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  1. 1. Week 2 Exploration:Week 2 Exploration: My MCBSMy MCBS StoryboardStoryboard
  2. 2. was in an never ending struggle ofwas in an never ending struggle of trying to determine if I should pursuetrying to determine if I should pursue that which was expected of me or dothat which was expected of me or do what I felt in my soul I was supposedwhat I felt in my soul I was supposed to do…I was in a constant battle withto do…I was in a constant battle with myself and in a mental struggle tomyself and in a mental struggle to overcome the opinions of my parentsovercome the opinions of my parents and the emotions I felt due to the lackand the emotions I felt due to the lack of understanding and support I didn’tof understanding and support I didn’t receive from them or my spouse. Myreceive from them or my spouse. My whole situation...mentally, emotionallywhole situation...mentally, emotionally and physically was not ideal.and physically was not ideal. This was hard to overcome; I was aThis was hard to overcome; I was a very timid child and unfortunately, thisvery timid child and unfortunately, this lead into my adulthood. I grew up inlead into my adulthood. I grew up in very constrained existence so Ivery constrained existence so I definitely did what I was supposed todefinitely did what I was supposed to do; freedom of thought, choice anddo; freedom of thought, choice and expression was not really an option…Iexpression was not really an option…I got use to being a good little soldier. Igot use to being a good little soldier. I dressed how I was supposed todressed how I was supposed to dress and acted how I was supposeddress and acted how I was supposed to act. Who I appeared to be wasn’tto act. Who I appeared to be wasn’t who I wanted to be...I was just awho I wanted to be...I was just a fraction of myself.fraction of myself. This was hard to overcome; I was aThis was hard to overcome; I was a very timid child and unfortunately, thisvery timid child and unfortunately, this lead into my adulthood. I grew up inlead into my adulthood. I grew up in very constrained existence so Ivery constrained existence so I definitely did what I was supposed todefinitely did what I was supposed to do; freedom of thought, choice anddo; freedom of thought, choice and expression was not really an option…Iexpression was not really an option…I got use to being a good little soldier. Igot use to being a good little soldier. I dressed how I was supposed todressed how I was supposed to dress and acted how I was supposeddress and acted how I was supposed to act. Who I appeared to be wasn’tto act. Who I appeared to be wasn’t
  3. 3. I had always thought II had always thought I wanted to become awanted to become a lawyer. I loved facts andlawyer. I loved facts and trivial situations thattrivial situations that required investigation andrequired investigation and due to the requirement ofdue to the requirement of dressing up three times adressing up three times a week enforced by myweek enforced by my parents, one could easilyparents, one could easily say I dressed the part of asay I dressed the part of a lawyer. I thought this had tolawyer. I thought this had to be destiny; my middlebe destiny; my middle name is Jestine…thatname is Jestine…that means “just and upright”. Imeans “just and upright”. I always did what was soalways did what was so called “right”. And hey, I hadcalled “right”. And hey, I had enough pent up aggressionenough pent up aggression to deliver an argumentto deliver an argument without flaw. I planned mywithout flaw. I planned my whole academic career. Iwhole academic career. I was already enrolled in thewas already enrolled in the law strand in high schoollaw strand in high school and planned on going to goand planned on going to go to the University ofto the University of California in Santa Cruz andCalifornia in Santa Cruz and then come back to the eastthen come back to the east coast to attend law schoolcoast to attend law school in Florida.in Florida.
  4. 4. But then one day I made a mistakeBut then one day I made a mistake and the criticism I received from myand the criticism I received from my mother altered my path…it wasn’tmother altered my path…it wasn’t nasty but she simply made thenasty but she simply made the comment, “that is not something acomment, “that is not something a lawyer would do”…and at that timelawyer would do”…and at that time whatever my mother said was goldwhatever my mother said was gold to me. I interpreted it as her tellingto me. I interpreted it as her telling me that I wasn’t cut out to be ame that I wasn’t cut out to be a lawyer. So I reverted back to mylawyer. So I reverted back to my place of solace. As a child andplace of solace. As a child and teenager I’d cope with my reality byteenager I’d cope with my reality by escaping it…through reading, writingescaping it…through reading, writing and drawing. It wasn’t anythingand drawing. It wasn’t anything special. I just stayed in my room andspecial. I just stayed in my room and created…its just what I did. As onecreated…its just what I did. As one dream died a new one emerged…dream died a new one emerged… my high school art teacher, Ms.my high school art teacher, Ms. Capitol-Jefferson, told me I had aCapitol-Jefferson, told me I had a natural gift and she wanted to putnatural gift and she wanted to put me in her advanced classes…Ime in her advanced classes…I remember getting home and theremember getting home and the excitement and apprehension I feltexcitement and apprehension I felt when I told my mom. Her responsewhen I told my mom. Her response was honestly, so unexpected, shewas honestly, so unexpected, she said, “Oh yeah, your kindergartensaid, “Oh yeah, your kindergarten teacher said the same thing.” It wasteacher said the same thing.” It was kind of a blow to hear her saykind of a blow to hear her say because I’d been searching forbecause I’d been searching for some type of identity and place…butsome type of identity and place…but it was then that I knew I was anit was then that I knew I was an artist…I am an artist.artist…I am an artist.
  5. 5. Because of that my entireBecause of that my entire focus changed, I got tofocus changed, I got to experience so many coolexperience so many cool things in participating inthings in participating in our local competitionsour local competitions and being apart of the artand being apart of the art club. I wanted to use myclub. I wanted to use my lightly cultivated art skillslightly cultivated art skills to emerge into variousto emerge into various Art-based endeavors likeArt-based endeavors like magazine print, film,magazine print, film, books, and cartoons tobooks, and cartoons to name a few (yes, that isname a few (yes, that is what I call a few..LOL) Iwhat I call a few..LOL) I wanted to develop artswanted to develop arts initiatives for myinitiatives for my communities and evencommunities and even travel doing missionarytravel doing missionary work because I just knewwork because I just knew I would financially be ableI would financially be able too based on what Itoo based on what I thought I would havethought I would have accomplished by now...Iaccomplished by now...I never planned on beingnever planned on being the broke artist.the broke artist.
  6. 6. Because of that I decided I wantedBecause of that I decided I wanted to go away to college and to an Artto go away to college and to an Art School. I had decided that ISchool. I had decided that I wanted be a Film Major and alsowanted be a Film Major and also obtain experience in televisionobtain experience in television production. New York, here Iproduction. New York, here I come! I wasn't sure about what tocome! I wasn't sure about what to look for but at that time it didn’tlook for but at that time it didn’t even matter what I wanted. Due toeven matter what I wanted. Due to incessant direction to attend ourincessant direction to attend our local community college by mylocal community college by my parents...that is what I did. Theseparents...that is what I did. These are the moments when I began toare the moments when I began to establish a bit ofestablish a bit of independence...my quietindependence...my quiet revolt...even now newly 29, I laughrevolt...even now newly 29, I laugh when I think of my momwhen I think of my mom stating…”your not openlystating…”your not openly disrespectful no, but you have adisrespectful no, but you have a quiet disobedience”... because allquiet disobedience”... because all my parents knew is that I neededmy parents knew is that I needed to be pursuing a degree that wasto be pursuing a degree that was computer-based...they didn’tcomputer-based...they didn’t understand and nor was I aware ofunderstand and nor was I aware of the opportunities available forthe opportunities available for someone like me. I was too timidsomeone like me. I was too timid to even ask.to even ask.
  7. 7. Because of that level of uncertainty andBecause of that level of uncertainty and series of life altering experiences, I wentseries of life altering experiences, I went from an General Studies-Art major to anfrom an General Studies-Art major to an Mass Communications Major to a VisualMass Communications Major to a Visual Communications Major. This all occurredCommunications Major. This all occurred in the next 5 to 8 years of my life afterin the next 5 to 8 years of my life after high school. Going to school whenever Ihigh school. Going to school whenever I could, starting in the Fall of 2003-2004,could, starting in the Fall of 2003-2004, enrolled in Spring semester of 2005,enrolled in Spring semester of 2005, winter accelerated of 2008 semester…winter accelerated of 2008 semester… spring of 2009. Why all of the jumpingspring of 2009. Why all of the jumping around? Well, at the age of 20, Iaround? Well, at the age of 20, I unexpectantly got pregnant with my firstunexpectantly got pregnant with my first child, Miss Sharese (now 8) and I gotchild, Miss Sharese (now 8) and I got married. Because of that I was lead tomarried. Because of that I was lead to believe that everything I wanted to dobelieve that everything I wanted to do wasn’t possible, didn’t matter and mywasn’t possible, didn’t matter and my overall job was to sacrifice all of me...andoverall job was to sacrifice all of me...and that is what I did. While I foundthat is what I did. While I found temporary gratification in the fact that Itemporary gratification in the fact that I was a great mom and did what I waswas a great mom and did what I was supposed to do as a wife I began to getsupposed to do as a wife I began to get frustrated with life. I eventually had twofrustrated with life. I eventually had two more children, a son, Gerald Jr. (now 6)more children, a son, Gerald Jr. (now 6) and my second daughter, Olivia (now 4).and my second daughter, Olivia (now 4). I had an inner yearning to create thatI had an inner yearning to create that wasn’t getting fed with doing art projectswasn’t getting fed with doing art projects with my kids. I wanted more but couldn’twith my kids. I wanted more but couldn’t see my way out…I felt hopeless.see my way out…I felt hopeless.
  8. 8. Until Finally, I jumped at an opportunityUntil Finally, I jumped at an opportunity that came up. Desiring to dothat came up. Desiring to do something...anything...to get out ofsomething...anything...to get out of the rut I was in and to start to makethe rut I was in and to start to make something of my life, I applied tosomething of my life, I applied to participate in a program developed byparticipate in a program developed by the non-profit organization,the non-profit organization, Year UpYear Up,, its a year long intensive trainingits a year long intensive training program that provides low-incomeprogram that provides low-income young adults, ages 18-24, with ayoung adults, ages 18-24, with a combination of hands-on skillcombination of hands-on skill development, college credits, anddevelopment, college credits, and corporate internships..the goal...tocorporate internships..the goal...to empower urban young adults toempower urban young adults to reach their potential. Now while itreach their potential. Now while it wasn’t about art, it was what I neededwasn’t about art, it was what I needed to rediscover my potential and theto rediscover my potential and the dreams I had for me. It weigheddreams I had for me. It weighed heavily on my mind, how can Iheavily on my mind, how can I possibly encourage my children topossibly encourage my children to pursue their passions if I wasn’tpursue their passions if I wasn’t pursuing my own. I needed to putpursuing my own. I needed to put myself in a position to be able tomyself in a position to be able to support them in the way that I wishedsupport them in the way that I wished my own parents had supported me.my own parents had supported me. During both the development phaseDuring both the development phase and the internship experience I had atand the internship experience I had at Freddie Mac, I shed the confines ofFreddie Mac, I shed the confines of me…those things that caused me tome…those things that caused me to be passive and timid.be passive and timid.
  9. 9. And every since I decided that IAnd every since I decided that I was going to go back to school towas going to go back to school to pursue the life I wanted inspite ofpursue the life I wanted inspite of my circumstances and lack ofmy circumstances and lack of support. I set my heart onsupport. I set my heart on attending school online….at Fullattending school online….at Full Sail University. I saw that I had theSail University. I saw that I had the opportunity to garner all the skills Iopportunity to garner all the skills I want that would set me up towant that would set me up to pursue all of the options I want topursue all of the options I want to in the Visual Media Arts Industry.in the Visual Media Arts Industry. So I set a plan, get a job atSo I set a plan, get a job at night...check! And enroll innight...check! And enroll in school….check!school….check! I currently work graveyard shiftI currently work graveyard shift security, this allows me to besecurity, this allows me to be home with my kids in the eveninghome with my kids in the evening for homework, dinner and thefor homework, dinner and the likes. Devote time to the husband..likes. Devote time to the husband.. And have time during the day forAnd have time during the day for me to attend class and completeme to attend class and complete assignments…So now I amassignments…So now I am pursuing my passion for media atpursuing my passion for media at Full Sail, I haven’t let anything stopFull Sail, I haven’t let anything stop me and I won’t. Plus, I have theme and I won’t. Plus, I have the three little people who arethree little people who are motivation enough for me to givemotivation enough for me to give them the best and it starts withthem the best and it starts with me.me.
  10. 10. And this is justAnd this is just the beginning…the beginning…

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