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PHRASES I READ SOMEWHERE THAT I WISH I COULD FIND A PL ACE FOR as the grease soaked panini makes its digestive journey from gingerly bare my teeth my lips to rest on myhips like a loyal friend in it for the long haul licking the hardened sugar angrily thwacked crumbs off the plate
DICTIONARY.COM DEFINITION OF THESIS / MY IDEA OF A THESIS something a dissertation on SVA is a particular required to subject in which make me do one has done in order to give me an an original research, MFA exploration as one presented of anything I by a candidate am for a diploma or writing that is passionate degree a proposition art or about stated or put references forward for a subject for my practice consideration, a as an artistespecially one to composition be discussed or essayand proved or to be maintained against objections
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PEOPLE OBLIGATED TO READ MY THESIS PAPER David Row (thesis advisor) unknown unknown term review instructor THESIS term review instructor #2 #1 my mom
PEOPLE THAT WILL VOLUNTARILY READ MY THESIS PAPER VICTORIA unknown future BATEY’S THESIS SVA student SMASHED IN A that is confused FILE and looking for examples of SOMEWHERE IN thesis papers THE OFFICE
APPROXIMATE NUMBER OF DAYS THAT I LOSTWORKING IN THE STUDIO BECAUSE I WORKED ON MY THESIS PAPER INSTEAD 7
CONVERSATION AT THE S TUDIO WITHMY CL ASSMATE PRIOR TO WRITIN G MY THESIS PAPER • “I am obsessed with reading these conversations about Judy Chicago and Eunjung Miriam Schapiro in your book The Power of Feminist Art. There • “I know! I feel like we is this whole history of have been told we have feminism that I have moved on past those just ignored because issues and don’t deal with discrimination but really of the stigma attached we do. You can borrow to what it means to be my book anytime you a feminist...turns out I need to look at it.” was waaay off.” me
CONVERSATION AT THE S TUDIO WITHMY CL ASSMATE PRIOR TO WRITIN G MY THESIS PAPER • “I looked for that feminist art book Eunjung at Barnes and Noble this weekend. They didn’t have it but what was even more disturbing was there • “I couldn’t sleep last were only 2 books total that were night because I got so surveys of women artists. They had angry after reading a the basics like books on Frida Korean book about Kahlo and Georgia O’ Keefe...I women and feminism. can’t remember if there was a I was really upset.” Guerrilla Girls book.” me
PL ACES I WORKED ON MY THESIS:Smuggler’s Notch Ski My apartment Lodge Jeffersonville, VT My Studio at SVA *approximated locations The Tea Lounge
• I enter the building for the first • while waiting in line a time and am shocked that there random man touches are at least 80 people all my shoulder and camped out with books or comments on the computers. gold thread in my Thrift store couches, I slide into a sweater. the man the cohesive buzz of perfectly gives me the creeps. quiet conversations illuminated nook between friends, in the corner. I and the rhythm of notice an empty Macbook keys powerstrip clicking beneath my feet The comedian Really wishing I just called had made copies• 4 hours have flown by. attention to the of something I I’m upset with how fact that I am read in Eun • I begin researching underrepresented wearing my Jung’s book The feminism and read a women are in all bunch of articles on creative fields in headphones Power of Miriam Schapiro and America. I decide to during his routine Feminist Art Judy Chicago. I leave thanks to become obsessed with amateur stand up these women. comedy night.
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TOPIC I COME ACROSS WHILE LIS TENIN G TO DOLLY’S SON G AND READIN G UP ON FEMINISM in 2010 only 37% of the books published by Random House were written by women, and only 17% of the books reviewed by the practice, conscious or The New York Review of Books otherwise, of placing male human were written by women. beings or the masculine point of view at the center of ones view of the world and its culture and Of the top 250 grossing films in history 2007, 82% had no female writers and only 6% had a female Androcentric director. 70% of all film reviews published in the USA are written by men.(according to wikipedia) Charlotte Perkins Gilman described androcentric practices androcentrism can be in society and the resulting understood as a societal problems in her investigation on fixation on masculinity The Man-Made World; or, Our whereby all things Androcentric Culture, published in 1911 originate
SMUGGLER’S NOTC H SKI LODGE JEFFERSONVILLE, V T Somewhere in this general vicinity
I’m the only one on the ski tripthat didn’t come here to ski. I onlycame to Vermont to go somewherewith trees and nothing else for me to do except work on a thesis paper.
I decide the ski lodge is a good place to work onmy thesis since our hotel is a shithole and thereis really no where else to go.A picture I got from googling “shitty motel” thatkind of looks like a better version of where we stayed: Smuggler’s Notch ski resort entrance:
I walk around for a while to ﬁnd a good spot and then settle into the cafe and purchase a $4 cup of coffee and a $3 bottle of watersince mine is frozen in the car. I try to access the internet and ﬁnd out from a worker that it costs $10.
The housekeeping girl that told me how to getinternet decides to chat with me for almost anhour. I now know that she has 2 kids, is a singlemom, lives in a small house in the woods, pays$300/month for rent, and is really into paintingand photography. She hates her job but can’t quitright now. I also found out that my group willhave to sneak into the hot tub later since ourcrappy hotel down the road doesn’t have one.I paid for the internet 3 minutes before shebegan talking to me.
THIS IS HOW I’LL FEEL WHEN I’M AHEAD OF EVERYONE That’s right bitches...my thesis is halfway finished
Time to get serious for a minutebecause I really like this quote. I was thinking about it when thehousekeeper was telling me her life story.
EXCERPT IN MY NOTES FROM THE BOOK THE SOUTH THROUGH TIME: A HISTORY OF AN AMERICAN REGION BY JOHN B. BOLES . "No other region of the nation has been as concerned with and as compulsive about understanding its identity as has the South …Rural, defensive, and comparatively homogeneous for generations, the South’s people created unawares a folk culture, an identification with place and family and religion and even gastronomic preference, whereby they understood and defined themselves without premeditation. Rural isolation and loneliness led the southern people to prize kinship…hardship and dislocation caused them to romanticize home and place; evangelical religion offered meaning and hope…simple, spicy fried foods provided sustenance; conversation, song, and folk recreation such as hunting and quilting that combined practical results with pleasure in the process brought joy into otherwise humdrum existence. …these values, habits of mind, and cultural preferences have long outlived their folk roots and become an integral part of a southern consciousness that persists even in the modern urban South. … Southerners still greet newcomers by asking where they are from, revealing that they expect others’ identity, too, to be somehow intertwined with their home place.… Quilting, military reenactments, a fascination with genealogy, and a rich variety of family and church homecomings with dinner on the grounds, are but representative activities that offer contemporary southerners a connection to what is perceived to be a past that provides stability and meaning to their lives."
I spend 3 hours reading fromThe Feminism and Visual Culture Reader
I S TOP READIN G SO I C AN WRITE MY THOUGHT S ON DOLLY PAR TONIt was only recently that I realized that she is my ideal feminist icon. I initially began paintingDolly because her music was like comfort food to me. For every emotion I encountered I wasable to find a song to match. Making a few paintings about Dolly and of Dolly camenaturally. I grew up listening to country music and the seemingly simple stories told withinthe five-minute timeframe.
FOR THE LOVE OF DOLLY...Dolly is able to write songs that are indeed sentimental at times butentirely true to who she is. She exemplifies a personal narrative ofdetermination, overcoming obstacles in life, being sexy, and keepingher faith all while not hiding the fact that she has undergone manycosmetic surgeries. Dolly IS a work of art and in some of her recentconcerts she has said she may be “externally artificial, yetemotionally authentic.” There is genius not only in her song writingbut also in her ability to step outside of herself and evaluate how shemay be perceived.
AND THEN I DECIDE TO MAKE THE UGLIEST SLIDE EVER
Dolly Parton Ranked by Billboard magazine as the #1 female country artist of all time 7 time Grammy winnerhas written over 5,000 songs
“BACKWOODS BARBIE” I grew up poor and ragged, just a simple country girl. I wanted to be pretty more than anything in the world, like Barbie or the models in the Fredricks’ catalog. From rags to wishes in my dreams I could have it all. I’m just a backwoods Barbie, too much makeup, too much hair. Don’t be fooled by thinkin’ that the goods are not all there. Don’t let these false eyelashes lead you to believe that I’m as shallow as I look ’cause I run true and deep. I’ve always been misunderstood because of how I look. Don’t judge me by the cover ’cause I’m a real good book. So read into it what you will, but see me as I am. The way I look is just a country girl’s idea of glam. I’m just a backwoods Barbie in a push-up bra and heels. I might look artificial, but where it counts I’m real. And I’m all dolled up and hopin’ for a chance to prove my worth, And even backwoods Barbie’s get their feelings hurt.I’m just a backwoods Barbie, too much makeup, too much hair. Don’t be fooled by thinkin’ that the goods are not all there. Yes, I can see where I could be misjudged upon first glance; But even backwoods Barbie’s deserve a second chance. I’m just a backwoods Barbie just asking for a chance, just a backwoods Barbie.
ANNOYANCES THAT OCCUR WHILE WRITING A THESIS PAPER the amount constantly the dogs of Sudafed losing mygetting need a walk taken over 4 train of days causes texts thought and keepa cold severe brain thanks to trying to play fetch cloudiness other people
TEXT MESSAGING WITH MOM Mom (Mar 11, 2012 2:01 PM): “Got my hair done. Red violet and caramel streaks. Layered up with sidebangs.” Mom (Mar 11, 2012 2:06 PM): “The highlights r subtle to start breaking up the black. Next time a little chunkier.” Me (Mar 11, 2012 2:37 PM): “umm hope it looks good. “streaks” are really 2002.” Me (Mar 11, 2012 3:00 PM): “ I’ve got a cold and am trying to write a thesis paper that is at least 10 pages” Mom (Mar 11, 2012 3:40 PM): “good luck.” Me (Mar 11, 2012 3:40 PM):“I’ve been bratty all day. sorry bout the mean comment about your hair...you are pretty no matter what mommy...love you xoxo”
S TUDIO 802 AT THE WES T 21 S T S TREET SC HOOL OF VISUAL ART S BUILDIN G
First day back to school since spring break. I still have a cold and the only reason I go to school is to uninstall my work at the SVA gallery.I decide to work on my paper in my studio to make the trip from Brooklyn worth it. My nose won’t stop running. I’m trying to pretend I’m not still sick. My studio is a mess and Patrick needs his drawing table back so I spend 2 hours cleaning and rearranging my studio in order to create a conducive writing space.Studio is clean but I’m still not getting any writing accomplished so I go to the office to look at Michelle Lopez’s thesis paper.After quickly flipping through Michelle’s paper (without reading too much because I didn’t want to be influenced by the content) I remember a chapter in a Jennifer Egan book I read a few months ago that had an entire chapter written in powerpoint slides. I decide to write the rest of my thesis in powerpoint.
ONCE AGAIN WORKING AT MY APARTMENT IN BROOKLYN
conversation with Luke before falling asleep do you think my slide show idea no is dumb? there’s not really any guidelines.. umm...so yeah.. you should do it... do you think it’s kind of but do you really think I funny? can get away with making a bunch of slides that are yes. about the process that went into trying to figure out how to write a thesis? I just wasn’t that sounded apprehensive sure if you knew ...you think how to use it’s stupid powerpoint don’t you?umm rude.. I had to my point use powerpoint in exactlyback in the 90’s forbusiness computer class.
THE BOOK THE POWER OF FEMINIST ART FINALLY ARRIVES FROM AMAZON.COM or checking I’m worried I’m going facebook to spend more time reading this book instead of making slides My paper isn’t really I’ve been needing this about feminism so I book for days. don’t know why I think Especially when I was that I’ve been needing just hanging out doing it nothing in Vermont. I immediately flip to an article I already read on p.68 “Conversations with Judy Chicago andbut if I’m constantly Miriam Schapiro”referencing strong women in society by Norma Broude then maybe it actually is about and Mary D. Garrard feminism
THINGS I STARRED IN THE “CONVERSATIONS WITH JUDY CHICAGO AND MIRIAM SCHAPIRO” ARTICLE • JC: That’s the question, isn’t it? Who gets to decide, and what standards do we use? I NB/ would say the person who has done the most work in this area is Lucy (Lippard). In her book Mixed Blessings she is the first person to try and come up with another MG: standard of how you measure quality. I would say the issue of quality needs to be How do connected to the question of authenticity. For example, how can a white manwe decide functioning within a Euro-American curatorial and art-historical structure evaluate the what’s authenticity of a black woman’s painting? And, because his standard of measurement quality? does not apply, it throws him off balance, and he falls back on, “It’s not quality.” Whereas, in actual fact, his standard of measurement may be inappropriate. NB/MG: However, the rule of authenticity • JC: Of course, one would have to accept the diversity of all would only work if human experience as potentially valid. But we have all beeneverybody’s experience raised to believe, implicitly or explicitly, that some human is given equal validity. experiences are more important than others. Challenging that Yet how can standards assumption is at the root of feminism. I believe standards canof quality emerge when and do emerge from dialogue, but the dialogue has to be much what is art for person X bigger than it is now.is not necessarily art for person Y?
NORMA BROUDE AND MARY D. GARRARD SAY: For many feminists, it’s the patriarchal oppression that’s at the root of the problem for all these multiple identities.
MORE STUFF JUDY C. SAID... There are Patriarchal feminism, even oppression iswomen as well though it starts as men who with f-e-m, does not connectedare addicted to not mean female entirely togaining power only gender over others by casting the . Feminism is a set of The spirit of my dialogue entirely around gender and principles and a way of work grows out looking at the world not values we set the that, for me, is rooted in of the redefinition stage to alienate men who could have been a redefinition of power- of power. our friends from power over others to empowerment
THE SMARTART GRAPHIC FROM POWERPOINT THAT MADE ME THINK OF JUDY CHICAGO *smartart is what powerpoint calls the little charts I’ve been using to make these ridiculous slides **little red squiggly lines show up under the words smartart and powerpoint because the powerpoint program is too dumb to recognize itself as a word
THE GRAPHIC I DREW IN POWERPOINT THAT REPRESENTS JUDY CHICAGO
I REALIZE THAT TOMORROW IS THETHESIS ROUGH DRAFT DEADLINE SO I TRY TO PUT ALL THESE RAMBLINGS INTO POWERPOINT FORMAT TO SHOW DAVID ROW
DAVID ROW LIKES IT BUT HE HAS SUGGESTIONS figure out a way to push the sum it up idea of parody more pop- culture references my thoughts: I should have just made this whole thing about Dolly Parton
ISLANDS IN THE STREAM IS ONE OF MY FAVORITE SONGS... Dolly sang it as a duet with I hate the Bee Gees The song was released in Kenny Rogers, but the1983 which is also the year My mom is obsessed with song was written by the I was born the Bee Gees Bee Gees I can’t help but also think of the 90’s song Ghetto Islands in the Stream is Supastar (that is what you Warren Beatty was also the title of a work by are) exceptionally sexy in the Ernest Hemingway movie Bonnie and Clyde from the movie Bulworth featuring Warren Beatty
THEY FILMED MOST OF THE MOVIE CLOSE TO PLACES I’VE LIVED they filmed in Ponder & I own a house that Pilot Point I rent out to college students in Denton as well as Red Oak and Waxahachie I was born in Waco *icon of house not to scale **map is not intended to be used by those needing directions
POP -CULTURE S TUFF THAT POPS INTO MY HEAD... the producers Jean-Luc of courseoriginally approached next they refused because ofFrançois Truffaut but approached Jean- his skepticism he passed to make Luc Godard towards Hollywood Fahrenheit 451 Bonnie and Clyde is stylistically very influenced by French New Wave cinema
After thinking momentarily about my love for French New Wave I realize that my entire thesis is based on the idea of just jump cutting a bunch of ideas and puttingthem together which is also how I make art