1. To love without judgement, to give freely from the heart without stopping to count the cost is
the true beginning of wisdom. These are very difficult things to achieve. Yet, in order to win our
races and reach the goal: Jesus Christ, we must. Love embraces all. Love heals all. Love forgives
all. Isn't this what we plead with Christ for? In order to receive His total love and mercy, we
must follow His path or all is wasted.
July 30, 2011 · Having been to confession and also spent a long time alone in the Lord confessing
every sin, grudge or shred of bitterness this soul has in it, yesterday came as a surprise.
Suddenly, out of the blue there came such a soul searing sense of shame for what all my actions
had cost our Savior. A full, soul deep knowledge of what His sacrifice meant caused me to weep
so hard i had to hold myself. it changed me...
i wrote this 3 years ago. i am amazed at how calm i sound here. This was the event that caused
my spiritual rebirth. i felt all Christ felt within himself, as He carried the burden and weight of
our sins. It was horrifying, saturated by the filth and oppression of all our vile sinful actions.
i was rocking back and forth, weeping in spiritual agony. Funny thing is i knew who was causing
it, so i wasn't the least bit afraid. This spiritual experience, which lasted a long time, caused me
physical illness for at least a month. In fact, i told Justin immediately after that i had been
changed right down to the cellular level during this. That is how profound it wa
This was my time of metanoia, conversion. i had been utterly completely changed-forever.
Afterwards , i felt an increasing awareness of Christ and He has blessed me abundantly. He
walks with me through the piercing pains that i live with, due to spinal injury and SLE. He
comforts me when this street ministry gets too hard to bear. He has given me a dignity that i
had not felt ever, through a lifetime of pain abuse and terror.
This is what this ministry here is about. Because of the love and mercy Christ showed me, i in
turn pour it out on others, praying that you too, find this peace and joy. God bless each and
every one of you. i love you and pray for you each day.