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კლოუნის თვალთახედვა ჰაინრიხ ბიოლი

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კლოუნის თვალთახედვა ჰაინრიხ ბიოლი

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კლოუნის თვალთახედვა ჰაინრიხ ბიოლი

  1. 1. 50 wigni, romelic unda waikiTxo, sanam cocxali xar wigni 30 gamomcemloba palitra L Tbilisi, 2012
  2. 2. UDC (uak) 821.112.2_31 b-692 `50 wigni, romelic unda waikiTxo, sanam cocxali xar~ es proeqti msoflios araerT qveyanaSia popularuli. sxvadasxva gamokiTxvis saSualebiT, mkiTxveli irCevs 50 saukeTeso wigns msoflio literaturis saganZuridan. sa- qarTveloSi `kviris palitris~ am proeqts mravali aTasi adamiani gamoexmaura. swored maTi dadgenilia im rCeuli wignebis nusxa, romelic `palitramediam~ realur biblio- Tekad aqcia. es wigni msoflio literaturis am unikaluri biblioTe- kis nawilia. Originally published in German under the title `Ansichten eines Clowns~ by Heinrich Böll ©1963, 2004 by Verlag Kiepenheuer & Witsch GmbH & Co. KG, Cologne/Germany Targmanze ufleba miRebulia saqarTvelos avtorTa sazogadoebisgan www.sas.ge © gamomcemloba palitra L, 2012 yvela saavtoro ufleba daculia. ISSN 1987-9628 ISBN 978-9941-19-343-9
  3. 3. klounis TvalTaxedva hainrix bioli neli amaSukelis Targmani
  4. 4. 5 anemaris romelTa ar mieTxra misTvis, ixilon da, romelTa ara esma, gulisxma-yon. 1 bonSi rom Camovedi, Ramdeboda. Tavs Zala davatane, rom me- moqmeda im avtomatizmis gareSe, xuTi wlis gauTavebeli mog- zaurobis Sedegad rom gamomimuSavda: baqnidan Cadi kibeze, adi mopirdapire kibeze, Zirs dade samgzavro CanTa, paltos jibi- dan amoiRe samgzavro bileTi, mere isev CanTas daavle xeli, Caabare bileTi kontroliors, wadi gazeTis jixurisaken, iyi- de saRamos gazeTebi, gadi quCaSi da xeliT uxme taqsis. xuTi wlis ganmavlobaSi TiTqmis yoveldRe saidanRac mivemgzavrebi da sadRac Cavdivar. dilaobiT zeviT-qveviT mivuyvebi rkinigzis sadguris kibes, naSuadRevs ki jer qveviT veSvebi, Semdeg zeviT avdivar, xeliT vuxmob taqsis, pijakis jibeSi veZeb mZRolis gasastumrebel fuls, jixurebSi vyidulob saRamos gazeTebs da gulis siRrmeSi vtkbebi _ es ise gamijda Zval-rbilSi, arafers dagidevT. mas Semdeg, rac marim mimatova, raTa im kaTolike ciupfners gahyoloda colad, es procesi kidev ufro meqanikuri gaxda da kvlavac arafers dagidevT. manZils sadguridan sastumromde da sastumrodan sadguramde mxolod erTi ram zomavs _ taq- sis mricxveli. sadguridan mricxveli werda xan or, xan sam, xanac oTx-naxevar markas. magram mas Semdeg, rac mari gamSor- da, es Cveuli ritmi zogjer irRveva xolme _ sastumro da sadguri erTmaneTSi mereva, matareblis bileTs facifuciT ve- Zeb porties daxlTan, baqnis gasasvlelSi gaCerebul kontro- liors ki Cemi oTaxis nomers vekiTxebi. etyoba, raRaca, rasac albaT bedi hqvia, maiZulebs, gavixseno Cemi profesia da isic,
  5. 5. 6 Tu ra Sav dReSi aRmovCndi. klouni gaxlavarT, oficialurad profesionali komikosi msaxiobi mqvia, arc erT eklesias ar vuxdi xarks, var ocdaSvidi wlis da erT-erT Cems nomers `Ca- mosvla da gamgzavreba~ ewodeba. am usaSvelod gaWianurebul pantomimaSi mayurebelma bolo wuTamde ar icis, Camovedi Tu gavemgzavre. am nomers xSirad kidev erTxel vimeoreb matare- belSi (nomeri Sedgeba eqvsasze meti moZraobisagan da mTeli qoreografia sisxlSi unda mqondes gamjdari). amitom, ra ga- sakviria, Tu zogjer sakuTari fantaziis msxverpli vxdebi. Se- vrbivar sastumroSi, TvaliT veZeb matareblis mimosvlis gan- rigs, vpoulob kidec da, imis magivrad, rom Cems oTaxSi avide da warmodgenisaTvis movemzado, avrbivar da Cavrbivar kibeze, raTa matarebels mivuswro. sabednierod, TiTqmis yvela sas- tumroSi micnoben: xuTi wlis ganmavlobaSi garkveuli ritmi gamomimuSavda da variantebic aq gacilebiT naklebia, vidre Tavidan ggonia. garda amisa, Cemi agenti kargad icnobs Cems xa- siaTs da yovelnairad cdilobs, saqmeebi momigvaros. amiT igi pativs scems da xarks uxdis imas, rasac `xelovanis mgrZnobia- re suls~ uwodebs da Cems oTaxSi yovelTvis `kargi ganwyobi- lebis aura~ mxvdeba. lamaz larnakSi yvavilebia da, rogorc ki paltos savarZelze mivagdeb, xolo fexsacmels kuTxisaken movisvri (mZuls fexsacmeli), lamaz mosamsaxure gogos ukve moaqvs CemTvis yava da koniaki da mimzadebs abazanas. mwvane esen- cia wyals surnelebas aniWebs da nervebs mimSvidebs. vwevar abazanaSi, vkiTxulob mxolod araseriozul gazeTebs, eqvss Tu ara, sams mainc da dabal xmaze vRiRineb mxolod litur- giul sagaloblebs, qoralebs, himnebs, sekvenciebs, romlebic skolis merxidan CamrCa mexsierebaSi. Cemi mSoblebi, marTl- morwmune protestantebi omis Semdeg gavrcelebul rjulSe- mwynareblobis modas ahyvnen da kaTolikur saswavlebelSi mi- mabares. piradad me religias zurgi vaqcie, eklesiaSic ki ar davdivar da liturgiul teqstebsa da melodiebs samkurnalo mizniT viyeneb: sagaloblebi yvelaferze metad mexmarebian, mo- verio im or sens, romlebiTac bunebam damajildova _ melan- qoliasa da Tavis tkivils. mas Semdeg, rac mari kaTolikeebTan
  6. 6. 7 gadabargda (mari TviTonac kaTolikea, magram aseTi gamoTqma mainc marTebulad mimaCnia), orive seni ufro gamimwvavda da Tantum Ergo1 da `litania lauretana~2 , aqamde rom yvelaze me- tad miqarvebdnen tkivils, axla ZlivsRa mSvelian. arsebobs sxva wamalic _ alkoholi, romelic droebiT mSvelis. Cemi saboloo gankurneba maris SeeZlo, magram, samwuxarod, marim mimatova. klouni rom smas daiwyebs, ufro swrafad daeSveba Zirs, vidre mTvrali meTunuqe gadavardeba saxuravidan. roca scenaze mTvrali gavdivar, zustad veRar vasruleb moZraobebs, romelTa gamarTleba mxolod sizustes SeuZlia, da zogjer iseT Secdomas vuSveb, klounisaTvis Tavis moWras rom udris: mecineba sakuTar oxunjobaze. amaze damamcirebeli araferia. roca fxizeli var, scenaze gasvlamde sul ufro da ufro mipyrobs SiSi (xSirad xelis kvriTac ki magdeben sce- naze) da is, rasac zogierTi kritikosi `fiqrnarev kritikul mxiarulebas~ uwodebda, `romlis miRmac gulis Zgera ismis~, sxva araferi iyo, Tu ara gamToSavi sasowarkveTileba, rome- lic xels miwyobda marionetad gadavqceuliyavi. cud dReSi maSin vvardebodi, roca Zafi wydeboda da sakuTari Tavis amara vrCebodi. albaT, raRac amdagvars ganicdis beri mistikuri ganWvretis dros. mari yovelTvis Tan daaTrevda aTasgvar mis- tikur literaturas da, ramdenadac maxsovs, am wignebSi xSi- rad wavwydomivar sityvebs `amao~ da `arara~. sami kvira yoveldRe mTvrali viyavi da scenaze gasvlisas macdunebeli Tavdajerebuloba meufleboda. Sedegmac ufro male iCina Tavi, vidre es zarmac mowafes emarTeba. igi xom niSnebis furclis miRebamde iluziebiT imSvidebs Tavs _ naxevari weli sakmaod didi droa saocnebod. sami kviris Se- mdeg Cems oTaxSi yvavilebi aRar idga, meore Tvis Sua ricxve- bSi abazaniani nomeri aRar mRirsebia, mesame Tvis damdegs ki sadguridan ukve Svidi markis manZilze vcxovrobdi, xolo 1 Tantum Ergo (laT.) _ `ramdenadac asea~ _ kaTolikuri locvis, wminda gvamis himnis `aJRerdi, enav~ me-5 strofis dasawyisi. 2 `litania lauretana~ _ locva loretos netari qalwuli mariamisi.
  7. 7. 8 Cemi gasamrjelo erT mesamedze Semcirda. varietes kari mo- mixures. sadRa iyo koniaki _ arays masmevdnen. warmodgenas vmarTavdi uRimRamod ganaTebul scenaze, Cabnelebul darba- zebSi, sadac yovlad ucnauri kavSirebi sxdomebs atarebdnen. vinRa fiqrobda arazust moZraobebze, lamis vpampulobdi da ase varTobdi iubilarebs: rkinigzelebs, fostisa da sabaJos moxeleebs, kaTolike diasaxlisebs, evangelist medicinis debs, bundesveris oficrebs, romlebic saswavleblis damTa- vrebas ludis smiT aRniSnavdnen da zeimis dasamSveneblad me miwvevdnen, Tumca xeirianad isic ki ar icodnen, hqondaT Tu ara sicilis ufleba, roca Cemi erT-erTi Zveli pantomimis, `Tavdacvis sabWos~, gacveTil narCenebs vuCvenebdi. guSin ki boxumSi axalgazrdebis winaSe momixda gamosvla. Caplins vbaZavdi, uecrad fexi damicda, adgoma veRar SevZeli. ara- vis daustvenia, mayureblebi TanagrZnobiT CurCulebdnen. bolos, roca farda CamouSves, koWlobiT gavedi scenidan, mTel Cems bargi-barxanas Tavi movuyare da ise mivaSure pan- sionats, rom grimic ki ar momicilebia. pansionatSi erTi aurzauri atyda: Cemma diasaxlisma mZRolis gasastumrebeli fuli ar masesxa da gaavebuli mZRoli imiT davaSoSmine, rom eleqtrosamarTebeli giraod ki ara, gasamrjelod miveci. sa- bednierod, wesieri kaci aRmoCnda da xurdad sigaretis gaxs- nili kolofi da ori marka damibruna. tangauxdeli mivegde gauSlel sawolze, boTlSi CarCenili arayi gamovwrupe da am bolo TveebSi pirvelad vigrZeni, rom aRarc melanqolia mawuxebda da aRarc Tavis tkivili. mTvrali, wumpeSi amogan- gluliviT, swored ise vegde sawolze, rogorc bevrjer mi- natria, netavi ase davlio dRe-meTqi. erTi peSvi aryisTvis ukanasknel perangs gavimetebdi, magram imdeni laparakis Tavi ar mqonda, aseT garigebas rom sWirdeba xolme. mxolod aman amaRebina xeli ganzraxvaze. meZina SesaniSnavad, magram dame- sizmra, TiTqos scenis mZime farda rbil, sqel sudarasaviT gadamefara, rogorc dabinduli madli, magram buranSi wa- sulma ZilSive vigrZeni, rogor Semipyro gaRviZebis SiSma. saxe grimiT maqvs moTxupnili, marjvena muxli gamisivda,
  8. 8. 9 plastmasis langarze iseTi sauzme devs, pirs ver daakareb, yavadanTan ki Cemi agentis depeSa gdia: `koblencma da maincma uari SemoTvales. saRamos bonSi dagirekavT. conereri~. mci- re xnis Semdeg damireka im kacma, vinc saRamos marTavda. mxo- lod axla gavige misgan, Turme qristianTa ganaTlebis saqmes xelmZRvanelobda. _ qosTerTi gaxlavarT, _ momesma mliqvneluri, msusxavi xma. _ Tqveni gasamrjelos sakiTxi xom unda gavarkvioT. _ keTili, amas win ra udgas, _ vupasuxe me. _ viTom? _ mkiTxa man. me vdumdi. kacma laparaki ganagrZo. axla mis uferul, msusxav xmaSi sadisturi bgerebi aJRerda. _ adre SevTanxmdiT, rom gasamrjelod as markas gadavuxdi- diT klouns, romelic im dros orasi mainc Rirda. am sityvebs dumili mohyva, albaT imisaTvis, rom gavexelebi- ne, magram me krinti ar damiZravs. Tavi veRar Seikava da Cveuli TavxedobiT ganagrZo: _ me sazogadoebrivad sasargeblo kavSirs vxelmZRvanelob da sindisi nebas ar maZlevs, asi marka gadavuxado klouns, visTvisac oci markac ki bevria. Cveni mxriv, esec didi xelgaS- lilobaa. araviTari sababi ar mqonda, dumili damerRvia. amitom siga- rets movukide, wyalwyala yava davisxi da mis qoSins mivayurade. _ Tu mismenT mainc? _ mkiTxa man. _ diax, gismenT, _ vupasuxe da kvlav Cavikminde xma. dumili kargi iaraRia. skolaSi, roca direqtorTan an ko- legiaze mibarebdnen, yovelTvis jiutad vdumdi. ara uSavs, gaiwuros oflSi telefonis xazis meore boloSi Camokidebu- li qristiani batoni qosTerTi. aseT gulnamceca kacunas, aba, rogor Sevecodebodi. samagierod, sakuTari Tavis Secodeba SeZlo da bolos Caiburtyuna: _ rames xom ar metyviT, batono Snir? axla ki amoviRe xma. _ kargad damigdeT yuri, batono qosTerT. ai, ras getyviT: CabrZandiT taqsiSi, midiT sadgurze, miyideT pirveli kla-
  9. 9. 10 sis bileTi bonamde, miyideT erTi boTli arayi, mobrZandiT sastumroSi, gadaixadeT Cemi danaxarji, moaxlis gasamrje- los CaTvliT, damitoveT konvertiT imdeni fuli, rac taq- siT sadguramde misvla Rirs da, garda amisa, gaficebT Tqvens qristianul sindiss, gamigzavneT Tqveni xarjiT bargi bonSi. Tanaxma xarT? qosTerTma TavisTvis raRac iangariSa, Caaxvela da miTxra: _ ormocdaaT markaze metis gadaxdas ar vapirebdi. _ keTili, _ vuTxari me, _ maSin tramvaiT imgzavreT da es yvelaferi ormocdaaT markaze naklebi dagijdebaT. Tanaxma xarT? man kvlav raRac daiangariSa da miTxra: _ ar SegiZliaT bargi taqsiT waiRoT? _ ara, vupasuxe me, _ fexi vitkine da bargis Trevis Tavi ara maqvs. etyoba, qosTerTma qristianuli sindisis Zlieri qenjna igrZno. _ batono Snir, _ miTxra lmobierad, _ vwuxvar, rom me... _ rogor gekadrebaT, batono qosTerT, _ vuTxari me, _ bednieri var, rom SemiZlia dagazogvinoT qristianuli saqmi- saTvis ormocdaToTxmeti Tu ormocdaTeqvsmeti marka. berkets xeli davaWire da yurmili aparatis gverdiT davde _ qosTerTi iseTi tipi iyo, SeeZlo kidev erTxel daereka da karga xans eybeda. sjobs, marto darCenilma sakuTar sindisSi moafaTuros xeli. cudad viyavi. damaviwyda meTqva, rom marto melanqolia da Tavis tkivili ki ara, kidev erTi, TiTqmis mistikuri Tvise- bac mawuxebs: telefonis meSveobiT sunsac aRviqvam, qosTerTs ki abebis motkbo suni asdioda. iZulebuli gavxdi, wamovmdga- riyavi da kbilebi gamexexa. fskerze darCenili aryis wveTebi pirSi gamovivle, grimi gaWirvebiT movicile, isev loginSi Ca- vweqi da daviwye fiqri marize, protestantebze da kaTolikee- bze. warmovidgine momavali, vfiqrobdi im wumpezec, romelSic odesme aucileblad aRmovCndebodi. roca klouni ormocdaaT
  10. 10. 11 wels miatans, misTvis mxolod ori gza arsebobs: an wumpe, an sasaxle. sasaxleze ar miocnebia, radgan ormocdaaT wlamde ocdaor welze meti maqvs saTrevi. koblencma da maincma rom uari SemomiTvales, conereri amas `pirvel sagangaSo~ safexurs daarqmevda. CemTvis ki miswreba iyo, _ damaviwyda meTqva, rom kidev erTi Tviseba maqvs: gul- griloba. wumpe bonSic bevria, Tanac gana vinmem damiwesa, maincdamainc ormocdaaT wlamde moicadeo? momagonda mari, misi xma, mkerdi, xelebi, Tma, misi moZraobebi da yvelaferi is, rasac erTad vakeTebdiT. momagonda ciupfneri, romelsac mari colad unda gahyoloda. bavSvobaSi Cven sakmaod kargad vicnobdiT erTmaneTs, ise kargad, rom, roca davaJkacebulni kvlav SevxvdiT, arc ki vicodiT, SenobiT gvelaparaka Tu Tqve- nobiT. orive mimarTva uxerxuli gveCveneboda da, roca erT- maneTs vxvdebodiT, uxerxulad vgrZnobdiT Tavs. ver gamigia, raRa maincdamainc mas mietmasna mari, magram, iqneb, marTlac arasodes `mesmoda~ marisi? gavcofdi, raRa swored qosTerTi gamotyvra da gamomarkvia fiqrisgan. ZaRliviT fxaWnida kars da bolos miTxra: _ momismineT, batono Snir, eqims xom ar gamovuZaxo? _ momwydiT Tavidan, _ vuyvire me, _ SemoacoceT konverti karis qveS da wabrZandiT saxlSi. roca qosTerTma konverti karis qveS Semoacoca, sawoli- dan wamovdeqi, konverti aviRe da gavxseni. konvertSi aRmoCnda meore klasis bileTi boxumidan bonamde da zustad naangari- Sebi taqsis fuli: eqvsi marka da ormocdaaTi pfenigi. imedi mqonda, aT markamde mainc daamrgvalebda, da vvaraudobdi, ra- mdeni damrCeboda, roca pirveli klasis bileTs fasdaklebiT Cavabarebdi salaroSi da meore klasis bileTs viyiddi. Cemi angariSiT xuT markas mainc movigebdi. _ yvelaferi rigzea? _ momesma garedan. _ diax, _ vupasuxe me, _ waeTrieT aqedan, binZuro qris- tiano WiaRuav! _ rogor gekadrebaT? _ SemomZaxa man. _ waeTrieT! _ avRrialdi me.
  11. 11. 12 siCume erT wams Tu gagrZelda. Semdeg gavigone, rogor daeS- va kibeze. miwis Svilebi zecis SvilebTan SedarebiT marto Wkvianebi ki ara, ufro adamianurnic da sulgrZelnic arian. aryisa da sigaretisaTvis rom cotaodeni fuli damezoga, sadguramde tramvaiT wavedi. pansionatis diasaxlisma im depeSis Tanxac miangariSa, wina saRamos monika zilvss rom gavugzavne bonSi _ qosTerTma ar isurva am danaxarjis gadaxda. ase rom, sadgu- ramde taqsisTvis mainc ar meyofoda fuli. depeSa manamde ga- vgzavne, sanam gavigebdi, rom koblencma miwvevaze uari miTxra. uaris Tqmas me TviTon vapirebdi, magram imaT damaswres. cota- Ti esec maRizianebda. ajobebda, me TviTon SemeTvala depeSiT uari: `muxli maqvs mZimed daSavebuli. warmodgenas ver gavmar- Tav~. kidev kargi, rom monikas depeSa gavugzavne: `xvalisaTvis damaxvedreT dalagebuli bina. guliTadi salami. hansi~. 2 bonSi yovelTvis yvelaferi sxvagvarad xdeboda. am qalaqSi arasodes gamovsulvar scenaze. bonSi ubralod vcxovrobdi da taqsis rom daviWerdi, sastumroSi ki ara, sakuTar binaSi mivyavdi. jobda meTqva: Cven mivyavdiT, mari da me. Cvens saxls portie ar hyavs, rom sadguris kontroliorSi amerios. miuxe- davad amisa, sakuTari Weri, sadac weliwadSi mxolod sami- oTxi kvira Tu gamitarebia, CemTvis yvela sastumroze ucxoa. bonSi Casulma Zlivs Sevikave Tavi, rom taqsi ar momexmo. es Jesti ise mqonda Sesisxlxorcebuli, rom kinaRam uxerxul mdgomareobaSi aRmovCndi. jibeSi erTi markaRa medo. gareT ki- beze gavCerdi da jibeebi moviqeqe, Tu maqvs-meTqi Tan gasaRe- bebi: sadarbazosi, binisa, saweri magidis ujrisa, sadac velo- sipedis gasaRebi devs. didi xania vfiqrob, Sevqmna pantomima gasaRebebze: yinulis gasaRebebis mTeli acma warmodgenis ms- vlelobaSi TandaTan dneba. taqsis fuli swored maSin ar mqonda, roca cxovrebaSi pir- velad marTla mWirdeboda taqsi. muxli gamisivda. sadguris moedani gaWirvebiT gadavWeri koWlobiT da fosTSTraseze Se-
  12. 12. 13 vuxvie. Cveni bina sadguridan ori wuTis savalzea, magram axla gza usasrulo momeCvena. mcire xniT sigaretis avtomats mive- yrdeni da Tvali Sevavle im saxls, romelSic babuaCemma bina maCuqa. koxta binebs lamazad Seferili, mopirkeTebuli aivnebi amSvenebs. saxli xuTsarTuliania da xuTive sarTuls erTmane- Tisagan gansxvavebuli aivnebi aqvs, Ria an muqi ferisa. mexuTe sarTulze, sadac yvelaferi Jangisferia, me vcxovrob. SeiZleba, im wuTSi swored Cemi axali pantomima warmovid- gine? gasaRebi sadarbazos karis budeSi Sevacure da sulac ar gamkvirvebia, rom ar dadna. Semdeg liftis kari gavaRe, mexu- Te Rilaks TiTi davaWire da odnav xmauriT zeviTken daviZari. liftis viwro fanjridan vxedavdi derefnis erT nawils, xolo derefnis fanjridan _ mziT ganaTebuli Zeglis zurgs, moedans da eklesias, Semdeg isev Savi monakveTi da betonis iataki mo- Canda, xolo cota mogvianebiT, odnav Secvlil rakursSi, isev mziT ganaTebuli Zeglis zurgi, moedani da eklesia gamoCnda. ase ganmeorda samjer, meoTxe sarTulidan mxolod moedani da eklesia Canda, mexuTe sarTulze asulma ki sakuTari binis kari gavaRe da sul ar gamkvirvebia, rom kari advilad gaiRo. Cems binaSi yvelaferi Zalian Jangisferia: karebi, kafeli, ganjinebi. aqaurobas Zalian mouxdeboda Sav taxtze wamowo- lili moJangisfro-wiTel xalaTSi gaxveuli qali. SeiZleba, aseTi qalis xelSi Cagdeba arc gamWirveboda, magram me mxo- lod melanqolia, Tavis tkivili, gulgriloba da telefo- niT sunis aRqmis mistikuri unari ki ara, erTi saSineli senic mawuxebs _ monogamiisadmi midrekileba. amqveynad arsebobs erTaderTi qali, visTanac SemiZlia imis gakeTeba, rasac mamaka- cebi qalebTan akeTeben. es qali aris mari da mas Semdeg, rac man mimatova, beriviT vcxovrob. es kia: beri ara var. erTxel azrad momivida, sofelSi wavsuliyavi da Cemi Zveli skolis erT-erTi mRvdlisaTvis rCeva mekiTxa, magram yvela mRvdels adamiani poligamiur arsebad miaCnia, amitomac eqomagebian ase gulmodgined erTcolianobas. me maT albaT urCxuli vegonebi da maTi rCeva sxva araferi iqneba, Tu ara qaragmuli miTiTeba im savaneze, sadac, rogorc fiqroben, siyvaruli iyideba. pro-
  13. 13. 14 testantebisagan jer kidev moveli raRac sakvirvels _ qos- TerTma marTlac moaxerxa Cemi gaoceba, magram kaTolikeebi ve- RarafriT gamakvirveben. erT dros kaTolicizmis mimarT didi simpaTiiT viyavi ganwyobili, maSinac, am oTxi wlis win marim pirvelad rom mimiyvana `progresul kaTolikeTa wreSi~. maris guliT undoda, gaecno CemTvis inteligenti kaTolikeebi. cxa- dia, faruli azric amoZravebda, iqneb erT mSvenier dRes rju- li Seicvaloso (aseTi faruli azri yvela kaTolikes utria- lebs TavSi). am wreSi gatarebuli pirvelive wuTebi saSineli iyo. maSin ocdaori wlisac ki ar viyavi, klounis xelobas veuflebodi da Savi dRe madga _ dilidan daRamebamde vvarji- Sobdi. im saRamos didi sixaruliT velodi, varjiSisagan qan- cgawyvetils imedi mqonda, rom mxiarulad gavatarebdi dros, miveZalebodi karg Rvinos, Seveqceodi gemriel kerZebs, Sei- Zleba, mecekva kidec (Cven ise xelmokled vcxovrobdiT, Rvi- noc gvenatreboda da gemrieli saWmelic), magram yvelaferi sul sxvanairad moxda _ Rvino ar daileoda, xolo saRamo... aba, rogor giTxraT, daaxloebiT ase warmomidgenia uniaTo profesoris seminari sociologiaSi. es yvelaferi araTu da- mqancveli, zedmetad da arabunebrivad damqancvelic ki iyo. jer erTad iloces, me ki am dros ar vicodi, sad wameRo xe- lebi da rogor damemala saxe. Cemi azriT, urwmuno kaci aseT mdgomareobaSi ar unda Caayeno. maT rom mxolod Cveulebrivi locva `mamao Cveno~ an `Ave Maria~ wamoewyoT, CemTvis esec sakmaod saCoTiro iqneboda, radgan protestantulad aRmzar- des da miveCvie, marto viloco, roca da sadac momexasiaTeba. isini ki kiTxulobdnen kinkelis mier SeTxzul programul teqsts `da Cven gevedrebiT Sen, mogvec Zala, raTa ganurCe- vlad mivuzRoT sakadrisi damkvidrebulsac da aRmavalsac~ da ase Semdeg. bolos gadavidnen saRamos Temaze `siRatake im sazogadoebaSi, sadac vcxovrobT~. aseTi saSineli saRamo Cems cxovrebaSi iSviaTad mqonia. ver gamigia, ratom unda iyos re- ligiur Temaze saubari ase damqancveli. vici, Znelia irwmuno aseTi religia, mkvdreTiT aRdgoma da maradiuli arseboba. yovelive es Zneli dasajerebeli unda iyos. mari xSirad miki-
  14. 14. 15 Txavda biblias. mogvianebiT kierkegoris kiTxvac ki daviwye (damwyebi klounisaTvis sasargeblo sakiTxavia). marTalia ga- miZnelda, magram ar davqanculvar. ar vici, iqneb, arian adamia- nebi, romlebic pikasos an klees suraTebs pawia sufrebze qar- gaven, magram im saRamos ise momeCvena, TiTqos es progresuli kaTolikeebi Toma aqvinelis, francisk asizelis, bonaventuras da papi leo XIII-is naazrevisagan iqsovdnen TeZoebze Semosax- vev Cvrebs, rac, cxadia, maT siSiSvles ver faravda, radgan (Cem garda) damswreTagan aravis hqonda aTas xuTas markaze naklebi Tviuri Semosavali. TviTonac ise uxerxulad grZnobdnen Tavs, rom bolos cinizmsa da snobizms amoefarnen. gamonakliss mxo- lod ciupfneri warmoadgenda; igi ise gaawama mTelma am amba- vma, rom sigaretic ki mTxova. mis cxovrebaSi es iyo pirveli sigareti, romelsac umweod abolebda da me SevamCnie, rom uxa- roda, roca kvamli saxes ufaravda. maris mdgomareoba mawuxeb- da, radgan gafiTrebuli ijda da TrToda, xolo kinkeli am dros anekdots hyveboda: erTi kaci Turme TveSi xuTas markas iRebda da ara uSavda ra, Tavi gahqonda. cota xnis Semdeg aTasi marka dauniSnes. SeamCnia, rom cxovreba gauWirda. xolo roca misma Semosavalma jer ori aTas markas miaRwia, bolos ki sami aTasamde avida, isev aewyo cxovreba. kinkelma Tavisi brZnu- li gamocdileba Semdegnairad Camoayaliba: `Tu TveSi xuTas markamde iReb, araferi giWirs, xuTasidan sami aTas markamde ki did siduxWires ganicdi~. kinkelma verc ki SeamCnia, ra Cai- dina: bevrs laybobda, eweoda msxvil sigaras, xSirad mihqonda pirTan RviniT savse Wiqa, sanslavda yvelian kverebs da yoveli- ve amas olimpiuri simSvidiT akeTebda. bolos misma saqcielma wris sulieri moZRvari prelati zomervildic ki SeaSfoTa. igi Seecada saubris Tema Seecvala. zomervildma, mgoni, xel- CasaWidi sityva `reaqcia~ Seapara da kinkeli maSinve wamoego ankesze. aiwyvita, gacofda, gaaxura moxseneba imaze, rom Tor- meti aTasad Rirebuli avtomanqana ufro iafi jdeba, vidre oTxiaTasxuTasiani da Sua laparakSi gaCumda. amjerad misma colmac ki, romelic qmars aRmerTebda da unaklod miaCnda, SvebiT amoisunTqa.
  15. 15. 16 3 es pirveli SemTxveva iyo, roca sakuTar binaSi Tavi TiTqmis kargad vigrZeni. aq siTbo da sisufTave sufevda. roca palto sakidze davkide da gitara kuTxeSi mivayude, gavifiqre, bina iqneb cota mets niSnavs, vidre Tavis motyueba-meTqi. erT ad- gilas fexis mokideba miWirs. es, albaT, ase iqneba yovelTvis. am mxriv mari Cemze uaresia, magram mainc arCia, sabolood sx- vis budeSi mokalaTebuliyo. arada, iseTi droc maxsovs, Tu erT kviraze metxans miwevda romelime qalaqSi gamosvla, mari awrialdeboda xolme. monika zilvss axlac iseTi gulisxmiereba gamoeCina, ro- gorc yovelTvis, roca ki depeSas vugzavnidiT: saxlmmarTve- lisaTvis gasaRebi gamoerTmia, yvelaferi daesufTavebina, saerTo oTaxSi yvavilebi daedga, macivari nair-nairi sursaT- sanovagiT gamoevso, samzareulos magidaze dafquli yaviT sav- se kolofi ido, mis gverdiT _ koniakis gauxsneli boTli. saerTo oTaxSi sigaretebi damxvda magidaze, xolo yvavile- bis gverdiT anTebuli sanTeli iRvenTeboda. monika zogjer uCveulod mgrZnobiarea, SeuZlia sentimentaluric ki iyos da amis gamo xandaxan gemovneba Ralatobs. magidaze dadgmul sanTels xelovnuri naRvenTi hqonda, rac, cxadia, ver daakma- yofilebda `kargi gemovnebis damcveli kaTolikuri wris mo- Txovnebs~. etyoba, am facifucSi sxva sanTels ver miagno an Zviri, gemovnebiT SerCeuli sanTlis sayidlad fuli ar eyo. uecrad vigrZeni, rom swored am ugemovno sanTlis gamo Cemi sinaze monika zilvsisadmi im zRvars uaxlovdeboda, romlis gadalaxvis saSualebas ar maZlevs Cemi avbediTi midrekile- ba monogamiisadmi. kaTolikuri wris sxva wevrebi verasodes gabedavdnen, ugemovnoba an zedmeti mgrZnobiaroba gamoeCi- naT. diax, isini TavianT sisustes arasodes gamoamJRavneben da Tu rame SeeSlebaT, urCevniaT zneobis sferoSi Secdnen, vi- dre ugemovnoni aRmoCndnen. Cems binaSi jer kidev idga monikas sunamos surneleba, misTvis metismetad mZafri da moduri. am nazavs mgoni `taiga~ hqvia. monikas nayidi sigareti monikas sanTelze movukide, samza-
  16. 16. 17 reulodan koniaki gamovitane, winkaridan ki telefonis wigni da yurmili aviRe. monikam imazec izruna, rom telefoni Car- Tuli yofiliyo. zumeris wkriali usazRvrod farTo gulis Zgerad momeCvena. imwams es xma ufro miyvarda, vidre zRvis Relva, qariSxlis sunTqva an lomis brdRvinva. am mkveTr bge- rebSi Cateuliyo maris xmac, leos xmac da monikas xmac. yur- mili nela davde. es erTaderTi iaraRiRa damrCa da male gamo- viyenebdi kidec. Sarvlis marjvena toti avikece da daSavebuli muxli SevaTvaliere. muxli msubuqad mqonda dabeJili, odnav SeSupebuliyo. koniaki did WiqaSi Cavasxi, naxevramde davcale da danarCeni mtkivan muxlze davisxi. Semdeg koWlobiT gave- di samzareuloSi da koniaki macivarSi Sevdgi. mxolod axla gamaxsenda, rom qosTerTma mainc ar momitana daTqmuli ara- yi. albaT, ifiqra, pedagogiuri TvalsazrisiT, ase ajobebso, da amiT protestantul eklesias Svidi marka dauzoga. gada- vwyvite, damereka misTvis da am Tanxis gamogzavna momeTxova. ZaRlis naSobi ase iolad ar unda damZromoda xelidan. esec rom ara, fuli mWirdeboda. xuTi wlis ganmavlobaSi gacile- biT met fuls vSoulobdi, vidre unda damxarjoda da mainc Semomelia. cxadia, rogorc ki muxli momirCeba, ise rogor wavxdebi, pampulaobaSi ocdaaTi-ormocdaaTi marka ar momcen. CemTvis sulerTia, sad momiwevs gamosvla _ uxeiro darba- zebSi mayurebeli ufro simpaTiuric kia, vidre varieteebSi. magram dReSi ocdaaTi-ormocdaaTi marka metismetad cotaa, xolo iaffasiani sastumroebis oTaxebi _ metismetad patara. repeticiis dros magidebsa da karadebs vejaxebi. Tanac, me Tu mkiTxavT, arc abazanaa fufuneba da taqsic ar aris mflangve- loba iseTi kacisaTvis, xuT Cemodans rom daaTrevs Tan. macivridan koniaki gamoviRe da erTi ylupi pirdapir boT- lidan movsvi. loTi ara var, magram mas Semdeg, rac marim mi- matova, alkoholi Svebas mgvris. garda amisa, ufulobasac ga- daveCvie da is ambavi, rom jibeSi erTi marka medo da uaxloes momavalSi am Tanxis mniSvnelovnad gazrdis araviTari imedi ar mqonda, aSkarad manerviulebda. erTaderTi nivTi, romlis gayidvac SemeZlo, velosipedi iyo, magram Tu moxetiale jam-
  17. 17. 18 bazobas movkidebdi xels, velosipedi Zalian gamomadgeboda, mixsnida taqsisa da matareblis xarjisagan. binis mflobelic im pirobiT viyavi, rom misi arc gayidva SemeZlo da arc ga- qiraveba. Tavs Zala davatane, koniaki rom ar damelia, saerTo oTaxSi gavedi da telefonis wigni gadavSale. 4 davibade bonSi. am qalaqSi uamrav xalxs vicnob. maT Soris arian naTesavebi, nacnobebi, skolis amxanagebi. aqve cxovro- ben Cemi mSoblebi da Cemi Zma leo, romelmac ciupfneris ze- gavleniT rjuli Seicvala, gakaTolikda da axla Teologias swavlobs. aucileblad unda movinaxulo mSoblebi, Tundac imisaTvis, rom Cemi finansuri saqmeebi movagvaro. Tumca am sa- qmis mogvareba SemiZlia veqils davavalo. es sakiTxi jer kidev gadasawyvetia. mas Semdeg, rac Cemi da henrieTe daiRupa, mSo- blebi CemTvis aRar arseboben. henrieTes sikvdilis dRidan Cvidmeti weli gavida. omi is-is iyo mTavrdeboda. henrieTe, mSvenieri, qera gogona, maSin Teqvsmeti wlisa iyo da bonsa da remagenSi CogburTis saukeTeso moTamaSed iTvleboda. im dros axalgazrda qaliSvilebs mouwodebdnen, nebayoflobiT Cawe- riliyvnen sazenito samxedro nawilebSi da henrieTec Caewera. es moxda 1945 wlis TebervalSi. yvelaferi ise swrafad da dau- brkoleblad mogvarda, rom me verafers mivxvdi. skolidan mo- mavali, kiolnis quCaze gadavedi da uecrad bonisaken daZrul tramvaiSi henrieTe davinaxe. man gamicina da xeli damiqnia. mec gavucine. henrieTes zurgze CanTa ekida, Tavze lamazi, muqi lurji qudi exura da Tbili, sayeloze bewvSemovlebuli za- mTris palto ecva. arasodes minaxavs, henrieTes rom Tavze rame xureboda, qudis daxurvaze yovelTvis uars ambobda. qudma Za- lian Secvala, axalgazrda qals hgavda. eqskursiaze Tu midis, gavifiqre CemTvis, Tumca eqskursiisaTvis aSkarad Seuferebe- li dro iyo. magram maSindeli skolebisagan yvelaferi iyo mosalodneli. maswavleblebi TavSesafarSic ki cdilobdnen SeeswavlebinaT CvenTvis ariTmetikis samTa wesi im dros, roca Cvens smenamde qvemexebis srolis xma aRwevda, xolo maswavle-
  18. 18. 19 beli briuli gvamRerebda, misi sityvebiT rom vTqvaT, `saT- noebiT savse erovnul simRerebs~ da aseTebad miaCnda `gimzers didebiT mosili saxli~ da `aRmosavleTiT vxedav ganTiads~. RamRamobiT, roca naxevari saaTiT siCume daisadgurebda, ita- lieli samxedro tyveebis (skolaSi agvixsnes, axla ratom aRar iyvnen italielebi Cveni mokavSireebi da ratom vamuSaveb- diT datyvevebulebs, magram dRemde ver gamigia, ratom), rusi tyveebis, tyve qalebisa da germaneli jariskacebis fexis xma mesmoda. mTeli Rame ismoda mwyobri nabijebis xma. danamdvi- lebiT aravin icoda, ra xdeboda. me marTlac ise momeCvena, TiTqos henrieTe skolidan eqs- kursiaze mihyavdaT. maTgan yvelaferi iyo mosalodneli. zo- gjer, roca gangaSidan gangaSamde saklaso oTaxebSi visxediT da fanjridan Tofis srolis xma mkafiod gvesmoda, Tu SeSine- bulni fanjrisaken mivabrunebdiT Tavs, maswavlebeli briuli gvekiTxeboda, Tu iciT, es ras niSnavso. Cven es raxania vico- diT; zeviT, tyeSi kvlav xvretdnen dezertirebs. _ es dRe elis yvelas, vinc gabedavs da uars ityvis wmi- daTawmida germanuli miwis dacvaze ebraeli iankebisagan, _ gveubneboda briuli (amas winaT kidev erTxel Sevxvdi ukve da- berebul, gaWaRaravebul briuls, romelic axla pedagogiuri akademiis wevria da icnoben, rogorc `umwikvlo politikuri warsulis mqone pirs~, aqaoda, arasodes yofila nacisturi partiis wevrio). kidev erTxel davuqnie xeli mimaval tramvais, romelSic henrieTe ijda da Cveni parkis gavliT saxlisaken gavwie. Cemi mSoblebi da leo magidas Semosxdomodnen. sadilad ori ker- Zi gvqonda: wvniani da kartofili sawebliT, xolo desertad TiTo vaSli. mxolod desertis dros vkiTxe dedas, henrieTes skolam eqskursiaze saiT gaswia-meTqi? dedas gaecina da mi- Txra: _ eqskursia? ra sisuleles ambob: henrieTe imisaTvis wavi- da bonSi, rom sazenito samxedro nawilSi Caeweros. ase sqlad nu Tli vaSls. Semomxede, Cemo biWiko! _ man Cemi TefSidan naTali aiRo, mocicqna da Tavisi xelmomWirneobis nayofi, vaS-
  19. 19. 20 lis sifrifana naWrebi pirisken waiRo. me mamas Sevxede, magram mama TefSs dasCereboda da xmas ar iRebda. leoc Cumad ijda. mzera isev dedaze gadavitane da maSin man lmobieri, nazi xmiT miTxra: _ erTi ram unda gesmodes: imisaTvis, rom germaniis wminda miwidan ebraeli iankebi ganvdevnoT, Tavisi vali yvelam unda moixados. dedam ise gadmomxeda, elda meca, xolo roca leosac ase- ve Sexeda, momeCvena, sadacaa Cvenc uyoymanod gagvgzavnis-meTqi brZolis velze ebraeli iankebis winaaRmdeg sabrZolvelad. _ Cveni wminda germanuli miwa, _ dasZina man, _ isini ukve eifelis SuagulSi SemoiWrnen. sicilis gunebaze davdeqi, magram uneburad cremli wamskda. xilis dana movisrole da Cems oTaxSi gaviqeci. SiSma Semipyro. isic vicodi, risic meSinoda, magram amis gamoxatvas ver vaxer- xebdi da roca is wyeuli vaSlis naTali magondeboda, boRma maxrCobda. gavcqerodi Cveni baRis WuWyiani TovliT dafarul germanul miwas, rains, mtirala tirifebis miRma aRmarTul Svid mTas da mTeli es dekoracia saSinel uazrobad meCvene- boda. erTxel mec ki vnaxe ramdenime `ebraeli ianki~, venus- bergidan sabargo manqanebiT qveviT Camoiyvanes bonis Sesakreb punqtSi: gaToSili, SeSinebuli axalgazrdebi sacodavad ga- moiyurebodnen. Tuki saerTod raime asociacias iwvevda CemSi ebraeli, ufro italielebs vamsgavsebdi, isini amerikelebTan SedarebiT imdenad ufro gaToSilni da daRlilni Candnen, rom SiSis Tavic ki aRar hqondaT. Cemi sawolis gverdiT mdgar skams fexi vkari da radgan ar waiqca, kidev erTxel vuTavaze wixli. bolos, rogorc iqna, skami waiqca da patara magidis SuSa ga- texa. lurjqudiani da zurg­CanTiani henrieTe aRar dabrune- bula da Cven dRemde ar viciT, sad aris damarxuli. roca omi damTavrda, CvenTan viRac movida da gviTxra: `leverkuzenTan brZolaSi daeca~. roca warmovidgen, rom mura naxSiris mompovebeli sazoga- doebis aqciebis didi nawili Cveni ojaxis ori Taobis xelSia, wminda germanuli miwisaTvis drtvinva sasacilo meCveneba.
  20. 20. 21 ager ukve samocdaaTi welia, rac Snirebi qvanaxSirs iReben, xels iTboben, wminda germanuli miwa ki iZulebulia, es moiT- minos. soflebi, tyeebi, cixe-darbazebi eqskavatorebisagan ise ingreva, rogorc ieriqonis kedlebi. mxolod ramdenime dRis Semdeg gavige, vis SeeZlo hqonoda `ebrael iankebze~ saavtoro uflebis pretenzia _ herberT qaliks, Tormeti wlis lawiraks, Cems fiurers iungfolkSi. dedaCemma mas sulgrZelad dauTmo Cveni parki, sadac yvelas unda Segveswavla tanksawinaaRmdego reaqtiuli xelyumbarebis xmareba. yumbaris srolas Cemi rva wlis Zma leoc swavlobda. erTxel imasac movkari Tvali, rogor miabijebda CogburTis moednis gaswvriv mxarze gadebuli saswavlo xelyumbariT. am dros iseTi seriozuli saxe hqonda, rogoric mxolod bavSve- bs SeiZleba hqondeT. gavaCere da vkiTxe: _ aq ras akeTeb? leom momakvdinebeli seriozulobiT mipasuxa: _ minda vervolfi gavxde, Sen ara? _ rogor ara, _ vupasuxe da masTan erTad gavemarTe tiri- saken, sadac herberT qaliki swored im dros hyveboda, rogor miiRo erTma aTi wlis biWma pirveli xarisxis rkinis jvari Soreul sileziaSi, sadac man tanksawinaaRmdego xelyumbare- biT sami rusuli tanki mospo. erT-erTma biWma hkiTxa, ra er- qvao im gmirs da uecrad me wamoviZaxe: _ riubecali1 ! brazisagan saxegafiTrebulma herberT qalikma miyvira: _ binZuro dezertiro! me davixare da herberTs saxeSi mTeli muWa nacari Sevayare. yvela me meca, mxolod leo idga ganze, tiroda da ar mexmare- boda. SeSinebulma, herberTs pirSi mivaxale: _ nacisto Roro! es sityvebi rkinigzis gadasasvlelTan wavikiTxe, Slagbaum- ze. zustad ar mesmoda, ras niSnavda, magram imwams iseTi grZ- noba mqonda, rom droulad gamoviyene. herberT qalikma Tanam- 1 riubecali (germ. miT.) _ mTis suli, jujebisa da qvesknelis meufe.
  21. 21. 22 deboba SeiSno, cema-tyepas bolo mouRo, me damapatimra da sa- nam Cems mSoblebs, maswavlebel briulsa da partiis erT-erT warmomadgenels moiyvanda, tiris fardulSi Camketa, sadac sa- mizneebi da saCvenebeli joxebi eyara. simwrisagan vRmuodi, sa- mizneebs fexiT vTelavdi da gareT yaraulad dayenebul biWebs gavZaxodi: `nacisto Rorebo!~ erTi saaTis Semdeg Cvens saxlSi SemaTries da dakiTxva damiwyes. maswavlebel briuls Zlivs akavebdnen: _ movspoT, gavacamtveroT! dRemde ar vici, igi Cems fizikur mospobas gulisxmobda, Tu zneobrivad gacamtverebas. istoriuli WeSmaritebis dad- genis mizniT, erT mSvenier dRes werils mivwer pedagogiur akademias da vTxov, es sakiTxi ganmimartos. ufro gonivrulad iqceoda partiis warmomadgeneli, adgilobrivi organizaciis xelmZRvanelis moadgile liovenihi, romelic yvelas eubne- boda: _ angariSi gauwieT imas, rom biWi jer TerTmeti wlisac ar aris. misma qcevam imdenad damamSvida, rom pasuxic ki gaveci kiTx- vaze, saidan ici es saSineli sityvebio. _ anabergerSerSTrasesTan rom Slagbaumia, imaze wavikiTxe. _ iqneb, vinmem gaswavla? _ mkiTxa man, _ imis Tqma minda, vinmes piridan xom ar gaigone? _ ara, _ vupasuxe me. _ biWma arc ki icis, ras ambobs, _ Tqva mamam da mxarze xeli damado. briulma jer borotad Sexeda mamas, Semdeg ki damfrTxalma gadaxeda herberT qaliks _ mamas qceva Cemdami mxardaWerad miiCnia. atirebulma dedaCemma ki Tavisi nazi, su- leluri xmiT Tqva: _ TviTon ar icis, ras sCadis, marTla ar icis, Torem namd- vilad xels aviRebdi masze. _ netav, marTla aiRebda xels? _ vTqvi me. mTeli es ambavi xdeboda veeberTela saerTo oTaxSi, sadac dgas Seferili muxis aveji, mZime, sarkeebiani wignis karadebi, muxis paneliT mopirkeTebuli kedlebis gaswvriv damagrebul
  22. 22. 23 Taroze babuaCemis samonadireo nadavli da Tasebi alagia. ei- felidan, romelic ociode kilometriTaa daSorebuli Cven- gan, qvemexebis srolis xma da SigadaSig tyviamfrqvevebis kaka- nic mesmoda. qera, gafiTrebuli herberT qaliki, romelsac saxeze fanatizmi ewera, prokuroris movaleobas asrulebda, mokakul TiTebs gauCereblad akakunebda servantze da moiTxo- vda: _ simkacre, simkacre, ulmobeli simkacrea saWiro! ganaCeni aseTi gamomitanes: herberTis zedamxedvelobiT parkSi tanksawinaaRmdego sangari unda gameTxara. Snirebis tradiciuli sadilis Semdeg germanuli miwis Txras Sevude- qi, Tumca sakuTari xeliT miwis Txra Snirebis tradicias ewi- naaRmdegeboda. sangars vTxridi babuaCemis sayvareli vardis buCqebis gardigardmo, apolon belvederelis qandakebis aslis mimarTulebiT da winaswar maxarebda is wami, roca Cems gul- modgine Txras marmarilos qandakeba msxverplad Seewireboda. magram Cemi sixaruli naadrevi aRmoCnda. igi Seiwira patara, Worflianma biWunam, romelsac georgs eZaxdnen _ SemTxveviT tanksawinaaRmdego yumbara xelSi gauskda, TviTonac afeTqda da apolonic aafeTqa. herberT qalikma es ubeduri SemTxveva lakoniurad ganmarta: _ sabednierod, georgi oboli iyo. 5 telefonis wignidan im xalxis nomrebi amoviwere, visTanac darekva momiwevda: marcxniv Camovwere imaTi gvarebi, visganac SemeZlo fuli mesesxa: karl emondsi, hainrih beleni. orive Cemi skolis amxanagia, erTi odesRac Teologias swavlobda da axla gimnaziis maswavlebelia, xolo meore _ kapelani. maT Semdeg modioda bela brozeni, mamaCemis sayvareli. mar- jvena mxares Camovwere imaTi sia, visac ukidures SemTxvevaSi vTxovdi fuls: Cemi mSoblebi, leo (leosaTvis yovelTvis SemeZlo meTxova fuli, magram arasodes aqvs, radgan Tu rame abadia, yvelas urigebs), kaTolikuri wris wevrebi: kinkeli, fredeboili, bloTerti, zomervildi. am or svets Soris Ca-
  23. 23. 24 vwere monika zilvsi da misi saxeli lamaz maryuJSi Cavsvi. karl emondisaTvis depeSa unda gamegzavna da meTxova, TviTon daereka CemTan, radgan telefoni ara aqvs. yvelaze adre sia- movnebiT davurekavdi monikas, magram iZulebuli var, yvela- ze bolos davureko, Cveni urTierToba iseT stadiaSia, roca adamianis arad Cagdeba fizikuradac da metafizikuradac uzrdelobad iTvleba. am mxriv mZime mdgomareobaSi aRmovCn- di. mas Semdeg, rac mari `metafizikurma SiSma~ Seipyro (es misi sityvebia) da gameqca, Cemda uneburad, beriviT vcxovrob, radgan Cems monogamur bunebas veraferi movuxerxe. gulwrfe- lad rom vTqva, boxumSi gangeb waviforxile da muxliT da- veci, mindoda dawyebuli turne Semewyvita da bonSi Camovsu- liyavi. araadamianurad mtanjavda is, rasac maris religiur wignebSi SecdomiT `xorcieli Jini~ hqvia. monika ise Zalian miyvarda, arafriT SemeZlo momekla masTan sxva qalis ndomiT gamowveuli Jini. uxeSi gamoTqma iqneboda, religiur wignebSi rom daeweraT `ndoma qalisa~, magram `xorciel Jins~ bevrad ajobebda. ar vici, ras vuwodo xorci, Tu ara imas, sayasbo- Si rom kidia, Tumca mTlad xorci arc is aris. sakmarisia warmovidgino, mari imasve akeTebs ciupfnerTan, rac mxolod CemTan unda gaekeTebina, da melanqolias sasowarkveTilebamde mivyavar. didxans vyoymanobdi, momeZebna Tu ara ciupfneris tele- fonis nomeri, magram bolos mainc vipove da imaTTan Cavwe- re, visganac fulis sesxebas ar vapirebdi. mari fuls maSinve momcemda, momcemda yvelafers, rac ki gaaCnda. miT umetes, Tu gaigebda, rom am xnis ganmavlobaSi xeli mecareboda, cxadia, movidoda da damexmareboda, magram saqme is aris, rom marto ar movidoda. eqvsi weli drois didi monakveTia. ara, maris araferi esaqmeba ciupfneris saxlSi da mis loginSi. ratom unda sauzmobdnen erTad, erT sufrasTan? erTi piroba isic ki gadavwyvite, marisaTvis mebrZola, magram es sityva CemT- vis raRac fizikurTanaa dakavSirebuli _ sasacilo iqneboda ciupfnerisaTvis Cxubi gamemarTa. mari jer kidev ar iyo CemT- vis mkvdari. ai, dedaCemi ki namdvilad mkvdari iyo. mwams, zo-
  24. 24. 25 gierTi cocxali mkvdaria, zogierTi mkvdari ki cocxali, ma- gram ara im azriT, rogorc es protestantebsa da kaTolikeebs swamT. CemTvis is biWi, georgi rom erqva da tanksawinaaRmdego xelyumbarasTan erTad afeTqda, ufro cocxalia, vidre deda- Cemi. apolonis qandakebis win gaSlil mdeloze cxadad vxedav Worflian, mouqnel biWs, romelsac herberT qaliki uyviris: `ase ki ara, ai, ase~... mesmis yumbaris afeTqebis xma, aqa-iq wamokivleba, umetesobas arc wamoukivlia, mere ki qalikis Se- niSvna: `sabednierod, georgi oboli iyo~. mesmis is sityvebic, naxevari saaTis Semdeg, savaxSmod gawyobil sufrasTan dedam leos rom uTxra: _ Svilo, Sen am iaraRs im CerCet biWze ukeT xom moixmar! leom Tavi dauqnia. mamam me gadmomxeda, magram Tavisi aTi wlis vaJis TvalebSi sanugeSo veraferi ipova. mas Semdeg gavida dro, dedaCemi ager ukve ramdeni welia `rasobriv winaaRmdegobaTa momrigebeli sazogadoebebis~ centralur komitets Tavmjdomareobs. zogjer ana frankis saxlSi miemgzavreba, xolo Tu SemTxveva mieca _ amerikaSic, sadac qalTa klubebSi sityvas warmoTqvams germaneli axal- gazrdobis codvebis monaniebaze im Tavisi nazi, uwyinari xmiT, romliTac albaT gamomSvidobebisas henrieTes uTxra: `yoCa- Rad iyavi, Svilo~. dedaCemis xma yovelTvis SemiZlia movismi- no telefonis yurmilSi, magram henrieTes xmas veRarasodes movismen. henrieTes uCveulod dabali xma hqonda da wkriala sicili icoda. erTxel, CogburTis TamaSis dros, Cogani xe- lidan gauvarda, moedanze gaSeSda da ocnebamoreuli miaCerda cas. meored, sadilobisas, kovzi wvnianSi Cauvarda. deda aki- vlda, awuwunda, kaba dagilaqavda, sufra daisvarao, magram henrieTes araferi gaugonia, xolo roca gons moego, kovzi wvnianidan amoiRo, xelsaxociT gawminda da Wama ganagrZo. me- samed, roca buxarTan kartis TamaSis dros henrieTes kidev daemarTa raRac amdagvari, dedaCemi seriozulad gabrazda da uyvira: _ isev im wyeulma ocnebam Segipyro! _ mere ra moxda, mombezrda kartis TamaSi.
  25. 25. 26 am sityvebis warmoTqmisTanave henrieTem karti, romelic jer kidev xelSi eWira, buxarSi mogizgize cecxlSi Cayara. dedam TiTebi ki daiwva, magram karti, garda gulis Svi- dianisa, romelic cotaTi Seitrusa, uvneblad gamostaca cecxls. mas Semdeg Cvens ojaxSi kartis TamaSi yovelTvis henrieTes gvagonebda. Tumca deda cdilobda, Tavi ise daeWi- ra, TiTqos araferi momxdara. deda srulebiT ar aris bo- roti qali, ubralod, warmoudgenlad suleli da momWir- nea. axali karti ar gvayidvina da mgoni dResac im Seru- juli gulis SvidianiT TamaSoben. dedaCems albaT araferi agondeba, roca pasianss Slis da es Svidiani xelSi xvdeba. didi siamovnebiT davelaparakebodi telefoniT henrieTes, magram Teologebs jer ar gamougoniaT aparati amgvari la- parakisaTvis. Cemi mSoblebis telefonis nomeri yovelTvis maviwydeba da amitom telefonis wignSi movnaxe: `Snir al- fonsi, sapatio doqtori, generaluri direqtori~. CemT- vis siaxle sapatio doqtori iyo. sanam nomers avkrefdi, fiqrebSi saxlisaken gavwie, Cavyevi koblencis quCas, gavedi eberTaleeze da marcxniv, rainisaken gavuxvie. fexiT TiTqmis erTi saaTis savalia. am dros telefonisti gogos xma mo- mesma: _ doqtor Sniris bina gaxlavT. _ qalbaton SnirTan dalaparakeba msurs. _ vin brZandebiT? _ Sniri, _ vupasuxe me, _ zemoxsenebuli qalbatonis Rvi- Zli Svili, hansi. telefonistma nerwyvi gadaylapa, Semdeg erTi wamiT dafi- qrda da me eqvsi kilometris manZilze vigrZeni, rom daibna. suni sasiamovno asdioda, sapnisa da frCxilebze axalwasmuli laqis. etyoba, icoda, rom amqveynad varsebob, magram rogor moqceuliyo, aravis daurigebia. cxadia, Cem Sesaxeb saeWvo Wo- rebi CaawveTes yurSi _ garewari, amrev-damreviao. _ vinaa imis Tavdebi, rom ar mexumrebiT? _ mkiTxa man bo- los. _ darwmunebuli brZandebodeT, _ vupasuxe me, _ Tu saWi-
  26. 26. 27 roa, SemiZlia CamogiTvaloT dedaCemis gansakuTrebuli niSne- bi. marcxniv, tuCebs qvemoT, xali aqvs, meWeWi ki... _ kmara, _ miTxra siciliT gogom da telefoni gadarTo. Cvens saxlSi rTuli satelefono sistemaa. marto mamaCems sami sxvadasxva xazi aqvs: wiTeli _ mura naxSirisaTvis, Savi _ birJisaTvis, xolo TeTri _ kerZo saubrebisaTvis. dedas gankargulebaSi mxolod ori telefonia; Savi _ rasobriv winaaRmdegobaTa momrigebeli sazogadoebebis centraluri komitetisaTvis da TeTri _ kerZo saubrebisaTvis. Tumca de- das pirad angariSze bankSi, im grafaSi, sadac `saldo~ weria, eqvsniSna cifria Casmuli, satelefono an amsterdamsa da sxva qalaqebSi mogzaurobis xarjebs centraluri komiteti una- zRaurebs. telefonistma SecdomiT Savi telefoni CarTo. dedaCemma yurmili aiRo da saqmianad mipasuxa: _ gismenT rasobriv winaaRmdegobaTa momrigebeli sazoga- doebebis centraluri komiteti. ena Camivarda. mas rom eTqva, qalbatoni Sniri gaxlavarTo, albaT, vetyodi, hansi var, deda, rogor xar-meTqi, magram amis nacvlad vuTxari: _ ebraeli iankebis centraluri komitetis delegati gela- parakebaT. bonSi var gavliT, Tu SeiZleba damakavSireT Tqvens qaliSvilTan. meve SemaSina iman, rac vTqvi. dedam jer wamoiyvira, Semdeg mZimed amoioxra da mivxvdi, rogor daberebula. _ Sen amas, albaT, arasodes daiviwyeb, ara? _ miTxra man. Tavadac Zlivs Sevikave cremli da Cumad vuTxari: _ saWiro kia amis daviwyeba, deda? igi erTxans dumda da uecrad momesma CemTvis esoden Ta- vzardamcemi dedabruli tirili. deda xuTi weli ar menaxa da axla igi samocs iqneboda mitanebuli. erTi wuTiT isic ki davijere, TiTqos dedas marTlac SeeZlo telefoni ga- daerTo da henrieTesTan davekavSirebine. aki, yovelTvis am- bobda: `Tu movindome, zecasac davukavSirdebi telefoniT~. cxadia, xumrobda _ dRes xom sakuTar telefonze yvela ase
  27. 27. 28 laparakobs: me, Cemo kargo, pirdapiri xazi maqvs partiasTan, universitetTan, telestudiasTan da Sinagan saqmeTa saminis- trosTano. rogor mindoda henrieTes xma gamegona, Tundac marto `ara- feri~ an `nexvi~ eTqva. am sityvas ise ityoda xolme, sulac ar JRerda uxamsad. sakmarisi iyo Sniclers henrieTes `mis- tikur niWze~ Camoegdo laparaki da henrieTe maSinve miaxli- da: `nexvi~. da es sityva ise lamazad JRerda, rogorc `nergi~ (Snicleri mwerali iyo, erT-erTi im muqTaxoraTagani, omis dros Cvens ojaxSi rom cxovrobdnen). roca henrieTes `Tavisi mouvlida~, Snicleri yovelTvis mistikur niWze Camoagdebda sityvas. amis Tqma da henrieTes pasuxi `nexvi~ erTi iyo. hen- rieTes sxva ramec SeeZlo eTqva: `is suleli folenaxi dRes isev davamarcxe~ anda romelime franguli fraza: `La condition du Monsieur le comte est parfaite~1 . zogjer henrieTe gakveTilebis momzadebaSi mexmareboda. yvelas sicils hgvrida is ambavi, rom sxvebis gakveTilebi kargad icoda, Tavisi ki _ cudad. magram henrieTes xmis magivrad dedaCemis dedabruli tirili mesmoda da amitom vkiTxe: _ rogoraa mama? _ ah, mama moxucda, moxucda da dabrZenda, _ miTxra man. _ leo? _ o, leo bejiTia, metismetad bejiTi da mas did momavals uwinaswarmetyveleben TeologiaSi, _ mipasuxa dedam. _ o, RmerTo Cemo, _ vTqvi me, _ raRa maincdamainc leos momavali unda iyos dakavSirebuli TeologiasTan! _ Cven didad gvewyina, roca man rjuli gamoicvala, magram adamianis sulier miswrafebebs win vin aRudgeba, _ miTxra dedam. dedam kvlav savsebiT daimorCila xma da erTi wuTiT mac- dunebeli survili gamiCnda, mekiTxa misTvis Snicleris ambavi, romelic Cvens ojaxSi axlac miRebuli kacia. xorcsavse, napa- 1 La condition du Monsieur le comte est parfaite (fr.) _ batoni grafis mdgoma- reoba brwyinvalea.
  28. 28. 29 tivebi, germanelTa Rirsebis grZnobiT Sepyrobili vaJbatoni Snicleri im dros keTilSobiluri evropeizmiT iyo gatacebu- li. mogvianebiT cnobismoyvareobam mZlia da wavikiTxe misi erTi romani `frangis siyvaruli~. wigni ufro mosawyeni aRmoCnda, vidre saTauri gafiqrebinebda. gasaocrad originaluri masSi mxolod is iyo, rom mTavari gmiri, tyve frangi leitenanti qera gaxldaT. xolo gmiri qali, mozeleli germaneli gogona _ Savgvremani. Snicleri yovelTvis krTeboda, roca henrieTe ityoda `nexvi~, _ es albaT orjer Tu moxda, magram Snicleri mainc irwmuneboda, rom mistikuri niWi SeiZleba savsebiT esa- dagebodes `salanZRavi sityvebis wamoyrantalebis dauokebel survils~ (Tumca henrieTes araviTari dauokebeli survili ar ubiZgebda da zemonaxseneb sityvas ki ar wamoayrantalebda, piriqiT, Cveulebrivad ambobda xolme), Tan amis dasadasture- blad gioresis xuTtomian `qristianul mistikas~ miaTrevda. Snicleris romanebs, cxadia, daxvewiloba ar aklda. Tundac, ai, es rad Rirs: `franguli Rvinoebis saxelebi ise JRers, Ti- Tqos broli wkrialebs, roca Seyvarebulebi erTmaneTs adRe- grZeleben da Wiqebs uWaxuneben~. romani mTavrdeba saidumlo qorwinebiT da swored amis gamo daatyda maSin Tavs Sniclers imperiis mweralTa palatis wyroma: aTiode TviT wera aukrZa- les. amerikelebma ki, rogorc winaaRmdegobis moZraobis mo- nawiles, Tavze xeli gadausves da kulturis dargSi samuSaod miiwvies. axla igi bonSi daqris da, Tuki SemTxveva mieca, hyve- ba, faSisturi reJimis dros beWdva amikrZaleso. Tumca aseT pirmoTne vaJbatons arc sWirdeba tyuilis Tqma, Tavis saqmeebs isedac agvarebs mudam. amave dros dedaCems swored man STaago- na, nacistebTan gavegzavneT, me _ iungfolkSi, xolo henrieTe _ `germanel qaliSvilTa kavSirSi~. _ aseT dros, mowyaleo qalbatono, erTmaneTs gverdSi unda vedgeT, erTad vibrZoloT, erTad vitanjoT. axlac cxadad vxedav: mogugune buxarTan dgas Snicleri da xelSi mamaCemis sigara uWiravs. _ zog-zogi usamarTloba, romlis msxverplic me gavxdi, veraviTar Crdils ver miayenebs Cems naTelsa da obieqtur
  29. 29. 30 damokidebulebas movlenebisadmi. vici, _ am dros marTla aukankalda xma, _ vici, Cveni mxsneli iaraRi fiurers ukve xelSi uWiravs. da amas ambobda daaxloebiT erTi dRiT adre, sanam amerike- lebi bons daipyrobdnen. _ marTla, Snicleri rogor brZandeba? _ vkiTxe dedas. _ SesaniSnavad, _ mipasuxa man, _ sagareo saqmeTa saminis- tro erT nabijsac veRar dgams umisod. dedaCems, ra Tqma unda, yvelaferi daviwyebuli hqonda. sak- virveli is iyo, rom `ebraeli iankebis~ xsenebaze raRac mainc gaaxsenda. amitomac ar vnanobdi, ase rom daviwye laparaki. _ babua rasa iqms? _ vkiTxe me. _ mSvenivradaa, _ miTxra dedam, _ qva da rkinasaviTaa. male oTxmocdameaTe wlisTavs izeimebs. verafriT mivmxvdar- var, rogor moaRwia am asakamde. _ ubralod, _ vupasuxe me, _ am xalisian berikacebs vera- feri gastexs, verc Zvelis gaxseneba da verc sindisis qenjna. Sin aris? _ ara, _ mipasuxa dedam, _ eqvsi kviriT gaemgzavra iskiaSi. erTxans vdumdiT. xma jer kidev ar memorCileboda, dedas ki SesaniSnavad eWira Tavi da bolos miTxra: _ axla ki, modi, risTvisac dareke, imaze visaubroT. gavige, isev cud dReSi yofilxar. isic miambes, Turme saqmeSi xeli mogecara. _ ho? _ vupasuxe me, _ Sen albaT geSinia, rom fuls gTxo- vT. magram tyuilad geSinia. xom vici, mainc arafers momcemT. am saqmes sasamarTlo gadawyvets. fuli ki marTlac mWirdeba, amerikaSi minda wavide. erTi iqauri kaci dampirda, xels mo- gimarTavo. marTalia, is kaci ebraeli iankia, magram me yvela- fers viRoneb imisaTvis, rom rasobrivma winaaRmdegobebma Tavi ar iCinos. axla atireba azradac ar mosvlia. swored im dros, roca yurmils vdebdi, gavigone, kidev raRac Tqva principebze. saqme is iyo, rom dedas, rogorc yovelTvis, axlac `arafris~ suni ar udioda. misi erT-erTi principi RaRadebda: `maRali wris
  30. 30. 31 qals araviTari suni ar unda udiodes~. SeiZleba esaa imis mi- zezi, rom mamaCems lamazi sayvareli hyavs. marTalia, suni arc mis sayvarels udis, magram ise gamoiyureba, TiTqos keTilsur- nelebas afrqvevdes. 6 yvela baliSi, rac xelSi momyva, zurgs ukan amovide, mtki- vani fexi skamze Camovde, telefoni axlos moviCoCe da davfi- qrdi, iqneb, jobs, samzareuloSi gavide da macivridan koniaki movitano-meTqi. gansakuTrebiT mzakvrulad JRerda dedaCemis xma, roca mi- Txra: `saqmeSi xeli mogecara~, Tan arc cdila daemala, rom sixaruliT cas ewia. gulubryvilo viyavi, roca vfiqrobdi, bonSi Cemi xelis mocarvis Taobaze araferi ecodinebaT-meTqi. raki dedam icoda, icoda mamamac, gaagebinebdnen leosac, leo ciupfners Seatyobinebda, ciupfneri ki mTel wres mosdeb- da da, ra Tqma unda, marisac Caukaklavda. maris Cemze metad ewyineboda es ambavi. sma Tu mivatove, male kvlav mivaRwev im safexurs, rasac Cemi agenti conereri `saSualoze sakmaod ma- Ral dones~ eZaxis da es sruliad sakmarisi iqneboda wumpemde darCenili ocdaori wlis gasaTrevad. erTaderTi, rasac co- nereri CemSi afasebs, is gaxlavT, rom `farTo profesionalu- ri bazisi~ maqvs. rac Seexeba xelovnebas, am saqmisa conerers saerTod araferi gaegeba da warmatebis mixedviT msjelobs masze. samagierod, sakmaod kargad icnobs xelobas da mSveni- vrad esmis, rom kidev oci weli SemiZlia vipampulo sxvadasxva scenaze ocdaaT markad. magram mari am ambavs sul sxvagvarad uyurebs. mas uTuod daamwuxrebs, rom SemoqmedebiTi marcxi ganvicade da ubadruk mdgomareobaSi aRmovCndi, raSic pira- dad me SemaZrwunebels verafers vxedav. Soridan mayurebeli adamiani _ amqveynad TiToeulisaTvis yvela Soridan mayure- belia _ sxvis mdgomareobas an ufro muq, an ufro naTel fe- rebSi aRiqvams, vidre Tavad is, visac es uSualod exeba. suler- Tia, bednierebas Seexeba es Tu ubedurebas, siyvaruls, Wmunvas Tu SemoqmedebiT marcxs. raSi menaRvleba, rogor warvudgebi
  31. 31. 32 ayrolebul darbazebSi kaTolike diasaxlisebs an evangelist medicinis debs _ rogorc klouni Tu rogorc takimasxara. samwuxarod, yvela am religiur kavSirs saocrad mcdari war- modgena aqvs honorarze. aseTi kavSiris xelmZRvaneli qali fiqrobs, rom ormocdaaTi marka gvariani Tanxaa _ Tu kaci aseT Tanxas TveSi ocjer iRebs, Tavisuflad gaitans Tavs. me rom mas mxolod grimze daxarjuli Tanxis angariSi vuCveno da, amave dros, avuxsna, rom repeticiisaTvis cota ufro didi oTaxi mWirdeba sastumroSi, vidre samze gamravlebuli ori metri da oci santimetria, albaT, gaifiqrebs, Tavisi sayvare- li sabas dedofaliviT mflangveliao. xolo Tu imasac dav- Zen, rom mivirTmev mxolod Toxlo kvercxs, bulions, dakepil katlets da pamidors, igi pirjvars gadaiwers da gaifiqrebs, es kaci SimSiliT iklavs Tavso _ misi azriT xom kacma yovel- dRe unda isadilos rigianad. dabolos, Tu gamovutydebi, rom Cemi mankieri midrekilebaa saRamos gazeTebis kiTxva, sigare- tis weva da riC-raCis1 TamaSi, arnaxul TaRliTad CamTvlis. didi xania, rac adamianebTan fulsa da xelovnebaze laparaks moveSvi _ iq, sadac fuli da xelovneba erTmaneTs xvdeba, sa- qmes xeiriani piri ar uCans. xelovans an akleben fuls, anda imaze mets uxdian, rasac imsaxurebs. erTxel moxetiale inglisur cirkSi erTi klounis gamos- vlas daveswari. ostatobaSi ocjer mainc mjobda, rogorc xe- lovani Cemze aTi TaviT maRla idga, magram yovel gamosvlaSi aT markaze naklebs uxdidnen. inglisel klouns jeims elisi erqva, ormocdaaT wels iyo mitanebuli. jeimsi vaxSamze davpa- tiJe. mogvarTves loriani omleti, salaTa da vaSlis paSteti. saWmelma awyina: aTi wlis ganmavlobaSi ase msuyed ar uvaxSmia. mas Semdeg, rac jeimsi gavicani, aRarc fulze vlaparakob da aRarc xelovnebaze. piradad me cxovrebis dinebas mivyvebi da arasodes maviwyde- ba wumpe. mari ki sul sxvagvarad fiqrobs: igi wamdauwum `gamo- 1 riC-raCi (Mensh-ärgare-Dich-nicht-Spielen (germ.) _ adamiano, nu brazob) _ erTgvari TamaSia dafiT, kamaTliT da patara feradi figurebiT.
  32. 32. 33 cxadebaze~ laparakobs, misTvis yvelaferi gamocxadebaa, ase gasinjeT, Cemi saqmianobac ki. Turme nu ityviT da, me mxiaruli kacic vyofilvar, Taviseburad RvTismosavic da ase Semdeg. sa- Sinelebaa. mainc rogor aqvT yvelaferi areul-dareuli TavSi am kaTolikeebs. karg Rvinosac ki ver svamen ise, rom tvini ar iRrZon, lamis gaskdnen, sanam `Seicnoben~, ratom da risTvis aris es Rvino kargi. rac Seexeba Secnobas, isini am mxriv marq- sistebs ar Camouvardebian. mari aRSfoTda, roca am ramdenime Tvis winaT gitara viyide da vuTxari, sul male simReris te- qsts da melodias me TviTon SevTxzav da gitaris TanxlebiT Sevasruleb-meTqi. man miTxra, es Sens profesionalur `do- nes~ ar ekadrebao, razedac vupasuxe: wumpiani Txrilis done- ze ufro dabla mxolod arxia-meTqi. man veraferi gaigo. me ki ar miyvars mxatvruli saxeebis ganmarteba. Cemi an esmiT, an ara. teqstis ganmarteba Cemi saqme ar gaxlavT. vinmes, albaT, Zafebdawyvetili marioneti vegone, magram ase ar iyo: Zafebi magrad meWira xelSi, vicodi, boxumis ro- meliRac sazogadoebis scenaze mTvrali da muxldaJeJili vegde, darbazidan mesmoda TanagrZnobiT gamsWvaluli CurCu- lic da Tavi naZiralad mimaCnda. amgvari TanagrZnoba arafriT damimsaxurebia. is merCivna, erTi-orjer magrad daestvinaT. koWlobiTac ki ufro mometebulad vkoWlobdi, vidre fexis aseTma daSavebam icis. mindoda, mari damebrunebina da Cemebu- rad daviwye brZola imisaTvis, rasac mis wignebSi `xorcieli Jini~ hqvia. 7 erT saRamos maris oTaxSi Sevedi, mindoda is gamekeTebina, rasac qali da kaci erTad akeTeben. maSin me ocdaerTi wlis viyavi, mari ki cxrametisa. nasadilevs ciupfnerTan erTad vnaxe. isini xelixelCakidebulni gamodiodnen axalgazrda kaTolikeTa saxlidan, saxeze orives Rimili dasTamaSebda da aman Semaguliana. ra hqonda saerTo maris ciupfnerTan! ase sulelurad xelixelCakidebulebi rom vixile, avad gavxdi. Cvens qalaqSi ciupfners TiTqmis yvela icnobda, umTavresad
  33. 33. 34 mamamisis gamo, romelic ufrosi maswavlebeli iyo da nacis- tebma skolidan panRuris kvriT gamoagdes. omis damTavrebis Semdeg mas direqtorad niSnavdnen imave skolaSi, magram uari ganacxada. viRacas misi ministrad daniSvnac ki undoda, ramac lamis gadaria kaci. maSin uTqvams: _ me maswavlebeli var da minda, bolomde maswavleblad da- vrCe. ciupfneris mama maRali, wynari kaci iyo. piradad me, ro- gorc maswavlebeli, cota mosawyeni momeCvena. erTxel germa- nuli enis maswavlebeli Secvala da xmamaRla wagvikiTxa leq- si mSvenier axalgazrda feriaze. Cemi azri skolis saqmeebze mxedvelobaSi misaRebi araa, saerTod ki Secdoma iyo Cemi ufro didxans datoveba skolaSi, vidre kanoniTaa gaTvaliswinebuli. kanoniT gaTvaliswinebuli droc ki yelSi amomivida. amis gamo arasodes damidanaSaule- bia skolis maswavleblebi, yvelaferi Cemi mSoblebis brali iyo. sayovelTaod gavrcelebul sens _ `simwifis atestati mainc xom unda miiRos~ _ adre Tu gvian, rasobriv winaaRm- degobaTa momrigebeli sazogadoebebis centralurma komite- tma unda mixedos. es marTlac rasobrivi sakiTxia. skolada- mTavrebulebi, skoladaumTavrebelni, maswavleblebi, ufrosi maswavleblebi, diplomianebi, udiplomoni _ gana eseni rase- bi ar arian... roca ciupfneris mamam leqsi wagvikiTxa, mcire xans Seicada da Semdeg RimiliT gvkiTxa: _ vis surs, azri gamoTqvas? me imwamsve wamovxti da ganvacxade: _ Cemi azriT, leqsi SesaniSnavia. mTeli klasi axarxarda, ciupfneris mama ki iRimeboda, ma- gram mis RimilSi qedmaRloba ar igrZnoboda. ciupfneris mama sasiamovno, oRond cotaTi gulciv kacad momeCvena. mis vaJs arc ise kargad, magram mamamisze ukeT ki vicnobdi. erTxel sportul moedans Cavuare, sadac ciupfneri sxva axalgazrda kaTolikeebTan erTad fexburTs TamaSobda. roca sayureblad SevCerdi, man damiZaxa: _ CvenTan TamaSi xom ar ginda?
  34. 34. 35 me davTanxmdi da marcxena naxevarmcvelis adgili davikave im gundSi, romelic ciupfneris winaaRmdeg TamaSobda. roca TamaSi davamTavreT, man miTxra: _ ginda, wamodi CvenTan? _ sad? _ vkiTxe me. _ Cvens Sexvedraze. _ me kaTolike ara var, _ vupasuxe me. ciupfners gaecina, gaicines sxvebmac. _ Cven vimRerebT... Senc xom giyvars simRera, _ miTxra ciu- pfnerma. _ diax, _ vupasuxe me, _ magram aseTi Sexvedrebi yelSi maqvs amosuli, ori weliwadi tyuilad xom ar davyavi inter- natSi. ciupfners emwara Cemi sityvebi, magram mainc gaicina da mi- Txra: _ Tu mogesurveba, kvlav modi fexburTis saTamaSod. mis jgufTan kidev ramdenjerme viTamaSe fexburTi, Semdeg ki nayinis saWmelad gavyevi biWebs. ciupfners aRarasodes mi- vuwvevivar saRamoze. me isic vicodi, rom mari Tavisi jgufis saRamoebze imave axalgazrda kaTolikeTa saxlSi dadioda. ma- ris kargad vicnobdi, metismetad kargadac ki, radgan mamamisis xSiri stumari viyavi. zogjer, roca mari amxanag gogoebTan erTad burTs TamaSobda, sportul moedanze mec Sevivlidi da maT TamaSs Tvalyurs vadevnebdi, ufro sworad, vuyurebdi ma- ris. isic gaxurebul TamaSSi drodadro xels miqnevda da mi- Rimoda. sapasuxod, mec xels vuqnevdi da vuRimodi. erTmaneTs SesaniSnavad vicnobdiT. yvelaze xSirad swored im dros dav- diodi mamamisTan. roca igi hegelisa da marqsis TxzulebaTa axsnas damiwyebda, zogjer maric CvenTan Camojdeboda xolme, magram mamis saxlSi arasodes miRimoda. amitom im dRes, roca nasadilevs is da ciupfneri axalgazrda kaTolikeTa saxli- dan xelixelCakidebulni gamovidnen, guli metkina. im wels sulelur mdgomareobaSi aRmovCndi _ swavlas Tavi davanebe, ocdaerTi wlisa gimnaziis meeqvse klasidan gamove- di. paterebma didi gulisxmiereba gamoiCines, gamosaTxovari
  35. 35. 36 saRamoc ki momiwyves, mogvarTves ludi, buterbrodebi da sigaretebi, xolo imaT, vinc sigarets ar eweoda, SokoladiT umaspinZldebodnen. Tanaklaselebs ramdenime pantomima vuCve- ne: `kaTolikuri qadageba~, `evangelisturi qadageba~, `muSe- bi, romelTac konvertebiT xelfasi dauriges~. erTi sityviT, amxanagebs vuCvene aTasgvari fokusi da Carli Caplinsac ki mivbaZe. im saRamos gamosaTxovari sityvac warmovTqvi Temaze: `ra yalbia azri, TiTqos simwifis mowmoba maradiuli netare- bis erT-erTi sawindaria~. saRamom mxiarulad Caiara. mxolod Cemianebi iyvnen daboRmilni da gamwarebulni. deda sazizRrad iqceoda, mamas urCevda, maRaroSi ukari Tavio. mama ki sul erTsa da imaves mekiTxeboda, ra ginda gamoxvideo? _ klouni, _ vupasuxe me. _ Sen, albaT, msaxioboba ginda. kargi, iqneb, movaxerxo da romelime Sesaferis saswavlebelSi migabaro, _ miTxra man. _ ara, _ gamovedave me, _ msaxiobi ki ara, klouni minda gavxde... saswavleblebs CemTvis sargebloba ar moutaniaT. _ amixseni mainc, rogori warmodgena gaqvs amaze, _ miTxra man. _ araviTari, _ vupasuxe me, _ araviTari-meTqi da sul male gaveclebi aqaurobas. gavida ori saSineli Tve. imis vaJkacoba ar meyo, rom guda- nabadi amekra da iqaurobas gavclodi. yoveli lukmis pirSi Cadebis dros deda ise miyurebda, TiTqos borotmoqmedebas Ca- vdiodi. arada, wlebis ganmavlobaSi Cvens ojaxSi Semoxetebul sxvadasxva juris muqTaxorebs Zalad atenida pirSi saWmels. magram isini iyvnen `mxatvrebi da poetebi~; mjRabneli Sni- cleri da gruberi, romelic arc ise cudi kaci Canda. gruber- ma, am sqelma, Cumma da WuWyianma lirikosma naxevari weliwadi icxovra CvenTan da am xnis ganmavlobaSi erTi striqonic ki ar dauweria. diliT, roca sasauzmod Camodioda, dedaCemi ise Seacqerdeboda saxeSi yovelTvis, TiTqos surda demonTan misi SeWidebis imRamindeli kvali aRmoeCina. aseTi daJinebuli mze- ra TiTqmis uzneobas udrida. erT mSvenier dRes gruberi ukva- lod gaqra da Cven, bavSvebi, gakvirvebulni davrCiT, roca mis
  36. 36. 37 oTaxSi furclebad daSlili kriminaluri romanebis mTeli dasta aRmovaCineT, xolo sawer magidaze _ ramdenime bara- Ti, romlebzedac mxolod erTi sityva ewera `arara~. erTze orjer ewera `arara, arara~. aseTi adamianebisaTvis dedaCemi sardafSic ki Cadioda da sagangebod amohqonda loris naWeri. me rom uzarmazari zomis molberti meyida da uzarmazar ti- loebze sisuleleebi mejRabna, dedaCemi, albaT, Cems arsebobas Seegueboda da ityoda: `Cveni hansi xelovania, marTalia, jer ZiebebSia, magram Tavis gzas ipovis~. sinamdvileSi ki ra viyavi? _ asakgadacilebuli meeqvseklaseli, viszedac man mxolod is icoda, rom gvarianad exerxeba fokusebis Cveneba. me, ra Tqma unda, araviTari survili ar mqonda lukmapuris saSovnelad meCvenebina maTTvis Cemi `xelovnebis nimuSebi~. amitom naxevar dRes maris mamasTan, moxuc derkumTan vatarebdi. cotas du- qanSic vexmarebodi da, Tumca saqme kargad ar miudioda, siga- retebiT mainc mamaragebda. ase vcxovrobdi ori Tve, magram es ori Tve maradisobad meCveneboda, gacilebiT xangrZliv drod, vidre omi. maris iSviaTad vxedavdi, gamosaSvebi gamocdebisaT- vis emzadeboda da amxanag gogonebTan mecadineobda. zogjer moxuci derkumi mamCnevda, rom yurs ar vugdebdi, samzareulos kars viyavi miCerebuli. maSin Tavis qneviT meubneboda: _ dRes daigvianebs. da me saxeze almuri medeboda. paraskevi dRe iyo da vicodi, yovel paraskev saRamos derku- mi kinoSi dadioda, magram ar vicodi, mari Sin iqneboda Tu me- gobar qaliSvilTan wavidoda sazuTxad. erTi SexedviT TiTqos araferze vfiqrobdi, magram amave dros vfiqrobdi TiTqmis yvelaferze, imazec, SeZlebda Tu ara mari `imis Semdeg~ gamo- cdebis Cabarebas. erTi ram winaswar vicodi _ da es Semdeg da- dasturda kidec: naxevari boni xom aRSfoTdeboda imis gamo, rom me igi Sevacdine, Tan imasac daumatebdnen: gamocdebi karze iyo momdgario. vfiqrobdi imazec, rom maris Tanaklaseli go- gonebi imedgacruebulni darCebodnen. meSinoda imisac, rasac internatSi erTma biWma `fiziologiuri detalebi~ uwoda, mawuxebda potenciis sakiTxic. yvelaze gasaocari is iyo, rom
  37. 37. 38 sruliad ar vgrZnobdi `xorciel Jins~. vfiqrobdi imazec, rom usindisoba iqneboda, im gasaRebiT Sevsuliyavi maT saxl- Si, mamamisma rom momca, magram arCevani ar mqonda _ mainc am gasaRebiT unda mesargebla. maris oTaxis erTaderTi fanja- ra quCaSi gadioda da is quCa Ramis or saaTamde xalxiT iyo savse. fanjaraSi gadacoceba rom mecada, SeeZloT policiaSi mivebrZanebine. radgan me im dRes unda gamekeTebina marisTan `is saqme~, afTiaqSi Sevedi da Cemi Zmisgan, leosgan nasesxebi fuliT raRac iseTi wamali viyide, internatis biWebis TqmiT, mamakacs rom Zalas matebs. Sevedi Tu ara afTiaqSi, yurebamde gavwiTldi. sabednierod, gamyidveli mamakaci iyo, magram me mainc ise Cumad velaparakebodi, rom momTxova `xmamaRla da garkveviT~ meTqva, rac msurda. momces is preparati, romelic davasaxele, da fuli meafTiaqis cols gadavuxade. qalma Se- momxeda da Tavi gadaaqn-gadmoaqnia. man, ra Tqma unda, micno da, roca meore diliT gaigo, rac moxda, albaT iseTi azrebi dautrialda TavSi, sinamdvilesTan saerTo rom araferi hqon- da, radgan gaviare Tu ara oriode quCa, is kolofi gavxseni da abebi binZur arxSi Cavyare. Svidi saaTisaTvis, roca kinoSi seansebi iwyeba, gudenauga- seze gavedi. gasaRebi xelSi meWira, magram kari Ria damxvda. roca duqanSi Sevedi, marim derefnidan Tavi gamoyo da daiZaxa: _ aris mand vinme? _ diax, _ gavZaxe, _ me var. kibeze avirbine. mari gaocebuli miyurebda, roca nel-nela Tavisi oTaxisaken ise davaxevine, rom TiTic ar damikarebia. xangrZlivad Cven arasodes gvilaparakia, mxolod vuyurebdiT da vuRimodiT erTmaneTs. amitom arc is vicodi, SenobiT me- laparaka masTan Tu TqvenobiT. maris ecva nacrisferi, gacveTi- li, dedisgan memkvidreobiT miRebuli abanos xalaTi, muqi Tma mwvane zonriT hqonda ukan Sekruli. mogvianebiT, roca zonari gavxseni, mivxvdi, rom mamamisis ankesis nawyveti iyo. maris ise SeeSinda, rom arafris Tqma ar damWirvebia, maSinve mSvenivrad mixvda, rac mindoda. _ momSordi, _ es ki miTxra, magram rogorRac angariS-
  38. 38. 39 miucemlad warmoTqva. vicodi, rom ase unda eTqva. imasac mi- vxvdiT orive, rom es sityva seriozuladac iyo naTqvami da angariSmiucemladac, magram rogorc ki miTxra `momSordi~ da ara `momSordiT~, yvelaferi maSinve gadawyda. es mokle sityva imden sinazes itevda, megona mTeli sicocxlis manZilze ikma- rebda da kinaRam avtirdi. es sityva man ise warmoTqva, rom erT rameSi sabolood davrwmundi: icoda, rom movidodi, yovel SemTxvevaSi, Cemi gamocxadeba misTvis moulodneli ar yofila. _ ara, ara, arsadac ar waval, _ vuTxari me, _ sad unda wavide? man Tavi gaaqnia. _ Sen ginda, oci marka visesxo, kiolnSi gavemgzavro da mere SegirTo? _ ara, _ mipasuxa man, _ nu waxval kiolnSi. maris Sevxede da SiSi gamiqra. bavSvi aRarc me viyavi, maric daqalebuliyo. vxedavdi, ro- gor eWira xelSi xalaTis kalTa, vuyurebdi mis magidas fan- jarasTan da mixaroda, rom saskolo xaraxuris nacvlad zed Targi da sakeravi edo. me qveviT, duqanSi Cavirbine, kari davke- te da gasaRebi iq davde, sadac ager ukve ormocdaaTi welia inaxaven _ kanfetebis qilasa da saswavlo rveulebs Soris. roca zeviT avedi, mari sawolze ijda da tiroda. mec sawolze Camovjeqi, mis pirdapir, sigarets movukide da maris gavuwode. im dRes marim Tavis sicocxleSi pirvelad moswia sigareti. eweoda uxerxulad da uecrad orives Cvenda uneburad gagve- cina _ ise sasacilod uSvebda kvamls gamobuStuli tuCebi- dan, TiTqos keklucobso da roca SemTxveviT, kai gaqeqiliviT, boli cxviridanac gamouSva, isev gamecina. bolos laparaki daviwyeT. vlaparakobdiT bevrs. marim miTxra, im qalebze vfi- qrob, kiolnSi `am saqmes~ fulis gamo rom akeTeben, Tan darw- munebulni arian, rom `amaSi~ fuli usaTuod unda gadauxadon, Tumca `amaSi~ fulis gadaxda ar SeiZlebao. gamodis, rom qa- lebi, romelTa qmrebi `imnairebTan~ dadian, valSi arian maT winaSe, me ki ar minda, vinmes winaSe brali mimiZRodeso. mec be- vrs vlaparakobdi, varwmunebdi, rom yvelaferi, rac egreT wo-
  39. 39. 40 debuli fizikuri Tu sxvagvari siyvarulis Sesaxeb wamikiTxavs, sisuleled mimaCnia, radgan maTi erTmaneTisagan gamijvna ar SemiZlia-meTqi. marim mkiTxa, lamaz qalad Tu migaCnivar da Tu giyvarvaro. me vupasuxe, erTaderTi qaliSvili xar, visTanac `am saqmis~ gakeTebis survili maqvs da roca amaze vfiqrobdi, internatSic ki mudam Sen myavdi mxedvelobaSi-meTqi. bolos mari wamodga da saabazanoSi gavida, me ki isev mis sawolze vi- jeqi, sigarets veweodi da im saSinel abebze vfiqrobdi, binZur arxSi rom Cavyare. isev Semipyro SiSma. saabazanosTan mivedi da karze davakakune. mari erTxans yoymanobda, Semdeg neba damrTo. rogorc ki saabazanoSi Sevedi da mari davinaxe, SiSi maSinve gamiqra. sanam TmaSi surnelovan siTxes izelda, saxeze cremli RapaRupiT Camosdioda, xolo roca pudris wasma daiwyo, vki- Txe: _ aq ras akeTeb? _ vlamazdebi, _ mipasuxa man. roca sqlad wasmul pudrSi cremlma patara Rarebi gaikvlia, mkiTxa: _ xom ar ajobebs, waxvide? _ ara, _ vupasuxe me. marim kiolnis wyali daipkura, me ki abazanis kideze Ca- movjeqi da gavifiqre: `gveyofa ki ori saaTi?~ naxevar saaTze meti laqlaqSi gavatareT. skolaSi im sakiTxis specialiste- bic iyvnen, Tu raoden Znelia qaliSvilis qalad gadaqceva. me ganuwyvetliv vfiqrobdi gunTerze1 , romelmac jer zigfridi2 gagzavna brunhildesTan3 da mxolod amis Semdeg ewvia TviTon, vfiqrobdi nibelungebis saSinel xocva-Jletaze, romelic aseT ambavs mohyva. roca skolaSi gavdiodiT `nibelungebis si- mReras~, me wamovdeqi da pater vunibalds vuTxari: 1 gunTeri _ `nibelungebis simReraSi~ burgundiis mefe, krimhildes Zma. 2 zigfridi _ `nibelungebis simReris~ mTavari personaJi, romelic gunTe- risaTvis brunhildes imorCilebs. 3 brunhilde _ `nibelungebis simReraSi~ islandiis dedofali. mas Semdeg, rac zigfridi daimorCilebs, burgundiis mefis, gunTeris coli xdeba.
  40. 40. 41 _ brunhilde xom marTla iyo zigfridis coli. mas gaeRima da miTxra: _ magram colad krimhilde hyavda SerTuli, ymawvilo. me gavcofdi da ganvacxade, aseTi pasuxi `mRvdlur~ ganmar- tebad mimaCnia-meTqi. axla pateri vunibaldi gacofda, kaTedraze TiTiT daakaku- na, mTeli Tavisi avtoriteti moiSvelia da brZana, `aseTi Seu- racxyofa~ aRar momayenoo. me wamovdeqi da maris vuTxari: _ gexvewebi, nu tiri. marim tirili Sewyvita da cremlebis kvali pudriT dafara. sanam mis oTaxSi SevidodiT, derefanSi fanjarasTan SevCerdiT da quCas gadavxedeT: ianvari idga, quCa sveli iyo, yviTeli Ci- raRdnebis Suqi asfaltze efineboda, xolo bostneulis ma- Raziis Tavze mwvane reklama CaxCaxebda: `emil Smici~. Smics ki vicnobdi, magram ar vicodi, emili Tu erqva. emili ratomRac misi gvarisaTvis Seuferebel saxelad momeCvena. sanam maris oTaxSi SevidodiT, kari odnav gamovaRe da sinaTle gamovrTe. roca mamamisi Sin dabrunda, Cven jer ar gveZina. TerTmeti sruldeboda. gavigoneT, rogor Sevida sigaretebisaTvis du- qanSi, mere kibeze mogvesma misi fexis xma. vfiqrobdiT, uTuod SeamCnevda raRacas, radgan araCveulebrivi ram moxda, magram derkumma veraferi SeamCnia. mxolod erTi wamiT miayura karTan da zeviT avida. gavigoneT, rogor gaixada fexsacmeli da iatak- ze dayara. Semdeg ki gvesmoda misi xveleba ZilSi. vcdilobdi warmomedgina, rogor Sexvdeboda am ambavs. religiaze derkum- ma didi xania aiyara guli da kaTolikur eklesias siaxloves aRar ekareboda. CemTan saubarSi Tavs esxmoda `burJuaziuli sazogadoebis cru seqsualur morals~ da brazmoreuli am- bobda, mRvdlebma qorwineba TvalTmaqcobad aqcieso. magram mainc ar viyavi darwmunebuli, rom ayalmayals ar atexda imis gamo, rac maris vuyavi. derkumi Zlier miyvarda, mec vuyvardi mas da erTi suli mqonda, SuaRamisas avmdgariyavi, mis oTaxSi Sevsuliyavi da yvelaferi meambna, magram Semdeg gadavifiqre.
  41. 41. 42 me ukve ocdaerTi wlis mamakaci viyavi, maric srulasakovani, cxrameti wlis qali iyo da aseT viTarebaSi zogjer mamaka- curi gulwrfeloba ufro saCoTiroa, vidre dumili. garda amisa, isic gavifiqre, es ambavi mas naklebad exeba, vidre aqamde megona-meTqi. kai sanaxavi ki viqnebodi, naSuadRevs gamovcxa- debuliyavi masTan da meTqva: `iciT ra, batono derkum, amaRam Tqvens qaliSvilTan vapireb daZinebas~... imas ki, rac moxda, rogorme gaigebs. cota xnis Semdeg mari adga, sibneleSi makoca da leibs zewrebi gadaaZro. oTaxSi ukuni iyo gabatonebuli, quCidan sinaTle ar Semodioda, radgan fanjaras sqeli farda Camova- fareT. `vin aswavla imis gakeTeba, rasac axla akeTebs? ratom gadaaZro leibs zewrebi, ratom gamoaRo fanjara? _ gavifiqre gakvirvebulma. _ me saabazanoSi gaval, Sen ki aq daibane, _ miCurCula man, Semdeg xeli momkida, loginidan wamomayena, xelCakidebulma mimiyvana im kuTxemde, sadac misi pirsabani idga, xelis faTu- riT momaZebnina wyliT savse doqi, sasapne, taSti da iRlie- bqveS zewrebamoCrili oTaxidan gavida. saxeldaxelod daviba- ne da isev loginSi Cavweqi. mikvirda, sad daikarga aqamde mari, ratom ar moaqvs sufTa TeTreuli-meTqi. saSinlad daRlili viyavi da mixaroda, SemeZlo uSiSrad mefiqra dawyevlil gun- Terze. mcire xnis Semdeg isev Semipyro SiSma, maris rame xom ar SeemTxva-meTqi. aseT rameebze internatSi Semzarav ambebs hyvebodnen. uzewro leibze wola ar msiamovnebda, garda amisa, Zveli da Cavardnili iyo, Tanac tanze mxolod zeda sacvali mecva da mcioda. isev maris mamaze daviwye fiqri. am kacs yvela komunistad Tvlida, magram roca omis Semdeg burgomistrad unda aerCiaT, komunistebma mxari ar dauWires da saqmec Cai- fuSa. yovelTvis, roca nacistebisa da komunistebis Sedarebas viwyebdi, igi cofdeboda da meubneboda: _ didi gansxvavebaa, ymawvilo, gana erTi da igivea, kaci sap- nis firmis mier gaCaRebul omSi mokvdeba Tu im saqmisaTvis, romelic SeiZleba iwamo? aqamde ar vici, vin iyo igi sinamdvileSi, magram roca er-
  42. 42. 43 Txel kinkelma Cemi TandaswrebiT `genialuri seqtanti~ uwo- da, mzad viyavi, kinkelisaTvis saxeSi mimefurTxebina. moxuci derkumi im mcirericxovan adamianebs ekuTvnoda, romelTa mi- marTac pativiscemiT viyavi gamsWvaluli. derkumi gamxdari, RvarZliani kaci iyo, imaze bevrad ufro axalgazrda, vidre gamoiyureboda. imden sigarets eweoda, rom sunTqva uWirda. mTeli is xani, rac loginSi viweqi da maris velodi, misi xve- la mesmoda zemodan, misi sawoli oTaxidan da Tavi vigindarad mimaCnda, Tumca aseTi ar viyavi. erTxel miTxra: _ ici, ratomaa ganlagebuli mdidrebis saxlSi, ai iseTSi, Seni mSoblebi rom cxovroben, moaxleTa oTaxebi Wabukoba- Si Sesuli Svilebis gverdiT? agixsni: imitom, rom mdidrebi odiTganve spekulantoben adamianis bunebiT da gulmowyale- biT. vnatrobdi, qveviT Camosuliyo da maris sawolSi Cagore- buls Tavze damdgomoda, magram piradad me zeviT asvlisa da misTvis angariSis Cabarebis survili ar mqonda. gareT inaTa. mcioda da maris oTaxis ubadrukoba guls mi- mZimebda. derkumebi didi xania gakotrdnen da amis mizezad ma- ris mamis `politikuri fanatizmi~ miaCndaT. adre maT patara stamba, patara gamomcemloba da wignis maRazia hqondaT, bo- los ki mxolod sakancelario nivTebis patara maRazia Semor- CaT, sadac mowafeebisaTvis nair-nairi tkbileulobac iyide- boda. erTxel mamaCemma miTxra: `xom xedav, sadamde SeiZleba miiyvanos adamiani fanatizm- ma... Tumca omis Semdeg derkums, rogorc politikurad devnil pirovnebas, yvela Sansi hqonda imisa, rom sakuTari gazeTi ga- moeca~. saocaria, magram moxuci derkumi arasodes mimaCnda fana- tikosad. SesaZloa, mamaCems fanatizmi da qeduxreloba erT- maneTSi ereoda. maris mama locvanebsac ki ar yidda, Tumca SeeZlo cotaTi xeli moeTbo, gansakuTrebiT, kviracxovlobis wina dReebSi. Tu ra xelmokled cxovrobdnen, mxolod maSin davinaxe, roca oTaxSi dRis sinaTle SemoiWra. karadaSi sul sami
  43. 43. 44 kaba ekida _ muqi mwvane (iseTi grZnoba mqonda, TiTqos mTe- li saukune am kabaSi vxedavdi), moyviTalo _ TiTqmis mTlad gacveTili kaba da ucnauri muqi lurji kostiumi, romel- sac mxolod saeklesio procesiebis dros icvamda. iqve ekida Zveli, momwvano-boTlisferi palto da mxolod sami wyvili fexsacmeli elaga. iyo wami, roca cdunebam mZlia, mindoda avmdgariyavi, ujrebi gamomeRo da maris sacvlebi dameTvalie- rebina, magram Tavi Sevikave. me mgoni qalis sacvlebs maSinac ver davaTvalierebdi, roca kanonierad SevirTavdi colad. derkumis xvela karga xania aRar mesmoda. eqvsi saaTi Sesrul- da, roca mari saabazanodan gamobrZanda. mixaroda, masTan ise rom gavatare Rame, rogorc aTasjer minatria. maris vakoce da, roca gamiRima, Tavi bednier kacad miviCnie. kiserze misi yinu- liviT civi xelebi vigrZeni da CurCuliT vkiTxe: _ ras akeTebdi amden xans? _ ra unda mekeTebina, zewrebi gavrecxe. siamovnebiT gamo- gicvlidi TeTreuls, magram Cven mxolod oTxi wyvili gvaqvs da roca ori dagebulia. ori irecxeba. Cemken movizide, sabani gadavaxure da, roca misi yinuliviT gaToSili xelebi iRliebSi amovide, marim miTxra, Cemi xelebi aq ise SesaniSnavad da Tbilad mokalaTdnen, rogorc Citebi budeSio. _ arafriT ar SemeZlo aseTi TeTreuli qalbatoni hube- risaTvis mimetana, _ miTxra marim, _ sarecxs yovelTvis is gvirecxavs da misgan mTeli qalaqi gaigebda, rac Cven aq movi- moqmedeT. verc gadasagdebad gavimete. erTi ki gavifiqre, gada- vyri-meTqi, magram mere mainc damenana. _ nuTu TqvenTan cxeli wyali ar modis? _ ara, boileri didi xania gagvifuWda. uecrad atirda da me vkiTxe, ra gatirebs-meTqi. man CurCu- liT Tqva: _ RmerTo, Sen xom ici, rom kaTolike var. me vuTxari, am SemTxvevaSi yvela qaliSvili, evangelisti iqneboda igi Tu saerTod urwmuno, mainc itirebda da isic vici, ratom-meTqi. marim gakvirvebiT Semomxeda. me avuxseni:
  44. 44. 45 _ imitom, rom is, rasac umankoeba hqvia, marTlac arsebobs. mari kvlav tiroda, magram aRaraferi mikiTxavs. mizezi vicodi. igi ramdenime welia xelmZRvanelobda kaTolike qa- liSvilebis jgufs, yovelTvis monawileobda saeklesio pro- cesiebSi, cxadia, araerTxel ulaparakia im qaliSvilebTan wminda mariamis qalwulobaze da axla Tavi, albaT, matyuarad da moRalated miaCnda. vicodi, ra cud dReSic iyo, magram meti lodini aRar SemeZlo da maris vuTxari, qaliSvilebs me movelaparakebi-meTqi. _ rao... vis? _ Seni jgufis qaliSvilebs, _ vupasuxe me, _ Sen axla marTla giWirs, magram roca kidev ufro gagiWirdeba, Segi- Zlia yvelas uTxra, TiTqos me gagaupatiure. maris gaecina da miTxra: _ ra sisulelea, mainc ra unda uTxra qaliSvilebs? _ arafersac ar vetyvi. ubralod warvdgebi maT winaSe, ga- viTamaSeb ramdenime nomers da imitacias da isinic maSinve ifi- qreben: `ai, Turme vin yofila is Sniri, maris rom `is~ uyo~. ase ajobebs. ratom unda iWoraon kuTxe-kuTxe? mari dafiqrda, mere isev gaicina da miTxra: _ arc ise suleli yofilxar. Semdeg uceb isev atirda da dasZina. _ aqaurebs veRar davenaxvebi. _ ratom? _ vkiTxe me, magram mari mxolod tiroda da Tavs aqnevda. maris xelebi, iRliebSi rom mqonda amodebuli, gaTba. rac ufro metad uTbeboda xelebi, miT ufro mereoda Zili. male ukve misi xelebi me maTbobdnen da roca mkiTxa, Tu giyvarvar, lamaz qalad Tu mTvlio, vupasuxe, es TavisTavad cxadia-meTqi. man miTxra, aseTi `TavisTavad cxadi~ sityvebi sasiamovno mo- sasmeniao da mec, ZilburanSi wasulma, CaviluRluRe: ra Tqma unda, lamazi xar da miyvarxar-meTqi. roca mari adga, daibana da Caicva, ukve meRviZa. mas Cemi ar Sercxvenia da mec bunebriv ambad miviCnie, misTvis mecqira. axla ufro naTlad davinaxe, ra Raribulad ecva. sanam zon-
  45. 45. 46 rebs iskvnida da Rilebs ikravda, me im lamaz-lamaz nivTebze vfiqrobdi, romelTac vuyiddi, fuli rom mqonoda. xSirad vmdgarvar moduri maRaziebis win da miTvalierebia qveda ka- bebi, puloverebi, fexsacmelebi, CanTebi, warmodgeniT mivarau- dia, rogor mouxdeboda yvelaferi es maris, magram mamamisi iseTi mkacri iyo fulis sakiTxSi, rom verafriT gavbedavdi rame meCuqebina marisaTvis. erTxel derkumma miTxra: _ siRaribe saSinelebaa, magram ufro cudia, roca siRa- ribe TandaTan giTrevs. arada adamianTa umetesoba swored am dReSia. _ da Tu mdidari xar, es raRaa? _ vkiTxe me da gavwiTldi. man dakvirvebiT Semomxeda, TviTonac gawiTlda da miTxra: _ ici, Cemo kargo, Tu fiqrs ar moeSvi, saqme cudad wagiva. imdeni vaJkacoba rom mqonoda da imis rwmena, rom amqveynad raRacis gamosworeba SeiZleba, ici, ras vizamdi? _ ara, ar vici. _ davaarsebdi iseT sazogadoebas, romelic mdidari ojaxis Svilebze izrunebda, _ miTxra man da isev gawiTlda. _ Cveni regvnebi ki sityva `asocialurs~ mxolod Raribebis mimarT xmaroben. sanam maris Cacmas Tvals vadevnebdi, TavSi aTasnairi fiqri mitrialebda. maxarebda da maRonebda kidec is ambavi, ra bune- brivi iyo misTvis misi sxeuli. Semdeg, roca erTad davexetebo- diT sastumrodan sastumroSi, diliT gangeb vdgebodi gvian, raTa meyurebina, rogor ibanda da icvamda mari. xolo Tu saa- bazano moSorebiT iyo da sawolidan maris ver vuTvalTvaleb- di, abazanaSi vwvebodi. im dilas yvelafers merCia mis oTaxSi loginSi vwolili- yavi da mxolod imaze vocnebobdi, Cacma ar daemTavrebina. mari mTeli mondomebiT ibanda kisers, mklavebs, mkerds da gulmod- gined ixexavda kbilebs. piradad me SeZlebisdagvarad Tavs va- ridebdi diliT dabanas, kbilebis xexva axlac mezareba, abaza- naSi banaoba mirCevnia, magram roca mari ibanda, me yovelTvis siamovnebas mgvrida misi cqera. ise uyvarda sisufTave, ise bu- nebrivad akeTebda yvelafers, kbilis pastis tubs saxuravsac
  46. 46. 47 ise koxtad axraxnida... im diliT Cems Zmaze, leozec vfiqrob- di. igi RvTismosavi, keTilsindisieri, seriozuli axalgazrda iyo da yovelTvis xazgasmiT meubneboda, Seni mwamso. maSin isic gamosaSveb gamocdebs abarebda da ratomRac rcxvenoda, rom simwifis atestats wesisamebr cxrameti wlis asakSi iRebda, me ki ocdaerTi wlisa meeqvse klasSi vijeqi da `nibelungebis simReris~ araswori interpretacia gulze mxeTqavda. maris leoc icnobda, erTmaneTs romeliRac wreSi xvdebodnen, sadac kaTolike da evangelisti axalgazrdebi demokratiasa da re- ligiur Semwynareblobaze kamaTobdnen. maSin me da leo Cvens mSoblebs erTgvari saerTo sacxovreblis gamgebel col-qmra- dRa vTvlidiT. leos Tavzari daeca, roca gaigo, mamas ager ukve aTi welia sayvareli hyavso. am ambavma mec damca Tavzari, magram ara _ moralurad. CemTvis ioli iyo imis warmodgena, ra Znelia colad gyavdes dedaCemi, romlis yalbi Tviniereba i-sa da e-s Tviniereba iyo. igi iSviaTad warmoTqvamda winada- debas, sadac a, o an u eria. amis tipuri magaliTia Tundac is, rom leos saxeli led Seamokla. misi ori sayvareli winadade- ba iyo: `me nivTebs sxvebiviT ver vWvret~ da `me Cems princips mivdev, nivTebSi mizezebs veZeb~. is faqti, rom mamas sayvareli hyavda, CemTvis ufro esTetikuri TvalsazrisiT iyo Tavzar- damcemi: mis xasiaTs rogorRac ar uxdeboda amgvari ram. ma- maCemi arc vnebaaSlili kaci iyo da arc xalisiani. xolo Tu ukuvagdebT im azrs, rom is qali mamaCems momvlelad an sulis ganmbanvelad sWirdeboda (rasac sruliad ar Seefereba paTe- tikuri sityva `sayvareli~), maSin uwesoba swored is iyo, rom mamas ar SeSvenis sayvarlis yola. sinamdvileSi misi sayvareli sasiamovno, lamazi momRerali qali iyo, romelsac inteleqti didad ar awuxebda. mamas isic ki ar ucdia, qals damatebiTi kontraqtebis dadebaSi an koncertebis mowyobaSi daxmarebo- da. amgvar saqmeebSi metismetad wesieri kaci iyo. maTi urTier- Toba sakmaod awewil-dawewili meCveneboda, leos wuxilis mi- zezi ki is iyo, rom idealebi Seerya. dedaCemma leos wuxilis axsna sxvanairad ver moaxerxa da Tavisi azri ase gamoxata: `les krizisi iTrevs~. xolo roca saklaso samuSao aradamak-
  47. 47. 48 mayofileblad dawera, dedas undoda fsiqologTan waeyvana. madloba RmerTs, ganzraxvaze xeli avaRebine. samagierod, Zmas movuyevi yvelaferi, rac ki qalisa da mamakacis urTierTobis Sesaxeb vicodi, Tanac ise intensiurad vexmarebodi gakveTile- bis momzadebaSi, rom Semdgomi saklaso samuSaoebi ukve damak- mayofileblad da `kargzec~ dawera. mxolod amis Semdeg aiRo xeli dedam leos fsiqologTan wayvanaze. marim muqi mwvane kaba Caicva da, Tumca elvaSesakravma saqme gauWira, mainc ar wamovmdgarvar sawolidan, ar davxmarebivar. lamazi sanaxavi iyo misi xelebi, zurgze rom faTurobdnen, Te- Tri kani, muqi Tma da muqi mwvane kaba. maxarebda isic, rom ar nerviulobda. bolos sawolTan movida, me loginze wamovjeqi da kaba Sevukari. vkiTxe, ase adre ratom dgebi-meTqi. mipasuxa, mamaCems namdvili ZiliT mxolod ganTiadis Jams sZinavs, me ki gazeTebi unda miviRo da duqani gavaRo, radgan moswavleebi zo- gjer diliT modian rveulebis, fanqrebisa da Saqaryinulis sayidlado. _ garda amisa, _ miTxra man, _ umjobesi iqneba, Cveni saxlidan rvis naxevarze gaxvide. axla yavas movaduReb, Sen ki xuTi wuTis Semdeg frTxilad Camodi samzareuloSi. roca samzareuloSi Cavedi, iseTi grZnoba dameufla, Ti- Tqos coliani viyavi. marim yava damisxa da buterbrodi momim- zada, Semdeg ki Tavi gaaqnia da miTxra: _ mudam daubaneli da dauvarcxneli cxaddebi sasauzmod? _ ki, _ vuTxari, _ internatSic ki ver maswavles yovel- dRe dilaadrian xel-piris dabana. _ aba, maS ras Svrebi? _ mkiTxa man, _ rogorme xom unda moicilo WuWyi? _ kiolnis wyliT vizel tans, _ vupasuxe me. _ es xom sakmaod Zviri jdeba, _ miTxra man da gawiTlda. _ marTalia, _ vupasuxe me, _ magram biZaCemi, romelic am firmis generaluri warmomadgenelia, erT did flakons migza- vnis xolme saCuqrad. is samzareulo, ase kargad rom vicnobdi, dabneulma mi- vaTvalier-movaTvaliere. es ufro duqnis ukana oTaxi iyo _
  48. 48. 49 bneli da patara. kuTxeSi momcro qura idga. rogorc yvela diasaxlisi, quraSi maric inaxavda nacarwayril briketebs: saRamoobiT briketebs svel gazeTSi axvevda, diliT ki nakver- cxlebs gaqeqavda, SeSasa da axal briketebs daumatebda da cecxls gaaCaRebda. mZags mxrColavi briketebis suni. es suni alionze quCebSi igrZnoba, im diliT ki is patara, CaxuTuli samzareulo aayrola. samzareulo imdenad patara iyo, rom yovelTvis, roca maris quridan sayavis gadmodgma uwevda, unda amdgariyo da skami gverdze gaewia. albaT, zustad aseve iqceodnen misi bebiac da dedac. samzareulo, romelsac ase kargad vicnobdi, im diliT pirvelad momeCvena ulazaTo da, albaT, pirvelad ganvicade is, rasac yoveldRiuroba hqvia: ginda Tu ara, mainc unda akeTo, ris gakeTebac aRar gexaliseba. sulac ar mexaliseboda odesme gavsuliyavi am viwro saxli- dan da gareT mekisra raime valdebuleba, pasuxi mego imisaT- vis, rac maris vuyavi, pasuxi mego misi jgufis qaliSvilebisa da leos winaSe. Tumca am ambavs sul male Cemi mSoblebic gaigebdnen vinmesgan. merCia am saxlSi davrCeniliyavi da si- cocxlis dasasrulamde mevaWra SaqaryinuliTa da saswavlo rveulebiT, saRamoobiT ki marisTan erTad Cavwoliliyavi mis loginSi da dameZina ise gemrielad, rogorc am diliT meZina, roca misi xelebi iRliebSi mqonda amoCrili. erTsa da imave dros saSinelic meCvena da didebulic es yoveldRiuroba _ sayaviT, buterbrodebiT, maris mwvane kabaze afarebuli TeTr- zolebiani, lurji, gaxunebuli winsafriT. uecrad momeCve- na, rom mxolod qalebisTvisaa yoveldRiuroba iseTive bune- brivi, rogoric maTi sxeuli. vamayobdi, rom mari Cemi coli iyo da, amave dros, Tavi ar mimaCnda imdenad mowiful kacad, amieridan darbaislurad rom unda moiqces. fexze wamovdeqi, magidas Semovuare, mari mklavebSi movimwyvdie da vuTxari: _ gaxsovs, dilauTenia gasarecxad rom adeqi? Tanxmobis niSnad Tavi damiqnia. _ me ki arasodes damaviwydeba, rogor gamiTbe xelebi iR- liebSi, _ Tqva man Semdeg, _ axla ki wadi, male rvis naxevari iqneba da duqanSi bavSvebi Semocvivdebian.
  49. 49. 50 maris quCidan gazeTebis dasta Semovatanine da gaxsnaSi mo- vexmare. swored am dros mopirdapire saxlTan bazridan dabru- nebulma Smicma bostneuliT datvirTuli manqana gaaCera. vi- fiqre, iqneb ver daminaxos-meTqi, da maSinve saxlSi Sevvardi, magram ukve daminaxa. eSmaksac ki ar uWris Tvali ise, rogorc mezobels. duqanSi videqi da davyurebdi dilis axal gazeTebs, ase rom giJdebian metwilad kacebi. piradad me gazeTebi saRa- moobiT mainteresebs an maSin, roca abazanaSi vwevar. abazana- Si yvelaze seriozuli dilis gazeTebic iseve araseriozuli meCveneba, rogorc saRamos gazeTebi. ai, ras gvauwyebda msxvili SriftiT awyobili saTauri im diliT: `Strausis Tanamimdevru- li politika~. vfiqrob, mowinave werilis an msxvili SriftiT asawyobi saTauris dawera kibernetikuli manqanebisaTvis rom migvendo, namdvilad ajobebda _ gonebis siClungesac aqvs sazRvari, romlis gadalaxva arafriT SeiZleba. uecrad duqnis zari awkrialda da zRurblze gamoCnda rva Tu cxra wlis axaldabanili, Savgvremani, loyawiTeli gogona, romelsac iRliaSi locvani hqonda amoCrili. _ momeciT aTi pfenigis guliani kanfeti, _ miTxra man. me warmodgena ar mqonda, ramdeni kanfeti ergeboda aT pfe- nigad, magram qilas xufi mainc avxade, parkSi oci kanfeti Cavuyare da Cems sicocxleSi pirvelad Semrcxva Cemi arc ise sufTa TiTebisa, romelTac sqeli mina kidev ufro adidebda. roca parkSi oci kanfeti Cavuyare, gogonam gaocebiT Semomxe- da, magram me vuTxari: _ yvelaferi rigzea, SegiZlia waxvide. aTpfenigiani daxlidan aviRe da salaroSi Cavagde. luqanSi dabrunebul maris gaecina, roca aTpfenigiani ama- yad vaCvene. _ axla ki unda waxvide, _ miTxra man. _ ki magram, ratom, qveyana daiqceva, mamaSenis Zirs Camobr- Zanebamde rom aq davicado? _ mama cxraze Camova dabla, im dromde Sen isev unda dabrun- de, _ miTxra man. _ sanam sxvebisagan gaigebdes, wadi da yvela- feri TviTonve uambe Sens Zmas, leos.
  50. 50. 51 _ ki batono, _ vuTxari me, _ marTals ambob, magram Sen... _ me kvlav gavwiTldi, _ skolaSi wasvlas ar apireb? _ dRes ar waval da, saerTodac, aRarasodes waval, _ mi- Txra man. _ male dabrundi. miWirda misi datoveba. marim duqnis karamde mimacila. Ria karSi ise vakoce, rom Smicsa da mis cols daenaxaT. maT im TevzebiviT gadmokarkles Tvalebi, gacecebulebi, anazdad rom aRmoaCenen, rom Turme karga xania wamoegnen ankesze. gzas ise davadeqi, ukan ar momixedavs. mcioda, pijakis saye- lo aviwie, sigarets movukide. bazars Cavuyevi, Tumca gza odnav gavigrZele, franciskanerSTraseze Caviare da koblencSTrases kuTxeSi daZrul avtobuss Sevaxti. konduqtorma qalma kari ki gamiRo, magram roca fulis gadasaxdelad mis gverdiT gavCer- di, TiTiT damemuqra da Tavis qneviT maniSna, sigareti Caaqreo. sigareti Cavaqre, namwvi pijakis jibeSi Cavide, win wavedi da Sua avtobusSi gavCerdi. videqi, koblencSTrases gavyurebdi da marize vfiqrobdi. Cemma saxem, etyoba, raRaciT gaagulisa Cem gverdiT mdgomi kaci. man gazeTic ki dauSva dabla, droebiT Seelia `Strausis Tanamimdevrul politikas~, saTvale cxvir- ze Camoiwia, Tavi gadaaqn-gadmoaqnia da CailuRluRa: `dauje- rebelia~. mamakacis ukan qali ijda, gverdiT stafiloTi sav- se tomara moedga da am tomaras kinaRam fexi wamovkari. qals mamakacis SeniSvna WkuaSi daujda, Tavi gadaaqn-gadmoaqnia da tuCebi uxmod aamoZrava. im diliT maris sarkis win misive savarcxliT davivarcx- ne Tma, rac iSviaTad xdeba. mecva nacrisferi, sufTa, yovlad Cveulebrivi kurtaki, wveri ki arasodes mezrdeboda ise, rom erTi dRis gauparsavi `daujerebel~ moCvenebad veqcie. tanad arc Zalze maRali var, arc Zalze dabali, arc cxviri maqvs imdenad grZeli, rom pasportSi gansakuTrebuli niSnebis gra- faSi iyos Cawerili. am grafaSi miweria: ar aqvs. arc WuWyiani viyavi da arc nasvami. da mainc, stafiloiani tomris patroni qali ufro SesamCnevad Relavda, vidre saTvaliani mamakaci, romelmac erTxel kidev gadaaqnia Tavi sasowarkveTiT, Semdeg saTvale moirgo da kvlav Strausis Tanamimdevrobas daubrun-
  51. 51. 52 da. qali ki mousvenrad aqnevda Tavs da Cumad iwyevleboda. undoda gaeziarebina danarCeni mgzavrebisTvis is, rac mis tu- Cebs ar dascdenia. garegnuli niSnebiT ebraelebs dRemde ver vcnob, Torem SeiZleboda mefiqra, ebraelad xom ar CamTvales- meTqi. magram, Cemi azriT, isini Cemma garegnobam ki ara, Cemma ga- mometyvelebam gaaRiziana, roca avtobusidan quCas gavyurebdi da marize vfiqrobdi. am Cumma mtrobam mec gamaRiziana. avto- busidan erTi gaCerebiT adre Camovedi, eberTalee fexiT gaviare da rainisaken gavuxvie. Cvens parkSi wiflis xeebi jer kidev Savi da sveli iyo. axlad moSandakebuli CogburTis moedani ki _ wiTeli. rainze kar- paWebi sayvirs agugunebdnen. holSi rom Sevedi, samzareulo- dan anas Cumi lanZRva momesma. Cemamde mxolod kantikuntad aRwevda: `cudad daamTavrebs... daamTavrebs... cudad~. rogorc ki samzareulos Cavuare, Ria karSi SevZaxe: `ana, dRes ar vi- sauzmeb~. ar SevCerebulvar, saerTo oTaxSi Sevvardi. ara- sodes momCvenebia ase Camuqebuli muxis kedlebi, xis farTo Taroebi da zed Semodebuli samonadireo nadavli. samusiko salonSi leo Sopenis mazurkas ukravda. im xanebSi moisurva musika eswavla da skolaSi wasvlamde rom cotaTi evarjiSa, dilis eqvs saaTze dgeboda. mazurkis gagonebam mafiqrebina, TiTqos ukve saRamo iyo. Semdeg ki sruliad gadamaviwyda, leo rom ukravda. leo da Sopeni erTmaneTs ar Seeferebodnen, ma- gram ise kargad ukravda, rom amaze ar davfiqrebulvar. Zveli kompozitorebidan yvelaze metad Sopeni da Suberti miyvars. vici, Cveni musikis maswavlebeli marTali iyo, roca mocarts RvTaebrivs eZaxda, beThovens _ gansacvifrebels, gluks _ ganumeorebels, baxs ki didebuls. diax, asea. baxi yovelTvis ocdaaTtomian RvTismetyvelebad meCveneba da maocebs, Sopeni da Suberti ki CemsaviT miwierni arian da amitomac maTi mosme- na yvelafers mirCevnia. rainisaken daqanebul parkSi, mtirala tirifebis win, sa- dac babuaCemis tiri iyo, samizne diskoebi irxeoda. etyoba, meetles daavales maTi dazeTva. babuaCemi zogjer `Zvel biWe- bs~ uyrida Tavs da am dros Cveni saxlis win patara, mrgval
  52. 52. 53 moedanze TxuTmetamde uzarmazari avtomanqana mwkrivdeboda, TxuTmeti gaToSili mZRoli ki xeebsa da mesers Soris SequC- deboda, idgnen jguf-jgufad an qvis skamebze skats TamaSobd- nen. Tu am `Zveli biWebidan~ romelime TormetianSi moaxve- drebda, maSinve atydeboda Sampanuris sacobebis erTi baTqabu- Tqi. xandaxan babuaCemi damiZaxebda da `Zvel biWebs~ ramdenime fokuss vuCvenebdi, vbaZavdi adenauers an erhards, rac Zalze meadvileboda, zogjer ki patara scenebs gaviTamaSebdi, maga- liTad, `menejeri vagon-restoranSi~. vcdilobdi, Cems scene- bSi rac SeiZleba meti RvarZli Cameqsova, magram berikacebi mainc siciliT iWaWebodnen, erTxmad iZaxdnen, SesaniSnavad ga- verTeTo. bolos, roca tyviebis carieli yuTiT an langriT TiToeuls Camovuvlidi, metwilad qaRaldis fuls imetebd- nen. am cinikos bebruxanebTan SesaniSnavad vpoulobdi saer- To enas, maTTan araviTari saqme ar mqonda. aseve SesaniSnavad gamovnaxavdi saerTo enas Cinel mandarinebTanac. zogierTebi qebasac ki ar iSurebdnen: `kolosaluria~, `didebulia~. zogi erT sityvas aRar sjerdeboda da gaiZaxoda: `am biWs aqvs ra- Rac iseTi~ an kidev: `jer sada xarT~. sanam Sopens yurs vugdebdi, pirvelad momivida azrad, an- gaJementisaTvis mezruna da cota fuli meSova. SemeZlo ba- buaCemis xelSewyobiTa da daxmarebiT solo nomrebiT gamov- suliyavi kapitalistebis Sekrebebze an sameTvalyureo sabWos sxdomebis Semdeg xalxi gamemxiarulebina. erTi nomeri `sa- meTvalyureo sabWo~ daviswavle kidec. Semovida Tu ara leo oTaxSi, Sopeni gaqra. leo metismetad maRalia, qeraTmiani, uCarCoo saTvales atarebs da ise gamoi- yureba, TiTqos superintendanti an Svedi iezuiti iyos. misi muqi Sarvlis saguldagulod dauToebulma nakecebma Sopenis musikis ukanaskneli kvali gadarecxa. TeTri puloveri rogo- rRac ar uxdeboda axalgauToebul Sarvals, arc TeTr pulo- verze gadmofenili wiTeli perangis sayelo axarebda Tvals. roca vxedav, ra amaod cdilobs zogierTi, ise gamoiyurebodes, TiTqos Cacmas arafrad dagidevs, Rrma melanqolia mipyrobs. iseTi pretenziuli saxelebic maRizianebs, rogorebicaa eTe-
  53. 53. 54 lberTi an gerenTrudi. mxedvelobidan arc is mrCeboda araso- des, rogor hgavda leo henrieTes da, amave dros, arc hgavda. hgavda paWua cxviriT, lurji TvalebiT da Tmis feriT, magram piri sul sxva moyvanilobisa hqonda da yvelaferi is, riTac henrieTe lamazi da xalisiani iyo, leos gulCaTxrobilsa da usicocxlos xdida. sruliad ar etyoboda, rom klasSi pir- veli sportsmeni iyo _ ise gamoiyureboda, rogorc fizkul- turis gakveTilebidan ganTavisuflebuli mowafe. Tumca misi sawolis zemoT naxevari duJini sportuli sigeli ekida. leo jer swrafad wamovida Cemken, magram uceb ramdenime nabijis daSorebiT SeCerda, xelebi uxerxulad waiRo ganze da mkiTxa: _ hans, ra moxda? man jer TvalebSi Semomxeda, Semdeg mzera cota ufro qve- viT Camoacura, TiTqos undoda eniSnebina CemTvis, laqa ga- qvso. mxolod axla mivxvdi, rom vtirodi. roca Sopens an Suberts vismen, yovelTvis vtiri. marjvena xelis saCvenebeli TiTiT cremli moviwminde da vuTxari: _ ar vicodi, ase kargad Tu ukravdi Sopens. daukari kidev erTxel mazurka. _ ar mcalia, _ miTxra man, _ skolaSi var wasasvleli, pirvel gakveTilze germanul enaSi gamosaSvebi gamocdisaTvis Temebs dagvirigeben. _ dedaCvenis manqaniT wagiyvan, _ vuTxari me. _ ar miyvars am suleluri manqaniT mgzavroba, _ miTxra man, _ Sen ki ici, rogor mZuls. dedam sportuli manqana `Calis fasad~ iyida erTi mego- bari qalisagan, leo ki mwvaved ganicdida yvelafers, rasac baqiaobis suni udioda. gacofebiT ki mxolod maSin cofde- boda, roca Cveni mdidari mSoblebis gamo vinme axelebda an efereboda. am dros saxeze almuri asdioda, muSti-krivsac ki ar erideboda. _ damiTme amjerad, dajeqi roialTan da daukari, _ vTxove me, _ nuTu ar gainteresebs, sad viyavi wuxel? leo gawiTlda, iataks daaCerda da miTxra:
  54. 54. 55 _ ara, ar mainteresebs. _ Rame erT qaliSvilTan gavaTene, axla ukve qalTan, Cems colTan, _ vuTxari me. _ ai, Turme ra momxdara, _ miTxra ise, rom Tavi ar auRia. _ qorwili rodis gadaixadeT? leom ar icoda, sad waeRo Tavisi mouqneli xelebi. uecrad Cemken wamovida da undoda TavCaqindruls gverdiT Caevlo, ma- gram me magrad Cavafrindi saxeloSi. _ is qali mari derkumia, _ vTqvi Cumad. leom mklavi gaiTavisufla, erTi nabijiT ukan daixia da Tqva: _ RmerTo Cemo, SeuZlebelia. _ mere mrisxaned Semomxeda da TavisTvis raRac CaiburdRuna. _ rao, ra Tqvi? _ vkiTxe me. _ isa, rom axla marTlac ar amcdeba manqaniT wasvla. wami- yvan? _ ra Tqma unda, _ vupasuxe me, mklavSi xeli wavavle da saerTo oTaxi mxardamxar gaviareT, ar mindoda saxeSi Semoexe- da CemTvis. _ wadi, gasaRebi gamoarTvi, _ vuTxari me, _ deda Sen uars ar getyvis, arc sabuTebi dagaviwydes. marTla, leo, fuli mWirdeba, cota mainc Tu dagrCa? _ salaroSi maqvs, TviTon SegiZlia gamoitano? _ mkiTxa man. _ ar vici, mirCevnia gamomigzavno, _ vuTxari me. man Tavi damiqnia da kibes ahyva. saxlSi darCena rom aRar mindoda, es CemTvis mxolod maSin gaxda cxadi, roca leom kiTxva damisva. samzareuloSi Sexete- buls ana abuzRunebuli damxvda. _ megona, aRar isauzmebdi Sin, _ miTxra man. _ sauzme ar minda, yavas ki davlev, _ vuTxari me. gakrialebul magidas mivujeqi da vuyurebdi anas, romelmac quraze Sedgmul sayaves filtri moxsna da dasawretad fanjris rafaze dado. dilaobiT me da leo mudam moaxleebTan erTad vsauzmobdiT samzareuloSi, radgan mosawyeni iyo, sasadilo
  55. 55. 56 oTaxSi sazeimod gaSlil did magidasTan rom mogvarTmevdnen sauzmes. aseT dros samzareuloSi yovelTvis mxolod ana iyo. meore mosamsaxure gogo noreTe sawol oTaxSi sauzmes uwyobda dedas da Cacmasa da kosmetikaze bWobdnen. dedas axla, albaT, saxeze placentebisagan damzadebuli ucnauri masa aqvs Warbad wacxebuli da Tavisi SesaniSnavi kbilebiT xorblis marcvlebs RrRnis, xolo noreTe gazeTs ukiTxavs. an SeiZleba jer ki- dev dilis locviT arian garTulni, romlis teqsti goeTe- sa da luTeris gamonaTqvamebisganaa Sedgenili da metwilad `qristianTa moraluri aRWurvac~ erTvis Tan. isic SesaZle- belia, rom noreTe dedas sasaqmebeli wamlebis prospeqtebis dastas ukiTxavs. dedas sagangebo saqaRaldec aqvs wamlebis prospeqtebiT gamotenili da Semdegnairad dalagebuli: `kuW- nawlavi~, `guli~, `nervebi~, xolo Tu sadme eqimi gamoiWira, maSinve ekiTxeba, rame axali wamali Tu gamoCndao. ase zogavda konsultaciisaTvis gadasaxdel honorars. Tu romelime eqimi sasinj wamlebs gamougzavnida, sixaruliT cas eweoda xolme. anas zurgSeqceulsac vatyobdi, eSinoda im wamis, roca unda Semobrunebuliyo, CemTvis saxeSi Semoexeda da damlapa- rakeboda. me da anas erTmaneTi gviyvarda, magram mas verafriT ver daeTrguna momabezrebeli survili _ me aRvezarde. ana kai TxuTmeti weli cxovrobda CvenTan, dedas igi biZaSvilma, evangelistma mRvdelma dauTmo. ana potsdameli iyo da, miuxe- davad imisa, rom Cven evangelistebi viyaviT, mainc saSinelebad, arabunebrivad eCveneboda, rom rainul dialeqtze vlaparakob- diT. vfiqrob, bavariul dialeqtze molaparake protestanti mas borot sulad moeCveneboda. TxuTmeti wlis ganmavloba- Si ana rainis mxares cotaTi SeeCvia. igi maRali, tanwerweta qalia da amayobs imiT, rom `namdvili qalbatoniviT dadis~. mamamisi xazinadrad muSaobda sadRac. me mxolod is vicodi, rom mis samuSao adgils `mecxre qveiTi polki~ erqva. azri ar hqonda anasaTvis gemtkicebina, rom Cveni saxli mecxre qveiTi polki ar iyo. rac Seexeba axalgazrdobis aRzrdis sakiTxs, verafriT moaSlevinebdi Semdeg sentencias: `mecxre qveiT po- lkSi amas rogor dauSvebdnen~. ver iqna da ver mivxvdi, ra iyo
  56. 56. 57 es mecxre polki, magram erTi ram danamdvilebiT vicodi: am saidumloebiT mocul aRmzrdelobiT dawesebulebaSi, albaT, tualetis mwmendavadac ki ar mimiRebdnen. ana jadosnur me- cxre polks moiSveliebda xolme maSinac, roca vibandi xel- pirs. Cemi `saSineli Cveuleba~ ki _ loginSi didxans nebivro- ba _ iseT zizRs hgvrida, TiTqos keTri mWirda. bolos, ro- gorc iqna, ana Semobrunda. roca sayaviT xelSi magidasTan mo- vida, Tvalebi ise hqonda daxrili Zirs, TiTqos saxelgatexil episkoposs emsaxurebao. igi iseve mecodeboda, rogorc maris jgufis qaliSvilebi. anas monazvnurma instinqtma ar uRala- ta, cxadad mixvda, saidanac movdiodi, dedaCemi ki, albaT, sami weliwadi rom vyofiliyavi saidumlod daqorwinebuli, mainc verafers mixvdeboda. anas sayave gamovarTvi, yava davisxi, Se- mdeg mklavze magrad movuWire xeli da vaiZule, CemTvis Se- moexeda. man Tavisi gamoxunebuli lurji TvalebiT Semomxeda, quTuToebi uTrToda da davinaxe, rom marTla tiroda. _ dalaxvros eSmakma, ana, _ wamoviZaxe me, _ Semomxede Tva- lebSi. vfiqrob, im Sens mecxre polkSi adamianebi vaJkacurad uyureben erTmaneTs TvalebSi. _ me vaJkaci ara var, _ azluqunda ana. xeli gavuSvi, saxe qurisken miabruna da raRac Caiburtyuna codvasa da sircxvilze, sodomsa da gomorze. _ RmerTo Cemo, ana, dafiqrdi, ras akeTebdnen isini sinamd- vileSi sodomsa da gomorSi, _ vuTxari me. anam Cemi xeli mxridan Camoicila. samzareulodan ise ga- vedi, misTvis arc miTqvams, saxlidan wasvla rom mqonda ga- dawyvetili. ana iyo erTaderTi arseba, visac zogjer henrie- Teze velaparakebodi. leo ukve garaJTan idga da majis saaTs SiSiT dahyurebda. _ deda mixvda, wuxel rom Sin ar viyavi? _ vkiTxe me. _ ara, _ miTxra man, gasaRebi gadmomca da garaJis kari damikava. me manqanaSi Cavjeqi. garaJidan gavedi da leo Cavisvi. igi yuradRebiT dascqeroda sakuTar frCxilebs. _ salaros wignaki Tan wamoviRe, fuls Sesvenebis dros ga- movitan. sad gamogigzavno?

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