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MAXINE HONG KINGSTONTHE WOMAN WARRIORMaxine HongAbramMartino96
MAXINE HONG KINGSTON
THE WOMAN WARRIOR
Maxine Hong Kingston is Senior Lecturer for Creative Writing at the
University of California, Berkeley. For her memoirs and fiction, The
Fifth Book of Peace, The Woman Warrior, China Men, Tripmaster
Monkey, and Hawai’i One Summer, Kingston has earned numerous
awards, among them the National Book Award, the National Book
Critics Circle Award for Nonfiction, the PEN West Award for Fiction,
an American Academy and Institute of Arts and Letters Literature
Award, and a National Humanities Medal from the National
Endowment for the Humanities, as well as the rare title of “Living
Treasure of Hawai’i.”
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ALSO BY MAXINE HONG KINGSTON
China Men
Tripmaster Monkey
Hawai’i One Summer
The Fifth Book of Peace
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To Mother and Father
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Contents
No Name Woman
White Tigers
Shaman
At the Western Palace
A Song for a Barbarian Reed Pipe
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No
Name
Woman
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“You must not tell anyone,” my mother said, “what I am about to tell you.
In China your father had a sister who killed herself. She jumped into the
family well. We say that your father has all brothers because it is as if she
had never been born.
“In 1924 just a few days after our village celebrated seventeen hurry-up
weddings—to make sure that every young man who went ‘out on the road’
would responsibly come home—your father and his brothers and your
grandfather and his brothers and your aunt’s new husband sailed for
America, the Gold Mountain. It was your grandfather’s last trip. Those
lucky enough to get contracts waved goodbye from the decks. They fed and
guarded the stowaways and helped them off in Cuba, New York, Bali,
Hawaii. ‘We’ll meet in California next year,’ they said. All of them sent
money home.
“I remember looking at your aunt one day when she and I were dressing; I
had not noticed before that she had such a protruding melon of a stomach.
But I did not think, ‘She’s pregnant,’ until she began to look like other
pregnant women, her shirt pulling and the white tops of her black pants
showing. She could not have been pregnant, you see, because her husband
had been gone for years. No one said anything. We did not discuss it. In
early summer she was ready to have the child, long after the time when it
could have been possible.
“The village had also been counting. On the night the baby was to be born
the villagers raided our house. Some were crying. Like a great saw, teeth
strung with lights, files of people walked zigzag across our land, tearing the
rice. Their lanterns doubled in the disturbed black water, which drained
away through the broken bunds. As the villagers closed in, we could see that
some of them, probably men and women we knew well, wore white masks.
The people with long hair hung it over their faces. Women with short hair
made it stand up on end. Some had tied white bands around their foreheads,
arms, and legs.
“At first they threw mud and rocks at the house. Then they threw eggs and
began slaughtering our stock. ...
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Black Tea and Rosewater Perfume
I was almost eight months pregnant with my first child – the son of an Italian-
Irish Catholic father – when I woke up from a nap craving ground lamb with tamarind
and mint, and spinach pie with feta and fresh-squeezed lemon. That was comfort food to
me. Rich, complex, delicate, and sour. It was all I wanted to eat those days. I’m only a
quarter Persian, but it’s enough to make me not-totally-white in Caucasian circles and not
Persian enough amongst Iranians. My grandfather was the first of his immigrant family to
marry a white woman. His marriage was considered disgraceful and contentious, but at
least she was a Jew. My mother was neither Jewish nor Iranian and my brother and I
became the second generation of my father’s family never to speak a lick of Farsi.
They came through the great passageway, Ellis Island, and settled in New Jersey.
They brought with them their Judaism and their name, but little else. Somehow my
family curated Persian art and displayed it in their homes. Urns and large trays of
hammered metal – steel, tin, aluminum, and brass with raised Farsi lettering and
pictographs of the Empire. Beautiful rugs as soft as mink pelts rolled out over the carpet
of their suburban living rooms. The fibers absorbed the smells of Gormeh Sabzi and
grilled lamb, and long after the silver was tucked away in felted boxes, the smell of
fenugreek and sumac lingered in the halls.
My mom wasn’t like the Persian women. She had short hair and wore no make
up. Her skin was fair and freckled. Bones protruded at all of the articulations of her body.
My aunties had big hair and large breasts. They wore perfume and eyeliner and fine
jewelry. They talked on the phone. They talked to each other. My mother didn’t do any of
those things and mostly she was quiet.
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When we visited my father’s family in New Jersey, The Persians began arriving
in the afternoon even though we wouldn’t eat till eight or nine o’clock. Everyone shouted
in Farsi and greeted each other loudly. Their strange, guttural language sounded terse to
me. Harsh, repetitive, and impossible to discern. They seemed to be spitting at each other
– spewing angry words – then an exchange would end abruptly in a short hug and a wet
kiss on each cheek. Ordinarily this was the kind of situation where my Irish-Catholic
mother would busy herself in the kitchen, but she was politely shunned by The Persians.
She stayed in a bedroom upstairs and tried to put herself together. I watched her stand in
front of a full-length mirror in her homemade skirts and modest blouses looking close to
tears. She’d put on a belt and take it off. Over and over she criticized her reflection and
chased me out of the room before she changed her top again or put on lipstick.
Downstairs The Persians were shouting and cooking and kissing. My mother simply did
not fit in.
My “aunties” were a mystery to me. I knew their names but I could never keep
them straight. My grandpa’s sisters Maheen and Parveen had daughters named Ghila and
Valentina. Valentina had a husband named Nedjat and they had three kids around my
age. Then there were my grandpa’s brothers Joseph and Farhad. Farhad’s wife is named
Marguerite and she is white, too. My great-grandfather’s name was Azzizolah but he died
when my dad was just a little boy. And hidden upstairs in a Spartan room was my great-
grandmother Galeena, but everyone called her Honom.
Valentina wore shimmering silk suits, gobs of mascara, and enormous earrings.
Her jackets were cut to expose her perfumed cleavage. Parveen had fuchsia lips and wore
paisley-print, Mandarin-collared dresses with jeweled rings on her frail bony hands. At
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nearly six feet tall in her heels, Marguerite glided effortlessly through the throng in a
black silk dress and rosewater cologne, gold bangles singing from her wrists. Her blond
hair was teased high over her blue eyes and she seemed abjectly unafraid of the petite
Persian women around her. There were breasts and shoulder pads everywhere.
But the old men seemed to take a shine to me. Perhaps it was because I looked
like my full-blooded grandpa. I had jet black hair and large, deep-set eyes. We lived in
Minnesota where I was frequently mistaken for an Italian or Native American and in the
summer when I was young, my mother would wrap her pale freckled arms around me and
whisper into my neck, “You turn such a pretty color in the sun!”
I was brown. Not always. Not everywhere. I was white under my bathing suit and
brown everywhere else. I wanted freckles and green eyes like my mother’s. Being mixed
I felt like an outsider wherever I went, and now I was about to bring a child into the
world knowing nothing about the culture that colored so much of my life.
I drove to the Caspian Bistro in Minneapolis to quell my craving. The restaurant
is filled with heavy padded chairs, wall murals, and oil paintings of the Old Country in
gilded frames. Adjacent to the restaurant behind the cash register is a fragrant
marketplace. There are shelves lined with boxes of tea, sumac powder, dried apricots and
dates. Tubs of roasted seeds, ten-pound bags of nutty basmati rice, and wooden barrels
full of walnuts and pistachios in the shell. Everything is imported.
At dinner, beef and lamb kebabs are served with a whole roasted tomato and a
pile of basmati rice, shimmering in bright yellow saffron butter. Black tea is served with
bowls of sugar cubes and the salad is dressed with lemon juice and shiny olives. For
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dessert there is baklava with nutmeg, cardamom, and honey; a glass dish of shaved ice
with sour cherry syrup, or rosewater ice cream.
The smells soaked into me. Grilled lamb with coriander and mint. Gormeh Sabzi
with red kidney beans, dried lime, fenugreek and parsley. Jeweled rice with golden
raisins, barberries, walnuts, and pomegranate seeds. Dilled fava beans with fried rice and
noodles. I never feel more Persian than when I am there. The food spoke to me. Directly
to my soul. Called it home. I didn’t get to be a “real Persian” at my grandfather’s house.
When I was little I felt like a sad reminder of the once-great empire, a tragic case
of poor breeding. Like my tongue probably wasn’t even the right shape to make Farsi
sounds. My father’s family never taught me how to cook, how to speak, how to act, so I
gleaned what I could from the Caspian.
I wandered aimlessly, nervously, past the cassette tapes of popular Iranian music
and meandered down the aisles of the market, afraid I’d be exposed as a fraud. I picked
up boxes of dried tea and put them back. I handled packages of soft pistachio candies and
returned them to the shelf. I couldn’t bring myself to buy anything. I was too scared to go
up to the register and say, “Just this please,” like the only ingredient missing from my
kitchen is a jar of ground sumac. I was afraid the man with the black moustache would
know my cupboards were void of anything required to cook Persian food.
I thought about my grandpa’s house in New Jersey with his mother and all of his
sisters and brothers milling about in the steamy, fragrant air on holidays, jabbering in
Farsi. We always stayed at my grandpa’s house – a shrine to the Old Country complete
with real Persian rugs and glass bowls of pistachios. There were wall-hanging tapestries
and great hand-hammered trays for serving the finest Persian food. Walking into my
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grandfather’s house made me both excited and nervous. My parents were always tense
and my dad seemed especially angry when we were there. He seemed irritated by the
stories my grandfather told when I asked him excitedly, “Is this real gold?!”
“Yes, Dear,” he always began. “of course it is. And that’s real gold there, too.” He
once pointed to a large samurai sword-shaped bottle of cologne balanced on the back of
the toilet in the guest bath. Later, I asked my dad, “Papa – did you know that grandpa has
a real gold sword in the bathroom?!” His face soured and he shook his head. “It’s just
garbage,” he sneered. “He probably got it at a flea market in Brooklyn. I guarantee that
thing is made of plastic. That’s why he doesn’t want you to touch it.”
Plastic or not – it was gold – and my grandpa told me it was real.
In every room of the house there was a relic, a treasure to be discovered. Large
metal urns carved with ornate patters and cryptic writing. Crystal bowls filled with dried
apricots and sugary dates. Rugs that stretched from one end of the huge rooms to another,
fringed with silky white tassels. Even the kitchen held mysteries. In the cupboard under
the toaster there were Ziploc bags filled with single-serving sweetener packets and
powdered non-dairy creamer, individually wrapped tea bags, pouches of instant coffee,
and cocktail napkins from hotels in far off lands. And the house was spotless. No surface
gathered dust, no tassel out of place, not so much as a lingering water spot in the kitchen
sink. It was almost as if no one lived there. My grandparents had been divorced for forty
years and after my great-grandmother passed away my grandpa lived there alone. He and
my dad stopped speaking when I was thirteen and I didn’t see my grandpa again for a
decade.
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I returned to my grandfather’s house when I twenty-three and saw that it was
unchanged. I attended Bar Mitzvahs and engagement parties for distant cousins and
learned to smile and nod politely when addressed in the mother tongue. I clung to
Marguerite and her fearlessness and for the first time felt a real longing to know where I
came from. I didn’t stay there long enough to find out.
In December my son was born just after my thirty-third birthday and I was
shocked at his coloration. My son’s skin is pink. Peachmilk with carnation cheeks and
rosebud lips. I look at him and think: he will never be pulled over because his
complexion is displeasing or suspicious. He will never have his toiletries searched at
airport security because his last name is on a terrorist watch list. No, he will go through
life a White man and everything that means. When I watch him sleep I wonder – will it
matter to him that he has Persian heritage? I stare at the contrast of his pudgy cream-
colored fingers against my sunbaked olive arm. He has light eyes and fair hair like my
husband. But I am used to being the darkest one. Some day I will tell my son, “I am a
quarter Persian,” and hopefully by then I’ll know what that means.