THIS IS THE BOOK OF THE LIFE STORY OF MONQUE YOUNG WHEN SHE WAS     GROWING UP.WELL I WAS BORN ON MAY 18,1975 TO THE PROUD...
WAY MY MOTHER WAS ABLE TO GET HER KIDS OUT THE SHELTER AND INTO AND ANOTHER APARTMENT SO WE LIVED THERE FOR A MOMENT AND T...
EVERYTHING BUT THEY WAS LIKE NOW HOW WE GOING TO PAY FOR THIS AND    MY MOM DIDN’T HAVE LIFE INSURANCE SO SOME KIND OF WAY...
BOY AND THEY WILL PUT YOU OUT THERE LIKE IF YOU WILL SLEEP WITH ANY  BODY AND THEN AFTER SHIT DON’T GO HIS WAY HE WILL CAL...
SOME OF THE FILE I READ WE DIFFERENT KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT IT UNTIL ITOOK UPON MY SELF TO READ ABOUT WHAT I FELT LIKE THEY W...
LIFE I WAS LIVING BECAUSE I STRUGGLER A LOT TO TAKE CARE OF MY  CHILDREN BECAUSE I WASN’T GETTING THE WELFARE I WAS RECEIV...
ME TO BE WITH MY BEST FRIEND AND ME AND HER FELL OUT BECAUSE   SHE KNEW THAT I WAS PREGNANT FOR HIM BUT YES MYBABY DADDYWA...
YOU DID,AND MY REPLY TO THEM WHAT ARE YALL TALKING ABOUT AND THEY SPOKE THAT SHE WENT TO JAIL FOR FORGERY OF A CHECK THAT ...
WHATKIND OF PERSON SHE WAS ,THEY LIVE VERY NASTY AND IM A TYPE   OFWOMAN THAT I CANT LIVE IN THAT TYPE OF LIFESTYLE BECAUS...
WAS HOME WITH MY SISTER AND HER TWO KIDS BUT SHE REALLY DIDN’T     MIND BECAUSE SHE WAS HELPING ME OUT WITH THEM.WHEN MY D...
REASON.I STOOD IN JAIL FOR TWO MONTHS AND I PRETTY MUCH C RIED EVERYDAY BECAUSE I HAD MISS MY CHILDREN SO MUCH AND I COULD...
YOUR CHILDREN COME AND TELL YOU THAT YOUR SISTERCALLED CHILDPROTECTION ON YOU AND TELLING THEM SOME LIES.SO ONCE ALL TRHAT...
IT BECAUSE I WAS DURING SOME SEARCHING ARO UND,BECAUSE I HAD A  FUNNY FEELING THAT HE WAS ON DRUGS AND IT WAS TRUE BECAUSE...
HIGH STANDARD FOR YOURSELF BECAUSE IT WILL TAKE YOU A LONG WAYWHEN YOU WANT SOMETHING IN LIFE,BECAUSE THAT’S NOT A DAY  GO...
BECAUSE I THOUGH THAT EVERYBODY WAS OUT TO HURT M E BUT SOME PEOPLE WAS OUT TO HELP ME AND I GOT HELP FROM A LOT OF PEOPLE...
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This is the book of the life story of monque young when she was growing up

  1. 1. THIS IS THE BOOK OF THE LIFE STORY OF MONQUE YOUNG WHEN SHE WAS GROWING UP.WELL I WAS BORN ON MAY 18,1975 TO THE PROUD WOMAN OF CLEMENTINE YOUNG.AS I WAS GROWING UP WE DIDN’T HAVE EXPENSIVE CLOTHES OF SHOES BECAUSE WE WAS POOR LIFE IN A HOUSE THAT HAD THREE ROOMS LIVING ROOM ONE BEDROOM KITCHEN AND A BATHROOM THAT HAD A BATHTUB BUT NO TOILET WE HAD TO USE A BUCKET TO DO OUR BUSINESS AND TAKE IT TO THE WOODS AND DUMP IT SO JUST IMAGINE THE SMELL WE HAD AROUND US,SO IF ONE WANT TO KNOW HOW THAT LIFE WAS I T WAS NOT GOODAT ALL BECAUSE IT WAS LIKE EMBASSING TO LIVE LIKE THAT FOR ANY ONE BUT ITREALLY DIDN’T MATTER TO MY MOTHER BECAUSE SHE KNEW THAT SHE HAD A PLACE FOR HER TO CHILDREN TO LIVE.AS YEARS AS I COULD REMEMBER THING WASN’T ALWAYS GOOD FOR MY MOTHER BUTSHE MADE THE BEST FOR HER CHILDREN AND IT WAS FUN BECAUSE WE WAS ONE AS A FAMILY.BUT THERE WAS TIME MY DAD CAME AROUND BUT IT WASN’T LIKE HE CAME AROUND OFTEN BECAUSE HE DIDN’T AT ALL BASICLLY THE TIME HE CAME AROUND THAT’S WAS WHEN MY MOM CALL HIM AND SAID THAT SHE NEEDED MONEY FOR US TO GET SOMETHING OR SOMETHING SHE NEED FOR US .I CANREMEMBER WHEN I WAS IN ELEMENTARY SCHOOL WHEN I USE TO GET PICK ME AND MY BROTHER HE USE TO GET PICK ON SO BAD WHERE THERE WAS TIME IHAD TO DEFEND HIM FROM BULLET AT SCHOOL.I REMEMBER WHEN MY MOM WANTED SOMETHING DIFFERENT IN LIFE SO SHE WENT OUT THERE AND GOT A JOB SO I THANK IT WAS LIKE HER SECOND DAY AT WORK AND MY SISTER CALLED HER AT WORK AND TOLD HER THAT MY LITTLE BROTHER TOOK SICK , SO SHE TOLD HER SUPERVISOR THA TSHE NEEDED TO LEAVE AND THE LADY TOLD HER THAT SHE COULDN’T LEAVE SO WHAT MY MOTHER DO SHE DID LIKE ANY OTHER MOTHER WOULD SHE TOLD HER SUPERVISOR THAT SHE WAS LEAVING BECAUSE SHE HADTO GO AND CHECK ON HER CHILD BECAUSE HE WAS SICK SO HER SUPERVISOR TOLD MY MOTHER IF SHE LEAVE THAT SHE WAS FIRED AND MY MOTHER REPLY OR YOU DON’T HAVE TO WORRYING BECAUSE I QUIT AND YOU CAN TAKE THIS JOB AND SHOVE IT UP YOUR ASS.SO AFTER THAT THING HAD TRULY STARTED TO GET BAD BECAUSE SHE HAD GOT EVICTED OUT OF OUR APARTMENT WITH SEVEN CHILDREN DIDN’T KNOW WHERE SHE WAS GOING TO GO WITH HER CHILDREN IN THE MIDDLE OF THE WINTER,SO MY AUNT HAD LET US COME AND STAY BE HER FOR A FEWS DAYS BECAUS E YOU KNOW HOW IT IS WHEN THIS LADY HAVE KIDSON HER OWN AND HAVE A HUSBAND AND BACK IN THOSE DAYS AINT NOBODY GOING TO HAVE ANOTHER WOMAN AROUND HER HUSBAND NOT SAYING THAT MY MOTHER WOULD HAVE DID SOMETHING OUT THE WAY BECAUSE MY MOM LOVED HER SISTER AND BROTHER A LOT BECAUSE THEY GREW UP AS A FAMILY,SO AFTER MY MOTHER LEFT MY AUNT HOSUE WE WILL LIVED IN THE SHELTER BUT SOME KIND OF
  2. 2. WAY MY MOTHER WAS ABLE TO GET HER KIDS OUT THE SHELTER AND INTO AND ANOTHER APARTMENT SO WE LIVED THERE FOR A MOMENT AND THEN MYSO ON THE WEEKEND I USE TO GO BY MY DAD AND JIS GIRLFRIEND NAME MARY - ANN SO ONE WEEK SHE TOLD MY MOM THAT SHE CAN COME THERE WITH HER KIDS AND HAD TO WORRYING ABOUT GETTING KICK OUT ANY MORE WITH HER CHILDREN.SO AS MONTHS WENT BY ANYTHING WAS GOING GOOD HER THE FAMILY AS ONE.SO FEW MONTH DOWN THE LINE IT WAS A LITTLE TENSION GOING ON BUT NOONE EVERY GOT INTO ARGUMENT OR ANYTHING S0 ON SUNDAY JULY 8,1984 ,MY MOM ,DAD AND MARY -ANN WENT TO THE BAR TO HAVE A FEW DRINKS ,SO MY MOM RODE WITHMARY -ANN AND MY DAD WENT BY HIS SELF SO AS MARY-ANN AND MYMOM GOT CLOSE TO THE BAR THEY GOT INTO AND ARGUMENT BECAUSE MARY-ANN FOUND OUT THAT MY MOM WAS PREGNANT FOR MY DAD BUT ANY ONE IN THE FAMILY DIDN’T KNOW THAT MY DAD AND MOM WAS STILL SLEEPING WITH EACH OTHER SO I GUESS SHE FIGURESINCE THAT MY MOM WAS PREGNANT FOR MY DAD THAT IT WAS GOING TO RUIN THE RELATIONSHIP SO THEY GOT INTO A BAD ARGUMENT WHERE IT LEAD TO THEM PUSHING EACH OTHER SO MY MOM GIVE MARY -ANN ONE GOOD PUSH AND SHE LOST CONTROL OF THE STEERING WHEEL BECAUSE SHE WASDRIVING(MARY-ANN)BECAUSE MY MOM DIDN’T KNOW HOW TO DRIVE AT ALL,SO IT WAS ABOUT 8’O’CLOCK THAT NIGHT WHEN WE GOT THAT PHONE CALL THAT MY MOM AND MARY-ANN GOT INTO A CAR ACCIDENT SO THE FIRST QUESTIONCOMES OUT THE FAMILY MOUTH WAS THEY OKAY BUT THE FIRE FIGHTER REPLY THAT WE NEED THE FAMILY HERE SO SOON AS POSSIBLE SO WE GOES TO THE ACCIDENT SCENE AND THE ONLY THING WE CAN SEE WAS FLAME AND WE ASK THEM DID THEY MAKE OUT THE TRUCK AND THEY SAID IM SO SORRY BUT NOONE SURVIVE OUT OF THE TRUCK AND WE ME ANDMY OLDER SISTER HEARD THAT WE TOOK OFF RUNNING TRYING TO GET TO THE FIRE BEC AUSE WE KNEW OUR MOTHER WAS UP IN THAT TRUCK BUT THE FIREFIGHTER RAN BEHIND US BECAUSE AT THE TIME WE KNEW THAT WE WASN’T NEVER GOING TO SEE OUR MOM AGAIN ,SO AFTER WE LEFT THE SCENE EVERYONE ASK WHERE MY DAD WAS THEY SAID THAT DIDN’T KNOW SO MY AUNT CALLE DMY GRANDMOTHER AND ASK WAS MY DAD AND SHE SAID YES BUT HE SLEEP AT THAT TIME THE WHOLE FAMILY WAS UPSET AND PISS BECAUSE HERE IT IS THAT HIS CHILDRENJUST LOST THEY MOTHER AND HE NEVER ONE TIME CALLED OR CAME BY TO SEE HIS CHILDREN AND TO IF THEY WAS ALRIGHT ,AND THAT SAME NIGHT OF THE ACCIDEDNT I WAS HAVING NIGHTMARE LIKE HELL BECAUSE IT WAS LIKE THAT THE FIRE WAS RIGHT OUTSIDE OF THE BEDROOM WINDOW I WAS SLEEPING IN THAT NIGHT BECAUSE THE NIGHT OF THE ACCIDENT I SLEPT BY MY GODFATHER HOUSE,THE DREAM SEEM SO REAL THAT I HAD TO SLEEP WITHMY COUSIN.SO THE NEXT DAY MY AUNT PLANNED MY MOM FUNERAL AND
  3. 3. EVERYTHING BUT THEY WAS LIKE NOW HOW WE GOING TO PAY FOR THIS AND MY MOM DIDN’T HAVE LIFE INSURANCE SO SOME KIND OF WAY THEY GOT IN TOUCH WITH MY DAD AND HE PAID FOR THE FUNERAL BUT THAT STILL DIDN’T EXCUSE OF WHAT HE DID BECAUSE HE DIDN’T SUPPORTED US LIKE HE SHOULD HAVE BUT THE TIME WE NEEDED HIM HE WASN’T THERE FOR US,SO THE DAY OF THE FUNERAL EVRYONE LOOKING FOR MY DAD,NO SIGN OF MY DAD SO ITWAS LIKE THIS IS FUCK UP BECAUSE HE DON’T COME TO HIS CHILDREN MOMMY FUNERAL NO WHAT KIND 0F MAN IS HE BECAUSE HE CHILDREN NEEDED HIM THEN IF WE DIDN’T NEED HIM NO OTHER TIME SO THAT’S WAS LIKE THE SECOND DISAPPOINTED HE GIVE OF SHOW HIS CHILDREN BECAUSE I GOT THE IMPRESSING THAT HE DIDN’T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT US BUT THE DAY OF MARY - ANN FUNREAL HE WAS AT HER FUNERAL SUPPORTING HER GROWN ASS KIDS AND SHE DIDN’T HAVE ANY DAM KIDS FOR HIM ,SO AFTER THE FUNERAL AND STUFF WHEN MY FAMILY DECIDE TO GET THERE AND SUE THE COMPANY OF THE TRUCK THAT MARY-ANN AND MY MOM WAS IN,SO YES WE GOT AWARDED A LARGE AMOUNT OF MONEY BUT BY TIME THEY GOT THROUGH SHOPPING AND DECORATE THEY HOUSE IT WASN’T MUCH LEFT FOR THEM TO SHOP FOR MY SIBLING BECAUSE BASIC I WAS GETTING A PORTION OF MY MONEY SO THAT WAS A GOOD THING FOR ME BUT NOT FOR MY SIBLING REWBECAUSE THEYWASN’T AS LUCKY AS I WAS,BECAUSE I WAS ABLE TO WEAR NAME BRAND SHOESAND STUFF .BUT AS I WAS GROWING UP I HAD WANTED PEOPLE WANTED ME TO COME AND STAY WITH THEM FOR ALL THE WRONG REASON SO I G OT TIRED OFPEOPLE MISTREATED,SO I DECIDE TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT ,I TALK TO THIS LAWYER THAT MY FATHER GIRLFRIEND KNOW SO I MADE AN APPOINMENT WITH HIM AND DISCUSS ABOUT ME GETTING CONTROL OF MY OWN MONEY BECAUSE WHEN I WENT AND LIVED WITH HER IT GOT WOR ST S0 I SAID HELL NO I HAVE ENOUGH OF PEOPLE WALKING ALL OVER WITH ME THAT IM RECEIVING EVERY MONTH AND I DON’T GET ANY SO I FINALLYSTOOD UP FOR MYSELFAND DID WHAT I HAD TO DO,SO I CAN TAKE CARE OF MY KIDS YES BY TIME I GOT IN MIDDLE SCHOOL I GOT PREGNANT BY THIS GUY THAT I THOUGH HE WAS ON TOP OF THE WORLD BUT ALL THAT WAS A BIG LIE BECAUSE I USE TO MEET UPWITH HIM BY HIS AUNT HOUSE BECAUSE NOBODY WOULD BE THERE SO WHEN I FOUND OUT THAT I WAS PREGNANT I WAS CONFUSE FOR A VERY LONG TIME BECAUSE I DIDN’T KNO W EXACTLY WHO WAS THE FATHER OF MY CHILD AND THAT WAS BAD ON MY PART BECAUSE WHEN I WAS OUT THEREBEING FAST I WAS SEARCHING FOR LOVE IN ALL THE WRONG WAY .SO YES I WAS YOUNG AND STUPID BECAUSE THESE GUYS OUT HERE DON’T WANT NOTHING BUT WHATS BETWEEN YOUR LEG AND AFTER HE GET THAT HE RUNNING BACK TO HIS BOYS AND TALK ABOUT YOU LIKE IF YOU ARE A WHORE,AND NINE OUT OF TEN HE PROBABLY ASK YOU TO HAVE SEX WITH HIM AND ONE OF HIS HOME
  4. 4. BOY AND THEY WILL PUT YOU OUT THERE LIKE IF YOU WILL SLEEP WITH ANY BODY AND THEN AFTER SHIT DON’T GO HIS WAY HE WILL CALL YOU ALL KIND OF NAMES YES BECAUSE I HAD GUYS TO DO IT TO ME BECAUSE WE HAVE GOT INTO SOME KIND OF ALTERCATION AND THIS WAS BY A GUY THAT I THOUGH THAT WILL HAVE MY BACK BUT WHEN YOU THANK YOU KNOW A PERSON THEY WILL CHANGE ON YOUR ASS IN A HEART BEAT SO BASICLLY LADIES ITS NOT GOOD TO PUT YOUR TRUST IN A GUY UNTIL YOUKNOW HIM FOR A COUPLE OF YEARS BECAUSE I HAVE FEEL IN LOVE WITH MENS LIKE IN A MATTER OFMINUTES BECAUSE HE WAS TELLING ME EVERYTHING THAT I WANTED TO HEAR FROM A MAN BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN HURT THROUGH MY LIFE AS I WAS GROWING UP BECAUSE WHEN I WAS ABOUT FIVE -YEAR OF AGE I GOT RAPE BYONE OF MY COUSIN THAT I THOUGH THATI COULD TRUST ,I WAS SCARE TO TELL MY MOTHER BECAUSE I THOUGH THAT I DID SOMETHING W RONG ,SO MY TWO OLDEST SISTER SAW WHEN HE BROUGHT ME BACK BY THEM AND THEY ASK MEDID HE DO ME ANYTHING AND I TRIEDTO LIED SOTHEY PULLED THE COVER OFF ME AND THEY SAW WHERE MY CLOTHES HAVE BEEN TAKING OFF OF ME SO THEY WAITED TO THE NEXT MORNING AND THEY T OLD MY MOTHER AND SHE ASK ME AND I COULD LIE TO HER AND I TOLD HER THE TRUTH SO MY MOTHER WENT AND TOLD MY AUNT THAT THEY NEEDED TO TALK SO THEY HAD THE TALK AND SHE TOLD HER WHAT HAPPEN BUT UNFORTUNATE MY AUNT DIDN’T BELIEVE MY MOTHER BUT MY MOTHER TOLD H ER THAT MY CHILD DON’T HAVE NO REASON TO LIE SO SHE TOLD MY MOTHER THAT SHE WAS MOVING OUT SOMY AUNT GOT A PLACE FORHER AND HER SON AND THEN PRETTY MUCH AFTER THAT THING HAD GOT BACK TO NORMAL .SO BY TIME I MADE IT TO THE SIXTH GRADE I HAD TO DROP OUT OF SCHOOL BECAUSE I HAD GOT PREGNANT WITH MY FIRST CHILD SO I HAD MY FIRST BABY ON JULY26,1990,AND IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL LITTLE GIRL THAT I NAMED HER CLEMENTINE AFTER MY MOTHER BECAUSE I HAVE ALWAYS SAID WHEN I HAVE A CHILD AND IF IT WAS A GIRL IWAS GOING TO NAME HER AFTER MY MOM BECAUSE I TREASURE HER WITH ALLMY HEART EVEN THOUGH I JUST KNOWN HER FOR ONLY NINE,BECAUSE WHEN I REACH NINE SHE GOT INTO THE ACCIDENT AND LOST HER LIFE WHERE SHE LEFT SEVEN CHILDREN AND WAS PREGNANT WITH TWINS AND SHE DIDN’T EVEN KNOW IF SHE DID WE WAS THE LAST ONE TO KNOW BUT THEY FO RENSIC TO TELL US THAT SHE WAS PREGNANT WAS TWO BABIES SO THAT WHEN THE FAMILY PUT THE PUZZLE TOGETHER THAT MARY-ANN FOUND OUT THAT MY MOTHER WAS PREGNANT FOR MY DAD AND THAT’S WHEN THE CAT CAME OUT THE BAG THAT MARY-ANN AND MY FATHER WAS GOING TO MEXICO THE FOLLOWING DAY TO GET MARRY BUT THEY KEPT IT FROM EVERYONE.SO AS I GOT OLDER I WENT TO NEW ORLEANS COURT HOUSE OR MAYBE CITY HALL TO READ UP ON THE LAWSUIT THAT THEY HAD AGAINST GENERAL MOTORS AND
  5. 5. SOME OF THE FILE I READ WE DIFFERENT KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT IT UNTIL ITOOK UPON MY SELF TO READ ABOUT WHAT I FELT LIKE THEY WASN’T TELLING US BECAUSE IT WAS SOME STUFF THAT MY AUNT DIDN’T KNOW UNTIL I GOT THERE AND TOLD THEM WHAT I HAD READ BECAUSE ;LIKE I TOLD MY SIBLING ALL THE MONEY THAT WE WAS AWARDED WE DIDN’T SEE HALF OF THAT MONEY BECAUSE WE WAS SUPPOSE TO BE TAKING CARE OF FOR THE REST OF OUR LIFE BUT MY AUNT AND GRANDMOTHER CHANGE SOME MANY LAWYER THAT’S WHERE OF THE MONEY WENT BECAUSE IT WAS LET WE ALL WAS SUPPOSE TO GET 2.5 MILLIONS DOLLAR A PIECE BUT IT WAS A LOT I DIDN’T UNDERSTAND BECAUSE I WAS SO YOUNG AND I DIDN’T HAVE ANYONE I CAN TRUST BECAUSE EVERYONE I KNEW WAS ALL ABOUT MY MONEY THAT I WAS GETTING. SO I WENT TO THAT LAWYERAND I THOUGHT THAT HE WAS ON MY SIDE BUT COMES TO FIND OUT THAT HE WAS BACK AND TELL THE LADY EVERYTHING WAS TELLING HIM,SO I SAID FUCK IT AND I MOVE OUT OF HER HOUSE BUT SHE WAS STILL IN CONTROL OF MY MONEY SO I HAD TO FIND A AWYER OF MY OWN SO I KNEW ONE THAT MY GRANDMOTHER FOR A VERY LONG TIME,SO HE WAS PRETTY LAY BACK AND WAS ABLE TO HELP ME TO GET MY MONEY IN MY NAME SO I WOULD HAVE TO WORRY BOUT NOT RECEIVING MY MONEY WHERE I CAN TAKE CARE OF MY CHILDREN,BECAUSE BY TIME I HAD TWO KIDS AND ONE ON THE WAY. SO I GOT AND DID SOME CALLING AROUND SO I CAN GET SOME KIND OF HELP BECAUSE BACK IN THOSE DAYS YOU REALLY COULDN’T GET TOO MUCH HELP FOR ANY ONE BECAUSE THEY ALWAYS HAVE THEY HAND OUT FOR SOMETHING,BUT TIME I WAS PREGNANT WITH MY THREE CHILD I REALLY DIDN’T HAVE A PLACE TO STAY,AND THE REASON IS THAT BECAUSE MY SECOND CHILD DADDY GOT INTO AN ARGUMENT WITH MY DAD AND THEN PULL A GUN N HIM BECAUSE MY DAD PUSH ME AND I WAS PREGNANT WITH MY THIRD CHILD BUT IT WAS HIS SECOND SO I ASK MY SISTER [LENA]AND TOLD YES SO I HAD WENT LIVE WITH HER AND HER BOYFRIEND,I STOOD THERE WITH THEM FOR A COUPLES OF MONTHS AND THEN SOMETHING HAPPEN WITH THAT SO WE HAD TO MOVE AND THAT’S WHEN WE WENT AND LIVE WITH MY SISTER BOYFRIEND SISTER SH REALLY DIDN’T HAVE TO MUCH ROOM SO GUESS WHERE I HAD TO SLEEP AT WITH MY TWO CHILDREN IN A BED THAT WAS PUT IN THE KITCGEN BECAUSE MY BABY DADDY WASN’T COMING AROUND AS MY MUCH BECAUSE HE DIDN’T GET ALONG WITH MY FAMILY I GUESS HE DIDN’T GET ALONG WITH MY FAMILY AS MUCH BUT YOU CANT BLAME BECAUSE MY FAMILY PEOPLE JUST WANTED THE BEST FOR ME BECAUSE THE ROUGH
  6. 6. LIFE I WAS LIVING BECAUSE I STRUGGLER A LOT TO TAKE CARE OF MY CHILDREN BECAUSE I WASN’T GETTING THE WELFARE I WAS RECEIVE BECAUSE I WAS UNDER AGE SO MY SISTER WAS RECEIVING THE CHECKS FOR ME BUT,SO AFTER I HAD WENT INTO LABOR ON OCTOBER 28 1992THAT’S WHEN I GIVE BIRTH TO A BEAUTIFUL LITTLE GIRL THAT WEIGHT 4LBS.AND 13OUNCES SO SHE WAS PREMATURED WHY SHE WAS PUT IN INTENSIVE CARE UNIT BECAUSE OF HER WEIGHT AND HER HEART SO I HSD TO GO TO CPR CLASS BEFORE SHE WENT HOME,SO ONCE I GOT OUT THE HOSPITAL MY BABY DADDY HAD TALK TO HIS AUNT AND TOLD HER WHAT WAS GOING ON SO SHE TOLD HIM TO BRING ME AND THE KIDSTHERE BY HER SO WE CAN HAVE A GOOD PLACE TO LIVE AND ONCE I GOT THERE SHE MADE ME MORE COMFORTABLE THAN I FELT IN A LONG TIME.SO MONTHS HAD WENT BY I HAD STARTED GETTING MY OWN CHECKS AND LIVING REAL GOOD SO AFTER A FEW MONTH HAD WENT BY ME AND MY BABY DADDY STARTED HAVING PROBLEMS BECAUSE HEWASN’T SOENDING TIME WITH ME OR THE KIDS AND WAS A TYPICAL MAN WANTED TO RUN THE STREET AND TRIED TO FORGET ABOUT WHAT HE HAD AT HOME BECAUSE HE WAS OUT THERE MESSING AROUND WITH OTHER FEMALES OUT THERE THAT REALLY DIDN’T GIVE A DAM ABOUT HIM BECAUSE I WAS TAKING CARE OF HIM ,SO A FEWS MONTHS LATER IFOUND OUT THAT ANOTHER FEMALE WAS PREGNANT FOR HIM SO THAT’S WAS THE END OF THAT SO I ASK HIM,AND LADIES YOU KNOW WHAT HE DID ,DENIAL THE WHOLE SITUATION AND LIKE I TOLD HIM ITS NO NEEDTO LIE BECAUSE I ALREADY KNOW THE TRUTH BECAUSE MY BEST FRIEND TOLD ME BECAUSE SHE KNEW MY BABY DADDY BECAUSE SHE WAS THEONE THAT INTRODUCE ME AND THE GUY.AT THAT TIME WHEN I MET HIM I WAS PREGNANT WITH MY FIRST CHILD ,I WAS SURPRISE THAT HE WANTED TO DATE ME AND I WAS ABOUT TO HAVE MY BABY ANYDAY.SO LATER ON THAT NIGHT I HAD WENT IN ON FALSE LA BOR PAIN.AND HE LOVE MY FIRST DAUGHTER LIKE IF SHE WAS HIS OWN BUT AFTER I HAD GOT PREGNANT WITH MY SECOND CHILD HE LIKE HIS FAMILY PEOPLEPUT SOME BULLSHIT IN HIS HEAD THAT MY CHILD WASN’T FOR HIM ANDHE BELIEVE THAT FOR THE WHOLE TIME I WAS PREGNANT UNTI L AFTER I GOT OUT THE HOSPITAL WITH MY DAUGHTER AND HE CAME TO THEHOUSE AND SAW HERAND HE COULDN’T DO NOTHING BUT LOOK AND MY QUESTION WAS TO HIM WHAT YOU GOT TO SAY NOW. HE WAS ALL SMILEBECAUSE THEN HE KNEW THAT WAS HIS CHILD AND I TOLD HIM LOOK AT ALL THATBULLSHIT YOU PUT ME THROUGH LISTENING TO YOUR COUSIN AND AUNT THAT IT WASN’T YOUR CHILD YES I WAS SEEING OTHER GUYS BECAUSE HE HAD CHEATED ON ME WITH MY BEST FRIEND,YES HE LEFT
  7. 7. ME TO BE WITH MY BEST FRIEND AND ME AND HER FELL OUT BECAUSE SHE KNEW THAT I WAS PREGNANT FOR HIM BUT YES MYBABY DADDYWASN’T NOTHING BUT A BIG WHORE BECAUSE HE CHEATED ON ME WITH SEVERAL GIRLS BUT IN MY HEART I FELT LIKE THAT IT WASN’T NOONE ELSE OUT THERE I WANTED BUT HIM BECAUSE I PUT THIS MAN ON TOPOF THE WORLD LIKE HE WASN’T DOING ANY WRONG BECAUSE I HAD VERY LOW SELF ESTEEM BECAUSE THROUGH OUT MY LIFE I JUST KEEP HEARING PEOPLE TELLING ME THAT I WASN’T GOING TO AMOUNT TO SHIT AND THAT AINT NOONE GOING TO WANT ME AND I CARRY THAT IN MY HEAD FOR A VERY LONG TIME ,BECAUSE AFTE R MY MOTHER DEATH AND I GOT A LITTLE OLDER I WAS GETTING RAPE BY MY COUSIN AND I DIDN’T TELL ANYONE BECAUSE I THOUGH THAT THEY WAS GOING TO BLAME ME FOR WHAT WAS GOING ON,YES I RAN AWAY FROM HOME ON MANY OCCASION BUT I KEPT IT TO MYSELF UNTIL I GOT AWAY FR OM THEM BECAUSE I KNEW THAT IT WASN’T MY FAULT BUT I KNEW THATTHEY WASN’T GOING TO BELIEVE ME BECAUSE IT HAPPEN TO ONE OF MYOTHER SISTER AND SHE KEPT IT TO HERSELF.AS YEARS WENT BY OTHER I HAD MY CHILDREN THING STILL WAS GOING BAD FOR ME AND I WAS RUNNING FROM PILLOW TO POLE WITH MY CHILDREN I EVEN FOUND MYSELF LIVING IN THE SHELTER WITH MY KIDS BUT I HAD TO DO TO PROTECT MY KIDS AND THAT’S WHAT I DID BECAUSE LIVING WITH MYSISTER AND SHE WAS TRYING TO ME HOW TO LIVE MY LIFE AND WHO TO BE WITH AFTER I GOT THERE ANDMADE SURE THAT TWO OF HER KIDS AND I WAS KEEPING WHILE SHE WAS AT HOME .AT FIRST THING WAS GOING GOOD UNTIL SHE WENT TO HAVE FINCIAL PROBLEM AND THAT’S WHEN SHE CAME HOME ONE DAY AND WAS TELLING ME ABOUT ONE OF HER PATIENT BANK ACCOUNT SO I ASK HER WHAT SHE WAS PLANNING ON DOING SO SHE SPOKE THAT HER PATIENT TOLD HER THAT SHE CAN HAVE ONE OF HIS CHECK AND WRITE FOR HOW MUCH SHE WANTED SOSHE TOOK A COUPLE OF HIS CHECK AND SHE SAID MONIQUE WE GOING TOHAVE TO WRITE THE CHECK IN YOUR NAME AND I ASK HER WHY BUT SHE NEVER GIVE ME A STRAIGHT UP ANSWER SO IT WAS ABOUT THREE DIFFERENT PLACES WE WENT AND NONE OF THEM WANTED TO CASHTHE CHECK SO I WENT BACK TO THE HOUSE AND TOLD HER AND SHE SAID OKAY AFTER THAT I THOUGH THAT SHE GIVE UP TRYING BUT SHE WENT BEHIND MY BACK AND WENT CASH THE CHECK SO ME AS YOUNG I WAS I DIDN’T THANK ANYTHING OF IT UNTIL A COUPLE YEARS LATER WHEN TWO OF MY EX-BOYFRIEND CAME VISIT ME IN THE SHELTER SO I ASK THEM WHAT THEY WANTED AND THEY SPOKE TO ME [MONIQUE]THAT’S FUCK UP HOW YOU LET YOUR SISTER GO TO JAIL FOR SOMETHING THAT
  8. 8. YOU DID,AND MY REPLY TO THEM WHAT ARE YALL TALKING ABOUT AND THEY SPOKE THAT SHE WENT TO JAIL FOR FORGERY OF A CHECK THAT I STOLED BUT I NEVER WORK AT A NURSERY HOME SO I TOLD THEM IDON’T KNOW WHAT KIND OF LIE SHE TOLD THEM BUT IT WAS A LIE SO AS TIME WENT BY I GOT TIRED LIVING IN THE SHELTER WITH MY KIDS SOMY SISTER ASK ME TO COME BACK AND STAY WITH HER ME BEING YOUNG AND STUPID I WENT BACK BY HER AND MISS OUT OF GETTING MY OWN PLACE FOR ME AND MY CHILDRE N.SO A CLOSE FRIEND HER INTRODUCEHER TO A MAN THAT SHE MET AT A HOTEL WHERE SHE WAS WORKING SO THEY KICK IT AND THEY DECIDE TO MOVE TO A DIFFERENT PARISHBECAUSE WHERE IM FROM THEY CALLED IT PARISH NOT COUNTY.WE ALLTHOUGH THAT HE WAS A GOOD MAN BECAUSE THAT WHAT IT SEEM TO US LIKE HE WAS A DOWN TO EARTH MAN BUT AFTER A FEW MONTHS HIS DARK SIDE CAME OUT BECAUSE COME TO FIND OUT THAT HE WAS ON DRUGS REAL BAD (CRACK COCAINE)AND I TOLD ME SISTER IN SO MANY WAYS THAT SHE NEEDED TO LEAVE HIM ALONE BECAUSE THE ONLY THING HE WAS DOING IS BRINGING HER JOB BECAUSE MY SISTER NEVERDEPEND ON A MAN AFTER SHE DIVORCE HER HUSBAND BECAUSE SHE GOTOUT THERE AND WORK FOR EVERYTHING SHE EVERY WANTED AND HELP OTHER PEOPLE AROUND HER IF THEY NEEDED HER HELP,FOR SOME REASON SHE LET THAT MAN BRING HER DOWN BECAUSE SHE DIDN’T WANT TO WORK OR ANYTHING BECAUSE MY SISTER KEPT A CAR AND ALL.SO ON A REGULAR BASIC THEY WAS GETTING INTO ARGUMENT AND FIGHTS IN FRONT OF HER CHILDREN AND THEN HE USE TO GET THERE AND DISRESPECT HER CHILDREN BY CALLING THEM BITCHES AND MUTHERFUCKER AND I TOLD HER THAT SHE SHOULD WANT BETTER FORHER AND HER KIDS BECAUSE SHE DIDN’T STAND UP FOR HER KIDS LIKE A MOTHER SHOULD BECAUSE I KNOW IF THAT WAS ME HED WOULD NOT DISRESPECT MY KIDS LIKE THAT BECAUSE MY GRANDPARENTS ALWAYS TOLD ME IF YOU WANT RESPECT YOU MUST GIVE IT TO RCEIVE IT SO I CARRIED THAT THROUGH OUT LIFE BECAUSE THAT’S THE RIGHT THING TO DO.SO AFTER I WENT THROUGH ALL THE BULLSHIT WITH MY SISTER AND HER BOYFRIEND MY BROTHER THAT’S UNDER ME HE CAM E TOO ME AND SAID [MONIQUE ]THAT’S ENOUGH BECAUSE YOU DON’T HAVE TO GO THROUGH THAT BULLSHIT WITH THEM SO I PACK UP ME AND MY CHILDREN STUFF AND GOT THE HELL ON BECAUSE SHE WAS TREATINGME AND MY CHILDREN LIKE HER STEP KIDS AND I COULDN’T SIT AROUND NO MORE AND LET HER AND HER BOYFRTRIEND MISTREAT ME AND MYKIDS ANY MORE.SO ONCE I PACK UP MY STUFF I WENT AND LIVE WITH MY BROTHER AND HIS WIFE AND IT WAS OKAY,UNTIL I REALLY GOT TO SEE
  9. 9. WHATKIND OF PERSON SHE WAS ,THEY LIVE VERY NASTY AND IM A TYPE OFWOMAN THAT I CANT LIVE IN THAT TYPE OF LIFESTYLE BECAUSE I LIKE A CLEAN HOUSE NOT A NASTY HOUSE BECAUSE THAT’S HOW MYMOTHER RAISE ME TOBECLEAN NOT NASTY BECAUSE A MAN DON’T LIKE A NASTY HOUSE AT ALL,SO AFTER A FEW MONTHS LIVING WITH MY BROTHER MY OLDEST DAUGHTER WENT TO THESTORE WITH HERAND SISTER AND GOT INTO A ACCIDENT WHERE SHE GOT HIT BY TWO CARS THE FIRST CAR THAT HIT HER JUST HAD BROKE HER PELVIS BONE BUT THE SECOND CAR LEFT MY CHILD FOR DEAD BECAUSE HE DRUG HER TWO HUNDRED FEET BUT THEY SAID JUST PICTURE A FOOTBALL FIELD AND WHEN UPON ARRIVE THE FIRST QUESTION THAT CAME OUT MY MOUTH TO THE DOCTOR WAS SHE GOING TO BE OKAY AND HIS REPLY WAS TO MEI CANT MAKE YOU ANY PROMISE BECAUSE SHE HAD WENT IN A COMA ANDI COULDN’T DO NOTHING BUT CRIED BECAUSE THE FIRST HO SPITAL THEY TOOK HER TOO DIDN’T HAVE THE RIGHT EQUIPMENT FOR HER BECAUSE SHE WAS ONLY SIX YEARS OLD BUT MY OTHER DAUGHTER DIDN’T GET HURT AT ALL SO THAT WAS A GOOD THING BUT EVERYBODY WAS AT THEHOSPITAL BUT WE WASN’T THERE FOR LONG BECAUSE THE DOCTORLET ME IN THERE TO SEE HER BUT THEY TOLD ME THAT I HAD TO HURRY AND GET OUT AND MY BROTHER TOLD ME THAT IT WAS GOING TO BE ALRIGHT BECAUSE WHEN HE ARRIVE ON THE SCENE OF THE ACCIDENT AND PULL THE PARAMEDIC DOOR WIDE UP BECAUSE HE KNEW THAT HIS NIECE WAS HURT REAL BAD SO I HAD TO TELL HIM TO LET US GOBECAUSE THEY NEEDED TO GET HER TO THE EMERGENCY QUICKLY SO WE GOT HER THERE BUIT THEN HAD TO RUSH HER TO CHILDREN HOSPITAL BECAUSE THEY HAD ALL THE RIGHT EQUIPMENT FOR HER AND IT WAS REALLY HEART BROKEN TO SEE MY CHILD LYING THERE IN THE BED AND SHE DIDN’T KNOW WHO I WAS BUT KNEW WHO MY BROTHER WAS BUTTHAT’S WAS A GOOD THING BECAUSE AT LEAST SHE KNEW SOME BODY IN THE FAMILY SO AFTER A FEW DAYS LATER SHE CAME AROUND.SHE WAS SO HURT BECAUSE SHE THOUGH THAT IT WAS FAUL T AND LIKE I TOLD HER NO IT WASN’T HER FAULT SHE WAS HURT BECAUSE AHE HAD TO LEARN TO WALK ALL OVER AGAIN BECAUSE SHE WAS IN A WHEEL CHAIR AND HAD TO GET IN A WHIRLPOOL;BECAUSE HE HAD LEFT HER WITH A LOT OF MARKS ON HER BODY AND I TOLD HER NO MORE WHAT SH E WILLALWAYS BE BEAUTIFUL NO MATTER WHAT ANYBODY SAY.SO YES SHE WAS IN THE HOSPITAL FOR WHOLE MONTH AND A HALF.YES THROUGH ALL THAT MUST I SAY THAT I WAS SEVEN MONTHS PREGNANT WITH MY LAST SON,SO IT WAS VERY HARD FOR ME BECAUSE I HAD FOUR OTHER KIDS HOME THAT I HAD TO GO HOME AND CHECK ON THEM BECAUSE THEY
  10. 10. WAS HOME WITH MY SISTER AND HER TWO KIDS BUT SHE REALLY DIDN’T MIND BECAUSE SHE WAS HELPING ME OUT WITH THEM.WHEN MY DAUGHTER GOT TO THE UNDERSTANDING OF WHAT HAPPEN TO HER SHEHAD A LOT OF QUESTION FOR ME AND I GOT THERE AND EXPLAIN TO HER AS MUCH AS I COULD AND WHEN IT WAS TIME FOR COURT AND SHE SAW THE MAN FOR A TIME SHE ASK ME MOMMA IS THAT THE MAN THAT HIT ME AND KEPT GOING AND I TOLD HER YES,AND SHE CAME BACK AND ASK ME WHY DID HE DO THAT TO HER AND I SAID BABY MOMMA REALLY COULD TELL YOU BECAUSE I KNOW THAT HE WAS HAVING SOME KIND OF NIGHTMARE BECAUSE WHEN HE FIRST SAW HER HE COULDN’T LOOK HER WAY BECAUSE HE KNEW THAT HE DID WRONG AND THAT MY CHILDCOULD HAVE DIED FROM HER INJURY BUT BY THE GRACE OF GOD HE LEFT HER IN THE WORLD WITH HER LOVE ONES,AND I WAS TRULY HAPPYWHEN SHE WAS ABLE TO DO WHAT NORMAL KIDS COULD DO.SO I SAY THAT ARE SOME GOOD PEOPLE OUT HERE IN THE WORLD BUT YOU MUST BE REAL CAREFUL OF HOW YOU TREAT A PERSON BECAUSE YOU DON’T KNOW WHO YOU GOING TO NEED.AFTER MY SON TURNED NINE MONTHS AND THIS MAN CAME INTO ME AND MY CHILDREN LIFE BUT AT FIRST I WASN’T INTERESTED BECAUSE I KNEW WHAT MY SISTER BOYFRIEND WAS TRYING TO DO BECAUSE EVERYTIME HE MET SOMEONE AT WORK AND HE WILL BRING THEM TO THE HOUSE TRYING TO SET ME UP WITH THEM ,SO HE PROBABLY WAS AT THE HOUSE ABOUT FOUR MONTHS BEFORE WE DECIDE TO DO ANYTHING SO I GOT TO KNOWINGHIM AND HE WAS A VERY LOVELY MAN THAT I EVER MET IN A LONG,LONG TIME.SO HE START TAKING ME OUT TO SHOW ME A GOOD TIME AND WHEN HE DID TOOK ME OUT HE PAID MY SISTER FOR WATCHING MY CHILDREN.SO WE GOT ALONG REAL GOOD SO WE START DATING AND THEN LIKE LIKE TWO MONTHS IN THE RELATIONSHIP,WE WAS AT THEHOUSE TAKING A NAP SO ON THIS THURSDAY ATERNOON MY NIECE CAME HOME FROM SCHOOL AND KNOCK ON MY ROOM DOOR AND SAID AUNTIEMONIQUE IT’S A WHITE MAN AT THE DOCTOR WANT YOU AND I REPLY TOHER GIRL DON’T BE COME CALLING ME FOR SOME WHITEIT MIGHT BE THE COP,AND IT WAS THE MUTHERFUCKER BOUNTY HUNTER I COULDN’T DO NOTHING BUT PUT MY HAND BEHJND MY BACK AND HE REPLY AND SAID BABY SINCE YOU ARE BEING SO NICE ABOUT IT YOU CAN PUT YOUR HANDIN THE FRONT SO HE TOOK ME ON IN FOR JUMPING BOND BECAUSE I LEFTONE PARISH AND WENT TO ANOTHER PARISH AND LIVED. BUT THERE AREPEOPLE OUT HERE THANKING THAT THEY CAN BEATING THE LAW THAT’S A LIED BECAUSE IT’S A TRUE SAYING YOU CAN RUN BUT YOU CANT HIDE FOREVER BECAUSE YOU WILL HAVE TO COME OUT FOR SOME KIND OF
  11. 11. REASON.I STOOD IN JAIL FOR TWO MONTHS AND I PRETTY MUCH C RIED EVERYDAY BECAUSE I HAD MISS MY CHILDREN SO MUCH AND I COULDN’T SEE OR WHOLE THEM,AND THEN I HAD A NINE MONTH OS SON BACK AT THE HOUSE.SO WHEN I DID FINALLY GOT OUT OF JAIL MY SON DIDN’T EVEN KNOW WHO I WAS AND THAT HAD HURTED A LOT. AFTER A FEW DAYS THAT’S WHEN HE REMEMBER WHO I WAS SO ONCE I GOT OUT OF JAIL I FOUND OUT THAT MY BOYFRIEND NO LONGER LIVED WITH MY SISTER AND HER BOYFRIEND NO MORE AND THE REASON WAS BECAUSE HE WAS S BEING VERY RUDE WHERE HE DIDN’T HAVE RESPECT FOR HIMBECAUSE MY BOYFRIEND WORK AT NIGHT SO THAT MEAN MY SISTER HAD MY KIDS AT NIGHT WHY HE WAS AT WORK BECAUSE HE TRIED HE BESTTO GET ME OUT OF JAIL BUT MY BROTHER WIFE AT THAT TIME TOLD THE PEOPLE AT THAT TIME THAT MY BOYFRIEND DIDN’T LIVE IN NEW ORLEANS THAT HE LIVED IN MOBILE ALABAMA,BUT IT WAS TRUE THAT HE FROM ALABAMA BUT HE HAD MOVE TO NEW ORLEANS BECAUSE THAT’S WHERE HE WAS WORKING,SO SHE MESS THAT UP FOR ME AND I HAD TO STAY IN JAIL UNTIL IT WAS TIME FOR ME TO GO TO COURT,BUT I DID KNEW THAT HE TRIED REAL HARD TO GET ME OUT SO I COULDN’TGET MAD AT HIM BUT MY BROTHER WAS VERY UPSET BECAUSE HE DIDN’T WANT ME IN THAT PLACE EITHER BECAUSE I WASN’T THERE TO TAKECARE OF MY SIX CHILDREN AND I WAS MISSING MY CHILDREN VERY MUCHBECAUSE I WASN’T USE OF NOT BEING AROUND MY KIDS,BECAUS E WHEN I WAS WOKE UPIN THE MORNING I WAS ABLE TO GET MY CHILDREN UP IN THE MORNING AND GOT THEM READY FOR SCHOOL BEC AUSE I KNEW THAT IT WAS MY JOB AS A MOTHER TO MAKE SURE THAT THEY GOT UP INTHE MORNING AND YES I WAS MISSING THAT A LOT BECAUSE I FELT LIK EI WASN’T DOING MY JOB AS A MOTHER BECAUSE ANYBODY THAT GOT KIDS KNOW THAT LONG AS THEY HAVE CHILDREN THEY JOB NEVER STOP OR END.THAT WASN’T A DAY THAT I NEVER THOUGH ABOUT MY CHILDREN BECAUSE I CRIED EVERYDAY FOR MY CHILDREN CAUSE I KNEW THAT MY KIDS HAD MISS THEY MOTHER,WHAT HURTED THE MOST IS WHEN MY SISTER LET HER BOYFRIEND TRIED TO DOG MY KIDS OUT BY TELLING THEM LIES ABOUT ME NOT LOVING THEM BUT TO TOP IT ALL THEY HAD THE NERVES TO CALL DHR ON ME SAYING THAT I WAS LEAVING MY CHILDREN IN THE HOUSE BY THEY SELF AND I THOUGH THAT MY SISTER WOULD NEVER DO ANYTHING LIKE THAT BUT I CAN TELL Y’ALL LADIES AND MEN SOMETIME YOUR FAMILY PEOPLE CAN BE YOUR WORST ENEMY BECAUSE I HAD TO FIND THIS OUT THE HARD WAY BECAUSE I THOUGH THAT MY SISTER WOULD NEVER DO ANYTHING LIKE THAT BUT COME TO FIND OUT IT WAS TRUE,SO PICTURE YOURSELF AS A PARENT TO HEAR
  12. 12. YOUR CHILDREN COME AND TELL YOU THAT YOUR SISTERCALLED CHILDPROTECTION ON YOU AND TELLING THEM SOME LIES.SO ONCE ALL TRHAT HGAPPEN I KNEW THEN THAT IT WAS TIME FOR ME TO GET FROM AROUND THEM BECAUSE I HAD NEEDED TO PROTECT MY KIDS MUCH CLOSE THAN I WAS BECAUSE I SEE THAT IT WAS PEOPLE OUT THERE TRYING TO HURT ME AND MY KIDS THAT I BROUGHT INTO THIS WORLD AND I WASN’T GOING TO LET ANYONE HURT ME OR THEM ANYMORE. SO ONCE I LEFT NEW ORLEANS MY BOYFRIEND HAD GOT HIM A JOB IN MISSISSIPPI AND I STOOD THERE WITH HIM FOR A COUPLE OF WEEKS AND THEN I WENT BACK TO NEW ORLEANS BECAUSE THE JOB HAD RAN OUT SO THAT’S WHEN HE WENT TO PANAMA CITY AND GOT A JOB THERE AND WHEN I GOT THERE I JUST THOUGH LIKE OKAY IM ON TOP OF THE WORLD NOW BECAUSE IM IN PEACE,SO AFTER BEING THERE FOR A FEW MONTHS I HAD WENT AND GOT A JOB AND I LIKED MY JOB AND MY KIDS WAS IN SCHOOL AND DAY CARE BUT I DIDN’T HAVE ALL MY KIDS I HAD ONLY FOUR OF THE SIX.BUT THE WORST OF ALL THAT ON MY SIXTEENBIRTHDAY MY BIOLICAL FATHER GOT IN THE BED WITH ME AND IT FREAK ME OUT SO THAT’S WHEN I GOT OUT AND WHEN CALLED HIS GIRLFRIEND.IT HAD GOT SO BAD WHERE WE HAD TO CALLED THE POLICE AND THEY ASK ME DID MY FATHER TRIED ANYTHIN G WITH ME AND I TOLD THEM NO BECAUSE WHEN I REALIZE THAT IT WAS HIM I JUMP OUT THE BED BECAUSE DOING THAT TIME MY DAD WAS A VERY HARD DRANKER.WHEN I WAS GROWING UP I DIDN’T HAVE A NORMAL CHILDLIFE BECAUSE IT WAS SO MUCH OF BAD THING WAS HAPPEN TO ME WITHMY FAMILY,DON’T GET ME WRONG I LOVE MY FAMILY JUST LIKE ANYBODY ELSE I HAD ALWAYS WANT TO BE A FAMILY PERSON SO WHEN THE WEEKEND CAME AROUND I HAD WANTED TO DO THING AS A FAMILY BUT MY FAMILY WASN’T THAT CLOSE TO HAVE FAMILY GATHERING,LIKE OTHER FAMILY PEOPLE THAT I SEE.SO AFTER ME AND MY KIDS LEFT PANAMA CITY FLORIDA THAT’S WHEN MY FIANCE’ LEFT AND WENT TO TAMPA FLORIDA BUT ME AND THE KIDS STOOD WHEN LEFT TO GO TOTAMPA E SEND THE COORNIDATOR OF HIS JOB TO COME AND GET ME AND THE KIDS ,SO WHEN I GOT TO TAMPA I KNEW RIGHT THEN I WASN’T GOING TO LIKE BECAUSE WHERE WE WAS LIVING IN A DRUG AREA,AFTERI GOT ADJUSTED TO THE AREA THAT’S WHEN THE TRUTH CAME OUT WITH MY FIANCE BECAUSE AT TIME HE GOT PAID HE DIDN’T EVEN CAME HOMESOME TIME UNTIL THE NEXT MORNING AND I WAS LIKE WHERE THE HELL YOU BEEN AT NIGHT SO LADIES YALL KNOW WHAT I WAS THANKIN LIKE WHERE THE FUCK YOU BEEN AT ALL NIGHT FIRST THING CAME OUT HIS MOUTH THAT HE GOT DRUNK AND FELL TO SLEEP BUT I DIDN’T BELIEVE
  13. 13. IT BECAUSE I WAS DURING SOME SEARCHING ARO UND,BECAUSE I HAD A FUNNY FEELING THAT HE WAS ON DRUGS AND IT WAS TRUE BECAUSE I WAS WONDERING WHY HE COULDN’T PERFOM LIKE HE USE TO BE WHEN WE FIRST MET,EVERYTIME I TRIED TO LEAVE HE WOULDN’T LET ME SO I HAD START MESSING AROUND ON HIM WITH A YOUNGER GUY, SO ME ANDTHE GUY WHEN KICKING IT I MET HIS MOMMY HIS STEPDAD AND SISTER I WANTED SAY THAT IT WAS ABOUT AA GOOD SIX MONTH TILL A YEARBEFORE MY HUSBAND FOUND OUT THAT I WAS MESSING AROUND ON HIM BUT WHEN HE CAUGHT ME AND THE GUY TOGETHER WE WASN’T DOING NOTHING BUT TALKING AND HE HAD ASSUME THE WORST AT THAT TIMEBECAUSE WE HAVENT DID ANYTHING SO AFTER I WAS IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH GUY I FOUND MYSELF ON DRUG AND IT WAS COCAINE BUT EVERYONE THOUGH THAT HE GOT ME ON COCAINE BUT HE DIDN’T BECAUSE HE NAPPEN TO BE AT MY HOUSE ONE NIGHTN AFTER MY HUSBAND WALKING OUT ON ME BECAUSE WHAT HE SAW BUT IT WASN’TNOTHING SERIOUS BUT THAT’S HOW HE FELT SO I SAID FUCK IT BECAUSE HE COULD HAVE HANDLE THAT SITUATION WAY BETTER THAN THAT SO HE CAME BACK TO ALABAMA AND FEED HIS FAMILY MEMBERS A WHOLE BUNCH OF LIES,BUT IT REALLY DIDN’T BOTHER ME BECAUSE I KNEW THAT IT WASN’T NOTHING BE TOLD BUT I LOOK AT LIKE THIS IF HE WOULDN’T HAVE BEEN OUT THERE ON DRUGS LIKE HE WAS SUPPOSE IT WOULDN’T NEVER TURNED OUT LIKE THAT. BECAUSE WHAT I LOT OF FEMALE SIT THERE AND BELIEVE THEY HUSBAND OR FIANCE WHATEVER LIED THEY FEED TO THEM BUT I LOOK AT IT LIKE THIS IF YOUR MANSTAYED OUT ALL IS THAT HE EITHER CHEATING ON HE ON DRUGS BUT ITS WAYS THAT YOU CAN FIND OUT WHETHER IF HE ON DRUGS BECAUSE YOUR WHOLE SEX LIFE WILL CHANGED,SO LADIES PLEASE BE ALERT OF YOUR RELATIONSHIP BECAUSE I SEE A LOT OF MY YOUNG BLACK FEMALE FALL IN LOVE WITH THESE GUYS THAT THEY THANK THEY GOING TO BE TOGETHER FOREVER BUT ONCE THEY GET GOOD IN THAT RELATIONSHIPWATCH HOW HE CHANGE ON YOU AND GOING TO WANT YOU TO DO WHATHE SAY TO DO AND THEN WE DON’T THAT’S WHEN HE GET TO THE POINT WHERE HE GOING TO START BEATING ON YOU AND THEN AT FIRST YOU SIT THERE AND ALLOWED IT TO HAPPEN BECAUSE THE ONLY THING YOU GOING TO DO IS SIT THERE AND SAY STOP I KNOW THIS BECAUSE ITHAPPEN TO ME SO AFTER I GOT TIRED OF BEING HE PUNCHING BAG AND I SAID TO MYSELF AND I DON’T NEED THIS AND I DESERVE SOMETHING BETTER ,SO I GOT MY THINGS AND LEFT BECAUSE JUST SITTING THERE AND LET SOMEONE MJSTREAT YOU WHETHER IF ITS PHYSICAL OR EMOTIONAL ITS ABUSE AND AS A WOMAN YOU SHOULD ALWAYS HAVE
  14. 14. HIGH STANDARD FOR YOURSELF BECAUSE IT WILL TAKE YOU A LONG WAYWHEN YOU WANT SOMETHING IN LIFE,BECAUSE THAT’S NOT A DAY GO BY AND I SAY TOMYSELF I WANT HIGH STANDARD BEC AUSE THAT’S ARE MY DREAM AS A YOUNG BLACK FEMALE WITH SIX CHILDREN THAT I WANT THEMTO HAVE HIGH STANDARD.BY TIME I WAS THIRTY-SIX I HAD SIX GRANDKIDS IT WAS THEY MOST WONDERFUL THING I COLUD EXPERIENCE ;BUT THEN I LOST MY GRANDDAUGHTER WHEN SHE WASALWAYS THREE MONTHS AND IT SEEM LIKE MY LIFE CAME TO A STOP FOR A MINUTE BUT I KNOW I COULDN’T CONTINUE ON THANKING OR LIVINGLIFE BECAUSE I HAD OTHER GRANDKIDS TO LIVE FOR AND THAT NEEDED ME SO I CAN LIVE TO SEE THEM GROW UP AS DAY GO BY OR WHEN GOD WAS READY FOR ME TO COME ON HOME.THROUGH OUT LIFE I HAD EXPERIENCE AND WENT THROUGH SOME BAD THING IN LIFE BUT IDIDN’T GIVE UP BECAUSE I WASN’T GOING TO LET ANYONE TAKEAWAY MY JOY THAT I HAVE IN LIFE SO I PRAYED EVERYDAY AND ASK FOR GUIDENESS.YES YOU WILL HAVE SOME UPS AND DOWN BUT LIFE JUSTDON’T STOP AT THAT POINT INLIFE BECAUSE PUTS EVRYONE HERE FOR AREASON SO HE KNOWS WHEN YOUR LIFE WILL COME TO AND END THAT’S NOT YOURS OR ANYBODY ELSE ,BECAUSE SOME OF US IS HEAR FOR A SHORT PERIOD OF TIME AND SOME IS HEAR LONG ER.BUT THERE ARE SOME WONDRFUL PEOPLE OUT THERE AND SOME ARE NOT.BUT LIVING LIFE IS MOST THE MOST WONDERFUL EXPERIENCE ,SOME TO ALL MYPEOPLE DON’T TAKE LIFE FOR GRANTED BECAUSE YOUR LIFE SHOULD BE PRECIOUS.SO THROUGH ALL THE DAYS ALL MY LIFE BY TIME I WAS TWENTY I HAVE TRAVELED PRETTY MUCH ACROSS THE SOUTH PART OF THE STATE THE ONLY STATE I HAVENT BEEN WAS TEXAS, ARKANAS BUT EVERYWHERE ELSE I HAVE BETWEEN MY CHILDREN FATHER AND HUSBAND THAT HOW I GOT TO SEE THAT PART OF THE SOUTH.BUT BACK TO MY YOUNG SISTER PLEASE BE CAREFUL OF WHO YOU GET INVOLVE IN BECAUSE SOMETIME IT CAN BE THE WRONG ONE BUT AT THAT SAME TIME IT CAN BE YOUR LAST RELATIONSHIP FOR YOU AND THE LAST FOR YOUR FAMILY TO HAVE WITH YOU. I HAVE MOVE SO MUCH IN MY LIFE WITH MY CHILDREN BUT I HAVE LEARNED SO MUCH AS MOVING FROMDIFFERENT I PRETTY MUCH MOVE THROUGH OUT THE SOUTH I CANT SAY THAT ALL WAS GOOD BECAUSE IT WASN’T BUT I MANAGER THROUGH SOME OF IT BEC AUSE THERE WAS TIME WHERE I WANTED TO TAKE MY LIFE BUT SOMETHING KEPT TELLING ME DON’T DO IT BECAUSE OF MY CHILDREN THAT I HAD TO THANK OF BECAUSE I WAS LIVING FOR MYCHILDREN NOT MY SELF ANY MORE.SO I TURNED MY LIFE AROUND A LOT BECAUSE I HAD A LOT OF HATE INSIDE OF ME FOR DIFFERENT PEOPLE
  15. 15. BECAUSE I THOUGH THAT EVERYBODY WAS OUT TO HURT M E BUT SOME PEOPLE WAS OUT TO HELP ME AND I GOT HELP FROM A LOT OF PEOPLEAND I KNOW THAT I DIDN’T THANK THEM IN PERSON BUT I PRAY TO MY GOD AND SPOKE THAT I WAS GRACEFUL FOR ALL THE HELP AND LOVE THAT PEOPLE WAS HELPING ME WITH MY KIDS BECAUSE WHEN I WAS TRYING TO GET HELP FROM THE CHILDREN DADDY OR MY FAMILYPEOPLE I COULDN’T GET ANY HELP BUT I KEPT STRU GGLING LIKE I BEENDOING BECAUSE I KNOW THAT GOD WAS GOING TO SEND A BLESSING MY WAY..SO

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