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‫ﺃﺩﺍء ﺇﻧﺴﺎﻧﻲ ﻧﺎﻗﺺ‬ ‫ﺸﻌﺭ ﻓﺼﺤﻰ‬ ‫ﻭﻟﻴﺪ ﻫﺎﺭﻭﻥ‬
‫ﻃﺒﻘﺎ ﻟﻘﻮﺍﻧﲔ ﺍﳌﻠﻜﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻔﻜﺮﻳﺔ‬ ‫א‬ ‫א‬ ‫א‬ ‫.‬ ‫אא‬ ‫א‬ ‫)ﻋـﱪ ﺍﻻﻧﱰﻧـﺖ ﺃﻭ‬ ‫א‬ ‫אא‬ ‫ﻟﻠﻤﻜﺘﺒــﺎﺕ ﺍﻻﻟﻜﱰﻭﻧﻴــﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺍﻷﻗــﺮﺍﺹ ﺍﳌﺪﳎــﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺍﻯ‬ ‫א‬ ‫ﻭﺳﻴﻠﺔ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ (‬ ‫א‬ ‫א‬ ‫.‬ ‫.‬ ‫א א‬
‫ﺍﻟﻔﻬﺭﺱ‬ ‫إهﺪاء )١( ﻋﺸﺮﻳﺔ ................................................................................................................ ٤‬ ‫إهﺪاء )٢( اﻵﺧﺮون ﻟﻬﻢ ﺁﺳﺮة ﻓﻲ ﻗﻠﺒﻲ ....................................................................................... ٧‬ ‫رهﺎﻓﺔ................................................................................................................................ ٩‬ ‫آﺎﺋﻦ رﻏﺒﺎﺗﻪ ﻧﻈﻴﻔﺔ ............................................................................................................. ١١‬ ‫ﻣﺬآﺮات ﻋﺰﻟﺔ اﻷﺑﻠﻪ اﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪ ................................................................................................... ٤١‬ ‫ﻃﻔﻞ اﻟﻌﺎﺋﻠﺔ اﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪ .............................................................................................................. ٧١‬ ‫ﺟﻨﺎزة ﺧﻔﻴﻔﺔ ..................................................................................................................... ٩١‬ ‫أداء إﻧﺴﺎﻧﻲ ﻧﺎﻗﺺ .............................................................................................................. ١٢‬ ‫اﻟﺤﻆ ............................................................................................................................... ٥٢‬ ‫٣‬
‫ﺇﻫﺩﺍﺀ )١(‬ ‫ﻋﺸﺭﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﻤﻴﻥ ﺍﻟﻠﻲ ﻴﺴﻬﺭ ﺠﻨﺒﻲ ﺍﻟﻠﻴل‬ ‫ﻤﻴﻥ ﺍﻟﻠﻲ ﺒﺎﻟﻪ ﻤﻌﺎﻴﺎ ﻁﻭﻴل‬ ‫ﻤﻴﻥ ﻟﻤﺎ ﺍﺘﻌﺏ ﻴﺴﺎﻋﺩﻨﻲ‬ ‫ﻭﻤﻌﺎﻴﺎ ﺤﻤل ﺍﻟﻬﻡ ﻴﺸﻴل‬ ‫ﻤﻴﻥ ﻫﻴﻪ ﻏﻴﺭ ﺴﺕ ﺍﻟﺴﺘﺎﺕ‬ ‫‪‬‬ ‫ﻭﻴﺎﻫﺎ ﺒﺘﺼﺒﺢ ﻭﺃﺒﺎﺕ‬ ‫ﻭﺍﺠﻴﺏ ﻟﻤﻴﻥ ﻏﻴﺭﻫﺎ ﻭﺃﻫﺎﺩﻱ‬ ‫ﺃﻡ ﺍﻟﻌﻴﺎل ﺍﻟﻌﺸﺭﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﻴﺎ ﻋﻡ ﻴﺎ ﺒﺘﺎﻉ ﺍﻟﻁﻴﺏ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻤﺴﻙ ﺭﻴﺤﻪ ﻤﺎ ﻴﺘﻌﻴﺏ‬ ‫ﺇﺩﻴﻨﻰ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻟﻌﻁﺭ ﺍﻟﻁﻴﺏ‬ ‫ﻭﺍﺨﺩ ﻟﻤﺤﺒﻭﺒﺘﻲ ﻫﺩﻴﻪ‬ ‫ﻻﻡ ﺍﻟﻌﻴﺎل ﺍﻟﺸﻌﺭﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﻴﺎ ﻋﻡ ﻴﺎ ﺒﺘﺎﻉ ﺍﻟﻤﺨﻤل‬ ‫ﺇﺩﻴﻨﻰ ﻨﻭﻉ ﺘﻭﺏ ﺍﻟﻤﺤﻤل‬ ‫ﻋﻠﺸﺎﻥ ﺤﺒﻴﺒﺘﻲ ﺘﺘﺠﻤل‬ ‫ﺃﺒﻴﺽ ﺒﻠﻭﻥ ﺍﻟﺼﺒﺎﺤﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﺍﺒﻴﺽ ﻴﺎ ﻗﻠﺏ ﺍﻟﻌﺸﺭﻴﺔ‬ ‫٤‬
‫ﻤﻴﻥ ﺍﻟﻠﻲ ﻴﺴﻬﺭ ﺠﻨﺒﻲ ﺍﻟﻠﻴل‬ ‫ﻤﻴﻥ ﺍﻟﻠﻲ ﺒﺎﻟﻪ ﻤﻌﺎﻴﺎ ﻁﻭﻴل‬ ‫ﺃﻡ ﺍﻟﻌﻴﺎل ﺍﻟﺸﻌﺭﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﺠﺎﻴﺏ ﻤﻌﺎﻴﺎ ﺍﻟﻠﻲ ﻓﻲ ﻴﺩﻱ‬ ‫ﻭﻗﺩﺭﺕ ﺃﺠﻴﺒﻪ ﻤﻥ ﻜﺩﻱ‬ ‫ﻭﻻ ﺘﻘﻭﻟﻴﺵ ﺒﺱ ﺍﻨﺎ ﻋﻨﺩﻱ‬ ‫ﻭﻜﻔﺎﻴﺔ ﺒﺘﻬل ﻋﻠﻴﺎ‬ ‫ﺃﺼﻠﻙ ﺃﺼﻴﻠﺔ ﻴﺎ ﻋﺸﺭﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﻤﺎ ﻴﻐﻠﻰ ﻴﺎ ﺴﺕ ﺍﻟﺴﺘﺎﺕ‬ ‫ﻋﻠﻴﻙ ﻟﻭﻟﻰ ﻭﻻ ﻏﻭﻴﺸﺎﺕ‬ ‫ﻭﺃﺠﻴﺏ ﻟﻤﻴﻥ ﻏﻴﺭﻙ ﺃﻫﺎﺩﻯ‬ ‫ﺃﻡ ﺍﻟﻌﻴﺎل ﺍﻟﻌﺸﺭﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﺃﻡ ﺍﻟﻌﻴﺎل ﺍﻟﻌﺸﺭﻴﺔ‬ ‫٥‬
‫ﺇﻫﺩﺍﺀ )٢(‬ ‫ﺇﻟﻰ ﺜﻼﺜﺔ‬ ‫ﻤﺎﺯﻟﻥ ﺒﻘﻠﻭﺏ ﺤﻨﻭﻨﺔ‬ ‫ﺠﻴﻬﺎﻥ – ﺴﻭﻤﻪ – ﺴﻭﺯﺍﻥ‬ ‫ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﻤﻲ ﻭﺃﺒﻰ‬ ‫ﺍﻋﺭﻑ‬ ‫ﺴﻨﻔﺘﺭﻕ ﻗﺭﻴﺒﺎ ...‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﺇﻟﻰ ﺒﺎﻗﻲ ﺇﺨﻭﺘﻲ ﺍﻟﺭﺠﺎل‬ ‫ﻜﺎﻥ ﺃﺤﺩﻜﻡ ﻤﻌﻲ ﻤﻨﺫ ﻗﻠﻴل .... ﻗﻠﻴل‬ ‫ﻫل ﺘﻌﻠﻤﻭﻥ ﺃﻴﻥ ﺫﻫﺏ‬ ‫ﺇﻟﻰ ﺤﺒﻴﺒﺔ ﻗﻠﺒﻲ‬ ‫ﺯﻭﺠﺘﻲ‬ ‫ﺇﻟﻴﻙ ﻴﺎ ﺤﺒﻴﺒﺘﻲ‬ ‫ﻤﺭﻴﻡ‬ ‫٦‬
‫ﺍﻵﺨﺭﻭﻥ ﻟﻬﻡ ﺁﺴﺭﺓ ﻓﻲ ﻗﻠﺒﻲ‬ ‫ﺍﺸﻌﺭ ﺃﻨﻰ ﺴﺄﻤﻭﺕ ﺩﻭﻥ ﻗﺼﺩ‬ ‫ﺴﻴﻀﻌﻭﻥ ﻤﺜﻼ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻭﺴﺎﺩﺓ ﻓﻭﻕ ﺃﻨﻔﺎﺴﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﻭﺘﺭﺓ‬ ‫ﺃﺜﻨﺎﺀ ﻨﻭﻤﻲ‬ ‫ﺃﻭ‬ ‫ﻴﻤﺴﻜﻭﻨﻨﻲ ﻤﻥ ﻴﺩﻱ ﻭﻗﺩﻤﻲ‬ ‫ﻭﻴﺫﻫﺒﻭﻥ ﺒﻲ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻘﺒﺭ‬ ‫ﻜﻲ ﺃﻋﺎﻨﻕ ﺍﻟﻤﻭﺘﻰ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻥ ﺍﻟﻤﺅﻜﺩ‬ ‫ﺃﻨﻬﻡ ﺴﻴﺠﺭﻭﻥ ﻭﺭﺍﺌﻲ‬ ‫ﻭﻋﻴﻭﻨﻬﻡ ﺘﻌﺒﺭ ﻋﻥ ﻤﻌﺼﻴﺘﻲ‬ ‫ﺴﺄﻗﻭل ﺒﺎﻟﺘﺄﻜﻴﺩ‬ ‫ﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻴﻔﻌﻠﻭﻥ ﺒﻲ؟‬ ‫ﻭﺃﺤﺎﻭل ﺍﻟﻔﺭﺍﺭ ﻤﻥ ﻗﺒﻀﺎﺘﻬﻡ ﺍﻟﻘﻭﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﻭﺇﻏﺭﺍﺌﻬﻡ ﺒﺎﻟﺨﺒﺯ ﻭﺍﻟﺴﺠﺎﺌﺭ‬ ‫ﺴﺄﻓﺘﺢ ﺼﺩﺭﻱ‬ ‫ﻭﺃﻜﺸﻑ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻟﺨﻭﻑ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﻴﺭﻋﻰ ﺒﺩﺍﺨﻠﻪ‬ ‫ﻟﻌﻠﻰ ﺍﺴﺘﻌﻁﻔﻬﻡ‬ ‫ﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﻴﺤﻤﻠﻭﻥ ﻓﻲ ﻗﻤﺼﺎﻨﻬﻡ‬ ‫ﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﻟﻌﻴﺴﻰ‬ ‫ﻭﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﻟﻲ‬ ‫ﻜﻼﻨﺎ ﻻ ﻴﺼﺩﻗﻪ ﺍﺤﺩ‬ ‫ﻴﺠﺭﻭﻥ ﻭﺭﺍﺌﻲ‬ ‫ﻻ ﻴﺠﺭﻭﻥ‬ ‫٧‬
‫ﻴﺤﻤل ﻜل ﻤﻨﻬﻡ ﻤﺩﻴﺔ ﻓﻲ ﻜﻔﻪ ﺍﻟﺨﺸﻥ‬ ‫ﻭﻻ ﻴﺤﻤﻠﻭﻥ‬ ‫" ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺒﺩﺀ‬ ‫ﺤﻴﻥ ﺩﺒﺕ ﻗﺩﻤﺎﻱ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ‬ ‫ﺃﺭﺒﻜﻨﻲ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺭ‬ ‫ﻓﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺨﻁﻭﺘﻲ ﻋﺒﺌﺎ "‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻟﻌﻠﻙ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺤﻕ‬ ‫ﻭﻜﺎﻨﻭﺍ ﻫﻨﺎ‬ ‫ﻴﺭﺘﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻗﻨﻌﺔ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻨﻙ ﺘﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻀﻊ ﻫﻭﺍﺠﺴﻙ ﻓﻲ ﺴﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﻬﻤﻼﺕ‬ ‫ﺘﺨﺒﺊ ﺃﻗﻼﻤﻙ ﺍﻟﺭﺨﻴﺼﺔ‬ ‫ﻭﺘﻠﺘﻔﺕ ﻭﺭﺍﺀﻙ‬ ‫ﻓﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﻜﺎﻨﻭﺍ ﺍﻟﻅﻼﻡ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﺘﺠﺭﻩ ﺨﻠﻔﻙ‬ ‫ﻭﻟﻡ ﺘﻨﺘﺒﻪ‬ ‫٨‬
‫ﺭﻫﺎﻓﺔ‬ ‫ﺃﺒﻲ‬ ‫ﺇﻥ ﻗﺴﻭﺘﻙ ﺘﺠﻌل ﻗﻠﺒﻲ ﻤﻤﺸﻰ ﻟﻨﺴﺎﺀ ﻤﺘﺸﺤﺎﺕ ﺒﺜﻴﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﺤﺩﺍﺩ‬ ‫ﻭﺃﻤﻲ‬ ‫ﺘﻘﻀﻰ ﺍﻟﻭﻗﺕ ﻓﻲ ﻤﺂﺘﻡ ﺍﻵﺨﺭﻴﻥ‬ ‫ﻻ ﻭﻗﺕ ﻟﻲ ﻋﻨﺩﻫﺎ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﺃﺘﻘﻤﺹ ﺃﻱ ﺸﻲﺀ‬ ‫ﺃﺩﻭﺍﺭﺍ ﻟﻴﺱ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻟﺼﻌﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻔﻬﻤﻬﺎ ﺒﺴﻬﻭﻟﺔ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻟﻌل ﺃﻤﻲ ﺘﻤﻨﺤﻨﻲ ﺍﻟﺭﻀﺎ‬ ‫ﺃﻭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﻗل‬ ‫ﻻ ﺘﺸﻲ ﺒﺸﻲﺀ ﻤﻤﺎ ﺃﻓﻌﻠﻪ ﻟﻶﺨﺭﻴﻥ‬ ‫ﺍﻵﺨﺭﻭﻥ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺫﻴﻥ ﻴﺘﻭﻻﻫﻡ ﺍﷲ ﺒﺭﺤﻤﺘﻪ‬ ‫ﺃﻭ‬ ‫ﻴﺒﻴﺩﻫﻡ‬ ‫ﺤﺘﻰ ﻻ ﺃﺨﺎﻑ‬ ‫ﺃﻭ ﻻ ﺃﻜﻭﻥ ﻤﺘﻭﺘﺭﺍ ﺤﻴﻥ ﺃﻗﺎﺒﻠﻬﻡ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻋﺯﻴﺯﺘﻲ ﺁﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﺘﻔﻌﻠﻴﻥ ﺍﻵﻥ‬ ‫ﻫل ﻨﺒﻭﺀﺘﻙ ﺘﺩﻓﻌﻙ ﻟﺫﻟﻙ‬ ‫ﺃﻴﺘﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻨﺒﻴﻪ ﺍﻟﺼﻐﻴﺭﺓ !!!‬ ‫ﻻ ﺘﺸﺒﻜﻲ ﻴﺩﻙ ﻓﻲ ﻴﺩﻱ‬ ‫٩‬
‫ﻭﺘﻀﻐﻁﻲ ﻋﻠﻴﻬﺎ‬ ‫ﺤﻴﻥ ﻻ ﺘﻌﺒﺌﻲ ﺒﻨﺎ‬ ‫ﻷﻨﻨﻲ ﺃﻋﻠﻡ‬ ‫ﺃﻨﻙ‬ ‫ﻻ ﺘﺭﻫﺒﻴﻥ ﺸﻴﺌﺎ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﺴﻭﻯ ﺍﻟﺤﺯﻥ‬ ‫٠١‬
‫ﻜﺎﺌﻥ ﺭﻏﺒﺎﺘﻪ ﻨﻅﻴﻔﺔ‬ ‫ﺴﺘﺤﺘﻤل ﺭﺃﺴﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺨﺒﺊ ﺩﺍﺨﻠﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻠﺼﻭﺹ‬ ‫ﻷﻨﺴﻰ‬ ‫ﺃﺴﻤﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺫﻴﻥ ﺃﺴﺎﺀﻭﺍ ﻟﻲ‬ ‫ﺃﻨﺎ ﺁﺨﺭ ﻤﻥ ﻴﻤﺸﻰ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻟﻤﻘﻬﻰ‬ ‫ﺘﺎﺭﻜﺎ ﺨﻠﻔﻲ ﺭﺠﻼ ﻤﻥ ﺩﺨﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺭﺠﻴﻠﺔ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻴﺘﺤﺩﺙ ﻷﺼﺩﻗﺎﺌﻪ ﺍﻟﻭﻫﻤﻴﻴﻥ‬ ‫ﻭﻴﺒﺘﺴﻡ‬ ‫ﺍﻜﺘﺴﺒﺕ ﻋﺎﺩﺍﺕ ﺃﺒﻲ ﻜﻠﻬﺎ‬ ‫ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺸﻌﺭ‬ ‫ﻓﺘﺤﺕ ﺃﻤﻲ ﺒﺎﺒﻨﺎ‬ ‫ﻓﺎﺭﺘﻜﺒﺕ‬ ‫ﺃﻥ ﻴﺭﺍﻨﻲ ﺃﺤﺩ‬ ‫ﻭﺍﻗﻔﺎ ﺃﻤﺎﻡ ﻤﺭﺁﺘﻲ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻤﺘﻌﺠﺒﺎ ﺴﺄﻗﻭل ﻟﻜﻡ ﻤﺼﺎﺩﻓﺔ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺃﺨﺭﻑ‬ ‫ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺘﻠﻜﺄ ﺒﻴﺩﻱ ﺍﻟﻤﺭﺘﻌﺸﺔ‬ ‫ﻷﺘﺤﺴﺱ ﺃﺠﺴﺎﺩ ﺍﻵﺨﺭﻴﻥ‬ ‫ﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﺃﻭﻫﻤﻨﻲ ﺒﻬﺎ ﺃﺤﺩ‬ ‫ﻷﺜﻕ ﺒﻪ‬ ‫ﺃﻨﺎ ﻤﺭﻫﻕ‬ ‫ﻤﻥ ﺍﻟﻤﻭﺍﺼﻼﺕ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺘﺅﺩﻯ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻨﻬﺎﻴﺔ ﻟﻲ‬ ‫ﺃﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﺤﺸﺎﺵ ﺍﻟﺼﻐﻴﺭ‬ ‫ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻵﻥ‬ ‫١١‬
‫ﻟﻡ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﺨﻁﻭﺓ ﺜﺎﺒﺘﺔ ﻟﻲ‬ ‫ﻭﺒﺈﻴﻘﺎﻉ ﻫﻤﺠﻲ‬ ‫ﺍﺼﻌﺩ ﺍﻟﺩﺭﺝ‬ ‫ﺃﺭﻜل ﺍﻟﺤﺼﻰ ﺍﻟﺨﻔﻴﻑ‬ ‫ﺃﻤﺸﻰ ﻓﻭﻕ ﺍﻷﺸﻴﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺜﻘﻴﻠﺔ‬ ‫ﺒﺈﻴﻘﺎﻉ ﻫﻤﺠﻲ ﺃﻴﻀﺎ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﺃﺜﺭﺜﺭ‬ ‫ﻫﻤﺴﺎﺕ ﺍﻵﺨﺭﻴﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺃﺫﻨﻲ‬ ‫ﺘﺭﻥ‬ ‫ﻴﻘﻭﻟﻭﻥ‬ ‫ﻨﻅﺭﺘﻲ ﻗﺒﻴﺤﺔ‬ ‫ﺜﻡ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺴﺌﻠﺘﻲ ﻤﻠﻭﺜﺔ ﺒﺎﻟﺼﺩﻕ‬ ‫ﻜﺎﻨﻭﺍ ﺴﻴﺌﻲ ﺍﻟﻅﻥ‬ ‫ﻫﺅﻻﺀ ﺍﻟﺫﻴﻥ ﺘﻌﻤل ﻟﺭﺍﺤﺘﻬﻡ‬ ‫ﻭﺘﺒﺎﺩﻟﻬﻡ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻘﺎﺒﻠﺔ ﺍﻷﻭﻟﻰ‬ ‫ﺭﺠﻔﺔ‬ ‫ﻜﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺒﺩﺍﺌﻲ ﺃﻨﺎ‬ ‫ﻜﻨﺕ ﻟﻪ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻨﻰ‬ ‫ﺭﺃﻴﺕ ﺃﻭل ﻤﺎ ﺭﺃﻴﺕ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻨﻅﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﻤﺭﺒﻜﺔ‬ ‫ﺍﺴﺘﺩﺍﺭﺘﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺤﻴﺭﺓ‬ ‫ﻗﻠﺕ‬ ‫ﻟﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﺃﺒﺹ ﻭﺭﺍﺌﻲ‬ ‫ﻓﻠﻡ ﻴﺠﺒﻥ ﺃﺤﺩ‬ ‫ﺜﻡ ﺭﺃﻴﺕ ﺃﻨﻰ ﺃﻨﺤﻨﻲ‬ ‫٢١‬
‫ﻷﻟﺘﻘﻁ ﻤﺎ ﺴﻘﻁ ﻤﻨﻲ‬ ‫ﻭﻤﺎ ﻴﺴﺘﺭ ﻋﺎﻨﺘﻲ‬ ‫ﻓﺎﺒﺘﺴﻤﺕ‬ ‫ﺭﺠﻌﺕ ﺨﻁﻭﺓ‬ ‫ﺘﻘﺩﻤﺕ‬ ‫ﻭﺃﻨﺎ ﺃﻨﻅﺭ ﺤﻭﻟﻲ‬ ‫ﺃﺼﻴﺒﺕ ﺴﺎﻗﺎﻱ ﺒﻭﺠﻊ‬ ‫ﺃﻴﻘﻨﺕ ﺃﻨﻰ ﻟﻡ ﺃﺩﺭﻙ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻨﻭﻥ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺭ‬ ‫ﻫﻜﺫﺍ ﺃﻜﻭﻥ ﻭﺃﻨﺴﻰ‬ ‫ﺒﻴﻥ ﺍﺜﻨﻴﻥ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺨﻔﻴﻑ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﺃﺭﻜﻠﻪ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺜﻘﻴل ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﺃﺨﻁﻭ ﻓﻭﻗﻪ‬ ‫ﻻ ﺍﻤﻠﻙ ﻤﺎ ﻴﺠﻌﻠﻨﻲ ﻋﺎﺩﻻ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻜﻲ ﺃﻜﻭﻥ ﺍﻟﻜﺎﺌﻥ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﺭﻏﺒﺎﺘﻪ ﻨﻅﻴﻔﺔ‬ ‫ﺒﺎﻟﻀﺒﻁ‬ ‫ﻜل ﺍﻷﺸﻴﺎﺀ ﺘﺘﺂﻤﺭ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ‬ ‫ﻭﺭﻭﺤﻪ ﺭﻫﻴﻔﺔ‬ ‫٣١‬
‫ﻤﺫﻜﺭﺍﺕ ﻋﺯﻟﺔ ﺍﻷﺒﻠﻪ ﺍﻟﻭﺤﻴﺩ‬ ‫ﻻ ﺸﻲﺀ ﻴﻬﻤﻬﻡ ﺴﻭﻯ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻜﻭﻨﻭﺍ ﻏﺭﺒﺎﺀ‬ ‫ﻓﻠﻤﺎ ﺍﷲ ﻻ ﻴﺒﺎﺩﻟﻨﻲ ﺍﻟﺭﻫﺎﻓﺔ ؟‬ ‫ﺃﻥ ﺃﻜﻭﻥ ﻋﺒﺩﻩ ﺍﻟﻭﺤﻴﺩ‬ ‫ﻭﻋﺫﺭﺍﻭﺍﺕ ﺃﻫل ﺍﻟﺒﻴﺕ‬ ‫ﻁﺎﻫﺭﺍﺕ ﺨﺎﻟﺹ‬ ‫ﻴﺩﻨﻴﻥ ﻓﻭﻕ ﺸﻔﺎﻫﻬﻥ‬ ‫ﺩﺍﻨﺘﻴﻼ ﻗﺩﻴﻤﺔ‬ ‫ﻓﻘﻁ‬ ‫ﺸﻔﺎﻫﻬﻥ‬ ‫ﺤﺘﻰ ﻻ ﻴﺘﻜﻠﻤﻥ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﺍ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻭﺃﺨﺘﻲ ﺍﻟﻁﺒﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺘﻌﻤل ﻓﻲ ﻗﻠﻭﺏ ﺍﻵﺨﺭﻴﻥ‬ ‫ﺘﺴﻨﺩ ﺭﺃﺴﻬﺎ‬ ‫ﻓﻭﻕ ﺯﺠﺎﺝ ﻨﺎﻓﺫﺘﻲ‬ ‫ﺘﻨﻅﺭ ﺒﻬﺩﻭﺀ‬ ‫ﺒﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻴﺠﺭﺒﻭﻥ ﺴﺨﺎﻓﺎﺘﻬﻡ‬ ‫ﻴﺘﻀﺎﺤﻜﻭﻥ‬ ‫ﺜﻡ ﻴﺘﻤﺎﺩﻭﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺇﻟﻘﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻭﺩﺍﻉ‬ ‫)ﺍﻟﻤﻜﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﻴﻤﻨﺤﻨﻲ ﺭﻭﺤﺎ ﺴﺭﻤﺩﻴﺔ(‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻻ ﺃﻟﻘﻰ ﺍﷲ ﻓﻴﻪ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ‬ ‫ﺍﺘﻤﺘﻊ ﺒﺎﻷﺸﻴﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺘﺼﻨﻊ ﺤﺒﺎ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻓﻲ ﻤﺩﺭﺴﺘﻲ‬ ‫ﺃﺘﺫﻜﺭ‬ ‫٤١‬
‫ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﻨﺎﻡ ﻓﻭﻕ ﺍﻟﻤﻘﻌﺩ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﺍ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﺃﺸﻡ ﺭﺍﺌﺤﺔ ﺍﻟﻁﻔﻭﻟﺔ‬ ‫ﺃﺸﺎﻫﺩ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﻠﻤﻴﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻷﻋﻴﺎﺩ‬ ‫ﻴﺠﺭﺒﻭﻥ ﺍﻟﻁﻴﺏ‬ ‫ﻭﺍﻟﻤﻠﻜﺔ ﻟﻸﻁﻔﺎل ﺍﻟﺼﻌﺎﻟﻴﻙ‬ ‫ﺼﺭﺕ ﻤﺠﺭﺒﺎ ﻟﻅﻬﻭﺭ ﻋﺎﻁﻔﺔ ﺍﻷﺼﺩﻗﺎﺀ ﻋﻨﻭﺓ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﺃﻴﻀﺎ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻻ ﺸﻲﺀ ﻴﻬﻤﻬﻡ‬ ‫ﺴﻭﻯ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻜﻭﻨﻭﺍ ﻏﺭﺒﺎﺀ‬ ‫ﺃﺒﻲ‬ ‫ﺘﺸﺒﻬﻪ ﺍﻟﺭﺴﺎﻻﺕ ﺍﻟﻤﻘﺩﺴﺔ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻨﻪ - ﺘﻤﺎﻤﺎ - ﻻ ﻴﺸﺒﻬﻬﺎ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﺤﻴﻥ ﻴﺅﺫﻥ ﻜﺎﻟﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﻤﺫﻴﺎﻉ ﺍﻟﻘﺩﻴﻡ‬ ‫ﻭﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻷﺒﻠﻪ ﺍﻟﻭﺤﻴﺩ‬ ‫ﻻ ﻴﻬﻤﻪ ﺴﻭﻯ ﺸﻲﺀ ﻭﺍﺤﺩ‬ ‫ﻗﺎل ﻓﻲ ﻤﺴﺎﺀ ﻟﻪ ﺤﺯﻴﻥ:‬ ‫"ﺍﻟﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺒﺩﻭﻥ ﺨﻭﻑ‬ ‫ﻜﺎﻟﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺒﺩﻭﻥ ﺇﻟﻪ"‬ ‫ﻭﻻ ﺃﺭﻴﺩ ﺸﻴﺌﺎ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﺴﻭﻯ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺤﻤﻠﻨﻲ ﺍﺜﻨﺎﻥ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻟﻴﻤﺎﻡ‬ ‫ﺇﻟﻰ ﻁﻔﻭﻟﺘﻲ‬ ‫ﻁﻔﻭﻟﺘﻲ‬ ‫ﺁﺜﺎﺭﻫﺎ ﻤﺎ ﺯﺍﻟﺕ ﻋﺎﻟﻘﺔ ﺒﺤﻴﻁﺎﻥ ﺒﻴﺘﻲ ﺍﻟﻘﺩﻴﻡ‬ ‫ﻫﻨﺎﻙ‬ ‫٥١‬
‫ﺤﻴﺙ ﺸﻴﺨﻭﺨﺔ ﺠﺩﺘﻲ‬ ‫ﻭﻤﻀﻎ ﺘﺘﺤﻭل ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﻁﻔﺎل ﺼﻐﺎﺭ‬ ‫ﻴﺤﺎﺼﺭﻭﻨﻨﻲ‬ ‫ﺤﻴﺙ ﺍﷲ ﺸﻲﺀ ﺇﺼﺒﻊ ﻴﺩ ﺴﻭﺯﺍﻥ ﺍﻟﺼﻐﻴﺭﺓ‬ ‫ﺤﻴﻥ ﺘﻘﻤﺼﺕ ﻤﻌﻬﺎ ﺩﻭﺭ ﺍﻟﺭﺘﺎﺒﺔ‬ ‫ﹸ‬ ‫ﺃﻡ ﻫﺎ ﻻ ﺘﻌﺭﻑ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻤﺴﻙ ﺴﻜﻴﻨﺎ - ﻭﺘﻘﻁﻊ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻤﻭﻥ -‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﺒﺒﻼﻫﺔ‬ ‫ﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﻤﻜﻥ ﺍﻟﺒﺤﺙ ﻋﻥ ﻤﻌﻁﻴﺎﺕ ﻤﻤﺎﺭﺴﺔ ﺍﻟﺭﻫﺎﻓﺔ‬ ‫ﻭﻤﻌﺭﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﺨﻤﻭل ﺍﻟﺭﺍﻗﺩ‬ ‫ﺒﻴﻥ ﺼﺤﺒﺔ ﺍﻷﺼﺩﻗﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺸﻴﻭﻋﻴﻴﻥ‬ ‫ﻭﺍﻥ ﺜﻤﺔ ﻁﻔﻭﻟﺔ ﻋﺎﺭﻀﺔ‬ ‫ﻴﺼﻨﻌﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻤﺭﺒﻭﻥ ﺍﻟﻘﺩﺍﻤﻰ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻤﺭﺒﻭﻥ‬ ‫ﻫﺅﻻﺀ ﺍﻟﺫﻴﻥ ﺭﺤﻠﻭﺍ‬ ‫ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻭﺩﻋﻭﺍ ﺭﺴﺎﻟﺔ ﻨﻘﺭﺃﻫﺎ‬ ‫ﺃﻭ ﺁﺜﺎﺭﺍ ﺸﺒﻴﻬﻪ ﺒﺎﻟﻁﻬﺎﺭﺓ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫٦١‬
‫ﻁﻔل ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺌﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﻭﺤﻴﺩ‬ ‫ﻋﺎﺩﺓ‬ ‫ﺃﺒﺎﻏﺕ ﺍﻵﺨﺭﻴﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺸﻘﺔ …….. ﻤﺒﺘﺴﻤﺎ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻭﻫﻡ‬ ‫ﺴﺎﻫﺭﻭﻥ ﻤﻨﺫ ﻋﺎﻡ ﻤﻀﻰ‬ ‫ﻓﻲ ﺤﻴﺎﻜﺔ ﻤﻼﺒﺱ ﺍﻟﺒﻨﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻐﺎﺌﺒﺎﺕ‬ ‫ﻭﻻ ﻴﺒﺘﺴﻤﻭﻥ ﻟﻲ‬ ‫ﻷﻨﻬﻡ‬ ‫ﻜﺎﻷﺸﻴﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺘﺘﺴﺎﻗﻁ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻟﺭﺃﺱ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻤﻬل‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﺍﻵﺨﺭﻭﻥ ﻋﺎﺩ ﺓ ﻁﻴﺒﻭﻥ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻨﻬﻡ ﻻ ﻴﺒﺘﺴﻤﻭﻥ ﻟﻲ‬ ‫ﻟﻤﺎ ﺃﻗﻑ ﺴﻌﻴﺩﺍ ﻓﻲ ﺭﺩﻩ ﺸﻘﺘﻨﺎ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻭﻫﺅﻻﺀ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﻜﺌﺎﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﻴﻜﺔ‬ ‫ﻴﻨﻘﻴﻥ ﺍﻷﺭﺯ‬ ‫ﻴﻨﻅﺭﻥ ﺒﺤﺯﻥ‬ ‫ﻴﻜﺎﺩ ﻴﻘﻊ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ‬ ‫ﻓﻴﻠﻭﺙ ﺍﻷﻗﺩﺍﻡ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺒﺭﺓ‬ ‫ﺃﻋﺭﻑ‬ ‫ﺒﺎﻟﺸﻘﺔ ﺃﻗﺩﺍﻡ ﻏﺭﻴﺒﺔ‬ ‫ﻭﻓﻨﺠﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻘﻬﻭﺓ ﻤﻘﻠﻭﺒﺎ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻤﻼﺤﺔ ﺍﻟﻁﻌﺎﻡ ﻓﻭﻕ ﺍﻷﺸﻴﺎﺀ ﻤﻘﻠﻭﺒﺔ‬ ‫ﻜﺭﺍﺴﺎﺕ ﺭﺴﻡ ﺍﻟﻌﻴﺎل‬ ‫ﺃﺤﺫﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺭﻀﻰ ﻭﺍﻟﺯﺍﺌﺭﻴﻥ‬ ‫ﺴﺠﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﺼﻼﺓ ﻤﻬﺘﺭﺌﺔ ﻟﺤﺩ ﺍﻟﻜﻔﺭ‬ ‫ﻜل ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻷﺸﻴﺎﺀ ﺒﺎﻟﻀﺒﻁ‬ ‫٧١‬
‫ﻤﺭﻤﻴﺔ ﺒﺈﻫﻤﺎل ﻓﻭﻕ ﻗﻠﺒﻲ‬ ‫ﻋﺎﺩﺓ‬ ‫ﺃﺒﺎﻏﺕ ﺍﻵﺨﺭﻴﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺸﻘﺔ ...... ﻤﺘﺠﻬﻤﺎ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻓﻼ ﺃﺭﻯ ﺃﺤﺩﺍ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﺴﻭﻯ ﻁﻴﺒﺔ ﺘﺴﻴل ﻜﺎﻟﺸﻤﻊ‬ ‫ﻓﻭﻕ ﺴﻠﻡ ﺒﻴﺘﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﺨﺸﺒﻲ‬ ‫ﻤﻥ ﺠﺎﺭﺍﺘﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﻌﺫﺭﺍﻭﺍﺕ‬ ‫ﻭﻀﺤﻜﺎﺘﻬﻥ ﺍﻟﺼﺎﺨﺒﺔ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ‬ ‫ﻓﻭﻕ ﺍﻟﺴﻁﻭﺡ‬ ‫ﻭﻋﺸﻭﺍﺌﻴﺎﺕ ﺃﺨﺭﻯ ﺘﻨﻬﻤﺭ ﻓﻭﻕ ﺍﻟﺩﻤﺎﻍ‬ ‫٨١‬
‫ﺠﻨﺎﺯﺓ ﺨﻔﻴﻔﺔ‬ ‫ﺃﻤﺱ‬ ‫ﺃﻗﻴﻤﺕ ﺠﻨﺎﺯﺘﻲ‬ ‫ﻜﺎﻥ ﺃﺒﻲ ﻴﺤﻤﻠﻨﻲ‬ ‫ﻭﻴﻤﺭ ﺒﻰ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻌﻴﻭﻥ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺃﺨﺎﻓﻬﺎ‬ ‫ﺃﺨﺘﻲ ﺍﻟﺼﻐﻴﺭﺓ‬ ‫ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺘﺤﻤل ﺤﺫﺍﺌﻲ‬ ‫ﻭﻓﻲ ﺤﺠﺭﺘﻲ‬ ‫ﺍﻷﺴﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﺒﻴﻀﺎﺀ‬ ‫ﺴﻭﺩﺘﻬﺎ ﺍﻷﺭﺍﻤل ﺒﺄﺜﻭﺍﺒﻬﻥ‬ ‫ﻭﺍﻟﺠﻴﺭﺍﻥ‬ ‫ﺨﻠﻌﻭﺍ ﺃﺤﺫﻴﺘﻬﻡ ﺃﻤﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﻤﻘﺎﻋﺩ‬ ‫ﻟﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﺘﻘﻴﻤﻭﻥ ﺩﺍﺨل ﺍﻟﺤﺠﺭﺓ ؟‬ ‫ﻟﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﺘﻨﺎﻤﻭﻥ ﻓﻭﻕ ﺍﻷﺴﺭﺓ ﻗﻠﻘﻴﻥ .. ؟!‬ ‫ﺃﻋﺭﻑ‬ ‫ﺃﻥ ﻟﻜﻡ ﺒﻴﻭﺘﺎ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻭﻗﻤﺼﺎﻨﺎ ﻤﻬﺘﺭﺌﺔ ..... ﻜﺎﻟﺘﻲ ﻋﻨﺩﻱ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻓﻠﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﺘﻘﻴﻤﻭﻥ ﺩﺍﺨل ﺍﻟﺤﺠﺭﺓ ؟‬ ‫ﺁﻩ‬ ‫ﻋﺭﻓﺕ‬ ‫ﻀﻌﻔﻲ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﺃﺨﺒﺌﻪ ﺘﺤﺕ ﺍﻟﻭﺴﺎﺩﺓ‬ ‫ﻴﺎﻗﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﻤﻴﺹ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺍﺘﺴﺨﺕ‬ ‫ﻤﻨﺫ ﻁﻔﻭﻟﺘﻲ ﻭﺃﻨﺎ ﺃﺨﺒﺄﻫﺎ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺼﻔﻌﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻤﺅﻟﻤﺔ ﻓﻭﻕ ﺼﺩﻏﻲ‬ ‫٩١‬
‫ﺤﺭﺼﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﺼﻬﺎ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻟﺒﺩﺍﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﺩﺍﺨل ﺤﻘﻴﺒﺔ ﺍﻟﺩﺭﺍﺴﺔ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺤﺫﺍﺀ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﺍﻫﺘﺭﺃ ﻭﻟﻡ ﺘﻌﺭﻑ ﺒﻪ ﺃﻤﻲ‬ ‫ﺃﻟﻬﺫﺍ ﺘﻘﻴﻤﻭﻥ ﺩﺍﺨل ﺍﻟﺤﺠﺭﺓ ؟!‬ ‫ﺃﺘﺫﻜﺭ‬ ‫ﻜﺎﻥ ﺃﺨﻲ ﻴﺨﺩﻋﻨﻲ‬ ‫ﻴﺨﺒﺊ ﻨﻘﻭﺩﻱ ﻓﻭﻕ ﺭﻑ ﺍﻟﻌﻘﺎﻗﻴﺭ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻨﻘﻭﺩ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺘﺭﻥ ﺍﻵﻥ ﻓﻭﻕ ﺍﻟﺒﻼﻁ‬ ‫ﻓﺘﺼﻴﺏ ﺍﻟﺘﻤﺎﺜﻴل ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻤﻠﺌﺕ ﺍﻟﺸﻘﺔ‬ ‫ﺒﺎﻀﻁﺭﺍﺒﺎﺕ ﺨﻔﻴﻔﺔ‬ ‫ﻭﺼﻭﺭ ﺍﻟﺠﺎﻟﺴﻴﻥ ﺩﺍﺨل ﺍﻟﺒﺭﺍﻭﻴﺯ‬ ‫ﺘﺘﻼﺸﻰ‬ ‫ﻟﻴﺤﺘﻤل ﺍﻷﻤﺭ ﺃﻜﺜﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺘﺄﻭﻴل‬ ‫ﻭﺘﺒﺩﻭ ﻭﺠﻭﻩ ﺍﻟﺤﺎﻀﺭﻴﻥ‬ ‫ﺃﻜﺜﺭ ﻁﻴﺒﺔ‬ ‫ﻓﺄﻜﺜﺭ ﺤﻴﻭﺍﻨﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﻫﻜﺫﺍ‬ ‫ﻟﺘﺒﻘﻰ ﻟﻨﺎ ﺍﻷﻟﻔﺔ‬ ‫ﻟﺘﺒﻘﻰ ﻟﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﺤﻴﺎﺓ !!!‬ ‫٠٢‬
‫ﺃﺩﺍﺀ ﺇﻨﺴﺎﻨﻲ ﻨﺎﻗﺹ‬ ‫ﺤﻘﻘﺕ ﺭﻏﺒﺎﺕ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﺓ ﻟﻜﻥ ﺘﺤﻘﻴﻘﻬﺎ ﺒﻤﺜﺎﺒﺔ ﻜﻠﻤﺔ‬ ‫ﻴﻘﻭﻟﻬﺎ ﺼﺩﻴﻕ‬ ‫ﻤﺜﻼ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺃﺴﺄل ﻨﻔﺴﻲ ﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﻋﻥ ﻭﻟﻴﺩ ؟!‬ ‫ﻓﺄﻗﻭل / ﻻ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﺸﻴﺌﺎ " ﻡ . ﻉ "‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻭﺜﻤﺔ ﻤﻥ ﻴﻘﻭل ﻓﻲ ﻨﻔﺴﻪ ﺃﺸﻴﺎﺀ ﺃﺨﺭﻯ ﺃﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﺼﻨﻌﺘﻬﺎ‬ ‫‪‬‬ ‫ﺩﺍﺨﻠﻪ ﺒﺭﻏﺒﺘﻲ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻥ ﻻ ﻴﻤﻨﻊ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺃﻨﻰ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺃﺘﺤﺩﺙ ﻷﺤﺩ ﺃﻗﻭل‬ ‫ﺃﺤﺘﺎﺝ ﻷﻥ ﺃﻜﻭﻥ ﺼﻌﻠﻭﻜﺎ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻥ ﺍﻟﺒﺭﻭﺩ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﻓﻲ ﺩﻤﻲ ﻋﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻜل ﺍﻷﺸﻴﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ‬ ‫ﺘﺤﺩﺙ ﻗﺩ ﺤﺩﺜﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺫﺍﻜﺭﺘﻲ ﻤﻥ ﻗﺒل ﺫﻟﻙ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ‬ ‫ﺩﻓﻌﻨﻲ ﺃﻜﻭﻥ ﻤﺴﺎﻟﻤﺎ ﻟﻤﻭﺕ ﺃﺨﻲ ﻓﻼ ﺃﺒﻜﻰ ﻭﻟﻤﺎ ﻴﺤﺩﺙ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻟﻲ‬ ‫ﺃﺫﻫﺏ ﻤﻌﻜﻡ ﺃﺩﺨﻥ ﺍﻟﺴﺠﺎﺌﺭ‬ ‫ﺃﺤﺎﻭل ﺍﻟﺴﻜﺭ ﻭﻻ ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﻓﺄﺒﻜﻰ ﻟﻴﺱ ﻟﺩﻯ ﺫﺍﻜﺭﺘﻲ‬ ‫ﻤﻥ ﺍﻷﺤﺩﺍﺙ ﺍﻟﻤﺅﻟﻤﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﺨﻔﻴﻔﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﻤﻤﻠﺔ ﻜﻲ ﺃﺘﻨﺎﺴﺎﻫﺎ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻲ ﺃﻭﻓﺭ ﻋﻠﻴﻜﻡ ﺍﻟﺤﻴﺭﺓ ....‬ ‫ﺃﻨﺎ ﻤﺘﻌﺩﺩ ﺍﻟﻨﻤﺎﺫﺝ‬ ‫ﻨﻤﻭﺫﺝ ﺇﻨﺴﺎﻨﻲ ﺠﺩﺍ ﻭﻨﻤﻭﺫﺝ ﻴﻁﻭﺭ ﻨﻔﺴﻪ ﻟﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﺩﺍﻋﺭ ﺃﺼﻴل‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻭﺁﺨﺭ ﻴﺤﺎﻭل ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ...‬ ‫ﻭﻜﻤﺎ ﺘﻌﻠﻤﻭﻥ ﻤﻨﺫ ﺒﺩﺍﻴﺘﻲ ﻤﻌﻜﻡ ﺸﺎﺏ ﻫﺯﻟﻲ‬ ‫ﻟﻘﺩ ﺘﻌﻤﺩﺕ ﺍﻟﺴﻁﺤﻴﺔ - ﻭﺍﺤﺩ ﻓﻘﻁ ﻴﻌﺭﻑ ﺫﻟﻙ ﻗﺒل ﺍﻵﻥ -‬ ‫ﺃﻨﻨﻲ ﻻ ﺃﻫﺘﻡ ﺒﻜﻡ ﺒﺼﺭﺍﺤﺔ ﺃﻅل ﺃﻫﺫﻯ ﻷﺯﻴل ﻜل ﺍﻷﻗﻨﻌﺔ‬ ‫١٢‬
‫ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺒﻴﻨﻲ ﻭﺒﻴﻥ ﺍﻵﺨﺭﻴﻥ ﻭﺃﻀﺤﻙ‬ ‫ﺼﺤﻴﺢ ﺃﻨﻜﻡ ﺘﻌﺘﺒﺭﻭﻨﻨﻲ ﻤﺨﺭﻑ ﻭﺨﻔﻴﻑ ﻟﻜﻥ ﺫﻟﻙ ﻻ ﻴﻘﻠل‬ ‫ﻤﻥ ﻗﺩﺭﺍﺘﻲ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺘﺴﻠﻁ ﺍﻵﺨﺭﻴﻥ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻫﺘﺯﺍﺯﺍﺘﻲ ﻭﺨﻔﺘﻲ‬ ‫ﻓﻴﻘﻭﻟﻭﻥ ﻜﻼﻤﺎ ﺸﺎﺌﻨﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺤﻘﻲ ﻴﺘﺭﻜﻭﻨﻨﻲ ﻭﺤﺩﻱ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﻴﺨﺭﺝ ﺃﺤﺩﻫﻡ ﻟﺴﺎﻨﻪ ﻟﻲ ﻋﻨﺩ ﺍﻓﺘﺭﺍﻗﻨﺎ ﻭﺍﻵﺨﺭ ﻴﻁﺭﺩﻨﻲ‬ ‫ﻤﻥ ﺒﻴﺘﻪ ﻜﻲ ﻻ ﺃﻋﻜﺭ ﻟﻪ ﻤﺯﺍﺠﻪ ﺍﻟﺭﺍﺌﻕ‬ ‫ﺃﻴﻀﺎ ﺫﻟﻙ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻻ ﻴﻘﻠل ﻤﻥ ﻗﺩﺭﺍﺘﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻻﺴﺘﻤﺭﺍﺭ ﻭﺍﻟﻤﺘﺎﺒﻌﺔ‬ ‫ﻗﺩ ﻴﺤﺩﺙ ﻤﺎ ﻻ ﺃﺘﻭﻗﻌﻪ ﻓﺄﻨﺎ ﺃﺭﻴﺩ ﺩﺍﺌﻤﺎ ﺃﺭﻯ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻜل ﻤﻨﻜﻡ ﻴﻅﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺫﺍﺘﻪ ﺍﻟﻨﻀﻭﺝ ﻭﻓﻲ ﺫﺍﺘﻲ ﺍﻟﺨﻔﺔ ﻭﻴﻭﺠﻪ‬ ‫ﻟﻲ ﻨﺼﺎﺌﺤﻪ‬ ‫ﻓﻲ ﻴﻭﻡ ﻗﺒﻴﺢ ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺩ ﺃﻨﻨﻲ‬ ‫ﺴﺄﻨﻔﺠﺭ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻡ ﻭﺃﻗﻭل ﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﺃﻓﻌل‬ ‫ﻫل ﻗﻠﺕ ﻟﻜﻡ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻷﺸﻴﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺘﺯﻴﺩ ﺍﻀﻁﺭﺍﺒﺎﺘﻲ ﻤﻥ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻤﺠﻬﻭل ؟!‬ ‫ﻴﺎﺍﺍﻩ .... ﺍﻟﻤﻐﺹ‬ ‫ﺃﻗﻭل ﺍﻟﻤﻐﺹ‬ ‫ﺃﺘﺄﻟﻡ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﺍ ﻭﺃﺤﺱ ﺃﻥ ﻤﻌﺩﺘﻲ ﺘﻬﺘﺭﻱﺀ ﺭﻏﻡ ﺫﻟﻙ ﻓﺄﻨﺎ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻜﺴﻭل ﻟﺤﺩ ﻜﺒﻴﺭ‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺃﻅل ﻤﻜﺎﻨﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻔﺭﺍﺵ‬ ‫ﻻ ﺃﺩﺭﺏ ﻨﻔﺴﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺤﺭﻜﺔ ﻟﺘﻘﻠﻴل ﺍﻷﻟﻡ‬ ‫ﻭﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﺃﻨﺩﻫﺵ ﻟﺫﻟﻙ‬ ‫ﻭﺃﻗﻭل‬ ‫ﻗﺩ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﺍﻟﻤﻔﺎﺠﺄﺓ‬ ‫- ﺃﻨﻨﻲ ﻤﻌﻜﻡ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ - ﻫﻲ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺠﻌﻠﺘﻨﻲ ﻜﺴﻭل ﺠﺩﺍ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻟﺫﻟﻙ ﻜل ﺍﻟﻤﻭﺍﻗﻑ ﻭﺍﻷﺤﺩﺍﺙ ﺍﻟﻴﻭﻤﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺃﺭﺍﻫﺎ ﺃﻋﺘﺒﺭﻫﺎ‬ ‫٢٢‬
‫ﺒﺩﻴﻬﻴﻪ ﻗﺩ ﺤﺩﺜﺕ ﻓﻲ ﻨﻔﺱ ﺍﻟﺯﻤﺎﻥ ﻭﻓﻲ ﻨﻔﺱ ﺍﻟﻤﻜﺎﻥ‬ ‫ﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﺫﻟﻙ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﻤﺜﻴﺭﺍ ﻟﻠﺴﺨﺭﻴﺔ ﺒﺎﻟﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻟﻲ ﻓﺄﻀﺤﻙ ﻓﻲ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻭﺠﻭﻫﻜﻡ ﻀﺤﻜﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺭﻑ‬ ‫ﺃﻴﻀﺎ ﻻ ﺍﻋﺘﻨﻰ ﺒﺘﻨﻅﻴﻑ ﻏﺭﻓﺘﻲ ﻭﺘﺭﺘﻴﺏ ﻜﺘﺒﻲ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻭﺃﺘﻠﺫﺫ ﺒﺄﻥ ﺃﺭﺍﻫﺎ ﻤﺒﻌﺜﺭﺓ ﺃﻤﺎﻤﻲ‬ ‫ﻻ ﻤﺎﻨﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺸﻌﺭ ﺃﻨﻰ ﻏﺒﻲ ﺃﻭ ﺒﺎﺭﺩ ﻤﺜﻼ ﺃﻭ ﻫﻤﺠﻲ ﺫﻟﻙ ﻻ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﺃﺘﺄﺴﻑ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﺍﻟﻤﻬﻡ ﺃﻨﻨﻲ ﺃﺸﻌﺭ ﺒﺫﻟﻙ‬ ‫ﻤﻥ ﺃﻨﺎ !؟‬ ‫ﺴﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﺴﺅﺍل ﻟﻲ ﻭﺤﺩﻱ‬ ‫ﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﺃﻗﻨﻌﻜﻡ ﺒﻐﺒﺎﺌﻜﻡ‬ ‫ﻭﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﺘﻘﻨﻌﻭﻨﻨﻲ ﺒﻤﻭﺘﻰ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻥ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﺴﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﻫﻲ ﻗﻁﻌﺔ ﺍﻟﻨﻘﻭﺩ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺃﻟﻘﻰ ﺒﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺭﺏ ﻭﻗﺎل‬ ‫ﺇﻥ ﺍﺴﺘﻘﺭﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻤﻠﻙ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﺃﻨﺎ ﻓﺴﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﺴﻴﻜﻭﻥ‬ ‫ﺇﻨﺴﺎﻨﺎ ﻗﺎﻟﻭﺍ ﺃﻡ ﻗﺭﺩﺍ ﺴﻌﻴﺩﺍ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻭﺇﻥ ﺍﺴﺘﻘﺭﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺒﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻫﻲ ﻅﻬﺭﻱ ﻓﺴﻴﻜﻭﻥ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﺴﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﺇﻨﺴﺎﻨﺎ ﻗﺎﻟﻭﺍ ﺃﻡ ﺇﻟﻪ ﺸﻘﻴﺎ‬ ‫‪ ‬ﹰ‬ ‫ﺘﺠﺭﺃ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻓﻌل ﺍﻟﺭﺯﻴﻠﺔ‬ ‫ﻭﺍﻟﺤﻕ ﻤﺎ ﺃﻗﻭﻟﻪ ﺒﻔﻤﻲ ﻓﻜﻼﻫﻤﺎ ﺨﻠﻔﺘﻪ ﻷﺤﺘﻘﺭ ﻓﻴﻪ‬ ‫ﺃﻟﻭﻫﻴﺘﻲ‬ ‫ﻭﺒﻬﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﺍﻟﺤﻅﻴﺔ ﺨﻠﻘﻨﻲ ﺍﷲ‬ ‫ﻭﺼﺩﻓﺔ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺒﺸﺭﺍ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﺭﺒﻤﺎ‬ ‫ﺇﻥ ﺘﺒﺩل ﻭﺠﻪ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﺔ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻤﺼﻴﺭﻱ ﺃﻭﻓﺭ ﻷﻜﻭﻥ ﻜﺎﺌﻥ ﺁﺨﺭ‬ ‫ﻗﻁﻌﺔ ﻨﻘﻭﺩ ﻤﺜﻼ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫) ﻓﺎﻟﻨﻘﻭﺩ ﺘﺤﺘﺎﺝ ﻟﻤﺜﻠﻬﺎ ﻟﺘﺴﺎﻋﺩﻫﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺒﻘﺎﺀ (‬ ‫٣٢‬
‫ﺃﻭ ﺤﻤﺎﻤﺔ ، ﺩﺭﺍﺠﺔ ﺒﺨﺎﺭﻴﺔ ﻋﺭﺒﺔ ﺃﻱ ﺸﻲﺀ ﻻ ﺘﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﺘﺴﺒﻘﻪ ﻟﻴﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻁﻭﻱ ﺴﺭﻩ ﻓﻲ ﻏﻴﺎﺒﻪ ﺍﻟﺩﺍﺌﻡ‬ ‫ﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﻱ ﺸﻲﺀ ﺘﺎﻓﻪ‬ ‫٤٢‬
‫ﺍﻟﺤﻅ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺤﻅ‬ ‫ﻴﺎﺍﺍﺍﻩ‬ ‫ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﻤﻔﺭﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺘﺘﻔﻜﻙ ﻓﻲ ﻓﻤﻲ ﻜﻠﻤﺎ ﺃﻨﻁﻘﻬﺎ‬ ‫ﻭﺘﺘﻨﺎﺜﺭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ‬ ‫ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﻤﻌﻲ ﻗﺒل ﺃﻥ ﺃﻜﻭﻥ‬ ‫ﻭﺒﻤﺎ ﺃﻨﻬﺎ ﺘﺭﺍﻓﻘﻨﻲ‬ ‫ﻓﺄﻨﺎ ﺩﺍﺌﻤﺎ ﺃﻨﺘﻅﺭ ﺭﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻴﻠﻘﻰ ﺒﻬﺎ ﺍﻵﺨﺭﻴﻥ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻗﺒل ﺭﻤﻀﺎﻥ ﺒﻴﻭﻡ‬ ‫ﺃﻟﻌﺏ ﺍﻟﻨﻘﻭﺩ ﻤﻊ ﺯﻤﻴل ﺠﺭﻱﺀ‬ ‫ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﻫﻭ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﻴﺸﺠﻌﻨﻲ‬ ‫ﺃﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﻤﻘﺎﻤﺭ ﺍﻟﺼﻐﻴﺭ ﻭﻟﻡ ﺍﻨﺘﺒﻪ‬ ‫ﻴﺒﺩﻭ ﺃﻨﻨﻲ ﺘﺩﺭﺒﺕ ﻟﻔﺘﺭﺓ ﻗﺼﻴﺭﺓ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺨﻔﺔ ﺍﻟﺤﺭﻜﺔ ﻭﻟﻔﺕ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺍﻻﻨﺘﺒﺎﻩ‬ ‫ﺃﻨﺎ ﻗﺭﺭﺕ ﺫﻟﻙ ﻋﺎﻤﺩﺍ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻷﺴﻤﻊ ﻤﻥ ﻴﻘﻭل‬ ‫ﺇﻨﻙ ﻤﻤﺜل‬ ‫ﺒﺎﻟﻁﺒﻊ ﻓﺎﻟﻤﻤﺜل ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺩﺭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﺭﺘﺩﺍﺀ ﺃﻜﺜﺭ ﺍﻷﻗﻨﻌﺔ‬ ‫ﻹﺨﻔﺎﺀ ﺤﻘﻴﻘﺔ ﻫﻭﻴﺘﻪ ﻭﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﻷﻨﻪ ﻻ ﻴﻌﺭﻑ ﺤﻘﻴﻘﺔ ﺜﺎﺒﺘﺔ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﻓﺎﻟﻅﻭﺍﻫﺭ ﺘﺘﻐﻴﺭ ﻤﻊ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ ﻭﺍﻹﻨﺴﺎﻥ ﻓﺘﺘﻐﻴﺭ ﺒﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺤﻘﺎﺌﻕ‬ ‫ﺴﺄﻗﻭل ﻜﻠﻤﺔ ﺃﺨﻴﺭﺓ‬ ‫ﻓﻲ ﻨﻬﺎﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻴﻭﻡ‬ ‫ﺃﻅﻥ ﺃﻨﻨﻲ ﻻ ﺃﻨﺎﻡ ﻗﺒل ﺃﻥ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﻓﻲ ﻴﺩﻱ ﺤﺼﻰ ﻜﺜﻴﺭ‬ ‫ﺃﺘﺤﺴﺱ ﺨﺸﻭﻨﺘﻪ‬ ‫ﻭﺤﻭﺍﻑ ﺒﻌﻀﻪ ﺍﻟﻤﺩﺒﺒﺔ‬ ‫٥٢‬
‫ﻜﻲ ﺃﻁﻤﺌﻥ ﺃﻨﻨﻲ‬ ‫ﺴﺄﺘﻌﺜﺭ ﻓﻴﻪ ﻤﺭﺓ ﺃﺨﺭﻯ‬ ‫ﺇﺫﻥ‬ ‫ﺴﻴﺒﻘﻰ ﺍﻷﻟﻡ ﺍﻟﻠﻭﻥ ﺍﻷﺤﻤﺭ‬ ‫ﻓﺄﻨﺎﻡ‬ ‫٦٢‬

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  • 1.
  • 2. ‫ﺃﺩﺍء ﺇﻧﺴﺎﻧﻲ ﻧﺎﻗﺺ‬ ‫ﺸﻌﺭ ﻓﺼﺤﻰ‬ ‫ﻭﻟﻴﺪ ﻫﺎﺭﻭﻥ‬
  • 3. ‫ﻃﺒﻘﺎ ﻟﻘﻮﺍﻧﲔ ﺍﳌﻠﻜﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻔﻜﺮﻳﺔ‬ ‫א‬ ‫א‬ ‫א‬ ‫.‬ ‫אא‬ ‫א‬ ‫)ﻋـﱪ ﺍﻻﻧﱰﻧـﺖ ﺃﻭ‬ ‫א‬ ‫אא‬ ‫ﻟﻠﻤﻜﺘﺒــﺎﺕ ﺍﻻﻟﻜﱰﻭﻧﻴــﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺍﻷﻗــﺮﺍﺹ ﺍﳌﺪﳎــﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺍﻯ‬ ‫א‬ ‫ﻭﺳﻴﻠﺔ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ (‬ ‫א‬ ‫א‬ ‫.‬ ‫.‬ ‫א א‬
  • 4. ‫ﺍﻟﻔﻬﺭﺱ‬ ‫إهﺪاء )١( ﻋﺸﺮﻳﺔ ................................................................................................................ ٤‬ ‫إهﺪاء )٢( اﻵﺧﺮون ﻟﻬﻢ ﺁﺳﺮة ﻓﻲ ﻗﻠﺒﻲ ....................................................................................... ٧‬ ‫رهﺎﻓﺔ................................................................................................................................ ٩‬ ‫آﺎﺋﻦ رﻏﺒﺎﺗﻪ ﻧﻈﻴﻔﺔ ............................................................................................................. ١١‬ ‫ﻣﺬآﺮات ﻋﺰﻟﺔ اﻷﺑﻠﻪ اﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪ ................................................................................................... ٤١‬ ‫ﻃﻔﻞ اﻟﻌﺎﺋﻠﺔ اﻟﻮﺣﻴﺪ .............................................................................................................. ٧١‬ ‫ﺟﻨﺎزة ﺧﻔﻴﻔﺔ ..................................................................................................................... ٩١‬ ‫أداء إﻧﺴﺎﻧﻲ ﻧﺎﻗﺺ .............................................................................................................. ١٢‬ ‫اﻟﺤﻆ ............................................................................................................................... ٥٢‬ ‫٣‬
  • 5. ‫ﺇﻫﺩﺍﺀ )١(‬ ‫ﻋﺸﺭﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﻤﻴﻥ ﺍﻟﻠﻲ ﻴﺴﻬﺭ ﺠﻨﺒﻲ ﺍﻟﻠﻴل‬ ‫ﻤﻴﻥ ﺍﻟﻠﻲ ﺒﺎﻟﻪ ﻤﻌﺎﻴﺎ ﻁﻭﻴل‬ ‫ﻤﻴﻥ ﻟﻤﺎ ﺍﺘﻌﺏ ﻴﺴﺎﻋﺩﻨﻲ‬ ‫ﻭﻤﻌﺎﻴﺎ ﺤﻤل ﺍﻟﻬﻡ ﻴﺸﻴل‬ ‫ﻤﻴﻥ ﻫﻴﻪ ﻏﻴﺭ ﺴﺕ ﺍﻟﺴﺘﺎﺕ‬ ‫‪‬‬ ‫ﻭﻴﺎﻫﺎ ﺒﺘﺼﺒﺢ ﻭﺃﺒﺎﺕ‬ ‫ﻭﺍﺠﻴﺏ ﻟﻤﻴﻥ ﻏﻴﺭﻫﺎ ﻭﺃﻫﺎﺩﻱ‬ ‫ﺃﻡ ﺍﻟﻌﻴﺎل ﺍﻟﻌﺸﺭﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﻴﺎ ﻋﻡ ﻴﺎ ﺒﺘﺎﻉ ﺍﻟﻁﻴﺏ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻤﺴﻙ ﺭﻴﺤﻪ ﻤﺎ ﻴﺘﻌﻴﺏ‬ ‫ﺇﺩﻴﻨﻰ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻟﻌﻁﺭ ﺍﻟﻁﻴﺏ‬ ‫ﻭﺍﺨﺩ ﻟﻤﺤﺒﻭﺒﺘﻲ ﻫﺩﻴﻪ‬ ‫ﻻﻡ ﺍﻟﻌﻴﺎل ﺍﻟﺸﻌﺭﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﻴﺎ ﻋﻡ ﻴﺎ ﺒﺘﺎﻉ ﺍﻟﻤﺨﻤل‬ ‫ﺇﺩﻴﻨﻰ ﻨﻭﻉ ﺘﻭﺏ ﺍﻟﻤﺤﻤل‬ ‫ﻋﻠﺸﺎﻥ ﺤﺒﻴﺒﺘﻲ ﺘﺘﺠﻤل‬ ‫ﺃﺒﻴﺽ ﺒﻠﻭﻥ ﺍﻟﺼﺒﺎﺤﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﺍﺒﻴﺽ ﻴﺎ ﻗﻠﺏ ﺍﻟﻌﺸﺭﻴﺔ‬ ‫٤‬
  • 6. ‫ﻤﻴﻥ ﺍﻟﻠﻲ ﻴﺴﻬﺭ ﺠﻨﺒﻲ ﺍﻟﻠﻴل‬ ‫ﻤﻴﻥ ﺍﻟﻠﻲ ﺒﺎﻟﻪ ﻤﻌﺎﻴﺎ ﻁﻭﻴل‬ ‫ﺃﻡ ﺍﻟﻌﻴﺎل ﺍﻟﺸﻌﺭﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﺠﺎﻴﺏ ﻤﻌﺎﻴﺎ ﺍﻟﻠﻲ ﻓﻲ ﻴﺩﻱ‬ ‫ﻭﻗﺩﺭﺕ ﺃﺠﻴﺒﻪ ﻤﻥ ﻜﺩﻱ‬ ‫ﻭﻻ ﺘﻘﻭﻟﻴﺵ ﺒﺱ ﺍﻨﺎ ﻋﻨﺩﻱ‬ ‫ﻭﻜﻔﺎﻴﺔ ﺒﺘﻬل ﻋﻠﻴﺎ‬ ‫ﺃﺼﻠﻙ ﺃﺼﻴﻠﺔ ﻴﺎ ﻋﺸﺭﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﻤﺎ ﻴﻐﻠﻰ ﻴﺎ ﺴﺕ ﺍﻟﺴﺘﺎﺕ‬ ‫ﻋﻠﻴﻙ ﻟﻭﻟﻰ ﻭﻻ ﻏﻭﻴﺸﺎﺕ‬ ‫ﻭﺃﺠﻴﺏ ﻟﻤﻴﻥ ﻏﻴﺭﻙ ﺃﻫﺎﺩﻯ‬ ‫ﺃﻡ ﺍﻟﻌﻴﺎل ﺍﻟﻌﺸﺭﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﺃﻡ ﺍﻟﻌﻴﺎل ﺍﻟﻌﺸﺭﻴﺔ‬ ‫٥‬
  • 7. ‫ﺇﻫﺩﺍﺀ )٢(‬ ‫ﺇﻟﻰ ﺜﻼﺜﺔ‬ ‫ﻤﺎﺯﻟﻥ ﺒﻘﻠﻭﺏ ﺤﻨﻭﻨﺔ‬ ‫ﺠﻴﻬﺎﻥ – ﺴﻭﻤﻪ – ﺴﻭﺯﺍﻥ‬ ‫ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﻤﻲ ﻭﺃﺒﻰ‬ ‫ﺍﻋﺭﻑ‬ ‫ﺴﻨﻔﺘﺭﻕ ﻗﺭﻴﺒﺎ ...‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﺇﻟﻰ ﺒﺎﻗﻲ ﺇﺨﻭﺘﻲ ﺍﻟﺭﺠﺎل‬ ‫ﻜﺎﻥ ﺃﺤﺩﻜﻡ ﻤﻌﻲ ﻤﻨﺫ ﻗﻠﻴل .... ﻗﻠﻴل‬ ‫ﻫل ﺘﻌﻠﻤﻭﻥ ﺃﻴﻥ ﺫﻫﺏ‬ ‫ﺇﻟﻰ ﺤﺒﻴﺒﺔ ﻗﻠﺒﻲ‬ ‫ﺯﻭﺠﺘﻲ‬ ‫ﺇﻟﻴﻙ ﻴﺎ ﺤﺒﻴﺒﺘﻲ‬ ‫ﻤﺭﻴﻡ‬ ‫٦‬
  • 8. ‫ﺍﻵﺨﺭﻭﻥ ﻟﻬﻡ ﺁﺴﺭﺓ ﻓﻲ ﻗﻠﺒﻲ‬ ‫ﺍﺸﻌﺭ ﺃﻨﻰ ﺴﺄﻤﻭﺕ ﺩﻭﻥ ﻗﺼﺩ‬ ‫ﺴﻴﻀﻌﻭﻥ ﻤﺜﻼ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻭﺴﺎﺩﺓ ﻓﻭﻕ ﺃﻨﻔﺎﺴﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﻭﺘﺭﺓ‬ ‫ﺃﺜﻨﺎﺀ ﻨﻭﻤﻲ‬ ‫ﺃﻭ‬ ‫ﻴﻤﺴﻜﻭﻨﻨﻲ ﻤﻥ ﻴﺩﻱ ﻭﻗﺩﻤﻲ‬ ‫ﻭﻴﺫﻫﺒﻭﻥ ﺒﻲ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻘﺒﺭ‬ ‫ﻜﻲ ﺃﻋﺎﻨﻕ ﺍﻟﻤﻭﺘﻰ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻥ ﺍﻟﻤﺅﻜﺩ‬ ‫ﺃﻨﻬﻡ ﺴﻴﺠﺭﻭﻥ ﻭﺭﺍﺌﻲ‬ ‫ﻭﻋﻴﻭﻨﻬﻡ ﺘﻌﺒﺭ ﻋﻥ ﻤﻌﺼﻴﺘﻲ‬ ‫ﺴﺄﻗﻭل ﺒﺎﻟﺘﺄﻜﻴﺩ‬ ‫ﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﻴﻔﻌﻠﻭﻥ ﺒﻲ؟‬ ‫ﻭﺃﺤﺎﻭل ﺍﻟﻔﺭﺍﺭ ﻤﻥ ﻗﺒﻀﺎﺘﻬﻡ ﺍﻟﻘﻭﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﻭﺇﻏﺭﺍﺌﻬﻡ ﺒﺎﻟﺨﺒﺯ ﻭﺍﻟﺴﺠﺎﺌﺭ‬ ‫ﺴﺄﻓﺘﺢ ﺼﺩﺭﻱ‬ ‫ﻭﺃﻜﺸﻑ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻟﺨﻭﻑ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﻴﺭﻋﻰ ﺒﺩﺍﺨﻠﻪ‬ ‫ﻟﻌﻠﻰ ﺍﺴﺘﻌﻁﻔﻬﻡ‬ ‫ﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﻴﺤﻤﻠﻭﻥ ﻓﻲ ﻗﻤﺼﺎﻨﻬﻡ‬ ‫ﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﻟﻌﻴﺴﻰ‬ ‫ﻭﺼﻭﺭﺓ ﻟﻲ‬ ‫ﻜﻼﻨﺎ ﻻ ﻴﺼﺩﻗﻪ ﺍﺤﺩ‬ ‫ﻴﺠﺭﻭﻥ ﻭﺭﺍﺌﻲ‬ ‫ﻻ ﻴﺠﺭﻭﻥ‬ ‫٧‬
  • 9. ‫ﻴﺤﻤل ﻜل ﻤﻨﻬﻡ ﻤﺩﻴﺔ ﻓﻲ ﻜﻔﻪ ﺍﻟﺨﺸﻥ‬ ‫ﻭﻻ ﻴﺤﻤﻠﻭﻥ‬ ‫" ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺒﺩﺀ‬ ‫ﺤﻴﻥ ﺩﺒﺕ ﻗﺩﻤﺎﻱ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ‬ ‫ﺃﺭﺒﻜﻨﻲ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺭ‬ ‫ﻓﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺨﻁﻭﺘﻲ ﻋﺒﺌﺎ "‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻟﻌﻠﻙ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺤﻕ‬ ‫ﻭﻜﺎﻨﻭﺍ ﻫﻨﺎ‬ ‫ﻴﺭﺘﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻗﻨﻌﺔ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻨﻙ ﺘﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻀﻊ ﻫﻭﺍﺠﺴﻙ ﻓﻲ ﺴﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﻬﻤﻼﺕ‬ ‫ﺘﺨﺒﺊ ﺃﻗﻼﻤﻙ ﺍﻟﺭﺨﻴﺼﺔ‬ ‫ﻭﺘﻠﺘﻔﺕ ﻭﺭﺍﺀﻙ‬ ‫ﻓﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﻜﺎﻨﻭﺍ ﺍﻟﻅﻼﻡ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﺘﺠﺭﻩ ﺨﻠﻔﻙ‬ ‫ﻭﻟﻡ ﺘﻨﺘﺒﻪ‬ ‫٨‬
  • 10. ‫ﺭﻫﺎﻓﺔ‬ ‫ﺃﺒﻲ‬ ‫ﺇﻥ ﻗﺴﻭﺘﻙ ﺘﺠﻌل ﻗﻠﺒﻲ ﻤﻤﺸﻰ ﻟﻨﺴﺎﺀ ﻤﺘﺸﺤﺎﺕ ﺒﺜﻴﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﺤﺩﺍﺩ‬ ‫ﻭﺃﻤﻲ‬ ‫ﺘﻘﻀﻰ ﺍﻟﻭﻗﺕ ﻓﻲ ﻤﺂﺘﻡ ﺍﻵﺨﺭﻴﻥ‬ ‫ﻻ ﻭﻗﺕ ﻟﻲ ﻋﻨﺩﻫﺎ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ ﺃﺘﻘﻤﺹ ﺃﻱ ﺸﻲﺀ‬ ‫ﺃﺩﻭﺍﺭﺍ ﻟﻴﺱ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻟﺼﻌﺏ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻔﻬﻤﻬﺎ ﺒﺴﻬﻭﻟﺔ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻟﻌل ﺃﻤﻲ ﺘﻤﻨﺤﻨﻲ ﺍﻟﺭﻀﺎ‬ ‫ﺃﻭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﻗل‬ ‫ﻻ ﺘﺸﻲ ﺒﺸﻲﺀ ﻤﻤﺎ ﺃﻓﻌﻠﻪ ﻟﻶﺨﺭﻴﻥ‬ ‫ﺍﻵﺨﺭﻭﻥ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺫﻴﻥ ﻴﺘﻭﻻﻫﻡ ﺍﷲ ﺒﺭﺤﻤﺘﻪ‬ ‫ﺃﻭ‬ ‫ﻴﺒﻴﺩﻫﻡ‬ ‫ﺤﺘﻰ ﻻ ﺃﺨﺎﻑ‬ ‫ﺃﻭ ﻻ ﺃﻜﻭﻥ ﻤﺘﻭﺘﺭﺍ ﺤﻴﻥ ﺃﻗﺎﺒﻠﻬﻡ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻋﺯﻴﺯﺘﻲ ﺁﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﺘﻔﻌﻠﻴﻥ ﺍﻵﻥ‬ ‫ﻫل ﻨﺒﻭﺀﺘﻙ ﺘﺩﻓﻌﻙ ﻟﺫﻟﻙ‬ ‫ﺃﻴﺘﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻨﺒﻴﻪ ﺍﻟﺼﻐﻴﺭﺓ !!!‬ ‫ﻻ ﺘﺸﺒﻜﻲ ﻴﺩﻙ ﻓﻲ ﻴﺩﻱ‬ ‫٩‬
  • 11. ‫ﻭﺘﻀﻐﻁﻲ ﻋﻠﻴﻬﺎ‬ ‫ﺤﻴﻥ ﻻ ﺘﻌﺒﺌﻲ ﺒﻨﺎ‬ ‫ﻷﻨﻨﻲ ﺃﻋﻠﻡ‬ ‫ﺃﻨﻙ‬ ‫ﻻ ﺘﺭﻫﺒﻴﻥ ﺸﻴﺌﺎ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﺴﻭﻯ ﺍﻟﺤﺯﻥ‬ ‫٠١‬
  • 12. ‫ﻜﺎﺌﻥ ﺭﻏﺒﺎﺘﻪ ﻨﻅﻴﻔﺔ‬ ‫ﺴﺘﺤﺘﻤل ﺭﺃﺴﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺨﺒﺊ ﺩﺍﺨﻠﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻠﺼﻭﺹ‬ ‫ﻷﻨﺴﻰ‬ ‫ﺃﺴﻤﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺫﻴﻥ ﺃﺴﺎﺀﻭﺍ ﻟﻲ‬ ‫ﺃﻨﺎ ﺁﺨﺭ ﻤﻥ ﻴﻤﺸﻰ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻟﻤﻘﻬﻰ‬ ‫ﺘﺎﺭﻜﺎ ﺨﻠﻔﻲ ﺭﺠﻼ ﻤﻥ ﺩﺨﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻨﺎﺭﺠﻴﻠﺔ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻴﺘﺤﺩﺙ ﻷﺼﺩﻗﺎﺌﻪ ﺍﻟﻭﻫﻤﻴﻴﻥ‬ ‫ﻭﻴﺒﺘﺴﻡ‬ ‫ﺍﻜﺘﺴﺒﺕ ﻋﺎﺩﺍﺕ ﺃﺒﻲ ﻜﻠﻬﺎ‬ ‫ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺸﻌﺭ‬ ‫ﻓﺘﺤﺕ ﺃﻤﻲ ﺒﺎﺒﻨﺎ‬ ‫ﻓﺎﺭﺘﻜﺒﺕ‬ ‫ﺃﻥ ﻴﺭﺍﻨﻲ ﺃﺤﺩ‬ ‫ﻭﺍﻗﻔﺎ ﺃﻤﺎﻡ ﻤﺭﺁﺘﻲ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻤﺘﻌﺠﺒﺎ ﺴﺄﻗﻭل ﻟﻜﻡ ﻤﺼﺎﺩﻓﺔ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺃﺨﺭﻑ‬ ‫ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﺘﻠﻜﺄ ﺒﻴﺩﻱ ﺍﻟﻤﺭﺘﻌﺸﺔ‬ ‫ﻷﺘﺤﺴﺱ ﺃﺠﺴﺎﺩ ﺍﻵﺨﺭﻴﻥ‬ ‫ﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﺃﻭﻫﻤﻨﻲ ﺒﻬﺎ ﺃﺤﺩ‬ ‫ﻷﺜﻕ ﺒﻪ‬ ‫ﺃﻨﺎ ﻤﺭﻫﻕ‬ ‫ﻤﻥ ﺍﻟﻤﻭﺍﺼﻼﺕ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺘﺅﺩﻯ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻨﻬﺎﻴﺔ ﻟﻲ‬ ‫ﺃﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﺤﺸﺎﺵ ﺍﻟﺼﻐﻴﺭ‬ ‫ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻵﻥ‬ ‫١١‬
  • 13. ‫ﻟﻡ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﺨﻁﻭﺓ ﺜﺎﺒﺘﺔ ﻟﻲ‬ ‫ﻭﺒﺈﻴﻘﺎﻉ ﻫﻤﺠﻲ‬ ‫ﺍﺼﻌﺩ ﺍﻟﺩﺭﺝ‬ ‫ﺃﺭﻜل ﺍﻟﺤﺼﻰ ﺍﻟﺨﻔﻴﻑ‬ ‫ﺃﻤﺸﻰ ﻓﻭﻕ ﺍﻷﺸﻴﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺜﻘﻴﻠﺔ‬ ‫ﺒﺈﻴﻘﺎﻉ ﻫﻤﺠﻲ ﺃﻴﻀﺎ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﺃﺜﺭﺜﺭ‬ ‫ﻫﻤﺴﺎﺕ ﺍﻵﺨﺭﻴﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺃﺫﻨﻲ‬ ‫ﺘﺭﻥ‬ ‫ﻴﻘﻭﻟﻭﻥ‬ ‫ﻨﻅﺭﺘﻲ ﻗﺒﻴﺤﺔ‬ ‫ﺜﻡ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺴﺌﻠﺘﻲ ﻤﻠﻭﺜﺔ ﺒﺎﻟﺼﺩﻕ‬ ‫ﻜﺎﻨﻭﺍ ﺴﻴﺌﻲ ﺍﻟﻅﻥ‬ ‫ﻫﺅﻻﺀ ﺍﻟﺫﻴﻥ ﺘﻌﻤل ﻟﺭﺍﺤﺘﻬﻡ‬ ‫ﻭﺘﺒﺎﺩﻟﻬﻡ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻘﺎﺒﻠﺔ ﺍﻷﻭﻟﻰ‬ ‫ﺭﺠﻔﺔ‬ ‫ﻜﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺒﺩﺍﺌﻲ ﺃﻨﺎ‬ ‫ﻜﻨﺕ ﻟﻪ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻨﻰ‬ ‫ﺭﺃﻴﺕ ﺃﻭل ﻤﺎ ﺭﺃﻴﺕ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻨﻅﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﻤﺭﺒﻜﺔ‬ ‫ﺍﺴﺘﺩﺍﺭﺘﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺤﻴﺭﺓ‬ ‫ﻗﻠﺕ‬ ‫ﻟﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﺃﺒﺹ ﻭﺭﺍﺌﻲ‬ ‫ﻓﻠﻡ ﻴﺠﺒﻥ ﺃﺤﺩ‬ ‫ﺜﻡ ﺭﺃﻴﺕ ﺃﻨﻰ ﺃﻨﺤﻨﻲ‬ ‫٢١‬
  • 14. ‫ﻷﻟﺘﻘﻁ ﻤﺎ ﺴﻘﻁ ﻤﻨﻲ‬ ‫ﻭﻤﺎ ﻴﺴﺘﺭ ﻋﺎﻨﺘﻲ‬ ‫ﻓﺎﺒﺘﺴﻤﺕ‬ ‫ﺭﺠﻌﺕ ﺨﻁﻭﺓ‬ ‫ﺘﻘﺩﻤﺕ‬ ‫ﻭﺃﻨﺎ ﺃﻨﻅﺭ ﺤﻭﻟﻲ‬ ‫ﺃﺼﻴﺒﺕ ﺴﺎﻗﺎﻱ ﺒﻭﺠﻊ‬ ‫ﺃﻴﻘﻨﺕ ﺃﻨﻰ ﻟﻡ ﺃﺩﺭﻙ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻨﻭﻥ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺭ‬ ‫ﻫﻜﺫﺍ ﺃﻜﻭﻥ ﻭﺃﻨﺴﻰ‬ ‫ﺒﻴﻥ ﺍﺜﻨﻴﻥ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺨﻔﻴﻑ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﺃﺭﻜﻠﻪ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺜﻘﻴل ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﺃﺨﻁﻭ ﻓﻭﻗﻪ‬ ‫ﻻ ﺍﻤﻠﻙ ﻤﺎ ﻴﺠﻌﻠﻨﻲ ﻋﺎﺩﻻ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻜﻲ ﺃﻜﻭﻥ ﺍﻟﻜﺎﺌﻥ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﺭﻏﺒﺎﺘﻪ ﻨﻅﻴﻔﺔ‬ ‫ﺒﺎﻟﻀﺒﻁ‬ ‫ﻜل ﺍﻷﺸﻴﺎﺀ ﺘﺘﺂﻤﺭ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ‬ ‫ﻭﺭﻭﺤﻪ ﺭﻫﻴﻔﺔ‬ ‫٣١‬
  • 15. ‫ﻤﺫﻜﺭﺍﺕ ﻋﺯﻟﺔ ﺍﻷﺒﻠﻪ ﺍﻟﻭﺤﻴﺩ‬ ‫ﻻ ﺸﻲﺀ ﻴﻬﻤﻬﻡ ﺴﻭﻯ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻜﻭﻨﻭﺍ ﻏﺭﺒﺎﺀ‬ ‫ﻓﻠﻤﺎ ﺍﷲ ﻻ ﻴﺒﺎﺩﻟﻨﻲ ﺍﻟﺭﻫﺎﻓﺔ ؟‬ ‫ﺃﻥ ﺃﻜﻭﻥ ﻋﺒﺩﻩ ﺍﻟﻭﺤﻴﺩ‬ ‫ﻭﻋﺫﺭﺍﻭﺍﺕ ﺃﻫل ﺍﻟﺒﻴﺕ‬ ‫ﻁﺎﻫﺭﺍﺕ ﺨﺎﻟﺹ‬ ‫ﻴﺩﻨﻴﻥ ﻓﻭﻕ ﺸﻔﺎﻫﻬﻥ‬ ‫ﺩﺍﻨﺘﻴﻼ ﻗﺩﻴﻤﺔ‬ ‫ﻓﻘﻁ‬ ‫ﺸﻔﺎﻫﻬﻥ‬ ‫ﺤﺘﻰ ﻻ ﻴﺘﻜﻠﻤﻥ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﺍ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻭﺃﺨﺘﻲ ﺍﻟﻁﺒﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺘﻌﻤل ﻓﻲ ﻗﻠﻭﺏ ﺍﻵﺨﺭﻴﻥ‬ ‫ﺘﺴﻨﺩ ﺭﺃﺴﻬﺎ‬ ‫ﻓﻭﻕ ﺯﺠﺎﺝ ﻨﺎﻓﺫﺘﻲ‬ ‫ﺘﻨﻅﺭ ﺒﻬﺩﻭﺀ‬ ‫ﺒﻴﻨﻤﺎ ﻴﺠﺭﺒﻭﻥ ﺴﺨﺎﻓﺎﺘﻬﻡ‬ ‫ﻴﺘﻀﺎﺤﻜﻭﻥ‬ ‫ﺜﻡ ﻴﺘﻤﺎﺩﻭﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺇﻟﻘﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻭﺩﺍﻉ‬ ‫)ﺍﻟﻤﻜﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﻴﻤﻨﺤﻨﻲ ﺭﻭﺤﺎ ﺴﺭﻤﺩﻴﺔ(‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻻ ﺃﻟﻘﻰ ﺍﷲ ﻓﻴﻪ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻨﻨﻲ‬ ‫ﺍﺘﻤﺘﻊ ﺒﺎﻷﺸﻴﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺘﺼﻨﻊ ﺤﺒﺎ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻓﻲ ﻤﺩﺭﺴﺘﻲ‬ ‫ﺃﺘﺫﻜﺭ‬ ‫٤١‬
  • 16. ‫ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﻨﺎﻡ ﻓﻭﻕ ﺍﻟﻤﻘﻌﺩ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﺍ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﺃﺸﻡ ﺭﺍﺌﺤﺔ ﺍﻟﻁﻔﻭﻟﺔ‬ ‫ﺃﺸﺎﻫﺩ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﻠﻤﻴﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻷﻋﻴﺎﺩ‬ ‫ﻴﺠﺭﺒﻭﻥ ﺍﻟﻁﻴﺏ‬ ‫ﻭﺍﻟﻤﻠﻜﺔ ﻟﻸﻁﻔﺎل ﺍﻟﺼﻌﺎﻟﻴﻙ‬ ‫ﺼﺭﺕ ﻤﺠﺭﺒﺎ ﻟﻅﻬﻭﺭ ﻋﺎﻁﻔﺔ ﺍﻷﺼﺩﻗﺎﺀ ﻋﻨﻭﺓ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﺃﻴﻀﺎ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻻ ﺸﻲﺀ ﻴﻬﻤﻬﻡ‬ ‫ﺴﻭﻯ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻜﻭﻨﻭﺍ ﻏﺭﺒﺎﺀ‬ ‫ﺃﺒﻲ‬ ‫ﺘﺸﺒﻬﻪ ﺍﻟﺭﺴﺎﻻﺕ ﺍﻟﻤﻘﺩﺴﺔ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻨﻪ - ﺘﻤﺎﻤﺎ - ﻻ ﻴﺸﺒﻬﻬﺎ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﺤﻴﻥ ﻴﺅﺫﻥ ﻜﺎﻟﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﻤﺫﻴﺎﻉ ﺍﻟﻘﺩﻴﻡ‬ ‫ﻭﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻷﺒﻠﻪ ﺍﻟﻭﺤﻴﺩ‬ ‫ﻻ ﻴﻬﻤﻪ ﺴﻭﻯ ﺸﻲﺀ ﻭﺍﺤﺩ‬ ‫ﻗﺎل ﻓﻲ ﻤﺴﺎﺀ ﻟﻪ ﺤﺯﻴﻥ:‬ ‫"ﺍﻟﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺒﺩﻭﻥ ﺨﻭﻑ‬ ‫ﻜﺎﻟﺤﻴﺎﺓ ﺒﺩﻭﻥ ﺇﻟﻪ"‬ ‫ﻭﻻ ﺃﺭﻴﺩ ﺸﻴﺌﺎ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﺴﻭﻯ ﺃﻥ ﻴﺤﻤﻠﻨﻲ ﺍﺜﻨﺎﻥ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻟﻴﻤﺎﻡ‬ ‫ﺇﻟﻰ ﻁﻔﻭﻟﺘﻲ‬ ‫ﻁﻔﻭﻟﺘﻲ‬ ‫ﺁﺜﺎﺭﻫﺎ ﻤﺎ ﺯﺍﻟﺕ ﻋﺎﻟﻘﺔ ﺒﺤﻴﻁﺎﻥ ﺒﻴﺘﻲ ﺍﻟﻘﺩﻴﻡ‬ ‫ﻫﻨﺎﻙ‬ ‫٥١‬
  • 17. ‫ﺤﻴﺙ ﺸﻴﺨﻭﺨﺔ ﺠﺩﺘﻲ‬ ‫ﻭﻤﻀﻎ ﺘﺘﺤﻭل ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﻁﻔﺎل ﺼﻐﺎﺭ‬ ‫ﻴﺤﺎﺼﺭﻭﻨﻨﻲ‬ ‫ﺤﻴﺙ ﺍﷲ ﺸﻲﺀ ﺇﺼﺒﻊ ﻴﺩ ﺴﻭﺯﺍﻥ ﺍﻟﺼﻐﻴﺭﺓ‬ ‫ﺤﻴﻥ ﺘﻘﻤﺼﺕ ﻤﻌﻬﺎ ﺩﻭﺭ ﺍﻟﺭﺘﺎﺒﺔ‬ ‫ﹸ‬ ‫ﺃﻡ ﻫﺎ ﻻ ﺘﻌﺭﻑ ﺃﻥ ﺘﻤﺴﻙ ﺴﻜﻴﻨﺎ - ﻭﺘﻘﻁﻊ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻤﻭﻥ -‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﺒﺒﻼﻫﺔ‬ ‫ﻜﺎﻥ ﻴﻤﻜﻥ ﺍﻟﺒﺤﺙ ﻋﻥ ﻤﻌﻁﻴﺎﺕ ﻤﻤﺎﺭﺴﺔ ﺍﻟﺭﻫﺎﻓﺔ‬ ‫ﻭﻤﻌﺭﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﺨﻤﻭل ﺍﻟﺭﺍﻗﺩ‬ ‫ﺒﻴﻥ ﺼﺤﺒﺔ ﺍﻷﺼﺩﻗﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺸﻴﻭﻋﻴﻴﻥ‬ ‫ﻭﺍﻥ ﺜﻤﺔ ﻁﻔﻭﻟﺔ ﻋﺎﺭﻀﺔ‬ ‫ﻴﺼﻨﻌﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﻤﺭﺒﻭﻥ ﺍﻟﻘﺩﺍﻤﻰ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻤﺭﺒﻭﻥ‬ ‫ﻫﺅﻻﺀ ﺍﻟﺫﻴﻥ ﺭﺤﻠﻭﺍ‬ ‫ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻭﺩﻋﻭﺍ ﺭﺴﺎﻟﺔ ﻨﻘﺭﺃﻫﺎ‬ ‫ﺃﻭ ﺁﺜﺎﺭﺍ ﺸﺒﻴﻬﻪ ﺒﺎﻟﻁﻬﺎﺭﺓ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫٦١‬
  • 18. ‫ﻁﻔل ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺌﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﻭﺤﻴﺩ‬ ‫ﻋﺎﺩﺓ‬ ‫ﺃﺒﺎﻏﺕ ﺍﻵﺨﺭﻴﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺸﻘﺔ …….. ﻤﺒﺘﺴﻤﺎ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻭﻫﻡ‬ ‫ﺴﺎﻫﺭﻭﻥ ﻤﻨﺫ ﻋﺎﻡ ﻤﻀﻰ‬ ‫ﻓﻲ ﺤﻴﺎﻜﺔ ﻤﻼﺒﺱ ﺍﻟﺒﻨﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻐﺎﺌﺒﺎﺕ‬ ‫ﻭﻻ ﻴﺒﺘﺴﻤﻭﻥ ﻟﻲ‬ ‫ﻷﻨﻬﻡ‬ ‫ﻜﺎﻷﺸﻴﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺘﺘﺴﺎﻗﻁ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻟﺭﺃﺱ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻤﻬل‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﺍﻵﺨﺭﻭﻥ ﻋﺎﺩ ﺓ ﻁﻴﺒﻭﻥ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻨﻬﻡ ﻻ ﻴﺒﺘﺴﻤﻭﻥ ﻟﻲ‬ ‫ﻟﻤﺎ ﺃﻗﻑ ﺴﻌﻴﺩﺍ ﻓﻲ ﺭﺩﻩ ﺸﻘﺘﻨﺎ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻭﻫﺅﻻﺀ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﻜﺌﺎﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﻴﻜﺔ‬ ‫ﻴﻨﻘﻴﻥ ﺍﻷﺭﺯ‬ ‫ﻴﻨﻅﺭﻥ ﺒﺤﺯﻥ‬ ‫ﻴﻜﺎﺩ ﻴﻘﻊ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ‬ ‫ﻓﻴﻠﻭﺙ ﺍﻷﻗﺩﺍﻡ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺒﺭﺓ‬ ‫ﺃﻋﺭﻑ‬ ‫ﺒﺎﻟﺸﻘﺔ ﺃﻗﺩﺍﻡ ﻏﺭﻴﺒﺔ‬ ‫ﻭﻓﻨﺠﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻘﻬﻭﺓ ﻤﻘﻠﻭﺒﺎ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻤﻼﺤﺔ ﺍﻟﻁﻌﺎﻡ ﻓﻭﻕ ﺍﻷﺸﻴﺎﺀ ﻤﻘﻠﻭﺒﺔ‬ ‫ﻜﺭﺍﺴﺎﺕ ﺭﺴﻡ ﺍﻟﻌﻴﺎل‬ ‫ﺃﺤﺫﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻤﺭﻀﻰ ﻭﺍﻟﺯﺍﺌﺭﻴﻥ‬ ‫ﺴﺠﺎﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﺼﻼﺓ ﻤﻬﺘﺭﺌﺔ ﻟﺤﺩ ﺍﻟﻜﻔﺭ‬ ‫ﻜل ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻷﺸﻴﺎﺀ ﺒﺎﻟﻀﺒﻁ‬ ‫٧١‬
  • 19. ‫ﻤﺭﻤﻴﺔ ﺒﺈﻫﻤﺎل ﻓﻭﻕ ﻗﻠﺒﻲ‬ ‫ﻋﺎﺩﺓ‬ ‫ﺃﺒﺎﻏﺕ ﺍﻵﺨﺭﻴﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺸﻘﺔ ...... ﻤﺘﺠﻬﻤﺎ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻓﻼ ﺃﺭﻯ ﺃﺤﺩﺍ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﺴﻭﻯ ﻁﻴﺒﺔ ﺘﺴﻴل ﻜﺎﻟﺸﻤﻊ‬ ‫ﻓﻭﻕ ﺴﻠﻡ ﺒﻴﺘﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﺨﺸﺒﻲ‬ ‫ﻤﻥ ﺠﺎﺭﺍﺘﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﻌﺫﺭﺍﻭﺍﺕ‬ ‫ﻭﻀﺤﻜﺎﺘﻬﻥ ﺍﻟﺼﺎﺨﺒﺔ ﻜﺎﻨﺕ‬ ‫ﻓﻭﻕ ﺍﻟﺴﻁﻭﺡ‬ ‫ﻭﻋﺸﻭﺍﺌﻴﺎﺕ ﺃﺨﺭﻯ ﺘﻨﻬﻤﺭ ﻓﻭﻕ ﺍﻟﺩﻤﺎﻍ‬ ‫٨١‬
  • 20. ‫ﺠﻨﺎﺯﺓ ﺨﻔﻴﻔﺔ‬ ‫ﺃﻤﺱ‬ ‫ﺃﻗﻴﻤﺕ ﺠﻨﺎﺯﺘﻲ‬ ‫ﻜﺎﻥ ﺃﺒﻲ ﻴﺤﻤﻠﻨﻲ‬ ‫ﻭﻴﻤﺭ ﺒﻰ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻌﻴﻭﻥ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺃﺨﺎﻓﻬﺎ‬ ‫ﺃﺨﺘﻲ ﺍﻟﺼﻐﻴﺭﺓ‬ ‫ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﺘﺤﻤل ﺤﺫﺍﺌﻲ‬ ‫ﻭﻓﻲ ﺤﺠﺭﺘﻲ‬ ‫ﺍﻷﺴﺭﺓ ﺍﻟﺒﻴﻀﺎﺀ‬ ‫ﺴﻭﺩﺘﻬﺎ ﺍﻷﺭﺍﻤل ﺒﺄﺜﻭﺍﺒﻬﻥ‬ ‫ﻭﺍﻟﺠﻴﺭﺍﻥ‬ ‫ﺨﻠﻌﻭﺍ ﺃﺤﺫﻴﺘﻬﻡ ﺃﻤﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﻤﻘﺎﻋﺩ‬ ‫ﻟﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﺘﻘﻴﻤﻭﻥ ﺩﺍﺨل ﺍﻟﺤﺠﺭﺓ ؟‬ ‫ﻟﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﺘﻨﺎﻤﻭﻥ ﻓﻭﻕ ﺍﻷﺴﺭﺓ ﻗﻠﻘﻴﻥ .. ؟!‬ ‫ﺃﻋﺭﻑ‬ ‫ﺃﻥ ﻟﻜﻡ ﺒﻴﻭﺘﺎ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻭﻗﻤﺼﺎﻨﺎ ﻤﻬﺘﺭﺌﺔ ..... ﻜﺎﻟﺘﻲ ﻋﻨﺩﻱ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻓﻠﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﺘﻘﻴﻤﻭﻥ ﺩﺍﺨل ﺍﻟﺤﺠﺭﺓ ؟‬ ‫ﺁﻩ‬ ‫ﻋﺭﻓﺕ‬ ‫ﻀﻌﻔﻲ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﺃﺨﺒﺌﻪ ﺘﺤﺕ ﺍﻟﻭﺴﺎﺩﺓ‬ ‫ﻴﺎﻗﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﻤﻴﺹ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺍﺘﺴﺨﺕ‬ ‫ﻤﻨﺫ ﻁﻔﻭﻟﺘﻲ ﻭﺃﻨﺎ ﺃﺨﺒﺄﻫﺎ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺼﻔﻌﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻤﺅﻟﻤﺔ ﻓﻭﻕ ﺼﺩﻏﻲ‬ ‫٩١‬
  • 21. ‫ﺤﺭﺼﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﺼﻬﺎ ﻤﻥ ﺍﻟﺒﺩﺍﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﺩﺍﺨل ﺤﻘﻴﺒﺔ ﺍﻟﺩﺭﺍﺴﺔ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺤﺫﺍﺀ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﺍﻫﺘﺭﺃ ﻭﻟﻡ ﺘﻌﺭﻑ ﺒﻪ ﺃﻤﻲ‬ ‫ﺃﻟﻬﺫﺍ ﺘﻘﻴﻤﻭﻥ ﺩﺍﺨل ﺍﻟﺤﺠﺭﺓ ؟!‬ ‫ﺃﺘﺫﻜﺭ‬ ‫ﻜﺎﻥ ﺃﺨﻲ ﻴﺨﺩﻋﻨﻲ‬ ‫ﻴﺨﺒﺊ ﻨﻘﻭﺩﻱ ﻓﻭﻕ ﺭﻑ ﺍﻟﻌﻘﺎﻗﻴﺭ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻨﻘﻭﺩ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺘﺭﻥ ﺍﻵﻥ ﻓﻭﻕ ﺍﻟﺒﻼﻁ‬ ‫ﻓﺘﺼﻴﺏ ﺍﻟﺘﻤﺎﺜﻴل ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻤﻠﺌﺕ ﺍﻟﺸﻘﺔ‬ ‫ﺒﺎﻀﻁﺭﺍﺒﺎﺕ ﺨﻔﻴﻔﺔ‬ ‫ﻭﺼﻭﺭ ﺍﻟﺠﺎﻟﺴﻴﻥ ﺩﺍﺨل ﺍﻟﺒﺭﺍﻭﻴﺯ‬ ‫ﺘﺘﻼﺸﻰ‬ ‫ﻟﻴﺤﺘﻤل ﺍﻷﻤﺭ ﺃﻜﺜﺭ ﻤﻥ ﺘﺄﻭﻴل‬ ‫ﻭﺘﺒﺩﻭ ﻭﺠﻭﻩ ﺍﻟﺤﺎﻀﺭﻴﻥ‬ ‫ﺃﻜﺜﺭ ﻁﻴﺒﺔ‬ ‫ﻓﺄﻜﺜﺭ ﺤﻴﻭﺍﻨﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﻫﻜﺫﺍ‬ ‫ﻟﺘﺒﻘﻰ ﻟﻨﺎ ﺍﻷﻟﻔﺔ‬ ‫ﻟﺘﺒﻘﻰ ﻟﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﺤﻴﺎﺓ !!!‬ ‫٠٢‬
  • 22. ‫ﺃﺩﺍﺀ ﺇﻨﺴﺎﻨﻲ ﻨﺎﻗﺹ‬ ‫ﺤﻘﻘﺕ ﺭﻏﺒﺎﺕ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﺓ ﻟﻜﻥ ﺘﺤﻘﻴﻘﻬﺎ ﺒﻤﺜﺎﺒﺔ ﻜﻠﻤﺔ‬ ‫ﻴﻘﻭﻟﻬﺎ ﺼﺩﻴﻕ‬ ‫ﻤﺜﻼ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺃﺴﺄل ﻨﻔﺴﻲ ﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﻋﻥ ﻭﻟﻴﺩ ؟!‬ ‫ﻓﺄﻗﻭل / ﻻ ﺃﻋﺭﻑ ﺸﻴﺌﺎ " ﻡ . ﻉ "‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻭﺜﻤﺔ ﻤﻥ ﻴﻘﻭل ﻓﻲ ﻨﻔﺴﻪ ﺃﺸﻴﺎﺀ ﺃﺨﺭﻯ ﺃﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﺼﻨﻌﺘﻬﺎ‬ ‫‪‬‬ ‫ﺩﺍﺨﻠﻪ ﺒﺭﻏﺒﺘﻲ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻥ ﻻ ﻴﻤﻨﻊ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺃﻨﻰ ﻋﻨﺩﻤﺎ ﺃﺘﺤﺩﺙ ﻷﺤﺩ ﺃﻗﻭل‬ ‫ﺃﺤﺘﺎﺝ ﻷﻥ ﺃﻜﻭﻥ ﺼﻌﻠﻭﻜﺎ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻥ ﺍﻟﺒﺭﻭﺩ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﻓﻲ ﺩﻤﻲ ﻋﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻜل ﺍﻷﺸﻴﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ‬ ‫ﺘﺤﺩﺙ ﻗﺩ ﺤﺩﺜﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺫﺍﻜﺭﺘﻲ ﻤﻥ ﻗﺒل ﺫﻟﻙ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ‬ ‫ﺩﻓﻌﻨﻲ ﺃﻜﻭﻥ ﻤﺴﺎﻟﻤﺎ ﻟﻤﻭﺕ ﺃﺨﻲ ﻓﻼ ﺃﺒﻜﻰ ﻭﻟﻤﺎ ﻴﺤﺩﺙ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻟﻲ‬ ‫ﺃﺫﻫﺏ ﻤﻌﻜﻡ ﺃﺩﺨﻥ ﺍﻟﺴﺠﺎﺌﺭ‬ ‫ﺃﺤﺎﻭل ﺍﻟﺴﻜﺭ ﻭﻻ ﺃﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﻓﺄﺒﻜﻰ ﻟﻴﺱ ﻟﺩﻯ ﺫﺍﻜﺭﺘﻲ‬ ‫ﻤﻥ ﺍﻷﺤﺩﺍﺙ ﺍﻟﻤﺅﻟﻤﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﺨﻔﻴﻔﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﻤﻤﻠﺔ ﻜﻲ ﺃﺘﻨﺎﺴﺎﻫﺎ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻲ ﺃﻭﻓﺭ ﻋﻠﻴﻜﻡ ﺍﻟﺤﻴﺭﺓ ....‬ ‫ﺃﻨﺎ ﻤﺘﻌﺩﺩ ﺍﻟﻨﻤﺎﺫﺝ‬ ‫ﻨﻤﻭﺫﺝ ﺇﻨﺴﺎﻨﻲ ﺠﺩﺍ ﻭﻨﻤﻭﺫﺝ ﻴﻁﻭﺭ ﻨﻔﺴﻪ ﻟﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﺩﺍﻋﺭ ﺃﺼﻴل‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻭﺁﺨﺭ ﻴﺤﺎﻭل ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ...‬ ‫ﻭﻜﻤﺎ ﺘﻌﻠﻤﻭﻥ ﻤﻨﺫ ﺒﺩﺍﻴﺘﻲ ﻤﻌﻜﻡ ﺸﺎﺏ ﻫﺯﻟﻲ‬ ‫ﻟﻘﺩ ﺘﻌﻤﺩﺕ ﺍﻟﺴﻁﺤﻴﺔ - ﻭﺍﺤﺩ ﻓﻘﻁ ﻴﻌﺭﻑ ﺫﻟﻙ ﻗﺒل ﺍﻵﻥ -‬ ‫ﺃﻨﻨﻲ ﻻ ﺃﻫﺘﻡ ﺒﻜﻡ ﺒﺼﺭﺍﺤﺔ ﺃﻅل ﺃﻫﺫﻯ ﻷﺯﻴل ﻜل ﺍﻷﻗﻨﻌﺔ‬ ‫١٢‬
  • 23. ‫ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺒﻴﻨﻲ ﻭﺒﻴﻥ ﺍﻵﺨﺭﻴﻥ ﻭﺃﻀﺤﻙ‬ ‫ﺼﺤﻴﺢ ﺃﻨﻜﻡ ﺘﻌﺘﺒﺭﻭﻨﻨﻲ ﻤﺨﺭﻑ ﻭﺨﻔﻴﻑ ﻟﻜﻥ ﺫﻟﻙ ﻻ ﻴﻘﻠل‬ ‫ﻤﻥ ﻗﺩﺭﺍﺘﻲ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺘﺴﻠﻁ ﺍﻵﺨﺭﻴﻥ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻫﺘﺯﺍﺯﺍﺘﻲ ﻭﺨﻔﺘﻲ‬ ‫ﻓﻴﻘﻭﻟﻭﻥ ﻜﻼﻤﺎ ﺸﺎﺌﻨﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺤﻘﻲ ﻴﺘﺭﻜﻭﻨﻨﻲ ﻭﺤﺩﻱ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﻴﺨﺭﺝ ﺃﺤﺩﻫﻡ ﻟﺴﺎﻨﻪ ﻟﻲ ﻋﻨﺩ ﺍﻓﺘﺭﺍﻗﻨﺎ ﻭﺍﻵﺨﺭ ﻴﻁﺭﺩﻨﻲ‬ ‫ﻤﻥ ﺒﻴﺘﻪ ﻜﻲ ﻻ ﺃﻋﻜﺭ ﻟﻪ ﻤﺯﺍﺠﻪ ﺍﻟﺭﺍﺌﻕ‬ ‫ﺃﻴﻀﺎ ﺫﻟﻙ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻻ ﻴﻘﻠل ﻤﻥ ﻗﺩﺭﺍﺘﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻻﺴﺘﻤﺭﺍﺭ ﻭﺍﻟﻤﺘﺎﺒﻌﺔ‬ ‫ﻗﺩ ﻴﺤﺩﺙ ﻤﺎ ﻻ ﺃﺘﻭﻗﻌﻪ ﻓﺄﻨﺎ ﺃﺭﻴﺩ ﺩﺍﺌﻤﺎ ﺃﺭﻯ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻜل ﻤﻨﻜﻡ ﻴﻅﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺫﺍﺘﻪ ﺍﻟﻨﻀﻭﺝ ﻭﻓﻲ ﺫﺍﺘﻲ ﺍﻟﺨﻔﺔ ﻭﻴﻭﺠﻪ‬ ‫ﻟﻲ ﻨﺼﺎﺌﺤﻪ‬ ‫ﻓﻲ ﻴﻭﻡ ﻗﺒﻴﺢ ﺃﻋﺘﻘﺩ ﺃﻨﻨﻲ‬ ‫ﺴﺄﻨﻔﺠﺭ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻡ ﻭﺃﻗﻭل ﻤﺎﺫﺍ ﺃﻓﻌل‬ ‫ﻫل ﻗﻠﺕ ﻟﻜﻡ ﻋﻥ ﺍﻷﺸﻴﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺘﺯﻴﺩ ﺍﻀﻁﺭﺍﺒﺎﺘﻲ ﻤﻥ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻤﺠﻬﻭل ؟!‬ ‫ﻴﺎﺍﺍﻩ .... ﺍﻟﻤﻐﺹ‬ ‫ﺃﻗﻭل ﺍﻟﻤﻐﺹ‬ ‫ﺃﺘﺄﻟﻡ ﻜﺜﻴﺭﺍ ﻭﺃﺤﺱ ﺃﻥ ﻤﻌﺩﺘﻲ ﺘﻬﺘﺭﻱﺀ ﺭﻏﻡ ﺫﻟﻙ ﻓﺄﻨﺎ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻜﺴﻭل ﻟﺤﺩ ﻜﺒﻴﺭ‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺃﻅل ﻤﻜﺎﻨﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻔﺭﺍﺵ‬ ‫ﻻ ﺃﺩﺭﺏ ﻨﻔﺴﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺤﺭﻜﺔ ﻟﺘﻘﻠﻴل ﺍﻷﻟﻡ‬ ‫ﻭﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﺃﻨﺩﻫﺵ ﻟﺫﻟﻙ‬ ‫ﻭﺃﻗﻭل‬ ‫ﻗﺩ ﺘﻜﻭﻥ ﺍﻟﻤﻔﺎﺠﺄﺓ‬ ‫- ﺃﻨﻨﻲ ﻤﻌﻜﻡ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ - ﻫﻲ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺠﻌﻠﺘﻨﻲ ﻜﺴﻭل ﺠﺩﺍ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻟﺫﻟﻙ ﻜل ﺍﻟﻤﻭﺍﻗﻑ ﻭﺍﻷﺤﺩﺍﺙ ﺍﻟﻴﻭﻤﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺃﺭﺍﻫﺎ ﺃﻋﺘﺒﺭﻫﺎ‬ ‫٢٢‬
  • 24. ‫ﺒﺩﻴﻬﻴﻪ ﻗﺩ ﺤﺩﺜﺕ ﻓﻲ ﻨﻔﺱ ﺍﻟﺯﻤﺎﻥ ﻭﻓﻲ ﻨﻔﺱ ﺍﻟﻤﻜﺎﻥ‬ ‫ﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﺫﻟﻙ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﻤﺜﻴﺭﺍ ﻟﻠﺴﺨﺭﻴﺔ ﺒﺎﻟﻨﺴﺒﺔ ﻟﻲ ﻓﺄﻀﺤﻙ ﻓﻲ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻭﺠﻭﻫﻜﻡ ﻀﺤﻜﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺭﻑ‬ ‫ﺃﻴﻀﺎ ﻻ ﺍﻋﺘﻨﻰ ﺒﺘﻨﻅﻴﻑ ﻏﺭﻓﺘﻲ ﻭﺘﺭﺘﻴﺏ ﻜﺘﺒﻲ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻭﺃﺘﻠﺫﺫ ﺒﺄﻥ ﺃﺭﺍﻫﺎ ﻤﺒﻌﺜﺭﺓ ﺃﻤﺎﻤﻲ‬ ‫ﻻ ﻤﺎﻨﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺸﻌﺭ ﺃﻨﻰ ﻏﺒﻲ ﺃﻭ ﺒﺎﺭﺩ ﻤﺜﻼ ﺃﻭ ﻫﻤﺠﻲ ﺫﻟﻙ ﻻ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﺃﺘﺄﺴﻑ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﺍﻟﻤﻬﻡ ﺃﻨﻨﻲ ﺃﺸﻌﺭ ﺒﺫﻟﻙ‬ ‫ﻤﻥ ﺃﻨﺎ !؟‬ ‫ﺴﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﻫﺫﺍ ﺍﻟﺴﺅﺍل ﻟﻲ ﻭﺤﺩﻱ‬ ‫ﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﺃﻗﻨﻌﻜﻡ ﺒﻐﺒﺎﺌﻜﻡ‬ ‫ﻭﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﺘﻘﻨﻌﻭﻨﻨﻲ ﺒﻤﻭﺘﻰ‬ ‫ﻟﻜﻥ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﺴﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﻫﻲ ﻗﻁﻌﺔ ﺍﻟﻨﻘﻭﺩ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺃﻟﻘﻰ ﺒﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺭﺏ ﻭﻗﺎل‬ ‫ﺇﻥ ﺍﺴﺘﻘﺭﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻤﻠﻙ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﺃﻨﺎ ﻓﺴﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﺴﻴﻜﻭﻥ‬ ‫ﺇﻨﺴﺎﻨﺎ ﻗﺎﻟﻭﺍ ﺃﻡ ﻗﺭﺩﺍ ﺴﻌﻴﺩﺍ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻭﺇﻥ ﺍﺴﺘﻘﺭﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻜﺘﺎﺒﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻫﻲ ﻅﻬﺭﻱ ﻓﺴﻴﻜﻭﻥ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﺴﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﺇﻨﺴﺎﻨﺎ ﻗﺎﻟﻭﺍ ﺃﻡ ﺇﻟﻪ ﺸﻘﻴﺎ‬ ‫‪ ‬ﹰ‬ ‫ﺘﺠﺭﺃ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻓﻌل ﺍﻟﺭﺯﻴﻠﺔ‬ ‫ﻭﺍﻟﺤﻕ ﻤﺎ ﺃﻗﻭﻟﻪ ﺒﻔﻤﻲ ﻓﻜﻼﻫﻤﺎ ﺨﻠﻔﺘﻪ ﻷﺤﺘﻘﺭ ﻓﻴﻪ‬ ‫ﺃﻟﻭﻫﻴﺘﻲ‬ ‫ﻭﺒﻬﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﻁﺭﻴﻘﺔ ﺍﻟﺤﻅﻴﺔ ﺨﻠﻘﻨﻲ ﺍﷲ‬ ‫ﻭﺼﺩﻓﺔ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺒﺸﺭﺍ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﺭﺒﻤﺎ‬ ‫ﺇﻥ ﺘﺒﺩل ﻭﺠﻪ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﺔ ﻜﺎﻥ ﻤﺼﻴﺭﻱ ﺃﻭﻓﺭ ﻷﻜﻭﻥ ﻜﺎﺌﻥ ﺁﺨﺭ‬ ‫ﻗﻁﻌﺔ ﻨﻘﻭﺩ ﻤﺜﻼ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫) ﻓﺎﻟﻨﻘﻭﺩ ﺘﺤﺘﺎﺝ ﻟﻤﺜﻠﻬﺎ ﻟﺘﺴﺎﻋﺩﻫﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺒﻘﺎﺀ (‬ ‫٣٢‬
  • 25. ‫ﺃﻭ ﺤﻤﺎﻤﺔ ، ﺩﺭﺍﺠﺔ ﺒﺨﺎﺭﻴﺔ ﻋﺭﺒﺔ ﺃﻱ ﺸﻲﺀ ﻻ ﺘﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﺘﺴﺒﻘﻪ ﻟﻴﺴﺘﻁﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﻴﻁﻭﻱ ﺴﺭﻩ ﻓﻲ ﻏﻴﺎﺒﻪ ﺍﻟﺩﺍﺌﻡ‬ ‫ﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﻜﻨﺕ ﺃﻱ ﺸﻲﺀ ﺘﺎﻓﻪ‬ ‫٤٢‬
  • 26. ‫ﺍﻟﺤﻅ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺤﻅ‬ ‫ﻴﺎﺍﺍﺍﻩ‬ ‫ﻫﺫﻩ ﺍﻟﻤﻔﺭﺩﺓ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺘﺘﻔﻜﻙ ﻓﻲ ﻓﻤﻲ ﻜﻠﻤﺎ ﺃﻨﻁﻘﻬﺎ‬ ‫ﻭﺘﺘﻨﺎﺜﺭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ‬ ‫ﻜﺎﻨﺕ ﻤﻌﻲ ﻗﺒل ﺃﻥ ﺃﻜﻭﻥ‬ ‫ﻭﺒﻤﺎ ﺃﻨﻬﺎ ﺘﺭﺍﻓﻘﻨﻲ‬ ‫ﻓﺄﻨﺎ ﺩﺍﺌﻤﺎ ﺃﻨﺘﻅﺭ ﺭﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﻴﻠﻘﻰ ﺒﻬﺎ ﺍﻵﺨﺭﻴﻥ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻗﺒل ﺭﻤﻀﺎﻥ ﺒﻴﻭﻡ‬ ‫ﺃﻟﻌﺏ ﺍﻟﻨﻘﻭﺩ ﻤﻊ ﺯﻤﻴل ﺠﺭﻱﺀ‬ ‫ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﺩﺓ ﻫﻭ ﺍﻟﺫﻱ ﻴﺸﺠﻌﻨﻲ‬ ‫ﺃﻨﺎ ﺍﻟﻤﻘﺎﻤﺭ ﺍﻟﺼﻐﻴﺭ ﻭﻟﻡ ﺍﻨﺘﺒﻪ‬ ‫ﻴﺒﺩﻭ ﺃﻨﻨﻲ ﺘﺩﺭﺒﺕ ﻟﻔﺘﺭﺓ ﻗﺼﻴﺭﺓ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺨﻔﺔ ﺍﻟﺤﺭﻜﺔ ﻭﻟﻔﺕ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ٍ‬ ‫ﺍﻻﻨﺘﺒﺎﻩ‬ ‫ﺃﻨﺎ ﻗﺭﺭﺕ ﺫﻟﻙ ﻋﺎﻤﺩﺍ‬ ‫ﹰ‬ ‫ﻷﺴﻤﻊ ﻤﻥ ﻴﻘﻭل‬ ‫ﺇﻨﻙ ﻤﻤﺜل‬ ‫ﺒﺎﻟﻁﺒﻊ ﻓﺎﻟﻤﻤﺜل ﺍﻟﻘﺎﺩﺭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﺭﺘﺩﺍﺀ ﺃﻜﺜﺭ ﺍﻷﻗﻨﻌﺔ‬ ‫ﻹﺨﻔﺎﺀ ﺤﻘﻴﻘﺔ ﻫﻭﻴﺘﻪ ﻭﺭﺒﻤﺎ ﻷﻨﻪ ﻻ ﻴﻌﺭﻑ ﺤﻘﻴﻘﺔ ﺜﺎﺒﺘﺔ‬ ‫ِ‬ ‫ﻓﺎﻟﻅﻭﺍﻫﺭ ﺘﺘﻐﻴﺭ ﻤﻊ ﺍﻷﺭﺽ ﻭﺍﻹﻨﺴﺎﻥ ﻓﺘﺘﻐﻴﺭ ﺒﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺤﻘﺎﺌﻕ‬ ‫ﺴﺄﻗﻭل ﻜﻠﻤﺔ ﺃﺨﻴﺭﺓ‬ ‫ﻓﻲ ﻨﻬﺎﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻴﻭﻡ‬ ‫ﺃﻅﻥ ﺃﻨﻨﻲ ﻻ ﺃﻨﺎﻡ ﻗﺒل ﺃﻥ ﻴﻜﻭﻥ ﻓﻲ ﻴﺩﻱ ﺤﺼﻰ ﻜﺜﻴﺭ‬ ‫ﺃﺘﺤﺴﺱ ﺨﺸﻭﻨﺘﻪ‬ ‫ﻭﺤﻭﺍﻑ ﺒﻌﻀﻪ ﺍﻟﻤﺩﺒﺒﺔ‬ ‫٥٢‬
  • 27. ‫ﻜﻲ ﺃﻁﻤﺌﻥ ﺃﻨﻨﻲ‬ ‫ﺴﺄﺘﻌﺜﺭ ﻓﻴﻪ ﻤﺭﺓ ﺃﺨﺭﻯ‬ ‫ﺇﺫﻥ‬ ‫ﺴﻴﺒﻘﻰ ﺍﻷﻟﻡ ﺍﻟﻠﻭﻥ ﺍﻷﺤﻤﺭ‬ ‫ﻓﺄﻨﺎﻡ‬ ‫٦٢‬