a more advanced species take over where we have failed?Power Play8/28/08 There are those who believe that all blonds are stupid air heads andfor those with an ounce of sense which is most of them use this to their advantage.When you look innocent and naive the predators come out to play. Cole thought I wassuch this floppy, bubble headed deity how far from the mark could he have been? I ama God/Goddess and you want to know the difference between deities and demons is?We make sure that we cover our asses because most are out for what they can get andto hell to those who get in their way.I gave Cole an heir more powerful then any child born to the likes of he and I. EVERwill one day rule all of the worlds and realms within her dominion. The fool that Cole isthought that Id give him a son. I promised him an heir and lived up to our deal nowhes making moves that he doesnt think I know about to take EVER away from me.The daughter he never wanted but now does. He will have to bring all of the legions ofHell and beyond to take this child away from me. Im ready for whatever he has inmotion this will be a war to rival the one that got Lucifer drop kicked out of Godsgrace. Bring it on big man!
  • 81. The Birth of Rainn and Ever Iscariot-Turner8/26/08 For years I lived in an alternateuniverse where I was known as Arabella. The Verillian Company had no idea that Iwas neither a deity nor why my blood altered the genetically altered retrovirus. TheHive was shut down when the virus was unleashed the Red Queen killed everyone inthe Hive but the T-virus re-animated the dead. Im trained in hand to hand combat,Krav Maga, weapons of all types but my favorites are my machetes. Bella grew tiredand weary of this world and traded places with me. I soon hooked up with ColeTurner the Source and took his offer to give him an heir.We were prepared to go out for a nice meal before the baby came but she had otherplans. My water broke as we were heading out the front door. The pain was likenothing Id ever felt. I chanted in our dead language and the room filled with abrilliant healing and protective blue light. Cole was with me through it all and a fewhours and a lot of crying our daughter Ever was born. Cole asked me to give him anheir and I wanted a daughter. He wasnt happy about having a daughter until shortlyafter birth she showed him her power and his eyes teared up and he held our child inhis arms and began whispering to her and she settled down. She weighed 9lbs 9ozand is my heart!Shape Shifted8/12/08 I have always been a shape shifter but it takes a lot of energy todo so and I usually save it for only the highest priorities. But this time I didnt needas much energy as I fed off of Coles energy when we made carnal love to conceive a
  • 82. child who can unmake the world. There was something about him that triggered mytransformation but if you look in my eyes you can still see the old me and I mayfrom time to time shift between these two images. I am a deity of the highest orderbut even I am weaken in this human shell though weaken I am still immortal andhave all of my powers intact. I can feel this child growing inside me and feel itspower and it’s frightening but I will make sure that our child realizes its place in thehierarchy when its old enough to know its place in this and other worlds. Ive seenour child and know the sex of the child but I will keep that to myself.Love is a Virus7/3/08 Love is a virus that infects us all in one way or another. Theremay are many wondrously beautiful things about. The smile you bring to the faces ofthose whose life youve touched some times doing the slightest thing can touch someone so much it appears to affect their world. When properly done you return to theshadows and embrace its simplicity.Love is an insidious beast that wants what it wants no matter how high the price. Itturns some of us into strangers unknown even to ourselves. So we say "Fuck it" androll the dice hoping against hope to avoid its savagery.Many of us look or create scenarios that keep our emotions locked down and safe.This is a false sense of security one that pleads with our integrity to see what weremade of. Do we need and deserve love because we want to belong? Does it break usdown in order to make us stronger?What are we missing out on as we sit perched alone in our unreachable ivory tower?Are we really protected from the burdens of loves lost long ago? Should we open oureyes and see the good, the bad, and the ugly) all there is to be in this world? Wouldthese revelations sound off inside your head like loves implacable Gong? Informingus that there are no rights or wrongs. After all were humans, pact animals that needcontact with others no matter how much we think we need the isolation were onlyfooling ourselves if we think that we dont belong.Misunderstood...7/1/08 Im a private deity. I keep myself to myself and do not likebeing told what to do. Some say that Im ill mannered Im immature and givedeities a bad name. Theyre entitled to their opinions but when they start tointerfere with my life and that of my family I take offense to their unsolicitedadvice and judgments. I want to be left alone to discover who I am. I have donethe unthinkable and it’s not been easy but was needed. I prefer that a lot aboutme remains hazy and maybe being misunderstood is my lot in life.The End2/16/08 Life is cruel and full of lies. Its filled with people I not only dislikebut deeply despise you maybe asking yourself why I say such things. Well to behonest Im tired of opening my mind, heart and soul and hoping upon hope thatone day it will truly sing from the dulcet tones of my lovers’ voice. I shall neverhear "I love you" and it actually be true. I’m nothing of circumstance certainlyI mean fuck all to you and as always my words will be twisted in a manner that
  • 83. makes you come out looking like the one hard done. You use your illness andquirks as an excuse not to take responsibility for your life and all of your friendstreat you like a child who constantly needs his nose wiped. I told you the trutheven if it hurt you because Im not a fake and my love was and still is true but Isuppose it doesnt matter now as Im probably viewed as a dozy cow. I thought Iwas strong enough to bear anything that came my way now, I no longer careand welcome the day when my sweet release from this hellish mortal coil claimsme but with my fucking luck it will only end up maiming me. I have lived longenough and its time for me to go I only hope that it’s quick rather then slow. Soto all my friends you know who you are though my body may be gone my spiritwill never be far. This is the end of the line for me and its not all been bad butright now its time for me to exit my car and walk towards the sun back towhere I came from.When You Hurt The One You Love2/6/08 When you hurt the one you love its likeviolating a precious dove whose symbology of purity and peace has been rippedfrom its breast with the ragged edge of a sharp stone. Voices are raised andwords get twisted and youre asking "What the hell this is?"When you hurt the one you love and try with all your might to set things rightwhile caught in a quagmire thats perpetuating this plight because noteverything is black and white. Im sorry that it took me a while to digesteverything that you said. I was floating on cloud nine and it took some time foryour words to reach my mind, heart and head. I love you deep within your heartbeyond the craziness you know that theres truth in this. Im hopelessly,helplessly in love with you and this you also know to be true.Release1/14/08 RELEASE:When the emptiness that causes despair and depression so dense it pulls youdown deep inside its dark hungry hollow with the ease it takes to breathe. Itsteeth bared and gnashing my flesh and bone with vicious ferocity that revealsbits and pieces of my tome as I am herded through the mill, all of the contents ofwho I was an am pelt the ground below caught by buckets to be saved for later.The irony of loneliness and agony that play dueling banjos in my Heart thatconstantly rip rip rip it apart and make it bleed enough to draw the desire ofthis beast to feed. My blood is sweet like orange en glance its history of pain andpleasure induce an intoxicating haze for those who wish to have a little taste. Ioften wonder if its worth my while or more of a waste of my time and energybecause at the end of the day they all leave me because of too much synergy toomuch intensity. What am I to do to curb this propensity? Its not like I dontknow passion and how delicate and the attention that must be given to itssensitivity because I do. I appear to be strong and I am but even the mighty falleven we get spun around by turbulent sprawls but when this happens and those
  • 84. who rely on us to be this tower of strength this visage of power crumble theycannot cope. They figure if we cannot bear something and are humbled what isthere for them to look forward and to hope?Evans Diary My Mothers Ordeal 23/11/0711/22/07 Im three weeks old today and by rightsI should be nestled within the safe confines of my parents loving arms but I am not noram I a regular infant. I am half God half Mortal that combination has never happenedso they dont really no what my powers are the closest thing to me was when the angelsmated with mortal women and we all no how well that went. Im sitting here cradled inthe bosom of my nana Ravenlily listening to her heart beat a million times per secondlooking on as her only daughter and my mom has been placed in stasis a chemicallyinduced coma shes hooked up to every bell and whistle to keep her human body alive.My birth weakened severely and she knew that another child would put too muchstress on her human body but sometimes you have to play the hand youre dealt andthat even goes for Gods. She made her choice and it was a difficult one to make and itangers me to think that my father would be so cruel to the one woman who showed himhow to love. To feel My mother is a strong and remarkable woman she isnt and willnever be anyone’s victim sure she could have taken the easy way out and left my dadbut she didnt she only used that as an excuse to go into hospital. My father is tooblinded by his own insecurities and ego to see what hes about to lose and this isnt asituation that calls for either but for the love hes professed for her from day one. Theycan save her body and that of the other but her soul has begun to freeze because thepain and cruelty of my fathers actions have been too much to bear and rather thenlashing out at him shes turned the pain inward. So while she will return I have no ideawhat shell be like. if shell just be a shell that looks like my mom but isnt because shedied this worries me because I and the other may be the only beings standing betweenmy father and certain death by those loyal to my mother. Jesus I shouldnt have to beworried about things like this! Im only three weeks old at least mom got to wait untilshe was two before having to deal with anything like this and then she had Sam. I justwant my mommy better and my dad too so they can get back together.Meeting Henry11/6/07 The first time I met Henry he gave me a dozen roses in aheart shaped box with a card that read "You have my heart" I honestly didntknow who he was and since I had recently aged myself from age two and a halfto twenty two I had recently been deluged by suitors but none of them caughtmy attention except Henry from the very start and believe me it wasnt the rosesalthough I did love them. For the next week around the same time each day hebrought me a heart shaped box filled with long stemmed English roses theywere beautiful and unlike any roses Id ever since. He was always polite andseemed to be a bit shy now I know youre wondering how a God such as mecould possibly not know who he was surely a God knows everyone andeverything. Well we do and we dont the first time he kissed my hand I scannedeverything his memories and his entire lifes history in the time it took for thatkiss and I know that he was the man in my dreams who was calling out from mebut I could never see. He was the one that I was waiting for even though I didntknow it. The reason Henry was so restless jumping from woman to woman was
  • 85. because on a subconscious level he was searching for me and when he slept hecried out for me and that cry was so powerful that it reached forth in time. Oursouls knew one another once we met it was like wed know each other our entirelives. At the time he met me he was estranged from his wife Anne and seeingrandom women. There was an instantaneous and undeniable attraction filledwith a raging white hot uncontrollable passion. I had not known the touch of aman before Henry and will only know his touch. The first time we kissed I sawthe beginning of the universe and felt the chaos that created and Henry felt andsaw it as well and it nearly stopped his heart. That was the first time that a partof myself was transferred into Henry which I had to do because he is humanand I am not and any intimate contact with a deity as high up the scale as I amwould have resulted in his death. Hes still human but hes soon going todeveloped abilities of his own and he will age much slower then humans andbecome physically stronger and smarter these are the side effects if you will ofbeing with a god. The first time I took him to the Heavenly Realm where mygrandmother lives he was at a lost for words to be honest anyone would be hewas in another dimension after all. The first time he had a shower and went to asalon and was immersed in life in the 21 century was a bit overwhelming and heloved all of it and didnt want to go back but he had to because otherwisehistory would have been changed and even I cannot do that. The first time Ivisited Henrys era during his time as the reigning King of England it lookedlike a very well acted renaissances theme park but I had to be very aware ofwhat I said and did and yes I did take my travel bag with me when I orbed usback there. Henry and I are fated to be together and we are having to fight tohold onto what we have not because were not in love but because of in lawproblems on both sides that we hope in time will resolve itself. Nothing will evercome between Henry and me and now that we have our beautiful son Evanwere impregnable. Most people are married by a man or woman of the clotheHenry and I were married by my mother Ravenlily God of Balance our weddingbands diamonds came from the tears of joy from my mothers eyes...we didntwant a big wedding we just wanted each.
  • 86.  Cecaelia Lamia Lee~I am considered a separate unrelated species among my kin as I was deformed insome way at birth. I was not created the same as the others and so have beenforgotten but by Birth Mother Anna Medusa who has called me back as I amneeded to protect Christabella Rosabella Lee and Rainn Arabella Lee from mysister Callista Lee Dadelus. I fear I was rejected as I contain the blood of theforgotten, my true mother Gaia {Lilith} Mothers Mother, Chaos. My MotherGaia is the primordial and chthonic deity of us all and the Mother Goddess orGreat Goddess but Chaos is the original state of existence from which the firstgods appeared. In other words, the dark void of space. My Grandmother or MyBlood Mother Chaos was the vast and dark void from which the first deity andmaybe not the True first, Gaia, emerged. Gaias sister Eurynome emerged fromthis Chaos and created the Cosmos from it. This state was called the Womb ofDarkness from which the Cosmic Egg that contained the Universe emerged.Primal Chaos is what I contain! ~Tagline
  • 87. Know as some as Cilia The Forgotten OneMe, Myself, and ICecaelia Lamia Lee is the Goddess of the seven seas. She knows that her father(The Morning Star) Lucifer in his human form and Mother (Anna) summoned herhere to do battle with her cousins Bella and Rainn the rumored heirs to the throneand hid her from the Blind Dragon who was killing off all of their spawns createdwhile they were in human form but her fathers love for her was so deep that hekept her shielded all this time. It took Cecaelia millennia to stop feeling like adirty secret while her cousins Bella and Rainn got all of the praise andglory...Now its her time to play and collect what is rightfully hers!Cecaelia has been denied enough and will see them dead first. She is also of theirblood even though only a half sister. When she was finally discovered by theothers, she was considered unrelated species from them. Her deformedappearance was never going to be the same as the others as her linage she isslightly different but still has the essence of Chaos within her she’s also injectedAnna with part of her pure essence to create me as a new and rightful claimant tothe throne.Cecaelia is seen as treat to the order of things whose true mother Chaos is theprimordial and chthonic deity of us ALL and is the soul original state of existencefrom which all other are created. In other words, she is the dark void which isknown by humans as space. Chaos is the vast and dark void from which TheAlpha emerged. Lilith’s other aspects known as Llyra and Niahla who alsoemerged from this same cosmic egg..She is considered by her kin to be the monstrous embodiment of primordial chaos.Although there are no early precedents for it, some of my kin identify her as a seaserpent or as a dragon-like creature. She came from the womb of which gave youthe evil of this world. It is common knowledge that Anna gave birth to thedragons and serpents of this world, but she also produced a greater list of demonicmonsters, which includes scorpion men and mere people, none of these childrenwere truly accepted and were either cast aside to find their own purpose or killedfor their inferior make-up. Cecaelia is the only one who resembles the others butstill was cast aside to rule the aquatic environment of Earth. She controls thewater elements and will see Bella and Rainn dead rather then sitting on the throne.She is rumored to have a serpent’s tail and the waist of Mermaids but this isn’ttrue and soon they would all bow to my will.
  • 88. When I was discovered by the others, I considered a separate unrelatedspecies them as I was deformed at birth. I was never going to becreated the same as the others as my linage contains both TheMorning Star and the first, Chaos. As it was Chaos which injectedAnna with part of her essence to create me as a claimant to the throneunbeknown to my father, Lucifer.Lamia by John Keats 6/11/09 UPON a time, before the fairy broodsDrove Nymph and Satyr from the prosperous woods,Before King Oberon’s bright diadem,Scepter, and mantle, clasped with dewy gem,Freighted away the Dryads and the Fauns 5From rushes green, and brakes, and cowslip lawns,The ever-smitten Hermes empty leftHis golden throne, bent warm on amorous theft:From high Olympus had he stolen light,On this side of Jove’s clouds, to escape the sight 10Of his great summoned, and made retreatInto a forest on the shores of Crete.For somewhere in that sacred island dweltA nymph, to whom all hoofed Satyrs knelt;At whose white feet the languid Tritons poured 15Pearls, while on land they withered and adored.Fast by the springs where she to bathe was wont,And in those meads where sometime she might haunt,Were strewn rich gifts, unknown to any Muse,Though Fancy’s casket were unlocked to choose. 20Ah, what a world of love was at her feet!So Hermes thought, and a celestial heatBurnt from his winged heels to either ear,That from a whiteness, as the lily clear,Blushed into roses ?mid his golden hair, 25Fallen in jealous curls about his shoulders bare.From vale to vale, from wood to wood, he flew,Breathing upon the flowers his passion new,And wound with many a river to its head,To find where this sweet nymph prepared her secret bed: 30In vain; the sweet nymph might nowhere be found,And so he rested, on the lonely ground,Pensive, and full of painful jealousiesOf the Wood-Gods, and even the very trees.There as he stood, he heard a mournful voice, 35such as once heard, in gentle heart, destroysall pain but pity: thus the lone voice spoke:
  • 89. When from this wreathed tomb shall I awake!When move in a sweet body fit for life,and love, and pleasure, and the ruddy strife 40of hearts and lips! Ah, miserable me!?The God, dove-footed, glided silentlyRound bush and tree, soft-brushing, in his speed,The taller grasses and full-flowering weed,Until he found a palpitating snake, 45Bright, and cirque-couchant in a dusky brake.She was a Gordian shape of dazzling hue,Vermilion-spotted, golden, green, and blue;Striped like a zebra, freckled like a pared,Eyed like a peacock, and all crimson barred; 50And full of silver moons, that, as she breathed,Dissolved, or brighter shone, or interrelatedTheir luster’s with the gloomier tapestries?So rainbow-sided, touched with miseries,She seemed, at once, some penance lady elf, 55some demons mistress, or the demons self.Upon her crest she wore a wannish fireSprinkled with stars, like Ariadnes tiar:Her head was serpent, but ah, bitter-sweet!She had a woman’s mouth with all its pearls complete: 60and for her eyes: what could such eyes do therebut weep, and weep, that they were born so fair?As Proserpine still weeps for her Sicilian air.Her throat was serpent, but the words she spokeCame, as through bubbling honey, for Lovers sake, 65And thus; while Hermes on his pinions lay,Like a stooped falcon ere he takes his prey.?Fair Hermes, crowned with feathers, fluttering light,?I had a splendid dream of thee last night:?I saw thee sitting, on a throne of gold, 70?Among the Gods, upon Olympus old,?The only sad one; for thou didst not hear?The soft, lute-fingered Muses chanting clear,?Nor even Apollo when he sang alone,?Deaf to his throbbing throat’s long, long melodious moan. 75?I dreamt I saw thee, robed in purple flakes,?Break amorous through the clouds, as morning breaks,?And, swiftly as a bright Phoebe an dart,?Strike for the Cretan isle; and here thou art!?Too gentle Hermes, hast thou found the maid?? 80Whereat the star of Lethe not delay?
  • 90. His rosy eloquence, and thus inquired:Thou smooth-lipped serpent, surely high inspired!Thou beauteous wreath, with melancholy eyes,Possess whatever bliss thou canst devise, 85Telling me only where my nymph is fled,Where she doth breathe!? Bright planet, thou hast said,returned the snake, but seal with oaths, fair God!?I swear, said Hermes, by my serpent rod,and by thine eyes, and by thy starry crown!? 90Light flew his earnest words, among the blossoms blown.Then thus again the brilliance feminine:Too frail of heart! for this lost nymph of thine,?Free as the air, invisibly, she strays?About these thorn less wilds; her pleasant days 95?She tastes unseen; unseen her nimble feetLeave traces in the grass and flowers sweet;From weary tendrils, and bowed branches green,She plucks the fruit unseen, she bathes unseen:And by my power is her beauty veiled 100?To keep it unaffronted, unassailed?By the love-glances of unlovely eyes,?Of Satyrs, Fauns, and bleared Silenus? Sighs.?Pale grew her immortality, for woe?Of all these lovers, and she grieved so 105?I took compassion on her, bade her steep?Her hair in weird syrups, that would keep?Her loveliness invisible, yet free?To wander as she loves, in liberty.Thou shalt behold her, Hermes, thou alone, 110if thou wilt, as thou swear, grant my boon!?Then, once again, the charmed God beganan oath, and through the serpent’s ears it ranWarm, tremulous, devout, and psalterian.Ravished, she lifted her Circean head, 115Blushed a live damask, and swift-lisping said,I was a woman, let me have once more?A woman’s shape, and charming as before.I love a youth of Corinth the bliss!Give me my woman’s form, and place me where he is. 120Stoop, Hermes, let me breathe upon thy brow,?And thou shalt see thy sweet nymph even now.?The God on half-shut feathers sank serene,she breathed upon his eyes, and swift was seenof both the guarded nymph near-smiling on the green. 125It was no dream; or says a dream it was,real is the dreams of Gods, and smoothly passes
  • 91. their pleasures in a long immortal dream.One warm, flushed moment, hovering, it might seemDashed by the wood-nymph’s beauty, so he burned; 130Then, lighting on the pointless verdure, turnedTo the swooned serpent, and with languid arm,Delicate, put to proof the lithe Caducean charm.So done, upon the nymph his eyes he bent,Full of adoring tears and blandishment, 135And towards her stept: she, like a moon in wane,Faded before him, cowered, nor could restrainHer fearful sobs, self-folding like a flowerThat faints into itself at evening hour:But the God fostering her chilled hand, 140She felt the warmth, her eyelids opened bland,And, like new flowers at morning song of bees,Bloomed, and gave up her honey to the lees.Into the green-recessed woods they flew;Nor grew they pale, as mortal lovers do. 145Left to herself, the serpent now beganTo change; her elfin blood in madness ran,Her mouth foamed, and the grass, therewith besprent,Withered at dew so sweet and virulent;Her eyes in torture fixed, and anguish drear, 150Hot, glazed, and wide, with lid-lashes all sear,Flashed phosphor and sharp sparks, without one cooling tear.The colors all inflamed throughout her train,She writhed about, convulsed with scarlet pain:A deep volcanoes yellow took the place 155Of all her milder-mooned body’s grace;And, as the lava ravishes the mead,Spoilt all her silver mail, and golden bread;Made gloom of all her freckling, streaks and bars,Eclipsed her crescents, and licked up her stars: 160So that, in moments few, she was undressOf all her sapphires, greens, and amethyst,And rubious-argent: of all these bereft,Nothing but pain and ugliness were left.Still shone her crown; that vanished, also she 165Melted and disappeared as suddenly;And in the air, her new voice looting soft,Cried, Lycius! Gentle Lycius!??Borne aloftwith the bright mists about the mountains hoarthese words dissolved: Crete’s forests heard no more. 170Whither fled Lamia, now a lady bright,
  • 92. a full-born beauty new and exquisite?She fled into that valley they pass overwho go to Corinth from Cenchreas? Shore;and rested at the foot of those wild hills, 175the rugged founts of the Peraean rills,And of that other ridge whose barren backstretches, with all its mist and cloudy rack,South-westward to Cleone. There she stoodabout a young bird’s flutter from a wood, 180Fair, on a sloping green of mossy tread,by a clear pool, wherein she passionateto see herself escaped from so sore ills,while her robes flaunted with the daffodils.Ah, happy Lycius for she was a maid 185More beautiful than ever twisted braid,Or sighed, or blushed, or on spring-flowered leaSpread a green kirtle to the minstrelsy:A virgin purest lipped, yet in the loreOf love deep learned to the red hearts core: 190Not one hour old, yet of scientiant brainTo underplay bliss from its neighbor pain;Define their pettish limits, and estrangeTheir points of contact, and swift counterchange;Intrigue with the specious chaos, and despair 195Its most ambiguous atoms with sure art;As though in Cupid’s college she had spentSweet days a lovely graduate, still unsent,And kept his rosy terms in idle languishment.Why this fair creature chose so fairly 200By the wayside to linger, we shall see;But first tis fit to tell how she could museAnd dream, when in the serpent prison-house,Of all she list, strange or magnificent:How, ever, where she willed, her spirit went; 205Whether to faint Elysium, or whereDown through tress-lifting waves the Nereid’s fairWind into Thetis? bower by many a pearly stair;Or where God Bacchus drains his cups divine,Stretched out, at ease, beneath a glutinous pine; 210Or where in Pluto’s gardens palatineMulcibers columns gleam in far piazzian line.And sometimes into cities she would sendher dream, with feast and rioting to blend;and once, while among mortals dreaming thus, 215
  • 93. she saw the young Corinthian LyciusCharioting foremost in the envious race,like a young Jove with calm uneager face,And fell into a swooning love of him.Now on the moth-time of that evening dim 220He would return that way, as well she knew,To Corinth from the shore; for freshly blewThe eastern soft wind, and his galley nowGrated the quay stones with her brazen prowIn port Cenchreas, from Egina isle 225Fresh anchored; whither he had been awhileTo sacrifice to Jove, whose temple thereWaits with high marble doors for blood and incense rare.Jove heard his vows, and bettered his desire;For by some fearful chance he made retire 230From his companions, and set forth to walk,Perhaps grown wearied of their Corinth talk:Over the solitary hills he fared,Thoughtless at first, but ere eve’s star appearedHis fantasy was lost, where reason fades, 235In the calmed twilight of Platonic shades.Lamia beheld him coming, near, more near?Close to her passing, in indifference drear,His silent sandals swept the mossy green;So neighbored to him, and yet so unseen 240She stood: he passed, shut up in mysteries,His mind wrapped like his mantle, while her eyesFollowed his steps, and her neck regal whiteTurned syllabi thus, Ah, Lycius bright,And will you leave me on the hills alone? 245Lycius, look back! And be some pity shown.He did; not with cold wonder fearing,But Orpheus-like at an Eurydice;For so delicious were the words she sung,It seemed he had loved them a whole summer long: 250And soon his eyes had drunk her beauty up,Leaving no drop in the bewildering cup,And still the cup was full, while he afraidLest she should vanish ere his lip had paidDue adoration, thus began to adore; 255Her soft look growing coy, she saw his chain so sure:?Leave thee alone! Look back! Ah, Goddess, seewhether my eyes can ever turn from thee!For pity does not this sad heart belie?Even as thou vanishes so I shall die. 260Stay! Though a Naiad of the rivers, stay!
  • 94. To thy far wishes will thy streams obey:Stay! Though the greenest woods be thy domain,Alone they can drink up the morning rain:Though a descended Pleiades, will not one 265Of thine harmonious sisters keep in tuneThy spheres, and as thy silver proxy shine?So sweetly to these ravished ears of mineCame thy sweet greeting, that if thou should fadeThy memory will waste me to a shade: 270For pity do not melt If I should stay,Said Lamia, here, upon this floor of clay,And pain my steps upon these flowers too rough,What canst thou say or do of charm enoughTo dull the nice remembrance of my home? 275Thou canst not ask me with thee here to roamover these hills and vales, where no joy is,empty of immortality and bliss!Thou art a scholar, Lycius, and must knowthat finer spirits cannot breathe below 280in human climes, and live: Alas! Poor youth,what taste of purer air hast thou to soothemy essence? What serener palaces,where I may all my many senses please,And by mysterious sleights a hundred thirsts appease? 285It cannot be Adieu!? So said, she rosetiptoe with white arms spread. He, sick to losethe amorous promise of her lone complains,Swooned, murmuring of love, and pale with pain.The cruel lady, without any show 290Of sorrow for her tender favorites woe,But rather, if her eyes could brighter be,With brighter eyes and slow amenity,Put her new lips to his, and gave afreshThe life she had so tangled in her mesh: 295And as he from one trance was wakeningInto another, she began to sing,Happy in beauty, life, and love, and every thing,A song of love, too sweet for earthly lyres,While, like held breath, the stars drew in their panting fires 300And then she whispered in such trembling tone,As those who, safe together met aloneFor the first time through many anguished days,Use other speech than looks; bidding him raiseHis drooping head, and clear his soul of doubt, 305For that she was a woman, and withoutAny more subtle fluid in her veins
  • 95. Than throbbing blood, and that the self-same painsInhabited her frail-strung heart as his.And next she wondered how his eyes could miss 310Her face so long in Corinth, where, she said,She dwelt but half retired, and there had ledDays happy as the gold coin could inventWithout the aid of love; yet in contentTill she saw him, as once she passed him by, 315Where? Against a column he leant thoughtfullyAt Venus? temple porch, ?mid baskets heapedOf amorous herbs and flowers, newly reapedLate on that eve, as ?twas the night beforeThe Adonian feast; whereof she saw no more, 320But wept alone those days, for why should she adore?Lycius from death awoke into amaze,To see her still, and singing so sweet lays;Then from amaze into delight he fellTo hear her whisper woman’s lore so well; 325And every word she spoke enticed him onTo unperplexed delight and pleasure known.Let the mad poets say whatever they pleaseOf the sweets of Fairies, Perris, Goddesses,There is not such a treat among them all, 330Haunters of cavern, lake, and waterfall,As a real woman, lineal indeedFrom Pyrrhas pebbles or old Adams seed.Thus gentle Lamia judged, and judged aright,That Lycius could not love in half a fright, 335So threw the goddess off, and won his heartMore pleasantly by playing woman’s part,With no more awe than what her beauty gave,That, while it smote, still guaranteed to save.Lycius to all made eloquent reply, 340Marrying to every word a twinborn sigh;And last, pointing to Corinth, asked her sweet,If ?twas too far that night for her soft feet.The way was short, for Lamia’s eagernessMade, by a spell, the triple league decrease 345to a few paces; not at all surmisedby blinded Lycius, so in her comprised.They passed the city gates, he knew not howso noiseless, and he never thought to know.As men talk in a dream, so Corinth all, 350throughout her palaces imperial,and all her populous streets and temples lewd,
  • 96. muttered, like tempest in the distance brewed,To the wide-spreaded night above her towers.Men, women, rich and poor, in the cool hours, 355Shuffled their sandals over the pavement white,Companioned or alone; while many a lightFlared, here and there, from wealthy festivals,And threw their moving shadows on the walls,Or found them clustered in the corniced shade 360Of some arched temple door, or dusky colonnade.Muffling his face, of greeting friends in fear,Her fingers he pressed hard, as one came nearWith curled gray beard, sharp eyes, and smooth bald crown,Slow-stepped, and robed in philosophic gown: 365Lycius shrank closer, as they met and past,Into his mantle, adding wings to haste,While hurried Lamia trembled: ?Ah,? Said he,why do you shudder, love, so ruefully?Why does your tender palm dissolve in dew??? 370I’m wearied, said fair Lamia: tell me whois that old man? I cannot bring to mindHis features:?Lycius! Wherefore did you blindyourself from his quick eyes?? Lycius replied,Tis Apollonius sage, my trusty guide 375and good instructor; but to-night he seemsthe ghost of folly haunting my sweet dreams.While yet he spoke they had arrived beforeA pillared porch, with lofty portal door,Where hung a silver lamp, whose phosphor glow 380Reflected in the slabbed steps below,Mild as a star in water; for so new,And so unsullied was the marble hue,So through the crystal polish, liquid fine,Ran the dark veins, that none but feet divine 385Could ever have touched there. Sounds AeolianBreathed from the hinges, as the ample spanOf the wide doors disclosed a place unknownSome time to any, but those two alone,And a few Persian mutes, who that same year 390Were seen about the markets: none knew whereThey could inhabit; the most curiousWere foiled, who watched to trace them to their house:And but the flitter-winged verse must tell,For truth’s sake, what woe afterwards befell, 395
  • 97. would humor many a heart to leave them thus,Shut from the busy world of more incredulous.WHO AM I ?!5/26/09 ~I am a goddess who personifies the sea. I am considered bysome to be the monstrous embodiment of primordial chaos. Although there are noearly precedents for it, some of my kin identify me as a sea serpent or dragon. I amfrom the womb of Anna who gives birth to the second generation of deities.It states that Anna gave birth to dragons and serpents, but they included among alarger and more general list of monsters she birth which includes scorpion men andmerpeople, none of these children resemble the birth mother but their true motherLilith. I am the one and only one who resemble Chaos and limited to rule the aquaticenvironment of Earth. I seem to have no connection to high powers that my kinprocess but it is my control of the water elements that will help Rainn defeat all whostand in her way to rule.About me10/10/09 My name is Cecaelia Lamia Lee Princess of seas but aGoddess by birth. I know that my father (The Morning Star) and mother (Anna)hid me from the Blind Dragon who was killing off all of their spawns created whilethey were in human form but my fathers love for me was so deep that he kept meshielded all this time. It took me a millennia to stop feeling like a dirty secret whilemy cousins Bella and Rainn got all of the praise and glory...Now its my time to playand collect what is rightfully mine!I am a child born to the Morning Star (Lucifer) in his human form Samael. I washidden from the scorn of the blind dragon, Ninib. I am an aspect of Anna it is shewho summoned me here from her womb to do battle to ensure that Bella and Rainnnever take the throne. Ill see them dead first. I too am of their blood even though Iam only their half cousin.When I was discovered by the others, I considered a separate unrelated species themas I was deformed at birth. I was never going to be created the same as the others asmy linage contains both The Morning Star and the first, Chaos. As it was Chaoswhich injected Anna with part of her essence to create me as a claimant to thethrone!I fear I was rejected as I contain the first blood of Chaos. My Grandmother Chaos isthe primordial and chthonic deity of us all and is the original state of existence fromwhich the first of our kind appeared. In other words, the dark void which is space.Chaos was the vast and dark void from which the first deity ((maybe not the first))Lilith, emerged. Lilith other aspects: Llyra & Niahla who also emerged from thisbeing Chaos and together created the earth.
  • 98. More about me I am a goddess who personifies the sea. I am considered by some to bethe monstrous embodiment of primordial chaos. Although there are no early precedentsfor it, some of my kin identify me as a sea serpent or dragon, when true form. I am fromthe womb of Anna who gives birth to the second aspects of deities.It states that Anna gave birth to dragons and serpents, but they included among a largerand more general list of monsters she birth which includes scorpion men and merpeople,none of these children resemble the birth mother but their true father The morning Star. Iam the one and only one who resemble Chaos and limited to rule the aquatic environmentof Earth. I seem to have no connection to high powers that my kin process but it is mycontrol of the water elements that will conquer Rainn and Bella, defeating them so I amtruly rule those who do not see I am of a higher class of being.The night which will decide where their heart lies.5/4/09 Catherine had beenwatching a trilling action movie when Larik transported her to his home deep within thedesert. He has removed her from Raven comforting hands and had left a shadow of herbody; know he had not much time for his move. He knew she was not completely happywith him but saw she was very willing to have him again. This time he would be forcefulbut gentle. He produced a most sweet red rose from his home planet. Catherine gave inand kissed his sweet lips but before he could return the kiss Raven appeared angry forwhat he had done. They fought over his actions but their screams could be heard from farbe on the desert and it Reached Rainn ears. She knew her mother was in pain and that herfather causing an other war between her mother and her lover Catherine.So she left and saw they were lying on the floor with Catherine in tears near by. She sawher mother leave and her as her father stayed. She left as Anakletos confront her fatherbelieving it was over her and how they called her to all their lover spats but it was muchdeeper than that. It was something that neither Catherine nor Rainn knew about. Theyfought with words inflecting emotional pain, it moved from Rainn to Lariks ex wifeAnne. Who Larik had left. But before they were at the stage of battle Anakletos left asthis was not the time or place for his revenge. Catherine was outside with Raven but theysoon left and saw Rainn was returning home also. This whole night brought up oldmemories to the surface and these feelings would not go away so easy as beforeCatherine Is Now A Demigod5/2/09 As Catherine fought with Rainn Ravenwatch and guided her as Rainn attacked her from all sides. Rainn had blind her butwith her senses and RAVEN essence she completed her first task but when shefinished she knew that the room had filled fire and then began to fill with Angelsfrom the deeps of earth. She was unable to see them as Rainn had not returned hersight. She could only feel their presence around her“Who are you?"
  • 99. Catherine heard RAVENS words and looked within to see what these senses where.She examined and discovered she could detect perceive electrical impulses aroundher. It was like if she was an aquatic creature. It seemed human called this electrolocation, detecting objects by electrical rays of an other being. She could also detectthe Earths magnetic field changes as this was important sense. Which was there asa navigational abilities during migration but as a God it help when outer beingshifted to another realm which was not their own. She then felt her sight appear asshe saw the Angles gather as one BEING.Catherine saw so much without normal human sight. She felt she was truly nowbecoming a Demigod. She had gained the great strength of a God, and so now shecould cross the threshold between the worlds of the living and the dead yet returnsafely at a moment notice. This why she had seen both the Angles of the skies andthe crust of the earth. She saw as the flames faded and her vision return but this wasnot her true Godly vision but just a small aspect of it. She toke hold of both RAINNand RAVEN as kissed them both on her completion as their kin.The Serpent Within4/27/09 In the story in Genesis 3:1-5, Eve is tempted by acreature referred to as "He" and described simply as a serpent. Its only unusualfeatures are that it could speak and presumably didnt yet crawl (it was made tocrawl on its belly only after being cursed by God).I am the female embodiment of this most mythic, religious creature, signifying I amto be regarded not as a mundane natural phenomenon or as an object of scientificzoology, but as the bearer of symbolic Evil.Frequently in art I am represented with the upper body of a woman and snake-likelower parts.I am connected with deceit, by my forked tongue. A forked tongue is a tongue whichhas not one end, but two, pointing in different directions. In humans, the tongue isan essential tool in speech, and the presence of only one tip signifies the unity oftruthful speech, and corresponds to the unity of the truth itself. There is only onetruth, but there are many lies. The forked tongue represents the disunity of deceitfulspeech.I am connected with vengefulness and vindictiveness. This connection depends inpart on the experience that poisonous snakes often deliver deadly defensive biteswithout giving prior notice or warning to their unwitting victims. Although a snakeis defending itself from the encroachment of its victim into the snakes immediatevicinity, the unannounced and deadly strike may seem unduly vengeful whenmeasured against the unwitting victims perceived lack of blameworthiness.Sometimes serpents and dragons are used interchangeably, having similar symbolicfunctions. The venom of the serpent is thought to have a fiery quality similar to afire spitting dragon.
  • 100. ~Now the serpent was more cunning than any beast of the field which the Lord God hadmadeAnd the Lord sent fiery serpents among the people, and they bit the people; and muchpeople of Israel died. Therefore the people came to Moses, and said, we have sinned, forwe have spoken against the Lord, and against thee; pray unto the Lord, that he take awaythe serpents from us. And Moses prayed for the people. And the Lord said unto Moses,Make thee a fiery serpent, and set it upon a pole: and it shall come to pass, that everyone that is bitten, when he looked upon it, shall live. And Moses made a serpent of brass,and put it upon a pole, and it came to pass, that if a serpent had bitten any man, when hebeheld the serpent of brass, he lived.The great dragon was hurled down -- that ancient serpent called the devil, or Satan, wholeads the whole world astray... ~He has lead Larik astray as so to inflect his evil upon this world I have been made into his image, a Serpent . No Longer will I be welcomed into the gates of heaven butinto the pits of Hell!The End and The Begin of Catherine4/26/09 Anyone who says that gratuitoussex is no substitute for gratuitous violence obviously hasnt enough gratuitous sexBut seduction isn’t making someone do what they don’t want to do. Seduction isenticing someone into doing what they secretly want. Which is why I lay here withAnna in the hall of our home covered in busies from my encounter with Larik. Weshare a moment of utter Violence through sex but it seems he has planted a seedwithin me. Not a babe but a seed of Evil. I can feel my blood within changing whichin turn will change me but in to what. Is this the end if me or is it only thebeginning. I cry out to Raven but she and Larik are in a moment of gratuitousviolence themselves not through sex but by utter force. There seems to be a newmember involved. Her name I do not know but she is more powerful them puttogether.So I wait and will soon see my new formCatherine Iris Thaumantos~Catherine discovered through Ravens male aspect Larik that Raven LovedCatherine since their first encounter in Rome. Raven was in slumber with childbut soon awoke to the most violent pains of Childbirth. Raven went through amost vile birth Experience but soon enough the child was born. Raven died of thepains but the child rein bodied her soul back within her human form, soon aftersome talk Catherine and Raven had the night alone they were waiting for sincethat first sight. Larik was of Raven so he too shared in this heated night. WithinDays, He soon turned in a most evil beast, violently attacking Catherine with hispricked organ. She has now been inflected with his intense liquid, as it travels
  • 101. through her bloodstream. It seems she been morphed again becoming more than avampire but into an Alien Snake and God! ~Catherine Iris Thaumantos was the only daughter of Thaumas of Rome. She wentby many names but to her friends she was simply known as Catherine, a newname acquired in the time of Henry VIII. She embodied the true sense of thehuman spirit and was chosen by the aliens to be their major conduit for thehumans. Before Raven proclaimed her true love to Catherine, she wanted out ofbeing immortal.Actually being immortal made her into a darker, indifferent being. Soon sheaccepted the idea of dying by the morning sun when stopped by Larik, Ravensmale aspect from doing so.Through his mouth Raven told of her undying love for Catherine this was nearlyimpossible for her to believe because in the proceeding centuries Raven keptCatherine at a safe distance. It was that moment that she realized that her life wasworth living. Finally they could express what they had denied all along to eachother. .The Other Half of MeRavenlily Goddess of BalanceMy only true mate!The Beginnings of Iris:Originally born, Iris Thaumantos, in the latter part of the Roman Republic, a fewdecades before the birth of Jesus Christ, to a powerful Senatorial family, Iris wasknown for her tall presence, rippling long brown hair and peering emerald-greeneyes. Like many of the Patrician Roman females of the time, she was taught howto read and write and became extremely well versed in epic poems, especially thework of Ovid. She first met Raven when she was a young woman of twenty-two.Raven stayed on for a few months during that time they connected. As faithwould have it she left suddenly, Raven never stayed in one place for long. Fiveyears later, they saw each other again at some holy festival for The Goddess Cereswhere she begged Catherine to leave her family and live with her. But she refusedto join her travels around the world and Raven left again.Leaving RomeCatherine’s father held a high rank within the Senate, but when a new man gainedpower, her family was in danger as her father was publicly denied his role in thesenate thus making the job he once held illegal, this man was Julius Caesar. WhenThe Death of Caesar occurred, Catherine’s father was soon betrayed as being afriend of Brutus; this was not true as her father believed in democracy and not the
  • 102. sword. Her father knew the end was coming and sent her away to Gaul were loyalfriends would helped her survive. There she met Raven once more, five yearsafter their last encounter in Rome. Unbeknownst to Catherine, Raven knew whathad occurred to her family and offered her an escape away from the day to dayway she was living. She accepted and starting a new phase in her life...All whoknew Catherine remarked about her near ethereal beauty but underneath thephysical beauty was a fundamentally dark, empty, nihilistic person.....Becoming a VampireWhen a creature called Cecaelia, wanted revenge on her kin for what they hadcommitted on her siblings, she used Ravens love for Catherine in her plans todisturb our happy existence together. She removed me from Raven to a hiddencave within the mountains of Egypt to be transformed in a vampire by her nearlycreated demonic children. They were of human appearance but not Human! Theysoon bit her with their misshaped teeth, implanting their toxic platelets into herblood stream causing her to become what they were, a vampire! Raven wasangered by Cecaelia actions and vowed to exact her revenge but Catherinestopped her, citing now she was immortal!Life with RavenThey stayed together for the next two hundred years, before arguing and finallyseparating. Raven considered herself a teacher who longed to impart what sheknew about being immortal, but Catherine being as free-spirited and highlyeducated she rebelled. She had no patience to be her student their time togetherwas not what she expected to be.The next time they met again was at the court of Henry VIII. Ravens tried in vainto make Catherine leave her companion and fledgling, John, and come back withher. Catherine’s relationship with John was of great concern to Raven, who fearedshe was being held against her will.Confronting Raven!Catherine greatly denied this and finally overcame her embarrassment andadmitted to Raven later that she just could not bring herself to leave John, citingthat his stronger personality propelled her through the constantly changing times.The next time they met again was in 2007, when Catherine was among thirteenvampires who survived a killing spree by a vampire who wish to be master. Sheremained quiet and withdrawn throughout their time together, staring out thewindows and saying little to Raven, who had shown infinite patience, knewCatherine wanted to be saved once again from her constant loneliness.Catherine the VampireLike many other vampires, Catherine had become very remorseful, over herimmortality. Initially she loved immortality but soon became to regret it. Feelingalone and lost she regressed into the dark, indifferent person you see today. Ravenknew that she was troubled in some deep, fundamental way even before becominga vampire. She believed her to be tormented by her life in Rome. During aconfrontation in New York, when Lucifer directly asked Catherine to join withhim or die, she merely responded in a quiet, indifferent voice that she could notdo what he was asking and stoically accepts the idea of dying until Raven offered
  • 103. her support she followed her blindly not knowing this would be another phase ofexistence.Vampire 22 Vampirewhen a creature called Cecaelia, wanted revenge on her kin for what they hadcommitted on her siblings, she used Ravens love for Catherine in her plans todisturb our happy existence together. She removed me from Raven to a hiddencave within the mountains of Egypt to be transformed in a vampire by her nearlycreated demonic children. They were of human appearance but not Human! Theysoon bit her with their misshaped teeth, implanting their toxic platelets into herblood stream causing her to become what they were, a vampire! Raven wasangered by Cecaelia actions and vowed to exact her revenge but Catherinestopped her, citing now she was immortal!They stayed together for the next two hundred years, before arguing and finallyseparating. Raven considered herself a teacher who longed to impart what sheknew about being immortal, but Catherine being as free-spirited and highlyeducated she rebelled. She had no patience to be her student their time togetherwas not what she expected to be.The next time they met again was at the court of Henry VIII. Ravens tried in vainto make Catherine leave her companion and fledgling, John, and come back withher. Catherine’s relationship with John was of great concern to Raven, who fearedshe was being held against my will.Catherine greatly denied this and finally overcame her embarrassment andadmitted to Raven later that she just could not bring herself to leave John, citingthat his stronger personality propelled her through the constantly changing times.The next time they met again was in 2007, when Catherine was among thirteenvampires who survived a killing spree by a vampire who wish to be master. Sheremained quiet and withdrawn throughout their time together, staring out thewindows and saying little to Raven, who had shown infinite patience, knewCatherine wanted to be saved once again from her constant loneliness.Like many other vampires, Catherine had become very remorseful, over herimmortality. Initially she loved immortality but soon became to regret it. Feelingalone and lost she regressed into the dark, indifferent person you see today. Ravenknew that she was troubled in some deep, fundamental way even before becominga vampire. She believed her to be tormented by her life in Rome. During aconfrontation in New York, when Lucifer directly asked Catherine to join withhim or die, she merely responded in a quiet, indifferent voice that she could notdo what he was asking and stoically accepts the idea of dying until Raven offeredher support she followed her blindly not knowing this would be another phase ofexistence.
  • 104. The BirthNov 22 The BirthCatherine did all that she could to help Raven bring her son into this world butdied once the child was born. Catherine was devastated believing her love was nomore.She screamed as she held her in her arms then the child began to cry, Raven’sbody became animated as a blinding white light came out of her mouth and eyes.Raven again opened her mouth and gasped for her first new breath. She rose fromthe floor, taking the male child with her in her arms. Catherine was so happy shecried tears of extreme joy, realizing she hadn’t lost the love of her life. Ravenlooked sad when she realized how much this birth had taken out of Catherineespecially when she noticed her bleeding from an abdominal wound. She fellunconsciously with her eyes fixed on Raven and her arm reaching out to her.The child then cried again, as the deep wound began to heal. Catherine gaspedthen placed her hand over the spot that was just bloodied then she looked up andsaw that the house had been torn asunder. All that was left was the room in whichthe birth had taken place. The house was no more. The child was cold andmewling, Raven was still recovering so Catherine gathered some clothes andblankets for the child. Larik arrived soon after and he was not well. All of thecolor was drained and he was soaking wet with sweat he fell to the floor before asingle gasp could escape his mouth the birth had taken its toll on him as much asit did Raven? They were after all the same being.Fear had overcome Catherine when she saw Larik change into something shecouldn’t describe but whatever it was it needed to be controlled.Raven quickly kicked her away as she placed Larik in a magical cage, which hewas unable to escape. She looked on in horror as he finished his transformation inthe monstrous panther. Catherine had reached a breaking point when Raven cameto comfort her.She was relieved and wanted nothing more then to be with Raven so much that itmade her cry even more. Raven then suddenly placed a comforting hand on herwet face and began to kiss her. She felt a great gust of energy within as her heartbeat more beyond what her body could handle. Catherine could taste Raven allover and thought about giving into her feelings but she had just given birth andLarik was there. Raven then left to check on the child in the next room but beforeCatherine could recover she heard a cry from the room next door then ran to seewhat had made Raven scream..... The new born child had divided into two andwith its new female aspect, were now the age of twenty-one.The RapeNov 22The RapeAnyone who says that gratuitous sex is no substitute for gratuitous violenceobviously hasnt gone through what Catherine has. She’d discovered seductionisn’t making someone do what they don’t want to do. Seduction is enticingsomeone into doing what they secretly want. She did not want to be raped and felt
  • 105. degraded. Which is why she lay there in the hall of the home she shared withRaven covered in busies from the sexual attack Larik inflected. They sharedsomething she could not forget. He left something inside her but it wasn’t a child,it was something EVIL!She could feel the blood within her burning through her veins and didn’t know ifthis was the end of her or some other kind of beginning and cried out for Ravenbut she is too busy with Larik as they battle with The Alpha and The Omega.She sensed someone else coming and was scared all she knew is that this womanwas one of them static with fear she cried out God, please help me.?Raven viciously attacked Larik for infecting Catherine with their alien blood.Catherine withdrew from Raven instead staring at the golden cage that housedLarik completely ignoring her. Catherine’s mind and emotions had been ampedby the infusion of alien blood she blamed Raven for not protecting her then lashedout and admitted that she’d bedded The Morning Star and Larik in a debaucherycatered for three. The two of them began to argue constantly and Raven asked herto live their home to give her time to contemplate what she was going to do.Alone and morose Catherine sought answers to why she had been given such agift. She hoped to find answers for this but it only mad her more sullen.The Torment of Catherine 10/7/09 I thought these days were over when Ifelt there was no point to this mere existence but it seems I was wrong, verywrong. I have not felt this way in so long. It has been a difficult year but Ibelieved these feeling of loneliness had gone from my heart. I thought herlove would rid me of my pains but it seems her undying love is not enough. Itseems I was not made for this immortality. I wish now to be made Mortalagain. I feel thought it is too late as I have become the flesh which createdman!I wished there was a true God to save my tortured? Soul? From thisconfusing gift which was placed in me against my will. I believed at first Iwas blessed with what was given to me by Larik pricked Organ but now Ionly feel utter concept for what he has done to me. I know he had a purposefor? This? But if he could inform me better in what that is, I might see somereason for my present here on this realm.I do not know how to express how I feel to my beloved Raven, who has donenothing but help me cope with my new abilities. I hope she will forgive me towanting to return to my people. I do not wish to be dragged further along asI feel the battle is truly now upon us. May Lilith save man from the waft ofLucifer’s Hand, that yet to be known. So as for me I will step aside andexperience it as the common man will, unaware that everything is about tochange for worse!Goddess of Envy9/16/09 ~As they say, Envy never smiles, except at thesight of someone elses troubles. She never sleeps either, because she is toodisturbed with wakeful cares. She hates the success of others because at its
  • 106. sight she pines away. She is herself her own punishment because as much asshe gnaws she is herself gnawed.Catherine Update8/31/09 ~Catherine returned to the arms of her beloved Ravenknowing well she was not same as before, she had evolved beyond what Larik hadintended her to be. She was created by Larik so she could be controlled whenever hefelt the need to use her against Raven. As well as begin a sexual object for him to usewhen he had the urges to copulate, she would also be used to detract Raven from herfather true intentions for man.Catherine was unaware that she was created by a coven of vampires who were thechildren of the first vampire child from Anna Medusa’s womb. So she held theintense mix blood of both Lucifer and Anna. Those first vampires contain the truetainted blood of the Aliens. So were in-fact semi-deities. It was only after furthergenerations of mixing with man were the blood diluted to nothing more than thesimple power of immortality. Only the first and second generations of the firstvampire contained the blood of their forefather, the others only contain the aspect ofthe thirst for blood with the gift of immortality.So when Larik Infected Catherine with his alien blood from his engrossed prickedorgan did he in fact awoke the dormant DNA of her true origins. The combine bloodof both him inside her with that of her vampire Blood Grandparents Anna Medusaand The Morning Star created a being more powerful than Larik could ever image. Itwas only after her explosion from Raven home did she discovered her true gifts inisolation. Her Alien powers were now as equal as Raven’s. In fact, now she was trulya blood sister to Raven. They were so much more interconnected than ever before.Catherine also knew now that Sam and Thais contained every generation of blood oftheir complex family tree through both Raven and herself. They contain powers thaneven they did not know of yet.Catherine discovered insulation she could see the future, but no matter what she saidor did it could not be changed, as well as this she saw the intentions of othersthrough the object they had once held. These new gifts were both a blessing as wellas a curse. She did not regret them but regretted that she could not change the future,so never spoke much of what she saw to come to other around her as it was useless,as nothing could be altered from what she had seen in her vision. She was unsurewhy she was given this confusing gift as it was just more frustration to know thingsthat were to happen knowing well they could not be changed .The Book of Gates: 8/17/09 ~The Gods listed in the Book of Gates each havedifferent titles, and wear different colored clothes, but are identical in all otherrespects, wearing a three point star above their heads, representing Lilith three
  • 107. aspects. Most of the GODS noticed in the book, only appear to those who havebecome of us, and so it has been suggested that the Book of Gates originated merelyas a system for determining if a new line of our blood was wordy, with the GODS ateach gate being a representation of the main ability that one gains through thecomplexion process.The Book of Gates portrays the "gates" of the underworld as mankind knows it. Itcompares most readily with the "gates" referred to in the Book of the Dead, spells144 and 145. The Ramesside Period Egyptians considered this an acceptablealternative for the Book of Gates in tombs that did not belong to pharaohs, such asthat of Nefertari and others in the Valley of the Queens. In fact, "gates" referred to inthe Book of the Dead and elsewhere have caused some confusion with the Book ofGates, even amongst our kin. The concept of "gates" in the afterlife aspect was areoccurring theme in many of the books of the afterlife, or entering the newdimension of next phase of life. The structure of the Book of Gates is very similar tothat of the Amduat, with twelve nocturnal steps each divided into three registers. Asin the Amduat, the first stage of the process has a special position with a structurethat differs from the remainder of the tasks the subject is given by the holder of theBOOK OF THE DEAD!Catherine The Goddess7/31/09 ~Catherine discovered through Ravens male aspectLarik that Raven Loved Catherine since their first encounter in Rome. Raven was inslumber with child but soon awoke to the most violent pains of Childbirth. Ravenwent through a most vile birth Experience but soon enough the child was born.Raven died of the pains but the child reinbodied her soul back within her humanform, soon after some talk Catherine and Raven had the night alone they werewaiting for since that first sight. Larik was of Raven so he too shared in this heatednight. Within Days, He soon turned in a most evil beast, violently attackingCatherine with his pricked organ. She has now been inflected with his intense liquid,as it travels through her bloodstream. It seems she been morphed again becomingmore than a vampire but into an Alien and God!Her first Knowledge of what she has become7/29/09 Iris walked forward, lookedand saw the land was void of all life, not one tree to provide neither her withshelter nor one animal to feed her intense hunger which screamed from the pitof her now aching belly. Water. There seemed no water near to drink. She feltthere was no hope and this would were her life would end. Alone in an unknownland.Do not think like this, you are a wife of an Emperor. The Gods will not forsake youlike thisso with her faith she walked towards the west, hoping she would come acrosssome small village to save her from this naked land. It was the Roman Otto rate
  • 108. period of the year, known more commonly, as the beautiful October days as theywere extremely sunny and warm with no rain ever fallen. So she knew not evenrain water could provide her with drink.So Hours past when she heard some voices near, she could not see but heardthem near. It seemed there was more than two or three people, she contained onbut still no sight of these voices.Iris we heard your cries for help and have come!Iris turned but still no sigh of the voices who just spoke to her. Was herthrobbing for food and water causing her to imagine voices in the air, was shehallucinating. Again THEY spokemy child, do not be afraid, we are here to guide you.Iris screamed out? Who are you?? her words echoing around herWe are like you, the ChosenIris was confused by such a statement, as she had no understanding of thewords just spoken to her by these sprits, ?Show your face Sprit as I knew nothingof what you speak of. What have I been chosen forSegment of writing today7/29/09 ~Iris moved further down the tunnel as the lightdiminished. She could not see now, it was complete darkness. All she rememberedlast was laying in her cushion comfort in lavish decorated bedchamber where shewas removed and brought to a cave by an unknown pale figure. She rememberedseeking information on her location but none was given. Then blank, nothing. Itseemed it was a dream, but was it as she stood there in the dark. She placed herhands on the rough stone and guided herself further on, no knowing where she wouldend up. The stone wall was cold to her flesh. She walked on for a further few feetwhen she saw in the distant some light. She continued down until she saw it was asmall opening to the outside.Moving forward slowly she smiled with relieve that she was soon to be in the light ofthe day as the caves air was thin , which made it hard for her to breath. She nearedthe opening and saw the rumble rocks. She climbed the rumble, which leaded up tothe exit of the cave. She went out. But when she hit the air she felt sick and ready tofaith. As it was much warmer than she had remembered for a summer day. She roseup to see her location more clearly, hoping to known something which would informher where she was. She looked around and saw nothing which she found familiar toher weary eyes. Signing, she sat down on one of the near-by rocks hoping she couldfind something to guide her back to Rome. The suns location in the sky told her itwas midday. This confused her even more as her last clear memories were of the latenight. She was unsure was her last memories were of the night before or had shebeen in the cave in which she had just come from for a few days. She did feel an
  • 109. extreme hunger, a kind one feels with days of no food! But still she was unsure ofhow long she had been in that dark cave.She sat there for some moments until she realized she needs to find some food to eat,as the hunger she now felt was harder to bear. She rose, again feeling sick to herstomach. It was a complex combination of hunger and illness. She believed it wasthe lack of food which made her sick so a source of nourishment was truly neededabove all things.Catherine Iris 6/30/09 ~Catherine was a lovely young woman who was "almost toopretty to be truly beautiful, for her prettiness overcame any sense of majesty or deepmystery." Underneath her physical beauty, Catherine is a fundamentally dark, empty,nihilistic person; her actions are almost always based on her insatiable need to fillher own inner emptiness.She has wavy black hair which she often interweaves with pearls and sharp greeneyes and is often described as a woman painted by Botticelli.While not with Raven She lived a life with her fellow vampires until they died andshe was forced to depend financially on her evil kinsmen who were bankers. Theyprovided amply for her as long as she killed those who they instructed her to kill. Shedid this by opening her house to virtually all as an amicable and graceful hostess andsecretly placing poison in the wine cups of those whom her said kinsmen wanteddead.She was a renowned Venetian courtesan at this time when a vampire came to knowher. His vampire immediately fell in love with her and became obsessed with her.The two stayed together for nearly two hundred years, before her lover Catherine inDresden. He left because when talking to Raven, Catherine said that she would leaveher lover if it meant having Raven with her once more. Catherine also didnt tell herlover that rumors of Raven in Dresden were the only reason they were moving there.It is not known where Raven went after leaving Catherine but it would not till Ravenwas in deep slumber with child that they would find each other again~Catherine Iris6/18/09 ~ Catherine Iris is no Sex Toy for all. I have decided to onlyto play sex related scenes with ones I know well. So I might flirt and be somewhatforward but does not mean going to mail and asking for sex to happen between thecharacters. I play 99 % of my RP in Comments no matter now mature the contentgets. I am no child and am not afraid what can happen by Bebo. Who do not mind aslong as not reported by ones who wish to ruin the fun of RP. I will not play sex or sexrelated scenes now with others as I was made to and asked to play with ones whohave no knowledge of true sex. And I believe were virgins and somewhat extremelyneedy in getting a reply when I was in other RP Stories with close friends. I havegotten to know and trust them and so I give reply to them first then any others. ~DEAL WITH IT!
  • 110. The Loss of Bella5/25/09 ~Catherine cried and fall to the floor as her daughterseemed to be dying right in front of her eyes. Catherines heart was spiralinginto a deep abyss now. Shattering the warmth and confidence from within herbeing, quickly her feeling of security faded as she looked on as Bellas bodyconvulsed; unable to help she now was filled with shame and confusion. Thefeeing of lose she felt was like illusionary glasses, evasive from prying ones,secretive as the fading winds yet spews out the depths of her true emotions as itis to the fury of a fierce lava, earthquake, and geyser.The pain in her chest was excruciating. It literally hurts just like a bruise or adeep gash. It hurts her to breath, swallow, chew, look around the room. Moveher arms and legs, etc. It was horrible. It toke all your energy to keep breathingas Bella cried out for help. Her mind went into sprints with thoughts and soonstopped all together.It was like she had lost something dear to her and she could never get it back.Like there is no hope... something beautiful and good in her life was now goneand she was left alone in the dark. It would be like going from a state ofhappiness and feeling at home and peace to going into total darkness andconfusion where she didnt know anything and nothing makes sense andeverything is unfamiliar... loss. Bella come back to me.~Most people who feel what she felt now would die as if further consumes her entirebody, as it blocked some kind of logical reason. She felt as if nothing "good" willever be felt again. Then a question came to her to mind what exactly is "good" itcould be a variety of things to others, therefore it would be hard to describesuch an emotion because we all view the world with different eyes and sadnessto all could mean something totally different to who read her thoughts now, thisso, there comes to you some sort of hypothetical question because sadness issomething not "common knowledge" to people and it is like I said different toeach person.Catherine!5/5/09 I dont wanna be the girl who laughs the loudestOr the girl who never wants to be aloneI dont wanna be that call at four oclock in the morningCause Im the only one you know in the world that wont be homeAahh, the sun is blindingI stayed up againOohh, I am findingThats not the way I want my story to endIm safeUp highNothing can touch meBut why do I feel this partys over?No pain
  • 111. InsideYoure my protectionBut how do I feel this good sober?I dont wanna be the girl who has to feel the silence...The quiet scares me cause it screams the truthPlease dont tell me that we had that conversationwhen I wont remember, save your breath, cause whats the use?Aahh, the night is callingAnd it whispers to me softly, "come and play"Aahh, I am fallingAnd if I let myself go, Im the only one to blameIm safeUp highNothing can touch meBut why do I feel this partys over?No painInsideYoure like perfectionBut how do I feel this good sober?Im comin downComin downComin downSpinnin roundSpinnin roundSpinnin roundlooking for myself... SoberComin downComin downComin downSpinnin roundSpinnin roundSpinnin roundlooking for myself... SoberWhen its good, then its good, its so good, till it goes badTill youre trying to find the you that you once hadI have heard myself cryNever againBroken down in agonyAnd just trying to find a friend
  • 112. Im safeUp highNothing can touch meBut why do I feel this partys over?No painInsideYoure like perfectionBut how do I feel this good sober?Im safeup highnothing can touch mebut why do I feel this partys over?No painInsideYoure like perfectionBut how do I feel this good sober?How do I feel this good sober?Song written for and about Catherine by PinkAnna4/22/09 A new friend from the middle world has joined us here on earth. Tohelp Larik with his fight against the beast within his soul. She is a cast out fromHeaven but has she is not pure evil or heavenly good so she is classed as asubclass of the dead, a fairy as humans would say. But has a friend of bothbeings she must serve them both. She is a fairy and on the full moon she is hethe beast. As an angel she has no true sex but takes Female form as a fairy andas the beast she is male. She can not reproduce but is the mother of all fairiesand werewolves. Many moons ago she cast her breath among the flowers andthere a new class of creatures were born. And when the beast came that nightshe bites all males within his lair and there all werewolves came into being. Sohas become a most powerful deity equal to God and the Devil who had been hermasters!Catherines Words4/4/09 The time has come and so have IIll laugh last cause you came to dieThe damage done the pain subsidesAnd I can see the fear clear when I look in your eye.~I never kneel and Ill never restYou can tear the heart from my chestIll make you see what I do best,Ill succeed as you breathe your very last breath.~Now I know how the angel fell [just kneel]
  • 113. I know the tale and I know it too well [just bow]Ill make you wish you had a soul to sell [soul to sell]When I strike you down and send you straight to hell~My army comes from deep withinBeneath my soul--beneath my skinAs youre ending, Im about to beginMy strength His bane and I will never give in.~Ill tell you now Im the one to surviveYou never break my faith or my strideIll have you choke on your own demiseI make the angel scream, and the devil cry~v~My honored brethrenMy honored brethren~We come togetherWe come together~To unite as oneTo unite as one~Against those that are damnedAgainst those that are damned~We show no mercyWe show no mercy~For we have noneFor we have none~Our enemy shall fallOur enemy shall fall~As we appriseAs we apprise~To claim our fateTo claim our fate~Now and foreverNow and forever~Well be togetherWell be together
  • 114. ~In love and in hateIn love and in hate~v~They will see. Well fight until eternityCome with me we’ll stand and fight togetherthrough our strength well make a better daytomorrow we shall never surrender.[Whisper] We shall never surrender.I hate you! ( In Catherines words)1/27/09Watching and WaitingAlone without a careHopingand hatingThings that I cant bearDid you think its coolto walk right upto take my lifeand fuck it upWell did you?Well did you?I see hell in your eyesTaken in by surpriseTouching you makes me feel aliveTouching you makes me die insideWalking, WaitingAlone without a careHopingAnd hatingThings that I cant bearDid you think its coolTo walk right upTo take my lifeAnd fuck it upWell did you?I hate you!I see hell in your eyesTaken in by surpriseAnd touching you makes me feel aliveTouching you makes me die insideIve slept so long without youIts tearing me apart too
  • 115. Howd it get this farPlaying games with this old heartIve killed a million petty soulsBut I couldnt kill youIve slept so long without youI see hell in your eyesTaken in by surpriseTouching you makes me feel aliveTouching you makes me die inside Thais Lee ThaumantosTaglineNothing is forever...Me, Myself, and IThe secret thoughts of Thais Lee-Thaumantos born to be her brother’s keeper andprotector she is remembering her previous life on her home planet of Xuebula.These memories are re-ignited by the love of her mother Catherine reminding her
  • 116. that once upon a time she was living among mortals and more human in hermannerisms then now. Follow as she struggles to balance that she was and whoshe is now...is it possible to be two beings at once?I am Thais Lee-Thaumantos. I am born of two very special women of an advancedspecies of aliens. In this life my name is Thais which is the Greek name for"Beloved." I carry both of them in each strand of my DNA and the memorieslike blood that come with it. I was born to protect my brother and the rest of myfamily and species but this outer shell is beginning to show some cracks in thefoundation. Things were less complex back home even though I never feltcomfortable with the rage lurking just beneath the surface and often lashed outto protect those that I loved from perceived and real harm my heart was deepand flowed like a river like a bow hoisted in its quiver.~Memories Rushing InThings were simple before allowing my mother Catherine to see this side of me. Ididnt remember it myself until I let her into my heart. Ive always been inservitude of one form or another back on our home planet of Xuebula I waswarmer with a kind heart scared of the rage that would overwhelm me and thefallout from it. At home I went by another name one that I do not recall andmaybe it’s for the best but what I do remember is how I felt towards thehumans that lived there. All of them exiled from earth because they haddiscovered the secret of their true lineage a secret that had been kept quietly onthe down low for centuries. The feelings of my past incarnation and my currentone are clashing like cymbals short circuiting then re-routing my mainframewith this retrieved data. It was easier hovering between black and white optionwith no variants of gray being infused at a stunning pace. I love both of mymothers but this new realization is pulling more towards my mother Catherineand away from my purpose to protect Sam and our species from extinction nowthese vivid memories are gnawing at me like a rat scuttling along spreadingdisease. I feel a sense of loss and longing unfamiliar to me until now. What doesthis me? Who am I really? I can never let another soul clap eyes on this mustkeep my journal hidden.Argh I can hear Sam calling me! What happens if theyrealize this change besetting me? What to know the ramifications of such athing cause and who besides myself pays the price?My name Thais Lee-Thaumantos born of two very special women of an advancedspecies of aliens. In this life my name is Thais which is the Greek name for"Beloved." I carry both of them in each strand of my DNA and the memorieslike blood that come with it. I was born to protect my brother and the rest of myfamily and species but this outer shell is beginning to show some cracks in thefoundation. Things were less complex back home even though I never feltcomfortable with the rage lurking just beneath the surface and often lashed out
  • 117. to protect those that I loved from perceived and real harm my heart was deepand flowed like a river like a bow hoisted in its quiver. Samael Lee Thaumantos~I am Samael the first pure bred child of Raven. My birth was violent my motherhas been in a deep slumber for eons to await the birth of me. She’s had toslumber because shes bringing a pure bred into this realm in the form of ahuman as this would caused cataclysmic results. My mother Raven was pulledback into this world Catherine and her love. "Angel Eyes" who was there forthe birth as she is the only one Raven trusts. ~TaglineCreated to save mankind. But wholl save me?
  • 118. Me, Myself, and IThis is but another chapter in the Carpe Ominous storyline. This is Samael akaSams story of the unfolding events and his role in them. Sam is the son of twowomen Ravenlily Goddess of Balance and Catherine Iris Thaumantos follow himon his journey to save the human race while dealing with his own struggles as hecarries out his duties.I was created to be the savior of mankind a genetic construct whose solepurpose is to fight the battle against our enemies no matter what form theytake. I didnt ask for this its not the life Id lead if given a choice but it’s myjob and I shall carry out my duties to the best of my abilities. I am the sonborn to two incredible woman Ravenlily being my birth mother andCatherine my mother in spirit and blood both have a lot to teach me and mysister Thais but truth be told Id rather just have a normal life.Insight into who I am10/6/09 Im a young man of 22, my name is Samael and my lifeis not mine. I am a genetic construct the perfect specimen charged with an enormousburden...to save mankind! I dont want to appear to be a whiny bitch but Im not pleasedwith my station in life. My life was preordained before I was even conceived. I am theson of two women, Ravenlily, my birth mother and Catherine, my mother in spirit andblood. (She is the one who teaches me to adapt and adjust to the circumstances in which Ifind myself) I dont want to be here. I want to be with Thais back on our home planet. Iwant things to be as they were before this conflict. Ive never had a proper "human"childhood but then why would I? Im flesh, blood and bone but I am anything but human.Im from an ancient alien race responsible for teaching humans before they decided todeem us deities. My people taught them the secrets of the cosmos, how to build pyramids,runways for our ships to land and other mysteries lost to all but a few during the course oftime. I am the buffer, the mediator between my people and the humans which is why Immore of a human then the rest of my kind. I track the machine probes sent to accumulatedata while infiltrating their societies in order to kill and dominate mankind. Thesemachines do the dirty work of my grandfather, Lucifer and his throng from beyond EventHorizon. Its difficult not to feel for the humans they are after all our descendants wereresponsible for their existence. What I want and what I have to do clash like insanecymbals but I will do my job then maybe somewhere down the line Ill be able to havesome semblance of normality in my life.The Three Most Important Women in My Life…My own TrinityIll try to make this simple even though its an enigma that would befuddle the mostscholarly. Im going to explain who I am and the women who keep me alive. My name isSamael Lee Thaumantos and I am the son of two incredible women. Ravenlily Goddessof Balance is my birth mother who carried me in her womb for that long slumber. It wasduring my delivery into this world that killed and destroyed her former shell until Ibreathed live into her ashes giving her the incarnation she presently is then theresCatherine Iris Thaumantos my mother in spirit and blood. She was present at my birth a
  • 119. violent bloody mess it was when an energy bolt struck her in the stomach it took fromher. DNA that would make Thais and myself her children as well. Thais is my other halfthe female aspect of the one known as Sam. I created her to be by my side through all ofthis. To be the one person I could rely on no matter what to have my best interests inmind. Im more human then most of my kind and it’s because of this that I feel more thenId like too. Though I am also a pure deity Im in this human meat bag to blend in andprotect them from the advances of my grandfather and his minions when all I want is tobe normal. I dont want this responsibility, it’s too much. I dont like the fact that I wascreated to be the savior of the human race but when Im overwhelmed or scared it is theTrinity in my world that keep me focused. It is there love and guidance that leads methrough those dark chaotic tunnels where the darkest and devious images swarm likelocust giving way to a plague of fear. I am getting stronger and my knowledge of thingsincreases daily. I know that it’s because of them that Ill make it through this and do thethings I was designed to do. If only I didnt have these flood of emotions clouding mythoughts while making me feel things I couldnt otherwise but I know that I have to takethe good with the bad and vice versa but some days when were exhausted from being onthe run and constantly fighting there is a light at the end. I only hope that I live longenough to see it.