I have survived the emotional trauma of childhood rejection from my mother. For over 50 years, this demon of rejection stopped me from pursuing my dream of becoming an actor. Through various therapies over decades, I was finally able to consciously feel and understand my demon. By reliving traumatic memories from childhood in a safe environment with my therapist, my body has released much of the stuck emotion. I can now feel joy and am free from the terror of just being alive. While I may never achieve my dream, I am grateful to no longer be numb and to feel life's beauty.