The author's water broke at 19 weeks and 2 days into her pregnancy. Doctors advised terminating the pregnancy since the fetus would not survive and risk lifelong disabilities if it did. The author refused and hoped for the best outcome. After 24 days, her son was born prematurely and only survived a few minutes. The author found immense grief and pain in losing her son but would not change experiencing the brief time she had with him, as it has made her appreciate her other children even more.
One Voice - NCT and midwives working in partnershipNCT
NCT's Big Weekend 2010
One Voice - NCT and midwives working in partnership
Presented by Gill Peaks, Midwifery Matron Community (Medway Foundation NHS Trust)
These affirmations are to help you develop a positive, affirming life-style. Affirmations are beneficial when they are incorporated into your life on a regular, daily basis. They help to keep you alighn to your creative sources.
One Voice - NCT and midwives working in partnershipNCT
NCT's Big Weekend 2010
One Voice - NCT and midwives working in partnership
Presented by Gill Peaks, Midwifery Matron Community (Medway Foundation NHS Trust)
These affirmations are to help you develop a positive, affirming life-style. Affirmations are beneficial when they are incorporated into your life on a regular, daily basis. They help to keep you alighn to your creative sources.
My 8th grade debate presentation.
(Some of the slides don't make sense, because we talked it out during the presentation, so don't mind them.)
Hope this helps (:
Gold prices were flat to weaker in Asia on Wednesday as investors eyed euro zone woes over Greece that threaten to lead to a possible exit of the single-currency union.
On the Comex division of the New York Mercantile Exchange, gold for June delivery eased 0.04% to $1,202.60 a troy ounce.
Elsewhere, Silver futures for May delivery fell 0.09% to 15.993 a troy ounce.
Copper for May delivery rose 0.11% to $2.698 a pound, after a bond default in the Chinese construction sector. Kaisa Group Holdings, a Shenzen-based company, became the first Chinese property developer to default on its dollar bonds, after it failed to meet a coupon payment on two notes on Monday.
China accounts for more than 40% of the world's copper consumption with houssing and construction major users of the commodity.
Overnight, gold futures edged up on Tuesday reversing some of its losses during the previous session, as a potential Greek default on its sovereign debt remained in focus.
Diesel tuning chips are the programmed electronic microprocessor controlled device that is fitted in the engine bay of any vehicle and it is not fixed permanently that is they can be removed if required.
Our journey of infertility, a ten year journey that took us on a roller coaster of emotions. A little something to encourage others facing similar heart breaking situations or for the ones who are fortunate enough never to have had faced such a challenge but are open to understanding the painfully, heartbreaking road some are travelling on. .
Excerpts from the blog Letters to Catherine” what the ultrasoun.docxgitagrimston
Excerpts from the blog “Letters to Catherine”
what the ultrasound showed
catherine-
hey sweet girl=) you are quiet right now-must be sleeping. do you know how happy it makes me when you flip flop around in there? i sit there and stare at my belly, watching it morph into weird shapes, laughing as you punch my bladder=) you are precious and perfect and i love you so much. your daddy makes me lay certain ways at night so he can get his hands on you too-i feel sorry for him, you know…i always ask him if he’s jealous that i get to carry you around in my belly for 9 months and he doesn’t. he always says no he’s not really jealous, which i guess is the answer i would think is appropriate…it would be weird, huh? if he said he wished he could carry you around in his belly and be pregnant??? i still can’t help but ask-i can’t believe how lucky i feel to have you inside me and i just figure everyone else is jealous=) you have the best daddy though-can you tell that from in there? he can’t wait to meet you. i feel bittersweet as the pregnancy progresses and it gets closer and closer to september 4-i want to keep you in here as long as i can-maybe it’s part of my control issues (your mommy has control issues!)-but i just know you’re safe now and while you’re in there you don’t need those silly lungs which might not be growing like they should. do you know what i’m talking about? i always wonder if you have any idea that something’s wrong inside your sweet little body.
on april 2, at 17 weeks and 6 days pregnant, we got great news! it was a sweet little girl growing inside of me and we would get to buy lots of pink and frilly things! but we also got some very sad news. on the same ultrasound we saw that your heart was on the wrong side of your body, and that your stomach was up in your chest next to your heart. this means you have a congenital diaphragmatic hernia. silly diaphragm not closing like it should…there is a chance more things in your belly could slide up there into your chest, but that’s actually not the biggest problem-that could be fixed with surgery pretty easily once you get out here and meet us. the problem is that your heart is now taking up the right side of your chest and your stomach is taking up the left side of your chest, and your lungs might not ever have a chance to grow without anything in their way. this could cause congestive heart failure and pulmonary hypertension and all kinds of things, but the point is that your lungs might not be able to work at all when you’re out here in the world. we were told that it could be linked to chromosome abnormalities, so they immediately did an amniocentesis-do you know what that is? they stuck a huge needle down into mommy’s belly next to where you are-they watched it on the ultrasound to make sure they weren’t going to poke you-and they took out some amniotic fluid and ran some tests on it. we got to see all your chromosomes! and we also saw that all of them were normal=) that means ...
My 8th grade debate presentation.
(Some of the slides don't make sense, because we talked it out during the presentation, so don't mind them.)
Hope this helps (:
Gold prices were flat to weaker in Asia on Wednesday as investors eyed euro zone woes over Greece that threaten to lead to a possible exit of the single-currency union.
On the Comex division of the New York Mercantile Exchange, gold for June delivery eased 0.04% to $1,202.60 a troy ounce.
Elsewhere, Silver futures for May delivery fell 0.09% to 15.993 a troy ounce.
Copper for May delivery rose 0.11% to $2.698 a pound, after a bond default in the Chinese construction sector. Kaisa Group Holdings, a Shenzen-based company, became the first Chinese property developer to default on its dollar bonds, after it failed to meet a coupon payment on two notes on Monday.
China accounts for more than 40% of the world's copper consumption with houssing and construction major users of the commodity.
Overnight, gold futures edged up on Tuesday reversing some of its losses during the previous session, as a potential Greek default on its sovereign debt remained in focus.
Diesel tuning chips are the programmed electronic microprocessor controlled device that is fitted in the engine bay of any vehicle and it is not fixed permanently that is they can be removed if required.
Our journey of infertility, a ten year journey that took us on a roller coaster of emotions. A little something to encourage others facing similar heart breaking situations or for the ones who are fortunate enough never to have had faced such a challenge but are open to understanding the painfully, heartbreaking road some are travelling on. .
Excerpts from the blog Letters to Catherine” what the ultrasoun.docxgitagrimston
Excerpts from the blog “Letters to Catherine”
what the ultrasound showed
catherine-
hey sweet girl=) you are quiet right now-must be sleeping. do you know how happy it makes me when you flip flop around in there? i sit there and stare at my belly, watching it morph into weird shapes, laughing as you punch my bladder=) you are precious and perfect and i love you so much. your daddy makes me lay certain ways at night so he can get his hands on you too-i feel sorry for him, you know…i always ask him if he’s jealous that i get to carry you around in my belly for 9 months and he doesn’t. he always says no he’s not really jealous, which i guess is the answer i would think is appropriate…it would be weird, huh? if he said he wished he could carry you around in his belly and be pregnant??? i still can’t help but ask-i can’t believe how lucky i feel to have you inside me and i just figure everyone else is jealous=) you have the best daddy though-can you tell that from in there? he can’t wait to meet you. i feel bittersweet as the pregnancy progresses and it gets closer and closer to september 4-i want to keep you in here as long as i can-maybe it’s part of my control issues (your mommy has control issues!)-but i just know you’re safe now and while you’re in there you don’t need those silly lungs which might not be growing like they should. do you know what i’m talking about? i always wonder if you have any idea that something’s wrong inside your sweet little body.
on april 2, at 17 weeks and 6 days pregnant, we got great news! it was a sweet little girl growing inside of me and we would get to buy lots of pink and frilly things! but we also got some very sad news. on the same ultrasound we saw that your heart was on the wrong side of your body, and that your stomach was up in your chest next to your heart. this means you have a congenital diaphragmatic hernia. silly diaphragm not closing like it should…there is a chance more things in your belly could slide up there into your chest, but that’s actually not the biggest problem-that could be fixed with surgery pretty easily once you get out here and meet us. the problem is that your heart is now taking up the right side of your chest and your stomach is taking up the left side of your chest, and your lungs might not ever have a chance to grow without anything in their way. this could cause congestive heart failure and pulmonary hypertension and all kinds of things, but the point is that your lungs might not be able to work at all when you’re out here in the world. we were told that it could be linked to chromosome abnormalities, so they immediately did an amniocentesis-do you know what that is? they stuck a huge needle down into mommy’s belly next to where you are-they watched it on the ultrasound to make sure they weren’t going to poke you-and they took out some amniotic fluid and ran some tests on it. we got to see all your chromosomes! and we also saw that all of them were normal=) that means ...
He is the product of my egg and my husband’s sperm. After half a decade of trying to become pregnant, sometimes succeeding but always failing to carry a baby successfully to term, I came to the conclusion that if we wanted to have a child who was genetically related to us, we would have to find a woman with a more reliable uterus to gestate and deliver our baby.
1. For most women, their water breaking is a joyous moment. For most women, that gush of fluid
signals the beginning of the end. For most women, that moment comes after months of “time
served” during pregnancy. But for some women, it doesn’t. For some women, their water breaks
too early. For some women, their water breaking is the start of a horrifying new existence filled
with doctors, scary statistics, and heartbreak. I am one of those women.
In October of 2014, I discovered that I was expecting another baby with my wonderful husband.
We have a blended family that consists of my husband, myself, my daughter, his son, and our
daughter. I was hoping that this baby would “even things out” and give me the boy that I had
wished for since I was old enough to think about having babies. I love my girls, of course, but I
wanted to experience raising a boy, too. Between October and February, my pregnancy
progressed normally, with the exception of some slight bleeding right at the beginning of my
pregnancy.
On February 7, 2015 I was going about my normal life. My husband and I had yet to find out the
gender of this baby, but we were extremely excited about the prospect. I was 19 weeks and 2
days, so the time to find out was coming up quickly. My husband is a full time college student,
and I was helping him with his homework on the couch when I felt a little trickle. I thought that
maybe I had to use the bathroom. When I stood up, fluid gushed down my legs. My heart froze
in my chest. No, I thought, it’s too early. It couldn’t be. Of course, I chose to err on the side of
safety, and I told my husband that we had to go to the hospital. Once we got to the hospital, a test
was done that verified that my water had indeed broken. I was transported to a bigger hospital
that was about an hour away.
Once I got to the hospital, a team of doctors checked me, did an ultrasound, confirmed that my
water had broken, and then broke my heart, all in a matter of about thirty minutes. “My advice to
2. you, Mrs. Cowley, is that you go ahead and deliver this fetus. The fetus will not survive, but
even if you, by some miracle, did manage to carry this fetus long enough for it to survive outside
of the womb, it would have lifelong disabilities. And the fetus probably won’t survive anyway.
The chances are extremely slim.”
My husband and I looked at each other in shock. I reached for his hand and barely choked out,
“That is NOT an option. We are not going to allow anyone to kill our baby! If this baby dies
without intervention, then that is what happens. But I can’t kill my baby!” I looked over at my
husband and said, “I’m sorry. I don’t know how you feel about this. But I just can’t do that.”
Over the course of the next month, every single day was another milestone. Every moment was
precious. Because there was no amniotic fluid left, no matter how many ultrasounds were done,
we didn’t discover the gender of our baby. Although I desperately wanted to know so that I could
begin referring to my baby by his or her name, the gender had ceased to matter to me. I just
wanted my baby to LIVE.
On March 3, 2015, twenty four days after my water broke, my son was born too early. My son
was ten inches long and weighed only fourteen ounces. He only survived for a couple of minutes
after birth before he passed away. My heart broke into a million pieces, and I never thought that I
could survive the absolute heart wrenching pain that I was feeling. Yes, I had other children to
look after, and yes I could try again (as many heartless people pointed out to me), but those
children could never replace the one that I had lost. My son was dead. The son that I had dreamt
of having for years. It felt like a cruel joke. I had prayed for a son, and that prayer had been
granted. And then the answer to my prayers had been snatched from my hands. I had to say
goodbye to my son before I ever got the chance to say hello.
3. But I would do it all over again. Every single moment. Every single tear. Every single second of
mind numbing, soul crushing agony. Because no matter how short my son’s life was, his life
mattered to me. He existed. If I had the choice to go back and not have gotten pregnant with him,
to not have gone through that pain, I wouldn’t choose it. My son was precious to me for the time
that I had him. And losing my son has made me appreciate my other children even more. I
understand that life is not guaranteed, even to the young and wonderful. I understand that every
single moment is a moment that will never come back, so I have to enjoy it while I can. I am
fully aware of the realities of the death of a child because I lived it. And I will never take my
children for granted again. I keep my promises to them, I stay up later just to rock them to sleep,
I hold them a little tighter, and love them a little harder. That is what the death of my son has
taught me. And I hope that this story gives you pause tonight when you’re at your wit’s end, and
you just can’t take it for even another second longer. Drop what you’re doing and give your
babies a kiss. They could be gone tomorrow, and you’ll never have this chance again.