my dearest ryan i hope you enjoy this… with love, hazel

even though i thought boys were gross and told you I wasn’t filipino… you always talked to me and it was the beginning of something beautiful…

after 3 rd grade, we never really talked a lot but somehow, someway out of 100 students, we managed to stand next to each other In our 5 th grade panoramic picture… it’s fate

the years passed and you were one of my closest friends… i remember we would tell each other how much we liked other people and how we were failing at trying to get with them… i remember liking you so much but i couldn’t say anything because you were OBSESSED with someone else and i didn’t want to ruin our friendship… i remember you consoling me after my first breakup and realizing the feelings I had never went away… i remember when i was nervous for the dance show, you offered to bring me water afterwards and you assured me i would do well i remember how we were so shy when we were around each other but online we could talk for days i remember you giving me the poem and running away and leaving me with butterflies in my tummy

the first year: the beginning

Even though I had doubts that we weren’t going to last & you were too shy to hold my hand or kiss me… it was all worth it…

such young love…

the second year: the honeymoon is over

i still can’t get over how both of these pictures were unplanned & in each, one is smiling & the other is making a silly face…. … proves my theory- we`re two halves that make a perfect whole… R H

the third year: the drama

although these past five months have been horrible and we have tried to move on without each other… it`s just not the same without you in my life… we`re a WHOLE and when one half leaves, it just leaves a hole in our once whole heart

i`ve done some really stupid things, ahememailahem, and i`ve said a lot of hurtful things. it`s just hard to say i`m sorry…

everything i said last night i meant it… being with you on friday helped me realize how much i really loved you & missed you…i still can`t put into words why i will never be able to forget you or let you go… maybe it’s because even when i`m crying my heart out, you always manage to make me laugh maybe it’s because you’ve helped me grow up and live my life differently maybe it’s because you can point out my flaws and you still love me as much as you did before maybe it’s because other than three people in this world, you know ALL of my secrets and I can tell you anything maybe it’s because you make me feel safe & secure…

in any case…. I love you But now its up to you….

i wanna know why this feels so right i wanna know why you hold me tight

each and every night, it keeps me up all night thinkin about the things i like

can't believe you’re in my life i wanna know why you’re the one

God sent you straight to me the things that they should have you've already done you make me wanna sing lalalalala

but when you look at me, do you see your wife? Can you picture us lovin' each other for life?

are you playin' the role, just like the rest these are the questions that i ask myself

if, another should come, who's finer than me and she wanna take your love away, would you leave?

baby, please answer these questions

and finally... this song explains (better than i could) how i feel about you… sorry it’s in tagalog…

kulang ang bawat sandali kung di kapiling ka bakit ba sa pagiisa? hanap hanap kita

ayokong mangyari na sa piling ko'y mawalay ka ikaw lang palagi at wala na ngang iba

ang puso ko, ang isip ko ang buhay ko'y para sayo at hindi kailanman ako sayo magbabago

maglalaho itong mundo ngunit di ang pag-ibig ko ganyan ka, kamahal at siyang lahat sa buhay ko

THE END