The passage describes the author's experiences the very first time trying various activities in life such as climbing a mountain, going into the sea, walking, leaving home, speaking, eating, drinking, defecating, smiling, sleeping, holding something, adventuring, earning a livelihood, writing poetry, flirting, learning, preaching, and breathing. For each activity, the author notes feelings of fear, uncertainty or discomfort, while also recognizing the need or natural instincts driving them. The one exception is falling in love, where the author felt the most immortal experiencing love for the first time.
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The Very First Time
1. THE VERY FIRST TIME
The very first time in my life when I tried to catapult to the ultimate precipice of the
perilously gigantic mountain; my soul uncontrollably trembled; and almost every
speck of soil under my feet gave way to a coffin of amorphous nothingness,
The very first time in my life when I tried to plunge headon into the precariously
undulating and untamed sea; the hair on my skin nictitated in uncanny fear; although
mentally I could very well perceive that the laws of buoyancy would keep me
blissfully afloat,
The very first time in my life when I attempted to walk on ground; daggerheads of
inexplicably unsolicited fear penetrated me from all sides; although by the grace of
God the age was now consummate enough for me to wonderfully stand,
The very first time in my life when I left my house; indescribably sordid graveyards of
uncertainty unsparingly pierced my nimble spirit; although the atmosphere outside
was enlightened with nothing else but celestially unending peace,
The very first time in my life when I tried to speak; the stub of tongue in my mouth
felt unfathomably circumspect about the quality of sound that was about to diffuse;
although the thunderous roar of natural instincts in my body; unrelentingly urged me
to unfurl my mouth,
The very first time in my life when I tried to eat; the consortium of disheveled
intestines in my stomach uneasily fretted and wrenched; although pangs of inevitably
crucifying hunger reverberated endlessly throughout my body,
The very first time in my life when I tried to sip; the chords in my throats
unceremoniously tightened their grip; although the uncouthly sweltering heat of the
afternoon Sun; rendered them grasping for more and more,
The very first time in my life when I tried to defecate; the bowels in my stomach
dogmatically refrained to contract and expand; although the call of nature was too
heavy upon them to bear,
The very first time in my life when I tried to smile; the contours of my diminutive lips
remained haplessly frozen; although the winds of unparalleled happiness indefatigably
triggered them to blossom till the aisles of exhilarating eternity,
The very first time in my life when I tried to sleep; the dormitories of my
tirelessly discovering brain miserably quavered at the thought of dastardly
unconsciousness; although the lids over my eyeball rolled down like a helplessly
beleaguered sycophant,
2. The very first time in my life when I tried to hold; the humble knots on my fingers
broke into disparagingly cold sweat; although the mantras of symbiotic existence
timelessly coaxed me to bond them with my fellow brethren and kin,
The very first time in my life when I tried to adventure; the framework of synergistic
bones in my countenance horribly diminished into mortuaries of dastardly
nothingness; although the uninhibitedly effulgent fantasies in my brain inexhaustibly
dictated me to flirtatiously philander,
The very first time in my life when I tried to earn my livelihood; every ingredient of
my molecular persona repugnantly repelled the proposition as abhorrently bizarre;
although I very well knew that every organism alive quintessentially needed to pay his
rent for his destined time,
The very first time in my life when I tried to write poetry; the pen in my hands felt
like an hedonistically massacring knife; although I inherently knew that it was
perfectly allright even if the bountifully resplendent verse would rhyme or not rhyme,
The very first time in my life when I tried to flirt; the intrepidly emollient tenacity in
my demeanor crumbled towards the corpses of feckless meaninglessness; although
the urge to submerge every cranny of my flesh with innocuous mischief was more
unconquerable than the limitless skies,
The very first time in my life when I tried to learn; the intricately sensitive machinery
of my mind treacherously betrayed me; in the fear of being unnecessarily inundated;
although the desire of philanthropically imbibe radiated regally from the innermost
space of my conscience,
The very first time in my life when I tried to preach; my neck felt as if it was going to
be hung on the gallows of the truculently marauding devil; although I perfectly knew
that was insurmountably adequate room for harmless human error,
The very first time in my life when I tried to breathe; my lungs felt fish slithering
lividly without the most capricious droplet of water; although I knew that inhaling a
few puffs of air from them was my cardinal birthright for harmonious survival,
But the very first time in my life when I fell in love; I felt the most pricelessly
immortal organism alive not only for this birth; but for infinite more births of mine; I
could never ever give my heart to any other girl in my life; and the first time forever
remained the very first time .