I love you so much

1. I Love You Baby

50. Mint Cookies

52. My One, My Gravity, My Reason (11/27/07) As I lie here awake in bed, i just cant get you out of my head. My mind is going stir-crazy thinking of you, wondering why i deserve a love so true. All of my life I’ve been put down, battered and bruised, tore straight to the ground. Then you came along like a rainbow after the storm, showing me that life can be so much more. You inspire me to hope for things to come, you’ve taken away all of the feelings that caused me to be numb. You’ve shown me the good in all I see, you’ve shown me that I can start to like me. Ive never been more sure of anything before, Ive never loved anyone more. I thought I would be alone for the rest of my life, everyday I woke up and reality cut like a knife. Through my heart, straight to my soul, just surviving the day was my only goal. Then you came along and opened my eyes, it was then that I stopped writing my goodbyes. Hearing your voice puts my world at ease, caressing my soul like a soft spring breeze. Refreshing, calming, humbling, and true, I never knew this side of me, until there was you. You inspire me in so many ways, I cant help but sit and count the days. Til I can look in your eyes and see forever, holding you close, just being together. I cant offer you much, just a simple girl, who has experienced a lot of the bad in the world. I offer you my flaws, my imperfections, I give you my failures, all of my regressions. I do this because these are my faults, and if you should leave, on my knees I would crawl. Begging you to stay, because I cant live without you, you are my reason, my everything that’s true. You’re the only good I see in this world, but that’s coming from the heart of a simple country girl. It may not be much, but it’s what I have to give, should you accept, forever happy I will live. You let me be me and love me for it so, that means more to me than you will ever know. I don’t have to pretend, I don’t have to change, I don’t have to fix or even rearrange. Hearing your laugh, knowing you’re happy, my world is grounded, youre my gravity . My thunderstorms are over, the sun is shining bright, I can finally see the stars in the clear sky tonight. I am able to find the good in the things that I do, I am able to do this, all because of you. You’ve opened a side of me I’ve shut down for years, I had it locked away because of my fears. I have given you the key and trusted you so, that’s very unlike me, just so you know. Ive never felt safe, secure, or respected, Ive always been ridiculed, put down, and rejected. You are the one who parted the clouds, let the sun shine on me, making me feel proud. Proud of myself, for a change – it’s nice, no more tap dancing on thin sheets of ice. I still cant believe I found the one man for me, I hope I can be everything you need.