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sure to look around hoping to atleast see and recognize him but I always fail.Was he really serious? Well, he knew me... h...
saw a guy sitting on the bench of the shed, he was reading a book."Ah." I was a bit disappointed, I went to the same bench...
He looked convinced with my words that he nodded, "Youre right, Ill confessright away."He searched something in his pocket...
"Well," he stood up, "Ill be going.""Oh, and I thought we could still talk some more, I was actually enjoying.Anyway, you ...
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lagi kong kasama. Badtrip, bakit hindi na lang ako? Bakit sya? BAKIT?Pero tanggap ko na sana na hindi nya ako mahal, na be...
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  1. 1. ANG STORYANG ITO AY PAGMAMAY-ARI NI HYSTG. MAGKAKABUNI, BULUTONG AT PIGSA SAILONG, SA PWET, SA KILI KILI, SA SINGIT AT SA MATA ANG SINUMANG MAGKAKALAT OMANGAAGAW O MAGTATANGGAL NG COPYRIGHT NG STORYANG ITO.ANDITO NA RIN NAMAN AKO AT NAGSASALITA, BAGO KAYO MAGBASA MAGPA-PLUG MUNA AKO.BWAHAHA. BISITAHIN PO NAWA NINYO ANG AKINGWEBSITE(haveyouseenthisgirl.yolasite.com) O ANG AKING WATTPADACCOUNT(http://www.wattpad.com/user/HaveYouSeenThisGirL ) MAAARI RIN PO KAYONGMAG-FAN SAKIN DUN KUNG HINDI IKASASAMA NG KALOOBAN NINYO. BWAHAHA. SUBUKAN NYORIN PO SANANG BASAHIN ANG IBA KO PANG STORYA. YUN LANG. BWAHAHAH (* u*)“AND THIS LOVE WAITS“SHORT STORY COMPILATIONS written by HaveYouSeenThisGirL (HYSTG)“WAITING FOR THE TRAIN“Dugdugdug.Kahit gaano pa kalakas ang tibok ng puso mo at gaano man sya kalapit sayo, bastamay dumaang tren, hindi nya to maririnig. Sinubukan kong ibulong kasonakaheadset sya, hindi nya narinig.Dadaanin ko sana sa sulat kaso nilipad nghangin ng tren. Nung isinigaw ko, nakasakay na sya sa tren at nagsara na angpinto nito at nakaandar na bale hindi nya rin narinig....Wag mong sabihing torpe ako, ilang beses kong sinubukan sabihin sa kanya perolagi akong pinipigilan ng tren kahit hanggang sa dulo ng hininga nya.5yrs na yung nakakaraan nung unang beses ko syang nakita sa may LRT. Naka-uniform sya ng ibang eskwelahan, lagi ko syang napapansin kasi lagi syangnakatayo sa isang certain point sa train tuwing umaga. Parehas kaming nagco-commute papuntang school gamit ang tren, ang cute nya kasi kaya kapansin pansinsya. Wala naman akong balak na lumapit sa kanya o maging close sa kanya, I wasalready contented sa pagtingin tingin sa kanya sa malayo. Kaso...Nalaglag yung panyo ko nung isang araw, nagmamadali kasi ako nun makababa ngtren dahil sa may dadaanan pa ako bago pumuntang school at dahil sa pagmamadaliko hindi ko napansing nalaglag yung panyo ko. Buong araw hinanap ko sa school koyung panyo ko, akala ko kasi sa school ko nawala. Kaya naman nung uwian na,habang nagaantay ako sa may isang bench dun sa tapat ng rails biglang may tumabisakin at pagtingin ko kung sino, nakita ko siya."Miss, sa tingin ko iyo tong panyo na ito?" inabot nya sakin yung panyo,"Nakita ko kasing nalaglag sayo kaninang umaga nung paglabas mo ng train,tatawagin sana kita kaso nakatakbo ka na eh."Inabot ko yung panyo ko, "Ah thank you. Buti alam mong sumasakay din ako pauwidito sa train na to."Inaasahan kong napapansin nya rin ako sa tuwing nasakay ako sa tren sa umaga atsa hapon."Ah, hindi. Nagkataon lang, nakita kasi kitang umupo dito eh kaya ayun binigayko sayo yan. Ayaw ko naman itapon kanina, nagbabakasakali kasi akong makita kaulit at maisauli sayo."Kahit hindi nya alam na lagi akong nasakay sa train na yun eh natuwa pa rin akokasi, hindi nya tinapon yung panyo ko at nagbakasakali syang makita ako. Hes agentlemen at dahil dun, mas lalong lumalim ang pagtingin ko sa kanya.After that incident, hindi na ulit kami nagkaroon ng chance magusap. I was tooshy to approach him pero ang nakakatuwa lang eh, madalas kaming nagkakatabi sa
  2. 2. bench sa tuwing magiintay kami sa train pauwi. Magha-hi o ngingiti lang syasakin at ganun din ako pero pagkatapos nun, katahimikan na lang ang namamagitansamin. Ano pa ba aasahan ko diba? Hindi naman kami close.Pero pag patagal talaga ng patagal, lalong lumalaki talaga ang nararamdaman mosa isang tao. Isang beses nga, sumakay kami sa train at yung time na yun sobrangdami ng tao sa tren at sobrang sikip kaya naman nung sumakay kami sa tren ehkatabi ko sya pero... as in KATABI ko sya kung saan wala ng space. Nakasandal nakasi ako sa pinto at nasa harapan ko naman sya, yung kamay nya nakapatong nalang sa may pintuan din sa pagitan ng ulo ko."Pasensya na ah, ang sikip talaga eh." bulong nya sakin. Hindi ko sya masisisi,sobrang sikip talaga na halos hindi ka na makagalaw.Nakatingin sya sa ibang direksyon kaya naman libreng libre akong pagmasdan angmukha nya ng sobrang lapit. Narinig ko pa syang bumulong sa sarili nya, "Anginit."Tumatagagtak na nga ang pawis nya sa init pero kahit ganun, hindi ko naaamoyang pawis nya. Hindi sya amoy pawis, infact amoy na amoy ko pa nga ang mabangonyang pabango. Bagay rin sa kanya ang pawisang itsura, lalong dumadagdag sapagkamasculine nya.Pero nabigla na lang ako ng mahuli nya akong nakatingin sa kanya, ngumiti langsya at dahil sa hiya ko eh nginitian ko lang din sya pabalik at yumuko na, ewanko kung pagkatapos nun ay inalis nya na ang tingin nya sakin. Sobrang lakas ngdibdib ko at sa sobrang lapit namin sa isat isa, ewan ko kung naririnig nyaito. Pero sa tingin ko hindi din naman, kasi maingay ang train... Mas maingayang train sa tibok ng puso ko kaya malabong marinig nya yun.Nung nagstop ang tren sa first stop nito at nagbukas ang pinto, kamuntik naakong ma-out of balance pero buti na lang nahawakan nya agad ako sa likod athinila pabalik sa loob."Kamuntik ka na dun ah," alam ko ginawa nya yun para tulungan ako at hindimalaglag pero kung titignan mo yung situation, parang niyakap nya ako wheninfact eh hinila nya lang talaga ako pabalik."Oo nga eh, thank you ah." nahihiya kong sabi."Wala yun, move a little bit here," binitawan nya na ako at tinuro nya ako saisang maliit pero safe na space sa may likod nya, medyo nabawasan na kasi angmga tao dahil nagbabaan na yung iba so meron ng space kahit konti paramagalawan."Ah sige, thank you." pumunta ako sa space na tinuro nya. Nginitian nya lang akoat nginitian ko lang din sya pero inalis ko din agad ang tingin ko dahil sobrangnahihiya ako at ang lakas talaga ng kabog ng dibdib ko. Pagkatapos nun, wala naulit. Tahimik na ulit.Hanggang sa umalis na sya at nagwave sakin. Una kasi syang bumababa sakin.Nagpatuloy nanaman yung ganung routine namin, na mag-ha-hi at magngi-ngitianlang at pagkatapos wala ng imikan. Hanggang dun lang lagi kami.Bawat araw na dumadaan, talagang lumalaki ang nararamdaman ko sa kanya kayanaman isang araw napagdesisyunan kong magtapat sa kanya.
  3. 3. "Hi!" dumating na sya."Hi!" bumati din ako sa kanya at yumuko na ulit. Sa gilid ng mata ko nakita kongumupo na sya sa tabi ko. Nakayuko lang ako nun at sobrang nagiipon ng lakas parasabihin sa kanya ang nararamdaman ko.Hinigpitan ko ang fist ko at ibinulong pero sa isang bulong na sigurado kongmaririnig ng sinumang nasa tabi ko, "I like you."Nagintay ako ng reaction nya at narinig kong sinabi nya, "Ha? May sinabi ka ba?"Pagtingin ko sa kanya, nadisappoint ako kasi nakita kong tinatanggal nya yungheadset nya. Alam ko may narinig sya kaya nagtanong sya pero siguro hindi nyanarinig ng ayos since nakikinig sya kanina ng music.Ngumiti lang ako sa kanya kahit sa loob loob ko ay disappointed ako, "Ah wala,kausap ko sarili ko.""Ah ganun ba," ngumiti lang din sya at ibinalik sa tenga nya yung headset nya.Yumuko na lang ulit ako.Ayaw ko ng ulitin pa yung mga salitang yun, baka kasi hindi nya nanaman marinig.Sobrang dami ng lakas ng loob na inipon ko ang nasayang lang. Pero ayaw kongsumuko... ayaw kong hindi nya malaman ang nararamdaman ko. Ayaw kong ikimkimlang tong nararamdaman ko.Kaya naman napagdesisyunan kong gumawa ng sulat sa kanya. Isang sulat nanaglalaman ng nararamdaman ko sa kanya at kung papaano ko syang pinagmamasdannoon ng patago sa umaga at pauwi sa may tren."Hi!" ito na ulit sya at kumaway sakin."Hello." at ito nanaman ulit akong sumasagot sa kanyang bati. Katulad ngnakagawian, umupo sya sa tabi ko at nakita ko ang pagkakataon ng pagaabot ngsulat ko sa kanya. May dala kasi syang isang libro sa kamay at sa pagupo nya aypinatong nya ito sa kanan nya kung saan ay sa kaliwa ko naman. Habang nakatinginsya sa malayo at nakikinig ng musika, pasimple kong isiningit sa libro nya angsulat ko. Kinakabahan pa nga ako nun kasi baka mahuli nya ako pero nagtagumpaynaman ako."Ayan na ang tren," narinig kong sabi nya habang tumayo sya at hinawakan yunglibro pero sa pagkuha nya ng libro nalaglag yung sulat ko at nagdiretso ito sailalim ng riles ng tren, napansin nya ito, "Hala may nalaglag na papel kaso nasailalim ng riles! Ano kayang papel yun? Hala, hindi naman siguro importante yunmabuti pang hayaan ko na lang yun."Tumayo na din ako sa upuan ko, nakita ng dalwang mata ko kung papaano nalaglagang sulat ko sa libro nya at kung paano ito dinala ng hangin sa ilalim ngtren,sa may riles, "Ah, hindi nga yun importante, wag mo na lang kunin."Napalingon sya sakin ng may pagtataka pero nilagpasan ko lang sya at pumasok naako sa loob ng tren, sumunod din naman sya pagkatapos. Umiyak ako paguwi ko nun,sobrang disappointed talaga ako sa kinahinatnan ng sulat ko sa kanya. Ayaw batalaga ng tadhana na malaman nya ang nararamdaman ko?Pagkatapos nung incident na yun, 2weeks ko rin syang hindi nakita. Hindi ko alamkung bakit, kung anu ano na nga ang pumasok sa isip ko.
  4. 4. Mga pumasok sa isip ko:A. Nagkokotse na syaB. Nagkasakit syaC. Drop out na syaD. Nagbago schedule ng class nyaE. Wala syang pamasaheF. Nagpalit na sya ng schoolG. Namatay na syaMakiki-erase nung letter G. Ayaw ko nun. Nakakainis kasi eh, ni hindi ko alamname nya ni wala akong contacts nya. 2weeks akong walang balita sa kanya. Minsantuloy nawawalan na ako ng ganang gumising sa umaga, kasi sya yung motivation kosa tuwing papasok ako sa umaga at sasakay ng train. Yung paghapon naman, nungnawala sya, dun ko lang narealize kung gaano pala kahaba ang pagiintay ko... dunko lang narealize kung gaano pala katagal magintay ng 20minutes. Nung andun kasisya, parang ang bilis lang ng oras.Namimiss ko sya. Akala ko talaga hinding hindi ko na sya makikita pero nungnagiintay na ako ng train pauwi at biglang may nag-hi sakin, sobrang bumilis angtibok ng puso ko."Hi!" hindi ako nagkakamali, boses nya yun. Lumingon agad ako sa kanya paramaconfirm ang mga ngiti nya.Nginitian ko din sya, "Hello!"Umupo sya sa tabi ko, "Long time no see."Natutuwa ako dahil nakita ko ulit sya at kinakausap nya ako ngayon."Oo nga eh...""Nagkasakit kasi ako nung isang isang linggo tapos nung isa pang linggo, nagcampako sa malayong city kaya hindi na ako nakakasakay dito sa tren.""Ah ganun ba." yun lang yung nasabi ko kahit ang totoo andami kong gustongitanong sa kanya at gusto ko pa syang makausap ng mas mahaba.Pero inaatake kasi ako ng hiya eh pero sa totoo lang, natutuwa ako at nagkwentosya sakin kahit hindi kami close. Iniisip ko tuloy na ang pagkikita namin palagisa tren ay hindi lang parte ng buhay ko kundi parte na rin ng buhay nya. Umaasaakong ganun nga.Lumakas ang loob ko sa isipang yun kaya naman humarap ako sa kanya, "Ano!"Lumingin sya sakin nung nagsalita ako, pumikit ako at sinabi sa kanya angnararamdaman ko, "I like you!"*TUUUUUUUUUUN!*"Ha?" hindi nya narinig yung sinabi ko kasi sabay sa pagsalita ko ng mgakatagang yun ay dumating na ang tren at sa tuwing dumadating ang tren, gumagawaito ng malakas na ingay... Bakit ganun? Bakit sa tuwing may sasabihin akopinipigilan ako ng tren?"Ah wala. Sabi ko ayan na yung tren, tara na.""Ah ganun ba." ngumiti sya at tumayo na para lumapit sa may riles. Ako tumayona rin ako pero nanatili ako malapit sa bench at hindi ako naglakad papalapit sariles ng tren, nadidisappoint kasi ako kaya ayaw kong gumalaw.
  5. 5. Napansin nya ata akong hindi gumagalaw kaya lumingon sya sakin, "Uy, ito na yungtren. Hindi ka ba sasakay?"Habang nakayuko ay umiling lang ako."Ganun ba..." sumakay na sya dun sa loob, tumingala ako, nakita kong nasa maytapat sya ng pinto since puno na sa loob, bukas pa yung pinto ng tren,nakatingin lang sya sakin nun ng may pagtataka.Naisip ko na hahayaan ko na lang bang pigilan ng tren ang nararamdaman ko? Kayanaman lumapit ako, nilagay ko ang mga kamay ko sa paligid ng bibig ko atsumigaw, "GUSTO KITA!"Pero sabay sa pagsigaw ko, nagsarado yung pinto at umandar na yung tren. Alam kohindi nya narinig kasi nakita kong nagtaka lang yung expression nya na para bangnagtatanong, anong sinabi mo?Kahit gaano kalakas yung sigaw ko, mas malakas pa rin ang ingay ng tren atidagdag mo pang pag nakasara ang pinto, hindi mo na maririnig ang nasa labas.Ayaw talaga. Hindi talaga. Tama na talaga. Hindi sumasang-ayon ang tren sanararamdaman ko at kaya naman simula nun, hindi ko na sinubukan pang magtapatmuli. Pero yung desisyon kong yun na hindi na talaga ulit magtapat aypinagsisisihan ko hanggang ngayon kasi kung hindi ako nagpatalo sa pagpipigil ngtren at patuloy sana akong nagtapat sa kanya kahit anumang sagabal ang pumigilsakin edi sana bago sya nawala... narinig nya man lang kahit isang beses angnararamdaman ko. Kahit isang beses lang... pero huli na eh...March nun... papasok pa lang ako nun at katulad ng dati, andun din sya.Nagngingitian lang kami at patago ko lang syang pinagmamasdan. Wala na talagaakong balak magconfess sa kanya nun dahil pinanghinaan na ako ng loob. Akala koordinary day lang yun, yung alam mo bang... papasok ka sa school, makikita kosya, makikita ko yung mga classmates ko, magsasabi ako ng "present" pag tinawagako sa rollcall, yung hindi ako makakasagot sa recitation tapos mabibigla akosa isang surprise quiz... yung mga ganun. Akala ko talaga ganun yung mangyayarisa araw na yun... Pero hindi, hindi yun yung nangyari... Nangyari ang isangbagay na hindi ko inaasahan sa buong buhay ko, isang pangyayaring nakakatakot...Nasa subway pa nun yung train ng biglang nagkaroon ng malakas na pag-alog atmaririnig mo ang isang malakas na SCREEECH at pagkatapos tumigil ng biglaan yungtrain with a very strong impact kaya naman napasubsob kaming halos lahat sasahig ng tren, namatay ang ilaw. Dahil sa malakas na pag-alog bago tumigil angtren, may mga salamin na nabasag at dahil dun may mga nasugatan. May mga batorin na pumasok sa loob ng tren at maraming natamaan. Yung iba nauntog sa kungsaan, basta maraming nasugatan at hindi ko alam kung yung iba buhay pa.Masyadong madilim at maririnig mo ang maraming iyak at humihingi ng tulong, akowalang nangyari sakin kundi nauntog lang ako sa may semento ng tren, yun langyung pinagpapasalamat ko pero nung binuksan ko yung cellphone ko paramagkaliwanag, nakita ko kung anong nangyari sa mga tao sa loob ng tren. Sobrangnakakatakot, puro dugo, puro sugatan. At sa tingin ko merong mga patay.Pinanindigan ako ng balahibo.May isa akong taong unang hinanap... at yun ay sya.
  6. 6. Pero nagimbal ako nung makita ko sya. Nakahiga sya dun sa may semento, sugatanat duguan. Nilapitan ko kaagad sya."A-ayos ka lang ba?" hinawakan ko ng marahan ang balikat nya para matapik sya.Binuksan nya yung mga mata nya, "A-ansakit."Hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko, kitang kita ko kung paano nadamage ang katawan nyakaya sa taranta ko, sumigaw ako, "Tulong! Tulong!"Pero walang nakakarinig sakin, walang sumasagot sa tulong ko. Kinuha ko yungcellphone ko pero walang signal. Hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko."M-mamatay na a-ata ako." narinig ko yung sinabi nya.Napaiyak ako at sinigawan sya, "Ano ba sinasabi mo?!! Wag ka ngang ganyan!Hahanap ako ng tulong, wag kang mamamatay!"Tumayo na ako nun para sana maghanap sa ibang part ng tren pero bigla nya akonghinawakan sa kamay, naramdaman ko pa nga ang dugo nya sa balat ko, "D-dito kalang."Lumingon ako sa kanya, "Pero kelangan kong humanap ng tulong. Hindi pedengpagmasdan lang kitang nakahiga dyan at nauubusan ng dugo!""W-wag kang umalis." hindi ko na talaga alam ang gagawin ko, napaluhod na langako sa tabi nya at umiyak."Please, wag kang mamamatay. Please.""K-kung sakali man," napatingin ako sa kanya, may inaabot sya bulsa nya, "B-basahin mo sana to."May inabot sya saking sulat, pinagmasdan ko lang sya ng may pagtataka peroinabot ko din ito."A-ano to?""M-matagal tagal ko na rin g-gustong ibigay yan s-sayo...a-aray!" natarantananaman ako ng marinig kong umaray sya."Saan ang masakit? Anong pede kong gawin?" sobrang nagaalala ako kasi sobrangdami na ng dugong nawawala sa kanya tapos umuubo ubo na sya."S-sana basahin mo..." pagkatapos nun, pumikit sya.Natakot ako sa pagpikit nyang ginawang yun kaya tinapik ko ulit sya ng mahina sabalikat, "H-huy! Wag kang pumikit!"Pero hindi sya namulat, hinawakan yung balikan nya at niyugyog sya, "Uy! Mumulatka naman oh!"Wala pa rin nasagot, iyak na iyak na ako dahil alam ko na kung bakit syapumikit."Uy! Mumulat ka please! Wag kang ganyan! Sino na lang babati sakin sa tuwingsasakay ako ng tren? Sino na lang makakatabi ko sa bench habang nagiintay sapagdating ng tren? Huy! Mumulat ka naman oh! Parang awa mo na... Dont leaveme... Wake up... please oh... please.." nakabaon na yung mukha ko sa chest nyahabang tuloy tuloy sa pagtulo ang mga luha ko, "Alam mo ba, I wasnt actuallywaiting for the train... I was actually waiting for you... Kung hindi kamumulat, sino na lang iintayin ko sa umaga at sa hapon? Magmulat ka naman oh...Alam mo bang mahal na kita? Mahal kita. Mahal na mahal kita."Pero sa nakapatong kong ulo sa dibdib nya, wala akong marinig na tibok ngpuso.... Hindi na sya mumulat. He already arrived at his final destination, he
  7. 7. wont be waiting for the train anymore. Wala na akong kasabay... magisa na langakong magiintay sa tren. Ni hindi nya man lang narinig yung nararamdaman ko...Hindi ko na matandaan kung anong oras dumating ang mga rescuers non basta angnatatandaan ko na lang ang kung gaano kasakit yung mawala sya. Mga nasa higit 10ang namatay at maraming sugatan, lahat kaming sugatan ay dinala sa ospital.Napagalaman na lang na nagkaroon daw pala ng problema sa isang part ng tren kayanawalan ito ng control at nagcrash sa kabilang area. Buti na lang daw talaganabalitaan agad yung pagcrash nito kundi baka hindi nawarningan yung kabilangtren at kung hindi yung nawarningan, baka sila madamay sa insidente.Nung nasa ospital na ako at halos hindi na kayang umiyak ng mga mata ko, kinuhako sa bulsa ko yung sulat na inabot nya, may mga dugo nya pa ito.."DEAR Train Girl,Pasensya na kung train girl ang tawag ko sayo ah, hanggang ngayon kasi hindi kopa rin alam ang pangalan mo eh. Wala kasi akong sapat na lakas ng loob eh.Hanggang hi at hello lang ang kaya kong gawin. Nakakatorpe kasi eh. Pero alam moba, noon pa lang pinagmamasdan na kita, ang cute mo kasi eh. Natuwa nga ako nungmalaglag yung panyo mo, dun ako nakakita ng chance para mapansin mo. Nakita kitaumupo ka nun sa bench, lumapit ako at nagpasimple pero nakakainis nga, yun nayung chance ko pero hindi ko man lang natanong ang pangalan mo. Napipi kasi akoeh. Pag nasa harap na kasi kita, hanggang hi at hello lang ang kaya kong gawin.Sinubukan ko na ring magtapat sayo ng ilang beses pero lagi akong nasablay,isang beses gusto ko sanang maglagay ng letter sa bag mo nung kasagsagan ngkasikipan sa train. Katabi kita nun at pasimple kong ilalagay sana yung letterko sa bag mo kaso dahil sa pagandar ng train at naitulak ng isang ale ang kamayko, sa ibang bag ko naishoot yung letter ko. Hindi ko na nagawang mabawi yun dunsa mayari ng bag kasi baka iba isipin nun sakin.Minsan naman, nagpapasimple ako sa pagtatapat... Sa tuwing nakaupo tayo sa benchat nagiintay sa train, naglalagay ako ng headset sa tenga ko at nakikinig ngmusika, pinipili ko yung isang musika na sumasakto sa nararamdaman ko sayo atkinakanta ko yung ng malakas, yung lakas na sapat lang na maririnig mo. Hindi koalam kung napapansin mo yun pero siguro iniisip mo lang na normal na nakantalang ako magisa pero ang totoo talaga, sa mga panahong naririnig mo akongkumakanta habang nagiintay ng train, lahat yung dinededicate sayo ng torpe kongpuso.Sinubukan ko pa ulit sanang magtapat sayo nun kaso nung pagkasabi ko ng mgakatagang gusto kita at paglingon ko sayo, nakita ko tulog ka na pala.Hinalikan pa nga kita sa pisngi nun, wag ka sanang magagalit. Ang ganda mo kasinung natutulog ka hindi ko na napigilan ang sarili ko. Ginising na nga lang kitanung dumating na yung tren eh.Naulit ulit yun, nung nasa loob na tayo ng tren. Magkatabi tayong nakaupo nun,sinasabi ko ulit sayo yung nararamdaman ko habang nakatingin ako sa kisame dahilnahihiya nga ako pero natigil na lang ako sa pagsasalita ng maramdaman kongbumagsak ang ulo mo sa balikat ko, dun ko lang napagtanto na tulog ka pala. Lagimo na lang akong tinutulugan sa tuwing nagtatapat ako.Nawala ako ng 2linggo since nagkasakit ako at nagkaroon ako ng camping. Dun konaramdaman kung gaano kita gustong makita, sobrang namiss kita. Nasanay na kasiakong nakikita ka palagi at nagha-hi sayo. Yun bang, marinig ko lang ang "hello"mo at ngingitian mo ako, kumpleto na yung araw ko. Kaya naman napagdesisyunankong sumulat ulit sayo pero this time sisiguraduhin kong ibibigay ko ito sayopagkita natin sa bench.
  8. 8. Alam mo kasi, sa tingin ko mahal na ata kita. Ok lang kung hindi ganun angnararamdaman mo sakin, basta sana pagkabasa mo nito ngingitian mo pa rin akobukas at maghehello ka pa rin. Sana magpatuloy itong routine natin, masaya akosa ganto.Sige, magkita na lang ulit tayo bukas. :)- Train Guy"Sige, magkita na lang ulit tayo bukas.Naiyak ako pagkabasa ko nung mga huling kataga. Magkita na lang ulit tayo bukas?Hindi na... hindi na tayo magkikita... Hindi tayo umabot sa bukas.Kahit 5taon na nakalipas, hindi ko pa rin sya nakakalimutan. Naaalala ko pa rinyung sulat nya, at sa tuwing nagiintay ako sa bench na yun na lagi namingpinagaantayan, umiiyak ako minsan dahil umaasa akong maririnig ko ulit yun "hi"nya tapos uupo sya sa tabi ko. Pero malabo na talaga yun... malabo na. Wala nasya eh.Isang beses nga, nakita ko dun sa bench ang isang vandal na sadyang nagpaiyak pasakin ng sobra...Train guy: "hi!"Train girl: "Hello!"<3Isang dialogue yung vandal dun at may puso sa dulo. Matagal na sigurongnakasulat dun yun kasi medyo nagfe-fade na yung kulay ng pentelpen napinangsulat dun. Medyo blurred na nga yung sulat eh. Antagal na talaga siguronito pero ngayon ko lang talaga napansin, lagi kasi akong nakayuko sa tuwingkatabi ko sya dito sa bench kaya ni minsan hindi ko napansin tong vandal nato.Alam ko naman sya lang nagsulat nito.*TUUUUUN! TUUUUN!*Ayan na pala ang tren, sasakay na ako.----Dictionary.comSearch: TrafficResults:traf“ficnoun, verb, -ficked, -fick“ing.1. the movement of vehicles, ships, persons, etc., in an area,along a street,
  9. 9. throughan air lane, over a water route, etc.2. mutual exchange or communicationTraffic? Yes, I hate traffics... its annoying, boring, annoying and boring.Specially at noon time wherein the sun strikes at the highest level that itslike youll be roasted in no time, traffics are such nuisance. Well, I did likethe traffic once.That was a week ago when my family and I were on our way home to Manila after aweek vacation in our province. Our movement was very slow coz of the traffic. Iwas really bored, I tried to sleep but I wasnt able to since the heat waskilling me eventhough its already airconditioned inside the car, the ray of thesun was just so unbearable. The radio of the car was playing some ugly songs soI searched for my iphone and stuck my earphones to their places and selected abunch of good songs in it to listen to. When I was already comfortable to thesong I was listening to, I leaned my head to the window of the car and gazedoutside. Beside us was a white car and their windows are not tinted like oursand because of that, I was able to see a guy at the backseat of that car... Hehas black messy hair and the rest I cant describe since he was wearing a blackshades but the thing is, he had his hands leaned on the window and I dont knowif he was looking at me or in our car or to my mom or to my dad or to whoeversince like what Ive told you before, he was wearing black shades.Because I thought he was cute, I gazed at him longer than I should had and to mysurprise he stopped leaning on the window and turned his back which seemed likehe was getting something from the other side. I thought that maybe he wasgetting something to eat from the backpack beside him.After some minutes, he turned to me and he was already holding a notebook andthere was something written there, I read it..."WHAT ARE YOU STARING AT?"Of course I was shocked after reading it. I just raised an eyebrow to him, heagain turned his back to me and I thought that he was starting to writesomething again. When he was finished, he showed me again the notebook..."AM I THAT HANDSOME?"I swear, I choked after reading that, I turned my back to him and searched fora notebook in my bag like what he also did. I scribbled something and showed itto him,"IN YOUR FACE."He replied, "YES, MY FACE IS HANDSOME."I scribbled again, "THE NERVE, YOU LOOK LIKE A BEE IN YOUR SHADES. BZZZZ. BZZZ."He laughed and started to write again something, "YOU LOOK LIKE A RETARDED EMOWITH EARPHONES STUCK IN YOUR EARS. I BET YOURE DREAMING A MUSIC VID WHILELEANING AT THE WINDOW BEFORE!"I retorted, "YOURE THE ONE WHOS RETARTED."He actually laughed after that and wrote something again but this time it wasntan insult, "Are you annoyed? Sorry, I just dont have anything to do."
  10. 10. I wrote back, "A bit but nah, its not important."He smiled, "Can we be friends?""Sure." since I thought theres nothing bad to be friends with someone whilewaiting for the traffic to make some movements."TY. Where are you going right now?"I thought it was really weird not to ask for someones name first but then Ialso thought that its ok not to tell each others name since were stillstrangers in the road and its safe to keep the identity,"Im heading back toManila.""Me too. Where in Manila dyou live?""In Ortigas. You?""Pasay. Where dyou study?""In La Salle, you?""Same here.""Really?! Then were schoolmates!" I dont know, I actually thought that theworld was that small coz I actually talked to a schoolmate in the middle of atraffic."Yes, infact I have the feeling that I saw you before.""Really? Where?""Wait. Lemme think." he actually thinked after that message since he stoppedfrom writing. After some minutes he wrote something again, "I know! Youre thatgirl from accounting!""Hey how did you know? Awesome." I was really getting amused by our notebookchat."Well you see, I like someone from your class and because of that I always looksecretly in your class to have a glance of the girl I like. And sometimes, I seeyou there.""Woah! You like someone in my class? Who? Who?""Err... Its a secret.""Cmon, its not like Im gonna tell it to everyone.""Well... Lets play a guessing game, Ill describe her and you take a guess." heeven wrote a smiley."Sure!" a moment there, I felt an excitement. Little by little, my boredom andirritation was swifting away."Shes a girl.""Obvious." I even gave him the "are-you-kidding-me" face.He laughed while writing, "She has 2 eyes, 1 nose, 2 ears.""Sure, shes not a three-dimensional living creature that eats human poops." Idrew an annoyed smiley."Just kidding. Well, she has long black hair...""About what length?""Shoulder length."I tried thinking who has a shoulder length black hair in our class and the ffcame up in my mind: Shay, Kaye, Anne, Laila, Marie, Cony and well, me... Oops, Ishould exclude myself. Hahaha!"Ok, next clue?""Shes tall." I tried deleting the short girls in my lists before which means,Shay&Anne are out of the list."And then?""Shes not good in math." well, that sounded like a bit insulting. Well, Ieliminated Laila in the list since shes a math geek.
  11. 11. "Next.""Shes sporty." Kaye has asthma so shes out."A little more and I think Im getting it." theres only mary, cony and well...uhh... me? Well, Im excluded! hahaha!"She sings." well they both sing so I did not have a chance to elimate someone."Ok, then? What else?""She loves reading manga..." Im pretty sure that Mary is not an otaku whichmeans..."ITS CONY! CONY MENDEZ!" I smiled as if I won a quizbee. I looked ridiculous.He shook his head while smiling which actually got me confused so I wrote tohim,"It must be Cony? She has black shoulder length hair, shes tall, shes not goodin math coz she often gets average scores in the tests, she always flunk in itand then shes a volleyball player, she also joins singing contests, I evencompeted to her once though shes so good that it was hard to beat her, and shetotally love manga, infact shes the one whom I talk to with my manga craze. "He replied, "No."I was really confused so I wrote, "Then who is it?"By then, the traffic was making a progress but we still can see each other so Iwaited for his response..."Dont you have black shoulder length hair?" I gave him a WHAT look.He wrote again, "Youre 53 right? Thats tall, well for a girl."I wrote back this time, "Err... how did you know how tall I am?""Last exam, you had 72 in your math exam.""Woah. How did you know? Did you see it in the schools trashcan? Gosh. I shouldhave torn it first, atleast that way no one will see my name in the paper."He laughed and wrote again, "You play tennis. You sing and you like manga."I felt goosebumps all of a sudden."Hi Urie, I like you." when he showed me what he wrote in his notebook, theircar started to move fast because the traffic was making a big progress on theirside. I watched him as their car move slowly away from ours until I did not seehim anymore.And eventhough a week has already passed, I still cant help myself but to thinkof that guy in the traffic road. Everytime I passby in our corridors, I make
  12. 12. sure to look around hoping to atleast see and recognize him but I always fail.Was he really serious? Well, he knew me... he knew my name, my hobbies ang somethings about me. After that confession, why isnt he showing his self?*BUMP*Because I am thinking too much I did not notice the guy in front of me thereforeI bumped into him and fell on the floor, my books are in a mess."Oh, sorry." we both said at the same time."Are you okay?" he stretches out his hand and as I look at him, he is smilingand all of a sudden, I felt something familiar.I took his hand and stood up, "Thanks."He picks my books and handed it to me, "Nothing. Take care, bye."He went off. I am a little bit uneasy and I dont know why. I went to my classafterwards and place my books on my table."Ok class, open your books to page 76."I open my book and to my surprise, a paper flew out of the pages of the book. Ipick it up on the floor and saw a note,-----------------------------------Hi Urie. I really like you, you know. Can you meet me at the rooftop after yourclass?-----------------------------------Without any hesitations, I went to the rooftop after my class to hear hisconfession. We had a traffic of kept feelings. Not all traffics are annoying,sometimes its sweet. <3"Ill be going." when he said that, he actually meant it.5yrs I go, I missed the bus and I met a guy..."Oh gosh, Ill be late for my bus." I was running like it was a matter and deathsituation when infact, I was only running for the bus. It was already 4.38pm andmy bus was to arrive 2minutes after, at 4.40pm. I knew I wouldnt make it but Itried and run for my life, I mean bus."Huff! Huff!" when I arrived the bus stop I was already running out of breathand I had my hands on my knees."It just left." I was a bit surprised when someone talked, I raised my head and
  13. 13. saw a guy sitting on the bench of the shed, he was reading a book."Ah." I was a bit disappointed, I went to the same bench and sat at the otherend, "Did you missed the bus too?"He raised his head and smiled at me, "Sort of."After that, he continued reading and I kept silent. I think the silence lastedfor about 5minutes or so, if you think I was the one who broke the silence thenyoure wrong, it was him..."I guess well need to wait for another half hour, right? Its really boring towait for the bus." the bus always comes every 30minutes."Ah, yeah... right. Its really boring." I kicked the floor and some scatteredrocks on it, "What are you reading?""This?" he raised the book, "Its Now or Never by Have You Seen This Girl.""Huh? Whats that about? And what a weird screen name for an author." I feltthat the atmosphere was a bit becoming friendly. The guy seemed nice and he ISreally nice."The authors actually weird but the story is really cool. Its a love story butstill a guy like me is enjoying reading such story. I can feel through it." hebrushed his hair with complexed expression."Really? What is it about?""Its about a guy who fell inlove with a girl from afar and he never had thecourage to confess it to her. The title is Now and Never because there is a partwherein the guy has to decide if he should confess it or not in that day becauseif he does not confess that day, there wouldnt be any chance for his feelingsto be heard.""Uhh... Why so?" suddenly I became curious with the storys plot and I had theurge to actually borrow it from him because Im actually a fan of lovestories."Who knows...""Huh?""Ive not reached the ending yet so I dont know... haha!""Ahh... But you said before that you can feel through it, is it because yourethe same with the guy protagonist?"He looked at me as if I hit the jackpot and then he looked away, "Yeah... Iactually like a girl but she doesnt know what I feel.""Oh, but why dont you confess it?""I dont have the guts.""Oh cmon.""Really," he sounded troubled, "Im really afraid.""Of what?""That she might reject me... She doesnt even know me & I dont even know ifshes got a boyfriend...""If you like someone youll have the courage to take the risks. If I were you,Ill confess right away.""Dyou think she will like me too? Do I look awful or what? Am I ugly? Or am Itoo stereotypical? If you approve of me, Ill confess my feelings to that girlright away."I dont even know why we had such topic, we were merely strangers but I feltlike I wanted to help him so I patted his shoulder, "What are you saying! Youregoodlooking and Im pretty sure that that girl will accept you! Just havecourage! If you dont confess your feelings, shell never know and are youcontented like that? Youll live your life with what ifs if you dont let herknow."
  14. 14. He looked convinced with my words that he nodded, "Youre right, Ill confessright away."He searched something in his pocket and pulled out his phone and dialed anumber. I waited in silence as he waited for the other line to respon, he kepton tapping his fingers on the bench. The only thing I was unsure of was he kepton looking at me all the time he was waiting for the other line to respond.After some minutes, he placed back the phone inside his pocket."So?" I asked, a bit worried."I dont know, no one answered the phone.""Are you sure you dialled her number?""Yes, Im pretty sure. I asked a friend of hers for her number.""Maybe shes busy right now, why dont you try it later?""I will."Another 5minutes of silenced followed after that."How about you, dyou like someone?""Hmm... Nah..." I actually did not have someone to like before."Why?""I dunno, maybe Ive not found a guy to like yet. Well, Im not really in ahurry so Im not troubled with it.""Oh, but what is your ideal guy?""Someone... uhh..." I tried thinking for a minute, "Umm... A guy who has blackhair with blonde highlights... umm...""Isnt that a bit foreign-ish?""Haha! But I think its cute! I also like guys who have a piercing in the ear!Then, then! I also like a guy with blue eyes! Its so hot! Oh, please add hotfigure!""Youre ideal guy is non existent." he had this weird expression after hecommented and because of that I actually laughed hard."Dont be so mean! I mean.. atleast the guy should be sincere and loving, Imfine with it.""Ah, its hard.""What is?""Ah nothing," he shook his head, "Its arriving.""What is?" I saw him looked at his wristwatch."The bus."I stood up and looked if the bus was actually arriving but I saw the other buswhich goes another way."Huh? Are you gonna take this bus and not the other one?""Nope. Im taking this one.""Oh, I thought well be riding the same bus.""We always do." he said something that I did not hear because the sound of thearriving bus was too loud.
  15. 15. "Well," he stood up, "Ill be going.""Oh, and I thought we could still talk some more, I was actually enjoying.Anyway, you always wait in this shed right? I guess, well be seeing each othertomorrow.""I dont think so." before I could ask him, he already entered the bus and wavedgoodbye to me. From the windows of the bus, I saw him crying... The bus left andI stood there for some minutes confused of what just happened."I dont think so." when he said that and I saw him crying, I did not have asingle idea why.But when I sat back on the bench, I saw the book he was reading."Oh, he forgot." I took it and placed it on my bag, "Maybe I can return it tohim tomorrow."After some minutes, may bus arrived. I went home, changed my clothes, had mydinner and did some stuff.It was 8pm when I decided to check my phone."Oh, where is it?" I had already undone my bag, Ive already scattered all thethings in it on my bed but I still wasnt able to find it. I went to my check mydrawers and I found it inside my studytables drawer. That day, I forgot myphone in my house.When I checked it, I had 5missed calls... All from the same anonymous number,the first call was 4:53 and I already had the feeling that it was the call fromthe shed...I checked my messages after, I ignored all messages except a message from thatanonymous number.From: +63************Message: I never had the courage, I love you. Thank you for today, goodbye.Out of shock, I cried. I sat down in my bed and saw the book he was reading, Itook it and opened it. But I was again surprised by the thing I saw in thebook...It was a handwritten book and I had my picture pasted on the first page with thecaption, "And this is all about my feelings for her."I started reading it, I could not believe everything that was written there."I dont even know if she had ever noticed me or if she knows that I go with thesame bus with her. I never seat and wait in the waiting shed because I wasafraid to get near her or she might hear my noisy heartbeat. I always make sureI seat at the back of her so I can smell her fragrance and hear her voiceeverytime she speaks with her friend or with her family on the phone. I felt abit of a maniac myself but that was the only thing I can do, to just watch her.I dont have the courage but I do really like her."The book wasnt finished, out of 200pages, it only reached 157.
  16. 16. "I dont even know how things will be... Today, Ill be going to California andstudy there. My flights at 7pm. This is the last day and Ive decided to waitat the shed for the first time, I do hope shell take the bus today. If shedoes, I might confess my feelings to her... But I dont really know if I couldconfess, in the end Im a big coward. Maybe if I fail to confess to her, atleastIll try to have a small chitchat with her... I want to have a memory with hereven for a second. Argh, Im really troubled. Its now or never..."After finishing the book, I looked at the clock... 8.57pm.His flight was 7pm, he already left.Even 5yrs had already passed, I still cant forget that guy whom I dont evenknow the name. Everytime I wait for the bus, the memory I first&last talked tohim plays. It must be weird to say, but that day I actually fell inlove... lovefor me went in fast and the one I love went away fast.Im now working as a writer in a publishing company, he had been my inspirationwith my love stories. I even made him as one of my characters and a lot of myreaders actually liked his character. I always hoped that one day Ill see himagain waiting for the bus in that same bench."Oh gosh! Ill be late for my bus!" I am running for my life, nah kidding, I amrunning for the bus. I only have 2minutes until the bus arrives. Like always, Iknew its impossible to catch up for the bus having only 2minutes but I alwayshave my hopes in me so Im trying my best to run."Huff! Huff!" as soon as I reached the bus stop, I have sweats falling and Imrunning out of breath. I placed my hands on my knees and trying to inhale andexhale properly."It just left." Hearing the same voice and remembering the same scene, I feltlike I am having a dejavu. I lifted my head to see who it is but I feltdisappointment as soon as I saw his hair and ear. I cant see his face coz itis covered with a book. But Im 100% sure that its not him, as far as Iremember hes not as muscular as this guy in front of me and he doesnt haveblonde highlights and a double piercing on the right ear."Ah, okay." I said disappointed and sat at the other end of the bench."I like your book." I am surprised when he spoke but he still has the bookcovered in his face. Just then, I saw what hes reading... its my story, "Nowand Never"."Ah, really? Thanks. How did you know Im the author?""Coz youre famous. Your work was even made into a film." right, it wasactually filmed and was even adopted into a korean & american film. That book isa great hit, I think its because I wrote it with my heart."But youre not original." I am taken aback when he said that."Excuse me?"
  17. 17. "I thought Now & Never was written by Have You Seen This Girl?"Before, I have understood why that guy had a screen name of Have You Seen ThisGirL, it was because he was referring to me... he was always looking for me fromafar... I have always been touched with the idea, I always read the book untilnow and it never fails to warm my heart."Copycat." he takes off the book away from his face and I think I amimagining...Its not him, he doesnt even have blue eyes... but it looks like him...."You said your ideal guy is someone who has hot body and a blonde-highlightedhair with piercings on the ear and also with blue eyes. I did it all though Ihad to put contacts for the eyes, Im not foreign." he scratches the back of hisneck as he smiles awkwardly, "I have the courage now."THE END.She waited for the train,she waited for the bus,she waited for the traffic,and now Haveyouseenthisgirl one shot "WAITING" stories,And this love waits presents..."Waiting in Vain"written by Denny R. (haveyouseenthisgirl)Yung mahal mo may mahal na iba. Clichè?Ganun naman ata ang motto dito sa earth eh,"MAHAL MO, IBA MAHAL."Worst plot ever ang mahalin mo ang taong hindi ka mahal. Ay ano ba yan, paulitulit na ako na iba ang mahal ng taong mahal ko. Kasalanan ko ba kung nasasaktanako ng ganto, para na nga akong tanga... tatawa, iiyak, tatawa.Mahal ko bestfriend ko. Tae, clichè nanaman.Oo, sabihin mo ng sira akong plaka pero ang mahal ko ay ang bestfriend konglalaki na may ibang mahal -- yung bestfriend kong babae.Walanjo naman. Nung nagpatama si kupido ng arrow nya, napayuko ako at nagtali ngsintas ng sapatos kaya ang natamaan ng arrow nya ay ang bestfriend kong babae na
  18. 18. lagi kong kasama. Badtrip, bakit hindi na lang ako? Bakit sya? BAKIT?Pero tanggap ko na sana na hindi nya ako mahal, na bestfriend kong babae angmahal nya... tanggap ko na sana pero hindi pala sya mahal ng taong mahal nya.Hindi mo nagets? Ganto yun,YUNG TAONG MAHAL KO MAY IBANG MAHAL AT YUNG MAHAL NYA MAY IBA RIN NA MAHAL.Same kami diba? Sabi ko sa inyo, motto na sa mundo na:"MAHAL MO, IBA MAHAL."Mahirap tanggapin na yung taong minamahal mo, binabasura lang ng iba. At ikaw nanagpapahalaga sa kanya ay binabasura lang din nya. Linchak na pag-ibig yan,nagtatapunan lang ng mga nararamdaman? Ganun ba yun ha?!Pero ang mas masakit, ang bestfriend kong babae pinapaniwalang mahal nya angbestfriend kong lalaki. At ito namang bestfriend kong lalaki na mahal ko,tatanga tanga naniwala naman kay bestfriend na babae. Tinu-two time lang syanito.Sinabi ko ito sa kanya, hindi sya naniwala. Pinagalitan at pinagsabihan ko angbestfriend kong babae, sabi ko sa kanya,"WAG MONG PAGLARUAN ANG NARARAMDAMAN NG MGA TAO, HINDI KA NA BATA PARA MAGLARO."Pero matigas ang bestfriend kong babae, patuloy nya pa ring niloloko angbestfriend kong lalaki. At patuloy na nagpapaloko pa rin ang mahal ko sa taongmahal nya.Ansaklap naman ng kapalaran na ito, bakit ba kasi hindi na lang tayo mahalin ngmga taong mahal natin? Hindi ba para balance? Bakit kelangang may "nanghahabol"at "tumatakbo"?"Tigilan mo na itong katangahan na ito! Hindi ka nya mahal! Niloloko ka langnya, may iba pa syang lalaki! Hindi ka nagiisa! Hindi ka nya sineseryoso!""HINDI MO ALAM MGA PINAGSASASABI MO, WAG MO SYANG SIRAAN!""Hindi ko sya sinisiraan, nagsasabi lang ako ng totoo. Ayokong manloko sya atmanakit ng kapwa ang bestfriend kong babae at ayokong masaktan ang bestfriendkong lalaki. Parehas ko kayong mahal pero ikaw alam mo ba, mahal kita hindi langbilang bestfriend?""WALA AKONG PAKELAM! GET LOST!"
  19. 19. Yun na yun, wala daw syang pakelam sa nararamdaman ko. Get lost daw. Get lost...Kung pede lang ngang mawala na lang ako edi nawala na ako... hindi ko namatagalan ito eh, lalo na nang sya na mismo ang nakakita ng panlolokong ginagawasa kanya ng taong mahal nya."Ano?! Susumbatan mo ako? O sige ikaw ng tama! Tama ka nga niloloko nya ako!Nagmukha akong tanga lang! Sige sumbutan mo ako! Sabihan mo akong tanga!!!"Umiiyak sya nun. niyakap ko sya, "Tama na. Ako yung nasasaktan pag nakikitakitang ganyan."Alam mo yung masakit? Umiiyak sya.Iisa lang ibig sabihin nun, umiiyak sya kasi mahal nya talaga ang bestfriendkong babae. Nasasaktan talaga sya, pruweba ang mga luha nya."Bakit ka kasi nagmamahal ng taong hindi ka naman mahal!!!" sumbat ko sa kanyapero sinusumbat ko rin ito sa sarili ko kasi parehas lang naman kamingnagmamahal sa taong hindi naman kayang suklian ang mga nararamdaman namin."Bakit, bawal ba?" humarap sya sakin, "Bawal bang magmahal ng taong hindi kamahal?!""Hindi bawal," napayuko ako, "Masakit.""Ang gusto ko lang naman mahalin nya ako...""Ang gusto ko lang naman... ako na lang ang mahalin mo." tinitigan nya muna akosandali bago sya muling nakaimik."Hindi kita mahal, sya ang mahal ko."Napangiti na lang ako ng mapait, "Alam ko naman eh. Nagbabaka sakali lang."Yung storya namin ng bestfriend kong lalaki, hindi katulad ng mga love storiesna nababasa sa fictions o napapanuod sa drama series sa tv... hindi eh, hindiako yung leading lady sa storya nya. Hindi kami ang love team. Hindi kami angpara sa isat isa. Kahit anong pilit ko, sa huli... sya at sya pa rin ang mahalnya. Ako? Hanggang kaibigan lang talaga ako. Hanggang dun lang, dead end. Finishline. Wala na. Bawal na akong lumagpas pa dun.
  20. 20. Badtrip, tumutulo nanaman mga luha ko. Tutusukin ko na mga mata ko ee,nakakaasar na. Sinabi ko ng tumigil sa pag-iyak, eto pa rin iyak ng iyak.Kung itatanong nyo kung kamusta na "sya"?Ayun... nagpapakatanga pa rin sa bestfriend kong babae na kahit kelan hindimasuklian ang nararamdaman nya.Ako na lang kasi eh, antanga mo! Gago ka, sabi kong AKO NA LANG EH! Ang tigas ngulo mo, ayaw mo makinig sakin. Kung ako na lang edi sana hindi kanagpapakatanga? Sana hindi rin ako parang tanga?Kung ako na lang... edi sana wala ng iiyak? Wala ng malulungkot? Edi sanaparehas tayong masaya.Asa.Hindi mo naman ako mapapansin, ah mali... hindi mo naman ako pinapansin. :(Hanggang sa lumaki kaming tatlo, nakagraduate, nagkaroon ng mga trabaho...at dumating yung araw na yun...Nagkasakit sa puso ang bestfriend kong babae. Kelangan nya ng heart donor perowalang mahanap na donor...Critical condition na sya.Pero hanggang sa huli, nasa tabi ka pa rin nya at umiiyak.Mahal na mahal mo talaga sya noh?
  21. 21. Buti pa sya.Asar lang talaga kasi hindi ka nya minamahal tulad ng pagmamahal mo.Ganto na lang,kanya na lang ang puso ko...para mahalin ka na rin nya sa wakas.So you wont wait in vain anymore.Para masuklian na rin ang nararamdaman mo, para mahalin ka na rin ng mahal mo.Yung puso ko lang naman ang nagmamahal sayo eh...Ibibigay ko na lang sa kanya para may pakinabang.Nilabas ko yung "donor card" na hiningi ko sa ospital, sinulatan at pinirmahanito.---------------------------------------------------------------------------I wish to donate my organs and tissues. I wish to give:- MY HEARTDonor Signature: XXXXXXDate: September 4, 2011---------------------------------------------------------------------------
  22. 22. Matapos pirmahan, nilagay ko ito sa bulsa ng aking pantalon at tumalon mula sabuilding.Mamahalin ka na nya.---Property of haveyouseenthisgirl.yolasite.com (C) 2011

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