How do you say goodbye?
(Written in 2010, Irene's next to last summer vacation home)
How do you take what may be a last journey through 97 years of memories? The last walk through the town you were
born and raised in, the bedroom that was yours for more than 70 years, the office where you spent your working
If you’re Irene Visintin you do it with the same patience and gentleness that has characterized your life. This has been, in
a way, the farewell tour. For the last two or three years she’s said this might be her last trip home until she comes back
in a box. This year she is more adamant, and given the circumstances, she may be right.
So each trip to the cabin or Trout Lake, each walk through familiar old neighborhoods or down the River Trail, every
lunch with an old friend or visit with a neighbor becomes a melancholy affair, a occasion for happiness at catching up, a
parting with sadness knowing this might be the last time old friends look on each other.
The house purchased by her Father in 1917 has served as her home since 1932. The exterior unchanged in more than 50
years, the interior like walking into a time portal. She sits on the porch admiring the yellow roses and lilac bushes that
have grown there for all the years she can remember. She comments on how the trees have grown, especially the
spreading Blue Spruce in front of her Sister’s house next door, planted around the time of the second world war. There
used to be a twin to it but my mother donated that to the City for their downtown Christmas Tree in 1963, in memory of
my Dad who died that spring. And while we have another half dozen spruce in our yard, that one is notably older,
grander, more stately and she comments often on how big it’s gotten.
Our conversations have grown more limited, we talk about trees and weather and all the new building going on. Once in
awhile a nugget from the distant past will surface, an event remembered fleetingly, who used to live in that house in
1925, a childhood friend, a hike to the Tomboy. But whereas as recently as six months ago she could recount the event
in detail, tell a story about the friend, talk about a dance at the Alta or a mine accident or a picnic with the Paisan’s in
Silverton or a particular fishing expedition at Trout Lake, today they’re just fragments of memories, the depth, detail and
color have mostly disappeared. I no longer turn on my recorder for these talks because it is a source of sadness for me
and a source of frustration for her. I’m thankful for the memories I have recorded because this is a slice of history
Frustration seems to be the hallmark of much of what she does, though she bears it with the same quiet dignity that has
been her tradition all her life. My mother was the fiery sister, the more passionate one, the more outspoken. Irene was
the quiet sister, the reserved one, the caregiver, the one content to let Vera have the spotlight while she brought up the
My mother fought against the decline, became angry at the memory loss, struck out at the restrictions it placed on her.
Irene sheds a momentary quiet tear and moves on. She sits quietly while others converse around her – her hearing is
80% gone. She feels the beauty of the mountains and the blue sky more than sees it today, her eyesight is 80% gone.
And she enjoys our walks along the River Trail from her perch in a wheelchair because arthritis has robbed her of the
spry walk she was accustomed to taking to the grocery store and the post office just a few short years ago.
John Cougar summed it up more succinctly than he may have realized when he sang ; ‘oh yeah. Life goes on, long after
the thrill of living is gone.’ But for Irene I’m not sure the thrill is completely gone even now. She has the companionship
of her loving little dog, Monster. Who, knowing the Sisters a decade ago, could have anticipated the delight she feels
from this dog, who sits with her and eats with her and sleeps curled in a ball at her head. The pleasures are fewer, they
are less tangible, their colors are less vivid, but the spark still hovers just below the surface hoping , hoping for a
And at the end of these long and sometimes frustrating days, when I tuck her into the little bed that was mine as a child
and then served my Grandmother and Mother in their final years, she puts her feeble arms tightly around my neck and
with a soft sob, thanks me for helping her experience her life one more time. Don’t thank me, Sweety, it’s been my
Bella Notte, Eenie.