suffocating from the day

3. the death of us

4. from the get go we are ongoingly scrambled, intoxicated,
oppressed, complianced, .. in all the ways.. to all the degrees..
we under/overtake so many things in order to cope with this
un-fittingness.. in order to try to keep breathing thru the
strangling ness of these suppos-ed supposed to’s
we are exhausted.. riddled/unsettled with guilt/debt/whatever..
from all our attempts at copeing ness..
from all the un-us ness

5. particularly.. the un-us ness
of school (because we don’t trust curiosity.. et al)

6. and.. the un-us ness
of work (solving other people’s problems to earn a living.. et al)

7. huge red flag we’re doing it/life wrong..
killing us deeply/unknowingly.. (raised eyebrows, pretending/claiming to hear all the voices, ..et al)
the un-us ness from any form of

9. when you’re in a space and you feel like you don’t belong
(w/o first compromising your fittingness by abiding by all the supposed to’s)
depression

11. when you feel like you don’t belong.. in all the spaces
suicide

12. the death of us.. keeping us from us/fittingness..
making/keeping us like whales in sea world
let’s stop that..

13. let’s do this instead/first: free art-ists
for (blank)’s sake…
there is a nother way to live alive

15. imagine if we just focused on listening to the
itch-in-8b-souls.. first thing.. everyday.. and used that
data to augment our interconnectedness.. ..
locally/entropically.. in all the spaces
daily curiosity..
data that would/could
lead to legit/natural
affinity gatherings

17. am thinking that any time we think we need some formal apparatus
for decision-making/teaching/training.. maybe we just have the
wrong people together in a space.. maybe we just need a reset..
maybe if we focus on curiosity over decision-making we’d create a
means to undo our hierarchical listening in order to let the
dance-of-us .. dance
our focus on decision-making is unmooring the
essence of our human being

18. alive.

20. ie: cure ios city