First off, I only started reading the Twilight series AFTER I'd seen the movie, then I actually read Stephanie Meyer's Midnight Sun on her website before entering into the series. Perhaps it's because I came at this from a different order, but I feel that reading Edward's perspective of the love story between Bella and himself put some of the missing puzzles together. To be quite honest, I enjoyed reading from Edward's perspective much more than Bella's and I sincerely hope that she will finish Midnight Sun someday. But back to the critique...
I think Stephanie Meyer did a fantastic job capturing the internal struggles that Bella faced with the decision of choosing Edward vs. Jacob. Although she loved Jacob, he would never fulfill her heart the way that Edward would. He was her soulmate, her reason for existence, she could not live without him. And although she loved Jacob and could envision the life (the normal life) that she might have had with Jacob, if she had chosen him, she would always been left wanting for more. Although she was heartbroken and in pain after she'd told Jacob her final decision, that pain was miles away in comparison to the months and months of torment that Edward's disappearance had done to her. She would be sad, hurt, but that type of pain that leaving Jacob would cause her is not the type that would leave her in a lifeless state. She understood herself and that is why she KNEW that being without Edward was unbearable, but being without Jacob would be hard, but she could endure. It's like when the first love ended, even though you find love again and could be happy, that first love will always hold a special place for you. For Bella, Edward was her first and one true love. The one that she knew she could not live without. It was a pure, innocent love that only a first love could be. With Jacob, her love was more of an "adult love." Not as fervent, not as crazed, it was a practical and realistic love, but it wasn't the life or death type of love she shared with Edward. It could be something that eventually made her happy, but it would be a type of happiness that would leave yearnings.
I'd read many reviews before I borrowed this book to read. I found that many readers found the way that Edward seemed to have lost his "cockiness, arrogance, and edge" to be repulsive and was one of the many critiques that were thrown at Meyer's writing skill. I believe if the readers got a chance to read Midnight Sun and understand Edward's perspective (even though that work is far from complete and certainly doesn't even cover contents of Twilight entirely), it would make much more sense as to why Edward would act the way he does, putting up with everything that Bella would throw at him and allowing her find out how she felt about Jacob. Edward never felt he could deserve her, even from the very beginning when he realized he loved her. Just as she never felt good enough for him, he never felt good enough for her. I do not agree that Meyer seemed to be pitting Bella's 2 loves against each other in this battle of who loves Bella more. Both men are willing to do step back and accept whomever she chooses, in that way they are both honorable. But I did not feel that Bella was going back and forth trying to figure out who loved her more, she knew they both loved her unselfishly, to the extent that she did not deserve, but it was only at the end that Bella realized she did love Jacob as well, but not in the way that she would always love Edward. She had closed herself off to that possibility because Jacob represented everything that she would give up when she decided to join Edward and if she allowed herself to understand that, she could feel hesitant in her decision. Since she cannot live without Edward, the love of her entire existence, giving up Jacob was something that she knew she could and had to live with.
less
0 comments
Post a comment